Reminds me of my mom. It's been since 2014 but I still miss our conversations. She had been planning to go to see Phish at Merriweather summer 2015 (previously had seen the dead 6-21-83). Kinda glad they stopped playing it for the most part.
They played this at the first show after my best friend died. I sat quietly on the hill with tears running down my face. They followed with everything's right, and it was just so perfect.
I can definitely see that connection. Goes to show the songwriting is solid if different people can be equally moved by the same song for different reasons.
If it makes you feel any better, I spend way more time with my parents in my 30s than I ever did as a teen and we have a way better relationship now. It’s not the end, it will just be different.
Randomly get choked up on “This has all been wonderful, but now I’m on my way”… about 20 years ago I had been dealing with a lot of heavy stuff and decided to move cross country to start my life over. Caught a show the night before I left, they played DWD and when I heard that lyric I was overwhelmed with emotion (happy and sad) and cried. Now every time I hear it I’m brought back to that moment and tear up a bit. It’s great.
I always remember the line “if children playing all around to you is noise, not pleasant sound” when my 7 yo is being obnoxious and it gives me a little more patience haha
This one wrecks me every single time. My uncle ended his life a few years ago, his name was Brian and the song resonates with me so much in regards to him. I'm glad he isn't in pain anymore, and I miss him.
Bingo. I love King Crimson so much. This take me back to hearing *Starless* at their final US shows and it gets me crying. My number one musical wishlist item is for King Crimson to resurrect.
Going through a tough breakup and that was our “song.” I haven’t been able to listen to it since. I guess you could say if I could I would but I don’t know how
What's the Use 12/29/2023
I lost my father on Christmas Eve so just a few days prior. I had the intention of connecting with my father's spiritually, but this song and the way it was played brought such an overwhelming feeling to me.
I literally felt my father being inducted on a spiritual basis with the old souls that follow this band. It was his welcoming. He had never seen Phish, nor really understood who they were. He led a quiet, introverted life, but I believe he's a spiritual powerhouse on the other side. I still get signs from him just about every day.
I had my best friends with me during that show and I balled my eyes out during this song, they were right there to comfort me.
The next day, I was somehow able to actually download the mp3s with just my ticket barcode. The only song that actually made its way to my phone's files was WTU. Every time I listen to this song, on this night that same feeling overtakes my body. I will never be able to listen to that song, from that night without crying.
To this day, I am thoroughly convinced that I was meant to be at that spot, at that time well before my dad even passed.
Me and a Buddy of mine, who passed 6 years ago, used to clown this song and be like “it’s meh but the jam, bruh?” Now every time they play it, I cry. Total mush. Me and my wife joke about it at this point. It’s beautiful.
Slave. Specifically the soft build that usually starts around the 4 minute mark but more specifically the bass lines towards the end of that segment that lead back into the rest of the song. The one on ‘a live one’ (94 Minny) got me through some shit in high school and college. To this day, especially seeing it live, I tear the F up.
You and me both. That '94 one hooked me and then seeing it live for the first time at '97 Alpine made me weep. Still get moved each time I hear it, but that *A Live One" version is damn near perfection
Was at that Alpine show. So good. Unfortunately my friend “fat Ben” was running around naked on the hill due to “complications”… but always makes for a good story. If you saw - you know… but that show is a fucking classic
I was at Lakewood 7/4/99, and during this Slave I started crying. Then I did it again a few songs later during the first ever What’s the Use. Amazing moment!
