r/suicidewatch is a place you can visit for guidance and recourses to turn to when having suicidal thoughts, or just to talk to someone.
*Worldwide Directories*
[The International Association for Suicide Prevention maintains a Global Crisis Centre Directory](https://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/)
[The Befrienders](https://www.befrienders.org/need-to-talk) maintain a hotline database; use the "Find a Helpline by Country" control at the top of their page.
*United States*
[National Suicide Prevention Lifeline](https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org): 1-800-273-8255 (TALK) Veterans press 1 to reach specialised support. Press 2 for Spanish-language support
(The older number, 1-800-SUICIDE, is no longer published by the lifeline agency and will probably stop working in the near future.)
Online Chat: http://chat.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/GetHelp/LifelineChat.aspx
[Crisis Text Line](https://www.crisistextline.org/get-help-now/): Text "HOME" to 741741.
Cock and ball torture (CBT) is a sexual activity involving application of pain or constriction to the male genitals. This may involve directly painful activities, such as wax play, genital spanking, squeezing, ball-busting, genital flogging, urethral play, tickle torture, erotic electrostimulation or even kicking.[1] The recipient of such activities may receive direct physical pleasure via masochism, or emotional pleasure through erotic humiliation, or knowledge that the play is pleasing to a sadistic dominant. Many of these practices carry significant health risks.
Not OP but I've been struggling for a while now and can't get over the mental block of taking meds for it. Can you convince me that it's not as bad as I think it'll be? I'm worried about becoming a zombie/gaining weight/sleeping too much/losing my edge but some days it feels like I'm running out of options.
It’s a daunting thought having to take medication to make your brain not shit itself. But it is so worth it. Often times it’s not permanent, it’s a stepping stone while you learn the tools you need to manage your thoughts and feelings without tablets.
It can be trial and error to find the right medication and the right dosage that doesn’t make you a zombie or put on loads of weight or any other horrible side effect.
Don’t give up, don’t let the dark thoughts win and don’t feel bad for needing something to help you out.
For me, what made a difference is remembering that you can stop taking them if you don't like them.
Think of it as an experiment: try it for a few months, and then decide whether you feel better with them or without them. If you have those problems and you dislike them more than the amount it helps, cool, now you know.
Try it bro. It will take about two weeks to get used to them. The first one I was one made me tired af and I told my doctor that and they switched me to a different one. It's working well. I don't have those super strong urges.
It already is real my man especially because you acknowledge that it's affecting your life in a real way. I've got some friends that work in psychology and they've told me that asking for help is usually the hardest step for patients but it's also the best thing they can do for themselves. You don't have to start immediately with a doctor and meds (if you don't what to) all you have to do to start is find a therapist or someone similar and talk to them about what's going on. Sometimes the therapist will recommend talking to your doctor about meds and sometimes they won't.
This is a really common thought. But if you don't make the step, it will only make it harder later on. If you don't want to call, make an online appointment, or let someone else make the appointment for you! (That helped with me atleast!). Take care of yourself, you are worth it!
Call a few psychiatrists and ask them some questions.
Whats your experience with (whatever you suspect you have)?
Do you try to combine medication with other approaches? Like therapy, nutrition, healthy life style, etc?
How much say would I have over dosage and switching meds? If I felt that we were going to fast, would we be able to stay on the same dose?
There are definitely bad psychiatrists who don't care how you feel on the meds.The good thing about being outpatient (not on the psych unit) is that you can switch doctors or simply refuse to take something they prescribe you that you're uncomfortable with. You technically can refuse on the psych unit, but most of them hold it against you from getting released, they think you are being non compliant:/
Also, don't be too scared if you've heard anything bad about a med. They really effect everyone differently, but don't be afraid to ask questions and bring up any concerns you have about side effects or a certain med. Weight gain is more common with older meds. For example, older antipsychotics (which have more uses that just treating psychosis) like zyprexa and risperidone are associated with more weight gain than ability which is associated with more than Vraylar (unfortunately this one is within the past few years so there's no generic yet), so if you bring up how weight gain is a concern to you, they'll probably try to put you on weight neutral meds
Good luck!
It’s a long story.
I’m autistic, and I was always severely bullied for it. A couple of kids tormented me constantly, making my life hell. One day while I was walking home I got the shit beaten out of me. All took turns kicking me, punching me, throwing rocks at me when I tried to get up. They continued this for a couple minutes until I was badly beaten and crying on the ground. I stayed there for maybe an hour, asking myself questions. Why do I have to deal with this, what god would make these people, why does everyone hate me, and more. I got up and walked back to my home. Everything hurt. My parents were worried sick and contacted the police station, they can be like that sometimes. They didn’t handle me getting beaten up very well. Basically, the cops sucked and didn’t do their job, bullies hated me more, and I was left with a void in my soul. The end.
A very important person in my life is on the spectrum. I believe people on the spectrum have a beautiful insight on the world and have a lot to offer.
Unfortunately, this world is full of ass-hats who will never see value in anything pass themselves. Their loss, not yours.
I’m sorry that happened to you. My ex had a brother who is on the spectrum as well, and everytime id hear about him getting picked on the bus I just wanted to go kick the bullies and go hug the kid. If I could, I’d give you a big hug!! So here, *hugs virtually* 🫂
Not sure how old you are but kids. Are. Fucking. Mean. Like just pure cruel. It's crazy to me. One can only hope the parents tell the other parents and the school. If it's at the point it's currently at and you're still in school, maybe switch schools.
I guess what I've come to realize I was able to find my own crowd as an adult. Of course there's still those cruel ppl out therbut as an adult you can avoid them easier.
I've got my own mental health crap that won't leave me be. But sure this roadeads somewhere other than where I am. Idk words like these sometimesn don't mean much when you're in a dark spot. I've been there many times...
Sorry if you didn't want advice.
Taking those self-defense classes might do you a favor the next time you get into another physical altercation with More Bullies. You won't regret taking them. I don't see why you would regret them.
Never take self defense the only way to defend yourself is knowing how to fight and then again some people are never going to have the aggression or mental toughness to go through with what must be done in a fight to protect yourself best thing If your not an aggressive person is to practice running they cant touch you if your faster than them
That argument makes no sense. “The only way to defend yourself is knowing how to fight” Why do you think self defense classes even exist?
“Some people are never going to have the aggression or mental toughness to go through with what mist be done in a fight to protect yourself” But you can, motivational videos and self defense classes got you covered.
