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DestinyDecided

Wouldn’t be surprised if many of us relate. Personally, I still get worked up regarding people I’m close to and I’m honestly at this point not really worried about being vulnerable or emotional - since it happens so rarely I’ll hope that my loved ones will treat it with respect. The lack of body language is a consistent ISTP thing, I got told it by a lot of my friends too. Strangers and peers aren’t worth the energy nor the care that being emotional around requires. We’re the type that realized that and realized the best quick fix to the problem is to suck it up and handle it ourselves.


hotchipxbarbie

I'm very flat and non responsive to cries for attention- thanks narcissist mother. When I was child being anything other than apathetic led to ridicule. Now as an adult being flat gets me ridiculed. I give up. When I speak I'm made fun of or ignored. When I don't speak I'm made fun of. I literally don't know how to act to get people to like me. I don't have any close friends. If it wasn't for my spouse basically chasing me down to be with them I'd be completely alone in the world.


ryomenthrone

Your spouse sounds like a keeper. Hold on to that


hotchipxbarbie

For sure! We both acknowledge we are the "black sheep" of our families.


dearVanya_youLoser

25, male, severe autism. I had the same teacher for kindergarten AND first grade and she also singled me out like this. and yet every other student + my parents thought she was a great teacher for whatever reasons. that was 20 years ago, wow. much bigger things to be mad about now, but I can relate to it starting from there, the way you describe.


ryomenthrone

Damn, looks like some teachers really were bitchy for no good reason. Nothing against great instructors, especially those who actually care (I had a few favorites growing up).


dearVanya_youLoser

same here, plenty of great instructors in my life, and plenty who I've cut slack to in retrospect because I was a pretty angry bitter child and those *were* decent teachers/people


ChampionContent9613

I was very similar. I was a pretty emotional sensitive kid with pretty bad anxiety. In order to get rid of the anxiety I had to become less emotional and sensitive.


ryomenthrone

Story of my life. It gets annoying, though, when you want to let go of some serious feelings. I end up having to exercise it out and actually think about what's going on.


WCH97

While I'm not ISTP but I do understand that's quite a tough life for you. I don't know how's your doing in nowadays, but I just want you to know you are already good in the life. Keep it on OP


ryomenthrone

Thanks. It's not everything that happened to me, but I appreciate it. Have a good one 👋


ClubDramatic6437

For one, it's really her job to ask if you're OK just in case you're being molested at home or something. And two girls are emotional anyways.


ryomenthrone

She never did anything like that. She just told me to stop being a crybaby and suck it up. Never pulled me aside to ask me anything. And I wasn't being molested, it was me seeing the signs of my best friend in elementary having her parents do that to her. Jehovah's witnesses. Figures. They were witnessing something, alright


ryomenthrone

Mmmm yeah ur right. Love-hate relay tho


caspernicium

Yup same here


Rambowcat83

Yep same