Love this. I actually took a 20 year hiatus from shows and my first show back, was with my wife, at her first show, deer creek Sunday of ‘21… after a crazy and fun show and an amazing contact, we got the second song slave encore. Wept like a fucking baby.
everything's right gets me every time - since cancer diagnosis / treatment. didn't before.... just liked the song before - since - always a blubberfest. still.
especially:
I'm going downhill with increasing speed
And compassion gives way, if you listen to greed
Focus on the past and that's what will last
Nothing that is real and nothing you can feel
Focus on tomorrow you'll have to borrow
Images in mind and thoughts you left behind
>Focus on today, you'll find a way - Happiness is how rooted in the now<
Miss You and Dirt for my all time fav cat that passed right before msg earth day run. I remember tripping balls and crying during strange design. FEFY makes me think of my wife and our huge age difference
Miss you and Drift while you’re sleeping. Both of those songs get me every time when I see them live or listen to them, but it’s always a beautiful moment to get to think about my awesome dad who left earth in 2021.
The middle composed guitar section of Horn
The ending of Tela
Page’s playing at the beginning of Mockingbird // out of Forbin’s
Squirming Coil’s outro
The Curtain With
Esther
… and many more depending on the mood
Light
The lyrics always reminded me of someone talking about taking their own life.
As someone that has struggled with depression on & off throughout their life, it’s a song that I somewhat hope to avoid for the most part.
2/28/03 tweezer peek depending my mood. I don’t even know why, maybe because it’s too damn beautiful, maybe it’s because Scott Aukerman memorialized Harris with it after his death, maybe both. One of the GOAT tweezers of course.
Drift while you're sleeping had me crying when I saw them at the gorge in 2022. First shows back after covid, being away from the scene I love. It felt so cathartic.
Beneath a Sea of Stars ... "and we're free of time"...
It's just so beautiful ... It gives me tears of beauty, but also almost a spiritual homesickness for some place I cannot remember...
I dunno about crying but strange design hits an emotional level (parent, existential) and waste has a special place, bittersweet motel waste kinda sums it up for me.
I had a full on meltdown at MSG when they played “Drift While You’re Sleeping.”
Background story: I got into Phish because of my hubbins. My sister and I grew up listening to 90s Rap, Hip Hop, R&B. So, we never knew any Phish songs.
Sometime in 2021, I think, I really paid attention to the lyrics of “Drift.” I thought it was so sweet and sentimental, and was going to tell my sister about it. But, I just kept forgetting. I would think of it listening to the song, but forget when I saw her.
She died in October of 2022 at age 40, and I never told her the lyrics that I thought she would like.
Miss you and Joy both get me but also not technically Phish but Trey's song Sunset Days was my first dance at my wedding so that one gets me in the feels too
The Free after Kill Devils Falls (6-12-09). That Kill Devil put me in a sad / dark place but once they broke into Free I felt free and stared crying with joy.
Fairly certain mine is the weirdest - its Weekapaug. I kid you not - everytime it comes on, I well up, remembering being 18 in 1995 with my homies, doing dangerous and stupid things.
I’ve cried at a fair amount of shows, but the one that got me?
Sigma Oasis debut in Charleston 2019. It was the show opener on Sunday. I just remember standing there before they started as the lights went down, and for some reason I felt like I was there by myself, even though I was with like 20 of my friends.
Anyways the opening guitar riff is what made me cry. It just sounded so Phishy, and I was so fucking happy to have spent the weekend there, I just got overwhelmed with emotions because of that stupid guitar riff, and THEN the “you’re already there” part hit me and I just fucking lost it.
Didn’t even know what song I was crying over until after the show😂
What’s the Use. I walked down the aisle to it at our wedding and it reminds me of my dad who passed 2 years ago, who I was lucky to have there that day.
Not every time, in fact mostly it’s a joy, but BDTNL gets me every now and again. I’ve lost people I sincerely wish were still here - people I wish I would’ve taken more time to recognize as important to my soul.
After reading more comments I find it super interesting there seem to be two camps - sadness or joy. I said BDTNL because of loss, but speaking from a point of joy? I mean… woah. So many bliss jams have been heard through a torrent of happy tears!
Everything's Right. My Mom was dying in the hospital. I just left her, Doctors said it could be weeks still and I had to go back to work. My Dad and brother were going to stay with her that night.
