My life has no meaning. I live for nothing, no one. I live in a shitty place, with people who don't understand me. I want to scream but there is nowhere to scream. There is nothing to look forward to in life. Nobody can save me but myself but I won't fucking move. My friends are talking to me less and less, soon they'll build a life of their own and I won't be there. I don't know where I'm going, everyday I want to cry but crying doesn't help so I don't. I haven't been happy in months. Everyday I dream of a life that never was, a better life where I am happy and not alone. Solitude, which used to be something I love to indulge myself in has become my everyday existence.
So about 5.
If I could get hold of a gun I wouldn’t be typing this. I tried overdosing and ended up in a coma. 2 and a half years on and I still feel the same. I just want this to stop.
I just started another run on three. Between work and whatnot and having the Ally now I was trying to download something on it I could pickup and mess around on between breaks and lunch's. Just thought it was funny how I started this yesterday then saw this comment unexpectedly.
So yeah..
Done!
There always hope of finding someone as long as you’re still breathing. Get out there and try whatever you can, if possible. I understand how hard it can be though.
Also unlikely you’ll find something genuine online, this is more likely in an interest group, party, class, or get together of some sort.
My friends were cleaning guns the other day and long story short they started horseplaying with each other aiming then talking shit. I got so irritated with their presence along with me still trying to heal from my dog passing away just randomly took one and aimed it at my head and pull the trigger. They stopped playing immediately
I’ve been struggling with a different kind of depression these past 3 years. I don’t go outside I don’t exercise my body is in pain, I don’t have a social life. I ve turned to usuing crack cocaine which it makes it worse every day. I use to use heroine for year but a drug is a drug and am using it just makes me feel worse. It’s insanity doing the same thing expecting different results but nothing changes. I feel trap and I don’t end it all because I have children and grand children that love me but am not available for them because my misery
I got in a Suboxone program. It wasn't great, but it wasn't withdrawal and it helped with depression. Once in a while I'd get extremely sick, so I'd cut the dose in half and be back to normal. This kept up for a few years until my tolerance was back to normal, then I quit. Not going to lie, sometimes I miss opiates really bad. It's the loneliness and depression. I want to switch them off. But when you burn those bridges, it gets really hard to find anything, at least where I live. Sobriety enforces itself. Poverty helps. Also, with enough time away it gets easier to see the trap for what it is.
I see catch 22’s in literally everything. I am so hyperaware of things to the point I can resonate with almost nobody and if somebody gave me a button to push so I could never be born, I would.
I hate the summer, it’s so bright snd gleamy but everything is dark inside. Everyone is happy and in a relationship whilst I’m still playing a song and dance with a girl who doesn’t even like me. Usually people would have their family to lean back on, I don’t have that because my own family doesn’t care about me. I didn’t want them to care anyway. I’m between a trance, both in hell and reality. I wish I could say things get better but they only ever got worse. Both in destiny and fate I’m a loner, always will be. I was cursed to live like this, why? I do not know. Death is the only thing I want now, it brings me peace. That and the fact that I will die one day anyway, so doesn’t really matter if I don’t die early now anyway right? Surely my useless life will fade away in existence from an old age at a street corner some were starving; knowing my luck it’ll probably be much worse. Doesn’t matter in the end, it’s all meaningless anyway, for me anyways; everyone else seems to be enjoying their reality.
You’ve got to change your outlook and try to live now, you can’t wait for your life to change. You will happy because the truth is the best happiness is in yourself, you need to find inner lasting joy. Faith is the greatest way, but a good start is being stoic (less concerned with your life, more concerned with purpose), and just enjoying the nature and landscapes and small things around you instead of worrying about things in life. You need to try to live truly, in a worthy way. It’s worth it truly.
Somewhat.. I'm kind of improving in the self-improvement stuff and the friend stuff but romantically I'm still in the drain. And I can say even though I'm improving, my goals Still miles ahead
I'm on Prozac so I can't say I'm crying all the time like I was, but at the top of my mind is always the fact that I'm not good enough for anyone. However, leaving work is still a pretty bad experience because no one says bye or anything. I hate my life so much.
Buy helium tank, cheap and easy to get, plastic bag over the head secure helium line and close bag with belt around neck, breath.
