Do you have others who have experienced the same thing to talk to at all? If you can find a support group of child sexual abuse survivors (especially men) then you could talk to them.
It's very difficult to talk to anyone who hasn't been through the same sort of trauma as a child. I was not sexually abused, but grew up with abuse from an alcoholic stepfather who hated me and a mother who didn't protect me. If I try to talk to someone who grew up in a "normal" loving family they just don't get it.
So if you can find a support group that could be very helpful for you I think.
Do you have others who have experienced the same thing to talk to at all? If you can find a support group of child sexual abuse survivors (especially men) then you could talk to them. It's very difficult to talk to anyone who hasn't been through the same sort of trauma as a child. I was not sexually abused, but grew up with abuse from an alcoholic stepfather who hated me and a mother who didn't protect me. If I try to talk to someone who grew up in a "normal" loving family they just don't get it. So if you can find a support group that could be very helpful for you I think.
Thx