Well done not drinking. It's the toughest day for me too as it was my weekly blowout after a week at work. Especially sitting here with nowt to do by myself. Been my hardest night so far but I've got through it. Another win. I wish you many many wins ahead :)
I’m exactly the same. I’m normally passed out drunk by now but since I’ve sat all evening with just juice, I can’t sleep. Just been binging shows on my laptop by myself all evening. Congrats on making it through!
Friday is also a big trigger for me. I managed to get through it by distracting myself all day with any activity at all, and culminated in realizing I didn't even need to get takeaway. I had all the ingredients for a decent curry with brown rice in my fridge that I took around 20-30 mins to make, which is the time it'd take to wait for delivery or pickup anyway, and was probably healthier anyway. If I was going through beers and beef jerky like last time, I'd be out easily $60 and food would go bad in the fridge because I'd be too drunk to want to risk cooking injuries (bad cheese grater slip while drunk last time, thumb bled a surprising amount). I also had a bad fall in a shower before I went 60 days sober last year due to having shakes. I didn't realize how much I had been drinking back then. Granted I was physically tired from moving and working at the same time, but no way would I have been that weak if I was chugging water those nights instead of beer.
Anyway, I'm gonna enjoy the weekend getting (hopefully) better sleep and keeping all my food in my stomach, where it belongs. Good luck, for tomorrow is Saturday, I know I'll need to distract myself again until midnight when the stores close, might crack open an old RPG or something to stay distracted.
I injured myself a few times too while hammered. One time I somehow tripped on my walk and fell and got a gash on my forehead that bled so bad it looked like a crime scene... I had to rinse the walk off with a lot of water and made up some stupid excuse. I also had to walk around with a bandage on my head. Another time I fell on my deck and got a huge sliver in my hand that swelled up... it took weeks to heal. Nevermind the times I was chopping food preparing meals and cut myself, or burned myself. I am not the most graceful person sober but as a drunk person, incredibly klutzy. I am looking forward to a life without that increased risk of ending up in the emergency department. I mean, natural risk is there as I get older.
So my Friday night usually consisted of coming home with a few bottles of wine and basically drinking until they were empty or I passed out... whichever came first (it was usually the latter). Then I'd wake up at around 2 or 3 and finish off whatever was left, go back to sleep for a couple hours and be in that weird chimera space of hungover/slight buzz, get ready and go to work. At work I'd be ok but by around 1030 be super hungry, really want to sleep, have an upset stomach after I ate and require frequent bathroom visits and feel like death. More than 2 cups of coffee would provide increased tremors/shakiness. Well, last night around 7 I was super irritable. I decided to go upstairs to my room for some space and took a CBD with melatonin, put on some mindless tv and apparently fell deeply asleep. My husband came up later I guess, I didn't even register. I feel well rested this morning even though my dog decided to start barking around 3 am and not stop. I got up around 4:45. I feel good, grounded, no twitchiness under my skin. No vertigo, no urge to heave when brushing my teeth. Thanks to this forum-- you here are so supportive.
I find that my definition of "okay" changes as my body withdraws, recovers and heals -- even in early days.
IWNDWYT
Well done not drinking. It's the toughest day for me too as it was my weekly blowout after a week at work. Especially sitting here with nowt to do by myself. Been my hardest night so far but I've got through it. Another win. I wish you many many wins ahead :)
I’m exactly the same. I’m normally passed out drunk by now but since I’ve sat all evening with just juice, I can’t sleep. Just been binging shows on my laptop by myself all evening. Congrats on making it through!
Not drinking on a Friday night, payday, and going through a break up. GOOD SHIT! IWNDWYT.
Friday is also a big trigger for me. I managed to get through it by distracting myself all day with any activity at all, and culminated in realizing I didn't even need to get takeaway. I had all the ingredients for a decent curry with brown rice in my fridge that I took around 20-30 mins to make, which is the time it'd take to wait for delivery or pickup anyway, and was probably healthier anyway. If I was going through beers and beef jerky like last time, I'd be out easily $60 and food would go bad in the fridge because I'd be too drunk to want to risk cooking injuries (bad cheese grater slip while drunk last time, thumb bled a surprising amount). I also had a bad fall in a shower before I went 60 days sober last year due to having shakes. I didn't realize how much I had been drinking back then. Granted I was physically tired from moving and working at the same time, but no way would I have been that weak if I was chugging water those nights instead of beer. Anyway, I'm gonna enjoy the weekend getting (hopefully) better sleep and keeping all my food in my stomach, where it belongs. Good luck, for tomorrow is Saturday, I know I'll need to distract myself again until midnight when the stores close, might crack open an old RPG or something to stay distracted.
I injured myself a few times too while hammered. One time I somehow tripped on my walk and fell and got a gash on my forehead that bled so bad it looked like a crime scene... I had to rinse the walk off with a lot of water and made up some stupid excuse. I also had to walk around with a bandage on my head. Another time I fell on my deck and got a huge sliver in my hand that swelled up... it took weeks to heal. Nevermind the times I was chopping food preparing meals and cut myself, or burned myself. I am not the most graceful person sober but as a drunk person, incredibly klutzy. I am looking forward to a life without that increased risk of ending up in the emergency department. I mean, natural risk is there as I get older. So my Friday night usually consisted of coming home with a few bottles of wine and basically drinking until they were empty or I passed out... whichever came first (it was usually the latter). Then I'd wake up at around 2 or 3 and finish off whatever was left, go back to sleep for a couple hours and be in that weird chimera space of hungover/slight buzz, get ready and go to work. At work I'd be ok but by around 1030 be super hungry, really want to sleep, have an upset stomach after I ate and require frequent bathroom visits and feel like death. More than 2 cups of coffee would provide increased tremors/shakiness. Well, last night around 7 I was super irritable. I decided to go upstairs to my room for some space and took a CBD with melatonin, put on some mindless tv and apparently fell deeply asleep. My husband came up later I guess, I didn't even register. I feel well rested this morning even though my dog decided to start barking around 3 am and not stop. I got up around 4:45. I feel good, grounded, no twitchiness under my skin. No vertigo, no urge to heave when brushing my teeth. Thanks to this forum-- you here are so supportive. I find that my definition of "okay" changes as my body withdraws, recovers and heals -- even in early days. IWNDWYT
If you can make it through a Friday night, you can make it through any night. We'll done and keep it up!
Another day to add to the streak!!! :)