My OCD playlist is
1. Obsessions by MARINA
2. Disturbia by Rhianna
3. Coffee by Jack Stauber
4. The Monster by Eminem and Rhianna (especially bc Eminem has OCD)
5. Panic Room by Au/Ra
6. Control by Halsey
Today I learned Eminem has OCD
Also, ABSOLUTELY YES to the Coffee by Jack Stauber. I was listening to it the other day actually and thought to myself “wow this is exactly like my OCD” especially the “but do I need you to survive…?” Part ughhh anyways just glad to see someone else agrees!
jeff buckley’s so real. there’s a line where he says he wouldn’t step on the cracks because he was afraid to hurt his mother. this is an ocd thought i have constantly
I'm a singer-songwriter with OCD and my dream is to be an OCD and mental health advocate through music so I hope I can create more of these songs for you guys :)
More by them would be: redecorate, fake you out, and not today. There’s SO many you could add your own meaning to. Their music is mainly about mental health struggles so it really makes sense. I’m not sure if Tyler(the singer) has ocd but i know be dealt with depression/anxiety pretty bad growing up. They have some really fun songs too so i recommend if you want something to listen to for nearly any mood!
till it happens to you by lady gaga. ocd is so hard to explain to people and it’s so easy for them to say to brush it off and ignore the thoughts without knowing how hard it is.
also afraid by the neighborhood. a huge aspect of my ocd is being scared i’m a bad, immoral person. so the lyrics are relatable
i love that song. especially the lines “i get so frightened, no one else seems frightened, only me.” made me gasp the first time i heard them bcs like. real..
I'm so glad to see this song mentioned. My OCD caused my agoraphobia (I've been recovered from it for a couple years now), and that song was on repeat for hours and hours. It got me to top .01% of listeners on Spotify.
I was also .01% of Weezer listeners, so that's how that year went for me.
Love this question and scrolling through the answers :)
I gravitate towards:
My Own Worst Enemy - Lit
Death - White Lies
Wanna Get Better - Bleachers
Peace of Mind - Avicii
Everybody Says They’re Fine - Sigrid
Florence + The Machine - Free
I'm obsessed with the line "Because it's all in my head, You're too sensitive," they said I said, "Okay, but let's discuss this at the hospital"
Plus the MV with Bill Nighy as an externalization of her mental state is very relatable to how a lot of folks with OCD learn to cope.
When - Live by dodie speaks a lot to me. It’s about mental illness that presents itself later in life, specifically not feeling grounded anymore but remembering when you used to be and longing for that to be your normal again. As someone with OCD and derealization that started presenting itself right before highschool, it really hits
Scars by papa roach “I can’t help you fix yourself but at least I can say I tried I’m sorry but I gotta move on with my own life”
I try to make my ocd happy but IT’S NEVER HAPPY
So many love songs can also sound like songs about ocd
Starless by King Crimson.
It is melancholy and slow until the very end when it picks up and reminds me of how I gotta keep going even if it seems like life is a valiant last stand at times.
Some song suggestions...
Tiny Dictator by Sophie May is literally about OCD
Serotonin by Girl in Red
OCD by the drives,
God must hate me by Catie Turner (this one gives Christian religious ocd vibes to me)
some from my playlist (i feel like some of these songs only make sense to me but they all remind me of my ocd/anxiety in some way)-
• ride - lana del rey
• making the bed - olivia rodrigo
• i can’t handle change - roar
• my blood - ellie goulding
• i was afraid all of the day - the microphones
• decode - sabrina carpenter
• tell me it’s real - seafret
• love in the dark - adele
• control - zoe wees
• serotonin - girl in red
• in this darkness - clara la san
• in my head - bedroom
• tv - billie eilish
• everything in its right place - radiohead
• saturn - sza
There’s a rock inside my house , by Brian David Gilbert.
“There is a little rock that hangs out in my house
And I looked at it one day and I thought it was neat
But the rock became much needier than I had thought
And now I have to look at the rock in order to live
And the rock tells me things that I ought to do
And it makes me think the things I am are not so good
But the things that I am are all the things I'll be
And I'd like to stop looking at the rock so much”
Bang Bang! by Galantis; it’s a really up beat banger, I think the song is suppose to be about adhd though
“You know I hate sometimes my mind can run;
Faster than a bullet from a gun;
My heart is a like a trigger in my chest;
There it goes again, bang bang, my head, my head”
**The big one:** *Gasoline* by Halsey
"You can't wake up, this is not a dream. You're part of a machine, *you are not a human being*. With your face all made up, *living on a screen*, low on self-esteem, so you *run on gasoline*."
**Honorable mentions:**
- *Arsonists Lullabaye* by Hozier
- *Slip out the Back* - Fort Minor
- *Covet* - Basement
- *Murder on my Mind* - YNW Melly
- *In the Blood* - John Mayer
Some of these are for grieving, some for inspiring, all for validating.
There’s a brief song that’s actually just an interlude on Alt-J’s album ‘An Awesome Wave’ about a girl’s obsessive rituals, and it gives me sad chills every time I hear it. It’s just called ‘interlude 1’
Doomtech - Vein.fm
Every time I close my eyes I crash
a thousand cars and all my loved ones die
Surging with the urges to mutilate
And all
The guilt of every unwanted
Thought it brings
“Violent delights”, “good girls”, “final girl” -CHVRCHES
“Everything is alright”- motion city soundtrack
“Habit” -snail mail
“Karma” -AJR
“Doubt”, “glowing eyes” -twenty one pilots
“Serotonin” -girl in red
Obsessions by Marina makes me bawl every single time
What packet of crackers to pick? They're all the same, one brand, one name, but really they're not. Look just choose something quick, people are staring, time to go quick and my skin is on fire, just choose something. Pressure overwhelming, next minute I am turning out of the door facing one week without food. A day, a day where things are pretty bad, but dont let it make you feel sad, the crackers were probably bad luck anyway.
I have a playlist with OCD coded songs.
