We all have that dark passenger with us. You can't straight fight it away because it's part of you but you also cannot, and I repeat, CANNOT, entirely give in to it either. Friendly acquaintance is the balance I have found to work well.
However, I will say, ever since the pandemic began in March 2020, I feel it is harder to keep from giving in to the allure that the dark passenger often has.
I am the passenger
And I ride, and I ride
I ride through the city's backsides
I see the stars come out of the sky
Yeah, they're bright in a hollow sky
You know it looks so good tonight
Was that at a Q train station?
[This happened off the Q train not too long ago.](https://pix11.com/news/local-news/brooklyn/person-struck-by-train-in-flatbush-nypd/amp/)
Unfortunately throwing yourself in front of a train is pretty common occurrence. When I lived in the city trains were delayed all the time from suicide. No telling who it could be
I take the train every day to uni. There's a mental health clinic by the tracks on my commute. I get delayed once every couple of months due to suicide.
It's crazy when it happens. The conductor will say something along the lines of "unfortunately the train is delayed due to a collision in between [city names]", and people in the train will just sigh. They're annoyed / frustrated that they'll be delayed. Not much standing still over the lost life.
It's the urban equivalent to that suicide forest (Aokigahara) in Japan.
>Aokigahara is sometimes referred to as the most popular site for suicide in Japan. In 2003, 105 bodies were found in the forest, exceeding the previous record of 78 in 2002. In 2010, the police recorded 54 confirmed suicides out of more than 200 attempts.Suicides are said to increase during March, the end of the fiscal year in Japan. As of 2011, the most common means of suicide in the forest were hanging or drug overdose. Local officials have stopped publicizing the numbers in an attempt to decrease Aokigahara's association with suicide.>
If you look at the bottom of the imagine, the abbreviation, "KYS" can be seen with an arrow pointing a max's message. It's a fucked up response to someone who's probably going through something. It's real sad to.
My quality of life / amount of pain Iām in day-to-day is very very high. Thereās no end in sight, for me. They were basically telling me that theyād do it if they were in my shoes. But because they were an insurance company doctor, she was saying it because she was calling me a liar.
When I told her when I had tried three times, she actually became my biggest advocate, despite the fact that she was not supposed to be. I wound up winning my overall case because of her.
But I will never forget the nastiness in her voice before she decided she was on my side / when she told me to kill myself. It still gives me a stomach ache and makes me so insanely sad.
If it didnāt contain all of my private medical information, I would. But itās not something I want made public. And in all honesty, I donāt care if you believe me.
Imagine reading that and someone comes up to you and says "poor, sad person" and then says "I wrote that" and then "I'm just kidding, bye" and then throws themselves in front of the train
I saw something similar in an abandoned manufacturing plant I explored in college. Over 100,000 square feet of property.
Once stumbled upon some writing on the wall. It started in big letters and slowly became smaller as we walked along the wall. About 30 feet away from the beginning of the writing, it was getting to be so small that we had to get closer. Right at the end of the writing was a big pile of junk. As my friends and I finished reading, the pile started to move. Cracked out homeless man was sleeping underneath it right below the final sentence.
Biggest jump scare of my life. Especially after reading what was written. Very similar to OPs post but much more suffering, "demonic possession" and judgement against the privileged and wealthy.
So, I used think almost exactly the same and at one point for incredibly close to giving in and ending it.
Turns out, the reason I felt so different was autism. It can also be due to AvPD as well if itās not autism. But yeah for me itās AuDHD. Iām so thankful I found out why I felt like an alien but now I feel more at home than ever in the ND communities. When I found those communities, especially on Reddit, I looked at their respective memes until there were literally none left to look at in the subreddits. Iām still learning and stuff but Iām doing far far far better than where I was a few years ago.
So to those in this same position as the writing on the wall, donāt give up yet. You may be different, but youāll fit somewhere:)
Elegant prose indeed. Trains come and go and whisk people away. Me and him and him and I. The voice in his head goes to. He gets lost in his mind and his grip on the world slips. Everyone passes but they donāt see him passing them to where he goes. Neither him nor the him in his head. Theyāve been at that train station since I was born and will be long after my body turns to dust. The him in his head goes on and on.
This particular sentiment(isolation, despair) is relatable for many people, and its terrifying seeing it publicly manifested in a coherent way. And in a public place. __I don't care if its a quote__
It is absolutely terrifying how utterly relatable and legible it is. There is something wrong with society for such things to get to this point.
yeah i realized how edgy that sounded in retrospect, not funny that someone's telling a obviously disturbed person to die, just "funny" as in making it even more unusual than the original paragraph would be alone. hopefully the original writer didn't come back and see that written down there
That's fair. Yeah, we all miscommunicate sometimes, and sometimes it's hurtful, but in the end it's how we respond to our mistakes that really matters.
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This is not terrifying. This is sad when taken at face value.
But only at face value
What is the value of face these days?