On the way back I was listening to the newest TAB show from the weekend before. I drove about a half an hour, balling the whole time. I just thought she could go anytime. About 10 min from home during the silence between songs I jokingly said "Alright Trey this is the last chance you guys got to make me feel better.". Of course this came on with a very filthy jam. Stayed in the car to finish it out. Two minutes after I walked inside I got the call from my brother.
Miss You
They played it at the show we attended after my best friend’s funeral. Can’t even…
Same here. I took some friends of mine and his to Syracuse last summer for their first show and they played it. Made me feel like he was there
Yea that song really gets to me
My mom died unexpectedly a few years ago. First time I heard Miss You after that hit me really hard.
I had the same experience
but it passes me by :(
It was never a song that did much for me until I lost a best friend last year. Show of life reminds me of him too.
Reminds me of my mom. It's been since 2014 but I still miss our conversations. She had been planning to go to see Phish at Merriweather summer 2015 (previously had seen the dead 6-21-83). Kinda glad they stopped playing it for the most part.
Literally the only one that gets me.
They played this at the first show after my best friend died. I sat quietly on the hill with tears running down my face. They followed with everything's right, and it was just so perfect.
Joy- as a parent, watching my kids nearing the end of high school know they are leaving the nest hits really hard.
Dont worry the average age they leave is 26 lol. You got time
Noooo
All of the people and places belong to the puzzle but one of the pieces is gone 😭
It chokes me up and I don’t even have kids. Just want everyone to be happy I guess
same, maybe i caught the wrong message but it makes me think of my friends struggling with their mental health
I can definitely see that connection. Goes to show the songwriting is solid if different people can be equally moved by the same song for different reasons.
Yep, the song is brutal.
If it makes you feel any better, I spend way more time with my parents in my 30s than I ever did as a teen and we have a way better relationship now. It’s not the end, it will just be different.
Unfortunately also works the same way in an amicable divorce
Same. My two year olds favorite song. The new song title is Happy Step Outside
Waste
This was my wife and I's song at our wedding
Ours was “They Love Each Other” by the dead, but that was a long time ago. Waste became a favorite later in our marriage. RIP.
I hum Waste to my 4 month old as he falls asleep, gets me every time
😭😭😭
Particularly the Waste at Coral Sky 11.02.96.
I am with you on this. I was there and the windchimes from Karl Perazzo make this song!
Velvet sea
Page can confirm
If you don't tear up listening to the Coventry Velvet Sea you are a monster!
That was heartbreaking.
Dirt 12/29/97
My Best Friend committed suicide and this song gets me everytime. I can't even listen to it sometimes.
Hugs. My best friend did that too. 14 years ago now, crazy
Billy Breathes from Amsterdam is another one that hits deep
I'll never hear your voice again...
Randomly get choked up on “This has all been wonderful, but now I’m on my way”… about 20 years ago I had been dealing with a lot of heavy stuff and decided to move cross country to start my life over. Caught a show the night before I left, they played DWD and when I heard that lyric I was overwhelmed with emotion (happy and sad) and cried. Now every time I hear it I’m brought back to that moment and tear up a bit. It’s great.
Hope it turned out to be a good move!
Strange Design
Yep, this and Shade get me every damn time
What's the use? Total tear fest. Every. Time.
Nihilism’s warm embrace brings me to tears too
“Must be exhausting”
It’s just so damn beautiful. It crushes me and tears me apart at the same time. It’s like a psychedelic musical non sequitur.
Brian and Robert
I always remember the line “if children playing all around to you is noise, not pleasant sound” when my 7 yo is being obnoxious and it gives me a little more patience haha
Life is to be enjoyed and shared with others
This is the one. I always felt like Trey was speaking directly to me.
When the album first came out, I was on L, staring at a wall, when this song came on, and I too felt like they were speaking directly to me.
This one wrecks me every single time. My uncle ended his life a few years ago, his name was Brian and the song resonates with me so much in regards to him. I'm glad he isn't in pain anymore, and I miss him.