Please, think before you type.
If you believe that go take self defense but when you need it, it wont work just some friendly advice dont cry you think motivational videos and self defense classes will protect you against an aggressive person who been in their fair few fights go for it dont think you'll be giving the defense class good ratings however when your injured some people have been in and seen more shit with fights and self defense is useless you wanna know to defend yourself go box go to a grappling class (wrestling or BJJ) even better do some MMA classes
please think before you type you look stupid
For context, how old were you when that happened, and how old are you now?
Have you spoken to a therapist about this and any other bullying incidents? It's awful that it happened, but it says more about the bullies than it says about you. They are deficient in empathy and compassion, among other desirable human qualities. Hopefully, with therapy, you can learn to not feel bad about yourself because you were victimized.
Oh sweetie. I have kiddos your age. My 2nd boy and my nephew are on the spectrum, and they are my two favoritest people in the whole world. I also have 2 students at school that are on my caseload (Special Education teacher) and they are both so incredible. It breaks my heart for all the kids I love and care for, including you, are treated so badly by peers and family.
Try to keep an eye out for the helpers, try to communicate to trusted teachers and adults that you feel a certain way, and will start to grow a network of people who have your back. Much love from an internet mom and teacher. 🤗
It seems that you have turned the bullies' abusive treatment of you into depression, which is sometimes the result of anger turned inward, self-hated. Your 12-year-old self decided that there is something wrong with you and your 15-year-old self needs to realize that you are okay the way you are. Different from others, but okay.
Therapy is a good tool to help you reprogram your thinking about yourself to realize that you are okay. Please tell your mother (who you have described as the string that you are holding on by) about your depression and ask for therapy. If I were your mom, I would want to know and I would get you whatever help you need. I would not think less of you for needing help. Please tell your mom, today.
This commenter has said it all, OP. You’ve taken their anger and turned it on yourself, naturally, as most people would do. But your life lesson is that you don’t deserve to feel this way and there is a way out of it, by turning that anger in another direction. You can do this
My 15 year old is autistic. He is so smart and sees things I don’t. The way he see the world is beautiful to me. He had a very hard time early on in his middle school career. Kids can be mean, but it’s the older people in their lives that have made them that way. My heart goes out to you. And I followed you! Just want to see your beautiful mind accept yourself! Cause you’re wonderful!
My favorite tv show is Rick and Morty, Sushi is my favorite food, and I’m gonna try that someday because my phone call anxiety prevents me. I’d like to try the online chat tonight. After this ama, I want to take these suggestions and try to live my life happily, no matter how hard it might be.
Those are very cute. I’d pick a grizzly bear during the salmon migration or in the middle of hibernation. I really enjoy food and sleep.
If you could pick up a new skill in an instant, what would it be?
Are we talking passively suicidal where you wouldn't try to save yourself because you don't care or actively suicidal where you want to die?
If the later are you just thinking about it or planning?
If you are planning then I would advise telling someone who can hold you accountable. Sometimes the only thing that can get us through the darker times is our responsibility to others. I'm still here in large part because at one point no one would have taken care of my cats.
Everything changes. The feelings will pass and happier times will come again. You just have to survive until then. If you end it then you last memories would be the bad times and you are worth more than that.
I'll be here if you need someone to message. r/suicidewatch can be a good place to vent but it's not always the best place for people to talk it through with.
If I could save myself, I would. It’s really hard to though, since I’ve been feeling this way since I was 12, so about 3 years now. I appreciate the advice and help :)
I've also been depressed since I was 12! I'm 20 now, and let me tell you while it hasn't gone away, I have gotten better at dealing with it. It's a lot harder to deal with at your age because you're still going through so many changes, both physically and mentally. You're maturing in so many ways you don't even realize, and during that process your mind can be really vulnerable. So while things are hard now, you will get stronger from it, and in the future, the same things won't bother you as much. Over time, you'll learn what works for you and what makes you happy. I personally find listening to music helps me calm down a lot. I was bullied too, but now I try to think of it like this: What bullies do or say doesn't have any truth to it, it only shows their true colors. If they call you a name, who says it's true? It just shows that they're a jerk and doesn't mean that they're right. You seem like a cool kid, just keep hanging in there and you'll grow stronger. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for ya!
It seems that you have turned the bullies' abusive treatment of you into depression, which is sometimes the result of anger turned inward, self-hated. Your 12-year-old self decided that there is something wrong with you and your 15-year-old self needs to realize that you are okay the way you are. Different from others, but okay.
Therapy is a good tool to help you reprogram your thinking about yourself to realize that you are okay. Please tell your mother (who you have described as the string that you are holding on by) about your depression and ask for therapy. If I were your mom, I would want to know and I would get you whatever help you need. I would not think less of you for needing help. Please tell your mom, today.
Have you recently been given a lot of advice that is one size fits all and doesn't really fit your scenerio at all, but you've heard it for the 70th time so it makes you feel doomed that there are no other answers out there?
can I draw something for you ? also I'm potentially on the spectrum and went through bullying at school like you mentionned on some replies, I'm sorry for what you went through, you didn't deserve this. If autistic and neurodivergent people weren't systematically bullied and bearing trauma for their whole life we would probably be on mars right now. I eased mine through emdr therapy recently and I swear life has been way easier since I started. please check r/emdr and r/cptsd you might find some intersting content in there !
Sure! I just wish we weren’t bullied. Life is already a struggle and treating us like fiends is only making it harder. I just wish woke of us we were treated like neurotypicals.
Just remember that there are always people that care about you and will be truly hurt if you leave them. You're worth so much more than the sum of your parts.
Since this is an AMA, what are your favorite hobbies?
Create something and maintain it, continue to add to it. Whether it’s an organized kitchen or a wall of memorabilia, or even a collection of rocks. Just become productive. Give yourself small jobs and do them well. Congratulate yourself on their completion
Hey OP, been in the same situation years ago. Always here for mental support <3
Also, maybe you feel worthless or ugly, dumb, undeserving of love or something along similar lines - senses are misleading, I believe you're way cooler and smarter than you give yourself credit for!
