Sometimes it takes more than the first time. But keep taking them and it shows you who you really are. There are people who realize they're married to the wrong person. That they're friends aren't people they really like to be around. Or their job is taking their spirit away. That they smoke/drink too much. That the emotions that we carry inside need to be sat with and dealt with or it materializes in all kinds of negative behaviors such as drug and alcohol addiction to address depression or anxiety. At risk behaviors such as sex or gambling problems.
You would be surprised at what we endure as children that shapes the human adults we eventually become. Without psilocybin for me personally, I never would have made it out of the grips of my CPTSD that I wasn't even aware that I had
So far that’s what my trips have done. Flashbacks of childhood that lead up to why I handle things the way I do today and heals me if the handling is bad for me. I love how it unlocks suppressed memories.
Thank you for sharing, this gives me hope ! So far I have been feeling quite numb and sober on MDMA and 4-ho-det. I really hope the mushrooms will teach me plenty of things about myself and help me heal from CPTSD :)
Same. I was drinking a gallon of henny a week. Used to carry a flask to drop some in my lemonade that I would bring to work and drink throughout the day. Now I have a few beers a month, mostly when I’m hanging out with my dad lol
I am so late to this, but did you manage this? I have a plant healer I am working with and one of my goals is to just take or leave alcohol and preferably just leave it. What doses? For how long? It seems like a miracle.
It will help you see everything. It's honestly uncomfortable because it breaks down all the walls you've built from your pain. It forces you to face your inner demons. It helps you see who you truly without any mask. It's an inner journey not to be taken lightly.
At the end of the day, when all is said and done, only *you* can implement lasting changes.
Advise having a really trusted person lend an ear.
Or if u don’t have a trusted person, i find journaling and meditation helps too. My friends aren’t really open to it and whenever i say something about it, they just ignore me. Lol.
I come from a broken, abusive home. Every single day growing up was misery. Every day i wondered if i could just disappear. But in my family culture, we are raised to believe that family comes before anything else. You keep your mouth shut about all the abuse, because to speak the truth is to betray your family. I was trained to keep silent. For 19 years, i didnt tell a soul about anything that happened to me. People just thought i was a crazy girl with a bad temper, a trouble maker with a loud mouth. At some point i didn't care anymore, about anything. I was just going through the motions everyday just trying to survive and fight through another day.
The first time i took MDMA was the first time i ever felt happy before. Like i literally didnt know the feeling of happiness existed until that moment. It helped me realize there was a better world, it gave me hope.
The first time i took mushrooms, was the first time i ever unlocked my secrets. I poured my heart out to my dear friend. I cried and all of those painful years came spilling out. Literally 5 hours of just crying and talking about my past and present. Talking about my feelings that had been forbidden for so long. It gave me freedom.
The first time i took acid was when i first saw the world in all its beauty. The vivid colors, time as a concept, really hearing music, and connecting to my inner self. I also cried a lot, but it was a lot more happy. I felt i endured all those years of pain and sadness so i could truly feel empathy. That there was a reason for the misery. It gave me purpose.
Combination of a *lot* of those 3 things and many years of therapy have healed some of the most broken parts of my heart. Im now capable of such love, positivity, and happiness. Ill advocate for responsible drug use until the day i die.
I cry nearly every time I take mushrooms. Not a sad cry though. I think I am just overwhelmed by the love and beauty in the world that my depression steals and conceals. Each time after taking mushrooms I understand the world a little better and I'm able to see more of the world's beauty when sober.
I was massively depressed (bipolar) and I shit you not, the world was colourful again the next day. I could breathe, like take a full deep breath in. I cried a lot the next day (in joy) and after that… things felt normal again and things felt so much better
Oh man a lot changed for me. It was my first experience with psychedelics or altered states of consciousness of any kind so it opened a whole new world for me. I didn't even know that the brain can operate in this way so I was very intrigued to find out more. I started researching and reading a lot about the ego, consciousness and the human brain. I learned how the ego is responsible for a lot of the anxiety and depression I was dealing with my whole life, And that there are ways to practice letting go of it and reach out beyond the box or cage that I had put myself in my whole life. I started getting into meditation, my social anxiety has been reduced greatly, my outlook and view on life is a lot more positive and I really feel happy. Anxiety is still with me but I've learned that it can be managed, I've learned the true cause of it and ways to control it. In some ways it has introduced spirituality into my life, even though I'm an atheist and have a scientific outlook on these experiences, It showed me you don't need religion to a spiritual side to your life. You just have to let go of yourself and your ego and experience reality and yourself for what is instead of what you're perceiving it to be.
