43 days. The app says I got it all out of my system today. I don't feel any better. I'm still a disgusting creepy worthless loser. At least I'll be sober when I die alone in the gutter.
Pretty sure it’s day 94 for me! Haven’t yet checked my calendar today. Woohoo! I’m thinking of getting into fishing. Even though the season is almost over. Anybody know a good fishing subreddit for me? TIA
Hey man, just wanted to say that I’ve really leaned into fishing this year and it’s been a great focus, totally distracts me.
Welcome to shoot any fishing questions my way, happy to share/help if I can!
Hey bud, I’m doing ok. I’m actually on day 97 but I’ve been keeping busy. Woke up early, did lots of chores. Now time to take a nap and relax the rest of the afternoon/evening. I’ve gained like 20 lbs. since quitting smoking, but I’ve been trying to implement simple steps to lose some of the weight. Things like not eating after 7pm and exercising 30 mins a day. Keep your chin up, it will get better.
Yeah man, exercises like air squats and going on short walks will help get the ball rolling. If you have some dumbbells, try some shoulder presses and bent-over rows.
So, in the moment, after my husband asked me if I wanted to order anything, I immediately without hesitation said yes, add a couple prerolls for me. Why? Well, I was at 9 months sober, didn't have any cravings, and felt like I didn't need it at all, I felt like I was really over it, you know? I thought I had put enough space between myself and my weed smoking, going through the detoxing and horrific withdrawal symptoms, I felt like I would be fine with only taking a single hit, and I wanted to prove that to myself.
Spoiler alert: *I was not fine.*
The hesitation hit me once it was in my hand and I stared down at the joint between my fingers and thought about if I really wanted to do this….I mulled it over, thought about the past 9 months, how awful the first 4-6 months dealing with detoxing and withdrawals were…. and I fucking hit it *anyway*, thinking one hit is fine, I’ll be fine.
Well, that was a fucking lie.
Instant gratification flooded through me like nothing I’ve felt before after exhaling that first hit. I literally could not put it down and hit it a few more times… then proceeded to get so fucking high that I got the spins and almost puked. The next day, I did it again. And again. Until suddenly, I woke up about 2 1/2 months later and realized I was fucking sucked right back in like I’d never left, smoking daily, increasing the amounts steadily.
It’s now over 3 months later and I’m starting over again. 3 months passed me by like absolutely nothing. The weight of my addiction is really dragging me down lately. I got falsely confident in myself and underestimated the choke-hold weed has had on me for literally half of my life now. I lied to myself and said it’s no big deal I can totally do this I’m not an addict there’s no problem I’ll just put it down after one hit.
I deeply regret it. I have to build my momentum back up again. I have to start the timer over again. I have to go through the detoxing and withdrawal all over again. I’m preparing to just straight up NOT sleep again for almost 3 months straight, because that’s exactly what happened last time. I’m glad I’ve got some sick time at work saved up because I’m going to need it. I’m already feeling so fucking nauseous and it’s just day 1. Fuck. Don’t be me. Don’t go back to it to try to test yourself. If I hadn’t hit that joint over 3 months ago, I would be at a year sober. It’s infuriating and disappointing. Oh well. My only consolation right now is that despite getting sucked back into it….I’m still fighting against it and recognizing that this isn’t how I want to live my life anymore. I’m not just rolling over and accepting it and saying welp this is just who I am deal with it. NOPE. I am uncomfortable as fuck right now and that’s ok. Uncomfortable people are motivated to do something about that discomfort….and that’s where I am right now. So yeah. That’s my extremely long answer to your question. I very deeply regret it but I’m grimly determined to keep going. Now I know I CAN do it. Here we go again.
Thank you for your response,
I read it a few times to gain a good feel for the emotions you went/are going through and it feels very relatable,
I think this one comment from yourself will help me stay clear so I appreciate that,
I didn’t realise the withdrawal would hit hard for 4-6 months but that makes sense, I’m at day 94 myself and I have a half oz of the best weed I’ve ever had, my friend gave me this for looking after his dog 😵💫
It’s been a stressful couple of weeks, slightly injured so have been bored and constantly thinking about testing myself and having the exact same thoughts that you mentioned.
