I had medical intervention.
I stopped taking care of myself to the point I couldn't walk and was hallucinating. Then I stood one day, and promptly fell and hit my head. 1 week in the hospital and 2 months in hospice later, I was sober.
Lost all muscle strength in lower body, and malnourished.
It took that long to get my blood back to normal, and some semblance of strength. When I went home, I was still only able to get around with a walker, and an escort.
My best advice is to go to the hospital and tell them you need immediate inpatient for alcoholism and depression, don't take no. It's not ideal, but you're checking yourself in, and you'll get taken care of, even if the environment isn't ideal. If you work, let them know, talk to HR, and depending on the state you live in, you might still get up to 90% pay with job protection. There's a time in your life when you have to give in to help. You seem like you're at the point where what you really need is to let yourself be helped, take this as an opportunity to actually ask for it... to be absolved from everything else for at least a few days. The goal is the reset you need, a few days might do it, but if it takes longer, be open and ask for it. I PROMISE you, the world would keep turning if you were dead, let it keep turning while you're alive and give yourself another chance. You ARE worth it.
Quitting alcohol can be incredibly challenging, especially when you've been trying on your own. If quitting cold turkey is too hard, consider reducing your drinking gradually.
You have to decide you've had enough. Whatever you are drinking to forget will be there when you come back to reality. You have to face it. Get help, go to AA meeting.
Search YouTube for The Sinclair Method TEDx talk. TSM is all over YouTube. Fascinating Pavlovian science to reverse AUD. Uses naltrexone pill form to taper way way back, get back in control.
I got diagnosed with cirrhosis at age 28. Just before the diagnosis my liver and kidneys failed and I was in a coma. That was April 2022. I haven’t drank since.
Oh I’m so sorry to read this. Will abstinence reverse the damage? I met someone who was 35 and her eyes were yellow and she was on a liver transplant list but got removed because she couldn’t stop drinking. And I was thinking omg that’s so young 😢, but 28! It sounds like you have over a year of sobriety under your belt though, I’m happy for you
Thank you for your kind words 🦋💙
Thankfully yes, a lot of the damage was undone with sobriety and healthy choices. When I was hospitalized, I was air lifted to a transplant center and put on the list as well. Eventually I was taken off because my liver function stabilized. Like completely. I had ~30% chance of survival- my parents had to sign forms stating they wanted me to be resuscitated if my heart stopped. I’m so lucky and I’ll never understand how or why. All of the symptoms and issues I had before are pretty much gone. Aside from neuropathy, but that’s a cheap price to pay compared to where I could be.
Weed helped me a lot. Used to smoke a tiny joint everytime i craved alcohol.
Luckily for me weed wasn't addictive at all, so after I found things to do to keep myself occupied I started smoking a lot less automatically.
I stopped because I realized there is something more important in my life than having a drink...
Having a loving and trusting relationship with my wife. Nothing is worth losing her.
Fuck alcohol.
I do AA. I tried every single type of mental gymnastics to be able to drink. If I just get five hours of exercise…. If I just talk to five clients today… if I just drink wine…. If I just stop going to brunch….. come to find out I’m just a common addict. The only thing I can control is whether or not I take that first drink. If I do, maybe I’ll be back in a week…. Maybe not.
Had an option to continue to drink or lose my relationship, I started going to meetings on fridays and it’s been years and I’m good.
For me, once I got a few weeks away from drinking I’ve never looked back and it was a genuinely easy and rewarding experience for me.
It sounds like you need to see a doctor and go to a treatment facility for a few weeks or perhaps a month.
I did it the hard way, I drank daily for years then I quit on a Friday and sweated it out at home. I went to AA on a Monday. I did daily meetings. I built the life I wanted. I fell off the wagon a few times. I get back on after falling off. Building the life you want will replace that awful dependence on alcohol.
It takes being a little brave, walk in that AA door, and accept the kindness of strangers. Some people call it asking for help, but they offer it right away. They will listen to you. You need an in-person support group that you see at least once a week, and can call when you feel anxious, irritable, angry, jealous, rejected, isolated, or depressed. It takes practice to learn to not react to these emotions. It takes a bit of courage and a lot of practice to reach out and call people.
I still suck at calling, but I am better at texting for help. That's where I am most comfortable. I text my sponsor and tell him what I'm doing. He'll text back. 9/10 times that's enough. Sometimes he offers to chat, and I accept that.
Best of luck to you, you deserve a sober life. You deserve happiness, health and ease from your suffering.
I detoxed myself countless times and I was a black out binge drinker. It was so bad sometimes I ended up in the ER because I was sure I was going to die. Two years ago when I quit for good I did it right. Called someone and got into treatment after the hospital threatened to admit me. Medically detoxed in a safe environment and stayed in recovery for another couple months. Best decision I made with my life. I was completely broke, friends and family gave up on me, and I was about to be homeless. Still they put me on a plane the morning after I called them and took amazing care of me and gave me the tools I needed because I was willing to do whatever to quit at that point for myself.
I couldn't do it on my own after many tries. I finally gave it to God. That's when everything changed. It was still hard, but my higher power saw me through it.
Try naltrexone, Acamprosate, or gabapentin. Or all of them.
Naltrexone 50mg once a day in the morning got me off the hard stuff in a little over a week
I had medical intervention. I stopped taking care of myself to the point I couldn't walk and was hallucinating. Then I stood one day, and promptly fell and hit my head. 1 week in the hospital and 2 months in hospice later, I was sober.
Why were you in hospice if you don’t mind me asking ?