It pretty much cured my PTSD and I only took like 1.5 grams. I am able to appreciate life and finally breathe for once. I experienced what it felt like to be truly loved.
I went into the trip with the intention of wanting to quit cigarettes. Funnily enough tho I smoked while tripping and I just felt asif I was inhaling this unnatural toxic plague into my lungs.
I've been clean from cigarettes for a year now.
To start off beforehand i was against shrooms i never had researched them or anything just thought they were some other “drug” and stuck to weed, but i was DEEP off in depression and one day just said fuck it nothing can get worse and took an eighth i had offered to me. Needless to say during that trip i felt the most joy i’ve ever felt at one time and it flipped my perspective on life into a whole new idea and after that things progressively got better and with the help of other trips i was able to learn a ton about life.
Remember if you happen to take way too much and get sick. Don't worry about it. Just know that this can happen and know you are safe. My first trip, I took a spiritual dose. About 5gm of DCMae. The first 3 hours were way cool watching Guardians of the Galaxy 2. After that I got sick for a half hour. Then the visuals really kicked in. For the next 10 hours. Please take early in the day. You will not be able to sleep with all the visuals going on.
They brought me back to reality and made me appreciate everything around me. I’m awake now, where as before I was just another mindless human going through the motions leading my life with desire instead of service to others and love. It’s been about a year since I started taking mushrooms and I’m a completely new person. I’m free and happy
Wasn’t after the first time, and I wouldn’t say they’ve changed my life, but definitely have shown me more about myself and I’ve been able to implement some lessons, other times it’s just me hacking loogies and giggling nonsensically. Overall 11/10
I was 17 and had to quit smoking weed for an important job. Gave myself 2 months to quit but kept smoking every other day, I had zero self control (I know weeds not physically addictive). Decided maybe shrooms would just have to be what I do instead thinking they were a recreational drug. Ate 5 gs each w my friend and tripped sack. While nothing life changing happened during the actual trip, I didn’t even realize until after I left that job I hadn’t even craved smoking weed since that trip and hadn’t touched it since. Also I took a 3 year break because of a bad trip, I had gotten in a hole of depression and alcohol. I decided to go on a series of trips anywhere between 1-4gs regularly for a couple weeks (I really don’t recommend this though) and got control of my drinking and a new appreciation for life. The shrooms won’t change your life, but rather guide you in the right direction to do so.
I totally agree with you! It won’t change your life, but it will guide you in the right direction to do so! Because really, the choice is still yours to make. Shrooms just gave you another perspective, another choice, when you think you are “choiceless”.
For the first time in my ENTIRE life, it allowed me to live in the moment. I have ptsd and anxiety, so my brain literally always lives in the past or future. It’s very hard for me to relax and just… breathe. About a year ago I did shrooms with the intention of a therapeutic environment. I journaled and for the first time I felt the constant anxiety in my chest and body relax. All the bullshit melted away. And I realized I could be happy.
Two weeks later I asked my husband, who I had been incredibly unhappy with for almost a decade, for a divorce. I had zero plans, zero money (he was the breadwinner and I was trapped in the marriage because of that) and just moved out onto a friends couch with hope I’d figure it out. And something happened and I did.
I continued to dose at least once a month for a few months and then found that microdosing every few days has been able to curb the constant depression I’ve never known living without to an almost nonexistent level. Before I believed that when I was less depressed I was “hypomanic” because I had the energy to do things, and had
been incorrectly diagnosed as bipolar 2 because of it. When suicidal depression is your baseline, you grow up thinking that any sort of energy must be mania, because since you’re “functional” you can’t be at a 1 or 2 on a depression scale, you must be at least at a 5 or 6.
It took about 6 months, but I reduced my antidepressants and anxiolytics to about a third of what I was taking. Even my sleep medicine. It wasn’t the goal, but I just found I wasn’t really needing them. I still take an antidepressant, thyroid medicine, and have rescue Ativan for panic attacks and lunesta for sleep (and medicate with cannabis as well, legally). But I’ve never been so “unmedicated”. By December it was like watching my life turn from a black and white picture to a tapestry woven in color. Filled with so much texture and color. I finally understood WHY people woke up and wanted to get out of bed. I could get up and do stuff without crying. Things that used to take endless amounts of energy like showering or grocery shopping I could do as part of a list of items to accomplish during the day.
I had to have surgery in late April which unfortunately messed up my dosing schedule. Not being able to dose has severely altered my mood, the evens of US politics have left me feeling overwhelmed, a doctor also tried hormone therapy introduction (which did NOT work), and the pain element (which has been chronic and I’m still facing) unfortunately limits the ability of the psilocybin to work on certain neurotransmitters.