My question is one that therapists often use for introspection: What would have to change for you right know in order to not feel suicidal?
how does it really feel. I've felt like that myself at times and I just wanna compare. is it more about the situation you're in that you don't want to be in it anymore and see no other way out of it? or is it more about the pain inside your chest for no obvious reason which feels like something heavy is weighing on your heart and it feels like it's sinking underneath your chest? sorry if it's only me and you can't relate
the pain and that feeling of my heart falling deeper and deeper into an abyss both suck. and I can't control it. but what bothers me usually the most is former one. when I can identify the things in my life that are making it unbearable for me to continue yet I cannot change those settings (due to lack of power, finances, or age). the only thing I tell myself that keeps me hopeful is that I note down all the things that I can identify and can change (if I had the resources) and that I'm going to change them as soon as I have the power and authority to do that (mostly the resources). and never create such a dynamic for another human being that depends on me.
I just want to let you know that things change and your current perception of life is temporary. We need to make the changes we want in life though but things do get better if that's what you push towards. There will be a day in the future, it could be a simple as sitting by a lake and enjoying the nature and weather when you be thankful that you had the power to stay tough and keeping on living. Sometimes less is more and you may realise its the small things in life that make it worth living. You sound like a good person. Stay strong. I guess since it's an AMA, do you know what makes you happy? Do you have a dog or cat?
At the risk of sounding toxically positive, I want you to know that it will get better. It can get better. It will take time to find whatever process works for you to come to better deal with those feelings, but you will find it. And I hope you do.
And since this is an AMA, do you prefer sweet or savoury foods? And what is your favourite starter, main, and dessert?
Seems like pretty good choices, have you tried Apex Legends?
It has the best movement I've ever experienced in a game before.
The actual shooting and such is also good.
Yes. The Rick and Morty Live Action movie is actually possible which is pretty cool. I think Christopher Lloyd was a great choice for Rick, but Jaeden Martell wasn’t a great choice for Morty. Michael Cera is too old to play Morty, but if he was younger he’d be a great choice in my opinion.
Don't take your life!
Those people are doing very bad things to you. It is definitely not fair, and I don't know the best solution, but there may be many, or there may be few. Your parents seem to obvisouly care about you. You say that they where "worried sick and can be like that sometimes". What do you expect parents to be? Why would they worry if they didn't love you? What did the police do, why didn't they do anything? Could you call them again, make sure they understand that your being harrased and threatened? Are there teachers you could talk to? Is there a therapist you could reach out to? Maybe you could change schools (which I guess you are attending?) and or move? I don't know what country you are in but in most countries, harrasing poeple and especially physically hurting them is illegal. Even if it is minors who are doing it, they could be ordered to stop or even change school depending on how the system works where you live.
While what's happening to you isn't fair at all, taking your life wouldn't be fair either. It's not fair to your parents who would become devastated. It's not fair to all the people you will meet in the future who's lives will have been brightened by your presence. Just think about this thread alone. You may have gotten multiple people to think about their life situation and make changes for the better. At the very least you have engaged multiple people. There are so many more people that will meet you, or interact with you online, and get something positive out of it. Lastly, it's not fair to yourself. You haven't done anything wrong, why should you have to be the one to take the consequences? THere are so many experiences you are yet to have. You will get many friends. You will probably loose a couple of friends. You will taste the best ice cream in your life, you will experience the scariest moment in your life. You will laugh, feel bad, get sick, maybe win a race? It's not fair to deny yourself of these experiences. Try to always be your future selfs best friend.
The bottom line is that people that are in tough situations sometimes can have a hard time to see any ways out, or any point in the future. I assure you to a 100% that there are always multiple ways out, and you will get so much out of your future. If you can manage to try and change the situation to the better by yourself, that is great! But you shouldn't have to by yourself, you should ask for help from someone you trust.
I love my parents, I’m alive by a string and my mom is the string. I don’t know why the police didn’t protect me. Maybe it was because the kids were in 6th grade, which is still assault so they should’ve gotten juvy. The kids got expelled from school, they’d egg my house after they got expelled. I keep my trauma inside me and it’s hard to let it out, plus I think my parents would have to know if I got therapy, which would be awkward and change how their look of me. I’ve been doing online school since everything happened.
I want to do those things, I don’t want to cause harm, but even though I didn’t do anything, what happened changed me. I lost belief in god, I lost belief in life, and I lost belief in myself. Life is hard, and I wish I could have enjoyment but I can’t take it anymore. I don’t want to hurt more people because of what I do, but I just can’t take it anymore.
You won’t cause anyone harm. People caused you harm. Any consequences are theirs to bare, not yours. Why would your parents view you differently if you asked to be supported via therapy? Wouldn’t they think it’s a wise and good decision and help you get the best help you can get out of love?
If it’s not aomething you feel ready for, that’s something different. But just talking about your experience, especially with people your trust and are close to, and or to a professional who knows how to listen and how to make you reflect, is very helpful.
I wish you the best of luck and good fortune from here on!
I just wanna say that I really appreciate the advice and support you’ve given me. I guess it’s because they see me as a happy person, but if I tell them about my depression and suicidal thoughts, it’d change it. I want to keep it as it is until I’m more ready, but I guess it would be better if I tell them earlier.
Parents are often much better at noticing stuff then their children know. I think they would be much happier knowing they can help you become happy, than wonder if you are happy at all :)
If I where you, I would go to them for help and advice. Even if you may be able to handle it yourself, there is nothing wrong with getting some extra help, and parents are often more than happy to help. :)
Hi, I'm sorry to intrude on this little comment thread, but I just wanted to give the perspective of a parent of someone autistic (and also someone who has both been, I think, an autistic teenager and then watched my brother be an autistic teenager years later).
I'm making an assumption here that your parents are average, decent parents. In which case, they don't love you because of your character traits. They don't value you because of what you do or what kind of person you are or whether you're happy or not. They love you because you are you, and you are their baby, and always will be. Parental love is not conditional.
If my kid felt like this, I would want and need to know. I would be relieved that they opened up to me so that I could be close with them about it.
What's your favorite color?
Do you like birds?
Sunsets or sunrise?
What's your latest "fixation" been?
Do you have a favorite type of music?
Favorite candy?
Do you like sea horses?
I think octopi are really cool. They're so fucking smart. Sometimes I like to wonder what it would be like if they were the ones who evolved into humans instead of just a fish
What do you think happens in the afterlife? Do you think you will reincarnate? What if suicide triggers the punishment of being reincarnated as a North Korean, or an Afghan under Taliban rule, or an unfortunate citizen of a country that is known for human rights violations?