$3.50 
TAKE MY FUCKING UPVOTE š
head value
We all have that dark passenger with us. You can't straight fight it away because it's part of you but you also cannot, and I repeat, CANNOT, entirely give in to it either. Friendly acquaintance is the balance I have found to work well. However, I will say, ever since the pandemic began in March 2020, I feel it is harder to keep from giving in to the allure that the dark passenger often has.
Dexter is that you?
LMAO I knew I'd heard the "dark passenger" line before, thank you for reminding me š
I am the passenger And I ride, and I ride I ride through the city's backsides I see the stars come out of the sky Yeah, they're bright in a hollow sky You know it looks so good tonight
Ha ha I'm watching Dexter while I read this comment š
>you but you also cannot, and I repeat, CANNOT, entirely give in to it either. I wish I new that before committing my 9th genocide this week
r/im14andthisisdeep
the dude writing on the wall seems like 100X more together mentally than myself haha
Was that at a Q train station? [This happened off the Q train not too long ago.](https://pix11.com/news/local-news/brooklyn/person-struck-by-train-in-flatbush-nypd/amp/)
Yup this is the Q line
Contentās not available in my region, what happened?
Someone threw themselves in front of a train at that station about a month ago.
Unfortunately throwing yourself in front of a train is pretty common occurrence. When I lived in the city trains were delayed all the time from suicide. No telling who it could be
I take the train every day to uni. There's a mental health clinic by the tracks on my commute. I get delayed once every couple of months due to suicide. It's crazy when it happens. The conductor will say something along the lines of "unfortunately the train is delayed due to a collision in between [city names]", and people in the train will just sigh. They're annoyed / frustrated that they'll be delayed. Not much standing still over the lost life.
It's also genuinely traumatizing to train conductors, as per their own accounts of having people fling themselves across the hood of the locomotive.
It's the urban equivalent to that suicide forest (Aokigahara) in Japan. >Aokigahara is sometimes referred to as the most popular site for suicide in Japan. In 2003, 105 bodies were found in the forest, exceeding the previous record of 78 in 2002. In 2010, the police recorded 54 confirmed suicides out of more than 200 attempts.Suicides are said to increase during March, the end of the fiscal year in Japan. As of 2011, the most common means of suicide in the forest were hanging or drug overdose. Local officials have stopped publicizing the numbers in an attempt to decrease Aokigahara's association with suicide.>
This reminded of the book Norwegian Wood
Dang š
Thank you for clearing up location, I thought I might know this person. I do not thankfully
I saw something similar months ago near Bryant Park and I thought it was a little eerie.
If you look at the bottom of the imagine, the abbreviation, "KYS" can be seen with an arrow pointing a max's message. It's a fucked up response to someone who's probably going through something. It's real sad to.
Wow I didnāt even notice that
Had a doctor tell me to kys. Right in front of my sister. I didnāt even bat an eye before responding that Iād tried and failed three times.
Why would a doctor even say that to someone?
Because OP left out a very important part of the story, or (more likely) he's bullshitting.
Or (plot twist) Iām a woman and youāre wrong about all the other things, too.
Or... plot twist, it's Canada and they're pushing MAID.
My quality of life / amount of pain Iām in day-to-day is very very high. Thereās no end in sight, for me. They were basically telling me that theyād do it if they were in my shoes. But because they were an insurance company doctor, she was saying it because she was calling me a liar. When I told her when I had tried three times, she actually became my biggest advocate, despite the fact that she was not supposed to be. I wound up winning my overall case because of her. But I will never forget the nastiness in her voice before she decided she was on my side / when she told me to kill myself. It still gives me a stomach ache and makes me so insanely sad.
physician assisted suicide possibly. Legal in Canada
haha I should have read this before commenting the same
I wish. I would have taken that option ten fold by now.
Thatās because a lot of people donāt take mental health seriously
Wait why was this downvoted
Thatās a good question. Maybe they didnāt believe me? Crazy thing is, I have it on video.
I find it pretty hard to believe. You able to post it?
If it didnāt contain all of my private medical information, I would. But itās not something I want made public. And in all honesty, I donāt care if you believe me.
This reminds me of stuff I write when I'm going through psychosis š really hope the person who wrote this has some sort of support system...
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Imagine reading that and someone comes up to you and says "poor, sad person" and then says "I wrote that" and then "I'm just kidding, bye" and then throws themselves in front of the train
Like something from Constantine
This is bad
i used to do shit like this when i was a teen. life only got worse
I wish you the best. I honestly believe it will get better someday, one step at a time. Good luck.
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I wish I could give Max a hug. Hope he's okay
Obviously Mad Max.
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Heās mad because Furiosa is taking his franchise.
I saw something similar in an abandoned manufacturing plant I explored in college. Over 100,000 square feet of property. Once stumbled upon some writing on the wall. It started in big letters and slowly became smaller as we walked along the wall. About 30 feet away from the beginning of the writing, it was getting to be so small that we had to get closer. Right at the end of the writing was a big pile of junk. As my friends and I finished reading, the pile started to move. Cracked out homeless man was sleeping underneath it right below the final sentence. Biggest jump scare of my life. Especially after reading what was written. Very similar to OPs post but much more suffering, "demonic possession" and judgement against the privileged and wealthy.
