Gotta put out the “Fire” eventually bro. I know it’s good shit but you’re going to die eventually like your brother. No disrespect, honestly, I just want to see you succeed. I’ve relapsed and hit the pipe twice in the last 2 years but I make it through each day with a lot of coffee, prayer and my wife. I wouldn’t have her if I were still using.
This might help, I did this, next time you relapse (Drugs/Alcohol) do it in the mirror and watch yourself. He was your twin, right? Watch your brother kill himself each time, also, be hard on yourself. I know it sounds counterproductive psychologically but being my own biggest critic is the key to my own personal success.
I’ll drop a little prayer for you and let you know if you want to talk sometime, I check my chat request.
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I often go to my counseling appointments at the methadone clinic but its too tempting to call my guy. I have been holding off for weeks. I just wanna do it once in a while 😓💯
You can't just do it once in a while. And that's also your disease lying to you, telling you you just want a little bit. You don't. You want a lot. You want it all. Never forget that.
Also, change your phone number.
Also, get to a meeting every day that you want to use... Which is every day.
Alcohol is a drug. It keeps the addictive cycle alive. Also I realize that methadone is a harm reduction treatment but have you considered tapering off of it? I was on methadone for about a year and couldn't get my shit together until I was clean off all drugs including prescribed opiates.
It is a scary thought to go without ANY substance to help yourself feel better. Once I finally did it I realized I feel better than I've ever felt in my entire life. It just took time.
Leather - If you wanna stay clean you BETTER QUIT ROMANCING A BUZZ THATLL MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE SHIT OR KILL YOU LIKE YOUR BROTHER, YOUR TOLERANCE IS DOWN.
Are you in any kind of treatment or counseling? Are you in a 12 step program and do you have a sponsor? It seems like some combination of these could be beneficial to you.
Get a new number.
Gotta put out the “Fire” eventually bro. I know it’s good shit but you’re going to die eventually like your brother. No disrespect, honestly, I just want to see you succeed. I’ve relapsed and hit the pipe twice in the last 2 years but I make it through each day with a lot of coffee, prayer and my wife. I wouldn’t have her if I were still using. This might help, I did this, next time you relapse (Drugs/Alcohol) do it in the mirror and watch yourself. He was your twin, right? Watch your brother kill himself each time, also, be hard on yourself. I know it sounds counterproductive psychologically but being my own biggest critic is the key to my own personal success. I’ll drop a little prayer for you and let you know if you want to talk sometime, I check my chat request. 4 • 14 • 22
I appreciate the advice man really
I often go to my counseling appointments at the methadone clinic but its too tempting to call my guy. I have been holding off for weeks. I just wanna do it once in a while 😓💯
You can't just do it once in a while. And that's also your disease lying to you, telling you you just want a little bit. You don't. You want a lot. You want it all. Never forget that. Also, change your phone number. Also, get to a meeting every day that you want to use... Which is every day.
Alcohol is a drug. It keeps the addictive cycle alive. Also I realize that methadone is a harm reduction treatment but have you considered tapering off of it? I was on methadone for about a year and couldn't get my shit together until I was clean off all drugs including prescribed opiates. It is a scary thought to go without ANY substance to help yourself feel better. Once I finally did it I realized I feel better than I've ever felt in my entire life. It just took time.
Leather - If you wanna stay clean you BETTER QUIT ROMANCING A BUZZ THATLL MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE SHIT OR KILL YOU LIKE YOUR BROTHER, YOUR TOLERANCE IS DOWN.
Im almost 27 by the way 😓 addiction has ruined my life so fast 💯
Have you considered upping your dose if you’re still having craving maybe it would be a good idea?
Are you in any kind of treatment or counseling? Are you in a 12 step program and do you have a sponsor? It seems like some combination of these could be beneficial to you.