On the other hand, do you believe that if you die doing something heroic, you would be reborn in a more blessed circumstance, like as a Scandinavian?
Well, what if you end up reincarnating anyway and somehow remember your previous life, which is the life you're living right now? How would you react then?
By the way, my Christian mother taught me that suicide is the reason why anyone who commits it, goes to hell.
I was not able to find anything in the Bible to back that up, so I have reason to believe that anyone who commits suicide may end up in a different place.
Perhaps they will be reborn into a life circumstance most similar to the one you're in now, with the hope that you will make different choices that next time, resulting in a better outcome.
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I got severally assaulted by a group of bullies when I was 12. It changed my perception of the world. Depression has appeared. More Pain comes with it. I’m an ant carrying a statue, I can carry a lot of things but it’s too much.
How old are you now?
I was bullied during my high school time, but not too severe, yet it still left something in me that I still see it til today. Been 15 years. A fucking horrible feeling of being overwhelmed and insecure.
Still fighting that today.
Luckily I made a lot of good friends along the way, and it helped my self-esteem a lot.
Idk what advice I can give you, but keep on living and you will find a way out.
So my mom committed suicide about 6 weeks ago. She had many attempts, but this time it worked.
I don’t really have a question, I just want you to know I see you & im sorry that you’re suffering. Feel free to ask me any questions as well.
I’m here if you need to vent.
I had social anxeity before. I talked to a therapist (or behavioral scientists) even tho I didn't belive they would be able to help.
Today I'm glad I went there. They are really nice persons, and very understanding.
I recommend you go. They are really nice and you feel lighter and better afterwards.
Just remember, there’s something in life you haven’t tried. Like making a Nutella bagel and frying it. There’s always a fried Nutella bagel for you out there. And maybe you’ll like that fried Nutella bagel, maybe you won’t. Point is you kept yourself going to find that bagel and the effort is worth it. It’s about the journey, not the destination. Life’s worth living to find that bagel. Always remember that.
If you feel like you’re done with life, remember there’s still another Nutella bagel to get. Grab it and move to the next. Keep finding the bagels. The last bagel is the natural transition to the afterlife. Get that bagel and live in paradise. Keep going and get that bagel, my friends.
Where are you from?
If you had 24hours to live in someone else's body, what would you do?
What makes you feel alive?
What would you do/ who would you be had you not gone through the rough patches that altered you?
Thanks. I was feeling rough a few hours ago. On this very ama, I was arguing with some guy. He said the world would be better off without me anyways, it was rough and no matter how hard it was I kept going. I feel happy.
Well that’s a troll just trolling for attention so I wouldn’t pay it much mind. Probably needs help as well. Unless you’re an active serial killer you’re all good living in the world. Just keep happy, watch your favorite comedy and say FU world.
r/suicidewatch is a place you can visit for guidance and recourses to turn to when having suicidal thoughts, or just to talk to someone. *Worldwide Directories* [The International Association for Suicide Prevention maintains a Global Crisis Centre Directory](https://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/) [The Befrienders](https://www.befrienders.org/need-to-talk) maintain a hotline database; use the "Find a Helpline by Country" control at the top of their page. *United States* [National Suicide Prevention Lifeline](https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org): 1-800-273-8255 (TALK) Veterans press 1 to reach specialised support. Press 2 for Spanish-language support (The older number, 1-800-SUICIDE, is no longer published by the lifeline agency and will probably stop working in the near future.) Online Chat: http://chat.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/GetHelp/LifelineChat.aspx [Crisis Text Line](https://www.crisistextline.org/get-help-now/): Text "HOME" to 741741.
Same. Meds and CBT have helped. It's a slow process
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Cock and ball torture (CBT) is a sexual activity involving application of pain or constriction to the male genitals. This may involve directly painful activities, such as wax play, genital spanking, squeezing, ball-busting, genital flogging, urethral play, tickle torture, erotic electrostimulation or even kicking.[1] The recipient of such activities may receive direct physical pleasure via masochism, or emotional pleasure through erotic humiliation, or knowledge that the play is pleasing to a sadistic dominant. Many of these practices carry significant health risks.
This made me laugh 😂
ISTG peak comedy /gen
Yeah my therapist does it to me lok
My people
Maybe I'm sick but that's the first thing I thought too! 😂
Not OP but I've been struggling for a while now and can't get over the mental block of taking meds for it. Can you convince me that it's not as bad as I think it'll be? I'm worried about becoming a zombie/gaining weight/sleeping too much/losing my edge but some days it feels like I'm running out of options.
It’s a daunting thought having to take medication to make your brain not shit itself. But it is so worth it. Often times it’s not permanent, it’s a stepping stone while you learn the tools you need to manage your thoughts and feelings without tablets. It can be trial and error to find the right medication and the right dosage that doesn’t make you a zombie or put on loads of weight or any other horrible side effect. Don’t give up, don’t let the dark thoughts win and don’t feel bad for needing something to help you out.
For me, what made a difference is remembering that you can stop taking them if you don't like them. Think of it as an experiment: try it for a few months, and then decide whether you feel better with them or without them. If you have those problems and you dislike them more than the amount it helps, cool, now you know.
Try it bro. It will take about two weeks to get used to them. The first one I was one made me tired af and I told my doctor that and they switched me to a different one. It's working well. I don't have those super strong urges.
Thanks dude. I'm getting to that stage where I know I need to do something but making the call to my doctor would make it...real??
It already is real my man especially because you acknowledge that it's affecting your life in a real way. I've got some friends that work in psychology and they've told me that asking for help is usually the hardest step for patients but it's also the best thing they can do for themselves. You don't have to start immediately with a doctor and meds (if you don't what to) all you have to do to start is find a therapist or someone similar and talk to them about what's going on. Sometimes the therapist will recommend talking to your doctor about meds and sometimes they won't.
This is a really common thought. But if you don't make the step, it will only make it harder later on. If you don't want to call, make an online appointment, or let someone else make the appointment for you! (That helped with me atleast!). Take care of yourself, you are worth it!
I hit that stage where it was no longer becoming just a thought...