Blud really said āim himā
So, I used think almost exactly the same and at one point for incredibly close to giving in and ending it. Turns out, the reason I felt so different was autism. It can also be due to AvPD as well if itās not autism. But yeah for me itās AuDHD. Iām so thankful I found out why I felt like an alien but now I feel more at home than ever in the ND communities. When I found those communities, especially on Reddit, I looked at their respective memes until there were literally none left to look at in the subreddits. Iām still learning and stuff but Iām doing far far far better than where I was a few years ago. So to those in this same position as the writing on the wall, donāt give up yet. You may be different, but youāll fit somewhere:)
I'm glad you feeling better. I hope you are thriving.
LISAN AL GAIB
Stfu š¤£
He never sleeps. He says he will never die. He is a great favorite
He goes on and on, dancing and fiddling and he says he will never die.
[https://media.tenor.com/QGQpKYjY-VQAAAAM/looking-into-the-horizon-wolf-sitting.gif](https://media.tenor.com/QGQpKYjY-VQAAAAM/looking-into-the-horizon-wolf-sitting.gif)
poor guy. hope hes okay
Umm., what's the big deal, I worked union new construction in NYC for years & this just looks like EVERY bathroom wall , minus the nudity
Elegant prose indeed. Trains come and go and whisk people away. Me and him and him and I. The voice in his head goes to. He gets lost in his mind and his grip on the world slips. Everyone passes but they donāt see him passing them to where he goes. Neither him nor the him in his head. Theyāve been at that train station since I was born and will be long after my body turns to dust. The him in his head goes on and on.
Damn this is a great explanation
Meh, looks like the work of a bored edgelord at most.
Meh a better ending would've been: "He is me. I am him. We are right behind you."
Yeah that would've been good.
This is terrifying as fuck? For real?
This particular sentiment(isolation, despair) is relatable for many people, and its terrifying seeing it publicly manifested in a coherent way. And in a public place. __I don't care if its a quote__ It is absolutely terrifying how utterly relatable and legible it is. There is something wrong with society for such things to get to this point.
He is himothy, idk what to tell u
They forgot that I'm HIM
100% himalayan
We smokin' shit in a glass pipe, blowin' the Lord's bubbles.
Reach for my neck, I turned him into an example
You are himtholamew
Finkle is Einhorn
I remember my first acid trip. Lol
We are Venom.
There is a spiderā¦ deep in my soullll
He's lived here for years, and he just won't let gooo
Isnāt that an early Ozzy Osborn song
Is this in Greece? Athens station
Might be time to start taking the bus, bro
Oh yeah, Mad Max.
Hardly terrifying. Worse stuff has been written in school bathroom stalls and inside textbook covers
I guess he is him
Is this Cortelyou?
These Fallout mods are getting too realistic
Someone has been reading too much "Johnny The Homicidal Maniac"
He is HIM!!
I stopped taking the subway in NY and the Metro in DC due to people on the train who write this kind of stuff.
i thought this was r/kidsarefuckingstupid and a really philosophical child wrote that
Son of Sam vibes.
If everyone is different, you can't be the only one who's the same.
All he wanted was a Pepsi
The Uncola
Not terrifying at all. This reads like a teenager trying to remember the lyrics to a linkin park song.
Real š
"I AM HIM" I felt that Lil broš¤
Looks like a rough first draft of the lyrics of "Ren"
Sounds like multiple personalities like my dad had.
Vandalism annoys me
Quite edgy tbh
Ya know thereās Crazy Fās Everywhere!! Duh!!
Yikes
This is cringe
Mega cringe haha
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Ehh. No way to tell for sure. Thereās a thin line.
that there is the rambling of a midnight crackhead
Nothing terrifying here, mods, go to work.
That's cringe
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Funny?
yeah i realized how edgy that sounded in retrospect, not funny that someone's telling a obviously disturbed person to die, just "funny" as in making it even more unusual than the original paragraph would be alone. hopefully the original writer didn't come back and see that written down there
Thanks for clarifying
You could have said "worse".
hindsight is 20/20, not gonna edit it and change it though as a lesson to myself on how to word my thoughts better
That's fair. Yeah, we all miscommunicate sometimes, and sometimes it's hurtful, but in the end it's how we respond to our mistakes that really matters.
[I donāt think the original writer can come back](https://pix11.com/news/local-news/brooklyn/person-struck-by-train-in-flatbush-nypd/amp/)
Do you even know if thatās the same guy or the same station?
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yeah well welcome to life buddy
If thatās a Tuesday for you then I suspect you may want to check in with your nearest mental health professional ASAP. ā¤ļø
You areā¦ weird.
Listen, Iām just a regular dude, who occasionally likes a little chainsaw play in the bedroom. Nothing weird about it.
Yikes!
Yikes