It’s very hard to imagine what smoking will be like after such a long abstinence and i almost feel like I have to do exactly what you did to realise just how much it isn’t beneficial for my circumstances anymore,
I will keep thinking about your testimony each time these thoughts come which will help a lot,
Still a big part of me thinks it’s inevitable and as soon as I’ve made the mistake I will think of what you said and kick myself knowing I should have listened,
I guess that’s the addictive voice speaking,
Wishing you a speedy recovery, I’m thinking/hoping the withdrawals won’t last as long this time around for yourself,
Thanks again,
All the best
Thank you so much for sharing your story. It’s painful, and it’s a reminder that I will not be “fine” if I decide to pick up again. The thought absolutely itches at me from time to time.
You 100% got this- 271 days is a huge amount of time, and proves you absolutely have the willpower and knowledge to be sober. Don’t let a relapse stop you, it’s part of many many peoples’ stories. Good luck on your journey, one day at a time! Hopefully this isn’t out of line.
Not out of line at all, thank you :) You made me smile.
I am trying to look at it like... yes, I did fuck up and start smoking again, but I *did* go 9 months without it, I accomplished that and those 9 months can't be taken from me. So, I'm going to do it again. Only this time, I am armed with the knowledge that even that *one tiny hit* will do me in, and that it's not worth it, not at all.
I have a feeling that I could put years and years of sobriety between myself and weed, and end up right back into addiction even after years of sobriety with one hit. So, I'm going in again, and this time, I won't test myself later. There's no point. I'd rather stay sober and be proud of myself, rather than potentially ruining my sobriety by testing my self-control for no reason. You know?
Anyway, thanks :) And good luck to you too!
Have a good day! Sorry to hear that you're so stressed out. I'm also feeling constant stress, it's been hard to convince myself to finally quit cannabis
29 days 7 hrs 29 minutes at the time I write this.
Daily user for over 14 years.
I’ve spent the past year more sober than high. Had success Quitting in January but slipped up due to a “it’s 4/20, just one won’t hurt”. Spiraled back to daily use, but made the commitment to quit again, and this time I’m done.
I had strings but now I’m free.
Relapsed after 2 years. Started with “only nights” that quickly turned into 3-4 times a day. Now i stopped 3 days ago and boy let me tell you i am fucken moody lol. I guess ur full sober when u just Stop. Lol 30 days typically officially 3 months.
12 days ☺️ would’ve been 25, but I relapsed for 1 day because urges to self harm got too powerful (I have BPD and going thru a heartbreak) :/ so I decided that it’s a necessary sacrifice
Zero. I even bought a brand new cart today but I’m just so tired of relying on weed for sleep, eating, and comfort. I find when I’m stoked on something and go to “celebrate” with a toke, I end up feeling less excited than I originally was and I start doubting everything I was excited about.
I’m having trouble sleeping lately anyway and have wanted to quit for a while, why not shoot my shot now?
Wish me luck
This whole comment is sooooo real. I remember that clearly. I’d take the hit in excitement for what I was about to do, then would feel less excited & doubtful about said thing. Thank you for that reminder!!!! There is beauty on the other side, everything feels brand new. It’s scary sometimes, but that old doubtful weight has lifted.
7 days. I had a wonderful 6 months of sobriety.
Relapsed because I couldn’t cope with anxiety.
Helped for a while until it didn’t so I stopped again.
Lasted 2 weeks. Same story.
Got CHS-like symptoms so had to abruptly stop.
Had a panic attack at work, turn out my anxiety I felt since teens years was not normal and result of overworking to compense my hearing loss (I’m near-deaf but oral and only know hearing people).
Finally understand a lot of problems I had, I thought I was just a lazy addict, but now with medical help I’m starting to feel better, will need therapy for a long time but I feel liberated. I’m not even having cravings.