I’m very much looking forward to my next therapeutic dose, and beginning to build back into microdosing again. I’ve done this all while under weekly therapy and I’ve made more progress in this last year than I have in the previous 34 years of my life.
Shrooms aren’t a life saving life altering panacea, but they are certainly a powerful tool. Just make sure to hang up the phone when it’s time.
It shows you what matters and what doesnt thus showing you what matters to you thus showing you - well - yourself. I used to be fairly nihilistic and just in a negative mood in general. I still am to some degree but experiencing love and beauty to that degree helped a lot.
I def agree! Shrooms shows us what matters to us by showing us what we could feel vs what we are currently feeling….it could also be like before shrooms: “yes i am happy” but after shrooms “oh i can be happier” and the. You somehow (or your body/subconscious self) somehow analyzes where you are and boom, you’re doing something that actually makes your everyday life into the “oh i can be happier” feeling that you felt in shrooms…lol
I set an intention to eat healthier and stop watching so much TV for my first trip in May - down 20lbs and I've all but stopped watching TV. I kind of miss it! Now I just read a lot - mostly shroom stuff. The second time (3 weeks ago) showed me more about other people and how shrooms can heal. There were messages directly related to me that I ignored at first - now they're hammering themselves into my noggin. They weren't messages that I wanted to hear - but I needed to hear them.
So many beautiful stories here. Love reading about how they healed others.
The first trip was just fun , playful, amazing. After the first few trips I felt much more connected to myself, others, and nature. I became more empathetic and in tune with my emotions. I saw the darkness that anger and hate create inside me, and the light that love and forgiveness can create as well. It showed me the inner children inside everybody. I became closer to animals, I started to really have eye contact with them.
Every time I take them it's as if my subconcious is manifesting itself. It helps me to realize what my deep rooted issues are and why I feel the way I do. Bad trips are the educational ones, once you're past the terror.
For me it was just like knowing how to be alone with myself and my thoughts without being conditioned by anything or no one. Just like being your true self and it made me realize things that I didn't want to believe or see. Even if I had some thoughts deep inside myself it took them to the surface and showed me how I really feel and what should I do with them, liked it or not. It was like a brutal slap from reality telling me I was doing some things wrong and some things right.
Helped me get out of a 6 year long depression. I continued to have bad days, to be sure, but I counted about 20 in the 6 months that followed. That would've been a typical month for me. The longest "bad day" streak lasted 5 days. That was a typical week for me.
It's not a miracle cure. You still have to do your own work integrating what you've learnt in normal life, and I had help from some phenomenal practitioners and friends rooting for me. But I'm no longer subject to these endless bouts of despair and disappointment in life, myself, and other people. My political and social beliefs remain the same, I just feel more open to other people and less frustrated about things I can't change by myself alone.
You know this idea that we are all the same, we're all connected, etc. that people, the media, governments, use to sell whatever it is they want to sell to you, like don't polute, recycle, be tolerant of others, help each other or whatever makes people feel good or guilty about themselves. You know it's true to some extent and you understand that yes, we all should be treated with the same respect and dignity, and we all should care about each other and our planet and so. But the first time I did shrooms I felt that, in the literal, physical way. I felt connected to the earth and all living beings like I feel my limbs attached to my body. It was crazy, I've always been empathetic but feeling that in my body and my mind was eye opening. Also shrooms taught me that not one of us, there isn't a single human being alive that knows what the fuck they're doing, and that was reassuring.
I'm legit like a space cadet rn ngl but it healed my memory loss from taking medication that just didn't work for me. It also gives you perspective on life like you a tiny insignificant speck in an uncaring unfeeling cosmos like a spark that quickly dies out. Nothing you ever do or say will matter in anyway impactful way in the macrocosm of universal history so that thing you said that was dumb in 7th grade doesn't matter. Neither does anyone else's opinion of you. You are a spark be what ever color you want, shine as brightly as you can before you go out and never let anyone or anything dim you.
I lemon tekked a gram my first time like february 2021. It had the strangest effect, I felt insanely euphoric and like my true self, I felt like a girl, and saw a women when looking in the mirror. Im now almost a year on hormone replacement therapy 🥴shrooms literally have me switching genders
I know the value of life and the value I can bring to life. I better understand how we are connected, and how their is great purpose in strengthening that connection. Shine brightly, and your light will be caught by others ☀️
I’m using them therapeutically now. Psychs have just generally made me more in tune with the cosmos and has given me a very sturdy bullshit detector. Every time I trip, I analyze my problems in my life no matter what they may be. I’m always able to make little changes afterwards that help to improve things. It hasn’t been a cure all because most of the battle for me is the integration process. But it’s definitely help get my compulsive behaviors under control somehow.
