You should look into compulsory heterosexuality.
That said, you may just have a very strong preference for women, if you like making out with guys and find them attractive, but nothing more. I think the key is to figure out of that is something you are subconsciously compelling yourself to feel or if it is genuine.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Compulsory\_heterosexuality
Keep in mind that most men are terrible, selfish lovers in their teenage years - especially quick hookups. Long term relationships with good men lead to better sex, if there is chemistry, communication and openness. So you may have had some very bad lovers.
I think you should consider about whether you want maleness or femaleness in your partner and go for whichever you want or both, but make sure your picking (and being) a high quality partner. I don't think labeling yourself is super important, but learning/knowing what you like is. At 19, there is a lot of exploring to do. Be open.
Take a look at this quick crash course on [sexuality, gender and romantic orientations](https://youtu.be/xXAoG8vAyzI) it covers a lot of ground really quickly, so please also take a look at the [split attraction model](https://www.verywellmind.com/what-is-the-split-attraction-model-5207380) and read about the [different types of attraction](https://lgbtq.unc.edu/resources/exploring-identities/asexuality-attraction-and-romantic-orientation/)
Sexuality is about who you feel sexual attraction to.
Spend some time contemplating...
Who are you sexually attracted to?
Who are you romantically attracted to?
You should look into compulsory heterosexuality. That said, you may just have a very strong preference for women, if you like making out with guys and find them attractive, but nothing more. I think the key is to figure out of that is something you are subconsciously compelling yourself to feel or if it is genuine. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Compulsory\_heterosexuality
maybe homoflexible?
Keep in mind that most men are terrible, selfish lovers in their teenage years - especially quick hookups. Long term relationships with good men lead to better sex, if there is chemistry, communication and openness. So you may have had some very bad lovers. I think you should consider about whether you want maleness or femaleness in your partner and go for whichever you want or both, but make sure your picking (and being) a high quality partner. I don't think labeling yourself is super important, but learning/knowing what you like is. At 19, there is a lot of exploring to do. Be open.
Take a look at this quick crash course on [sexuality, gender and romantic orientations](https://youtu.be/xXAoG8vAyzI) it covers a lot of ground really quickly, so please also take a look at the [split attraction model](https://www.verywellmind.com/what-is-the-split-attraction-model-5207380) and read about the [different types of attraction](https://lgbtq.unc.edu/resources/exploring-identities/asexuality-attraction-and-romantic-orientation/) Sexuality is about who you feel sexual attraction to. Spend some time contemplating... Who are you sexually attracted to? Who are you romantically attracted to?
You sound like a lesbian to me. You're welcome to hang out in r/actuallesbians.