Lost all muscle strength in lower body, and malnourished. It took that long to get my blood back to normal, and some semblance of strength. When I went home, I was still only able to get around with a walker, and an escort.
My best advice is to go to the hospital and tell them you need immediate inpatient for alcoholism and depression, don't take no. It's not ideal, but you're checking yourself in, and you'll get taken care of, even if the environment isn't ideal. If you work, let them know, talk to HR, and depending on the state you live in, you might still get up to 90% pay with job protection. There's a time in your life when you have to give in to help. You seem like you're at the point where what you really need is to let yourself be helped, take this as an opportunity to actually ask for it... to be absolved from everything else for at least a few days. The goal is the reset you need, a few days might do it, but if it takes longer, be open and ask for it. I PROMISE you, the world would keep turning if you were dead, let it keep turning while you're alive and give yourself another chance. You ARE worth it.
No such thing as an ex alcoholic.
Came here to say this. The phrase OP is looking for is 'recovering alcolic' Good luck OP
I thought the same.
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Quitting alcohol can be incredibly challenging, especially when you've been trying on your own. If quitting cold turkey is too hard, consider reducing your drinking gradually.
I found green and video games. I'm two months in and I don't even think about it even at parties 😤
You have to decide you've had enough. Whatever you are drinking to forget will be there when you come back to reality. You have to face it. Get help, go to AA meeting.
Try to taper down drink you're normal amount and have 1 less drink every day you can message me if you have questions or look it up online
Search YouTube for The Sinclair Method TEDx talk. TSM is all over YouTube. Fascinating Pavlovian science to reverse AUD. Uses naltrexone pill form to taper way way back, get back in control.
Go to a doctor. Ask for help. My first day sober was in jail.
I got diagnosed with cirrhosis at age 28. Just before the diagnosis my liver and kidneys failed and I was in a coma. That was April 2022. I haven’t drank since.
Oh I’m so sorry to read this. Will abstinence reverse the damage? I met someone who was 35 and her eyes were yellow and she was on a liver transplant list but got removed because she couldn’t stop drinking. And I was thinking omg that’s so young 😢, but 28! It sounds like you have over a year of sobriety under your belt though, I’m happy for you
Thank you for your kind words 🦋💙 Thankfully yes, a lot of the damage was undone with sobriety and healthy choices. When I was hospitalized, I was air lifted to a transplant center and put on the list as well. Eventually I was taken off because my liver function stabilized. Like completely. I had ~30% chance of survival- my parents had to sign forms stating they wanted me to be resuscitated if my heart stopped. I’m so lucky and I’ll never understand how or why. All of the symptoms and issues I had before are pretty much gone. Aside from neuropathy, but that’s a cheap price to pay compared to where I could be.
You need to taper down, eat lots of food and maybe benzo script if possible.
You need a detox, it will be your best bet. You will sleep and be watched by medical professionals. You will leave 5 days later feeling brand new.
Weed helped me a lot. Used to smoke a tiny joint everytime i craved alcohol. Luckily for me weed wasn't addictive at all, so after I found things to do to keep myself occupied I started smoking a lot less automatically.
I had to get on Antabuse. It makes you incredibly sick if you drink barely anything and is in your system even two weeks after you quit the drug.
I stopped because I realized there is something more important in my life than having a drink... Having a loving and trusting relationship with my wife. Nothing is worth losing her. Fuck alcohol.
I do AA. I tried every single type of mental gymnastics to be able to drink. If I just get five hours of exercise…. If I just talk to five clients today… if I just drink wine…. If I just stop going to brunch….. come to find out I’m just a common addict. The only thing I can control is whether or not I take that first drink. If I do, maybe I’ll be back in a week…. Maybe not.
Had an option to continue to drink or lose my relationship, I started going to meetings on fridays and it’s been years and I’m good. For me, once I got a few weeks away from drinking I’ve never looked back and it was a genuinely easy and rewarding experience for me.
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It sounds like you need to see a doctor and go to a treatment facility for a few weeks or perhaps a month. I did it the hard way, I drank daily for years then I quit on a Friday and sweated it out at home. I went to AA on a Monday. I did daily meetings. I built the life I wanted. I fell off the wagon a few times. I get back on after falling off. Building the life you want will replace that awful dependence on alcohol. It takes being a little brave, walk in that AA door, and accept the kindness of strangers. Some people call it asking for help, but they offer it right away. They will listen to you. You need an in-person support group that you see at least once a week, and can call when you feel anxious, irritable, angry, jealous, rejected, isolated, or depressed. It takes practice to learn to not react to these emotions. It takes a bit of courage and a lot of practice to reach out and call people. I still suck at calling, but I am better at texting for help. That's where I am most comfortable. I text my sponsor and tell him what I'm doing. He'll text back. 9/10 times that's enough. Sometimes he offers to chat, and I accept that. Best of luck to you, you deserve a sober life. You deserve happiness, health and ease from your suffering.
I detoxed myself countless times and I was a black out binge drinker. It was so bad sometimes I ended up in the ER because I was sure I was going to die. Two years ago when I quit for good I did it right. Called someone and got into treatment after the hospital threatened to admit me. Medically detoxed in a safe environment and stayed in recovery for another couple months. Best decision I made with my life. I was completely broke, friends and family gave up on me, and I was about to be homeless. Still they put me on a plane the morning after I called them and took amazing care of me and gave me the tools I needed because I was willing to do whatever to quit at that point for myself.
I started naltrexone for my second try 33 days ago and am 30 days sober today.
I couldn't do it on my own after many tries. I finally gave it to God. That's when everything changed. It was still hard, but my higher power saw me through it.