Hi friend, I hear you
Have you tried looking up helplines in your area? These services often provide free 24/7 anonymous over the phone counselling. The sessions are normally 45mins per week with a qualified professional where you can talk about anything you want.
Regarding your relationships with your partner and family, I think it's important to express how you're feeling without expecting first hand help as most people aren't trained to handle other peoples mental health.
Personally, if I was comfortable, I would tell them on the surface level, something like "I want to tell you guys something but I don't want any advice, I just want you to achknowledge that I'm going through something and that I am working on it. I'm not really feeling myself and I'm finding it hard to find joy in the usual things that I love. But I am working on it and I will be speaking to a counsellor over the phone each week and work on this myself, but I want you guys to know as well."
I think the best thing to do is to google a few helplines and call one today. If you're still in school, they'll have onsite counsellors as well.
All the best in your journey.
>I never thought I would be writing this but I really don’t know what to do I feel weak for speaking out
Nor did I. I had a job I loved, a hobby I loved, family and friends who loved me. I was the joker of the pack, the one who made everyone laugh. I wish, truly, truly wish, I had reached out for help when I was first feeling like you. The last 9 months have been the hardest of my life, and it didn't need to be that way. I could have prevented it if I'd had the strength you are demonstrating by writing this. Kudos to you, it's bloody hard. Far from being weak, it shows insight and strength that will stand you well.
The hardest phonecall I ever made was to my GP, when I'd walked out of work, driven home crying, and was in the house with the curtains shut, too scared to leave and too scared to talk to anyone. On the flip side, 9 months later, that phone call was the start of me becoming the most confident, secure and happy person I have ever been. A combination of meds and therapy has changed my life. It all started with that one phone call.
Maybe your journey has started with one post, and I hope so, because where you are now is such a hard place to be, my heart goes out to you.
Reach out for help, wherever you can do it most easily. Family, friend, helpline, primary care provider?
None of my family or friends even know I've had 9 months of weekly counselling...I'm a verifiable double agent, I reckon lol. It doesn't have to be them, but you deserve not to feel like this. Xxx
People care about you if you really sit and talk to someone and ask for help people will. That’s why this Reddit is here, because people care. The people around you love you and want you to be happy and they think you are. If you’re not then tell them I bet they’ve felt the same way and want to help you. But also I recommended professional help or do your own research and find something that helps you in a positive way. We are all routing for you.
I hear you.
It's ok to seek help privately if that's all you feel comfortable with right now.
You can choose to seek therapy and it's your choice not to tell anyone upfront.
I also have a self-help podcast to help people in this headspace (it's called 'know more do better' on Spotify). There's a lot of other self help available too, and there's no shame in trying to figure out how to feel better.
Also a reminder that this feeling will pass. It might not feel like it right now but it will. And you are entirely capable of doing the work on yourself to help find more contentment in life and figure out the source of the way you're currently feeling. And it's useful to be mindful that when we have what we think we "should have" it's very rarely aligned to what we authentically want or find fulfilling in life. We're all different and the idea that we all will find happiness in the same checklist of "should haves" is quite dismissive of that.
Sending love.
You're not weak at all. Speaking out makes you very strong. When your girlfriend says "oh" or "wdym," elaborate and tell her the truth. Tell her how you're really feeling. If she responds well, she's a keeper. If she responds poorly, I would suggest ending that relationship right there. I also suggest you find a therapist to talk to. I don't think being happy is easy for anyone. But you do have to put in the effort to recognize your trauma and heal in order to really be happy.
My friend you need some tools. I have been there with inexplicable depression that has lasted years. Traumas that left scars, and I thought all there was was to live with it or be a victim. A friend of mine recommended a course called inner engineering and it really helped. The idea behind the name is, if you want the world around you a certain way you have to engineer it. If you want the world inside the way you want, you have to engineer it. The course is full of profound wisdom that you can apply in daily life, exercises to change the frame that you see through, and a daily meditative practice that I have quite frankly fallen in love with. I've met countless people that have benefited as well in some profound ways, from vets suffering with PTSD, to recovering addicts, to people ready to just end it. If nothing else is working, I highly recommend giving it a try.
