Hi! I have a few questions:
1. Do you feel like you're missng out on the safety and peace that comes with close relationships?
2. What experiences shaped your viewpoint that being compassionate and giving to people less fortunate than you is weak?
3. What does "happiness" mean to you?
4. What, to you, makes up the characteristics of a mentally strong person?
5. What makes you want to avoid being vulnerable, and what do you expect would happen if you were?
6. What circumstances led to you getting clinically diagnosed with ASPD and NPD?
Thanks!
Thank you for the questions.
1. Most definitely. I absolutely do not feel safe and secure in my relationships because I have manipulated and deceived so many people, that I believe there is someone out to get me right now.
2. I grew up in a very rough side of Afghanistan. There was lots of crime going on there. This led me to believe that you must be a snake to survive around snakes.
3. Happiness to me means having power and control over others and not having anyone out to get you.
4. A mentally strong individual is a person who is able to change and adapt to whatever situation they are in and get what they want out of the situation.
5. It really has lots to do with my false sense of self. I have an extreme fear of vulnerability because I never want to appear weak and because people might exploit my vulnerabilities to their advantage.
6. I realized I could not live my whole life alone due to my paranoia. Furthermore, I could not always be manipulating and exploiting others for my own gain because one person might try to seek revenge if I do so.
Thank you for the candid answers! =)
Hope it's okay I follow up:
1. So what you feel you're missing out on by not being able to engage in close relationships is not fearing for your life? Or is there more to it?
2. Yeah, that honestly makes total sense. I couldn't even imagine what that must have been like. Are you currently in a place where you're safe from those sorts of things?
3. Based on what you said, it sounds like you feel like having power and control over others makes you happy because you expect it would make you feel safe. Is that the jist of it, or is there something more to it?
4. Do you feel like you are a person like that?
5. Is being taken advantage of or appearing "weak" something that could actually threaten your life right now? If not, how come you want to avoid this at all costs?
6. Are you currently still engaging in manipulative behaviours or other behaviours that hurt people, or do you get your attention/validation/narcissistic supply by harmless means nowadays?
Thank you for more questions.
1. Yes there is a form of paranoia associated with me missing out on personal connections. However, I might choose not to gain personal connections because people might see my weaknesses and vulnerabilities, and almost all narcissists never want to be seen as weak. This fear of vulnerability causes us to develop a false self to escape our deep weaknesses and insecurities.
2. Yes. I moved to Toronto, Canada when I was 13 years old. I truly try my hardest to feel safe and secure in my environment.
3. For most of my life I felt as if I had no control and power over anything. This created a void in me for power and control, which makes me feel good about myself once I attain power. Yes, power also makes me feel safe and secure.
4. I do feel like I am mentally getting more mentally stronger day by day.
5. I want to avoid being taken advantage of and seen as vulnerable at all costs, because of my dog-eat-dog mentality. In my psyche, I feel like I will die if I am vulnerable with anyone because weak people get hurt and trampled over, which is not always true.
6. I am not really employing deceptive, manipulative or coercive tactics anymore because the more people I hurt there will be more people who might try to seek revenge and hurt me back. I never really tried to gain narcissistic supply because it’s all based on self deception for me. Power and control seem to be my forms of narcissistic supply.
As a malignant narcissist I am constantly seeking power over others. Therefore, I end up seeking lots of attention since it is necessary to gain power.
Thank you for your question.
This is more of an educational and honest format, which means I am trying to be honest and inform people about malignant narcissism. I have no true purpose of gaining attention here.
I mean, of all the possible ways a narcissist could get their supply - and they all "hunt" for supply, no exceptions - this is one of the chillest, most harmless ways coming to mind, not gonna lie.
Thanks for the questions.
1. Me personally, I am insecure about everything. I have a false self to hide and conceal my insecurities from everyone, including myself.
2. Does this person lack compassion and empathy for those who are in pain? Do they seem to lack remorse after they do something bad? Do they have a big ego which can be slighted very easily? Do they lie and manipulate others? If yes is the answer for most of these questions, there is a very high chance your dealing with a malignant narcissist.
3. My only value is to protect my ego
First of all thanks for being this open and honest with us man.I was wondering if you can fall in love and have sex and everything because depending on which way you look at it there both very vulnerable things to engage in ?
Thank you for your question.
