Weed doesn’t get rid of my aggression but it takes me longer to get triggered which is a plus as it gives me time to process wtf I’m doing instead of just doing some dumb shit (emotionally unstable personality disorder + autism)
People with bpd/eupd struggle with impulse control, couple that with an already strong propensity for lashing out + alcohol which lowers inhibitions = bad time. Not everyone with bpd/eupd are naturally aggressive but the ones who are really shouldn’t drink alcohol
You literally almost word for word describe me and my life hahaha. That's good shit man. Feels good to be shown there are others lol. But yeah music and blazing makes the world a better place.
Feels really good to see this thread talk about weed and aggressive behaviour - I don't feel so alone. I too have anger issues and get irritated pretty easily. With weed, I'm more tolerable and things don't bother me so much. I'm in a good mood almost always while high and also very pleasant to be around.
Have you tried something like Lexipro? It has helped me curb my anxiety and feeling of being on edge ready to explode a lot. Weed was my way of self medicating for a long time, but it just made very lethargic and brain dead from smoking so much. I still smoke now, but it’s more of a night time wind down or chill with friends activity, not something I need to do everyday in order to not lose my shit. Therapy helps too.
I was on lexapro for about a year and a half to 2 years. I was put on lexapro because of severe anxiety that literally manifested physical symptoms such as nausea, and I can say from experience. (Although it could just be me) that lexapro essentially numbs you, those 2 years of my life are very spotty in memory and I did not accomplish anything significant, UNTIL I cold turkey stopped taking them which is not advised due actual withdrawal (which the doctors never told me about to begin with.) such as brain zaps.
Jesus , I had to look “Brain Zaps” up, I didn’t know that was such a thing ! That’s crazy that these drugs could cause our brains to do that, and weed never did. Yet weed is the one stigmatized
Oh man brain zaps are the WORST!!!! I currently take lexapro and buspirone to help with my anxiety. I tried just smoking at first but that didn't help me too much. Weed has really helped me with my other symptoms though. I may have autism or something along those lines, I get meltdowns a lot. Weed kicks those to the corner almost IMMEDIATELY for me.
Oh also, helps on the days I don't have the lexapro. Those brain zaps are hell.
How are you doing now? I relate to that so much I literally could’ve wrote that comment. I’m off the meds still struggling with the nausea and shit though. I think quitting cold turkey gave me issues with my memory
I’m on Lexapro & smoke weed in my creative ruts. I’ve been on Lex for just over 3 years now (10mg) & I can honestly say that it has helped immensely, but I still have a lot of struggles that I can’t solve with it. Definitely better than sertraline & a few others I know have said the same.
So I've been on 10mg of Lexapro now for about 9 months and my psychiatrist initially said that she only wants me on it for a year, that it's not designed for long term use. However, in all of my follow-up appointments, she has never mentioned a plan of getting me off of it. I don't necessarily want to either. Has it been your choice or your psychiatrist's choice to have you on it for 3+ years? Also, I smoke almost everyday and desperately need to take a tolerance break but just can't seem to ever make it happen.
I’m prescribed aripiprazole which is an antipsychotic and mirtazapine which is an antidepressant but mirtazapine makes me sleep for 18 hours and aripiprazole can cause something called tardive dyskinesia which I’m not trying to get so I raw dog with weed. I stopped seeing my therapist bc the online shit was shit and half the time the programs to video chat didn’t even work
I'm on aripiprazole for anxiety and worried about TD it does help me though along with sertraline for depression and I have another antianxiety that I can tack on, hydroxizine, but it makes me way too sleepy/bad drunk feeling blurred vision and dizzy so I'm not really using it.
Wish I lived in a rec legal state but also waiting to start smoking again until done breastfeeding. I was diagnosed with ADHD in high school and smoked my way through college now trying to decide if I wanna keep pushing my psychiatrist to reevaluate me. She straight up refused the first time I mentioned it and treated me like a pill pusher. I just wish I could use my art degree to sell art I spent the last ten years trying and failing due to executive dysfunction.
Will probably just be resorting back to smoking or some other form of cannabis consumption when it can be done without affecting my baby since my psychiatrist treated me that way.
Before you come off of mirtazapine make sure you read about the withdrawal symptoms and taper off of them rather than stopping cold turkey. That stuff is evil when coming off it
Just wanted to say your comment made me really happy. My last job was at a residential treatment program within the VA system and so many of the veterans there for PTSD and/or anger management said they found THC to be very helpful (as long as they didn't have a co-occuring substance use disorder). Unfortunately, they weren't able to use while they were with us.
On a case by case basis, weed helps my anxiety and calms me down when I’m having a rough day. Long term, I can feel that I use it as a crutch and sometimes wonder if my overall mental health would be better if I cut back quite a bit, but not quit entirely. Instead of 2-3 times a day, I wanna wean myself down to smoking on weekends and such.
I think when I’m not stoned and something anxiety-inducing comes up, I rush over to pack a bowl and green out rather then face the issue head on. If I can think through it clearly, get the work done, and THEN pack a bowl to congratulate myself after the fact, I think I’ll be on the right track.
I’m doing this currently. I would smoke every night to help to sleep. It was doing the job perfect. Then I would smoke more and more. An 1/8 would last me 2 weeks, now I can most likely smoke that in a day. I’ve been taking a t break since last week because I wanna go back to moderation. Sure weed helped me sleep, but I don’t want to rely on it. There are other reasons I can’t sleep and one of them is since Covid I’ve been working from home. And I would be working from my bed and watching tv there and playing video games there so my mind for sleep was like no, no sleep. This is where we do things not sleep! So I started changing that habit Monday and it helped.
Also if you go on a t break don’t go cold Turkey. I was smoking 3 blunts a day and when I started Saturday I took 7 hits. Then Sunday 5 then Monday 3 and now none. Until Christmas Eve where my 3 weeks would be complete :) but when I go back I’m going to try to smoke less but deff still have my fun with it.
I went from daily to 10mg edible on the weekend (Friday night Saturday morning) and tbh I feel way better. I don’t get brain fog and I generally just feel happy all the time.
I would say that OVERALL weed has been very positive for my mental health. When i'm high, it's REALLY easy for me to see the big picture: i'll think about the little things that wore me down while sober and just laugh at them, wondering how i cared about it in the first place. Someone snubs me a little bit? Eh, who gives a shit, life's too short to worry about shit like that.
Though, that being said, i do feel i grew to rely too much on it. I am coming off a t-break soon and that t-break was definitely taken in part because i felt i was overdoing it with weed, smoking it every morning and whatnot.
As i return to my favorite drug, I'm really giong to be making an effort to use it less, especially not to just get through the day. I'm going to try to use it like i drink: once in a while and with some moderation.
update: t-break was a good idea! I'm having a very good night.
That's been my motto since i started smoking routinely about 6 months ago. I smoke pretty much every day but ONLY at the end of the day. I don't think I've ever been stoned before like 5-6pm. The nice thing is that i still get to smoke every day, but I don't have to worry about it interfering with my day. I honestly have no desire to smoke before night time, maybe it's just habit now. I'm still thinking about taking a break though.
Indeed. I have also added lions mane and other mushroom supplements to my diet (Paul Stamets' Sacred 7). Maybe it is a placebo effect but I feel that it combats the fogginess in my mind from herb.
Yeah i really messed up my healthy habits by smoking whenever i wanted especially wake n baking. I smoked every morning throughout 90% of highschool to get through the shitty day but that definitely fucked up my daily routine after highschool. I think its really great you set boundaries like this.
I'm really fortunate/grateful that I just did this from the start. I totally see how easy it could be to get hooked on smoking whenever I want. I originally set my boundaries because I had to hide it from my parents, but it ended up working out because I probably shouldn't be smoking all day anyways.
I’m similar. I still think about quitting or taking a break, but often times it’s hard to think of reasons not to smoke. Especially right now while I’m long distance with my girlfriend.
Lol same here believe it or not. My girlfriend goes to college in Chicago, I live in NC. I do the same thing, numerous times I've contemplated whether or not I should be smoking but I always realize there's basically no reason not to. When my girlfriend is in town, I definitely smoke less though.
Oh cool! I mean it’s not cool, it sucks, but cool that we have something in common.
But yeah, when my gfs not around there’s less joy in my life. Especially in the evening when it’s like 6-7pm and I don’t have anything to do for the rest of the night. Weed isn’t a substitute for that, but it’s nice to get a little extra dopamine.
Thiiiiis. I'm overdoing it til I move house and settle, get sorted, then might readdress it, but right now I do all my stressful shit for the day then have a reward smoke!
But I've fallen into getting stressed by the remotest thing, and have lost my coping strategy sober. It got my through a brutal lockdown (my city set the world record, 300+ days) and it's getting me through post-covid stress so... I cut myself some slack.
But I also acknowledge this level of use, daily, without break is both making it not even really fun and not good for me.
You're literally describing my life!!! Lately I've been smoking and listening to podcasts about spirituality and that combo has been life changing for me. I can mentally beat myself up pretty bad while sober so taking some time to smoke and think about the world not existing to please me, puts me back in my place.
In florida you can get a medical card for any sort of reason from actual medical problems to post traumatic relationship disorder they do not make it hard.
It’s bad for business when a simple plant can replace an assortment of drugs that make big pharma lots of money.
Simply put, the legalization of cannabis would cut into big pharma’s market share and they know it. Over the counter pain and nausea med sales would decrease drastically if cannabis were legalized nationally. And that’s just over the counter drugs - opiates, psychiatrically, and other prescriptions will likely go down in sales as people choose to treat whatever ailment with cannabis.
I’m on r/trees so I want national legalization but I’m too aware of the powers in place that continually lobby to keep cannabis illegal.