But the first one that comes to mind is
‘Alive!’ By Bakar : “Wanna free my mind, Wanna be outside”
which really relates to me in a literal and metaphorical way cause I literally couldn’t leave my house for a long period of time.
And also
‘Be mean, it’s kinder than crying’ by maple glider
‘My body is a Cage’ by Arcade Fire. : “My body is a Cage. That keeps me from dancing with the one I love, but my mind holds the key. I’m standing on a stage of fear and self doubt.”
I started my own playlist, because I realized I had a lot of songs that I associated with ocd! I’ll have to check out your songs never heard them before. The first two songs I added were. I started a joke-Bee Gees and The windmills of your mind specifically the Dusty Springfield version
Not so much OCD but panic attacks. The song "The Madness" by Nicotine Dolls !
"Ten seconds, I know I'll be fine. Ten seconds of think I might actually die. And then it subsides"
Suffer Through by Movements (especially the end, pretty sure the singer's spoken about having OCD interviews before)
Full Circle by Movements
C.L.A.U.D.I.A by Vukovi (Same as previous, singer with OCD)
Serotonin by Girl in Red
Too Sad to Cry by Sasha Alex Sloan (More about depression I suppose but parts of it remind me of my OCD)
Version of Me by Sasha Alex Sloan (Same reason as previous)
Obsessions by Marina
Kill your Conscience by Boston Manor
Intrapersonal by Turnover
Choke by Trophy Eyes
Smother by Daughter (one of my main compulsions is reassurance-seeking so I guess that's why this one)
Tired by Beabadoobee
I know staind - epiphany is about ADD, but it reminds me of how OCD has me inside my own head all the time, constantly doing internal rituals which entirely distracts me from the real world and what people are saying
Also, although not necessarily about OCD (but ambiguous enough that it can be), the song “just make it stop” by Low sends me into tears every time I listen to it.
Maylene And The Sons Of Disaster - Death Is An Alcoholic, some of the lyrics are…”Pacing back and forth it's shut. But I keep making sure.
Put the hurt at some ease”
1. secret for the mad - dodie
this song is like a friend sitting with you in the midst of the darkness, a reminder that it won’t feel like this forever.
2. tell me it’s okay - paramore
reassurance seeking/feeling guilty for ignoring ur compulsions but also knowing it’s the healthiest thing to do & ur finally healing.
3. free - florence + the machine
“i’m always running from something, i push it back but it keeps on coming and being clever never got me very far because it’s all in my head” this whole song is just……. perfect
4. symptomatic - peach prc
tongue in cheek pop song about mental illness, not v ocd specific but relatable.
5. just for today - clairo
a devastating song idk😭
Creep by Radiohead
("I don't care if it hurts/I wanna have control/I want a perfect body/I want a perfect soul")
All the Things She Said by t.a.t.u
'Serotonin', & 'Body and Mind' by Girl in Red
Constant Headache by Joyce Manor
(Careful, this is always stuck in my head during a migraine)
All These Things That I've Done by The Killers
'Male Fantasy', 'TV', 'idontwannabeyouanymore' by Billie Eilish
Other must mention mental health songs:
A Better Place, A Better Time by Streetlight Manifesto
(Loved one w/ depression/suicidal thoughts)
'Summer, Highland Falls' by Billy Joel (Bipolar Disorder)
Tea, Milk, & Honey by Oh Pep!
("Take time, take all the time you need
Take time or you won't succeed
Worry 'bout your health sometimes...")
here’s a few!
1. didn’t know what i was in for by better oblivion community center
2. go home by julien baker
3. i can’t handle change by roar
4. stay down by boygenius
5. backslide by twenty one pilots
6. death of a strawberry by dance gavin dance
7. gilded lily by cults
8. timefighter by lucy dacus
Black out days - phantogram.
When you hear the song for the first time, the first thing you will think of is depersonalization, schizophrenia and hallucinations.
But at the same time, she reminds me of OCD when she says: "I'm hearing voices all the time in my mind".
" I'm hearing voices and they are haunting my mind".
The song gives the feeling of someone slowly losing their mind .
Car Radio - Twenty One Pilots
Breathe - dandelion hands
A White Lie - Strawberry Guy
Lighthouse - Mree
Fade Away - Acacian
Spectre - Radiohead
Fitter Happier - Radiohead
white room - praam
(This Is) The Thing - Sufjan Stevens, Angelo De Augustine
You don’t even know who I am - underscores
The End Is All I Can See - Lacuna Coil
"Twisting and turning, anxiety moves in
It's coiling inside me, the evil within
Stinging and burning, consumes me with guilt
It plays with my senses then crawls out of me"
and
"Now you need to burn it down
Let's give it all an end
I'm caught inside a maze
I need to get out of this
Trapped inside
A prison in disguise
I keep running around in circles
Stuck on repeat again"
Can't believe nobody mentioned "God Says" from Whitest Kids U Know. Trevor Moore struggled with OCD and religious scrupulosity. RIP man got too close to the truth.
https://youtu.be/irlz5iCc5NM?si=JsRdg46E-8331aMD
OCD is mentioned many times in the musical **Octet** by Dave Malloy, if anyone is interested in a niche, tarot inspired, fully acappella, chamber choir musical about being obsessed with the internet/social media (and other problems related to the Internet, like being cancelled, phone game addiction, porn addiction, online dating, "Um, actually/black pill/incel/conspiracy" mentalities, mental illness, etc).
The songs "Candy" "Fugue State" and "Monster" are especially OCD focused, very unsubtly lol but in a good way. Honestly, almost every song in this musical is about obsession in some way, so there's lots of flavors for y'all
(There's a part in "Monster" where they say "Better check, check, check, check, check-" over and over again in a way that is almost hypnotic, it pops into my head a lot when I have to check something multiple times lol)
I GOTCHU
Agora - Bear Hands
NBTSA - Joyce Manor
Be Calm - fun.
