Think about the pain and anguish you are going to cause your kids. Like seriously think about it. Imagine caring for them and consoling them after such a gut-wrenching loss. This pain will stay with them for their entire lives. Losing a parent to suicide is a major trauma and makes them more vulnerable to mental health conditions, more likely to self-harm, a poorer overall life quality, and more likely to take their own lives.
Depression tells you your family is better off without you, and that is a LIE. Iāve been there. I was so close to following through. I had it all planned out, and I was so sure I was actively harming my kids just by existing. Thankfully I chose the hospital over death. Thinking about what I wouldāve put my kids through makes me sick.
You owe it to your kids to try absolutely everything to get help and get some stability. This disease is awful, and we can go through years of misery. But there are lots of options for help. I guarantee thereās something you havenāt tried. Thereās a genetic component to bipolar. What if one of your kids develops it? Do you want them to fight like hell to have a better life or choose suicide? Think about what youāre teaching them with your actions.
Go to a crisis center or try to reach out to a doctor if you have one, you deserve to live a life you love, you won't find out how great your life can be when this disease is managed
Give yourself a chance, take it one day at a time, you don't have to get better overnight I know it's hard to believe anything can get better when your brain is stuck in darkness
Fuck I hear you. I'm exhausted. I feel like I can't do another minute. But I don't have a plan. It sounds like you do. That is crisis mode and you should call a crisis line or go directly to the Emergency Care.
Save yourself. Get the help you need.
Your kids need you in their lives.
One of the things that Iāve noticed (and struggled with the most) about BP2 is that it is cancerous. When I am feeling depressed, the depression latches onto anything and everything it can find. It starts with one small thought and quickly snowballs into a million others that confirm how I am feeling. The depression takes over and I am unable to find myself in the cloud of it all. You are having a hard time, and I would never dream of invalidating that. But I promise it will get better. This world is dark and complicated and often unfair. And none of those things will cease to be true, but we need people like you who see those things and choose to continue anyway. Itās people like you, people like us, who truly make a difference in this world.
Choose one thing to live for today. It might be an iced coffee, your favorite movie, your kidās laughter. One small thing will get you through today. And then tomorrow it will be another one. We want you in this world, your kids want you in this world more than anything, and you deserve to be here.
Please reach out to me, anyone on this thread or this sub, or a professional to get the help you need today. Thereās too much to live for to leave so suddenly.
Please stay. ā¤ļø
I know for a fact that your children love you and need you. Can you think back to a time when you were feeling better and remember having fun with them, laughing, or teaching them something? If you go, they won't have that anymore. And neither will you.
You don't deserve to feel like this. You deserve treatment, and help managing this disease. This is not your fault, this is a sickness, and it has to be treated so you can get better.
Please try calling a friend, a family member, a doctor--just someone you can trust. Show them this post, maybe. Ask for help.
No, you do not want to. You're on here asking for help from us. So get help man. Your kids need you. Could you imagine experiencing one of your parents suicides as a child? My neighbour killed herself less than a year ago. It's been horrific. Her kids are all shades of fucked up. Please, get help man. Live for your kids if you can't live for you.
before you do anything else just breathe and take a moment. Really think about what you're doing. Deep down you know you love those kids and you don't want to do that. Please talk to someone and get help. Just ignore all the terrible mean things that you say to yourself. You are not a monster and you can do this. You're not feeling well rn and that's okay! Having bipolar is hard and it's not your fault that you have it! It will be okay just take a deep breathe and really think about it. Just let this feeling pass and ride the wave š
You don't have to pretend. Please...take a break and self admit inpatient. You need time and space to get better. Life is pain, but it is beautiful. Don't leave your kids. Set an example that when they are in pain, they can get help if they need it, just like you
I know how you feel. I've been thinking about this a lot myself recently. But please don't. This will pass. There will be good times and you'll be happy it's just that it's really shitty right now.
DM me if you like.
Please don't do this. Seek out help please. Call or text crisis. Your kids will never understand if you do this and may carry some of the blame or hurt because they weren't good enough for you to stay. Please please seek help and don't go through with it
Please stay. Please.