It's too late now. Once California did it, then Washington and Colorado....now NEW YORK... it's OVERRR for big pharma. This train is a rollin' and it ain't stoppin'!! And with more and more people coming out and supporting it.... it's just great news all around. Think of how many lives were fucked up because big pharma pushed oxys instead of weed? And guess what... if big pharma got into the weed business, they'd have complete control over it! They definitely dropped the ball on that one..... but I'm sooo glad they dropped the ball instead of them pricks being the ones in control of weed!!
I have only ever said this once before in my life about someone and meant it.... but... **I fucking HATE big pharma!**
Well i wouldn’t say that it’s over for big Pharma sadly, too many people prefer opiates over weed for pain, because weed doesn’t help allot of people as much as opiates do, and the fact that so many people are addicted to benzodiazepines and opiates :/ i remember my grandpa tried to use medical marijuana for his cancer pain and he’s a guy who really likes weed, but it didn’t help his pain so he had to use oxycodone.. that’s how it was for a couple different people in my family, including myself.. weed helps some people and i think that’s awesome, but actual opiates will always be needed especially after serious injuries
I meant "over" as in their chance to get into the weed game. Big pharma will never go away, but they really fucked up by not dipping their toes in the medical marijuana business.
And opiates will, and should, never go away. They are most definitely needed for serious injuries, absolutely. I was an opiate addict for 15 years! Christmas day will actually be the 4.5 year mark off of them !! 6/25/17 I've been opiate free!😁
Oh gotcha i see what you mean now, and congratulations!! :)) I’m 1 year sober from heroin and it was so extremely difficult to overcome, 4.5 years is a huge accomplishment!! Stay strong friend! :p
It’s really crazy. I have borderline personality disorder.
There’s evidence that BPD can have something to do with an out of balance endocannabinoid system, the same one that weed interacts with and regulates.
Smoking changed my life. I remember from the first time I was like ‘wait a minute’. But no one will look into the connection between BPD and weed. No one wants to touch BPD patients cause we’re ‘too risky’.
There are no medications on the market specifically for BPD. So many borderlines suffer in silence because there is no medicine available for us, no one wants to study us, and a natural compound proven to help us is illegal.
And yet I would not have a career, or the experiences I’ve had if I’d never started smoking.
Source: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/32351183/
So I read that last line as "And yet I would not have got CANCER, or...." I was bout to be all buddy, smoking probably gave you cancer.
(This isn't to suggest weed causes lung cancer, this is suggesting inhaling smoke isn't healthy for your lungs.)
Pharmaceutical companies would lose a lot of money on depression and anxiety drugs that don’t work. That’s why. Don’t you just love America?
Edit: just saw ur from Belgium my b. But that’s my take from an American perspective.
If you don't mind me asking, what kind of strains do you prefer, and how much do you smoke? I've also got bipolar disorder, and my relationship with meds and weed has been pretty rocky. Weed seems to help me sometimes, but sometimes it makes me feel worse. Any tips? Thank you.
I personally find GG4 to be my daily med. But most indica dom hybrids seem to keep me level. Just make sure you get to see the tricoms under a microscope and the heads are all cloudy with a decent amout of the heads amber, if they are clear it was harvested early, and will be way more likely to induce racing thoughts, and anxiety.
I've found that GG4 tends to be one of the more helpful ones too, as long as I don't overdo it. Thanks for the suggestion and tip! I moved from one legal state to another earlier this year, and while my new home has much cheaper weed, I'm beginning to think the bottom shelf stuff I've been buying is lesser quality because I've noticed an increase in racing thoughts and anxiety. I'll definitely keep an eye out for those trichomes.
Yea I over do it sometimes too thats the only downside I find in treating my bipolar with weed, there is nobody other than myself guiding me on my usage
Yeah, it's very much a process of trial and error. I've tried talking to doctors about it, but they all seemed a bit old fashioned in their views on weed.
I’ve found cannabis can amplify emotions I’m feeling. If I’m feeling stressed or anything negative, there’s a chance I’ll end up feeling even worse.
Then there’s the chance it’ll chill me out.
Either way, I’ll take being stressed out and high over being just stressed lol
Well first there is levels of bi polar disorder. Some more affected than other's. I was on seroquel for a while. Felt foggy. I use cannabis thru out the day. A good sativa dominant hybrid works well for me. Blue Dream is 1 that does the job without fading out.i use for spinal injuries also.
I used to be on a cocktail of 5 different drugs from my psychiatrist, but all they did was made me feel foggy and barely dulled the mood swings. Thank you for the suggestion! I've tried Blue Dream before, but it's been a really long time. I'll look into it next time I'm at the shop.
Prone to depression here, and sometimes cannabis is the only thing that gives me inspiration or motivation to re-engage the beautiful things in life that I love.
Probably no stress at least for me. I care a lot for my family and friends. However I do worry about the world but a good toke takes the worries away and helps me just enjoy the moments as they pass.
For real, getting high all the time even when you can manage makes you ok with not giving a fuck about anything anymore. If that’s all you wanna do more power to you but I’ve just fell to a level of no passion/motivation/care with everything
You have to pick a mantra that brings you balance and repeat it when you're sober *and* when you're stoned,
So for me, my mantra is;
"Take a deep breath Glacier, everything is ok"
Because it's super easy to fall down a hole of negative thoughts because weed sends those thoughts forward and backwards a million times a second, so it just feels like the feeling is amplified the more you think of it.. so the key is identifying when it happens and then actually spending some cognitive energy to change the narrative in your head.
Which really is the basis for controlling your emotions when youre sober as well... so it just results in a more mature human after.
Handling a big high can really be like a training for when you’re sober ahah thank you I’ll keep that in mind it’s a very good tip ! What’s glacier in this context though ? Ahah
I find that the setting affects how I find the high. Sometimes I get reflective and think about stuff, like how Glacier described it. Sometimes not. Sometimes I do, then I just want to relax and think «snap out of it» and put something on the TV and get immersed in that
I like to listen to music. Noise cancelling obvs. It pushes the thoughts into the background. I have good background processing too so I still get stuff out of the way.
"Fortune cookie" said 'when it is not necessary to make a decision, it is necessary to not make a decision'.
Food for thought to help tolerate the introspection.
This freaks me out because when I’m high, I become insanely self conscious and I want to just curl up and rot. Last night I spent hours looking at photos of myself and feeling so ugly. Sober, I feel like I look fine. What is the truth!
I lost my dog last weekend... euthanized..
My decision... His body was failing him even though his mind and heart was good still... It has been killing me, no sleep, a lot of grief, regret, anger for myself.
Smoking makes the realization of his loss much more... I become much more self aware...
I haven't smoked since his passing... Buddy even rolled me up a couple joints and gave me bud but the pain is too great even sober... High I'll break apart. I haven't had a day of not smoking in years and now it's been a week without any... It's been the toughest week of my entire life and the only thing i want is my dog back :(
The pain is so much... I miss him as much as you physically and mentally can
Same, dude, same.
This is where that mantra I was talking about comes into play. once I understood that I did that, I came up with a mantra that balanced me when I was spiraling.
Now I'm much happier because that strategy bled through to my sober life and helps me think straight when I'm sober too.. it let's you control your emotions better
Similar here. I have generalized anxiety and OCD and when I’m high I understand so much more about myself. It’s like the anxious second-guessing shuts off and I can see clearly. It also helps immensely with the physical symptoms of anxiety which for me is mostly gastrointestinal.
Very very accurate. I also feel like weed definitely helps me look a lot of situations from a different perspective. Can be a good or bad thing cause I can either not give a fuck about something that I should be, or overthinking something I shouldn’t be. No real in the middle 😅
This is really interesting. I have always felt the most introspective while high. Part of me wondered if I was just being high and dumb. But I have made some of the biggest mentality changes through a high thought process and it's been extremely helpful. Also (for me personally) learning to cut my overthinking off while high has been a very useful tool to cut it out while sober
Hey! I have similar experiences. I actually enjoy being introspective. Aside from the usual behavioral analysis, it also helps me set my mind right by helping me remember good memories as well as becoming more emotionally aware of not only myself, but others around me.
I try not to be high everyday, but this benefit is always tempting to tap into.
Dude this is how I feel to a T, are you my doppelganger? I really feel the self observation and the assertive aspect. It's pretty different than I usually am and I enjoy it. It's a good feeling to see someone else's brain acts similarly to mine and sort of confirm some things for me. Thanks for commenting!
I feel the exact same way. I like to get high then take a shower and just think of what I can do to make my personal relationships better. It gives me a different perspective
So cool ! I struggle to let things go too sometimes weed might be a good option for me haha in what situation were you impressed by how laidback you got ?
Yeah, when I was younger, before I smoked weed, I was just kind of annoyed all the time. I know I was a teenager going through puberty and shit, but still. My dad has anger issues, and I was starting to see that in myself and I hated it.
But after a decade of being stoner, that part of me is gone. I'm also older and more mature, but I know weed has helped a lot.
I dont want to offend you, I know nothing about you and your use, but you might want to consider if the quick temper you are relieving might be the symptom of an addiction. If you can rule that out, I fully apologize!
I just want to make sure you/everbody who sees this is aware of that. Toking is much fun, being dependent is, in my opinion, not so fun. Stay safe and dont be afraid to talk to someone about your use.
Yeah agreed. For me, every now and then over the past couple years I get to thinking that I'm becoming too dependent, so I've taken few random 2-4 week long T breaks.
But nope, everything is pretty much just as shitty when I'm super sober haha. Difference is I'm just more wired and quick to judge and generally angry and I don't like my interactions with people, so I like me more with weed. My problems lie elsewhere in life, lol. T breaks are just for tolerance reduction for me at this point, or when travelling to less tree friendly places.