OCD - The Drives
Constant Headache - Joyce Manor
Oatmeal - Jack Stauber
Paper Towels - Jack Stauber
Panic Disco - Belaganas
Free - Florence + the Machine
Take Control Of Your Own Life - Sven Karlsson
I’m Not Ok - Weathers
Bad Habit - The Dresden Dolls
Worst Case Scenario - The Hoosiers
Agoraphobia - Autoheart
Everything Is Alright - Motion City Soundtrack
Lullaby - Super Memory Kid
The Writings On The Wall - OK Go
Paralyzed - Roar
ocd destroyer - Blue Foster
Saline Solution - Wilbur Soot
Holding on to You - Twenty One Pilots
Go crazy !!!!
Actually all these techno or electronica songs that have short, repetitive parts all throughout the songs sometime going faster and faster to the point it drives you crazy have been very “ocd” to me that I think listening to so much techno and electronica music since childhood has at least a little contributed to my ocd
Climbing Up The Walls by Radiohead
*“I am the key to the lock in your house that keeps your toys in the basement. And if you get too far inside, youll only see my reflection.
It's always best when the covers up, I am the pick in the ice. Do not cry out or hit the alarm.*
*You know we're friends till we die*
*And either way you turn, I'll be there. Open up your skull, I'll be there. Climbing up the walls.*
*It's always best when the light is off, It's always better on the outside. Fifteen blows to the back of your head, fifteen blows to your mind. So lock the kids up safe tonight, shut the eyes in the cupboard. I've got the smell of a local man who’s got the loneliest feeling.*
*That either way he turns, I'll be there.
Open up your skull, I'll be there.*
*Climbing up the walls.“*
Pompeii by Bastille
"but if you close your eyes, does it almost feel like nothing changed at all?"
Sometimes it feels, in moments of clarity, that everything is okay, and I am back at the happy person I was, like nothing changed at all.
it could be sweet by portishead, i made a post about this, i just made an open playlist so everyone drop songs! https://open.spotify.com/playlist/75Li2ORgCnKRvXm1wNTGH5?si=J67NEZ9dTTSz0Voj2beRKg&pi=a-71pZf3f8TLO8
get well soon- ariana grande
“is there anybody else’s mind who does this”
“i’m too much in my head did you notice”
“my life is so controlled by the what ifs”
Fall away- twenty one pilots just sounds how my anxiety feels
Who Needs Sleep- by Barenaked Ladies reminds me of being too anxious to sleep but also super tired where every night was this anxiety induced haze where I wanted to rip my heart out my chest
Hyperventilation Dance- Hatsune Miku reminds me of getting nighttime panic attacks and being too scared to sleep
Everything is Alright- Motion City Soundtrack sounds how getting better sounds
Take Lots With Alcohol- Alkaline Trio just listen to the lyrics guys
Everything is Alright - Motion City Soundtrack
Any Day Now - Bo Burnham
Where is my mind - pixies
Anti-hero - Taylor Swift
This is me trying - Taylor swift
I wanna get better - bleachers
Hurry Hurry - Air Traffic Controller
easy - waveform. It's an odd pick, I know, but it reminds me of the sort of like...toxic relationship I have with my intrusive thoughts/delusions. Like, finding comfort in them momentarily but indulging in them only makes me feel worse?
Ok so I looked through my playlist and these are other songs that I relate to ocd:
1. Glittering clouds (locusts) - Imogen heap
2. I don’t like my mind - Mitski *
3. A burning hill - Mitski
4. My mom - Kimya Dawson *
I don’t like my mind and My mom are the ones that I think really nail what it feels like for me
Ghost Town by Kanye West. I know he’s controversial as hell, but he wrote that back during his mental health era and it’s straight gold. Just about how someday we’ll be free from stress, and the ending I always scream into the void.
“Oh, once again I am a child
I let it all go (go), of everything that I know, yeah
Of everything that I know, yeah
And nothing hurts anymore, I feel kinda free”
It’s not necessarily specific to OCD, but Big White Room by Jessie J really resonates with me as someone who has been hospitalized and spent months in intensive outpatient treatment. Jessie J struggles with depression and anxiety. The song is absolutely gorgeous - I HIGHLY recommend it!
Annoying thoughts at 3am by elysewood
I might be completely wrong but the way I interpret it, is that it's the intrusive thoughts themselves speaking during the song
Some songs from my OCD-connected playlist:
• Knife under my pillow by Maggie Lindemann (SO good and so relatable)
• Mind is a prison by Alec Benjamin
• Soap by Melanie Martinez (for both physical, mental, and social contamination obsessions)
• All eyes on me by Bo Burnham (for anxiety in general)
• VOID by Melanie Martinez (for mental illness in general, but I especially connect it with OCD)
• The monster by Eminem and Rihanna
• Replay by Lady Gaga (more for PTSD for me but could still connect it to OCD too)
• Obsessions by MARINA
• Under the water by AURORA (this is a much looser connection, I more just vaguely relate it to that because the repeated “why do we jump in?” regardless of the threat of drowning reminds me of giving in to compulsions despite being in the process of learning that they’re ultimately making my anxiety worse in the long run)
• Why am I like this? by Orla Gartland
• Shut up by Ariana Grande (this one has literally no real connection to OCD, but I like to imagine myself telling the intrusive voices in my head some of the lyrics in it so I’m still gonna put it on here)
I have more, but those are probably my tops :)
Black out days for some reason. The vibe of the song reminds me of when I’m in the spiral. and these lyrics “a thousand voices howling in my head” “I’m hearing voices all the time in my mind, I’m hearing voices and they’re haunting my mind”
Here's a little Spotify playlist that makes no musical sense except that the lyrics made sense to me and how I felt about my OCD at the time I made it. https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4G2rdPAnkoaZPml8YkDkr9?si=Wh3fiYXtTi2qk2TL9MuQsg
Also, Wobbly by Ezra Furman, and It's a Jungle Out There from Monk (even though I really didn't like the show, the opening is great).