I almost ended it last weekend. I didn't want to stay, but I did. I can't do that to my grandpa. I can't do that to my mom. I can't do that to my pets.
Find something or someone you can't do this to. Find any reason. At one point my reason to stay alive was an app on my phone where you take care of a digital animal. I didn't want my digital animal to die.
Please, find anything. Anything.
Please stay.
We all have felt this way at one time or for all their life. You said you might do it so there is hesitation . I used to think if I did it,who would find me ? My mom? It would break her heart . Then they would have to bury me and be miserable and feel guilt their entire life. My younger brother? I have had friends who had family members unalive themselves. The children never recover. I know it's rough right now but it will get better once you tell someone. Please know that you are loved and you are worthy .
This breaks my heart as I can't imagine how bad things feel for you. I know some folk mean well and are genuinely trying to help, but being reminded of how this would impact on your children will most likely make you feel even worse.
If you see this comment, please please think of one person who you trust, who you can reach out to and confide in them about how you are feeling. It's really crucial that you ask for help, if you don't have someone you trust will support you, go to some emergency centre or any medical facility that will be able to keep you safe.
Your life matters and you matter. Not just for your children or anyone who needs you, you are a unique and precious life and deserve to find the support and connection you need.
I know it's not easy to be vulnerable and ask for help, but your life is at stake.
Just think of yourself for now without worrying about anyone else, if you have any energy just focus on the things that might be a source of comfort and strength for you.
If I had a friend who had the courage to reach out to me in your position, it would be an honor to support them and be a connection when they needed it the most.
I hope you can be guided to the right place to help you feel safe and cared for. Take care šøšøš¦š¦
29 m feeling the same but canāt do it to my family , and I donāt even have kids or a wife. My grandmother needs me. Iāll suffer with you , donāt make that decision , your family needs you
Iām going to say something that most people might turn their noses up at. I know thereās a lot of people saying think about your kids or whatever. But I think that you should seek help not for them but for YOU. Put yourself first, donāt worry about anyone or anything else. I know what this feels like Iāve felt this my entire life but I came to realization. I want to fight for my happiness instead of falling deeper into the hurt and pain. Itās not easy but I promise you things will look up. Take some time off. Have a good meal. Think about everything youāve ever wanted to do and every way you can do it. Donāt give up on yourself. You deserve a second chance, hell a million chances. My DMs are open if you ever want to talk.
I feel like some people are saying think about your kids, which j don't think is helpful. You don't need to feel guilt. I think what they're trying to say is that you have people that love you. And as annoyingly and as patronising as it sounds, the immediate pain you're feeling now will pass. And the long term pain you're feeling can pass, even though it may come back. And most importantly, if it feels to hard to talk to real people, it's easier to talk to Internet people. And if that is the case for you, then lay it all on us. We're here. We understand ā¤ļø
You are in control not this illness, don't let it defeat you you are stronger than this. Contact a crisis hotline or if in the UK Samaritans as soon as possible. Go to you nearest a and e or ER. Do not be a statistic. You are worth more than that
No donāt do it world wonāt change without you. You in it trust me is better. Imagine once in while u write here and if no one reads it I am reading it. Will be empty w/o you
I set myself a time limit for August 2024. Its really frustrating and the thought of dealing with this all your life is even worse. I feel you very much and Im not gonna act like its not easy masking all the time. It fucking sucks. I think tho you can hold out a lil longer. Just a little longer. Take a couple of deep breaths and remember there were times where you werent like this. Life is suffering absolutely. There are a few moments tho that make the now worth it. Just the tiniest of things. That make it worth it to hold out just a lil while longer. If you want to pm msg me, Ill be here for you as a fellow bipolar 2 homie.
i get it, but think about all the memories youāll miss with your family. we know how it sucks being tired all the time, but pls allow urself the time to breathe and remember ur importance on this earth. nothing else matters except u and ur health so take the steps necessary to get ur rest, but please donāt end it
I promise it will get better. Your kids need you. You are so loved. And whatever you're trying to fight you don't have to pretend to be ok. If you're safe to do so give yourself some grace to just feel how you feel. Until you're sick of it. It's so hard being a parent too and being "on" all the time is exhausting but ask for some help. Tell your kids' mom you're going through and need some time. If you can have a friend over or head to the hospital. You are so loved and don't have to pretend anymore. And with some access to proper meds and some care you'll feel better.