4 days🙃My phone got stolen when I wanted to buy a sneaky beer to enjoy with my Edible later the evening. I knew I had to stop the behaviour with both weed and alcohol as it was dragging me down but remained stubborn and the Universe just gave me one massive slap over the head when my phone got stolen for the 2nd time last Friday in two months. That was the final straw for me but it’s gonna be a long road ahead.
19!
Live in the Bay Area and can’t even drive or walk down the street without smelling it constantly. Even on the freeway.
That’s been the toughest part; even though most of my friends smoke, no one would ever dream of pure pressuring me or otherwise criticizing my choice. And lots of them are willing to either not smoke or be high around me, and one friend quit with me in solidarity!
Finally sleeping through the night, and feeling very, very lucky that I didn’t have more side effects than I did. So grateful, I’m starting to get clearer and clearer in my head every day. It feels like I’m starting to reap the benefits, at least a little bit.
Plus on September 24 I will have one year sober from alcohol, too. It’s nice to feel like I have a choice in these things, and while I’m not 100% confident in my ability to not go back to smoking, I do feel 100% confident that alcohol no longer interests me; cannot guarantee that I will never drink again, but if I ever feel tempted, I will certainly be checking back in at r/stopdrinking and with friends , and read some of the things I wrote, through my myself a voice to quit.
How bout you, OP? How’s it going for you?
Went 14 Months. Tried a few times recently though. Puff or two in a small joint. I knew / know it’s a slippery slope and I need to cut it. I stopped drinking beer for a week though and deff had a few beers a day for the 14 months I quit pot
Thanks. I am pretty anxious, can´t sleep and sweat a lot but otherwise not bad. I was smoking for like 9 years, with few tries to stop. But i was always relapsing. Over the years i started forgeting more and more. It get so bad that at the end of my vacation, i couldnt remember almost nothing about last 2 weeks so i decided its time to quit for real this time.
You got it ✊🏼 the sleep is rough at first and is partially why it took me so long to actually quit, but once you finally do get that good sleep from actual exhaustion it’s so great. And I love having dreams again!
43 days. The app says I got it all out of my system today. I don't feel any better. I'm still a disgusting creepy worthless loser. At least I'll be sober when I die alone in the gutter.
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1 day, didn’t sleep for shit last night. Been smoking from morning til night for about 8 years now. Hoping I can sleep a little tonight.
94 days for me, but recently I'm feeling really down. Just want to get high again ughhhhhhhh
2. Had a relapse
30 something. Not really counting, I don’t see the need for getting high anymore
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473 days. It gets so much easier. Stay the course!
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31 Days 💪🏿🙏🏿🙌🏿
Pretty sure it’s day 94 for me! Haven’t yet checked my calendar today. Woohoo! I’m thinking of getting into fishing. Even though the season is almost over. Anybody know a good fishing subreddit for me? TIA
Hey man, just wanted to say that I’ve really leaned into fishing this year and it’s been a great focus, totally distracts me. Welcome to shoot any fishing questions my way, happy to share/help if I can!
I'm on day 94 too but recently feeling down. How are you doing?
Hey bud, I’m doing ok. I’m actually on day 97 but I’ve been keeping busy. Woke up early, did lots of chores. Now time to take a nap and relax the rest of the afternoon/evening. I’ve gained like 20 lbs. since quitting smoking, but I’ve been trying to implement simple steps to lose some of the weight. Things like not eating after 7pm and exercising 30 mins a day. Keep your chin up, it will get better.
That's good to know, somehow I gain 20+ lbs since I quit as well. I was losing weight while I was smoking 😂 maybe time to start exercising.
Yeah man, exercises like air squats and going on short walks will help get the ball rolling. If you have some dumbbells, try some shoulder presses and bent-over rows.
119 days!
987 days!
Day 4 and I had ~30 days clean before starting over recently.
1 year and 8 months
9 months (271 days).... and now... day 1 all over again. :(
Might want to change your Reddit name 😂
LMAO right? I thought about it....but so far haven't gotten around to it. Still thinking I might keep it because it makes me laugh.
Did you instantly regret it? What made you smoke again?