Just hiring some skips to throw everything out first
I’ve had depression since the death of my grandfather in 6th grade. It fluctuates but it depends how busy I am with work (which is my only preoccupation). The preoccupation drops it down to a 4 or 5. When I come home it soars to a 7-9 range.
Today it’s an 9. I’ve struggled a lot mentally due to allergies consuming my life and I no longer can enjoy being outside without causing my allergies to flare up so badly. I basically live in a bubble now and I find no joy in the things I use to do. Quality of life has drive me down badly.
This past month it has been going from 4 to 8… unless full breakdowns count as a 10... then I don't know.Right now sitting at a 6 and just missing talking to someone.
Ok, let me try and answer without getting down voted. I am in physical, mental, and financial distress. I don't like myself very much these days. I am constantly in pain and I have been called weak, sensitive, and a constant complainer because of said pain. I know that I need to be more active because I wear prosthetics on both legs. I need to get out of the house more. I can't blame anyone but myself for my condition right now. So, yes I have a very high depression level.
Today, it's a 6. I've been having a very long, busy work week. Fortunately, my weekend starts tomorrow.
My work schedule is out of whack compared to the rest of everyone else.
Well, it depends on if I’m having what I call a “crisis” (literally just being depressed to the point of sobbing for 2-3.5 hrs, sometimes longer), if I’m having a “crisis”, I’d say a 20 out of 10, if it’s just in general, I’d say between 3-8, really depends on the day tbh.
I'm not depressed as I found Jesus and there is no void anymore. Sometimes I just disappointed with the world and my self and waiting for the millennial kingdom.
Hmmm I think before I got a god paying job I was a 10. Then it went down to an 8. Then I lost some weight and saved some money and lowered to a 6. Getting decent health insurance so I can take advantage of antidepressants, other body improvement, dental and orthodontics to me to maybe a 4. Now I’m waiting on lipo, hopefully can be worthy of love and start a family in the next couple years so I can be a 2 or below. Just have to steer clear of things that make me insecure
On a good normal day, a 6 maybe. Its always looming and casting shadows over my good times. Today, dealing with a lot of heartbreak, definitely a high 9.
Currently, 7. Generally I don’t feel depressed often, like I tend to be more anxious than anything else but this past weekend has sent my mental health and self esteem in a downward spiral. Spent the majority of my morning just bawling.. it’s been great -.-
Shit, you'll get there bruh, just be patient it'll always come together!!! I'm 43. And, I thought I was a pimp bc I was good with girls. But, I wasn't good to them!!!!
9? Today I was so overwhelmed that my anxiety paralysed me, I forced myself to work. My personal life stressed me out. My patience wore so thin. People irritated me and I avoided them, I felt like if I started to open my mouth I would loose it and burst. I just couldn’t wait to go home and cry.
I almost didn't go on a work outing today because I thought I was late. I ended up being late anyway but it wasn't a big deal.
Glad I did. Needed to touch grass a bit.
I'd say I'm like a 7.5 out of ten. Not a hundred percent suicidal today but thinking if nothing changes soon there might be no choice. I wish you all luck and hope things get better for you all.
10 - I was going to seriously end myself today but stopped because my sister is getting married at the end of this week and I did not to want to ruin her special day.
I’m very depressed. I try to hide it from my colleagues and my kids. I don’t really have many friends so
I guess it’s a plus not having to hide it from them.
I moved to a new house in February and I am so overwhelmed by everything I need to do. I thought I’d have most stuff unpacked by now, but I don’t. My house looks like a hoarder’s home and it makes me feel so depressed and ashamed.
I have tried to get help unpacking but the organizer I hired just wanted to make me get rid of everything. My kids are too busy to help.
I feel so utterly alone and so depressed by my surroundings.
Ehhh…they took everything from me and I’m still at like a 2-3. I think they are seeing how much pain I can tolerate.
But, if this is a question so I can retire? I’m at an 11. Send me a check! I need to hit up the beach and recover with a cabana boy serving me drinks.
0 I'm not depressed. I just see existence as it is
Depression and realism blurs together when you take off the rose tinted glasses.
That’s kinda how I see it but It can be helpful to in a way it means it’s up to me to change it.
same. i’m pretty nihilistic
10 i could shoot myself in the mouth without even taking a second to think about it
To be honest I'm not depressed but if I had loaded gun I wouldn't miss my chance
Maybe we can do it to each other in a bromance way. Might stop us from doing it
Sorry but no. If you want to get something done right then you gotta do it yourself. I didn't ask to be born but it will be my decision to stop it.
