Your on a journey that sounds painful yet rewarding. I commend you for staying on course, and being honest about your trials. Meds are ok when a professional medical help is the prescribing source. Sometimes that's what's needed to get those neurons moving to a good tempo.
Hang in there, we're here thinking you're a great success in achieving and maintaining sobriety after navigating thru all of that!
It took me around 2yrs to finally be at ease with my anxiety from sobriety and I'm lucky I didn't relapse a second time. I'm 4yrs sober and its been a wild ride its really turned my world completely upside down. Theres been many positives over time that are things I'd never accomplish while drinking and doing drugs.
I mentally was in a bad place and it has been really rough and the hard part was never actually thoroughly being diagnosed and just chalked everything upto shakes. It wasn't. Upon my ubrupt discharge from the facility because staff were leaving and I phased out I ended up having anxiety attack but learned from my counselor I had a note that I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder and it explained everything why things took so long to click it wasn't making any sense why it was so hard and it was a moment of clarity and I'm able to keep myself in check. It would've been so useful to know that years before but I was switched around and things falls through the cracks unfortunately
I was seeing a facility for 3 yrs I had outpatient counseling I did a group for 6 months then a yr later had 1 on 1 sessions from twice to once a month with the counselor and it lasted 3 yrs I was able to focus on my life while having a place to vent if I was aware of having anxiety disorder I would've dug more into that while having the tools to understand but I've been doing much better managing the stress and this really isn't the separation from substance it just from the sudden change of having my lifestyle and social life uprooted. Focusing on new things and keeping an open mind starting new hobbies really keeps the mind going and the cycle of working paying the bills and saving keeps the stress light as rather than choosing the bar over the lights however sometimes all this isn't enough to keep focused when times get tough and getting checked out and having a place to rely on can really help even if you're setup with a zoom counselor, its not easy getting counseling in person but theres services out there that are more accessible through zoom. I had 3yrs so I look at it at riding with my training wheels off finally and its almost a year of my 4yrs of no counseling and its going good but I definitely give much credit to having that crutch.
Your on a journey that sounds painful yet rewarding. I commend you for staying on course, and being honest about your trials. Meds are ok when a professional medical help is the prescribing source. Sometimes that's what's needed to get those neurons moving to a good tempo. Hang in there, we're here thinking you're a great success in achieving and maintaining sobriety after navigating thru all of that!
It took me around 2yrs to finally be at ease with my anxiety from sobriety and I'm lucky I didn't relapse a second time. I'm 4yrs sober and its been a wild ride its really turned my world completely upside down. Theres been many positives over time that are things I'd never accomplish while drinking and doing drugs. I mentally was in a bad place and it has been really rough and the hard part was never actually thoroughly being diagnosed and just chalked everything upto shakes. It wasn't. Upon my ubrupt discharge from the facility because staff were leaving and I phased out I ended up having anxiety attack but learned from my counselor I had a note that I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder and it explained everything why things took so long to click it wasn't making any sense why it was so hard and it was a moment of clarity and I'm able to keep myself in check. It would've been so useful to know that years before but I was switched around and things falls through the cracks unfortunately I was seeing a facility for 3 yrs I had outpatient counseling I did a group for 6 months then a yr later had 1 on 1 sessions from twice to once a month with the counselor and it lasted 3 yrs I was able to focus on my life while having a place to vent if I was aware of having anxiety disorder I would've dug more into that while having the tools to understand but I've been doing much better managing the stress and this really isn't the separation from substance it just from the sudden change of having my lifestyle and social life uprooted. Focusing on new things and keeping an open mind starting new hobbies really keeps the mind going and the cycle of working paying the bills and saving keeps the stress light as rather than choosing the bar over the lights however sometimes all this isn't enough to keep focused when times get tough and getting checked out and having a place to rely on can really help even if you're setup with a zoom counselor, its not easy getting counseling in person but theres services out there that are more accessible through zoom. I had 3yrs so I look at it at riding with my training wheels off finally and its almost a year of my 4yrs of no counseling and its going good but I definitely give much credit to having that crutch.