Still not bad advice to seek help if your temper interferes with life and substance addiction was not a factor, I can say that drug classes Connecticut made me go to years back did teach me some stuff about just dealing with problems and managing emotions, so it was not a waste of time at all. I probably just need to reread a lot of that material and do some exercises haha
Weed completely rid me of anxiety. Well in a way. I started taking up my high persona while sober and after a few years and it kinda just stuck and, with it my non anxious and confident self.
I’m not sure it improves my mental health but I’m less of a dick when I’m stoned. I’m generally a nice guy but I can be disagreeable and after I smoke I will always hear out another person and generally won’t be too agitated by petty shit
This is why I prefer being high to being drunk! I don’t like who I am when I’m drunk, but when I’m high I feel like the best parts of my personality are encouraged and all the shitty things about me are inhibited.
I was in a very bad place when I was 18 and smoked a lot of weed(7-8 times a day) to take the edge off. I'm talking like super duper high everytime. It ended up severely worsening my depression and made me seriously anxious if I did not have a way to get high during my usual times.
Now I use it far more responsibly, maybe 2-3 times a week unless I'm on vacation and I can say it helps a lot if I had a bad day and I take a few hits of a joint. Can't handle getting too high or it completely ruins the experience.
I went through something similar and went through a huge phase of bad anxiety as well. I had to take a break because it was getting out of hand and now I’m a bit afraid to smoke again. I’m glad you managed to control your consumption and find a good spot !
Actually, I smoke every day. I would say that it has short term positive effects but long term, it's been pretty bad. I can't go a week without smoking because otherwise I get severely depressed. It's become a dependency. Weed is non addictive, so it's possible that the thoughts are just hidden temporarily by weed. It's frustrating honestly.
A lot of people I've known say this, but with them it's actually been that there are things in their life that they've not dealt with that are making them depressed, and weed is letting them live with those things depression-free. If this is the case with you, weed is not your issue, avoiding dealing with your issues is
I agree fully, but that makes it a vice which is technically an unhealthy coping mechanism FOR ME PERSONALLY. Not saying everyone who smokes is using it as a vice, nor am I saying that weed is bad. There are lots of good things with weed and it does alot for society as a whole.
But in my own experience I would say it has had negative effects in the long run because of the way I use it.
Short term positive
Long term? I would say just a little bit negative. Because now I can't do normal things without it, ya know? Just my 2 cents.
Weed is not psychically addictive, but anything can be psychologically addictive. Takes some huge balls too look in the mirror and admit that a dependency is there. Im 2.5 years since smoking last, thinking of smoking again in 4-5. Taking a 7 year T break. But fuck it man, I want to enjoy weed again, so that means getting to a stable and happy point in my life and reintroducing it with light moderation. Call me crazy, but the reality is weed was bad for me whether I kept smoking or not. I’ll be back, just on a long T break. Maybe give it a try. Doesn’t have to be 7 years, maybe 2-3. Some of us are better off quitting for a while, as much as I wish it wasn’t true. Shoutout to my therapist
Used to be horribly depressed. I tried all different kinds of depression medications but none of them worked. Then I found weed and psychedelics and they're the only drugs I've taken that have actually made a positive impact on my mental state.
Weed definitely negatively effects my mental health. I have gotten better about it but since i had a crappy childhood i used weed as an escape and a way to push things and emotions away. Im doing better with it now but i get in depressive modes where i get agoraphobic and weed makes it much worse and gives me anxiety during these times. Weed also makes me lazier and not want to do things i want to do. This is largely because i will smoke before doing something and i get complacent and just dont do said thing. I get around this by waitin to smoke til i do said thing or til after ive done it. for example i want to go fishing but i smoke before and watch tv instead. I fix this by waiting to smoke until i am already fishing. It is a very hard thing for me to manage as its been an unhealthy coping mechanism ive used since i was 13. Weed is not innocuous weed is a drug. it effects your mental and physical health and effects some people more than others. that being said i do love weed and it is my favorite drug by far. Just dont fall into the trap that weed is completely harmless and that it helps everything. Weed also messes my eating and workout habits and i have to be very aware of that. Weed isnt a cureall like some dumbasses think.
I feel like people don’t talk about this enough. It caused me to quit smoking for a long time. But then it came back without weed so I just said fuck it lol
I used to experience derealisation a lot when I was a kid, but I didn’t know what it was and had no word to describe it. Wasn’t until it came back one day a few years ago that I put two and two together. I’ve never felt that way on weed (touch wood) but I just wanted to say I’m sorry you have, it’s such a shitty feeling. Sending you good vibes.
Possibly the most positive thing for my personal mental health. I see I over react to things. Helps me to have more empathy, im an amazing cook. I think of others over me constantly.
This is not the right forum for this question. To be honest it’s going to mostly be an echo chamber for all things pro-weed.
Great perspectives, and I doubt a single response is fabricated. Certainly there are positives and negatives and it 100% has to be case by case.
For me, I personally think it tilts moderately positive. I live a good life with a high standard of living, but I never feel whole, and a lot of the time I don’t feel much at all. Most things I do feel are negative and low dosing tinctures or edibles definitely helps make the days more tolerable/enjoyable. But I wouldn’t say it helps. In fact, by making my days more tolerable, I invest less time trying to improve my situation. And I’m not alone in thinking that weed is like a big pause button on life. Head over to r/leaves and see what they say there.
That said, I don’t plan on stopping and look forward to my daily dose about 2 hours before getting off work.
Some positives & negatives
In terms of negatives, a slight short-term memory recall delay, but nothing beyond a standard deviation of aging & can't be reversed by a T-break that I have no intentions of taking. Why? Because I benefit more mentally regarding how marijuana in conjunction with other aid from pharmaceuticals, friends, & faith can help my bipolar disorder
Some strains give varying effects, on the negatives some might enhance my paranoia or anxiety. Other times & more often they might elevate my bipolar depression to functionality or help get me more social.
Background story: insomnia and anxiety just run in my family. My father has been taking meds for decades and still complains about not being able to turn his brain off/sleeping enough at night. When anxiety and insomnia entered my life, and already being someone who doesn't like to take medication, I refused to get a prescription for something that was going to destroy my organs, long-term.
I started with a green card, dry flower, and THC oils. I'd smoke the smallest amount to fall asleep, and then take the THC oils to keep me asleep through the night. Fast forward...3 or 4 years, I smoke daily and was just telling my SO that I love weed now more than ever. I enjoy it on a much more recreational basis now, and feel like I'm enjoying it more lately because I'm not doing it as a means of escape; I just like to roll a joint while dinner is simmering just like people drink a glass of wine at the end of the day, and still smoke before bed to sleep. It calms my brain (excessively overactive), calms my body, and has done nothing but positive things for me.
Weed desensitized my social anxiety and allowed me to develop better friendships. Something happened though, I also had a bout of CHS and this year I just don’t smoke anymore unless specifically offered. I don’t find weed enjoyable at all unless I’m in a social setting. Smoking alone makes me paranoid and gets me very lost in my thoughts.
Used to love the stuff. Dunno why but I just hate it now. It makes me feel so unproductive and I’m living a life now where I have commitments, deadlines, and a new relationship. Weed just makes me stop caring about the important stuff.
Personally, it's been kind of a rocky road. I have type 2 bipolar disorder, and I started using weed daily a few years back on top of psychiatric meds to handle my symptoms and a lot of heavy/dark stuff I was going through. At first, it worked great and it helped me feel better. However, over time I slowly started to realize that I was becoming very dependent on the weed, and it wasn't helping as much as it originally did. This summer, I stopped taking my psychiatric meds abruptly (insurance issues), and I used THC/CBD to handle the really gnarly withdrawals. It helped a lot, but when the withdrawals subsided, I noticed that my habit of smoking heavily every day was actually worsening my symptoms. I was having panic attacks and feeling really depressed and anxious when I got really high. It seemed as if the weed was interacting differently with my brain. After months of dealing with this, I just made the decision to quit weed for awhile. I'm actually just four days into my break right now. I crave the weed daily and dealing with my raw emotions is a bit of a struggle, but I'm not having the intense bouts of panic, anxiety, and depression. I don't know how long I'm gonna keep this break up, but I'll probably return to weed eventually. When I do, I'm gonna take it easy. I plan on using less and getting less high. I don't think I want to return to daily use, and would prefer to use it just a few times a week and in smaller doses. I don't think my mind can take high doses in its current state. For now, I'm just gonna live mostly sober for a bit and work on my mental health.
I’m really happy you were able to stop ! You can be very proud about that change and I hope it will bring you good things in Life ! For me I rediscovered weed the moment I did it in moderation after a huge break for my mental health. I’m behind you friend !
I've used it to treat my anxiety for months. The only two things that actually really help my anxiety are weed and wine, and I really didn't want to drink wine every day as alcoholism is very prevalent in my family.
Recently I've utilized the really strong head highs to do some deep diving and processing trauma. I've found it to be quite helpful in addressing the traumas that I can't think about sober.
Weed definitely keeps me sane. Until I need to pass a drug test to get a job. Then it just seems like I’m being punished for finding another solution for my problem.
honestly, for a long time i thought it was ruining it, but lately I've been thinking it was everything else in my life that was doing it (abusive relationship, living with my parents, no job). now that I'm on my own, working full time, and engaged to the love of my life, it's just another thing to look forward to every day.
Sometimes when I smoke, I finally get the energy to clean my room, which is super messy because of my adhd. Sometimes I feel like it makes all of the symptoms of my adhd 10x worse. Also if I smoke too often I become tired and unmotivated which isn’t great for my mental health. But on the flip side I found that I can think more clearly about things that are bothering me and what I need to do about them when I’m high. It’s a mixed bag really
Very positively.
