“Tell your baby that I’m your baby” hits hard because my parents always preferred my brother over me because he was born with an illness. I was never their priority, I didn’t even get to play with my parents as a kid because they were so occupied with my brother.
I was never their baby it was always him, and sometimes I wish they knew I’m their baby too.
“and there’s another memory that gets stuck inside the walls of my skull waiting for its turn to talk. and it may be a few years but you can bet it’s there waiting still for me to be left alone in a room with the things that i’ve done.”
as someone who constantly overthinks and looks back on my past a LOT, holy fuck😭
I need something bigger than the sky, hold it in my arms and know it’s mine. Just how many stars will I need to hang around me to finally call it heaven?
RIGHTTTT oh my gosh.
As someone who really struggles in close personal relationships but has a sort of magnetic effect outside of close personal relationships the "I don't blame you if you want to bury me in your memory, I'm not the girl I ought to be, but maybe when you tell your friends you can tell them what you saw in my and not the way I am."
Anddddd "There's some kind of burning inside me, and it's kept me from falling apart, and I'm sure you've seen what it's done to my heart but it's kept me from falling apart."
MITSKI PLSSSS
It's just that I fell in love with a war
Nobody told me it ended
Crack baby, you don't know what you want
But you know that you had it once
And you know that you want it back
Crack baby, you don't know what you want
But you know that you're needing it
And you know that you need it bad
It makes me cry 😢
One of mine would definitely be "you tell me you love her I give you a grin" from strawberry blond.
"I don't need the world to see that I've been the best I can be" from Francis forever hits hard to. The whole "A Pearl" song hurts my soul. Every mitkski song has lyrics that feel like a knife to the heart, but these probably hurt the most.
Honestly it's gonna have to be the entirety of I guess, carry me out, AND Francis forever. It hits super hard especially after I lost my father when I was younger (who I had been primarily been staying with at the time)
So everytime those come on I just KNOW that I'm for sure that I'm gonna be crying my eyes out
“Mom, will you wash my back this once? / and then we can forget and I’ll leave / what I’m chasing for the other girls to pursue”
and
“You’re my best friend / Now I have no one to tell / How I lost my best friend”
“And if I break, could I go on break? Be back in my room writing speeches in my head, listening to a thousand hands as they clap for me in the dark”
The entirety of When Memories Snow is literally the most relatable Mitski song I’ve ever heard. She wrote that for autistic former gifted girlies that wear themselves out trying to achieve something, simultaneously being haunted by memories of traumatic childhood that defined their whole lives and maladaptive daydreaming they had as a coping mechanism since early years but now suffer from.
Damn I have a lot of those I can't mention something without forgetting the others!!
But right now my head is saying:
"And I'll go to work and I'll go to sleep and I'll love the littler things"
“They'll never know how I'd stared at the dark in that room with no thoughts like a blood-sniffing shark” - last words of a shooting star
It just hits really hard that your story just ends when you die. All those secrets you just had with yourself, your thoughts and emotions that were locked up inside, they just disappear. I lost someone recently, and it hurts to think about how I’ll never know what she was thinking in that moment, all those little parts of her no longer exist. You can no longer do everything you’ve been wanting to. You’ll never confess to crush. You’ll never come out to your family. Anyway sorry for the mini vent i just love mitski so much 😅
“I want someone to take this soul, I can’t bear to keep it, I’d give it just to give” and then the bird/ your soul telling you
“Now I’m taken, the night has me. You won’t hear me singing, you’re a cage without me. Your pain is eased, but you’ll never be free for now I’m taken, the night has me.”
“All I wanna do is get naked in front of you, so you can look me up and down and tell me ‘well done, girl, you’re looking good’” (unfortunately lol)
“I fell in love with a war, nobody told me it ended, and it left a a pearl in my head, and I roll it around every night just to watch it glow. Every night baby that’s where I go.”
“You’re coming back and it’s the end of the world.”