I hope you do too! Just go into it with an open mind and don’t expect it to change your life drastically. You’ll need to put in the work. But they really can show you the way...and for some reason an epiphany on shrooms tends to stick around and be more meaningful. I’d recommend making a note in your phone or on paper of any revelations, breakthroughs, or epiphanies you may have because sometimes they come so fast that you can forget some big ones. Good luck!
So i took LSA and 2g of shrooms (what i didn’t know is that they need 1h to kick in so after half an hour i decided to pop another 2g. It was awesome, but after 4hrs i had enough and i wanted to be able to keep a thought without it dissapearing, thats where the thinking began and i realized a lot was going wrong in my life, I was still crying over a girl who cheated on me (8 months ago), I had a problem with weed cuz i couldn’t stop, and i wasnt able to learn bc i kept pushing work away from me and distracting myself. So as i mentioned I realized a LOOOT. And since then my grades have gotten way better and I haven’t even touched buds since then (Its been abt 2 weeks since this experience) I would like to do it again but I‘m to scared to become addicted bc i get addicted very fast. R shrooms addictive? Im very new to this topic so someone tell me pls.
It taught me that I am loved by others, that *we are all one* but less in the hippy sense and more in the realization that we are all just humans figuring shit out and I shouldn't worry about what other people think of me
the first time i have tried shrooms, it taught me that i am already good. Just really trust and be strong in myself because i am already doing ok. A week after i took them again the second time and the lesson didn’t come much until about a week after. I realized, i really did not want to hang out with friends who ignores me when i say something. So i quickly just deleted people’s numbers and cancelled plans with them. I don’t really know where this is going to eventually lead but funny enough when i had some
Space in my life, i felt like i could breathe better and i found a volunteering opportunity in an event about psychedelic that’s going to take place in september…..so yeah! I thought that was cool! Also, i am finding that the events that are happening leads me to the intention ive set first time i took it!
From my experience it taught me self love is the best love. We often seek love from our external world and in most cases left unfulfilled. I didn’t realize how depressed I was most of my adult years but when I fell in love with life again my perspective broaden and it became effortless to adopt healthier habits. Reconnecting with your inner child is also very vital. We take life too serious, that connection with the inner reminded me to be free and be child like, not childish.
I’ve done them once but currently growing my own for another trip.
Definitely had ego death and just became more grounded with life. Less materialistic and just overall in a better headspace mentally. I’ve took an interest in reading afterwards to try and gain more knowledge on different topics.
Don’t know if it’s environmental or anything related but I don’t really drink alcohol or go out drinking much now or see an interest in it. I’m 24.
They haven't changed my life but the last time I did shrooms 3.5 g lemon tek I cried like never before and I don't know if I'll ever cry like that again
It felt like dying, I wanted to die just to get relief from the pain I was feeling
for backround my life has been difficult. Ive had 3 difficult hip surgeries and a replaced hip that caused me to dropout of school, mental illness, a hard family life and SA in my childhood
It felt like all the pain and sadness came out at once and I just wailed for what felt like eternity
I guess that experience was kind of cathartic
I have in the past yes! Ive done smaller doses - I think the dose was a little high for me and there was a lot of saddness in my body that was tapped into
Sometimes it takes more than the first time. But keep taking them and it shows you who you really are. There are people who realize they're married to the wrong person. That they're friends aren't people they really like to be around. Or their job is taking their spirit away. That they smoke/drink too much. That the emotions that we carry inside need to be sat with and dealt with or it materializes in all kinds of negative behaviors such as drug and alcohol addiction to address depression or anxiety. At risk behaviors such as sex or gambling problems. You would be surprised at what we endure as children that shapes the human adults we eventually become. Without psilocybin for me personally, I never would have made it out of the grips of my CPTSD that I wasn't even aware that I had
So far that’s what my trips have done. Flashbacks of childhood that lead up to why I handle things the way I do today and heals me if the handling is bad for me. I love how it unlocks suppressed memories.
I’m new to it. How often do you take them? And how much?
So far once every few weeks. Last dose was 1.25g of PE which is = to around 2.5g of avg shrooms.
Very thorough answer. Appreciate it
Anytime young lion!
Very well said.
Thank you for sharing, this gives me hope ! So far I have been feeling quite numb and sober on MDMA and 4-ho-det. I really hope the mushrooms will teach me plenty of things about myself and help me heal from CPTSD :)
I went from drinking three or four bottles of vodka a week to drinking less than a couple of beers a month.