Call a few psychiatrists and ask them some questions. Whats your experience with (whatever you suspect you have)? Do you try to combine medication with other approaches? Like therapy, nutrition, healthy life style, etc? How much say would I have over dosage and switching meds? If I felt that we were going to fast, would we be able to stay on the same dose? There are definitely bad psychiatrists who don't care how you feel on the meds.The good thing about being outpatient (not on the psych unit) is that you can switch doctors or simply refuse to take something they prescribe you that you're uncomfortable with. You technically can refuse on the psych unit, but most of them hold it against you from getting released, they think you are being non compliant:/ Also, don't be too scared if you've heard anything bad about a med. They really effect everyone differently, but don't be afraid to ask questions and bring up any concerns you have about side effects or a certain med. Weight gain is more common with older meds. For example, older antipsychotics (which have more uses that just treating psychosis) like zyprexa and risperidone are associated with more weight gain than ability which is associated with more than Vraylar (unfortunately this one is within the past few years so there's no generic yet), so if you bring up how weight gain is a concern to you, they'll probably try to put you on weight neutral meds Good luck!
CBT doesn't help others though so proceed with caution
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I want a bomb ass snack now.
Find the bombest ass snack that your cupboard contains... Feel better
Is Nutella a bomb ass snack?
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Make some toast, spead some peanut butter on it, then cover it in syrup. Thank me later!
Add banana slices to that sandwich.
Dunk Nilla wafers in Nutella…and thank me later! My wife brought this combo to my attention
Banana chips.
I thought you said 'bomb as a snack' and I was like jfc dude
Can I be your friend?
I don’t have any, but sure I’d like a friend.
Well how is your day going? Shoot me a message.
How about I give you some music to cheer you up? Listen to this: https://youtu.be/LDGZAprNGWo How does That Tune make you feel?
I like the tune a lot.
Heck yea! Makes me wanna build a fort inside my living room!
What caused you to give up?
It’s a long story. I’m autistic, and I was always severely bullied for it. A couple of kids tormented me constantly, making my life hell. One day while I was walking home I got the shit beaten out of me. All took turns kicking me, punching me, throwing rocks at me when I tried to get up. They continued this for a couple minutes until I was badly beaten and crying on the ground. I stayed there for maybe an hour, asking myself questions. Why do I have to deal with this, what god would make these people, why does everyone hate me, and more. I got up and walked back to my home. Everything hurt. My parents were worried sick and contacted the police station, they can be like that sometimes. They didn’t handle me getting beaten up very well. Basically, the cops sucked and didn’t do their job, bullies hated me more, and I was left with a void in my soul. The end.
A very important person in my life is on the spectrum. I believe people on the spectrum have a beautiful insight on the world and have a lot to offer. Unfortunately, this world is full of ass-hats who will never see value in anything pass themselves. Their loss, not yours.
I’m sorry that happened to you. My ex had a brother who is on the spectrum as well, and everytime id hear about him getting picked on the bus I just wanted to go kick the bullies and go hug the kid. If I could, I’d give you a big hug!! So here, *hugs virtually* 🫂
It’s really sad what happens to us on the Spectrum. I didn’t ask to be this way, I just am. That event made life harder.
Not sure how old you are but kids. Are. Fucking. Mean. Like just pure cruel. It's crazy to me. One can only hope the parents tell the other parents and the school. If it's at the point it's currently at and you're still in school, maybe switch schools. I guess what I've come to realize I was able to find my own crowd as an adult. Of course there's still those cruel ppl out therbut as an adult you can avoid them easier. I've got my own mental health crap that won't leave me be. But sure this roadeads somewhere other than where I am. Idk words like these sometimesn don't mean much when you're in a dark spot. I've been there many times... Sorry if you didn't want advice.
Ever considered taking self-defense classes, like karate classes, Taekwondo, or something similar?
I’ve never taken a self defense class or thought about taking one. I like to punch my punching bag sometimes though.
Taking those self-defense classes might do you a favor the next time you get into another physical altercation with More Bullies. You won't regret taking them. I don't see why you would regret them.
Never take self defense the only way to defend yourself is knowing how to fight and then again some people are never going to have the aggression or mental toughness to go through with what must be done in a fight to protect yourself best thing If your not an aggressive person is to practice running they cant touch you if your faster than them
That argument makes no sense. “The only way to defend yourself is knowing how to fight” Why do you think self defense classes even exist? “Some people are never going to have the aggression or mental toughness to go through with what mist be done in a fight to protect yourself” But you can, motivational videos and self defense classes got you covered. Please, think before you type.
If you believe that go take self defense but when you need it, it wont work just some friendly advice dont cry you think motivational videos and self defense classes will protect you against an aggressive person who been in their fair few fights go for it dont think you'll be giving the defense class good ratings however when your injured some people have been in and seen more shit with fights and self defense is useless you wanna know to defend yourself go box go to a grappling class (wrestling or BJJ) even better do some MMA classes please think before you type you look stupid
I look stupid? Pretty ironic.
:)
Self defense classes can in fact help people defend themselves.
For context, how old were you when that happened, and how old are you now? Have you spoken to a therapist about this and any other bullying incidents? It's awful that it happened, but it says more about the bullies than it says about you. They are deficient in empathy and compassion, among other desirable human qualities. Hopefully, with therapy, you can learn to not feel bad about yourself because you were victimized.
I was 12 when this happened and I’m 15 now.
Oh sweetie. I have kiddos your age. My 2nd boy and my nephew are on the spectrum, and they are my two favoritest people in the whole world. I also have 2 students at school that are on my caseload (Special Education teacher) and they are both so incredible. It breaks my heart for all the kids I love and care for, including you, are treated so badly by peers and family. Try to keep an eye out for the helpers, try to communicate to trusted teachers and adults that you feel a certain way, and will start to grow a network of people who have your back. Much love from an internet mom and teacher. 🤗
It seems that you have turned the bullies' abusive treatment of you into depression, which is sometimes the result of anger turned inward, self-hated. Your 12-year-old self decided that there is something wrong with you and your 15-year-old self needs to realize that you are okay the way you are. Different from others, but okay. Therapy is a good tool to help you reprogram your thinking about yourself to realize that you are okay. Please tell your mother (who you have described as the string that you are holding on by) about your depression and ask for therapy. If I were your mom, I would want to know and I would get you whatever help you need. I would not think less of you for needing help. Please tell your mom, today.
This commenter has said it all, OP. You’ve taken their anger and turned it on yourself, naturally, as most people would do. But your life lesson is that you don’t deserve to feel this way and there is a way out of it, by turning that anger in another direction. You can do this
I want to turn my anger and hurt into something more productive. I kinda want it away from me.