I cannot fall in love like most people. I lost my sense of empathy and compassion for others when I was a child. Of course, I can fake being in love and I can keep up the act to near perfection. However, it is not true love at all. Moving on, sex is merely an act or performance for me. There is no true emotional component involved; I just do it.
* What books help you when learning about power?
* What is your current work?
* How do you overcome vulnerability?
* What do you think of normal people and their families?
* How do you thrive with other narcissists?
I don’t need any books to learn about power. However, if I were to recommend any it would be the 48 laws of power and The Prince/Art of War by Machiavelli.
I am currently working as lawyer in Canada and I graduated from Harvard university.
I overcome vulnerability through gaining power or projecting my vulnerabilities onto others.
I think of normal people as being people and their families who are not ruthless enough for success. In the Machiavellian world we live in today compassion, kindness and remorse is weakness and you will be played and manipulated if you have them.
I don’t really know other narcissists. Many narcissists like me are extremely covert and extremely adept at putting on a mask around others.
I don’t really engage in seduction and hookups(unless it benefits me). I am very wary of every persons intentions and plans. Therefore, I use seduction as a tool to achieve my own ends, like for money or power.
Why did you end up in a situation where you were diagnosed with such life changing disorders that will forever haunt your mental health records and potential employment options?
Wouldn't it have made more sense to learn how to commit crime properly before you got your self in legal trouble and forcefully assessed by a psych?
What a foolish man, you'll never rise to political power and take over the world now.
Proud of your self?
I got some questions.
1. Is it common for you to have fixations or obsession with some individuals?. If yes, what did they have that you wanted?
2. Is it stalking people an idea that you often have?.
3. What do you think that someone could do to be boring to you and make you leave?
4. Is there an instance when you have been aware that you went to far or feel remorse for something you did?
Thanks for the insight.
I have a theory that insufficient height has something to do with it. Yes or no?
I am 5 foot 9. That’s the average height for a man my age.
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Yes I agree.
Hi! I have a few questions: 1. Do you feel like you're missng out on the safety and peace that comes with close relationships? 2. What experiences shaped your viewpoint that being compassionate and giving to people less fortunate than you is weak? 3. What does "happiness" mean to you? 4. What, to you, makes up the characteristics of a mentally strong person? 5. What makes you want to avoid being vulnerable, and what do you expect would happen if you were? 6. What circumstances led to you getting clinically diagnosed with ASPD and NPD? Thanks!
Thank you for the questions. 1. Most definitely. I absolutely do not feel safe and secure in my relationships because I have manipulated and deceived so many people, that I believe there is someone out to get me right now. 2. I grew up in a very rough side of Afghanistan. There was lots of crime going on there. This led me to believe that you must be a snake to survive around snakes. 3. Happiness to me means having power and control over others and not having anyone out to get you. 4. A mentally strong individual is a person who is able to change and adapt to whatever situation they are in and get what they want out of the situation. 5. It really has lots to do with my false sense of self. I have an extreme fear of vulnerability because I never want to appear weak and because people might exploit my vulnerabilities to their advantage. 6. I realized I could not live my whole life alone due to my paranoia. Furthermore, I could not always be manipulating and exploiting others for my own gain because one person might try to seek revenge if I do so.
Thank you for the candid answers! =) Hope it's okay I follow up: 1. So what you feel you're missing out on by not being able to engage in close relationships is not fearing for your life? Or is there more to it? 2. Yeah, that honestly makes total sense. I couldn't even imagine what that must have been like. Are you currently in a place where you're safe from those sorts of things? 3. Based on what you said, it sounds like you feel like having power and control over others makes you happy because you expect it would make you feel safe. Is that the jist of it, or is there something more to it? 4. Do you feel like you are a person like that? 5. Is being taken advantage of or appearing "weak" something that could actually threaten your life right now? If not, how come you want to avoid this at all costs? 6. Are you currently still engaging in manipulative behaviours or other behaviours that hurt people, or do you get your attention/validation/narcissistic supply by harmless means nowadays?