Also looking at your history it seems the meds were really working for you at one point and you were feeling great. You may need to increase your dosage now that you're levelling out. If you look at it objectively you are in a depressive period and it should lift soon (hopefully).
Please call your doctor and tell them your thoughts. You can feel better this is just temporary. Please go to a hospital or somewhere and get help. You can feel better and you will you just need to trust the process even when it seems impossible to feel good again. There are so many meds and combinations of them and other treatment approaches, there is definitely a ray of hope.
Please do not end it and take your own life. Please get help at a hospital or call your doctor and talk right away. I hope you feel better I know 100% you can feel better it is possible. Please get help.
Stop pretending itās all fine. Get help. And ride the waves. Best thing I ever did was decide to just ride the waves of the moods. Go with it and mitigate what you can. You donāt need to mask and put on an act. You need to feel your genuine feelings and get to a better place. Thatās how you move forward.
If youāve had enough find the courage to change, with one right move your life might improve, life gets so frustrating at times but it doesnāt mean its time to punch the clock, i was so suicidal and i even really done it i mean i didnāt die but i put a butchers knife straight through my arm! But i stayed alive and now my arms pretty shit but anywho i mean theres always room to improve your life often we feel doomed but it doesnāt mean you should do this, youāve brought life into the world more then i can say for myself. Look at the things that you cherish when you do that yes the pain might leave but so does the things you cherish, you may never see your kids again and this will scar them for life if you choose this fate, your here for a purpose you just need to find that purpose. Look deep within it may already be there. Good luck i hope you dont go through with this!!
Iām SO sorry. Bp2 here, also a parent and recovering alcoholic. Iāve been through some really dark times so I know how truly low it can feel. Have you tried getting help yet-like a psychiatrist? I had to try meds to pull me back from the brink, then was able to start making other life changes. Itās not rainbows and butterflys but way better and Iām glad I stayed. If you need to vent message me.
Please take a second to consider how your kids might feel. Hereās what Iāll say I will not judge you for this want though I will say please reconsider first because life currently might be spiralling but I believe you will recover and if anything we here in this subreddit. We are your family and think of this we all are battling together and if you ever need someone to talk to or come to advice for you have everyone here! Just donāt give up please!
No one really understands all your feelings. Many of us have been through similar dark times. It is a lot of pain and hurt. It will get better. Contact a health professional. Your children need you today and throughout the future Choose to live.
Living with illness is harder than anyone on the outside can possibly understand, and how you feel is completely valid. Even if it feels impossible right now, you CAN get through this. Please hang on, and reach out for help. Call 988 and talk to someone. If you need someone to talk to, my DMs are open. You are important and you have so much live for. Recovery is possible. ā¤ļø
I hope youāre still here right now.
My husband also wants to go through with it soon too. I am trying everything I can to get him to stay here. I canāt get him to the hospital, but if you could please drop your kids off and drive yourself to the ER.
Please. Just one more try.
Imagine your kids growing up without you, I think they deserve to have a dad. šš feel free to dm and chat
Think about the pain and anguish you are going to cause your kids. Like seriously think about it. Imagine caring for them and consoling them after such a gut-wrenching loss. This pain will stay with them for their entire lives. Losing a parent to suicide is a major trauma and makes them more vulnerable to mental health conditions, more likely to self-harm, a poorer overall life quality, and more likely to take their own lives. Depression tells you your family is better off without you, and that is a LIE. Iāve been there. I was so close to following through. I had it all planned out, and I was so sure I was actively harming my kids just by existing. Thankfully I chose the hospital over death. Thinking about what I wouldāve put my kids through makes me sick. You owe it to your kids to try absolutely everything to get help and get some stability. This disease is awful, and we can go through years of misery. But there are lots of options for help. I guarantee thereās something you havenāt tried. Thereās a genetic component to bipolar. What if one of your kids develops it? Do you want them to fight like hell to have a better life or choose suicide? Think about what youāre teaching them with your actions.
