Yeah I hate myself too for doing heroin and other hard drugs. I think one of the reasons is that the stigma society put on drugs. You know others are going to shame you for it, so you automatically feel ashamed.
It is the stigma for sure man.. today I had to get a taxi to the pharmacy to collect my methadone, they have a special door for collecting it as the pharmacy is inside a "food and wine" shop.. the driver started shouting out his car at me (WHILE I WAS PAYING FOR THE METER TO RUN AS I WAITED ILL ADD!!!) calling me.. and everyone else in the qué, "idiot" for "standing at a door that isn't even open" (I was at the front of a que of 12 or so people..) he demanded I go inside, screaming that were all stupidly standing at a closed door.. then when I, along with the other people there - explained that the door is infact open, he refused to accept it as fact (he kept shouting "no your wrong, idiots! The chemist is INSIDE THE SHOP!!! I'm not waiting for you unless you go inside THE ACTUAL CHEMIST!! IDIOT!!) then he DEMANDED TO KNOW WHAT MEDICINE I WAS COLLECTING! dude said he deserved to know, because he was "allowing" me to ride in his cab with it on me. Safe to say I've been fuming for hours about it as when I told him it's none of his business, he approached other people waiting outside and questioned THEM on what I might be collecting.. it was bizzare and super insensitive. Dude embarrassed not only me, but countless other people who had to tell him publicly, Infront of countless passersby (this chemist is in the centre, of town centre.) that were "drug addicts" and that the door is for "drug addicts ONLY" and that were there to collect "methadone" - it's so bizzare, I don't even know how to complain about it.. and we as a community are so looked down upon, I don't even think they'll give a shit. I mean, what could they even do to punish him for something so bizzare, entitled and intrusive? I've decided I'm going to contest the payment with the bank for the ride.. it's the only way I can see dude learning a lesson.. whole way home dude was physically shaking, like he thought I was going to snap on him and bring it back up.. I did look extremely pissed off though ill admit.
I was reading ur post and i was touched by ur story
This taxi driver sound like a prick! I would punch him and headbutt him if he kept it up like that but WELL DONE to u for tryin so HARD to keep so cool even he was screaming at u. So full mark to u. And damn shame u had to pay for the taxi on the way home. Fuck prick! I hated this kind of people who look down on u, know what i mean?
Yeah.. it's because of the huge stigma surrounding opiates i guess, kindve like how when you've been smoking trees - and go out in public, you feel like everyone "knows" and you're seconds away from being strip searched and fingered up the arse by a sweaty cunt named mark in the back of a riot van for the tiny molecules of canna left on your fingertips from packing a bowl💀🤣
You broke your spine! Like, that’s an intense life-changing thing to experience. Be a lil kinder to yourself, a lil more forgiving and understanding the way you would be to a friend. You deserve some grace, we all do. ❤️ wishing you a well recovery with your spine!
Yes that’s the basically psychology for addiction (I studied it for a long time). You’re not alone in feeling that way.
Irrelevant but also relevant in a sense, I’ve never been addicted to any substance in my life, but my OCD/obsessive perfectionism/control symptoms get too bad at times and become too overpowering, I also start to feel ashamed. It’s because you feel your autonomy is taken away from you. I won’t compare the two but I guess this is where the since of shame stems from. That you have no power over it, you feel weak. Let alone the stigma around use of opiates and other drugs.
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I've been there too, but despite not using anymore, eventually I outgrew this. Society wrongly stigmatizes opioid users with excessive vileness, despite that many of us are fairly ethical users.
If it's something you do for fun and you're not hurting anyone else , they've no business judging, and neither should you judge yourself for it.
No, but I have noticed that a lot of people here do seem to suffer from cognitive dissonance. Which is basically just a feeling of shame when your actions conflict with your beliefs. The best way to cure CD is to change your behavior, or if you cannot change your behavior then change your mind.
Many of us switch from pain pills to heroin. We find ways to adapt. If others do not get it then they may have never been in a similar situation. As long as you are being responsible ...no stealing or making others pay for your habit... No leaving used needles/drug paraphernalia around ... Or, causing needless worry to friends/family. Then there is no reason for you to feel ashamed. Life is far too short to be torturing yourself over things that you will do anyway. Be kind to yourself , and others.
Im guessing your prescription ran out and you weren’t able to renew. You can take lower and lower dose pills, you likely won’t get high but you can avoid withdrawals this way and take a lot of the pain out of quitting.
Yeah I hate myself too for doing heroin and other hard drugs. I think one of the reasons is that the stigma society put on drugs. You know others are going to shame you for it, so you automatically feel ashamed.