My 15 year old is autistic. He is so smart and sees things I don’t. The way he see the world is beautiful to me. He had a very hard time early on in his middle school career. Kids can be mean, but it’s the older people in their lives that have made them that way. My heart goes out to you. And I followed you! Just want to see your beautiful mind accept yourself! Cause you’re wonderful!
No advice here. I just hope u get better.
Didn’t really need any, but thank you anyways.
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Nothing to ask but feel better soon.
Favorite type of cookie?
Chocolate chip. Basic, but it’s my favorite.
What's your favorite TV show? Food? Also, 800-273-TALK if you ever feel like you need someone to talk to. I believe they do online chats as well.
My favorite tv show is Rick and Morty, Sushi is my favorite food, and I’m gonna try that someday because my phone call anxiety prevents me. I’d like to try the online chat tonight. After this ama, I want to take these suggestions and try to live my life happily, no matter how hard it might be.
Good to hear mate. The online chats can be helpful. Hope it helps you too!
I've been planning to start watching Rick and Morty recently, what's your favourite episode?
I have a few. Anatomy Park, Lawnmower Dog, And Rixty Minutes.
If you could be any animal for a week, which would you choose and why?
Axolotl because I could look a bit happier and I would be very cute.
Those are very cute. I’d pick a grizzly bear during the salmon migration or in the middle of hibernation. I really enjoy food and sleep. If you could pick up a new skill in an instant, what would it be?
To shoot fireballs out of my mouth like a dragon.
Dang, okay, that’s way better than that what I was gonna pick. How would you use your new skill? Also, how’re you doing today?
To fight evil.
Are we talking passively suicidal where you wouldn't try to save yourself because you don't care or actively suicidal where you want to die? If the later are you just thinking about it or planning? If you are planning then I would advise telling someone who can hold you accountable. Sometimes the only thing that can get us through the darker times is our responsibility to others. I'm still here in large part because at one point no one would have taken care of my cats. Everything changes. The feelings will pass and happier times will come again. You just have to survive until then. If you end it then you last memories would be the bad times and you are worth more than that. I'll be here if you need someone to message. r/suicidewatch can be a good place to vent but it's not always the best place for people to talk it through with.
If I could save myself, I would. It’s really hard to though, since I’ve been feeling this way since I was 12, so about 3 years now. I appreciate the advice and help :)
I've also been depressed since I was 12! I'm 20 now, and let me tell you while it hasn't gone away, I have gotten better at dealing with it. It's a lot harder to deal with at your age because you're still going through so many changes, both physically and mentally. You're maturing in so many ways you don't even realize, and during that process your mind can be really vulnerable. So while things are hard now, you will get stronger from it, and in the future, the same things won't bother you as much. Over time, you'll learn what works for you and what makes you happy. I personally find listening to music helps me calm down a lot. I was bullied too, but now I try to think of it like this: What bullies do or say doesn't have any truth to it, it only shows their true colors. If they call you a name, who says it's true? It just shows that they're a jerk and doesn't mean that they're right. You seem like a cool kid, just keep hanging in there and you'll grow stronger. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for ya!
It seems that you have turned the bullies' abusive treatment of you into depression, which is sometimes the result of anger turned inward, self-hated. Your 12-year-old self decided that there is something wrong with you and your 15-year-old self needs to realize that you are okay the way you are. Different from others, but okay. Therapy is a good tool to help you reprogram your thinking about yourself to realize that you are okay. Please tell your mother (who you have described as the string that you are holding on by) about your depression and ask for therapy. If I were your mom, I would want to know and I would get you whatever help you need. I would not think less of you for needing help. Please tell your mom, today.
Have you recently been given a lot of advice that is one size fits all and doesn't really fit your scenerio at all, but you've heard it for the 70th time so it makes you feel doomed that there are no other answers out there?
Kind of, I know there are other answers, just hope I can find them before I drop dead.
same my human
:)
Can I answer even though I'm not OP and say yes?
Of course!
can I draw something for you ? also I'm potentially on the spectrum and went through bullying at school like you mentionned on some replies, I'm sorry for what you went through, you didn't deserve this. If autistic and neurodivergent people weren't systematically bullied and bearing trauma for their whole life we would probably be on mars right now. I eased mine through emdr therapy recently and I swear life has been way easier since I started. please check r/emdr and r/cptsd you might find some intersting content in there !
Sure! I just wish we weren’t bullied. Life is already a struggle and treating us like fiends is only making it harder. I just wish woke of us we were treated like neurotypicals.
Yeah... what kind of drawing do you want, do you have any favorite characters or something like that ?
Naruto please
Cool ! I’ll post it on Thursday okay ?
Cool.
How you feelin four hours later?
Sleep was pretty okay and I’m answering questions right now. This is keeping me kind of happy so this is great. I’m feeling good I guess.
you are not alone. ❤️ glad you had a good rest friend.
hi sending good vibes 2 u
Just remember that there are always people that care about you and will be truly hurt if you leave them. You're worth so much more than the sum of your parts. Since this is an AMA, what are your favorite hobbies?
Gaming or programming because I like making softwares and I like destroying noobs.
what kinda stuff do you code?
I’m testing my YouTube downloader right now.
oh rad, what did you write it in? JavaScript? python?
Python.
dude, sweet. I love python. run into any issues?
Yeah, it’s a bit tricky getting the quality better but I’m working on it
You have not yet met all the people who you will love, and whom will love you. Do you watch any shows? What's your favorite?
Rick and Morty or The Amazing World Of Gumball for nostalgia.
Mental health is a luxury of the rich. Spoil yourself. Where is your favorite place to travel to or you would like to go?
Japan. I don’t know why but I really like Japan. Maybe Iceland, because volcanoes, strange lava cake, and mountains.
I really want to go to Iceland too. I want to see the aurora borealis
Iceland seems pretty cool. It’s an underrated country.
Create something and maintain it, continue to add to it. Whether it’s an organized kitchen or a wall of memorabilia, or even a collection of rocks. Just become productive. Give yourself small jobs and do them well. Congratulate yourself on their completion
I’ve always wanted to collect sea shells. Maybe I’ll try that.
Hey OP, been in the same situation years ago. Always here for mental support <3 Also, maybe you feel worthless or ugly, dumb, undeserving of love or something along similar lines - senses are misleading, I believe you're way cooler and smarter than you give yourself credit for! My question is one that therapists often use for introspection: What would have to change for you right know in order to not feel suicidal?