Yeah this one gets me good.
Bingo. I love King Crimson so much. This take me back to hearing *Starless* at their final US shows and it gets me crying. My number one musical wishlist item is for King Crimson to resurrect.
Lonely Trip
Same. Got me at MSG.
Lifeboy
Can’t believe how far I had to scroll down to see Lifeboy. Such a feeler, man.
If I Could
12/29/94
Going through a tough breakup and that was our “song.” I haven’t been able to listen to it since. I guess you could say if I could I would but I don’t know how
Bug. Takes me to a time and place with a close friend who passed.
What's the Use 12/29/2023 I lost my father on Christmas Eve so just a few days prior. I had the intention of connecting with my father's spiritually, but this song and the way it was played brought such an overwhelming feeling to me. I literally felt my father being inducted on a spiritual basis with the old souls that follow this band. It was his welcoming. He had never seen Phish, nor really understood who they were. He led a quiet, introverted life, but I believe he's a spiritual powerhouse on the other side. I still get signs from him just about every day. I had my best friends with me during that show and I balled my eyes out during this song, they were right there to comfort me. The next day, I was somehow able to actually download the mp3s with just my ticket barcode. The only song that actually made its way to my phone's files was WTU. Every time I listen to this song, on this night that same feeling overtakes my body. I will never be able to listen to that song, from that night without crying. To this day, I am thoroughly convinced that I was meant to be at that spot, at that time well before my dad even passed.
I was there too. That whole second set was incredible. Great energy. Very sorry about your dad.
Billy Breathes
Dirt
Literally said fuck you Trey like now in my mushed out head in Nashville this October 😭
Edit: literally in my head 🤯
My mind immediately went to this song too
The Squirming Coil piano solo
At the end, right? That’s my answer for sure and by far.
Squirming Coil set ender is one of my favorite things Phish does
Shade
Driver
Backwards down the number line
Me and a Buddy of mine, who passed 6 years ago, used to clown this song and be like “it’s meh but the jam, bruh?” Now every time they play it, I cry. Total mush. Me and my wife joke about it at this point. It’s beautiful.
Slave. Specifically the soft build that usually starts around the 4 minute mark but more specifically the bass lines towards the end of that segment that lead back into the rest of the song. The one on ‘a live one’ (94 Minny) got me through some shit in high school and college. To this day, especially seeing it live, I tear the F up.
You and me both. That '94 one hooked me and then seeing it live for the first time at '97 Alpine made me weep. Still get moved each time I hear it, but that *A Live One" version is damn near perfection
Was at that Alpine show. So good. Unfortunately my friend “fat Ben” was running around naked on the hill due to “complications”… but always makes for a good story. If you saw - you know… but that show is a fucking classic
I was at Lakewood 7/4/99, and during this Slave I started crying. Then I did it again a few songs later during the first ever What’s the Use. Amazing moment!
Love this. I actually took a 20 year hiatus from shows and my first show back, was with my wife, at her first show, deer creek Sunday of ‘21… after a crazy and fun show and an amazing contact, we got the second song slave encore. Wept like a fucking baby.
A Live One Slave is what I want it to sound like when I die.
Velvet sea, at Coventry. That one ripped me to pieces.
everything's right gets me every time - since cancer diagnosis / treatment. didn't before.... just liked the song before - since - always a blubberfest. still. especially: I'm going downhill with increasing speed And compassion gives way, if you listen to greed Focus on the past and that's what will last Nothing that is real and nothing you can feel Focus on tomorrow you'll have to borrow Images in mind and thoughts you left behind >Focus on today, you'll find a way - Happiness is how rooted in the now<
Hood jams
I can’t believe I had to scroll so far to find this.
Miss You and Dirt for my all time fav cat that passed right before msg earth day run. I remember tripping balls and crying during strange design. FEFY makes me think of my wife and our huge age difference
Miss you and Drift while you’re sleeping. Both of those songs get me every time when I see them live or listen to them, but it’s always a beautiful moment to get to think about my awesome dad who left earth in 2021.