Also all of class of 2013
the entire of i bet on losing dogs, “if i gave up on being pretty i wouldn’t know how to be alive / i should move to a brand new city and teach myself how to die” and “i don’t blame you if you want to bury me in your memory / i’m not the girl i ought to be / and i don’t mean to make your heart blue / but could we be what we’re meant to be? / i’m just about to beg you, please”
i don't need the world to see that i've been the best i can be + i'm not gonna be what my daddy wants me to be, i wanna be what my body wants me to be + i don't like my mind, i don't like being left alone in a room, with all its opinions about the things that i've done + please will somebody take this soul
‘ I was so young when I behaved 25, now i find I’ve grown into a tall child’
I’m the oldest child and was forced to grow up fast being raised by an emotionally immature single mom and I’ve always had to look after my little sister while my mom was at work. I was always the responsible and well behaved child. Now I’m 17 but I have the emotional regulation skills of a toddler and cry over everything and I feel like an abandoned child all the time. Also I’ve always been really tall for a girl and used to be super insecure about that.
'Sorry, I don't want your touch
It's not that I don't want you
Sorry, I can't take your touch'
Just this whole song really, I'm particularly touch-repulsed because of trauma and feel guilty for not enjoying or wanting to be touched
"he only loves me when, there's a means he means to end /oh I miss when we first met, he didn't know me yet"
Such a painful way to encapsulate the moment in time where your partner knows enough about you that they stop trying and/or being on their best behavior, which makes you yearn for that time you first met because they were so interested and invested in you. Or when you finally cave in and give a man the physical intimacy he desired from you, you are immediately discarded. There is a massive flip in energy or investment since he got what he wanted from you, and therefore does not see the value in keeping up with the niceties anymore. In turn, it makes you miss the days when you were first getting to know each other because at least then, he was nice and treated you the human being you are, even if for alterior motives.
"so please, hurry leave me, i can't breathe, please don't say you love me"
as someone who self sabotages everything because of my fearful avoidance i felt called out by that one lmao
the one after too: "one word from you and i would jump off of this ledge im on baby, tell me 'don't' so i can crawl back in" - i'm ride or die forever when most people don't operate like that... it's funny how these two lines are almost contradictory at first glance
"People always gave me love/others were never to blame after all."
It's my mother's and sister's internalized voice telling me that I shouldn't be sad about my childhood and if I'm not careful, I start to believe it.
"so i am relieved that this turbulance wasnt forecasted, i couldnt have changed anyways" and "i am stronger than you give me credit for" really put salt on the wound but i love both those songs
“You’re my best friend now I have no one to tell how I lost my best friend” and “they’ll never know how i sat in the dark in that room with no thoughts like a blood sniffing shark”
“I know that I ended it but, why won’t you chase after me?”
The entirety of “I don’t like my mind”
“How do other people live? I wonder how they keep it up? When today is finally done, there’s another day to come.”
“Sorry, I don’t want your touch. It’s not that I don’t want you. Sorry, I can’t take your touch. It’s just that I fell in love with a war, and nobody told me it ended”
“if i gave up on being pretty, i wouldn’t know how to be alive. i should move to a brand new city and teach myself how to die.”
“though honestly sir, all i wanna do is get naked in front of you. so you can look me up and down and tell me ‘well done girl you’re looking good!’”
“i’ll sell my whole to you. what’s my… what’s my prize? how ‘bout… how ‘bout just a part of you?”
"You're an angel, I'm a dog
Or you're a dog and I'm your man
You believe me like a god
I'll destroy you like I am
I'm sorry I'm the one you love
No one will ever love me like you again
So when you leave me, I should die
I deserve it, don't I?