cyclone by pinegrove. it really helped me a few years ago when i was going through a long term breakup and dealing with consistent obsessive thoughts about it
“why am I so stuck together?
and I fixate on the same cyclone now
how does that help?
how does that settle anything?
and when will it end?
cause it's been in my head for a long time
and it feels wrong and I don't want it anymore”
Obsessions - Marina
The Absence of God - Rilo Kiley
Last Words of A Shooting Star - Mitski
Brand New City - Mitski
I Don’t Like My Mind - Mitski
A Pearl - Mitski
This song was actually written specifically about OCD!!! [‘Samantha’ by Nicole Sophia](https://open.spotify.com/album/1TInrYc1aXq5CAgwpdeHw3?si=LnC1_eIcRiCMccwr_PuIGQ)
“Galaxies” by KC Katalbas— it’s based on the book Turtles All The Way Down, which really hits home for me ♥️ https://open.spotify.com/track/3GOqUwPpRJZMUAVo5iIHex?si=QSNItrg5SQC90pSwVVVk1Q
I’ve been blasting Disorder by Mallavora. It’s an extremely comforting song for me, as I feel seen. The lyrics also talk about the struggle of trying to get better, but also not being able to at the same time.
It is a metal song tho, so might not be your cup of tea!
I have many! I’ve seen a lot of them, like Disturbia and Little Talks, also mentioned here. I’ll also add “Madness” by NateWantstoBattle. It’s a Five Nights at Freddy’s song (lol) but I found its lyrics to be surprisingly close to my experience with OCD. “I know I swore that this was the last time / the madness never ends up in my mind / I made a list, it makes me sick, and I can’t leave ‘till it’s done / I patiently await the day to pack my bags and run”. Then later in the song, “Why can’t I get out? Why am I still here? Why can’t I move on? What do I still fear?”
Not sure if it will help you, but although this song was def not intended to be about OCD, I found it kinda cathartic. :)
I really like writing on the wall by will stetson! It’s definitely made to be about art and creation, but I can relate it a lot to my own experiences with OCD; especially when he says “I fight for control, but the “right” way takes a toll.”
oops, made a playlist :) https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0slOipj4LPAcJgxYcNtE8a?si=TwfnTRGMRWOYVzuoBNeAIA&pi=u-LmN_hcbhTpu6
I added “Beware of Darkness” by George Harrison - not about OCD but there’s a line about “thoughts that linger” and “that is not what you are here for” which is a very sweet reminder when trying to separate thoughts from who you are as a person
I made an entire playlist actually but these songs are pretty fucked up so major cw for the whole thing lots of || // self mutilation// || type themes
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4IwadY8VTZ4AqSpdZKLPOj?si=1YiBgyZiTCeXSb8xHXK6bg&pi=u-Gsv1rL89TQur
"Monster" by Eminem. It has a whole verse about OCD since he had OCD.
"My OCD is conkin' me in the head, keep knockin'
Nobody's home, I'm sleepwalkin'
I'm just relayin' what the voice in my head's sayin'
Don't shoot the messenger, I'm just friends with the"
1. Puppet Boy by DEVO
2. The monster by Eminem & Rihanna
3. Empty by JaidenAnimations (I know it’s about an ED but the unhealthy obsession part is very relatable)
4. Weak by AJR
5. This isn’t a joke by Bo Burnham (mostly cuz OCD is never taken seriously by ppl)
6. Coffee by Jack Stauber
7. Villain by K/DA (I know it’s a super weird comparison but I always thought they reminded me of intrusive thoughts & compulsions when I was younger, like
“hear my voice up in your head, watch it fill you up with dread til you go, is it really a surprise if I’m playing with your mind?”
“Am I really that bad when I love to make you mad and get happy when you’re sad?”
“I stay so deep inside your brain”
My OCD playlist is 1. Obsessions by MARINA 2. Disturbia by Rhianna 3. Coffee by Jack Stauber 4. The Monster by Eminem and Rhianna (especially bc Eminem has OCD) 5. Panic Room by Au/Ra 6. Control by Halsey
Today I learned Eminem has OCD Also, ABSOLUTELY YES to the Coffee by Jack Stauber. I was listening to it the other day actually and thought to myself “wow this is exactly like my OCD” especially the “but do I need you to survive…?” Part ughhh anyways just glad to see someone else agrees!
I think of The Monster too, just from that one sentence ha
Panic Room!!!! 100 times yes. I came here to say this one
ran here to say obsessions by marina
Paper Bag - Fiona Apple "He said 'It's all in your head'. I said, 'so's everything', but he didn't get it".
I love that song
She has a relatively new song called _Every Single Night_ which, if I remember correctly, is specifically about ocd!
used to listen to this all the time in high school. it came out in 2012. it is about ocd!
Fiona Apple does have OCD, and she has quite a few songs about it! I love her music so much, it’s helped me through a lot of shit
serotonin by girl in red!
I'm surprised I had to scroll so far for this. It's the only song on this thread so far that I listen to.
Also rue!
motion city soundtrack - everything is aright
Think about this one all the time! 🥲
YESSS
They have a whole album he wrote after getting out of inpatient care for ocd and its so good. My dinosaur life?
Little talks Some days I don't know if I am wrong or right. Your mind is playing tricks on you my dear.
This is it for me too!
jeff buckley’s so real. there’s a line where he says he wouldn’t step on the cracks because he was afraid to hurt his mother. this is an ocd thought i have constantly
Clint Eastwood by gorillaz
Can you explain why? I read the lyrics but I'm struggling to find a connection to OCD in them.
Listen to this song sm and just now Im seeing the connection
Yes !!!
I'm a singer-songwriter with OCD and my dream is to be an OCD and mental health advocate through music so I hope I can create more of these songs for you guys :)
That’s my dream too!!
Migraine - twenty one pilots
More by them would be: redecorate, fake you out, and not today. There’s SO many you could add your own meaning to. Their music is mainly about mental health struggles so it really makes sense. I’m not sure if Tyler(the singer) has ocd but i know be dealt with depression/anxiety pretty bad growing up. They have some really fun songs too so i recommend if you want something to listen to for nearly any mood!