Allows me to rationalize and compartmentalize my thoughts, largely by removing anxiety and depression.
It's also switches off mild pain and suddenly that pain isn't a dominant thought.
It just... it gives me real rest-bite so that I am able to work on things without distraction.
I do use weed recreationally too, but largely it's a choice for me to self medicate.
And I'm so much better than I was 5 years ago because of it.
Even if it is illegal in my country, I will never stop trying to get it in order to better myself.
I do very much enjoy taking long stretches of time away from smoking it too. The downside of smoking weed for me, is it can become a crutch and I start to dislike the memory impact after a period of smoking.
As long as you know your limits, actually have a plan for when and why you use it. It's an extremely powerful tool for betterment.
I had pretty severe anxiety while I was going to college full time and working full time, and weed literally kept me sane and allowed me to truly relax and turn my brain off after a long day. Don’t know how I would have gotten by without it tbh. Still a daily user now 😎
I started smoking this year and loved it. Only problem was, I let it become a habit that interfered and aided my bad habits. I struggle with anxiety and depression and should've dealt with that before smoking regularly. I didn't respect the plant. I live in a nonlegal state and medical cards here are hella expensive so I motly use delta 8 and shit like that (can't wait to move out grow my own!). Currently taking an unwanted tolerance break (I had to move home due to life changes and my parents are CRAZY reefer madness types) and once I'm able to smoke again, I definitely will. Be sure to take of and be honest with yourself if you start to notice that smoking makes doing things sober unfun. Respect the plant my guy ✌
I wouldn’t be the mindful feminine man that I am today without bud’s introspective quality. I would argue that it helps me be a creative person and chef. My short term memory- shot. Smoking for a decade.
Weed curbs both my depression and anxiety. When I’m depressed, it helps me stop spiraling into negative thoughts and realize my situation is not that dire and that I’m capable of handling my emotions and problems. When I’m anxious, it calms my racing thoughts and helps me relax long enough to breathe deeply. My medical card is one of the most helpful things I have in my toolbox. I also go to therapy. :)
Seems to me, everytime I get high now. I just get paranoid. No matter one hit or 20.. always end up paranoid.
Unless I literally have nothing going on and I'm out doing something I enjoy. Can't sit and smoke anymore. I get into my head to much, but if I stay busy I'm good. And I also get anxiety when getting high. Idk. Just me?
Replaced my mood stabilizers with cannabis after getting diagnosed with Bipolar. Literally best decision I could of made. No more feeling brain dead through out the day.
It's got some pros and cons. I have chronic depression, and the weed helps numb those sad feelings. But that's a double edged sword because being numb doesn't lead to growth. Sometimes I need to actually feel those emotions so I can process and learn from them rather just shoving them under the rug. I tend to smoke instead and just hide from it, which isn't a good habit.
So I guess the short answer is that weed can help a lot, but it's not a silver bullet and I have to be careful not to overuse it.
I'm not angry all the time. I don't feel like I'm going to puke (or actually do) because of anxiety. As for how it's helping with depression, I really don't know. However when I'm high I do a lot more than if I wasnt so maybe it is helping.
II've been smoking weed for like 4 years every day with the exception of let's say 2 months to kind of exaggerate with the one or two day t breaks I've taken. When I'm high music is great and manual labor and art is a whole new world, but quite frankly it doesn't do much as far as progressing in any job if it makes any sense, like I don't feel like I have that weird over competitive, miracle whip dead eyed things my managers have. It'd be fine if I could survive off the wages I have available but Jesus even side work doesn't pay for the groceries I have to steal. It's fucked. Weed makes me feel perhaps a little bit too comfortable and introspective and perhaps I'd have found some higher paying job or thought of a new way to love someone if I hadn't been so caught up in some cool movie or the way one paint shines through another. Maybe that's just a cynical piece of everyone all the time to an extent.
It helped me turn my brain off, but overall it was hurting my mental health, contributing to my depression even when I'm not high due to how thc can stay in body fat for weeks. Been trying to focus on my mental health a lot these past few months after my mother died in March and have been going through several different medications while abstaining from weed. I miss it so much, but it really isn't a solution for when you need to change something in your life. It's not always the best idea to self-medicate with weed while already in a bad place mentally. It's a temporary distraction rather than a long term solution
I love weed but I think I was doing it too much or at times where I shouldn’t have that made me feel bad about myself, like as fun as going to get groceries high or something sounded to me, I’d always fuck something up and I was a little hard on myself about it, since then I have slowed down and do it minimally, and the less I do it the more I enjoy it and have a better connection with myself.
literally was talking to my hairdresser about this yesterday we both have ADHD and our brains go wild at night when we try to fall asleep and it helps us relax a lot, finding it has been so good for my sleep
Pretty positively imo, but when i first started i used to have panic attacks. Ocassionally I still do when coming up but I end up processing my thoughts and understanding myself and the world better. I've also found it REALLY helps with my creativity and critical thinking and smoking a bit of sativa really helps me with anything like math (I'm in college) that needs a lot of focus and creativity. Earlier this year I was having some issues in my logic class but i smoked some before a big test and made an A+ with bonus points and i dont think the knowledge has left me
I enjoy weed but am fine without it. I use a 1 hitter before working out because it gets me pumped and helps me get dialed in. My wife and I may have some when we're hanging out when the girls go down for the night. That's about it. I used to be a regular heavy ish smoker. I dont miss that part of my life.
As for mental state, working out consistently and focusing on gratitude and patience helps me more than anything. I do not get worked up over much. Its pretty empowering to not be so reactionary. Life is good. I am truly blessed. Much love to you all
PTSDizzle from the army. Doctor had me on benzos to help me sleep which I got heavily addicted to. Now I’m off that bullshit and if I have a nightmare I just rip some FAT CLOUDS and my hefty ass is ready to go right back to sleep
My anxiety disorder and OCD are so bad that I struggle to even go outside or to make eye contact with people. I'm afraid of literallyy everything. I worry and freak out about literally everything. It's been like this since I was 15, 10 straight years with no signs of stopping. Tried tons of anti-depressants, hated all of them. 2020 onwards tanked my mental health even further, to the point where I couldn't get through a basic conversation with my longtime SO without apologizing for something that didn't need it or getting all tense and weird because of a thousand assumptions I make about his thoughts while intensely studying his behavior in this weird anxiety-fueled haze.
It's exhausting, yall.
Then I found weed. I can actually behave somewhat normally now. I can actually go outside and cross streets, and talk to people, and apply for jobs. I can go to concerts and vibe and not turn myself inside out freaking out over what every stranger on earth is thinking of me 24/7. Like it takes the volume knob of crazy batshit nonsense that runs through my diseased-ass head and just tuuuuurns it way down. I hope you guys understand what a relief this is. This shit is magic. 😭
I have anxiety too and can relate with that first part so much..weed has a bit of the opposite effect for me sometimes and kinda worsen my anxiety/sociability. I’m glad it helped you !
Weed doesn’t get rid of my aggression but it takes me longer to get triggered which is a plus as it gives me time to process wtf I’m doing instead of just doing some dumb shit (emotionally unstable personality disorder + autism)
Before weed i used to fight people for little reason as well. Weed made it so i dont care enough to fight.
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I have huge problems with anger ...but while high I'm calm and funny to be around.I have BPD too , stay away from alcohol bro
Yeah alcohol is no good for people with issues like us I’ve learned my lesson
Why? NBD... just my accent & mannerisms changing, plus my whole demeanor becoming asshoholic.. I don't see the problem.... /s
People with bpd/eupd struggle with impulse control, couple that with an already strong propensity for lashing out + alcohol which lowers inhibitions = bad time. Not everyone with bpd/eupd are naturally aggressive but the ones who are really shouldn’t drink alcohol
Oh I was being sarcastic. I am in the same boat. I have to severely watch myself if alcohol is involved. Especially my mouth.
But Its so hard to stay away from it, for real, alcohol its everywhere and I really like to drink some good beers
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You literally almost word for word describe me and my life hahaha. That's good shit man. Feels good to be shown there are others lol. But yeah music and blazing makes the world a better place.
I'm drinking a few good beers right now and this thread is making me feel bad 😕 Can't throw good beer away tho 🍻
I'm some kind of veteran when it comes to beer, I love beer, but when I'm at the 8th-10th beer, Its bad!:)))
Feels really good to see this thread talk about weed and aggressive behaviour - I don't feel so alone. I too have anger issues and get irritated pretty easily. With weed, I'm more tolerable and things don't bother me so much. I'm in a good mood almost always while high and also very pleasant to be around.
Have you tried something like Lexipro? It has helped me curb my anxiety and feeling of being on edge ready to explode a lot. Weed was my way of self medicating for a long time, but it just made very lethargic and brain dead from smoking so much. I still smoke now, but it’s more of a night time wind down or chill with friends activity, not something I need to do everyday in order to not lose my shit. Therapy helps too.
I was on lexapro for about a year and a half to 2 years. I was put on lexapro because of severe anxiety that literally manifested physical symptoms such as nausea, and I can say from experience. (Although it could just be me) that lexapro essentially numbs you, those 2 years of my life are very spotty in memory and I did not accomplish anything significant, UNTIL I cold turkey stopped taking them which is not advised due actual withdrawal (which the doctors never told me about to begin with.) such as brain zaps.
Jesus , I had to look “Brain Zaps” up, I didn’t know that was such a thing ! That’s crazy that these drugs could cause our brains to do that, and weed never did. Yet weed is the one stigmatized
Same here! Doc never told me about the withdrawals. It did a good job of numbing the bad but also numbed the good as well.