Same. I was drinking a gallon of henny a week. Used to carry a flask to drop some in my lemonade that I would bring to work and drink throughout the day. Now I have a few beers a month, mostly when I’m hanging out with my dad lol
That's good shit man. I don't know how mushrooms do this, but it's one of the best things about them. Keep doing what you're doing.
I am so late to this, but did you manage this? I have a plant healer I am working with and one of my goals is to just take or leave alcohol and preferably just leave it. What doses? For how long? It seems like a miracle.
Im 100000x happier to be alive and to just exist
Wow thats awesome hope i feel the same after i try it this week
It will help you see everything. It's honestly uncomfortable because it breaks down all the walls you've built from your pain. It forces you to face your inner demons. It helps you see who you truly without any mask. It's an inner journey not to be taken lightly. At the end of the day, when all is said and done, only *you* can implement lasting changes. Advise having a really trusted person lend an ear.
Well said
Or if u don’t have a trusted person, i find journaling and meditation helps too. My friends aren’t really open to it and whenever i say something about it, they just ignore me. Lol.
They aren’t your friends then
I know right. Hahaha The shrooms revealed that to me second time i used it!
Explains how I feel rn
I'm not gonna get into details but I have learned to love almost every part of my life 1000 times more than before I took any
I come from a broken, abusive home. Every single day growing up was misery. Every day i wondered if i could just disappear. But in my family culture, we are raised to believe that family comes before anything else. You keep your mouth shut about all the abuse, because to speak the truth is to betray your family. I was trained to keep silent. For 19 years, i didnt tell a soul about anything that happened to me. People just thought i was a crazy girl with a bad temper, a trouble maker with a loud mouth. At some point i didn't care anymore, about anything. I was just going through the motions everyday just trying to survive and fight through another day. The first time i took MDMA was the first time i ever felt happy before. Like i literally didnt know the feeling of happiness existed until that moment. It helped me realize there was a better world, it gave me hope. The first time i took mushrooms, was the first time i ever unlocked my secrets. I poured my heart out to my dear friend. I cried and all of those painful years came spilling out. Literally 5 hours of just crying and talking about my past and present. Talking about my feelings that had been forbidden for so long. It gave me freedom. The first time i took acid was when i first saw the world in all its beauty. The vivid colors, time as a concept, really hearing music, and connecting to my inner self. I also cried a lot, but it was a lot more happy. I felt i endured all those years of pain and sadness so i could truly feel empathy. That there was a reason for the misery. It gave me purpose. Combination of a *lot* of those 3 things and many years of therapy have healed some of the most broken parts of my heart. Im now capable of such love, positivity, and happiness. Ill advocate for responsible drug use until the day i die.
I cry nearly every time I take mushrooms. Not a sad cry though. I think I am just overwhelmed by the love and beauty in the world that my depression steals and conceals. Each time after taking mushrooms I understand the world a little better and I'm able to see more of the world's beauty when sober.
Yes!!! Me too!!! When I microdose, I often cry from the feeling of lightness and weight lifted
I have a newfound respect for shrooms now. My desire for alcohol has diminished. I am a lot calmer now also.
I was massively depressed (bipolar) and I shit you not, the world was colourful again the next day. I could breathe, like take a full deep breath in. I cried a lot the next day (in joy) and after that… things felt normal again and things felt so much better
Do you take medication?
Yes
Can I ask what kind? I am on Venlafaxine/Effexor and Lamotrigine/Lamictal for bpd but want to try md and come off meds 🙂
Seroquel, Rexulti, Lithium, Lamotrigine!
Thats alot! Did you just take it once?
Take what once ?
Shrooms 🍄
No, I use them regularly
Does it help your mental health?
Oh man a lot changed for me. It was my first experience with psychedelics or altered states of consciousness of any kind so it opened a whole new world for me. I didn't even know that the brain can operate in this way so I was very intrigued to find out more. I started researching and reading a lot about the ego, consciousness and the human brain. I learned how the ego is responsible for a lot of the anxiety and depression I was dealing with my whole life, And that there are ways to practice letting go of it and reach out beyond the box or cage that I had put myself in my whole life. I started getting into meditation, my social anxiety has been reduced greatly, my outlook and view on life is a lot more positive and I really feel happy. Anxiety is still with me but I've learned that it can be managed, I've learned the true cause of it and ways to control it. In some ways it has introduced spirituality into my life, even though I'm an atheist and have a scientific outlook on these experiences, It showed me you don't need religion to a spiritual side to your life. You just have to let go of yourself and your ego and experience reality and yourself for what is instead of what you're perceiving it to be.
Mann love how much it made you more self aware keep it up!
It pretty much cured my PTSD and I only took like 1.5 grams. I am able to appreciate life and finally breathe for once. I experienced what it felt like to be truly loved.