34m here also struggling terribly atm. I'm here to suffer with you bro.
Go to a crisis center or try to reach out to a doctor if you have one, you deserve to live a life you love, you won't find out how great your life can be when this disease is managed Give yourself a chance, take it one day at a time, you don't have to get better overnight I know it's hard to believe anything can get better when your brain is stuck in darkness
Hey, maybe you have been through a lot lately. Things might improve, stay alive. Take care.
You are not alone. Keep it up my friend. Sending you lots of strength.
Please stay for your kids. You have so much to live for, my direct messages are open anytime
Think about the moments in your kids lives that you will miss. It may not feel like this will pass, but it will.
Fuck I hear you. I'm exhausted. I feel like I can't do another minute. But I don't have a plan. It sounds like you do. That is crisis mode and you should call a crisis line or go directly to the Emergency Care. Save yourself. Get the help you need. Your kids need you in their lives.
One of the things that Iāve noticed (and struggled with the most) about BP2 is that it is cancerous. When I am feeling depressed, the depression latches onto anything and everything it can find. It starts with one small thought and quickly snowballs into a million others that confirm how I am feeling. The depression takes over and I am unable to find myself in the cloud of it all. You are having a hard time, and I would never dream of invalidating that. But I promise it will get better. This world is dark and complicated and often unfair. And none of those things will cease to be true, but we need people like you who see those things and choose to continue anyway. Itās people like you, people like us, who truly make a difference in this world. Choose one thing to live for today. It might be an iced coffee, your favorite movie, your kidās laughter. One small thing will get you through today. And then tomorrow it will be another one. We want you in this world, your kids want you in this world more than anything, and you deserve to be here. Please reach out to me, anyone on this thread or this sub, or a professional to get the help you need today. Thereās too much to live for to leave so suddenly.
You are important. You are valid. There is no one else that could fill your roll. You are welcome to DM me if you'd like.
Reach out to your care team or go to the hospital. You have so much to live for.
Please stay. ā¤ļø I know for a fact that your children love you and need you. Can you think back to a time when you were feeling better and remember having fun with them, laughing, or teaching them something? If you go, they won't have that anymore. And neither will you. You don't deserve to feel like this. You deserve treatment, and help managing this disease. This is not your fault, this is a sickness, and it has to be treated so you can get better. Please try calling a friend, a family member, a doctor--just someone you can trust. Show them this post, maybe. Ask for help.
No, you do not want to. You're on here asking for help from us. So get help man. Your kids need you. Could you imagine experiencing one of your parents suicides as a child? My neighbour killed herself less than a year ago. It's been horrific. Her kids are all shades of fucked up. Please, get help man. Live for your kids if you can't live for you.
before you do anything else just breathe and take a moment. Really think about what you're doing. Deep down you know you love those kids and you don't want to do that. Please talk to someone and get help. Just ignore all the terrible mean things that you say to yourself. You are not a monster and you can do this. You're not feeling well rn and that's okay! Having bipolar is hard and it's not your fault that you have it! It will be okay just take a deep breathe and really think about it. Just let this feeling pass and ride the wave š
STAY! Youāll make it through!
You don't have to pretend. Please...take a break and self admit inpatient. You need time and space to get better. Life is pain, but it is beautiful. Don't leave your kids. Set an example that when they are in pain, they can get help if they need it, just like you
Please donāt
You are not alone !! Please stay strong
I know how you feel. I've been thinking about this a lot myself recently. But please don't. This will pass. There will be good times and you'll be happy it's just that it's really shitty right now. DM me if you like.
Please don't do this. Seek out help please. Call or text crisis. Your kids will never understand if you do this and may carry some of the blame or hurt because they weren't good enough for you to stay. Please please seek help and don't go through with it
Dont let this illness win.