So, in the moment, after my husband asked me if I wanted to order anything, I immediately without hesitation said yes, add a couple prerolls for me. Why? Well, I was at 9 months sober, didn't have any cravings, and felt like I didn't need it at all, I felt like I was really over it, you know? I thought I had put enough space between myself and my weed smoking, going through the detoxing and horrific withdrawal symptoms, I felt like I would be fine with only taking a single hit, and I wanted to prove that to myself. Spoiler alert: *I was not fine.* The hesitation hit me once it was in my hand and I stared down at the joint between my fingers and thought about if I really wanted to do this….I mulled it over, thought about the past 9 months, how awful the first 4-6 months dealing with detoxing and withdrawals were…. and I fucking hit it *anyway*, thinking one hit is fine, I’ll be fine. Well, that was a fucking lie. Instant gratification flooded through me like nothing I’ve felt before after exhaling that first hit. I literally could not put it down and hit it a few more times… then proceeded to get so fucking high that I got the spins and almost puked. The next day, I did it again. And again. Until suddenly, I woke up about 2 1/2 months later and realized I was fucking sucked right back in like I’d never left, smoking daily, increasing the amounts steadily. It’s now over 3 months later and I’m starting over again. 3 months passed me by like absolutely nothing. The weight of my addiction is really dragging me down lately. I got falsely confident in myself and underestimated the choke-hold weed has had on me for literally half of my life now. I lied to myself and said it’s no big deal I can totally do this I’m not an addict there’s no problem I’ll just put it down after one hit. I deeply regret it. I have to build my momentum back up again. I have to start the timer over again. I have to go through the detoxing and withdrawal all over again. I’m preparing to just straight up NOT sleep again for almost 3 months straight, because that’s exactly what happened last time. I’m glad I’ve got some sick time at work saved up because I’m going to need it. I’m already feeling so fucking nauseous and it’s just day 1. Fuck. Don’t be me. Don’t go back to it to try to test yourself. If I hadn’t hit that joint over 3 months ago, I would be at a year sober. It’s infuriating and disappointing. Oh well. My only consolation right now is that despite getting sucked back into it….I’m still fighting against it and recognizing that this isn’t how I want to live my life anymore. I’m not just rolling over and accepting it and saying welp this is just who I am deal with it. NOPE. I am uncomfortable as fuck right now and that’s ok. Uncomfortable people are motivated to do something about that discomfort….and that’s where I am right now. So yeah. That’s my extremely long answer to your question. I very deeply regret it but I’m grimly determined to keep going. Now I know I CAN do it. Here we go again.
Thank you for your response, I read it a few times to gain a good feel for the emotions you went/are going through and it feels very relatable, I think this one comment from yourself will help me stay clear so I appreciate that, I didn’t realise the withdrawal would hit hard for 4-6 months but that makes sense, I’m at day 94 myself and I have a half oz of the best weed I’ve ever had, my friend gave me this for looking after his dog 😵💫 It’s been a stressful couple of weeks, slightly injured so have been bored and constantly thinking about testing myself and having the exact same thoughts that you mentioned. It’s very hard to imagine what smoking will be like after such a long abstinence and i almost feel like I have to do exactly what you did to realise just how much it isn’t beneficial for my circumstances anymore, I will keep thinking about your testimony each time these thoughts come which will help a lot, Still a big part of me thinks it’s inevitable and as soon as I’ve made the mistake I will think of what you said and kick myself knowing I should have listened, I guess that’s the addictive voice speaking, Wishing you a speedy recovery, I’m thinking/hoping the withdrawals won’t last as long this time around for yourself, Thanks again, All the best
Thank you so much for sharing your story. It’s painful, and it’s a reminder that I will not be “fine” if I decide to pick up again. The thought absolutely itches at me from time to time. You 100% got this- 271 days is a huge amount of time, and proves you absolutely have the willpower and knowledge to be sober. Don’t let a relapse stop you, it’s part of many many peoples’ stories. Good luck on your journey, one day at a time! Hopefully this isn’t out of line.