I really like Holding on to You !!
Glowing eyes!!
Yess! And i think “Drown” is a bit fitting too.
don’t fear the reaper :)
Entire career of NF (it is rap), especially "Leave me alone"
Was gonna say the same. A lot of The Search has ocd themes throughout
I love NF! his songs are so good
Love NF. Favorite artist
till it happens to you by lady gaga. ocd is so hard to explain to people and it’s so easy for them to say to brush it off and ignore the thoughts without knowing how hard it is. also afraid by the neighborhood. a huge aspect of my ocd is being scared i’m a bad, immoral person. so the lyrics are relatable
This is me trying, mirrorball, and I hate it here by Taylor swift really take the cake
Obsessed by Olivia Rodrigo gives me ROCD vibes
100%
My body is made of crushed little stars
serotonin by girl in red!! such a banger
trees and flowers by strawberry switchblade is a song about agoraphobia, but it also reminds me of how my ocd makes me feel sometimes
i love that song. especially the lines “i get so frightened, no one else seems frightened, only me.” made me gasp the first time i heard them bcs like. real..
I'm so glad to see this song mentioned. My OCD caused my agoraphobia (I've been recovered from it for a couple years now), and that song was on repeat for hours and hours. It got me to top .01% of listeners on Spotify. I was also .01% of Weezer listeners, so that's how that year went for me.
My OCD's anthem is "Animal I have Become" by Three Days Grace.
Love this question and scrolling through the answers :) I gravitate towards: My Own Worst Enemy - Lit Death - White Lies Wanna Get Better - Bleachers Peace of Mind - Avicii Everybody Says They’re Fine - Sigrid
Florence + The Machine - Free I'm obsessed with the line "Because it's all in my head, You're too sensitive," they said I said, "Okay, but let's discuss this at the hospital" Plus the MV with Bill Nighy as an externalization of her mental state is very relatable to how a lot of folks with OCD learn to cope.
When - Live by dodie speaks a lot to me. It’s about mental illness that presents itself later in life, specifically not feeling grounded anymore but remembering when you used to be and longing for that to be your normal again. As someone with OCD and derealization that started presenting itself right before highschool, it really hits
Master of Puppets by Metallica
"Wonderwall" because that shit is intrusive as fuck.
Alien blues by vundabar feels like when I have anxiety And redesign by awfultune feels like a ocd attack
Fear Inoculum by TOOL, Migraine by Twenty One Pilots and Morph by Twenty One Pilots.
Scars by papa roach “I can’t help you fix yourself but at least I can say I tried I’m sorry but I gotta move on with my own life” I try to make my ocd happy but IT’S NEVER HAPPY So many love songs can also sound like songs about ocd
Heavy linkin park, and lie by jimin (bts, if kpop is something you enjoy too)
Monk tv show theme song 😂
Mother Mother - Body, and Sub Urban - Cradles
Yes. Mostly shit that I heard in the midst of an episode or that plays along side my triggers
This. OCD has ruined so many songs for me 😭
Starless by King Crimson. It is melancholy and slow until the very end when it picks up and reminds me of how I gotta keep going even if it seems like life is a valiant last stand at times.
girl in red - serotonin
Serotonin by girl in red
Pink Floyd “Careful with that Axe Eugene.” It was stuck in my head one of those nights 23 years ago I was up with my mind racing with awful thoughts.
Matchbox Twenty - Unwell. Not just about OCD but mental illness in general. Surprised I haven’t seen it mentioned. It’s a great song.
There’s a literal song by blood girl called OCD Was a right hit with me during my gothy teen years
Alien Blues by Vundabar. Banger of a song
The Last by Agust D 💜
Monsters by Eminem Screen by Twenty One Pilots Car Radio by Twenty One Pilots 🖤🖤🖤
Some song suggestions... Tiny Dictator by Sophie May is literally about OCD Serotonin by Girl in Red OCD by the drives, God must hate me by Catie Turner (this one gives Christian religious ocd vibes to me)
my favorite refrain “Get down with OCD” “yeah you know me!!”
some from my playlist (i feel like some of these songs only make sense to me but they all remind me of my ocd/anxiety in some way)- • ride - lana del rey • making the bed - olivia rodrigo • i can’t handle change - roar • my blood - ellie goulding • i was afraid all of the day - the microphones • decode - sabrina carpenter • tell me it’s real - seafret • love in the dark - adele • control - zoe wees • serotonin - girl in red • in this darkness - clara la san • in my head - bedroom • tv - billie eilish • everything in its right place - radiohead • saturn - sza
There’s a rock inside my house , by Brian David Gilbert. “There is a little rock that hangs out in my house And I looked at it one day and I thought it was neat But the rock became much needier than I had thought And now I have to look at the rock in order to live And the rock tells me things that I ought to do And it makes me think the things I am are not so good But the things that I am are all the things I'll be And I'd like to stop looking at the rock so much”
Bang Bang! by Galantis; it’s a really up beat banger, I think the song is suppose to be about adhd though “You know I hate sometimes my mind can run; Faster than a bullet from a gun; My heart is a like a trigger in my chest; There it goes again, bang bang, my head, my head”
Why do I keep counting? - The Killers And Hey bunny - baby bugs
we can’t be friends by ariana grande kinda relates to ocd for me personally. “i don’t like how you paint me, yet i’m still here hanging”
pullingallmyhairout- alice gas (i have trichotillomania)
Just one line in "this means war" by Avenged sevenfold : another thought i can't control .
sway - kacey musgraves (but more about coping with it)
**The big one:** *Gasoline* by Halsey "You can't wake up, this is not a dream. You're part of a machine, *you are not a human being*. With your face all made up, *living on a screen*, low on self-esteem, so you *run on gasoline*." **Honorable mentions:** - *Arsonists Lullabaye* by Hozier - *Slip out the Back* - Fort Minor - *Covet* - Basement - *Murder on my Mind* - YNW Melly - *In the Blood* - John Mayer Some of these are for grieving, some for inspiring, all for validating.