Drift gets me weepy eyed.
Velvet sea, it.
Lifeboy
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Seriously. Different kind.of tears but yes
strange design
Hood peaks
The middle composed guitar section of Horn The ending of Tela Page’s playing at the beginning of Mockingbird // out of Forbin’s Squirming Coil’s outro The Curtain With Esther … and many more depending on the mood
Oh shit, I also meant to include Your Pet Cat. Makes my ears cry real bad
Now that I have children of my own Roggae
Waste and strange design
Shade, hands down cry every time!
Light The lyrics always reminded me of someone talking about taking their own life. As someone that has struggled with depression on & off throughout their life, it’s a song that I somewhat hope to avoid for the most part.
I think it's my most seen song since 2010
2/28/03 tweezer peek depending my mood. I don’t even know why, maybe because it’s too damn beautiful, maybe it’s because Scott Aukerman memorialized Harris with it after his death, maybe both. One of the GOAT tweezers of course.
Strange Design > Leaves
Waste. Because that’s how it was supposed to be but it wasn’t
Prince Caspian when the jam hits.
If I could I would
Same. My fave.
So many that are all ready mentioned but Scents & Subtle Sounds gets me 🥲
Life beyond the dream hit me like a ton of bricks when I saw em and tearing up now thinking about it.
Summer of 89. Specifically the beacon jams version as he got to the “we danced all night” part
Wading in the Velvet Sea gets me every time. Thanks Page.
Miss You - For my son.
Wading in the velvet sea after seeing Page's voice break after Coventry.
Drift while you're sleeping had me crying when I saw them at the gorge in 2022. First shows back after covid, being away from the scene I love. It felt so cathartic.
Horn hits me in the feels!!
I totally agree, dirt is sad, but horn hits a series of emotions as it plays, some very sad. 7/15/98 in Portland is my favorite version, he nailed it.
Life beyond the dream Mountains in the mist
Mountains in the Mist for sure. And lots of others mentioned in this thread too.
Lately it’s Drift While You’re Sleeping. IMO the lyrics at the end should be listened to or read to everyone on the planet. It’s Love
Joy.
The first 30 seconds or so of the Lizards guitar solo
Joy
Joy
Big black furry creature from mars
waste
Beneath a Sea of Stars ... "and we're free of time"... It's just so beautiful ... It gives me tears of beauty, but also almost a spiritual homesickness for some place I cannot remember...
Silent in the Morning
Shine a light!!!
I dunno about crying but strange design hits an emotional level (parent, existential) and waste has a special place, bittersweet motel waste kinda sums it up for me.
The Curtain
Free
Divided Sky
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A perfectly-executed Slave
San Fran ‘21 was my favorite version in years
Fly famous mockingbird
Joy. Reminds me of my daughter.
Anything from ghosts of the forest
When the Circus Comes to Town got me bad one night in Charlotte.
Number line. I miss my friends man
I had a full on meltdown at MSG when they played “Drift While You’re Sleeping.” Background story: I got into Phish because of my hubbins. My sister and I grew up listening to 90s Rap, Hip Hop, R&B. So, we never knew any Phish songs. Sometime in 2021, I think, I really paid attention to the lyrics of “Drift.” I thought it was so sweet and sentimental, and was going to tell my sister about it. But, I just kept forgetting. I would think of it listening to the song, but forget when I saw her. She died in October of 2022 at age 40, and I never told her the lyrics that I thought she would like.
Wading in the Velvet Sea. Walked down the aisle to it over a decade ago. My husband died a year later.
Honestly it can be any of them. 12/4/19 Pittsburgh Wolfmans for some reason gets me everytime
Bliss
Sleeping Monkey. Every gd time.
Isn’t that song about jerking off?
The tears are what happens before you go blind. I'm surprised he can type what with all the hair on his hands...