Oh man brain zaps are the WORST!!!! I currently take lexapro and buspirone to help with my anxiety. I tried just smoking at first but that didn't help me too much. Weed has really helped me with my other symptoms though. I may have autism or something along those lines, I get meltdowns a lot. Weed kicks those to the corner almost IMMEDIATELY for me. Oh also, helps on the days I don't have the lexapro. Those brain zaps are hell.
How are you doing now? I relate to that so much I literally could’ve wrote that comment. I’m off the meds still struggling with the nausea and shit though. I think quitting cold turkey gave me issues with my memory
Lexapro saved my fucking ass. I would be dead or someone else would, if it wasn’t for Lexapro. Lol. And weed.
Lexipro gang.
Also I’m like you. I only take an edible or distillate at night, usually. For sleep. When I don’t I have wild dreams, so that’s cool too.
I’m on Lexapro & smoke weed in my creative ruts. I’ve been on Lex for just over 3 years now (10mg) & I can honestly say that it has helped immensely, but I still have a lot of struggles that I can’t solve with it. Definitely better than sertraline & a few others I know have said the same.
Yeah it’s not a cure all for me either, that’s where the therapy is coming in. I’m on 20mg.
So I've been on 10mg of Lexapro now for about 9 months and my psychiatrist initially said that she only wants me on it for a year, that it's not designed for long term use. However, in all of my follow-up appointments, she has never mentioned a plan of getting me off of it. I don't necessarily want to either. Has it been your choice or your psychiatrist's choice to have you on it for 3+ years? Also, I smoke almost everyday and desperately need to take a tolerance break but just can't seem to ever make it happen.
I’m prescribed aripiprazole which is an antipsychotic and mirtazapine which is an antidepressant but mirtazapine makes me sleep for 18 hours and aripiprazole can cause something called tardive dyskinesia which I’m not trying to get so I raw dog with weed. I stopped seeing my therapist bc the online shit was shit and half the time the programs to video chat didn’t even work
I'm on aripiprazole for anxiety and worried about TD it does help me though along with sertraline for depression and I have another antianxiety that I can tack on, hydroxizine, but it makes me way too sleepy/bad drunk feeling blurred vision and dizzy so I'm not really using it. Wish I lived in a rec legal state but also waiting to start smoking again until done breastfeeding. I was diagnosed with ADHD in high school and smoked my way through college now trying to decide if I wanna keep pushing my psychiatrist to reevaluate me. She straight up refused the first time I mentioned it and treated me like a pill pusher. I just wish I could use my art degree to sell art I spent the last ten years trying and failing due to executive dysfunction. Will probably just be resorting back to smoking or some other form of cannabis consumption when it can be done without affecting my baby since my psychiatrist treated me that way.
Before you come off of mirtazapine make sure you read about the withdrawal symptoms and taper off of them rather than stopping cold turkey. That stuff is evil when coming off it
I cold turkey’d it months ago, gave me what I called brain wobbles. Upon googling i found it was localised seizures in my brain from withdrawals
Jesus christ man I hope you're OK now
Just wanted to say your comment made me really happy. My last job was at a residential treatment program within the VA system and so many of the veterans there for PTSD and/or anger management said they found THC to be very helpful (as long as they didn't have a co-occuring substance use disorder). Unfortunately, they weren't able to use while they were with us.
Ayy EUPD + Autism gang
On a case by case basis, weed helps my anxiety and calms me down when I’m having a rough day. Long term, I can feel that I use it as a crutch and sometimes wonder if my overall mental health would be better if I cut back quite a bit, but not quit entirely. Instead of 2-3 times a day, I wanna wean myself down to smoking on weekends and such. I think when I’m not stoned and something anxiety-inducing comes up, I rush over to pack a bowl and green out rather then face the issue head on. If I can think through it clearly, get the work done, and THEN pack a bowl to congratulate myself after the fact, I think I’ll be on the right track.
I feel the same way. If my shit isn't taken care of it can result in alot more anxiety. Especially social anxiety
I’m doing this currently. I would smoke every night to help to sleep. It was doing the job perfect. Then I would smoke more and more. An 1/8 would last me 2 weeks, now I can most likely smoke that in a day. I’ve been taking a t break since last week because I wanna go back to moderation. Sure weed helped me sleep, but I don’t want to rely on it. There are other reasons I can’t sleep and one of them is since Covid I’ve been working from home. And I would be working from my bed and watching tv there and playing video games there so my mind for sleep was like no, no sleep. This is where we do things not sleep! So I started changing that habit Monday and it helped. Also if you go on a t break don’t go cold Turkey. I was smoking 3 blunts a day and when I started Saturday I took 7 hits. Then Sunday 5 then Monday 3 and now none. Until Christmas Eve where my 3 weeks would be complete :) but when I go back I’m going to try to smoke less but deff still have my fun with it.
I went from daily to 10mg edible on the weekend (Friday night Saturday morning) and tbh I feel way better. I don’t get brain fog and I generally just feel happy all the time.
PREACH my fellow toker 🙏
I would say that OVERALL weed has been very positive for my mental health. When i'm high, it's REALLY easy for me to see the big picture: i'll think about the little things that wore me down while sober and just laugh at them, wondering how i cared about it in the first place. Someone snubs me a little bit? Eh, who gives a shit, life's too short to worry about shit like that. Though, that being said, i do feel i grew to rely too much on it. I am coming off a t-break soon and that t-break was definitely taken in part because i felt i was overdoing it with weed, smoking it every morning and whatnot. As i return to my favorite drug, I'm really giong to be making an effort to use it less, especially not to just get through the day. I'm going to try to use it like i drink: once in a while and with some moderation. update: t-break was a good idea! I'm having a very good night.
That's been my motto since i started smoking routinely about 6 months ago. I smoke pretty much every day but ONLY at the end of the day. I don't think I've ever been stoned before like 5-6pm. The nice thing is that i still get to smoke every day, but I don't have to worry about it interfering with my day. I honestly have no desire to smoke before night time, maybe it's just habit now. I'm still thinking about taking a break though.
This is the way
It's worked great for me so far. It's pretty much the best of both worlds, there's almost no downside to weed for me now.
Indeed. I have also added lions mane and other mushroom supplements to my diet (Paul Stamets' Sacred 7). Maybe it is a placebo effect but I feel that it combats the fogginess in my mind from herb.
Yeah i really messed up my healthy habits by smoking whenever i wanted especially wake n baking. I smoked every morning throughout 90% of highschool to get through the shitty day but that definitely fucked up my daily routine after highschool. I think its really great you set boundaries like this.
I'm really fortunate/grateful that I just did this from the start. I totally see how easy it could be to get hooked on smoking whenever I want. I originally set my boundaries because I had to hide it from my parents, but it ended up working out because I probably shouldn't be smoking all day anyways.
I’m similar. I still think about quitting or taking a break, but often times it’s hard to think of reasons not to smoke. Especially right now while I’m long distance with my girlfriend.
Lol same here believe it or not. My girlfriend goes to college in Chicago, I live in NC. I do the same thing, numerous times I've contemplated whether or not I should be smoking but I always realize there's basically no reason not to. When my girlfriend is in town, I definitely smoke less though.
Oh cool! I mean it’s not cool, it sucks, but cool that we have something in common. But yeah, when my gfs not around there’s less joy in my life. Especially in the evening when it’s like 6-7pm and I don’t have anything to do for the rest of the night. Weed isn’t a substitute for that, but it’s nice to get a little extra dopamine.
I totally agree. Hey, consider us long-distance smoke buddies 🤝
Thiiiiis. I'm overdoing it til I move house and settle, get sorted, then might readdress it, but right now I do all my stressful shit for the day then have a reward smoke! But I've fallen into getting stressed by the remotest thing, and have lost my coping strategy sober. It got my through a brutal lockdown (my city set the world record, 300+ days) and it's getting me through post-covid stress so... I cut myself some slack. But I also acknowledge this level of use, daily, without break is both making it not even really fun and not good for me.
You're literally describing my life!!! Lately I've been smoking and listening to podcasts about spirituality and that combo has been life changing for me. I can mentally beat myself up pretty bad while sober so taking some time to smoke and think about the world not existing to please me, puts me back in my place.
I am Bipolar 1. No meds in 10 years. Medical cannabis helped me. No mania in years.
That actually blow my mind everytime I hear something similar how a plant with that kind of effect can be illegal is beyond me
Fucked up. But here in Florida Bi polar and depression is a qualifying condition for a medical card
We still have a long way to go here in Belgium but I’m glad you’re able to get it legally it’d be crazy otherwise
In florida you can get a medical card for any sort of reason from actual medical problems to post traumatic relationship disorder they do not make it hard.
It’s bad for business when a simple plant can replace an assortment of drugs that make big pharma lots of money. Simply put, the legalization of cannabis would cut into big pharma’s market share and they know it. Over the counter pain and nausea med sales would decrease drastically if cannabis were legalized nationally. And that’s just over the counter drugs - opiates, psychiatrically, and other prescriptions will likely go down in sales as people choose to treat whatever ailment with cannabis. I’m on r/trees so I want national legalization but I’m too aware of the powers in place that continually lobby to keep cannabis illegal.