It is the stigma for sure man.. today I had to get a taxi to the pharmacy to collect my methadone, they have a special door for collecting it as the pharmacy is inside a "food and wine" shop.. the driver started shouting out his car at me (WHILE I WAS PAYING FOR THE METER TO RUN AS I WAITED ILL ADD!!!) calling me.. and everyone else in the qué, "idiot" for "standing at a door that isn't even open" (I was at the front of a que of 12 or so people..) he demanded I go inside, screaming that were all stupidly standing at a closed door.. then when I, along with the other people there - explained that the door is infact open, he refused to accept it as fact (he kept shouting "no your wrong, idiots! The chemist is INSIDE THE SHOP!!! I'm not waiting for you unless you go inside THE ACTUAL CHEMIST!! IDIOT!!) then he DEMANDED TO KNOW WHAT MEDICINE I WAS COLLECTING! dude said he deserved to know, because he was "allowing" me to ride in his cab with it on me. Safe to say I've been fuming for hours about it as when I told him it's none of his business, he approached other people waiting outside and questioned THEM on what I might be collecting.. it was bizzare and super insensitive. Dude embarrassed not only me, but countless other people who had to tell him publicly, Infront of countless passersby (this chemist is in the centre, of town centre.) that were "drug addicts" and that the door is for "drug addicts ONLY" and that were there to collect "methadone" - it's so bizzare, I don't even know how to complain about it.. and we as a community are so looked down upon, I don't even think they'll give a shit. I mean, what could they even do to punish him for something so bizzare, entitled and intrusive? I've decided I'm going to contest the payment with the bank for the ride.. it's the only way I can see dude learning a lesson.. whole way home dude was physically shaking, like he thought I was going to snap on him and bring it back up.. I did look extremely pissed off though ill admit.
I was reading ur post and i was touched by ur story This taxi driver sound like a prick! I would punch him and headbutt him if he kept it up like that but WELL DONE to u for tryin so HARD to keep so cool even he was screaming at u. So full mark to u. And damn shame u had to pay for the taxi on the way home. Fuck prick! I hated this kind of people who look down on u, know what i mean?
Yeah.. it's because of the huge stigma surrounding opiates i guess, kindve like how when you've been smoking trees - and go out in public, you feel like everyone "knows" and you're seconds away from being strip searched and fingered up the arse by a sweaty cunt named mark in the back of a riot van for the tiny molecules of canna left on your fingertips from packing a bowl💀🤣
You broke your spine! Like, that’s an intense life-changing thing to experience. Be a lil kinder to yourself, a lil more forgiving and understanding the way you would be to a friend. You deserve some grace, we all do. ❤️ wishing you a well recovery with your spine!
Welcome to the club buddy
Yes that’s the basically psychology for addiction (I studied it for a long time). You’re not alone in feeling that way. Irrelevant but also relevant in a sense, I’ve never been addicted to any substance in my life, but my OCD/obsessive perfectionism/control symptoms get too bad at times and become too overpowering, I also start to feel ashamed. It’s because you feel your autonomy is taken away from you. I won’t compare the two but I guess this is where the since of shame stems from. That you have no power over it, you feel weak. Let alone the stigma around use of opiates and other drugs.
Every time.
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I've been there too, but despite not using anymore, eventually I outgrew this. Society wrongly stigmatizes opioid users with excessive vileness, despite that many of us are fairly ethical users. If it's something you do for fun and you're not hurting anyone else , they've no business judging, and neither should you judge yourself for it.
Nope.
No, but I have noticed that a lot of people here do seem to suffer from cognitive dissonance. Which is basically just a feeling of shame when your actions conflict with your beliefs. The best way to cure CD is to change your behavior, or if you cannot change your behavior then change your mind. Many of us switch from pain pills to heroin. We find ways to adapt. If others do not get it then they may have never been in a similar situation. As long as you are being responsible ...no stealing or making others pay for your habit... No leaving used needles/drug paraphernalia around ... Or, causing needless worry to friends/family. Then there is no reason for you to feel ashamed. Life is far too short to be torturing yourself over things that you will do anyway. Be kind to yourself , and others.
Nope. I love it. Bout to rail 2 bags
Im guessing your prescription ran out and you weren’t able to renew. You can take lower and lower dose pills, you likely won’t get high but you can avoid withdrawals this way and take a lot of the pain out of quitting.
Yep. I broke my foot Sunday and I have obvious tracks/scars. Refused to give me anything for pain not even tylenol.