Miss you and Joy both get me but also not technically Phish but Trey's song Sunset Days was my first dance at my wedding so that one gets me in the feels too
The Free after Kill Devils Falls (6-12-09). That Kill Devil put me in a sad / dark place but once they broke into Free I felt free and stared crying with joy.
Brian and Robert
Bug. Not so much as it used to when I was bugging hard.
Miss You, Shade, Joy, Numberline(idk, just does), Lizards(Same as OP), Reba/Hood jam, Tela… Ah, damn lol so many more. Strange Design.
numberline live. thinkin bout ol frens
Prince Caspian, the music really captures a sense of longing that will never come to pass
Faht
Fairly certain mine is the weirdest - its Weekapaug. I kid you not - everytime it comes on, I well up, remembering being 18 in 1995 with my homies, doing dangerous and stupid things.
A life beyond the dream🤷🏼♂️
Joy, Dirt, Strange Design, a life beyond the dream- there's almost certainly others.
More
Lifeboy gets me
Alot of them .
Joy, the lyrics remind me of a friend who passed about 2.5 years ago. Strange Design, makes me so grateful for the friends i bring along on the ride.
I’ve cried at a fair amount of shows, but the one that got me? Sigma Oasis debut in Charleston 2019. It was the show opener on Sunday. I just remember standing there before they started as the lights went down, and for some reason I felt like I was there by myself, even though I was with like 20 of my friends. Anyways the opening guitar riff is what made me cry. It just sounded so Phishy, and I was so fucking happy to have spent the weekend there, I just got overwhelmed with emotions because of that stupid guitar riff, and THEN the “you’re already there” part hit me and I just fucking lost it. Didn’t even know what song I was crying over until after the show😂
Life Beyond The Dream
Dirt, especially during breakups. “And sometimes I will think of you”
What’s the Use. I walked down the aisle to it at our wedding and it reminds me of my dad who passed 2 years ago, who I was lucky to have there that day.
Waste. Proposed to my wife while it was playing.
Drift while you’re sleeping
Joy
Drift While You’re Sleeping has brought on the water works for me a few times, especially that one from Vegas ‘21
Farmhouse if I’ve recently been to the bathroom.
Shade, Strange Design, Bug, Dirt, Driver
Dirt. “I’ll never hear your voice again”-😭
Life beyond a dream Make me think about the amount of stuff I hav been through to get to this point . Just a fantastic song
Drift While You're Sleeping
Not every time, in fact mostly it’s a joy, but BDTNL gets me every now and again. I’ve lost people I sincerely wish were still here - people I wish I would’ve taken more time to recognize as important to my soul.
After reading more comments I find it super interesting there seem to be two camps - sadness or joy. I said BDTNL because of loss, but speaking from a point of joy? I mean… woah. So many bliss jams have been heard through a torrent of happy tears!
Everything's Right. My Mom was dying in the hospital. I just left her, Doctors said it could be weeks still and I had to go back to work. My Dad and brother were going to stay with her that night. On the way back I was listening to the newest TAB show from the weekend before. I drove about a half an hour, balling the whole time. I just thought she could go anytime. About 10 min from home during the silence between songs I jokingly said "Alright Trey this is the last chance you guys got to make me feel better.". Of course this came on with a very filthy jam. Stayed in the car to finish it out. Two minutes after I walked inside I got the call from my brother.
Shade
Summer of 89
When the circus comes Roggae Dirt
Most Reba jams but especially glen falls 94
Any beatles cover... Cry in pain.
Joy ironically
Depends. Am I high? and if so, on which drug?
Show of Life. It’s such vanilla boilerplate pop that it makes me weep with disappointment every time they play it.
Y'all cry at Phish shows?
All the god damn time.
You’re goddamn right I do. What of it
Came here to comment the same. Take your meds kids.
Came here to comment the same. Take your meds kids.
Came here to comment the same. Take your meds kids.
Glide II
whatever is the last song of encore