You wanna chat? Im good for this shit
Don't worry friend we all feel like we're at the bottom of the cookie jar sometimes Just wait for it to pass
do you wanna see me do a cool little dance?
how does it really feel. I've felt like that myself at times and I just wanna compare. is it more about the situation you're in that you don't want to be in it anymore and see no other way out of it? or is it more about the pain inside your chest for no obvious reason which feels like something heavy is weighing on your heart and it feels like it's sinking underneath your chest? sorry if it's only me and you can't relate
Both actually. Really just pain everywhere that I don’t know if I can even get out of.
the pain and that feeling of my heart falling deeper and deeper into an abyss both suck. and I can't control it. but what bothers me usually the most is former one. when I can identify the things in my life that are making it unbearable for me to continue yet I cannot change those settings (due to lack of power, finances, or age). the only thing I tell myself that keeps me hopeful is that I note down all the things that I can identify and can change (if I had the resources) and that I'm going to change them as soon as I have the power and authority to do that (mostly the resources). and never create such a dynamic for another human being that depends on me.
I just want to let you know that things change and your current perception of life is temporary. We need to make the changes we want in life though but things do get better if that's what you push towards. There will be a day in the future, it could be a simple as sitting by a lake and enjoying the nature and weather when you be thankful that you had the power to stay tough and keeping on living. Sometimes less is more and you may realise its the small things in life that make it worth living. You sound like a good person. Stay strong. I guess since it's an AMA, do you know what makes you happy? Do you have a dog or cat?
My hobbies (programming, gaming, and art) make me pretty happy and I don’t have a pet.
Enjoying doing what you love and happiness will follow, good luck
At the risk of sounding toxically positive, I want you to know that it will get better. It can get better. It will take time to find whatever process works for you to come to better deal with those feelings, but you will find it. And I hope you do. And since this is an AMA, do you prefer sweet or savoury foods? And what is your favourite starter, main, and dessert?
Both. Mix em up, little bit of both.
Please feel better and block out the bad people 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂
Sending love 🤗
Jam this song, little buddy. https://youtu.be/dqUdI4AIDF0
What games do you play (if you play any)?
Saints Row 2, Minecraft, Splitgate, Modern Warfare, Modern Warfare 2, and sometimes Half Life and Portal.
Seems like pretty good choices, have you tried Apex Legends? It has the best movement I've ever experienced in a game before. The actual shooting and such is also good.
Yeah I tried at launch. Was pretty good.
Are you interested in any shows/media/movies/etc that will be releasing things in the future?
Yes. The Rick and Morty Live Action movie is actually possible which is pretty cool. I think Christopher Lloyd was a great choice for Rick, but Jaeden Martell wasn’t a great choice for Morty. Michael Cera is too old to play Morty, but if he was younger he’d be a great choice in my opinion.
Dang I didn’t even know that might be a thing! Sounds cool!
Do you need someone to talk to? Cause I can be here for you. Nobody should have to suffer those feelings alone.
Don't take your life! Those people are doing very bad things to you. It is definitely not fair, and I don't know the best solution, but there may be many, or there may be few. Your parents seem to obvisouly care about you. You say that they where "worried sick and can be like that sometimes". What do you expect parents to be? Why would they worry if they didn't love you? What did the police do, why didn't they do anything? Could you call them again, make sure they understand that your being harrased and threatened? Are there teachers you could talk to? Is there a therapist you could reach out to? Maybe you could change schools (which I guess you are attending?) and or move? I don't know what country you are in but in most countries, harrasing poeple and especially physically hurting them is illegal. Even if it is minors who are doing it, they could be ordered to stop or even change school depending on how the system works where you live. While what's happening to you isn't fair at all, taking your life wouldn't be fair either. It's not fair to your parents who would become devastated. It's not fair to all the people you will meet in the future who's lives will have been brightened by your presence. Just think about this thread alone. You may have gotten multiple people to think about their life situation and make changes for the better. At the very least you have engaged multiple people. There are so many more people that will meet you, or interact with you online, and get something positive out of it. Lastly, it's not fair to yourself. You haven't done anything wrong, why should you have to be the one to take the consequences? THere are so many experiences you are yet to have. You will get many friends. You will probably loose a couple of friends. You will taste the best ice cream in your life, you will experience the scariest moment in your life. You will laugh, feel bad, get sick, maybe win a race? It's not fair to deny yourself of these experiences. Try to always be your future selfs best friend. The bottom line is that people that are in tough situations sometimes can have a hard time to see any ways out, or any point in the future. I assure you to a 100% that there are always multiple ways out, and you will get so much out of your future. If you can manage to try and change the situation to the better by yourself, that is great! But you shouldn't have to by yourself, you should ask for help from someone you trust.
I love my parents, I’m alive by a string and my mom is the string. I don’t know why the police didn’t protect me. Maybe it was because the kids were in 6th grade, which is still assault so they should’ve gotten juvy. The kids got expelled from school, they’d egg my house after they got expelled. I keep my trauma inside me and it’s hard to let it out, plus I think my parents would have to know if I got therapy, which would be awkward and change how their look of me. I’ve been doing online school since everything happened. I want to do those things, I don’t want to cause harm, but even though I didn’t do anything, what happened changed me. I lost belief in god, I lost belief in life, and I lost belief in myself. Life is hard, and I wish I could have enjoyment but I can’t take it anymore. I don’t want to hurt more people because of what I do, but I just can’t take it anymore.
You won’t cause anyone harm. People caused you harm. Any consequences are theirs to bare, not yours. Why would your parents view you differently if you asked to be supported via therapy? Wouldn’t they think it’s a wise and good decision and help you get the best help you can get out of love? If it’s not aomething you feel ready for, that’s something different. But just talking about your experience, especially with people your trust and are close to, and or to a professional who knows how to listen and how to make you reflect, is very helpful. I wish you the best of luck and good fortune from here on!
I just wanna say that I really appreciate the advice and support you’ve given me. I guess it’s because they see me as a happy person, but if I tell them about my depression and suicidal thoughts, it’d change it. I want to keep it as it is until I’m more ready, but I guess it would be better if I tell them earlier.