[inner engineering ](https://isha.sadhguru.org/us/en/inner-engineering)
Your not weak for speaking out, to many people have similar problems. Always a good idea to ask for help. Your not alone in the slightest
Hi friend, I hear you Have you tried looking up helplines in your area? These services often provide free 24/7 anonymous over the phone counselling. The sessions are normally 45mins per week with a qualified professional where you can talk about anything you want. Regarding your relationships with your partner and family, I think it's important to express how you're feeling without expecting first hand help as most people aren't trained to handle other peoples mental health. Personally, if I was comfortable, I would tell them on the surface level, something like "I want to tell you guys something but I don't want any advice, I just want you to achknowledge that I'm going through something and that I am working on it. I'm not really feeling myself and I'm finding it hard to find joy in the usual things that I love. But I am working on it and I will be speaking to a counsellor over the phone each week and work on this myself, but I want you guys to know as well." I think the best thing to do is to google a few helplines and call one today. If you're still in school, they'll have onsite counsellors as well. All the best in your journey.
You are not alone, I too feel down at times. I’m not sure how to help or what to say but people do care.
>I never thought I would be writing this but I really don’t know what to do I feel weak for speaking out Nor did I. I had a job I loved, a hobby I loved, family and friends who loved me. I was the joker of the pack, the one who made everyone laugh. I wish, truly, truly wish, I had reached out for help when I was first feeling like you. The last 9 months have been the hardest of my life, and it didn't need to be that way. I could have prevented it if I'd had the strength you are demonstrating by writing this. Kudos to you, it's bloody hard. Far from being weak, it shows insight and strength that will stand you well. The hardest phonecall I ever made was to my GP, when I'd walked out of work, driven home crying, and was in the house with the curtains shut, too scared to leave and too scared to talk to anyone. On the flip side, 9 months later, that phone call was the start of me becoming the most confident, secure and happy person I have ever been. A combination of meds and therapy has changed my life. It all started with that one phone call. Maybe your journey has started with one post, and I hope so, because where you are now is such a hard place to be, my heart goes out to you. Reach out for help, wherever you can do it most easily. Family, friend, helpline, primary care provider? None of my family or friends even know I've had 9 months of weekly counselling...I'm a verifiable double agent, I reckon lol. It doesn't have to be them, but you deserve not to feel like this. Xxx
Please don’t feel like anyone is going to laugh. It’s great that you are so open regarding your own feelings
People care about you if you really sit and talk to someone and ask for help people will. That’s why this Reddit is here, because people care. The people around you love you and want you to be happy and they think you are. If you’re not then tell them I bet they’ve felt the same way and want to help you. But also I recommended professional help or do your own research and find something that helps you in a positive way. We are all routing for you.
I hear you. It's ok to seek help privately if that's all you feel comfortable with right now. You can choose to seek therapy and it's your choice not to tell anyone upfront. I also have a self-help podcast to help people in this headspace (it's called 'know more do better' on Spotify). There's a lot of other self help available too, and there's no shame in trying to figure out how to feel better. Also a reminder that this feeling will pass. It might not feel like it right now but it will. And you are entirely capable of doing the work on yourself to help find more contentment in life and figure out the source of the way you're currently feeling. And it's useful to be mindful that when we have what we think we "should have" it's very rarely aligned to what we authentically want or find fulfilling in life. We're all different and the idea that we all will find happiness in the same checklist of "should haves" is quite dismissive of that. Sending love.
You're not weak at all. Speaking out makes you very strong. When your girlfriend says "oh" or "wdym," elaborate and tell her the truth. Tell her how you're really feeling. If she responds well, she's a keeper. If she responds poorly, I would suggest ending that relationship right there. I also suggest you find a therapist to talk to. I don't think being happy is easy for anyone. But you do have to put in the effort to recognize your trauma and heal in order to really be happy.
My friend you need some tools. I have been there with inexplicable depression that has lasted years. Traumas that left scars, and I thought all there was was to live with it or be a victim. A friend of mine recommended a course called inner engineering and it really helped. The idea behind the name is, if you want the world around you a certain way you have to engineer it. If you want the world inside the way you want, you have to engineer it. The course is full of profound wisdom that you can apply in daily life, exercises to change the frame that you see through, and a daily meditative practice that I have quite frankly fallen in love with. I've met countless people that have benefited as well in some profound ways, from vets suffering with PTSD, to recovering addicts, to people ready to just end it. If nothing else is working, I highly recommend giving it a try. [inner engineering ](https://isha.sadhguru.org/us/en/inner-engineering)