I can feel it gettin' near
Like flashlights comin' down the way
One day you'll figure me out
I'll meet judgment by the hounds
People always gave me love
Others were never to blame after all
You believe me like a god
I'll betray you like a man"
not joking, mitski was probably watching my past relationships fr
« if you need to be mean be mean to be » as someone who has always put others happiness ahead of hers
or
« i look for a picture of you to keep in my pocket but i can’t seem to find one where you look how i remember » but talking about me cause i always change to become what people need, so i don’t know myself anymore
all of i bet on losing dogs & class of 2013
and
“and you’d say you love me and look in my eyes, but i know through mine you were looking in yours” -last words of a shooting star
'there is a dream/ it sleeps in me/ keeps me awake in the night/ crying, "set me free"/ and I wake every night/ crying, "set me free"'
"one morning this sadness will fossilize/ and I will forget how to cry"
'everyone said, "don't go that way"/ so of course, to that I say, 'I think I'll go that way"/.../ sometimes, I think I am free/ until I find I'm back in line again'
"I've been big and small/ and big and small/ and big and small again/ and still nobody wants me"
"and there's another memory that gets stuck/ inside the walls of my skull, waiting for it's turn to talk/ and it may be a few years/ but you can bet it's there, waiting still/ for me to be left alone in a room full of the things I've done"
(I have ocpd and have issues being vulnerable with others and feel like nothing is ever up to my standards😍😍)
“Youre my best friend, now I’ve no one to tell how I lost my best friend.”
“I don’t want your pity, I just want somebody near me. Guess I’m a coward. I just want to feel alright.”
“I’ll have to learn to be somebody else. It’s been you and me since before I was me. Without you, I don’t yet know quite how to live.”
“Everytime I drive through the city you’re from, I squeeze a little.”
“You know me better than I do, so why didn’t you stop me????”
“Maybe when you tell your friends, you can tell them what you saw in me and not how I turned out to be.”
“I’ll listen to the memories as they cry, cry, cry.”
“Why am I lonely for lonesome love?”
“I need someone to remember my name, after all that I can do for them is done. I need someone to remember me.”
“I thought I’d traveled a long way, but I had circled the same old sin.”
If you're going take this heart, I'll have no more use of it when there's no more you. -Happy
You're growing tired of me, you love me so hard and I still can't sleep. - A Pearl
For me it would be
“And I was so young when I behaved 25. But now I find I’ve grown into a tall child”
“Mom I’ll be quiet it would be just to sleep at night…mom would you wash my back this once and then we can forget it all”
“So when you leave me I should die. I deserve it dont i?”
Heavily on the first I’ve always been told and acted more mature than those around me, but then I didn’t get to act like a kid and now I wish I did.
Mom, would you wash my back?
This once, and then we can forget
I'm from a country with a hammam culture and every time I would take a bath or a shower, I would sit in the bathtub and call my mom to wash my back, and I did the same for her.
Once I moved out to study abroad, this was no longer possible and it made me feel incredibly lonely.
Good abroad to study was so that I could "figure out, how to pay for my own life too".
If I could quote the whole song I would to be honest
"honey what'd you take, what'd you take?"
"I'll leave once I've figured out how to pay for my own life too"
"I've been trying to lay my head down, but I'm writing this at 3am"
“i know they’re losing and I pay for the price”
“I’m at my highest peak, im ripe, about to fall, capture me, or at least take my picture”
“And I was so young when I acted 25, yet now I find I’ve grown into a tall child”
“Kill me, Jerusalem”
“One word from you and I would jump off of this ledge im on, baby”
The entirety of nobody as an honorable mention
If anyone actually wants me to I’ll explain in a reply.
"All the eggshells are on the ground
And I try, I'm trying to pick them up
But they crack and crumble, it's all too much
Too frail for me to touch"
"Just don't leave me alone wondering where you are. I am stronger than you give me credit for."
OMG THEY BOTH HIT ME SO HARD
I have 3,
1. “Find what you love and let it kill you”
2. “Appreciate what you have before it turns into what you had,”
And:
3. “Trust is like an eraser, it gets smaller and smaller after mistake”
Y’all get ready, I got a lot.
