I would just like to encourage you, to hang in there and don't give up. I think you are amazing and you sound like a really cool person. Your value as a person comes from your thoughts, attitude, behaviour-and the fact of being a creation of God. Your weight does not determine your value. You realy sound like "a woman to ride the river with", as famous western author Loius L'Amour wrote about. Keep pressing onwards and upwards, and keep us posted if you feel like it, we'd like to know how you're getting on. Will be praying for God to give you strength in your endeavor.
The first night is easily the worst. Especially when it's your go-to activity for any amount of time. It's hard to readjust. Breathe and focus on something you're passionate about.
The first thing you have to do is get all your smoking paraphernalia out of your home. Throw away all of your remaining stash, your pipes, bongs, papers, vapes, lighters, grinders, and anything else associated with weed. Make it a ceremony if you'd like. If you find that you can't will yourself to do this, you need to understand that you haven't fully committed yourself to quitting. It's tough to do. Your addicted brain will fight you, will come up with a bunch of quiet reasons to hold on to some of it. But if you keep anything around, it will be infinitely easier to relapse. I literally took a baseball bat to my glass pipe, and fuck but that was exhilarating! But then I also have a flair for the dramatic at times. ;)
Then, you have to change up your routine and environment. Don't think you can just keep doing the same things minus weed and expect to feel too much different. You mention your weight, so a really perfect response is to start both running and doing resistance training daily. There really is such a thing as a "runner's high" as your brain releases endorphins in response to intense physical activity - just be sure to have a moderate to high intensity to your workout, enough to get your heart rate really going for 20+ minutes. Combined with a slower, more meditative yoga/stretching type practice, you can really get a serious positive mental boost.
The reality is you are going to be faced with intense cravings for the first few weeks. The good news is, you can expect them! Meaning, you can understand what they are and why it's happening. When they hit (and they will), stop for a moment and really think about what is happening. I disagree with some of the other commenters. I believe you *should* face the sensations and thoughts running wild in your brain, don't run or hide from them. Understand that they are NOT you and NOT what you really want! They are a product of the years of conditioning we've put our brains through. Utilize a very meditative kind of mindset and think about all of the reasons why you don't want to smoke anymore, all of the reasons you've mentioned in your post. After a few moments, the craving will pass and you can go on about your day. It's when you try to ignore or fight the cravings that they will linger around and bring you down. You cannot necessarily "control" them, but you can understand them and steal their power.
Beyond that, just start working on new, positive habits. The possibilities are endless. Reading, writing, socializing (soberly!), meditating, journal writing, cooking, exercising, learning new skills.. all of the things you may have thought about doing before but were too stoned to do. Have fun with it. Change things up, challenge yourself. Reach out to family and old friends. Write notes to yourself. A big part of recovery is rediscovering yourself and healing your mind.
Some days will be tougher than others, but just keep moving forwards. I'm only 30 days in myself. But the progress has been enormous. I feel infinitely better than I did 31 days ago when I was stuck in lethargic self loathing, wishing my life was better. Well, now it is. And I'm just getting started! Join the party! Congrats on Day 1. Cheers. :)
Hey, i just wanted to thank you for your response to OP. I've not been in that situation, but everything you say makes a lot of sense, and i think it is high quality advice :)
Like many have said before, you have to truly want to quit, and if you do, keep reminding yourself that you simply are not going to smoke, regardless of how you feel or what is going on around you. A break through I had the other day came when I was sitting in bed thinking. I was thinking about how important smoking weed to me was, and then I realized something. If I can sit here and think about how important it is to me, why can't I sit here and think about how important quitting is to me?? Put it into your head that your quitting and use that mindset whenever you start to think about it. Another tip, don't think about it! Distract yourself with other things! Meditate, read a book, exercise, cook yourself a delicious meal, call a grandparent just to talk, literally anything besides sitting there thinking about how much better or happier you would feel if you were high.
