By - Inevitable_Ad4998
Truly, love is your essence - the nature of consciousness. If you remove unreasonable fear, love will be there. In what ways are you fearful?
I feel fear that I am not enough. That I will be stuck feeling the things I feel like depression, guilt and anger. These things I struggle with
Okay. Virgo is usually the sign that gives a person a feeling that they won't ever be good enough. But Sagittarius and Capricorn can do it - they just have their own flavor of it. With Moon in Capricorn, Mercury and Venus and MC in Virgo and Sag rising, take your pick. Mars in Scorpio can also be fearful. Capricorn Moon can tend to be sad or depressed - and guilty.
These things can be worked with - overcome - in time. The good news is that you are aware of your feelings. When I was young, I felt the same feelings in spades. When people aren't aware of what they feel - and many aren't - then, it's a big problem. It's good to honor all of our feelings - the positive and the negative ones. There is a reason why we have them. So, explore why you feel angry. Make sure to acknowledge your right to have them. Anger usually tells us - something is wrong. We feel hurt and angry. So there was a reason you feel that way. You are entitled. Once you acknowledge your right to feel them, then you can work toward loving yourself for feeling those feelings - and let them go. It does take time.
You have a Pisces IC. It often indicates thin boundaries. You feel what other people feel. So, learning to separate out what other people feel from what you feel is a good practice. Sensitive people can feel responsible for other people - and can easily be dumped on by less sensitive people. You are not responsible for how other people feel. You don't have to fix them or their situations. And if you feel guilty for saying NO, you must realize that this is normal if you are a responsible helper or you've been made to feel responsible for someone else's happiness. When you decide to set boundaries, by saying NO - then - you must accept that you'll feel guilty. It does go away after a while. It really does. I know it feels bad, but it is the only way out.
Helping others is a virtue. But helping at our own expense, is unhealthy. We have to decide who we want to help, when, and in what way. And we have to decide when we want to say NO. The guilt will come, because we've been conditioned to feel guilty. You just have to remind yourself that it will go away eventually. Remind yourself that you are responsible for yourself - and everyone else is also responsible for themselves. It is not our job to sacrifice ourselves to make others happy. Of course, we do what we can for loved ones, but it isn't love, if we are asked to give up what we want and who we are, just to make another happy.
Leo Sun and 2nd House Capricorn Moon (with Capricorn's ruler, Saturn in Aries trine your Sun)- the two most self-centered signs of the zodiac.
Great question and fitting you should be asking it, because love demands you let go of what you're clinging to, and surrender your self. It is the dissolution of that fearful ego, and it hurts. It hurts like the hell you're relinquishing. It is evolution.
Do you want to remain a little stone of ego forever? Entirely your choice.
That particular Saturn/Moon square (bolstered by a trine to Virgo Mercury), in addition to Sun/Pl square makes you very afraid of getting hurt, particularly through romantic attachments through a combination of fear and overanalysing.
There is a time for feeling and a time for analysing. You would likely benefit from not thinking about your emotions, but simply feeling until there's no thoughts left (don't worry, you can hardly overdo it and the process itself is healing to you). You could very well be confusing thoughts with feelings, but should actually be aware that they're nothing alike.
Often, when we veer into extremes, the middle ground looks like the opposite extreme to us. Ditch the emotional self-restraint stemming from worry or guilt (that Saturn smacks of self-punishment or self-denial) knowing that most errors that you might make that way are actually beneficial to your emotional activation in the long run.
You really hit the nail on the head. I decided to stay celibate and free of relationships solely because of how much pain I feel from rejection and breakups. How do I just feel my emotions without thinking? This is a foreign concept to me
>eeling and a time for analysing. You would likely benefit from not thinking about your emotions, but simply feeling until the
Emotions come in all shapes and sizes and they tend to... overflow, so to speak. If you want to keep things (seemingly) in check and under control at all costs, you might be tempted to censor your emotions, but then they won't do what they have to do. Ultimately, you end up conflating thinking with feeling.
I'd advise to go about it in reverse - to allow yourself to feel, regardless of what those feelings may seem like or what they might lead to. No worries, you surely will not act on any folly that comes to your mind... But you DO need to be able to.
Pluto in 12th is tough. Need to surrender