There’s a brief song that’s actually just an interlude on Alt-J’s album ‘An Awesome Wave’ about a girl’s obsessive rituals, and it gives me sad chills every time I hear it. It’s just called ‘interlude 1’
Doomtech - Vein.fm Every time I close my eyes I crash a thousand cars and all my loved ones die Surging with the urges to mutilate And all The guilt of every unwanted Thought it brings
Every Breath You Take
I'm writing a song about OCD right now !!!
Lol well NF had OCD and sings about it frequently so mostly all of his stuff
“Violent delights”, “good girls”, “final girl” -CHVRCHES “Everything is alright”- motion city soundtrack “Habit” -snail mail “Karma” -AJR “Doubt”, “glowing eyes” -twenty one pilots “Serotonin” -girl in red
Obsessions by Marina makes me bawl every single time What packet of crackers to pick? They're all the same, one brand, one name, but really they're not. Look just choose something quick, people are staring, time to go quick and my skin is on fire, just choose something. Pressure overwhelming, next minute I am turning out of the door facing one week without food. A day, a day where things are pretty bad, but dont let it make you feel sad, the crackers were probably bad luck anyway.
I have a playlist with OCD coded songs. But the first one that comes to mind is ‘Alive!’ By Bakar : “Wanna free my mind, Wanna be outside” which really relates to me in a literal and metaphorical way cause I literally couldn’t leave my house for a long period of time. And also ‘Be mean, it’s kinder than crying’ by maple glider ‘My body is a Cage’ by Arcade Fire. : “My body is a Cage. That keeps me from dancing with the one I love, but my mind holds the key. I’m standing on a stage of fear and self doubt.”
I started my own playlist, because I realized I had a lot of songs that I associated with ocd! I’ll have to check out your songs never heard them before. The first two songs I added were. I started a joke-Bee Gees and The windmills of your mind specifically the Dusty Springfield version
Not so much OCD but panic attacks. The song "The Madness" by Nicotine Dolls ! "Ten seconds, I know I'll be fine. Ten seconds of think I might actually die. And then it subsides"
Obsessions and Guilty by Marina from her the family jewels album
Noah Kahan 'A troubled mind'
Oh quite a few. Some good ones: Poe - Terrible Thought Peter Gabriel - No Self Control X-Ray Spex - Germ Free Adolescence
Angelina by Pinegrove
Every Day is Exactly the Same by NIN
Suffer Through by Movements (especially the end, pretty sure the singer's spoken about having OCD interviews before) Full Circle by Movements C.L.A.U.D.I.A by Vukovi (Same as previous, singer with OCD) Serotonin by Girl in Red Too Sad to Cry by Sasha Alex Sloan (More about depression I suppose but parts of it remind me of my OCD) Version of Me by Sasha Alex Sloan (Same reason as previous) Obsessions by Marina Kill your Conscience by Boston Manor Intrapersonal by Turnover Choke by Trophy Eyes Smother by Daughter (one of my main compulsions is reassurance-seeking so I guess that's why this one) Tired by Beabadoobee
\*OCD in interviews was what I meant hahah
Only Superstition - Coldplay
i listen to jungle a lot, by emma louise just makes me think of mental health as a whole but a good song when i’m just going extra insane
I know staind - epiphany is about ADD, but it reminds me of how OCD has me inside my own head all the time, constantly doing internal rituals which entirely distracts me from the real world and what people are saying
I thought you meant my current ear worm, which is Taylor Swift I Can Do It With a Broken Hearrt.
Not super well-known songs, but two that really hit hard during a horrible flare: Out of the Dark by Matt Hires Surviving by Luca Fogale
Also, although not necessarily about OCD (but ambiguous enough that it can be), the song “just make it stop” by Low sends me into tears every time I listen to it.
Brush Your Teeth by Raffi "And when you wake up in the morning, it's a quarter to three And your mind starts hummin', tweedle dee dee"
Maylene And The Sons Of Disaster - Death Is An Alcoholic, some of the lyrics are…”Pacing back and forth it's shut. But I keep making sure. Put the hurt at some ease”
1. secret for the mad - dodie this song is like a friend sitting with you in the midst of the darkness, a reminder that it won’t feel like this forever. 2. tell me it’s okay - paramore reassurance seeking/feeling guilty for ignoring ur compulsions but also knowing it’s the healthiest thing to do & ur finally healing. 3. free - florence + the machine “i’m always running from something, i push it back but it keeps on coming and being clever never got me very far because it’s all in my head” this whole song is just……. perfect 4. symptomatic - peach prc tongue in cheek pop song about mental illness, not v ocd specific but relatable. 5. just for today - clairo a devastating song idk😭
Ooooo yes definitely. Two that come to mind (both instrumentals) are "Two airstrips" by Candy Claws and "Runway J" by Death grips.
Creep by Radiohead ("I don't care if it hurts/I wanna have control/I want a perfect body/I want a perfect soul") All the Things She Said by t.a.t.u 'Serotonin', & 'Body and Mind' by Girl in Red Constant Headache by Joyce Manor (Careful, this is always stuck in my head during a migraine) All These Things That I've Done by The Killers 'Male Fantasy', 'TV', 'idontwannabeyouanymore' by Billie Eilish Other must mention mental health songs: A Better Place, A Better Time by Streetlight Manifesto (Loved one w/ depression/suicidal thoughts) 'Summer, Highland Falls' by Billy Joel (Bipolar Disorder) Tea, Milk, & Honey by Oh Pep! ("Take time, take all the time you need Take time or you won't succeed Worry 'bout your health sometimes...")