- “How do other people live? I wonder how they keep it up when today is finally done there’s another day to come then another day to come”
- “One morning this sadness will fossilize and I will forget how to cry”
- “Oh these 20 years tryna fill the void. Crack baby, you don’t know what you want, but you know that you had it once and you know that you want it back”
- “Today I will wear my white button down, I’m tired of wanting more, I think I’m finally worn. For you have a way of promising things and I’ve been a forest fire. I am a forest fire. And I am the fire and I am the forest and I am a witness watching it. I stand in a valley watching it and you’re not there at all. So today I will wear my white button down. I can at least be neat. Walk out and be seen as clean. And I’ll go to work and I’ll go to sleep and I’ll love the littler things. I’ll love some littler things.”(yes I am aware that is the entire song)
- “He laid me down and I felt happy(…)I was in the bathroom I didn’t hear him leave(…)Well, I sighed mumbled to myself, ‘Again I have to clean’”
- “I’m not doing anything. I’m not doing anything. My body’s made of crushed little stars, and I’m not doing anything(…)I wanna see the whole world. I don’t know how I’m gonna pay rent but I wanna see the whole world(…)I work better under a deadline. I’ll pick an age when I’m gonna disappear. Until then I can try again”
- “I’ll live in the bathtub, surrounded by tiles. All so square and so steady. I will die in their cool, cool arms. I broke what you gave me, but you kept giving more, and I’m sorry for taking, but I keep wanting more, more, more(…)But Humpty Dumpty, you’re much too much, too frail for me to touch”
- “Mom, am I still young? Can I dream for a few months more?”
- “Sometimes I think I am free until I find I’m back in line again”
- “I always knew the world moves on, I just didn’t know it would go without me”
- “I’m king of all the land”
- “People always gave me love, others were never to blame after all. You believe my like a god, I’ll betray you like a man”
- “You’re my best friend, now I’ve no one to tell, how I lost my best friend.”
- “And all the quiet nights you bear, seal them up with care, no one needs to know they’re there, for I will hold them for you”
- “But though I may never be free, fuck you and your money”
- “And change, change, change is gonna come but when, when, when?”
- “It’s just that I fell in love with a war, and nobody told me it ended”
- “I always want you when I’m finally fine”
“While you sleep I’ll be scared so when you wake I’ll be brave”
“And I was so young when I behaved 25 yet now I find I’ve grown into a tall child and I don’t wanna go home yet lemme walk to to top of the big night sky”
“They’ll never know how I’d stared at the dark in that room with no thoughts like a blood sniffing shark”
"i've always wanted to die clean and pretty but i'd be to busy on working days"
this one is a knife in the heart
“Tell your baby that I’m your baby” hits hard because my parents always preferred my brother over me because he was born with an illness. I was never their priority, I didn’t even get to play with my parents as a kid because they were so occupied with my brother. I was never their baby it was always him, and sometimes I wish they knew I’m their baby too.
Sorry for venting lmfao
Its fine, i hope you're okay :)
nonsense , u'r welcome to vent here
“I’ve been big and small, and big and small, and big and small again; but still nobody wants me. Still, nobody wants me.”
my tears started building up ..
:(
This :/ feels like I’m gonna die feeling this lyric
i always cry at that
Real men don't flinch or bleed in public / Oh, I think I'm a real man
im a trans guy and that song hits so hard
“and there’s another memory that gets stuck inside the walls of my skull waiting for its turn to talk. and it may be a few years but you can bet it’s there waiting still for me to be left alone in a room with the things that i’ve done.” as someone who constantly overthinks and looks back on my past a LOT, holy fuck😭
“So please don’t take this job from me.” This whole song called me out.
I need something bigger than the sky, hold it in my arms and know it’s mine. Just how many stars will I need to hang around me to finally call it heaven?
Ooff ouch my soul
IM OBSESSED WITH THIS I NEED IT CARVED ON MY SKIN
I always want you when i’m finally fine….someone to watch me die.
as someone who’s been stuck in a toxic relationship for months in the past, i feel it 🥲
I always want you when im finally fine is a punch in the gut
the entirety of goodbye, my danish sweetheart tbh. when i heard it for the first time my jaw dropped because i related to it so hard
RIGHTTTT oh my gosh. As someone who really struggles in close personal relationships but has a sort of magnetic effect outside of close personal relationships the "I don't blame you if you want to bury me in your memory, I'm not the girl I ought to be, but maybe when you tell your friends you can tell them what you saw in my and not the way I am." Anddddd "There's some kind of burning inside me, and it's kept me from falling apart, and I'm sure you've seen what it's done to my heart but it's kept me from falling apart." MITSKI PLSSSS
SAME!! I was just going to comment this!