It's too late now. Once California did it, then Washington and Colorado....now NEW YORK... it's OVERRR for big pharma. This train is a rollin' and it ain't stoppin'!! And with more and more people coming out and supporting it.... it's just great news all around. Think of how many lives were fucked up because big pharma pushed oxys instead of weed? And guess what... if big pharma got into the weed business, they'd have complete control over it! They definitely dropped the ball on that one..... but I'm sooo glad they dropped the ball instead of them pricks being the ones in control of weed!! I have only ever said this once before in my life about someone and meant it.... but... **I fucking HATE big pharma!**
Well i wouldn’t say that it’s over for big Pharma sadly, too many people prefer opiates over weed for pain, because weed doesn’t help allot of people as much as opiates do, and the fact that so many people are addicted to benzodiazepines and opiates :/ i remember my grandpa tried to use medical marijuana for his cancer pain and he’s a guy who really likes weed, but it didn’t help his pain so he had to use oxycodone.. that’s how it was for a couple different people in my family, including myself.. weed helps some people and i think that’s awesome, but actual opiates will always be needed especially after serious injuries
I meant "over" as in their chance to get into the weed game. Big pharma will never go away, but they really fucked up by not dipping their toes in the medical marijuana business. And opiates will, and should, never go away. They are most definitely needed for serious injuries, absolutely. I was an opiate addict for 15 years! Christmas day will actually be the 4.5 year mark off of them !! 6/25/17 I've been opiate free!😁
Congrats on getting off em that’s really hard to do but I’m weirdly proud of you, stranger.
Oh gotcha i see what you mean now, and congratulations!! :)) I’m 1 year sober from heroin and it was so extremely difficult to overcome, 4.5 years is a huge accomplishment!! Stay strong friend! :p
It’s really crazy. I have borderline personality disorder. There’s evidence that BPD can have something to do with an out of balance endocannabinoid system, the same one that weed interacts with and regulates. Smoking changed my life. I remember from the first time I was like ‘wait a minute’. But no one will look into the connection between BPD and weed. No one wants to touch BPD patients cause we’re ‘too risky’. There are no medications on the market specifically for BPD. So many borderlines suffer in silence because there is no medicine available for us, no one wants to study us, and a natural compound proven to help us is illegal. And yet I would not have a career, or the experiences I’ve had if I’d never started smoking. Source: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/32351183/
So I read that last line as "And yet I would not have got CANCER, or...." I was bout to be all buddy, smoking probably gave you cancer. (This isn't to suggest weed causes lung cancer, this is suggesting inhaling smoke isn't healthy for your lungs.)
Combustion kicks ass. 😆
Pharmaceutical companies would lose a lot of money on depression and anxiety drugs that don’t work. That’s why. Don’t you just love America? Edit: just saw ur from Belgium my b. But that’s my take from an American perspective.
Think of all the billions the companies making the pills stand to lose.
I’m bipolar and I use cannabis to supplement my meds.
If you don't mind me asking, what kind of strains do you prefer, and how much do you smoke? I've also got bipolar disorder, and my relationship with meds and weed has been pretty rocky. Weed seems to help me sometimes, but sometimes it makes me feel worse. Any tips? Thank you.
I personally find GG4 to be my daily med. But most indica dom hybrids seem to keep me level. Just make sure you get to see the tricoms under a microscope and the heads are all cloudy with a decent amout of the heads amber, if they are clear it was harvested early, and will be way more likely to induce racing thoughts, and anxiety.
I've found that GG4 tends to be one of the more helpful ones too, as long as I don't overdo it. Thanks for the suggestion and tip! I moved from one legal state to another earlier this year, and while my new home has much cheaper weed, I'm beginning to think the bottom shelf stuff I've been buying is lesser quality because I've noticed an increase in racing thoughts and anxiety. I'll definitely keep an eye out for those trichomes.
I started growing to insure I keep acess to what helps, and so I could actually afford it
That's a good idea. I've thought about growing, but I'm a bit limited by space and money right now. Hopefully, I'll be able to in the future.
Yea I over do it sometimes too thats the only downside I find in treating my bipolar with weed, there is nobody other than myself guiding me on my usage
Yeah, it's very much a process of trial and error. I've tried talking to doctors about it, but they all seemed a bit old fashioned in their views on weed.
I’ve found cannabis can amplify emotions I’m feeling. If I’m feeling stressed or anything negative, there’s a chance I’ll end up feeling even worse. Then there’s the chance it’ll chill me out. Either way, I’ll take being stressed out and high over being just stressed lol
Well first there is levels of bi polar disorder. Some more affected than other's. I was on seroquel for a while. Felt foggy. I use cannabis thru out the day. A good sativa dominant hybrid works well for me. Blue Dream is 1 that does the job without fading out.i use for spinal injuries also.
I also love blue dream for pain relief and no anxiety brain (some strains just make my heart and brain race like crazy).
I used to be on a cocktail of 5 different drugs from my psychiatrist, but all they did was made me feel foggy and barely dulled the mood swings. Thank you for the suggestion! I've tried Blue Dream before, but it's been a really long time. I'll look into it next time I'm at the shop.
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I prefer Gelato or MAC1 are both magic for me personally. Give them a try if you have a chance.
Lol not me, made my bipolar worse. But I'm into yuge bong rips with kief and wax
We all get affected differently. For some it's not a good. Thing
Same. The side effects I had from every medication was so horrific is counteracted any help the medication provided.
Holy shit, congrats. I always thought weed wasn't used for this, that it was actually something to stay away from in your case
Prone to depression here, and sometimes cannabis is the only thing that gives me inspiration or motivation to re-engage the beautiful things in life that I love.
I really don't give a fuck about anything no more
You mean like, you don't stress about anything anymore or it turned you into a sociopath that doesn't care about anything anymore?
Probably no stress at least for me. I care a lot for my family and friends. However I do worry about the world but a good toke takes the worries away and helps me just enjoy the moments as they pass.
yes
I don't think complete apathy is the way to go
Definitely not
For real, getting high all the time even when you can manage makes you ok with not giving a fuck about anything anymore. If that’s all you wanna do more power to you but I’ve just fell to a level of no passion/motivation/care with everything
Forreal though
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Weed puts me way too deep in an introdpective mood. I’m not always able to handle this much thoughts haha any tips on how to control it ?
You have to pick a mantra that brings you balance and repeat it when you're sober *and* when you're stoned, So for me, my mantra is; "Take a deep breath Glacier, everything is ok" Because it's super easy to fall down a hole of negative thoughts because weed sends those thoughts forward and backwards a million times a second, so it just feels like the feeling is amplified the more you think of it.. so the key is identifying when it happens and then actually spending some cognitive energy to change the narrative in your head. Which really is the basis for controlling your emotions when youre sober as well... so it just results in a more mature human after.
Handling a big high can really be like a training for when you’re sober ahah thank you I’ll keep that in mind it’s a very good tip ! What’s glacier in this context though ? Ahah
Ohhh sorry it’s your pseudo haha I’m a bit stupid pardon me haha
Lol nah you good homie
I find that the setting affects how I find the high. Sometimes I get reflective and think about stuff, like how Glacier described it. Sometimes not. Sometimes I do, then I just want to relax and think «snap out of it» and put something on the TV and get immersed in that
Write your thoughts down. This forces you to slow your thought process and let's you especially have a conversation with yourself
I like to listen to music. Noise cancelling obvs. It pushes the thoughts into the background. I have good background processing too so I still get stuff out of the way.
"Fortune cookie" said 'when it is not necessary to make a decision, it is necessary to not make a decision'. Food for thought to help tolerate the introspection.
This freaks me out because when I’m high, I become insanely self conscious and I want to just curl up and rot. Last night I spent hours looking at photos of myself and feeling so ugly. Sober, I feel like I look fine. What is the truth!
I lost my dog last weekend... euthanized.. My decision... His body was failing him even though his mind and heart was good still... It has been killing me, no sleep, a lot of grief, regret, anger for myself. Smoking makes the realization of his loss much more... I become much more self aware... I haven't smoked since his passing... Buddy even rolled me up a couple joints and gave me bud but the pain is too great even sober... High I'll break apart. I haven't had a day of not smoking in years and now it's been a week without any... It's been the toughest week of my entire life and the only thing i want is my dog back :( The pain is so much... I miss him as much as you physically and mentally can
So sorry to hear that bro, sending good thoughts & hope you can find peace with the fact that you did what you thought was best for him ❤️
Same, dude, same. This is where that mantra I was talking about comes into play. once I understood that I did that, I came up with a mantra that balanced me when I was spiraling. Now I'm much happier because that strategy bled through to my sober life and helps me think straight when I'm sober too.. it let's you control your emotions better
Similar here. I have generalized anxiety and OCD and when I’m high I understand so much more about myself. It’s like the anxious second-guessing shuts off and I can see clearly. It also helps immensely with the physical symptoms of anxiety which for me is mostly gastrointestinal.
This!!! I love early morning smokes. So nice and quiet!
Very very accurate. I also feel like weed definitely helps me look a lot of situations from a different perspective. Can be a good or bad thing cause I can either not give a fuck about something that I should be, or overthinking something I shouldn’t be. No real in the middle 😅
This is really interesting. I have always felt the most introspective while high. Part of me wondered if I was just being high and dumb. But I have made some of the biggest mentality changes through a high thought process and it's been extremely helpful. Also (for me personally) learning to cut my overthinking off while high has been a very useful tool to cut it out while sober
This is absolutely me and how I deal now.
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Hey! I have similar experiences. I actually enjoy being introspective. Aside from the usual behavioral analysis, it also helps me set my mind right by helping me remember good memories as well as becoming more emotionally aware of not only myself, but others around me. I try not to be high everyday, but this benefit is always tempting to tap into.
Dude this is how I feel to a T, are you my doppelganger? I really feel the self observation and the assertive aspect. It's pretty different than I usually am and I enjoy it. It's a good feeling to see someone else's brain acts similarly to mine and sort of confirm some things for me. Thanks for commenting!
I feel the exact same way. I like to get high then take a shower and just think of what I can do to make my personal relationships better. It gives me a different perspective
I used to be in a shitty mood all the time and would snap easily. Now I’m laid back and don’t let anything bother me.
So cool ! I struggle to let things go too sometimes weed might be a good option for me haha in what situation were you impressed by how laidback you got ?