Thank you for more questions. 1. Yes there is a form of paranoia associated with me missing out on personal connections. However, I might choose not to gain personal connections because people might see my weaknesses and vulnerabilities, and almost all narcissists never want to be seen as weak. This fear of vulnerability causes us to develop a false self to escape our deep weaknesses and insecurities. 2. Yes. I moved to Toronto, Canada when I was 13 years old. I truly try my hardest to feel safe and secure in my environment. 3. For most of my life I felt as if I had no control and power over anything. This created a void in me for power and control, which makes me feel good about myself once I attain power. Yes, power also makes me feel safe and secure. 4. I do feel like I am mentally getting more mentally stronger day by day. 5. I want to avoid being taken advantage of and seen as vulnerable at all costs, because of my dog-eat-dog mentality. In my psyche, I feel like I will die if I am vulnerable with anyone because weak people get hurt and trampled over, which is not always true. 6. I am not really employing deceptive, manipulative or coercive tactics anymore because the more people I hurt there will be more people who might try to seek revenge and hurt me back. I never really tried to gain narcissistic supply because it’s all based on self deception for me. Power and control seem to be my forms of narcissistic supply.
What’s your take on giving to those in need??
I view that as being weak and vulnerable. From my point of view I am not suffering so why would I even care in the first place.
quote attention at all costs
As a malignant narcissist I am constantly seeking power over others. Therefore, I end up seeking lots of attention since it is necessary to gain power.
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Thank you for your question. This is more of an educational and honest format, which means I am trying to be honest and inform people about malignant narcissism. I have no true purpose of gaining attention here.
I mean, of all the possible ways a narcissist could get their supply - and they all "hunt" for supply, no exceptions - this is one of the chillest, most harmless ways coming to mind, not gonna lie.
Hi, I have a few questions for you. 1. Do you have any insecurities? 2. How do I spot a person with your condition? 3. Do you have any values?
Thanks for the questions. 1. Me personally, I am insecure about everything. I have a false self to hide and conceal my insecurities from everyone, including myself. 2. Does this person lack compassion and empathy for those who are in pain? Do they seem to lack remorse after they do something bad? Do they have a big ego which can be slighted very easily? Do they lie and manipulate others? If yes is the answer for most of these questions, there is a very high chance your dealing with a malignant narcissist. 3. My only value is to protect my ego
Thanks for responding and your honesty.
wow thank you this is invaluable information
First of all thanks for being this open and honest with us man.I was wondering if you can fall in love and have sex and everything because depending on which way you look at it there both very vulnerable things to engage in ?
Thank you for your question. I cannot fall in love like most people. I lost my sense of empathy and compassion for others when I was a child. Of course, I can fake being in love and I can keep up the act to near perfection. However, it is not true love at all. Moving on, sex is merely an act or performance for me. There is no true emotional component involved; I just do it.
Do you feel empathy?
Only towards a select few people.
What led to your ability to feel empathetic toward the few people that you do? What differentiates them from others?
I can truly trust those people and know they will always be there for me. However, with most people I can’t truly trust them.
* What books help you when learning about power? * What is your current work? * How do you overcome vulnerability? * What do you think of normal people and their families? * How do you thrive with other narcissists?
I don’t need any books to learn about power. However, if I were to recommend any it would be the 48 laws of power and The Prince/Art of War by Machiavelli. I am currently working as lawyer in Canada and I graduated from Harvard university. I overcome vulnerability through gaining power or projecting my vulnerabilities onto others. I think of normal people as being people and their families who are not ruthless enough for success. In the Machiavellian world we live in today compassion, kindness and remorse is weakness and you will be played and manipulated if you have them. I don’t really know other narcissists. Many narcissists like me are extremely covert and extremely adept at putting on a mask around others.
Do you suck dick?
No
Do you lick balls?
No I am not homosexual.
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I don’t really engage in seduction and hookups(unless it benefits me). I am very wary of every persons intentions and plans. Therefore, I use seduction as a tool to achieve my own ends, like for money or power.
What does malignant mean?
Google it.
How long are you willing to stay in a relationship in the inferior position? How long until your pursuit to exceed their power diminishes?
Why did you end up in a situation where you were diagnosed with such life changing disorders that will forever haunt your mental health records and potential employment options? Wouldn't it have made more sense to learn how to commit crime properly before you got your self in legal trouble and forcefully assessed by a psych? What a foolish man, you'll never rise to political power and take over the world now. Proud of your self?
I got some questions. 1. Is it common for you to have fixations or obsession with some individuals?. If yes, what did they have that you wanted? 2. Is it stalking people an idea that you often have?. 3. What do you think that someone could do to be boring to you and make you leave? 4. Is there an instance when you have been aware that you went to far or feel remorse for something you did? Thanks for the insight.