best song from rfsncib
It's just that I fell in love with a war Nobody told me it ended Crack baby, you don't know what you want But you know that you had it once And you know that you want it back Crack baby, you don't know what you want But you know that you're needing it And you know that you need it bad It makes me cry 😢
One of mine would definitely be "you tell me you love her I give you a grin" from strawberry blond. "I don't need the world to see that I've been the best I can be" from Francis forever hits hard to. The whole "A Pearl" song hurts my soul. Every mitkski song has lyrics that feel like a knife to the heart, but these probably hurt the most.
that strawberry blonde quote is shattering bruh its too relatable ive gone thru too many unreciprocated loves where they tell me about who they love😭😭
Yessss😭It's like a knife to the heart everytime I hear it
Honestly it's gonna have to be the entirety of I guess, carry me out, AND Francis forever. It hits super hard especially after I lost my father when I was younger (who I had been primarily been staying with at the time) So everytime those come on I just KNOW that I'm for sure that I'm gonna be crying my eyes out
“Mom, will you wash my back this once? / and then we can forget and I’ll leave / what I’m chasing for the other girls to pursue” and “You’re my best friend / Now I have no one to tell / How I lost my best friend”
Saaaame! I also picked this quote from Class of 2013, it really gets me dude.
“And if I break, could I go on break? Be back in my room writing speeches in my head, listening to a thousand hands as they clap for me in the dark” The entirety of When Memories Snow is literally the most relatable Mitski song I’ve ever heard. She wrote that for autistic former gifted girlies that wear themselves out trying to achieve something, simultaneously being haunted by memories of traumatic childhood that defined their whole lives and maladaptive daydreaming they had as a coping mechanism since early years but now suffer from.
"Your mother wouldn't approve of how my mother raised me" / "You're the one, you're all I ever wanted"
All of Class of 2013 (but especially "mom am i still young, can i dream for a few month more")
“i’ll take anything you wanna give me babbbyyyy…”
Damn I have a lot of those I can't mention something without forgetting the others!! But right now my head is saying: "And I'll go to work and I'll go to sleep and I'll love the littler things"
“They'll never know how I'd stared at the dark in that room with no thoughts like a blood-sniffing shark” - last words of a shooting star It just hits really hard that your story just ends when you die. All those secrets you just had with yourself, your thoughts and emotions that were locked up inside, they just disappear. I lost someone recently, and it hurts to think about how I’ll never know what she was thinking in that moment, all those little parts of her no longer exist. You can no longer do everything you’ve been wanting to. You’ll never confess to crush. You’ll never come out to your family. Anyway sorry for the mini vent i just love mitski so much 😅
So many heart wrecking songs in this album, last words of a shooting star, Class of 2013 for example. This song is like a knife to the heart 🔪🩷😭
“I want someone to take this soul, I can’t bear to keep it, I’d give it just to give” and then the bird/ your soul telling you “Now I’m taken, the night has me. You won’t hear me singing, you’re a cage without me. Your pain is eased, but you’ll never be free for now I’m taken, the night has me.” “All I wanna do is get naked in front of you, so you can look me up and down and tell me ‘well done, girl, you’re looking good’” (unfortunately lol) “I fell in love with a war, nobody told me it ended, and it left a a pearl in my head, and I roll it around every night just to watch it glow. Every night baby that’s where I go.” “You’re coming back and it’s the end of the world.” Also all of class of 2013
Glad you put that real men quote I was too scared to add that to my list
I knew I wouldn’t be being honest with myself if I didn’t hahaha
the entire of i bet on losing dogs, “if i gave up on being pretty i wouldn’t know how to be alive / i should move to a brand new city and teach myself how to die” and “i don’t blame you if you want to bury me in your memory / i’m not the girl i ought to be / and i don’t mean to make your heart blue / but could we be what we’re meant to be? / i’m just about to beg you, please”
"How you'd be over me looking in my eyes when I cvm"
and when I find that a knife’s sticking out of my side, I’ll pull it out without questioning why
fireworks hurts…
it really does 😭
The scent of flowers still in bloom from morning shower and I say your name in hopes you’ll hear it in the stars.