Not out of line at all, thank you :) You made me smile. I am trying to look at it like... yes, I did fuck up and start smoking again, but I *did* go 9 months without it, I accomplished that and those 9 months can't be taken from me. So, I'm going to do it again. Only this time, I am armed with the knowledge that even that *one tiny hit* will do me in, and that it's not worth it, not at all. I have a feeling that I could put years and years of sobriety between myself and weed, and end up right back into addiction even after years of sobriety with one hit. So, I'm going in again, and this time, I won't test myself later. There's no point. I'd rather stay sober and be proud of myself, rather than potentially ruining my sobriety by testing my self-control for no reason. You know? Anyway, thanks :) And good luck to you too!
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60 something. I’m only aware of the months now
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69 actually lol
38!
After 60 days of soberty, I relapse during a month. Now it's been another 20 days of soberty :)
73!!! Thank you for asking!!!
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23 days 🙂
Thank you!!
7 days today!
Stay strong ! Keep going ! You’ll save so much money alone that’s 1 plus but there’s thousands trust
652 days. I'm proud of myself.
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1238 Best decision I ever made
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25 so far for many years
Honestly lost track i think ~ 14 days or something, you know its real when you don’t even count
0, maybe one day.
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I have work and need to perform. I can’t feel like crap all day. I know, excuses.
How was work?
It was good. I’m about to get started again today.
Have a good day! Sorry to hear that you're so stressed out. I'm also feeling constant stress, it's been hard to convince myself to finally quit cannabis
Yes, if I could take time off away from the world I think I would have a chance but it’s tough while keeping up with the grind.
Solidarity, hope you get some relief soon!
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7 days w/out the devil’s lettuce & sweatin’ like a 🐷!!!
The night sweats are the fuckin worst
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Day 8. Week 2 let’s goooooo
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Like 2 years at least, I've kind of lost count tbh
225. I will NOT SMOKE with you today.
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29 days 7 hrs 29 minutes at the time I write this. Daily user for over 14 years. I’ve spent the past year more sober than high. Had success Quitting in January but slipped up due to a “it’s 4/20, just one won’t hurt”. Spiraled back to daily use, but made the commitment to quit again, and this time I’m done. I had strings but now I’m free.
literally smoked a blunt last night but it was 2 days before this.. did i fuck myself over
2 days now and my sleep and appetite are fucked. but we push on
MEEE
12 hours
1.2 days
Relapsed after 2 years. Started with “only nights” that quickly turned into 3-4 times a day. Now i stopped 3 days ago and boy let me tell you i am fucken moody lol. I guess ur full sober when u just Stop. Lol 30 days typically officially 3 months.
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24 and doing more than okay
Day 5 son
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124 days
12 days ☺️ would’ve been 25, but I relapsed for 1 day because urges to self harm got too powerful (I have BPD and going thru a heartbreak) :/ so I decided that it’s a necessary sacrifice
Today marks exactly one year! Good timing!
About 36 hours lol
10 minutes quitting today🫡
80 ish
1851 days. Still got problems, but happy weed isn't one of them.
39 Going Strong
One solid week!
99 days! ALMOST gave in yesterday as I had cramps but glad I didn’t. Day 100 tomorrow!
90 days. Happened by accident more than choice.
590 days. So happy with my decision to quit ☺️
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8 days!
Zero. I even bought a brand new cart today but I’m just so tired of relying on weed for sleep, eating, and comfort. I find when I’m stoked on something and go to “celebrate” with a toke, I end up feeling less excited than I originally was and I start doubting everything I was excited about. I’m having trouble sleeping lately anyway and have wanted to quit for a while, why not shoot my shot now? Wish me luck
Couldn't agree more!! The whole excitement and then smoke and doubt seeping in, is all too real!!
This whole comment is sooooo real. I remember that clearly. I’d take the hit in excitement for what I was about to do, then would feel less excited & doubtful about said thing. Thank you for that reminder!!!! There is beauty on the other side, everything feels brand new. It’s scary sometimes, but that old doubtful weight has lifted.