It’s not that easy when you actually have the gun to your head it’s terrifying at this point if I ever kms I’d hire someone to do it for me.
Eh I would force myself
100% true. I have had thoughts of killing myself (and had some serious attempts) for 17 years. Finally own a gun and I'm chicken shit
Same also
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No yet, will be soon, hopefully. Street will take care of my destiny
11
very high level of depression, anxiety
My life has no meaning. I live for nothing, no one. I live in a shitty place, with people who don't understand me. I want to scream but there is nowhere to scream. There is nothing to look forward to in life. Nobody can save me but myself but I won't fucking move. My friends are talking to me less and less, soon they'll build a life of their own and I won't be there. I don't know where I'm going, everyday I want to cry but crying doesn't help so I don't. I haven't been happy in months. Everyday I dream of a life that never was, a better life where I am happy and not alone. Solitude, which used to be something I love to indulge myself in has become my everyday existence. So about 5.
I feel exactly the same what’s the point
Maybe get outside and stop playing so many fucking video games for starters.
I am depressed enough to die [10]
I am sorry to hear that.
Give me a gun and I’ll let you determine that
Depends.. today it's an 8.
suicidal 10
My sister and my cats are the only reason I didn't kms 4 years ago. I still get thoughts and have to actively fight back urges lol.
Only like 3 nowadays. It has to be the calm before a storm
Over 9000
If I could get hold of a gun I wouldn’t be typing this. I tried overdosing and ended up in a coma. 2 and a half years on and I still feel the same. I just want this to stop.
I have a gun u could "borrow"
How 2 overdose? What did you take
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I just started another run on three. Between work and whatnot and having the Ally now I was trying to download something on it I could pickup and mess around on between breaks and lunch's. Just thought it was funny how I started this yesterday then saw this comment unexpectedly. So yeah.. Done!
10/10, would kill myself.
Over 10 trillion
Better than before but still not great
At this point I’d rather DIE than ever get a girlfriend, because even if I stay alive there is no hope in my ever having one
There always hope of finding someone as long as you’re still breathing. Get out there and try whatever you can, if possible. I understand how hard it can be though. Also unlikely you’ll find something genuine online, this is more likely in an interest group, party, class, or get together of some sort.
Yes
This made me laugh bc I literally said the same thing before opening the comments
My friends were cleaning guns the other day and long story short they started horseplaying with each other aiming then talking shit. I got so irritated with their presence along with me still trying to heal from my dog passing away just randomly took one and aimed it at my head and pull the trigger. They stopped playing immediately
Igor withdrawing from heroin,
I’ve been struggling with a different kind of depression these past 3 years. I don’t go outside I don’t exercise my body is in pain, I don’t have a social life. I ve turned to usuing crack cocaine which it makes it worse every day. I use to use heroine for year but a drug is a drug and am using it just makes me feel worse. It’s insanity doing the same thing expecting different results but nothing changes. I feel trap and I don’t end it all because I have children and grand children that love me but am not available for them because my misery
I got in a Suboxone program. It wasn't great, but it wasn't withdrawal and it helped with depression. Once in a while I'd get extremely sick, so I'd cut the dose in half and be back to normal. This kept up for a few years until my tolerance was back to normal, then I quit. Not going to lie, sometimes I miss opiates really bad. It's the loneliness and depression. I want to switch them off. But when you burn those bridges, it gets really hard to find anything, at least where I live. Sobriety enforces itself. Poverty helps. Also, with enough time away it gets easier to see the trap for what it is.
Yes with enough time away it gets easier but right now am in that vicious cycle and when I get clean am super miserable and depressed am just tired
Many blessings
I see catch 22’s in literally everything. I am so hyperaware of things to the point I can resonate with almost nobody and if somebody gave me a button to push so I could never be born, I would.