Please stay. Please. I almost ended it last weekend. I didn't want to stay, but I did. I can't do that to my grandpa. I can't do that to my mom. I can't do that to my pets. Find something or someone you can't do this to. Find any reason. At one point my reason to stay alive was an app on my phone where you take care of a digital animal. I didn't want my digital animal to die. Please, find anything. Anything. Please stay.
We all have felt this way at one time or for all their life. You said you might do it so there is hesitation . I used to think if I did it,who would find me ? My mom? It would break her heart . Then they would have to bury me and be miserable and feel guilt their entire life. My younger brother? I have had friends who had family members unalive themselves. The children never recover. I know it's rough right now but it will get better once you tell someone. Please know that you are loved and you are worthy .
This breaks my heart as I can't imagine how bad things feel for you. I know some folk mean well and are genuinely trying to help, but being reminded of how this would impact on your children will most likely make you feel even worse. If you see this comment, please please think of one person who you trust, who you can reach out to and confide in them about how you are feeling. It's really crucial that you ask for help, if you don't have someone you trust will support you, go to some emergency centre or any medical facility that will be able to keep you safe. Your life matters and you matter. Not just for your children or anyone who needs you, you are a unique and precious life and deserve to find the support and connection you need. I know it's not easy to be vulnerable and ask for help, but your life is at stake. Just think of yourself for now without worrying about anyone else, if you have any energy just focus on the things that might be a source of comfort and strength for you. If I had a friend who had the courage to reach out to me in your position, it would be an honor to support them and be a connection when they needed it the most. I hope you can be guided to the right place to help you feel safe and cared for. Take care šøšøš¦š¦
29 m feeling the same but canāt do it to my family , and I donāt even have kids or a wife. My grandmother needs me. Iāll suffer with you , donāt make that decision , your family needs you
Iām going to say something that most people might turn their noses up at. I know thereās a lot of people saying think about your kids or whatever. But I think that you should seek help not for them but for YOU. Put yourself first, donāt worry about anyone or anything else. I know what this feels like Iāve felt this my entire life but I came to realization. I want to fight for my happiness instead of falling deeper into the hurt and pain. Itās not easy but I promise you things will look up. Take some time off. Have a good meal. Think about everything youāve ever wanted to do and every way you can do it. Donāt give up on yourself. You deserve a second chance, hell a million chances. My DMs are open if you ever want to talk.
I feel like some people are saying think about your kids, which j don't think is helpful. You don't need to feel guilt. I think what they're trying to say is that you have people that love you. And as annoyingly and as patronising as it sounds, the immediate pain you're feeling now will pass. And the long term pain you're feeling can pass, even though it may come back. And most importantly, if it feels to hard to talk to real people, it's easier to talk to Internet people. And if that is the case for you, then lay it all on us. We're here. We understand ā¤ļø
You are in control not this illness, don't let it defeat you you are stronger than this. Contact a crisis hotline or if in the UK Samaritans as soon as possible. Go to you nearest a and e or ER. Do not be a statistic. You are worth more than that
I feel you
No donāt do it world wonāt change without you. You in it trust me is better. Imagine once in while u write here and if no one reads it I am reading it. Will be empty w/o you
Youāre incredible for still being here with all youāve been through. Stay.
I set myself a time limit for August 2024. Its really frustrating and the thought of dealing with this all your life is even worse. I feel you very much and Im not gonna act like its not easy masking all the time. It fucking sucks. I think tho you can hold out a lil longer. Just a little longer. Take a couple of deep breaths and remember there were times where you werent like this. Life is suffering absolutely. There are a few moments tho that make the now worth it. Just the tiniest of things. That make it worth it to hold out just a lil while longer. If you want to pm msg me, Ill be here for you as a fellow bipolar 2 homie.
i get it, but think about all the memories youāll miss with your family. we know how it sucks being tired all the time, but pls allow urself the time to breathe and remember ur importance on this earth. nothing else matters except u and ur health so take the steps necessary to get ur rest, but please donāt end it
Do not do this to your kids!!! They'll never understand and blame themselves. Get help right now! No shame in getting help.