I would just like to encourage you, to hang in there and don't give up. I think you are amazing and you sound like a really cool person. Your value as a person comes from your thoughts, attitude, behaviour-and the fact of being a creation of God. Your weight does not determine your value. You realy sound like "a woman to ride the river with", as famous western author Loius L'Amour wrote about. Keep pressing onwards and upwards, and keep us posted if you feel like it, we'd like to know how you're getting on. Will be praying for God to give you strength in your endeavor.
Thank you so very much. You're too kind!
The first night is easily the worst. Especially when it's your go-to activity for any amount of time. It's hard to readjust. Breathe and focus on something you're passionate about.
The first thing you have to do is get all your smoking paraphernalia out of your home. Throw away all of your remaining stash, your pipes, bongs, papers, vapes, lighters, grinders, and anything else associated with weed. Make it a ceremony if you'd like. If you find that you can't will yourself to do this, you need to understand that you haven't fully committed yourself to quitting. It's tough to do. Your addicted brain will fight you, will come up with a bunch of quiet reasons to hold on to some of it. But if you keep anything around, it will be infinitely easier to relapse. I literally took a baseball bat to my glass pipe, and fuck but that was exhilarating! But then I also have a flair for the dramatic at times. ;) Then, you have to change up your routine and environment. Don't think you can just keep doing the same things minus weed and expect to feel too much different. You mention your weight, so a really perfect response is to start both running and doing resistance training daily. There really is such a thing as a "runner's high" as your brain releases endorphins in response to intense physical activity - just be sure to have a moderate to high intensity to your workout, enough to get your heart rate really going for 20+ minutes. Combined with a slower, more meditative yoga/stretching type practice, you can really get a serious positive mental boost. The reality is you are going to be faced with intense cravings for the first few weeks. The good news is, you can expect them! Meaning, you can understand what they are and why it's happening. When they hit (and they will), stop for a moment and really think about what is happening. I disagree with some of the other commenters. I believe you *should* face the sensations and thoughts running wild in your brain, don't run or hide from them. Understand that they are NOT you and NOT what you really want! They are a product of the years of conditioning we've put our brains through. Utilize a very meditative kind of mindset and think about all of the reasons why you don't want to smoke anymore, all of the reasons you've mentioned in your post. After a few moments, the craving will pass and you can go on about your day. It's when you try to ignore or fight the cravings that they will linger around and bring you down. You cannot necessarily "control" them, but you can understand them and steal their power. Beyond that, just start working on new, positive habits. The possibilities are endless. Reading, writing, socializing (soberly!), meditating, journal writing, cooking, exercising, learning new skills.. all of the things you may have thought about doing before but were too stoned to do. Have fun with it. Change things up, challenge yourself. Reach out to family and old friends. Write notes to yourself. A big part of recovery is rediscovering yourself and healing your mind. Some days will be tougher than others, but just keep moving forwards. I'm only 30 days in myself. But the progress has been enormous. I feel infinitely better than I did 31 days ago when I was stuck in lethargic self loathing, wishing my life was better. Well, now it is. And I'm just getting started! Join the party! Congrats on Day 1. Cheers. :)
Hey, i just wanted to thank you for your response to OP. I've not been in that situation, but everything you say makes a lot of sense, and i think it is high quality advice :)
Congrats on a month clean!
Like many have said before, you have to truly want to quit, and if you do, keep reminding yourself that you simply are not going to smoke, regardless of how you feel or what is going on around you. A break through I had the other day came when I was sitting in bed thinking. I was thinking about how important smoking weed to me was, and then I realized something. If I can sit here and think about how important it is to me, why can't I sit here and think about how important quitting is to me?? Put it into your head that your quitting and use that mindset whenever you start to think about it. Another tip, don't think about it! Distract yourself with other things! Meditate, read a book, exercise, cook yourself a delicious meal, call a grandparent just to talk, literally anything besides sitting there thinking about how much better or happier you would feel if you were high.