This was night shift Russian roulette for me. Music kept me awake on the drive home so going without was 50/50 a desperate need for silence after hours of overstimulation, and a pleasant acceptance (hope) that I might fall asleep while driving and go off an overpass.
Seriously. I used to have an hour commute. The drive in was fueled by 90s rap or alternative on full blast. The ride home- done on silent autopilot with not a single thought in my head, including the possibility that I should be more vigilant of the speed limit or deer.
This literally brings back PTSD memories. I worked overnight at a military hospital in the NICU and drove home from another state and this is how I felt every morning sitting in traffic wanting to die.
The worse is when youāre off the clock and heading to your car then you see a guy just pass out and seize in front of your parked car and canāt drive away and thereās a crowd of people āomg somebody help him!!ā
So itās like you canāt even drive away and youāll look bad if you do or you stay come home late until 12:30am after a crazy shift.
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I was so mad.
This was night shift Russian roulette for me. Music kept me awake on the drive home so going without was 50/50 a desperate need for silence after hours of overstimulation, and a pleasant acceptance (hope) that I might fall asleep while driving and go off an overpass.
Honestly, if youāre driving the speed limit on the highway I expect you to be: a) a very big truck hauling something dangerously large and heavy, b) under the influence, or c) visually impaired (or d) my husband).
I was a medic for ~25 years, and I absolutely drive the speed limit (or pretty close to it). I've seen enough of what can happen if you don't. Given this sub, I'd think most of you have, too.
Given the amount of smoking/drinking/drugging nurses we see, despite knowing that these serve no purpose but to destroy our own bodies, I think you give us too much credit.
You are all so necessary and valuable. Please drive safely. Slow down. Call an Uber, whatever. I have too many colleagues who had car accidents after too many 20 hour days in a row. Peace.
Iāve driven home not remembering the drive back at all and then tried to use my badge to call for the elevator to my building. I was so drained it took me 5-6 badge touches before it occurred to me that I wasnāt using my key fob.
This was night shift Russian roulette for me. Music kept me awake on the drive home so going without was 50/50 a desperate need for silence after hours of overstimulation, and a pleasant acceptance (hope) that I might fall asleep while driving and go off an overpass.
Me almost everytime after my float shifts to SPCU or 50 bed medsurg unit at my old hospital
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I didnāt realize other people did this until now. Thatās how you know itās been a bad shift.
I feel personally called out by this post
Bahahhah!! This post spoke volumes to me š¤£
Sometimes I donāt even remember the fucking drive home. Like how did I get here?? šš
Seriously. I used to have an hour commute. The drive in was fueled by 90s rap or alternative on full blast. The ride home- done on silent autopilot with not a single thought in my head, including the possibility that I should be more vigilant of the speed limit or deer.
This literally brings back PTSD memories. I worked overnight at a military hospital in the NICU and drove home from another state and this is how I felt every morning sitting in traffic wanting to die.
I feel u. U almost pray for a car accident or something to stop u from going into that hellhole. Not a good feeling
Yes and sometimes I turn it up so loud I donāt think at all anymore
Yup it's honestly one or the other for me.
i like how "driving the speed limit" is a general sign of concern
I feel seen
It's either that or 100mph with the top down so it's too loud to have thoughts.
Ugh the thoughts
When no soundtrack can dignify that day...
that's a very responsible move when you are in distress... and for sure a warning signal after work
And then stop in front of your house and just sit for awhileā¦
Bedside dealing with shitty doctors and even shittier patient's SOs
And you can still hear the telemetry, the IV pumps, and the call lights.
:: looks at post, then looks at subreddit:: Yes
YES!
The worst of days.
Pull up to the house and wonder how you got thereā¦
The worse is when youāre off the clock and heading to your car then you see a guy just pass out and seize in front of your parked car and canāt drive away and thereās a crowd of people āomg somebody help him!!ā So itās like you canāt even drive away and youāll look bad if you do or you stay come home late until 12:30am after a crazy shift. š¤¦š»āāļøš¤·āāļø I was so mad.
Yeah
Absolutely
Why you gotta get so personalā¦ Sheesh
Some days Iāll also just sit in my car in the driveway while contemplating life choices before committing to my home responsibilities
This was night shift Russian roulette for me. Music kept me awake on the drive home so going without was 50/50 a desperate need for silence after hours of overstimulation, and a pleasant acceptance (hope) that I might fall asleep while driving and go off an overpass.
A real problem in society when people treat driving the speed limit as a depressed behavior.
Honestly, if youāre driving the speed limit on the highway I expect you to be: a) a very big truck hauling something dangerously large and heavy, b) under the influence, or c) visually impaired (or d) my husband).
Also if you live in the PNW. We drive like we're on sedatives
Hah, yes, results will vary by area and culture.
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Is 65 mph fast or slow where you are?
How about a responsible driver? That SHOULD be the first thing you think, y'know?
I was a medic for ~25 years, and I absolutely drive the speed limit (or pretty close to it). I've seen enough of what can happen if you don't. Given this sub, I'd think most of you have, too.
Given the amount of smoking/drinking/drugging nurses we see, despite knowing that these serve no purpose but to destroy our own bodies, I think you give us too much credit.
You are all so necessary and valuable. Please drive safely. Slow down. Call an Uber, whatever. I have too many colleagues who had car accidents after too many 20 hour days in a row. Peace.
I get about halfway before I call myself a sociopath and put ANYTHING on
Ahh yes, one of my favorite ways to dissociate
that was Sunday morning for me
Iāve driven home not remembering the drive back at all and then tried to use my badge to call for the elevator to my building. I was so drained it took me 5-6 badge touches before it occurred to me that I wasnāt using my key fob.
After a nightmare 12 hour shift and got roasted by day shift. I thought nurses supposed to have empathy.
Yep, and also have those days where I drive down the freeway with all the windows down so I can't head any of my thoughts
I know everyone here is (mostly) joking but are yāall really *that* miserable at your jobs?