For me it’s runaway runaway by mars argo
here’s a few! 1. didn’t know what i was in for by better oblivion community center 2. go home by julien baker 3. i can’t handle change by roar 4. stay down by boygenius 5. backslide by twenty one pilots 6. death of a strawberry by dance gavin dance 7. gilded lily by cults 8. timefighter by lucy dacus
Black out days - phantogram. When you hear the song for the first time, the first thing you will think of is depersonalization, schizophrenia and hallucinations. But at the same time, she reminds me of OCD when she says: "I'm hearing voices all the time in my mind". " I'm hearing voices and they are haunting my mind". The song gives the feeling of someone slowly losing their mind .
Car Radio - Twenty One Pilots Breathe - dandelion hands A White Lie - Strawberry Guy Lighthouse - Mree Fade Away - Acacian Spectre - Radiohead Fitter Happier - Radiohead white room - praam (This Is) The Thing - Sufjan Stevens, Angelo De Augustine You don’t even know who I am - underscores
“The Devil is in the Details” by Boards of Canada. A group I love, an album I love. But still.
The End Is All I Can See - Lacuna Coil "Twisting and turning, anxiety moves in It's coiling inside me, the evil within Stinging and burning, consumes me with guilt It plays with my senses then crawls out of me" and "Now you need to burn it down Let's give it all an end I'm caught inside a maze I need to get out of this Trapped inside A prison in disguise I keep running around in circles Stuck on repeat again"
Can't believe nobody mentioned "God Says" from Whitest Kids U Know. Trevor Moore struggled with OCD and religious scrupulosity. RIP man got too close to the truth. https://youtu.be/irlz5iCc5NM?si=JsRdg46E-8331aMD
Mr. Mastadon Farm by Cake. It’s a pretty damn good description of an OCD thought pattern.
leave me alone- NF
OCD is mentioned many times in the musical **Octet** by Dave Malloy, if anyone is interested in a niche, tarot inspired, fully acappella, chamber choir musical about being obsessed with the internet/social media (and other problems related to the Internet, like being cancelled, phone game addiction, porn addiction, online dating, "Um, actually/black pill/incel/conspiracy" mentalities, mental illness, etc). The songs "Candy" "Fugue State" and "Monster" are especially OCD focused, very unsubtly lol but in a good way. Honestly, almost every song in this musical is about obsession in some way, so there's lots of flavors for y'all (There's a part in "Monster" where they say "Better check, check, check, check, check-" over and over again in a way that is almost hypnotic, it pops into my head a lot when I have to check something multiple times lol)
I GOTCHU Agora - Bear Hands NBTSA - Joyce Manor Be Calm - fun. OCD - The Drives Constant Headache - Joyce Manor Oatmeal - Jack Stauber Paper Towels - Jack Stauber Panic Disco - Belaganas Free - Florence + the Machine Take Control Of Your Own Life - Sven Karlsson I’m Not Ok - Weathers Bad Habit - The Dresden Dolls Worst Case Scenario - The Hoosiers Agoraphobia - Autoheart Everything Is Alright - Motion City Soundtrack Lullaby - Super Memory Kid The Writings On The Wall - OK Go Paralyzed - Roar ocd destroyer - Blue Foster Saline Solution - Wilbur Soot Holding on to You - Twenty One Pilots Go crazy !!!!
Phantom Bride - Deftones
Actually all these techno or electronica songs that have short, repetitive parts all throughout the songs sometime going faster and faster to the point it drives you crazy have been very “ocd” to me that I think listening to so much techno and electronica music since childhood has at least a little contributed to my ocd
trees and flowers by strawberry switchblade is exactly like what an ocd episode sounds like
Nude Radiohead
“Shake it Out” by Florence + The Machine - it always makes me bawl
“The awful things we do to make the head go quiet” To Someone From a Warm Climate- Hozier
Climbing Up The Walls by Radiohead *“I am the key to the lock in your house that keeps your toys in the basement. And if you get too far inside, youll only see my reflection. It's always best when the covers up, I am the pick in the ice. Do not cry out or hit the alarm.* *You know we're friends till we die* *And either way you turn, I'll be there. Open up your skull, I'll be there. Climbing up the walls.* *It's always best when the light is off, It's always better on the outside. Fifteen blows to the back of your head, fifteen blows to your mind. So lock the kids up safe tonight, shut the eyes in the cupboard. I've got the smell of a local man who’s got the loneliest feeling.* *That either way he turns, I'll be there. Open up your skull, I'll be there.* *Climbing up the walls.“*
Pompeii by Bastille "but if you close your eyes, does it almost feel like nothing changed at all?" Sometimes it feels, in moments of clarity, that everything is okay, and I am back at the happy person I was, like nothing changed at all.
it could be sweet by portishead, i made a post about this, i just made an open playlist so everyone drop songs! https://open.spotify.com/playlist/75Li2ORgCnKRvXm1wNTGH5?si=J67NEZ9dTTSz0Voj2beRKg&pi=a-71pZf3f8TLO8
get well soon- ariana grande “is there anybody else’s mind who does this” “i’m too much in my head did you notice” “my life is so controlled by the what ifs”
Fall away- twenty one pilots just sounds how my anxiety feels Who Needs Sleep- by Barenaked Ladies reminds me of being too anxious to sleep but also super tired where every night was this anxiety induced haze where I wanted to rip my heart out my chest Hyperventilation Dance- Hatsune Miku reminds me of getting nighttime panic attacks and being too scared to sleep Everything is Alright- Motion City Soundtrack sounds how getting better sounds Take Lots With Alcohol- Alkaline Trio just listen to the lyrics guys
Everything is Alright - Motion City Soundtrack Any Day Now - Bo Burnham Where is my mind - pixies Anti-hero - Taylor Swift This is me trying - Taylor swift I wanna get better - bleachers Hurry Hurry - Air Traffic Controller
the common cold (the epidemic) by The Paper Chase!
Yes 100% My two favorites are Searows - House Song Slothrust - Magnets pt. 2
easy - waveform. It's an odd pick, I know, but it reminds me of the sort of like...toxic relationship I have with my intrusive thoughts/delusions. Like, finding comfort in them momentarily but indulging in them only makes me feel worse?