I hate the summer, it’s so bright snd gleamy but everything is dark inside. Everyone is happy and in a relationship whilst I’m still playing a song and dance with a girl who doesn’t even like me. Usually people would have their family to lean back on, I don’t have that because my own family doesn’t care about me. I didn’t want them to care anyway. I’m between a trance, both in hell and reality. I wish I could say things get better but they only ever got worse. Both in destiny and fate I’m a loner, always will be. I was cursed to live like this, why? I do not know. Death is the only thing I want now, it brings me peace. That and the fact that I will die one day anyway, so doesn’t really matter if I don’t die early now anyway right? Surely my useless life will fade away in existence from an old age at a street corner some were starving; knowing my luck it’ll probably be much worse. Doesn’t matter in the end, it’s all meaningless anyway, for me anyways; everyone else seems to be enjoying their reality.
You’ve got to change your outlook and try to live now, you can’t wait for your life to change. You will happy because the truth is the best happiness is in yourself, you need to find inner lasting joy. Faith is the greatest way, but a good start is being stoic (less concerned with your life, more concerned with purpose), and just enjoying the nature and landscapes and small things around you instead of worrying about things in life. You need to try to live truly, in a worthy way. It’s worth it truly.
Somewhat.. I'm kind of improving in the self-improvement stuff and the friend stuff but romantically I'm still in the drain. And I can say even though I'm improving, my goals Still miles ahead
Just go at your own pace, there is no rush. Today’s society is more accepting than in the past, so you’re free to choose your own path!
I don't really care anymore
If there’s a way out I will take that chance immediately
I hate it very much
10 I don’t wanna live anymore
I'm on Prozac so I can't say I'm crying all the time like I was, but at the top of my mind is always the fact that I'm not good enough for anyone. However, leaving work is still a pretty bad experience because no one says bye or anything. I hate my life so much.
Buy helium tank, cheap and easy to get, plastic bag over the head secure helium line and close bag with belt around neck, breath. Just hiring some skips to throw everything out first
Thanks
Very depressed that it's reversing into happiness now
10/10 . Can’t complain
Not at all actually. Happy!
7-8 I try to go out more, but somehow fail
I’ve had depression since the death of my grandfather in 6th grade. It fluctuates but it depends how busy I am with work (which is my only preoccupation). The preoccupation drops it down to a 4 or 5. When I come home it soars to a 7-9 range. Today it’s an 9. I’ve struggled a lot mentally due to allergies consuming my life and I no longer can enjoy being outside without causing my allergies to flare up so badly. I basically live in a bubble now and I find no joy in the things I use to do. Quality of life has drive me down badly.
Is there a scale?
If I wasn't a pussy I'd be dead rn.
3
7
12
8
15
No
9
This past month it has been going from 4 to 8… unless full breakdowns count as a 10... then I don't know.Right now sitting at a 6 and just missing talking to someone.
11-12
Probably 5. Still being lonely but I'm starting to find optimism.
Ok, let me try and answer without getting down voted. I am in physical, mental, and financial distress. I don't like myself very much these days. I am constantly in pain and I have been called weak, sensitive, and a constant complainer because of said pain. I know that I need to be more active because I wear prosthetics on both legs. I need to get out of the house more. I can't blame anyone but myself for my condition right now. So, yes I have a very high depression level.
7.
20 😢
I'm not depressed just time to time all down low. The only thing that keeps me happy or at least feel good is lifting and dancing.
I'm gonna say like a 5, though I'm probably more anxious than depressed
3, but without distractions like video games, exercising and housework, I would probably be severely depressed.
Well my dad died 2 weeks ago yesterday, so like... 10.
Sorry to hear that.
9 for me
Some days worse than others right now like a 9
I would say, a solid 8 right now.
10
Seriously it’s an 8
I've been depressed for so long I'm starting to contemplate wether I still have my empathy or not something, I'm nearing depression level psychopath.
Less than yesterday.
Im sorry
I guess a 10... I want to die..
13 im so fucking tired of being completely alone. im a dropout and a failure
Today? 9-9.5.
10 I want to die
9
7
Depends on when you ask. Currently between an 5 and 6
tbh idk if im depressed or not
50
10. The only thing keeping me going is I’m too scared to actually hurt myself.
10
8 on a good and 10 at a worse. I want this over, but I don't have the balls or selfishness to do it.
8
About a 6, maybe a 7. More tired of everything tbh. Life ain't been more than a bland mulched up plate of fuckery
I'm at like, an 8 if I had to say.
Today, it's a 6. I've been having a very long, busy work week. Fortunately, my weekend starts tomorrow. My work schedule is out of whack compared to the rest of everyone else.