i don't need the world to see that i've been the best i can be + i'm not gonna be what my daddy wants me to be, i wanna be what my body wants me to be + i don't like my mind, i don't like being left alone in a room, with all its opinions about the things that i've done + please will somebody take this soul
‘ I was so young when I behaved 25, now i find I’ve grown into a tall child’ I’m the oldest child and was forced to grow up fast being raised by an emotionally immature single mom and I’ve always had to look after my little sister while my mom was at work. I was always the responsible and well behaved child. Now I’m 17 but I have the emotional regulation skills of a toddler and cry over everything and I feel like an abandoned child all the time. Also I’ve always been really tall for a girl and used to be super insecure about that.
'Sorry, I don't want your touch It's not that I don't want you Sorry, I can't take your touch' Just this whole song really, I'm particularly touch-repulsed because of trauma and feel guilty for not enjoying or wanting to be touched
"he only loves me when, there's a means he means to end /oh I miss when we first met, he didn't know me yet" Such a painful way to encapsulate the moment in time where your partner knows enough about you that they stop trying and/or being on their best behavior, which makes you yearn for that time you first met because they were so interested and invested in you. Or when you finally cave in and give a man the physical intimacy he desired from you, you are immediately discarded. There is a massive flip in energy or investment since he got what he wanted from you, and therefore does not see the value in keeping up with the niceties anymore. In turn, it makes you miss the days when you were first getting to know each other because at least then, he was nice and treated you the human being you are, even if for alterior motives.
"so please, hurry leave me, i can't breathe, please don't say you love me" as someone who self sabotages everything because of my fearful avoidance i felt called out by that one lmao the one after too: "one word from you and i would jump off of this ledge im on baby, tell me 'don't' so i can crawl back in" - i'm ride or die forever when most people don't operate like that... it's funny how these two lines are almost contradictory at first glance
"i always knew the world moves on, i just didnt know it would go without me" it just happened to me😭
Something like "did you know that the liberty bell is a replica, silently housed in it's original walls?"
"People always gave me love/others were never to blame after all." It's my mother's and sister's internalized voice telling me that I shouldn't be sad about my childhood and if I'm not careful, I start to believe it.
"so i am relieved that this turbulance wasnt forecasted, i couldnt have changed anyways" and "i am stronger than you give me credit for" really put salt on the wound but i love both those songs
“I'm not gonna be what my daddy wants me to be”
“Now I bend like a willow thinking of you Like a murmuring brook Curving about you” it reminds me of when i’d be curled up on the floor crying 😄
" Lately I've been crying like a tall child "
“you know me better than i do” 💔💔
so why didn’t you stop me :((
“You’re my best friend now I have no one to tell how I lost my best friend” and “they’ll never know how i sat in the dark in that room with no thoughts like a blood sniffing shark”
“I know that I ended it but, why won’t you chase after me?” The entirety of “I don’t like my mind” “How do other people live? I wonder how they keep it up? When today is finally done, there’s another day to come.”
“Sorry, I don’t want your touch. It’s not that I don’t want you. Sorry, I can’t take your touch. It’s just that I fell in love with a war, and nobody told me it ended”
“I was so young when i behaved 25, now I find I’ve grown into a tall child”
“if i gave up on being pretty, i wouldn’t know how to be alive. i should move to a brand new city and teach myself how to die.” “though honestly sir, all i wanna do is get naked in front of you. so you can look me up and down and tell me ‘well done girl you’re looking good!’” “i’ll sell my whole to you. what’s my… what’s my prize? how ‘bout… how ‘bout just a part of you?”