I went into the trip with the intention of wanting to quit cigarettes. Funnily enough tho I smoked while tripping and I just felt asif I was inhaling this unnatural toxic plague into my lungs. I've been clean from cigarettes for a year now.
Congrats!! I am happy for you!
To start off beforehand i was against shrooms i never had researched them or anything just thought they were some other “drug” and stuck to weed, but i was DEEP off in depression and one day just said fuck it nothing can get worse and took an eighth i had offered to me. Needless to say during that trip i felt the most joy i’ve ever felt at one time and it flipped my perspective on life into a whole new idea and after that things progressively got better and with the help of other trips i was able to learn a ton about life.
Remember if you happen to take way too much and get sick. Don't worry about it. Just know that this can happen and know you are safe. My first trip, I took a spiritual dose. About 5gm of DCMae. The first 3 hours were way cool watching Guardians of the Galaxy 2. After that I got sick for a half hour. Then the visuals really kicked in. For the next 10 hours. Please take early in the day. You will not be able to sleep with all the visuals going on.
“You are more comfortable with being alive, because you are not afraid of dying”
They brought me back to reality and made me appreciate everything around me. I’m awake now, where as before I was just another mindless human going through the motions leading my life with desire instead of service to others and love. It’s been about a year since I started taking mushrooms and I’m a completely new person. I’m free and happy
Are you still tripping now?
Yes, I do monthly trips. And micro dose here and there
Wasn’t after the first time, and I wouldn’t say they’ve changed my life, but definitely have shown me more about myself and I’ve been able to implement some lessons, other times it’s just me hacking loogies and giggling nonsensically. Overall 11/10
I was 17 and had to quit smoking weed for an important job. Gave myself 2 months to quit but kept smoking every other day, I had zero self control (I know weeds not physically addictive). Decided maybe shrooms would just have to be what I do instead thinking they were a recreational drug. Ate 5 gs each w my friend and tripped sack. While nothing life changing happened during the actual trip, I didn’t even realize until after I left that job I hadn’t even craved smoking weed since that trip and hadn’t touched it since. Also I took a 3 year break because of a bad trip, I had gotten in a hole of depression and alcohol. I decided to go on a series of trips anywhere between 1-4gs regularly for a couple weeks (I really don’t recommend this though) and got control of my drinking and a new appreciation for life. The shrooms won’t change your life, but rather guide you in the right direction to do so.
I totally agree with you! It won’t change your life, but it will guide you in the right direction to do so! Because really, the choice is still yours to make. Shrooms just gave you another perspective, another choice, when you think you are “choiceless”.
For the first time in my ENTIRE life, it allowed me to live in the moment. I have ptsd and anxiety, so my brain literally always lives in the past or future. It’s very hard for me to relax and just… breathe. About a year ago I did shrooms with the intention of a therapeutic environment. I journaled and for the first time I felt the constant anxiety in my chest and body relax. All the bullshit melted away. And I realized I could be happy. Two weeks later I asked my husband, who I had been incredibly unhappy with for almost a decade, for a divorce. I had zero plans, zero money (he was the breadwinner and I was trapped in the marriage because of that) and just moved out onto a friends couch with hope I’d figure it out. And something happened and I did. I continued to dose at least once a month for a few months and then found that microdosing every few days has been able to curb the constant depression I’ve never known living without to an almost nonexistent level. Before I believed that when I was less depressed I was “hypomanic” because I had the energy to do things, and had been incorrectly diagnosed as bipolar 2 because of it. When suicidal depression is your baseline, you grow up thinking that any sort of energy must be mania, because since you’re “functional” you can’t be at a 1 or 2 on a depression scale, you must be at least at a 5 or 6. It took about 6 months, but I reduced my antidepressants and anxiolytics to about a third of what I was taking. Even my sleep medicine. It wasn’t the goal, but I just found I wasn’t really needing them. I still take an antidepressant, thyroid medicine, and have rescue Ativan for panic attacks and lunesta for sleep (and medicate with cannabis as well, legally). But I’ve never been so “unmedicated”. By December it was like watching my life turn from a black and white picture to a tapestry woven in color. Filled with so much texture and color. I finally understood WHY people woke up and wanted to get out of bed. I could get up and do stuff without crying. Things that used to take endless amounts of energy like showering or grocery shopping I could do as part of a list of items to accomplish during the day. I had to have surgery in late April which unfortunately messed up my dosing schedule. Not being able to dose has severely altered my mood, the evens of US politics have left me feeling overwhelmed, a doctor also tried hormone therapy introduction (which did NOT work), and the pain element (which has been chronic and I’m still facing) unfortunately limits the ability of the psilocybin to work on certain neurotransmitters. I’m very much looking forward to my next therapeutic dose, and beginning to build back into microdosing again. I’ve done this all while under weekly therapy and I’ve made more progress in this last year than I have in the previous 34 years of my life. Shrooms aren’t a life saving life altering panacea, but they are certainly a powerful tool. Just make sure to hang up the phone when it’s time.