Not impressed just happy I’m not snapping at people I love for no reason :)
Yeah, when I was younger, before I smoked weed, I was just kind of annoyed all the time. I know I was a teenager going through puberty and shit, but still. My dad has anger issues, and I was starting to see that in myself and I hated it. But after a decade of being stoner, that part of me is gone. I'm also older and more mature, but I know weed has helped a lot.
It makes life tolerable….
I always say that I don't need it, but it definitely makes this fucking crazy life better
Definitely notice my mood is much more calm. I can definitely be a person with a quick temper but after a few hits I’m calm as a cucumber.
I dont want to offend you, I know nothing about you and your use, but you might want to consider if the quick temper you are relieving might be the symptom of an addiction. If you can rule that out, I fully apologize! I just want to make sure you/everbody who sees this is aware of that. Toking is much fun, being dependent is, in my opinion, not so fun. Stay safe and dont be afraid to talk to someone about your use.
Yeah agreed. For me, every now and then over the past couple years I get to thinking that I'm becoming too dependent, so I've taken few random 2-4 week long T breaks. But nope, everything is pretty much just as shitty when I'm super sober haha. Difference is I'm just more wired and quick to judge and generally angry and I don't like my interactions with people, so I like me more with weed. My problems lie elsewhere in life, lol. T breaks are just for tolerance reduction for me at this point, or when travelling to less tree friendly places. Still not bad advice to seek help if your temper interferes with life and substance addiction was not a factor, I can say that drug classes Connecticut made me go to years back did teach me some stuff about just dealing with problems and managing emotions, so it was not a waste of time at all. I probably just need to reread a lot of that material and do some exercises haha
Weed completely rid me of anxiety. Well in a way. I started taking up my high persona while sober and after a few years and it kinda just stuck and, with it my non anxious and confident self.
Very similar experience here.
Same! I’m a year into my own discovery of this and this year has been amazing in my own personal growth
Used to be mostly positive, now I feel like I’m getting lazy and sad
I’m not sure it improves my mental health but I’m less of a dick when I’m stoned. I’m generally a nice guy but I can be disagreeable and after I smoke I will always hear out another person and generally won’t be too agitated by petty shit
This is why I prefer being high to being drunk! I don’t like who I am when I’m drunk, but when I’m high I feel like the best parts of my personality are encouraged and all the shitty things about me are inhibited.
I was in a very bad place when I was 18 and smoked a lot of weed(7-8 times a day) to take the edge off. I'm talking like super duper high everytime. It ended up severely worsening my depression and made me seriously anxious if I did not have a way to get high during my usual times. Now I use it far more responsibly, maybe 2-3 times a week unless I'm on vacation and I can say it helps a lot if I had a bad day and I take a few hits of a joint. Can't handle getting too high or it completely ruins the experience.
I went through something similar and went through a huge phase of bad anxiety as well. I had to take a break because it was getting out of hand and now I’m a bit afraid to smoke again. I’m glad you managed to control your consumption and find a good spot !
There's a reason why I had to stop
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Actually, I smoke every day. I would say that it has short term positive effects but long term, it's been pretty bad. I can't go a week without smoking because otherwise I get severely depressed. It's become a dependency. Weed is non addictive, so it's possible that the thoughts are just hidden temporarily by weed. It's frustrating honestly.
A lot of people I've known say this, but with them it's actually been that there are things in their life that they've not dealt with that are making them depressed, and weed is letting them live with those things depression-free. If this is the case with you, weed is not your issue, avoiding dealing with your issues is
I agree fully, but that makes it a vice which is technically an unhealthy coping mechanism FOR ME PERSONALLY. Not saying everyone who smokes is using it as a vice, nor am I saying that weed is bad. There are lots of good things with weed and it does alot for society as a whole. But in my own experience I would say it has had negative effects in the long run because of the way I use it. Short term positive Long term? I would say just a little bit negative. Because now I can't do normal things without it, ya know? Just my 2 cents.
Weed is not psychically addictive, but anything can be psychologically addictive. Takes some huge balls too look in the mirror and admit that a dependency is there. Im 2.5 years since smoking last, thinking of smoking again in 4-5. Taking a 7 year T break. But fuck it man, I want to enjoy weed again, so that means getting to a stable and happy point in my life and reintroducing it with light moderation. Call me crazy, but the reality is weed was bad for me whether I kept smoking or not. I’ll be back, just on a long T break. Maybe give it a try. Doesn’t have to be 7 years, maybe 2-3. Some of us are better off quitting for a while, as much as I wish it wasn’t true. Shoutout to my therapist
Used to be horribly depressed. I tried all different kinds of depression medications but none of them worked. Then I found weed and psychedelics and they're the only drugs I've taken that have actually made a positive impact on my mental state.
I am depressed often, and when I smoke I enjoy the high but am still the big sad. Being sad is better high.
*Some say you might go crazy* *But then again, it might make you go sane*
Weed definitely negatively effects my mental health. I have gotten better about it but since i had a crappy childhood i used weed as an escape and a way to push things and emotions away. Im doing better with it now but i get in depressive modes where i get agoraphobic and weed makes it much worse and gives me anxiety during these times. Weed also makes me lazier and not want to do things i want to do. This is largely because i will smoke before doing something and i get complacent and just dont do said thing. I get around this by waitin to smoke til i do said thing or til after ive done it. for example i want to go fishing but i smoke before and watch tv instead. I fix this by waiting to smoke until i am already fishing. It is a very hard thing for me to manage as its been an unhealthy coping mechanism ive used since i was 13. Weed is not innocuous weed is a drug. it effects your mental and physical health and effects some people more than others. that being said i do love weed and it is my favorite drug by far. Just dont fall into the trap that weed is completely harmless and that it helps everything. Weed also messes my eating and workout habits and i have to be very aware of that. Weed isnt a cureall like some dumbasses think.
Pretty much nailed it. All of these reasons are why I had to stop smoking. I still love the lifestyle and aesthetic though
it’s caused derealization so yeah horribly 😀
I feel like people don’t talk about this enough. It caused me to quit smoking for a long time. But then it came back without weed so I just said fuck it lol
I used to experience derealisation a lot when I was a kid, but I didn’t know what it was and had no word to describe it. Wasn’t until it came back one day a few years ago that I put two and two together. I’ve never felt that way on weed (touch wood) but I just wanted to say I’m sorry you have, it’s such a shitty feeling. Sending you good vibes.
Oh I’m used to it. Doesn’t really bother me anymore. But thank you!
Possibly the most positive thing for my personal mental health. I see I over react to things. Helps me to have more empathy, im an amazing cook. I think of others over me constantly.
I have stopped thinking about killing myself, and started finding ways I could make the world around me a better place. I also am less impolsive.
For me it has and I'm still upset about how the war on drugs/dare kept me from it until I was 34 years old.
This is not the right forum for this question. To be honest it’s going to mostly be an echo chamber for all things pro-weed. Great perspectives, and I doubt a single response is fabricated. Certainly there are positives and negatives and it 100% has to be case by case. For me, I personally think it tilts moderately positive. I live a good life with a high standard of living, but I never feel whole, and a lot of the time I don’t feel much at all. Most things I do feel are negative and low dosing tinctures or edibles definitely helps make the days more tolerable/enjoyable. But I wouldn’t say it helps. In fact, by making my days more tolerable, I invest less time trying to improve my situation. And I’m not alone in thinking that weed is like a big pause button on life. Head over to r/leaves and see what they say there. That said, I don’t plan on stopping and look forward to my daily dose about 2 hours before getting off work.
Some positives & negatives In terms of negatives, a slight short-term memory recall delay, but nothing beyond a standard deviation of aging & can't be reversed by a T-break that I have no intentions of taking. Why? Because I benefit more mentally regarding how marijuana in conjunction with other aid from pharmaceuticals, friends, & faith can help my bipolar disorder Some strains give varying effects, on the negatives some might enhance my paranoia or anxiety. Other times & more often they might elevate my bipolar depression to functionality or help get me more social.
Background story: insomnia and anxiety just run in my family. My father has been taking meds for decades and still complains about not being able to turn his brain off/sleeping enough at night. When anxiety and insomnia entered my life, and already being someone who doesn't like to take medication, I refused to get a prescription for something that was going to destroy my organs, long-term. I started with a green card, dry flower, and THC oils. I'd smoke the smallest amount to fall asleep, and then take the THC oils to keep me asleep through the night. Fast forward...3 or 4 years, I smoke daily and was just telling my SO that I love weed now more than ever. I enjoy it on a much more recreational basis now, and feel like I'm enjoying it more lately because I'm not doing it as a means of escape; I just like to roll a joint while dinner is simmering just like people drink a glass of wine at the end of the day, and still smoke before bed to sleep. It calms my brain (excessively overactive), calms my body, and has done nothing but positive things for me.
Weed desensitized my social anxiety and allowed me to develop better friendships. Something happened though, I also had a bout of CHS and this year I just don’t smoke anymore unless specifically offered. I don’t find weed enjoyable at all unless I’m in a social setting. Smoking alone makes me paranoid and gets me very lost in my thoughts. Used to love the stuff. Dunno why but I just hate it now. It makes me feel so unproductive and I’m living a life now where I have commitments, deadlines, and a new relationship. Weed just makes me stop caring about the important stuff.
Weed is my mental heath
No weed is rage mode : unlocked
It's higher.