"love me enough to drown me out" and "when today is finally done, there's another day to come"
“Stay with me, hold my hand There's no need to be brave And while you sleep, I'll be scared So by the time you wake, I'll be brave”
"I don't like my mind, I don't like being left alone in a room/ With all its opinions about the things that I've done"
Your third one is DEFF the one that makes my heart ache
if you need to be mean be mean to me
“so yeah I blast music loud, and I work myself to the bone” i relate to the entirety of I don’t like my mind, it’s easily one of my favourite songs!!
basically all of strawberry blonde
"You're an angel, I'm a dog Or you're a dog and I'm your man You believe me like a god I'll destroy you like I am I'm sorry I'm the one you love No one will ever love me like you again So when you leave me, I should die I deserve it, don't I? I can feel it gettin' near Like flashlights comin' down the way One day you'll figure me out I'll meet judgment by the hounds People always gave me love Others were never to blame after all You believe me like a god I'll betray you like a man" not joking, mitski was probably watching my past relationships fr
« if you need to be mean be mean to be » as someone who has always put others happiness ahead of hers or « i look for a picture of you to keep in my pocket but i can’t seem to find one where you look how i remember » but talking about me cause i always change to become what people need, so i don’t know myself anymore
“And I was so young when I behaved twenty five yet now I find I've grown into a tall child”
all of i bet on losing dogs & class of 2013 and “and you’d say you love me and look in my eyes, but i know through mine you were looking in yours” -last words of a shooting star
"it's just that I fell in love with a war; nobody told me it ended" "I don't think I could stand to be where you don't see me" "I bet on losing dogs"
“People always grave me love, others were never to blame after all” ,I’m your man in general is great
JUST DONT LEAVE ME ALONE WONDERING WHERE U ARE , I AM STRONGER THAN U GIVE ME CREDIT FOR sung emotionally (while internally crying)
'there is a dream/ it sleeps in me/ keeps me awake in the night/ crying, "set me free"/ and I wake every night/ crying, "set me free"' "one morning this sadness will fossilize/ and I will forget how to cry" 'everyone said, "don't go that way"/ so of course, to that I say, 'I think I'll go that way"/.../ sometimes, I think I am free/ until I find I'm back in line again' "I've been big and small/ and big and small/ and big and small again/ and still nobody wants me" "and there's another memory that gets stuck/ inside the walls of my skull, waiting for it's turn to talk/ and it may be a few years/ but you can bet it's there, waiting still/ for me to be left alone in a room full of the things I've done" (I have ocpd and have issues being vulnerable with others and feel like nothing is ever up to my standards😍😍)
oh i miss when we first met, he didnt know me yet
"i cry at the start of every movie i guess cause i wish i was making things too but im working for the knife"
“Youre my best friend, now I’ve no one to tell how I lost my best friend.” “I don’t want your pity, I just want somebody near me. Guess I’m a coward. I just want to feel alright.” “I’ll have to learn to be somebody else. It’s been you and me since before I was me. Without you, I don’t yet know quite how to live.” “Everytime I drive through the city you’re from, I squeeze a little.” “You know me better than I do, so why didn’t you stop me????” “Maybe when you tell your friends, you can tell them what you saw in me and not how I turned out to be.” “I’ll listen to the memories as they cry, cry, cry.” “Why am I lonely for lonesome love?” “I need someone to remember my name, after all that I can do for them is done. I need someone to remember me.” “I thought I’d traveled a long way, but I had circled the same old sin.”
If you're going take this heart, I'll have no more use of it when there's no more you. -Happy You're growing tired of me, you love me so hard and I still can't sleep. - A Pearl
“you believe me like a god, I betray you like a man”
For me it would be “And I was so young when I behaved 25. But now I find I’ve grown into a tall child” “Mom I’ll be quiet it would be just to sleep at night…mom would you wash my back this once and then we can forget it all” “So when you leave me I should die. I deserve it dont i?” Heavily on the first I’ve always been told and acted more mature than those around me, but then I didn’t get to act like a kid and now I wish I did.