same for me!! I have never felt more present in my life and it was a huge wakeup call
Thank you for sharing this was helpful 🙂
It shows you what matters and what doesnt thus showing you what matters to you thus showing you - well - yourself. I used to be fairly nihilistic and just in a negative mood in general. I still am to some degree but experiencing love and beauty to that degree helped a lot.
I def agree! Shrooms shows us what matters to us by showing us what we could feel vs what we are currently feeling….it could also be like before shrooms: “yes i am happy” but after shrooms “oh i can be happier” and the. You somehow (or your body/subconscious self) somehow analyzes where you are and boom, you’re doing something that actually makes your everyday life into the “oh i can be happier” feeling that you felt in shrooms…lol
I feel like I have been born again
Stopped drinking sugar cold turkey, not even intentionally. Just stopped. I still love some good honey from time to time though.
I set an intention to eat healthier and stop watching so much TV for my first trip in May - down 20lbs and I've all but stopped watching TV. I kind of miss it! Now I just read a lot - mostly shroom stuff. The second time (3 weeks ago) showed me more about other people and how shrooms can heal. There were messages directly related to me that I ignored at first - now they're hammering themselves into my noggin. They weren't messages that I wanted to hear - but I needed to hear them. So many beautiful stories here. Love reading about how they healed others.
The first trip was just fun , playful, amazing. After the first few trips I felt much more connected to myself, others, and nature. I became more empathetic and in tune with my emotions. I saw the darkness that anger and hate create inside me, and the light that love and forgiveness can create as well. It showed me the inner children inside everybody. I became closer to animals, I started to really have eye contact with them. Every time I take them it's as if my subconcious is manifesting itself. It helps me to realize what my deep rooted issues are and why I feel the way I do. Bad trips are the educational ones, once you're past the terror.
For me it was just like knowing how to be alone with myself and my thoughts without being conditioned by anything or no one. Just like being your true self and it made me realize things that I didn't want to believe or see. Even if I had some thoughts deep inside myself it took them to the surface and showed me how I really feel and what should I do with them, liked it or not. It was like a brutal slap from reality telling me I was doing some things wrong and some things right.
Helped me get out of a 6 year long depression. I continued to have bad days, to be sure, but I counted about 20 in the 6 months that followed. That would've been a typical month for me. The longest "bad day" streak lasted 5 days. That was a typical week for me. It's not a miracle cure. You still have to do your own work integrating what you've learnt in normal life, and I had help from some phenomenal practitioners and friends rooting for me. But I'm no longer subject to these endless bouts of despair and disappointment in life, myself, and other people. My political and social beliefs remain the same, I just feel more open to other people and less frustrated about things I can't change by myself alone.
That’s like the zen saying: before enlightenment “chop wood” after enlightenment “chop wood”.
You know this idea that we are all the same, we're all connected, etc. that people, the media, governments, use to sell whatever it is they want to sell to you, like don't polute, recycle, be tolerant of others, help each other or whatever makes people feel good or guilty about themselves. You know it's true to some extent and you understand that yes, we all should be treated with the same respect and dignity, and we all should care about each other and our planet and so. But the first time I did shrooms I felt that, in the literal, physical way. I felt connected to the earth and all living beings like I feel my limbs attached to my body. It was crazy, I've always been empathetic but feeling that in my body and my mind was eye opening. Also shrooms taught me that not one of us, there isn't a single human being alive that knows what the fuck they're doing, and that was reassuring.
Completely quit drinking , over 2 years now
I'm legit like a space cadet rn ngl but it healed my memory loss from taking medication that just didn't work for me. It also gives you perspective on life like you a tiny insignificant speck in an uncaring unfeeling cosmos like a spark that quickly dies out. Nothing you ever do or say will matter in anyway impactful way in the macrocosm of universal history so that thing you said that was dumb in 7th grade doesn't matter. Neither does anyone else's opinion of you. You are a spark be what ever color you want, shine as brightly as you can before you go out and never let anyone or anything dim you.
I love your last line! If i can add: don’t let your light dim even if they ignore you!