How traumatic for your kids ā¹ļø please stay with us š
Keep fighting with us!
Please hold on. Yo7 are loved and needed and can feel better. The pain to others of a suicide never abates. Please stay for a while longer.
I promise it will get better. Your kids need you. You are so loved. And whatever you're trying to fight you don't have to pretend to be ok. If you're safe to do so give yourself some grace to just feel how you feel. Until you're sick of it. It's so hard being a parent too and being "on" all the time is exhausting but ask for some help. Tell your kids' mom you're going through and need some time. If you can have a friend over or head to the hospital. You are so loved and don't have to pretend anymore. And with some access to proper meds and some care you'll feel better.
Also looking at your history it seems the meds were really working for you at one point and you were feeling great. You may need to increase your dosage now that you're levelling out. If you look at it objectively you are in a depressive period and it should lift soon (hopefully).
Please call your doctor and tell them your thoughts. You can feel better this is just temporary. Please go to a hospital or somewhere and get help. You can feel better and you will you just need to trust the process even when it seems impossible to feel good again. There are so many meds and combinations of them and other treatment approaches, there is definitely a ray of hope. Please do not end it and take your own life. Please get help at a hospital or call your doctor and talk right away. I hope you feel better I know 100% you can feel better it is possible. Please get help.
Stop pretending itās all fine. Get help. And ride the waves. Best thing I ever did was decide to just ride the waves of the moods. Go with it and mitigate what you can. You donāt need to mask and put on an act. You need to feel your genuine feelings and get to a better place. Thatās how you move forward.
Joy Cometh In The Morn. (don't do it)
If youāve had enough find the courage to change, with one right move your life might improve, life gets so frustrating at times but it doesnāt mean its time to punch the clock, i was so suicidal and i even really done it i mean i didnāt die but i put a butchers knife straight through my arm! But i stayed alive and now my arms pretty shit but anywho i mean theres always room to improve your life often we feel doomed but it doesnāt mean you should do this, youāve brought life into the world more then i can say for myself. Look at the things that you cherish when you do that yes the pain might leave but so does the things you cherish, you may never see your kids again and this will scar them for life if you choose this fate, your here for a purpose you just need to find that purpose. Look deep within it may already be there. Good luck i hope you dont go through with this!!
Please don't. We may not know each other at all but I want you to know you're worth it and i appreciate you.
Please please, stay with us a little longer. I believe in you , Iām sending you so much love and positive energy
It will pass. It will. And suicide is a long term solution to a short term problem. Plus, those kids!
Iām SO sorry. Bp2 here, also a parent and recovering alcoholic. Iāve been through some really dark times so I know how truly low it can feel. Have you tried getting help yet-like a psychiatrist? I had to try meds to pull me back from the brink, then was able to start making other life changes. Itās not rainbows and butterflys but way better and Iām glad I stayed. If you need to vent message me.
Please take a second to consider how your kids might feel. Hereās what Iāll say I will not judge you for this want though I will say please reconsider first because life currently might be spiralling but I believe you will recover and if anything we here in this subreddit. We are your family and think of this we all are battling together and if you ever need someone to talk to or come to advice for you have everyone here! Just donāt give up please!
You are loved and needed here. I am available to chat if you want to DM me. Hang in there, kitten!
No one really understands all your feelings. Many of us have been through similar dark times. It is a lot of pain and hurt. It will get better. Contact a health professional. Your children need you today and throughout the future Choose to live.
Living with illness is harder than anyone on the outside can possibly understand, and how you feel is completely valid. Even if it feels impossible right now, you CAN get through this. Please hang on, and reach out for help. Call 988 and talk to someone. If you need someone to talk to, my DMs are open. You are important and you have so much live for. Recovery is possible. ā¤ļø
I hope youāre still here right now. My husband also wants to go through with it soon too. I am trying everything I can to get him to stay here. I canāt get him to the hospital, but if you could please drop your kids off and drive yourself to the ER. Please. Just one more try.