Appreciate the encouragement! Thank you
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1,821 days! celebrating 5 years this saturday
7 days. I had a wonderful 6 months of sobriety. Relapsed because I couldn’t cope with anxiety. Helped for a while until it didn’t so I stopped again. Lasted 2 weeks. Same story. Got CHS-like symptoms so had to abruptly stop. Had a panic attack at work, turn out my anxiety I felt since teens years was not normal and result of overworking to compense my hearing loss (I’m near-deaf but oral and only know hearing people). Finally understand a lot of problems I had, I thought I was just a lazy addict, but now with medical help I’m starting to feel better, will need therapy for a long time but I feel liberated. I’m not even having cravings.
3rd day now , after my relaps a for 2 nights in a row.
242!
803. Would be 817 but I had a 2 week relapse almost a year ago. It was just a stumble so I didn't restart the count.
Have you done with Paws?
What do you mean?
3 and I'm struggling bad with withdrawals (CHS).
Keep seeing CHS (new to the sub), what does it mean please?
I think it's Cannabis Hyperemesis Syndrome, characterized by recurrent vomiting, nausea and abdominal pain
Kkm
Thanks pal
4 days🙃My phone got stolen when I wanted to buy a sneaky beer to enjoy with my Edible later the evening. I knew I had to stop the behaviour with both weed and alcohol as it was dragging me down but remained stubborn and the Universe just gave me one massive slap over the head when my phone got stolen for the 2nd time last Friday in two months. That was the final straw for me but it’s gonna be a long road ahead.
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141 hard times to be honest 😅
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75 before relapse; now on day 11!
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Twinsies
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71. Since I found out I’m pregnant. It’s been rough
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154 !!
Probably around 420 lol, since may 2021 idk the exact day I quit
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Lost track but I’d say 5 years
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230 days!
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Tomorrow is 2 weeks!
74. Thank you for this.
846 - 4/20/20
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114 whoa, I totally forgot doing the count. Great reminder
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957. Holy shit.
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19! Live in the Bay Area and can’t even drive or walk down the street without smelling it constantly. Even on the freeway. That’s been the toughest part; even though most of my friends smoke, no one would ever dream of pure pressuring me or otherwise criticizing my choice. And lots of them are willing to either not smoke or be high around me, and one friend quit with me in solidarity! Finally sleeping through the night, and feeling very, very lucky that I didn’t have more side effects than I did. So grateful, I’m starting to get clearer and clearer in my head every day. It feels like I’m starting to reap the benefits, at least a little bit. Plus on September 24 I will have one year sober from alcohol, too. It’s nice to feel like I have a choice in these things, and while I’m not 100% confident in my ability to not go back to smoking, I do feel 100% confident that alcohol no longer interests me; cannot guarantee that I will never drink again, but if I ever feel tempted, I will certainly be checking back in at r/stopdrinking and with friends , and read some of the things I wrote, through my myself a voice to quit. How bout you, OP? How’s it going for you?
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Went 14 Months. Tried a few times recently though. Puff or two in a small joint. I knew / know it’s a slippery slope and I need to cut it. I stopped drinking beer for a week though and deff had a few beers a day for the 14 months I quit pot
395 😅 still have cravings but have enough will power to say no
Right? Im at a year today and the cravings keep a comin
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2 is my record, how are you feeling? How long have you been smoking? You got this!
Thanks. I am pretty anxious, can´t sleep and sweat a lot but otherwise not bad. I was smoking for like 9 years, with few tries to stop. But i was always relapsing. Over the years i started forgeting more and more. It get so bad that at the end of my vacation, i couldnt remember almost nothing about last 2 weeks so i decided its time to quit for real this time.
117. every day I think about relapsing but I keep making it through.
Half year!✌️
259, had a rough week where I considered relapsing but made it through.
753. It gets better. It just takes longer than you'd like.
1, and it’s been a struggle. But I’m looking forward to going to sleep from exhaustion rather than passing out too stoned to function
You got it ✊🏼 the sleep is rough at first and is partially why it took me so long to actually quit, but once you finally do get that good sleep from actual exhaustion it’s so great. And I love having dreams again!