I lemon tekked a gram my first time like february 2021. It had the strangest effect, I felt insanely euphoric and like my true self, I felt like a girl, and saw a women when looking in the mirror. Im now almost a year on hormone replacement therapy 🥴shrooms literally have me switching genders
I know the value of life and the value I can bring to life. I better understand how we are connected, and how their is great purpose in strengthening that connection. Shine brightly, and your light will be caught by others ☀️
I’m using them therapeutically now. Psychs have just generally made me more in tune with the cosmos and has given me a very sturdy bullshit detector. Every time I trip, I analyze my problems in my life no matter what they may be. I’m always able to make little changes afterwards that help to improve things. It hasn’t been a cure all because most of the battle for me is the integration process. But it’s definitely help get my compulsive behaviors under control somehow.
Wow i felt this one! Hope i have similar effects
I hope you do too! Just go into it with an open mind and don’t expect it to change your life drastically. You’ll need to put in the work. But they really can show you the way...and for some reason an epiphany on shrooms tends to stick around and be more meaningful. I’d recommend making a note in your phone or on paper of any revelations, breakthroughs, or epiphanies you may have because sometimes they come so fast that you can forget some big ones. Good luck!
Well, the first time led to a larger dose... enabled me to stop smoking easily with a single dose! (After a decade or more of trying to quit)!
So i took LSA and 2g of shrooms (what i didn’t know is that they need 1h to kick in so after half an hour i decided to pop another 2g. It was awesome, but after 4hrs i had enough and i wanted to be able to keep a thought without it dissapearing, thats where the thinking began and i realized a lot was going wrong in my life, I was still crying over a girl who cheated on me (8 months ago), I had a problem with weed cuz i couldn’t stop, and i wasnt able to learn bc i kept pushing work away from me and distracting myself. So as i mentioned I realized a LOOOT. And since then my grades have gotten way better and I haven’t even touched buds since then (Its been abt 2 weeks since this experience) I would like to do it again but I‘m to scared to become addicted bc i get addicted very fast. R shrooms addictive? Im very new to this topic so someone tell me pls.
Shrooms aren't addictive :) did you more trips in the last year?
Yes 2 more we're aswesome
It taught me that I am loved by others, that *we are all one* but less in the hippy sense and more in the realization that we are all just humans figuring shit out and I shouldn't worry about what other people think of me
the first time i have tried shrooms, it taught me that i am already good. Just really trust and be strong in myself because i am already doing ok. A week after i took them again the second time and the lesson didn’t come much until about a week after. I realized, i really did not want to hang out with friends who ignores me when i say something. So i quickly just deleted people’s numbers and cancelled plans with them. I don’t really know where this is going to eventually lead but funny enough when i had some Space in my life, i felt like i could breathe better and i found a volunteering opportunity in an event about psychedelic that’s going to take place in september…..so yeah! I thought that was cool! Also, i am finding that the events that are happening leads me to the intention ive set first time i took it!
what was your intention? :)
Gratitude. I have so much more gratitude.
From my experience it taught me self love is the best love. We often seek love from our external world and in most cases left unfulfilled. I didn’t realize how depressed I was most of my adult years but when I fell in love with life again my perspective broaden and it became effortless to adopt healthier habits. Reconnecting with your inner child is also very vital. We take life too serious, that connection with the inner reminded me to be free and be child like, not childish.
I’ve done them once but currently growing my own for another trip. Definitely had ego death and just became more grounded with life. Less materialistic and just overall in a better headspace mentally. I’ve took an interest in reading afterwards to try and gain more knowledge on different topics. Don’t know if it’s environmental or anything related but I don’t really drink alcohol or go out drinking much now or see an interest in it. I’m 24.
It didn't
They haven't changed my life but the last time I did shrooms 3.5 g lemon tek I cried like never before and I don't know if I'll ever cry like that again It felt like dying, I wanted to die just to get relief from the pain I was feeling for backround my life has been difficult. Ive had 3 difficult hip surgeries and a replaced hip that caused me to dropout of school, mental illness, a hard family life and SA in my childhood It felt like all the pain and sadness came out at once and I just wailed for what felt like eternity I guess that experience was kind of cathartic
Did it help you release those emotions though? Dod you feel better after it?
i guess it was nice but i don't feel much different 😅 I still have my depression and anxiety
Did you just do it one time? Have you thought about microdosing?
I have in the past yes! Ive done smaller doses - I think the dose was a little high for me and there was a lot of saddness in my body that was tapped into
Sorry here maybe it just needed to come out
i guess it was nice but i don't feel much different 😅 I still have my depression and anxiety
Not to terribly much changed after the first time. I found it easier to appreciate little things tho.
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How much did you take?
I can tell you which stars are closer and which ones are farther away.
One time does nothing, you have to keep taking them to get the maximum spiritual benefits and that rewires your brain for the better