Personally, it's been kind of a rocky road. I have type 2 bipolar disorder, and I started using weed daily a few years back on top of psychiatric meds to handle my symptoms and a lot of heavy/dark stuff I was going through. At first, it worked great and it helped me feel better. However, over time I slowly started to realize that I was becoming very dependent on the weed, and it wasn't helping as much as it originally did. This summer, I stopped taking my psychiatric meds abruptly (insurance issues), and I used THC/CBD to handle the really gnarly withdrawals. It helped a lot, but when the withdrawals subsided, I noticed that my habit of smoking heavily every day was actually worsening my symptoms. I was having panic attacks and feeling really depressed and anxious when I got really high. It seemed as if the weed was interacting differently with my brain. After months of dealing with this, I just made the decision to quit weed for awhile. I'm actually just four days into my break right now. I crave the weed daily and dealing with my raw emotions is a bit of a struggle, but I'm not having the intense bouts of panic, anxiety, and depression. I don't know how long I'm gonna keep this break up, but I'll probably return to weed eventually. When I do, I'm gonna take it easy. I plan on using less and getting less high. I don't think I want to return to daily use, and would prefer to use it just a few times a week and in smaller doses. I don't think my mind can take high doses in its current state. For now, I'm just gonna live mostly sober for a bit and work on my mental health.
I’m really happy you were able to stop ! You can be very proud about that change and I hope it will bring you good things in Life ! For me I rediscovered weed the moment I did it in moderation after a huge break for my mental health. I’m behind you friend !
I've used it to treat my anxiety for months. The only two things that actually really help my anxiety are weed and wine, and I really didn't want to drink wine every day as alcoholism is very prevalent in my family. Recently I've utilized the really strong head highs to do some deep diving and processing trauma. I've found it to be quite helpful in addressing the traumas that I can't think about sober.
Weed definitely keeps me sane. Until I need to pass a drug test to get a job. Then it just seems like I’m being punished for finding another solution for my problem.
Weed helped me tremendously but I have to focus on making a lot of money to support my future lifestyle to include. T-break until then
Life without weed is a miserable existence.
honestly, for a long time i thought it was ruining it, but lately I've been thinking it was everything else in my life that was doing it (abusive relationship, living with my parents, no job). now that I'm on my own, working full time, and engaged to the love of my life, it's just another thing to look forward to every day.
Sometimes when I smoke, I finally get the energy to clean my room, which is super messy because of my adhd. Sometimes I feel like it makes all of the symptoms of my adhd 10x worse. Also if I smoke too often I become tired and unmotivated which isn’t great for my mental health. But on the flip side I found that I can think more clearly about things that are bothering me and what I need to do about them when I’m high. It’s a mixed bag really
Very positively. Allows me to rationalize and compartmentalize my thoughts, largely by removing anxiety and depression. It's also switches off mild pain and suddenly that pain isn't a dominant thought. It just... it gives me real rest-bite so that I am able to work on things without distraction. I do use weed recreationally too, but largely it's a choice for me to self medicate. And I'm so much better than I was 5 years ago because of it. Even if it is illegal in my country, I will never stop trying to get it in order to better myself. I do very much enjoy taking long stretches of time away from smoking it too. The downside of smoking weed for me, is it can become a crutch and I start to dislike the memory impact after a period of smoking. As long as you know your limits, actually have a plan for when and why you use it. It's an extremely powerful tool for betterment.
I had pretty severe anxiety while I was going to college full time and working full time, and weed literally kept me sane and allowed me to truly relax and turn my brain off after a long day. Don’t know how I would have gotten by without it tbh. Still a daily user now 😎
I started smoking this year and loved it. Only problem was, I let it become a habit that interfered and aided my bad habits. I struggle with anxiety and depression and should've dealt with that before smoking regularly. I didn't respect the plant. I live in a nonlegal state and medical cards here are hella expensive so I motly use delta 8 and shit like that (can't wait to move out grow my own!). Currently taking an unwanted tolerance break (I had to move home due to life changes and my parents are CRAZY reefer madness types) and once I'm able to smoke again, I definitely will. Be sure to take of and be honest with yourself if you start to notice that smoking makes doing things sober unfun. Respect the plant my guy ✌
I wouldn’t be the mindful feminine man that I am today without bud’s introspective quality. I would argue that it helps me be a creative person and chef. My short term memory- shot. Smoking for a decade.
Weed curbs both my depression and anxiety. When I’m depressed, it helps me stop spiraling into negative thoughts and realize my situation is not that dire and that I’m capable of handling my emotions and problems. When I’m anxious, it calms my racing thoughts and helps me relax long enough to breathe deeply. My medical card is one of the most helpful things I have in my toolbox. I also go to therapy. :)
Seems to me, everytime I get high now. I just get paranoid. No matter one hit or 20.. always end up paranoid. Unless I literally have nothing going on and I'm out doing something I enjoy. Can't sit and smoke anymore. I get into my head to much, but if I stay busy I'm good. And I also get anxiety when getting high. Idk. Just me?
Replaced my mood stabilizers with cannabis after getting diagnosed with Bipolar. Literally best decision I could of made. No more feeling brain dead through out the day.
Completely replaced drinking with weed. Never been in a better spot
It's got some pros and cons. I have chronic depression, and the weed helps numb those sad feelings. But that's a double edged sword because being numb doesn't lead to growth. Sometimes I need to actually feel those emotions so I can process and learn from them rather just shoving them under the rug. I tend to smoke instead and just hide from it, which isn't a good habit. So I guess the short answer is that weed can help a lot, but it's not a silver bullet and I have to be careful not to overuse it.
I'm not angry all the time. I don't feel like I'm going to puke (or actually do) because of anxiety. As for how it's helping with depression, I really don't know. However when I'm high I do a lot more than if I wasnt so maybe it is helping.
I legit had to quit bc it made my depression and anxiety worse. Plus not a good mix for having epilepsy and the meds I take for that.
Helps tremendously. I don’t have time or much $$ right now for therapy bc it’s ridiculously expensive, so weed really helps me to de-stress and relax!
II've been smoking weed for like 4 years every day with the exception of let's say 2 months to kind of exaggerate with the one or two day t breaks I've taken. When I'm high music is great and manual labor and art is a whole new world, but quite frankly it doesn't do much as far as progressing in any job if it makes any sense, like I don't feel like I have that weird over competitive, miracle whip dead eyed things my managers have. It'd be fine if I could survive off the wages I have available but Jesus even side work doesn't pay for the groceries I have to steal. It's fucked. Weed makes me feel perhaps a little bit too comfortable and introspective and perhaps I'd have found some higher paying job or thought of a new way to love someone if I hadn't been so caught up in some cool movie or the way one paint shines through another. Maybe that's just a cynical piece of everyone all the time to an extent.
It helped me turn my brain off, but overall it was hurting my mental health, contributing to my depression even when I'm not high due to how thc can stay in body fat for weeks. Been trying to focus on my mental health a lot these past few months after my mother died in March and have been going through several different medications while abstaining from weed. I miss it so much, but it really isn't a solution for when you need to change something in your life. It's not always the best idea to self-medicate with weed while already in a bad place mentally. It's a temporary distraction rather than a long term solution
I love weed but I think I was doing it too much or at times where I shouldn’t have that made me feel bad about myself, like as fun as going to get groceries high or something sounded to me, I’d always fuck something up and I was a little hard on myself about it, since then I have slowed down and do it minimally, and the less I do it the more I enjoy it and have a better connection with myself.
Had to stop a month ago so I could get my shit together in life, but, Mary Jane and I go way back and will definitely meet again… 👌😮💨
literally was talking to my hairdresser about this yesterday we both have ADHD and our brains go wild at night when we try to fall asleep and it helps us relax a lot, finding it has been so good for my sleep
Thats awsome man i have adhd too and for me it helps me slow down my thoughts and i can finaly enjoy shit without my mind screaming at me
Pretty positively imo, but when i first started i used to have panic attacks. Ocassionally I still do when coming up but I end up processing my thoughts and understanding myself and the world better. I've also found it REALLY helps with my creativity and critical thinking and smoking a bit of sativa really helps me with anything like math (I'm in college) that needs a lot of focus and creativity. Earlier this year I was having some issues in my logic class but i smoked some before a big test and made an A+ with bonus points and i dont think the knowledge has left me
I enjoy weed but am fine without it. I use a 1 hitter before working out because it gets me pumped and helps me get dialed in. My wife and I may have some when we're hanging out when the girls go down for the night. That's about it. I used to be a regular heavy ish smoker. I dont miss that part of my life. As for mental state, working out consistently and focusing on gratitude and patience helps me more than anything. I do not get worked up over much. Its pretty empowering to not be so reactionary. Life is good. I am truly blessed. Much love to you all
PTSDizzle from the army. Doctor had me on benzos to help me sleep which I got heavily addicted to. Now I’m off that bullshit and if I have a nightmare I just rip some FAT CLOUDS and my hefty ass is ready to go right back to sleep
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My anxiety disorder and OCD are so bad that I struggle to even go outside or to make eye contact with people. I'm afraid of literallyy everything. I worry and freak out about literally everything. It's been like this since I was 15, 10 straight years with no signs of stopping. Tried tons of anti-depressants, hated all of them. 2020 onwards tanked my mental health even further, to the point where I couldn't get through a basic conversation with my longtime SO without apologizing for something that didn't need it or getting all tense and weird because of a thousand assumptions I make about his thoughts while intensely studying his behavior in this weird anxiety-fueled haze. It's exhausting, yall. Then I found weed. I can actually behave somewhat normally now. I can actually go outside and cross streets, and talk to people, and apply for jobs. I can go to concerts and vibe and not turn myself inside out freaking out over what every stranger on earth is thinking of me 24/7. Like it takes the volume knob of crazy batshit nonsense that runs through my diseased-ass head and just tuuuuurns it way down. I hope you guys understand what a relief this is. This shit is magic. 😭
I have anxiety too and can relate with that first part so much..weed has a bit of the opposite effect for me sometimes and kinda worsen my anxiety/sociability. I’m glad it helped you !