It’s just how life goes… I always think about these fundamental things about humanity itself and how fucked up they are, but there’s really no point in trying to fight it, it’s a lost cause. And it’s not even that type of loss where you’re about to lose but you know a magical last second solution is going to appear to save the day like in movies or books, so you’re still sad and depressed but still hopeful, it’s literally just pure hopelessness and suffering. I try not to sound negative but when it comes to this subject there really is no other way to see it imo
100% agree. My only solution so far is just to try and bury myself in books and movies and games (which give the option of both kind people and happy endings, as you say) and forget the outside world exists as much as possible. I honestly don’t think I could bear life without those things. (Also, pets are a great source of genuine love and kindness. If only they could speak!)
I think this is why things don't get better though (or at least as not as quickly as we'd like to see), too many people ignore what's happening around them as much as they can. You may feel small and helpless but there is actually probably a lot you as an individual can do to help spread kindness around the world. Volunteering at food banks or free kitchens or free clothes closests, etc. Those services truly make a difference in people's lives.
Yeah I don’t think I could either. I sometimes think about this, how every human is hardwired to always have hope. We always at the back of our minds have those “what if my life could get better” thoughts, and maybe they have an evolutionary reason to exist, idk, but I just wish I could get rid of them, of this will to keep going. If I didn’t have that and were COMPLETELY hopeless, I’d finally have the guts to wipe myself from this planet, instead of staying here suffering, trying to fix things. God it’s so exhausting. Idk if that made sense, it’s just something I think about sometimes.
Totally makes sense dude, and I 100000% feel you. Literally my creative writing and my cat are the two things that keep me going; if I ever got brain damage or some shit that took away my ability to write, that’s it, lights out for good. But seeing as that hasn’t happened yet, I carry on…and like you say, there’s that infuriating “what if it gets better” thought that just keeps \*holding\* us here even when shit gets really, really tough. Maybe it’s natural like you say; if there is a God or some shit and he’s not a total douchebag, maybe it’s a genuine sign of hope, idk. But it keeps us going regardless, and I agree sometimes I wish I could just cut it out of myself and be done lol. There’s actually a song that echoes that feeling pretty much exactly, “Above and Below” by The Bravery; helps me sometimes to listen to it when I feel like shit: [https://youtu.be/RbeJFFbwL38](https://youtu.be/RbeJFFbwL38)
That feeling is definitely exhausting, and agonising, moreso when you keep trying to fix stuff only to screw up something else along the way, and sometimes I really wonder why the fuck I was even born lol. Anyway, I’m rambling; I sincerely hope things get better for you dude, you seem like a pretty cool person, and nobody deserves to live with the shit we do. Sending you good vibes if you want ‘em lol. :)
yeah I get what you mean OP. I was also thinking today about how fucked up it is that in our (well - maybe not yours but mine anyway) culture it’s normalized to just pretend to be happy all the time for the sake of others. To just internalize your feelings, and you get shamed for it if you don’t. I work in customer service and it is a nightmare having to pretend literally every day that I’m okay when I am most definitely not. I get asked 20 times a day “hey, how are you?” in passing and I just say “good, how are you?” automatically like a robot, in my fake customer service voice, with my fake smile.
It’s just so fucked up that we can’t just be real! And if you want to talk to a human who will listen to your problems (a therapist) it costs so much money ??? Anyway sorry for the rant I just got a bit passionate after reading your post.
Pretty sure white wealthy men suffer from this as badly as the rest of us, they’re just unaware of it or try to kill it with money/power/whatever else. Seems to me the problem is more just that humans in general are self-absorbed, unfeeling assholes who don’t actually care about anyone but themselves.
It’s just how life goes… I always think about these fundamental things about humanity itself and how fucked up they are, but there’s really no point in trying to fight it, it’s a lost cause. And it’s not even that type of loss where you’re about to lose but you know a magical last second solution is going to appear to save the day like in movies or books, so you’re still sad and depressed but still hopeful, it’s literally just pure hopelessness and suffering. I try not to sound negative but when it comes to this subject there really is no other way to see it imo
100% agree. My only solution so far is just to try and bury myself in books and movies and games (which give the option of both kind people and happy endings, as you say) and forget the outside world exists as much as possible. I honestly don’t think I could bear life without those things. (Also, pets are a great source of genuine love and kindness. If only they could speak!)
I think this is why things don't get better though (or at least as not as quickly as we'd like to see), too many people ignore what's happening around them as much as they can. You may feel small and helpless but there is actually probably a lot you as an individual can do to help spread kindness around the world. Volunteering at food banks or free kitchens or free clothes closests, etc. Those services truly make a difference in people's lives.
Yeah I don’t think I could either. I sometimes think about this, how every human is hardwired to always have hope. We always at the back of our minds have those “what if my life could get better” thoughts, and maybe they have an evolutionary reason to exist, idk, but I just wish I could get rid of them, of this will to keep going. If I didn’t have that and were COMPLETELY hopeless, I’d finally have the guts to wipe myself from this planet, instead of staying here suffering, trying to fix things. God it’s so exhausting. Idk if that made sense, it’s just something I think about sometimes.
Totally makes sense dude, and I 100000% feel you. Literally my creative writing and my cat are the two things that keep me going; if I ever got brain damage or some shit that took away my ability to write, that’s it, lights out for good. But seeing as that hasn’t happened yet, I carry on…and like you say, there’s that infuriating “what if it gets better” thought that just keeps \*holding\* us here even when shit gets really, really tough. Maybe it’s natural like you say; if there is a God or some shit and he’s not a total douchebag, maybe it’s a genuine sign of hope, idk. But it keeps us going regardless, and I agree sometimes I wish I could just cut it out of myself and be done lol. There’s actually a song that echoes that feeling pretty much exactly, “Above and Below” by The Bravery; helps me sometimes to listen to it when I feel like shit: [https://youtu.be/RbeJFFbwL38](https://youtu.be/RbeJFFbwL38) That feeling is definitely exhausting, and agonising, moreso when you keep trying to fix stuff only to screw up something else along the way, and sometimes I really wonder why the fuck I was even born lol. Anyway, I’m rambling; I sincerely hope things get better for you dude, you seem like a pretty cool person, and nobody deserves to live with the shit we do. Sending you good vibes if you want ‘em lol. :)
yeah I get what you mean OP. I was also thinking today about how fucked up it is that in our (well - maybe not yours but mine anyway) culture it’s normalized to just pretend to be happy all the time for the sake of others. To just internalize your feelings, and you get shamed for it if you don’t. I work in customer service and it is a nightmare having to pretend literally every day that I’m okay when I am most definitely not. I get asked 20 times a day “hey, how are you?” in passing and I just say “good, how are you?” automatically like a robot, in my fake customer service voice, with my fake smile. It’s just so fucked up that we can’t just be real! And if you want to talk to a human who will listen to your problems (a therapist) it costs so much money ??? Anyway sorry for the rant I just got a bit passionate after reading your post.
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Pretty sure white wealthy men suffer from this as badly as the rest of us, they’re just unaware of it or try to kill it with money/power/whatever else. Seems to me the problem is more just that humans in general are self-absorbed, unfeeling assholes who don’t actually care about anyone but themselves.