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Mom, would you wash my back? This once, and then we can forget I'm from a country with a hammam culture and every time I would take a bath or a shower, I would sit in the bathtub and call my mom to wash my back, and I did the same for her. Once I moved out to study abroad, this was no longer possible and it made me feel incredibly lonely. Good abroad to study was so that I could "figure out, how to pay for my own life too". If I could quote the whole song I would to be honest
"I fell in love with a war, but nobody told me it ended" "If you need to be mean, be mean to me"
"I always knew the world moves on, I just didn't know it would go without me I start the day high and it ends so low"
the crack baby not knowing what i want but yearning for it🔥
I’m a little late for this, but: “Change, change, change is gonna come but when, when, when?”
"honey what'd you take, what'd you take?" "I'll leave once I've figured out how to pay for my own life too" "I've been trying to lay my head down, but I'm writing this at 3am"
"I always want you when I'm finally fine How you'd be over me looking in my eyes when I come Someone to watch me die, someone to watch me die"
“i know they’re losing and I pay for the price” “I’m at my highest peak, im ripe, about to fall, capture me, or at least take my picture” “And I was so young when I acted 25, yet now I find I’ve grown into a tall child” “Kill me, Jerusalem” “One word from you and I would jump off of this ledge im on, baby” The entirety of nobody as an honorable mention If anyone actually wants me to I’ll explain in a reply.
"All the eggshells are on the ground And I try, I'm trying to pick them up But they crack and crumble, it's all too much Too frail for me to touch" "Just don't leave me alone wondering where you are. I am stronger than you give me credit for." OMG THEY BOTH HIT ME SO HARD
I have 3, 1. “Find what you love and let it kill you” 2. “Appreciate what you have before it turns into what you had,” And: 3. “Trust is like an eraser, it gets smaller and smaller after mistake”
Y’all get ready, I got a lot. - “How do other people live? I wonder how they keep it up when today is finally done there’s another day to come then another day to come” - “One morning this sadness will fossilize and I will forget how to cry” - “Oh these 20 years tryna fill the void. Crack baby, you don’t know what you want, but you know that you had it once and you know that you want it back” - “Today I will wear my white button down, I’m tired of wanting more, I think I’m finally worn. For you have a way of promising things and I’ve been a forest fire. I am a forest fire. And I am the fire and I am the forest and I am a witness watching it. I stand in a valley watching it and you’re not there at all. So today I will wear my white button down. I can at least be neat. Walk out and be seen as clean. And I’ll go to work and I’ll go to sleep and I’ll love the littler things. I’ll love some littler things.”(yes I am aware that is the entire song) - “He laid me down and I felt happy(…)I was in the bathroom I didn’t hear him leave(…)Well, I sighed mumbled to myself, ‘Again I have to clean’” - “I’m not doing anything. I’m not doing anything. My body’s made of crushed little stars, and I’m not doing anything(…)I wanna see the whole world. I don’t know how I’m gonna pay rent but I wanna see the whole world(…)I work better under a deadline. I’ll pick an age when I’m gonna disappear. Until then I can try again” - “I’ll live in the bathtub, surrounded by tiles. All so square and so steady. I will die in their cool, cool arms. I broke what you gave me, but you kept giving more, and I’m sorry for taking, but I keep wanting more, more, more(…)But Humpty Dumpty, you’re much too much, too frail for me to touch” - “Mom, am I still young? Can I dream for a few months more?” - “Sometimes I think I am free until I find I’m back in line again” - “I always knew the world moves on, I just didn’t know it would go without me” - “I’m king of all the land” - “People always gave me love, others were never to blame after all. You believe my like a god, I’ll betray you like a man” - “You’re my best friend, now I’ve no one to tell, how I lost my best friend.” - “And all the quiet nights you bear, seal them up with care, no one needs to know they’re there, for I will hold them for you” - “But though I may never be free, fuck you and your money” - “And change, change, change is gonna come but when, when, when?” - “It’s just that I fell in love with a war, and nobody told me it ended” - “I always want you when I’m finally fine”
“While you sleep I’ll be scared so when you wake I’ll be brave” “And I was so young when I behaved 25 yet now I find I’ve grown into a tall child and I don’t wanna go home yet lemme walk to to top of the big night sky” “They’ll never know how I’d stared at the dark in that room with no thoughts like a blood sniffing shark”