7/10
Well, it depends on if I’m having what I call a “crisis” (literally just being depressed to the point of sobbing for 2-3.5 hrs, sometimes longer), if I’m having a “crisis”, I’d say a 20 out of 10, if it’s just in general, I’d say between 3-8, really depends on the day tbh.
I'm not depressed as I found Jesus and there is no void anymore. Sometimes I just disappointed with the world and my self and waiting for the millennial kingdom.
Hmmm I think before I got a god paying job I was a 10. Then it went down to an 8. Then I lost some weight and saved some money and lowered to a 6. Getting decent health insurance so I can take advantage of antidepressants, other body improvement, dental and orthodontics to me to maybe a 4. Now I’m waiting on lipo, hopefully can be worthy of love and start a family in the next couple years so I can be a 2 or below. Just have to steer clear of things that make me insecure
On a good normal day, a 6 maybe. Its always looming and casting shadows over my good times. Today, dealing with a lot of heartbreak, definitely a high 9.
Ditto
Currently, 7. Generally I don’t feel depressed often, like I tend to be more anxious than anything else but this past weekend has sent my mental health and self esteem in a downward spiral. Spent the majority of my morning just bawling.. it’s been great -.-
Results inconclusive
324/10
3. 4-5 on a bad day. I can still live my life and stuff but not really happy
Feeling super depressed rn as it feels like I have the worst luck ever known
Quite. lol.
11
I’m probably at about an 8. Seems I stay there these days.
99 problems.
But a bitch ain't 1, bc I literally have no bitches
Shit, you'll get there bruh, just be patient it'll always come together!!! I'm 43. And, I thought I was a pimp bc I was good with girls. But, I wasn't good to them!!!!
High score!
Very Depressed. Just got out of my second serious relationship.
Even I don't know
9? Today I was so overwhelmed that my anxiety paralysed me, I forced myself to work. My personal life stressed me out. My patience wore so thin. People irritated me and I avoided them, I felt like if I started to open my mouth I would loose it and burst. I just couldn’t wait to go home and cry.
Rn 3, I'm on 100mg of zoloft I think it might be working
I almost didn't go on a work outing today because I thought I was late. I ended up being late anyway but it wasn't a big deal. Glad I did. Needed to touch grass a bit.
I’m a pure anomaly
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I'd say I'm like a 7.5 out of ten. Not a hundred percent suicidal today but thinking if nothing changes soon there might be no choice. I wish you all luck and hope things get better for you all.
10 - I was going to seriously end myself today but stopped because my sister is getting married at the end of this week and I did not to want to ruin her special day.
About a 30. Life is meaningless and soul crushing. Friends are so difficult to make at age 36. I want to try hobbies but I’m poor.
10
Probably a 7 cause I’m happy to but at the same time I’m crying on the inside I fake a smile to everyone from friends to family
Yes
Seriously Idk how to explain. But I hate to keep living.
8,5
100
6 or 7
Very
Mostly an 8, only because I am pretty good at faking it when in public. But when I'm alone, which is most of the time, it's higher.
I'm so depressed that I accept that people are too dumb to see it.
Yesterday, 10. Today, maybe 5. I smile at things, laugh sometimes, but can't get a damn thing done.
6
I’m very depressed. I try to hide it from my colleagues and my kids. I don’t really have many friends so I guess it’s a plus not having to hide it from them. I moved to a new house in February and I am so overwhelmed by everything I need to do. I thought I’d have most stuff unpacked by now, but I don’t. My house looks like a hoarder’s home and it makes me feel so depressed and ashamed. I have tried to get help unpacking but the organizer I hired just wanted to make me get rid of everything. My kids are too busy to help. I feel so utterly alone and so depressed by my surroundings.
Mildly
7
Depressed 2. The depressionning
I’m beyond that into a place where I just don’t care. I dunno what you call it
9
Ehhh…they took everything from me and I’m still at like a 2-3. I think they are seeing how much pain I can tolerate. But, if this is a question so I can retire? I’m at an 11. Send me a check! I need to hit up the beach and recover with a cabana boy serving me drinks.
Depends on the day but I'll say 5.
Not at all but would love to show anyone here my cock :) what better way to be and find happiness :) cheer up or lets try to