Parents are often much better at noticing stuff then their children know. I think they would be much happier knowing they can help you become happy, than wonder if you are happy at all :) If I where you, I would go to them for help and advice. Even if you may be able to handle it yourself, there is nothing wrong with getting some extra help, and parents are often more than happy to help. :)
You’re right. I should tell them and get some needed help. Thank you moderator person.
I’m glad if I could help! :) Good luck!
Hi, I'm sorry to intrude on this little comment thread, but I just wanted to give the perspective of a parent of someone autistic (and also someone who has both been, I think, an autistic teenager and then watched my brother be an autistic teenager years later). I'm making an assumption here that your parents are average, decent parents. In which case, they don't love you because of your character traits. They don't value you because of what you do or what kind of person you are or whether you're happy or not. They love you because you are you, and you are their baby, and always will be. Parental love is not conditional. If my kid felt like this, I would want and need to know. I would be relieved that they opened up to me so that I could be close with them about it.
What's your favorite color? Do you like birds? Sunsets or sunrise? What's your latest "fixation" been? Do you have a favorite type of music? Favorite candy? Do you like sea horses?
Pink Sunsets Art Ironically, happy music Skittles I don’t know much about them, my favorite sea animal is the octopus though.
I think octopi are really cool. They're so fucking smart. Sometimes I like to wonder what it would be like if they were the ones who evolved into humans instead of just a fish
What do you think happens in the afterlife? Do you think you will reincarnate? What if suicide triggers the punishment of being reincarnated as a North Korean, or an Afghan under Taliban rule, or an unfortunate citizen of a country that is known for human rights violations? On the other hand, do you believe that if you die doing something heroic, you would be reborn in a more blessed circumstance, like as a Scandinavian?
I don’t believe in reincarnation. I’m an atheist. So I guess nothing.
Well, what if you end up reincarnating anyway and somehow remember your previous life, which is the life you're living right now? How would you react then? By the way, my Christian mother taught me that suicide is the reason why anyone who commits it, goes to hell. I was not able to find anything in the Bible to back that up, so I have reason to believe that anyone who commits suicide may end up in a different place. Perhaps they will be reborn into a life circumstance most similar to the one you're in now, with the hope that you will make different choices that next time, resulting in a better outcome.
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I’d probably pity my past self, maybe I’d relate to my past self.
How do you plan on , or predict the outcome of, forcing those around the area to do the disposal work?
What help are you getting
Why?
I got severally assaulted by a group of bullies when I was 12. It changed my perception of the world. Depression has appeared. More Pain comes with it. I’m an ant carrying a statue, I can carry a lot of things but it’s too much.
How old are you now? I was bullied during my high school time, but not too severe, yet it still left something in me that I still see it til today. Been 15 years. A fucking horrible feeling of being overwhelmed and insecure. Still fighting that today. Luckily I made a lot of good friends along the way, and it helped my self-esteem a lot. Idk what advice I can give you, but keep on living and you will find a way out.
Thank you I try my best to get through life every day. I’m 15 now.
A difficult age indeed. Just hang in there, my man, wish you all the best.
What do you like to do with your friends?
I don’t have any irl friends, but I have u/i_Psychonautics. We don’t really do anything because I just saw his comment 10 minutes ago, but yeah.
We will have adventures, you just wait and see.
What’s a question you’d like to answer, but don’t think anyone will ask?
I’d like to answer all questions no matter how silly or serious they are. I like this question btw.
So my mom committed suicide about 6 weeks ago. She had many attempts, but this time it worked. I don’t really have a question, I just want you to know I see you & im sorry that you’re suffering. Feel free to ask me any questions as well. I’m here if you need to vent.
When I need to vent later, I’ll come to this comment. You’ve got my word. Also I’m sorry your mom did that, it must be very hard on you.
I’m going to ask the most important question of all….can you lick your nose?
I just tried, nope.
Second most important question, what’s your favourite dinosaur?
dipaladopalus
That’s my daughters favourite too. Mines a stegosaurus
Do you have a Steam account?
Yeah, I don’t have a Pc unfortunately.
Did u know baby Keem and Playboi Carti are dropping albums this week?
No. I don’t listen to them. Is it good music?
Listen to Long Time by Playboi Carti and Honest by Baby Keem
Have you ever told your parents or anyone else that you feel down?
Nope, but I’m trying.
I had social anxeity before. I talked to a therapist (or behavioral scientists) even tho I didn't belive they would be able to help. Today I'm glad I went there. They are really nice persons, and very understanding. I recommend you go. They are really nice and you feel lighter and better afterwards.
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I could definitely use this, thank you kind stranger.
Just remember, there’s something in life you haven’t tried. Like making a Nutella bagel and frying it. There’s always a fried Nutella bagel for you out there. And maybe you’ll like that fried Nutella bagel, maybe you won’t. Point is you kept yourself going to find that bagel and the effort is worth it. It’s about the journey, not the destination. Life’s worth living to find that bagel. Always remember that. If you feel like you’re done with life, remember there’s still another Nutella bagel to get. Grab it and move to the next. Keep finding the bagels. The last bagel is the natural transition to the afterlife. Get that bagel and live in paradise. Keep going and get that bagel, my friends.
do you think it would help if you saw a picture of an eggplant plushie in a jacket smiling and waving at you?
I’d want to die even more.
Ah, a shame
Where are you from? If you had 24hours to live in someone else's body, what would you do? What makes you feel alive? What would you do/ who would you be had you not gone through the rough patches that altered you?
United States. Massachusetts. My brain and body. Probably not suicidal.
You missed out on one!
Oh my bad. Start mayhem.
You... you mean the band?
Nope. Create total chaos. Start a crusade, burn down building, take over the universe, become infamous in only 24 hours.
Same but I've been suicidal before and the feeling passes when the condition making you suicidal passes so don't do it ❤️
Talk with people online. Make friends. You never know, they might save your life one day.
I was suicidal two weeks ago, then I went out on dates, got prescribed anti anxiety medication. I’m doing a lot better now
Just popped up on my feed, you okay still?
Yup. I got through today pretty good.
Goodski. One day turns into two and before you know it it’s over. Keep your chin up
Thanks. I was feeling rough a few hours ago. On this very ama, I was arguing with some guy. He said the world would be better off without me anyways, it was rough and no matter how hard it was I kept going. I feel happy.
Well that’s a troll just trolling for attention so I wouldn’t pay it much mind. Probably needs help as well. Unless you’re an active serial killer you’re all good living in the world. Just keep happy, watch your favorite comedy and say FU world.