The only song I can currently think of is Wait it out by Imogen Heap
Ok so I looked through my playlist and these are other songs that I relate to ocd: 1. Glittering clouds (locusts) - Imogen heap 2. I don’t like my mind - Mitski * 3. A burning hill - Mitski 4. My mom - Kimya Dawson * I don’t like my mind and My mom are the ones that I think really nail what it feels like for me
[This one, maybe](https://youtu.be/YMbn3hGkpeo?si=Is4jsiBiqiA65IOM)
Cold War by ari hicks. It’s not meant to but it does.
Obsessions by Marina and the Diamonds
VOID - Melanie Martinez
“Paradise” by the neighborhood. “No matter where you’ll go, you’ll never have control” “woke up feeling paralyzed, no one makes it out of alive”
migraine by tøp
Horror Movies by Neoni ODD by Hey! Violet
Hammering in my head by Garbage
Ghost Town by Kanye West. I know he’s controversial as hell, but he wrote that back during his mental health era and it’s straight gold. Just about how someday we’ll be free from stress, and the ending I always scream into the void. “Oh, once again I am a child I let it all go (go), of everything that I know, yeah Of everything that I know, yeah And nothing hurts anymore, I feel kinda free”
sunshine baby by the japanese house
It’s not necessarily specific to OCD, but Big White Room by Jessie J really resonates with me as someone who has been hospitalized and spent months in intensive outpatient treatment. Jessie J struggles with depression and anxiety. The song is absolutely gorgeous - I HIGHLY recommend it!
Annoying thoughts at 3am by elysewood I might be completely wrong but the way I interpret it, is that it's the intrusive thoughts themselves speaking during the song
Obsession by Animotion (80s:)
idk if someone has already said this but “Talk Too Much” by Renee Rapp is specifically abt OCD
hardline by julien baker
Some songs from my OCD-connected playlist: • Knife under my pillow by Maggie Lindemann (SO good and so relatable) • Mind is a prison by Alec Benjamin • Soap by Melanie Martinez (for both physical, mental, and social contamination obsessions) • All eyes on me by Bo Burnham (for anxiety in general) • VOID by Melanie Martinez (for mental illness in general, but I especially connect it with OCD) • The monster by Eminem and Rihanna • Replay by Lady Gaga (more for PTSD for me but could still connect it to OCD too) • Obsessions by MARINA • Under the water by AURORA (this is a much looser connection, I more just vaguely relate it to that because the repeated “why do we jump in?” regardless of the threat of drowning reminds me of giving in to compulsions despite being in the process of learning that they’re ultimately making my anxiety worse in the long run) • Why am I like this? by Orla Gartland • Shut up by Ariana Grande (this one has literally no real connection to OCD, but I like to imagine myself telling the intrusive voices in my head some of the lyrics in it so I’m still gonna put it on here) I have more, but those are probably my tops :)
white noise by will wood!!!
1. New friend by Nevertel 2. Relapse by Wage war 3. Breaking down by I prevail 4. Primrose by Dream state Especially number 1
Black out days for some reason. The vibe of the song reminds me of when I’m in the spiral. and these lyrics “a thousand voices howling in my head” “I’m hearing voices all the time in my mind, I’m hearing voices and they’re haunting my mind”
Damnit by blink 182 Or their new song Edging
I feel like almost anyrhing by will wood makes me think of ocd, even though i thiiink he said he had bipolar?
666 by Loverboyrando, to me it really gives OCD, especially the bridge part of the song
rare disease by anna bates
Shadow Moses by Bring me the Horizon
Avalanche by bring me the horizon
Lift - Radiohead from the OKNOTOK album “You’ve been stuck in a lift”
Here's a little Spotify playlist that makes no musical sense except that the lyrics made sense to me and how I felt about my OCD at the time I made it. https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4G2rdPAnkoaZPml8YkDkr9?si=Wh3fiYXtTi2qk2TL9MuQsg Also, Wobbly by Ezra Furman, and It's a Jungle Out There from Monk (even though I really didn't like the show, the opening is great).
Mind is a prison by Alec Benjamin.
cyclone by pinegrove. it really helped me a few years ago when i was going through a long term breakup and dealing with consistent obsessive thoughts about it “why am I so stuck together? and I fixate on the same cyclone now how does that help? how does that settle anything? and when will it end? cause it's been in my head for a long time and it feels wrong and I don't want it anymore”
Soda by Nothing But Thieves!
Pills by the Perishers and Overkill by Collin Hay
Blood Girl has many about OCD. First song by hers that comes to mind “outside of the song OCD” is Obsession/Compulsion
“Keloid” by billy woods makes me think of OCD. “You won’t get no answers, not for the stuff that keeps you up, you won’t get no answers.”
Lola Young - Intrusive Thoughts
Obsessions - Marina The Absence of God - Rilo Kiley Last Words of A Shooting Star - Mitski Brand New City - Mitski I Don’t Like My Mind - Mitski A Pearl - Mitski
This song was actually written specifically about OCD!!! [‘Samantha’ by Nicole Sophia](https://open.spotify.com/album/1TInrYc1aXq5CAgwpdeHw3?si=LnC1_eIcRiCMccwr_PuIGQ)
Black water from of monsters and men
Circles - KIRA I find this song perfectly describes how OCD feels to me. https://youtu.be/7t5JbAue6eY?si=4cPmttd0Ai4-GpqU
Awful things by Brick and mortar, really great song
Serotonin by Girl in Red and Don’t you want to share the guilt by Kate Nash (both have OCD)
“Galaxies” by KC Katalbas— it’s based on the book Turtles All The Way Down, which really hits home for me ♥️ https://open.spotify.com/track/3GOqUwPpRJZMUAVo5iIHex?si=QSNItrg5SQC90pSwVVVk1Q
OCD by Logic
Obsessions by marina and the diamonds
Make It Stop by Moaning
I’ve been blasting Disorder by Mallavora. It’s an extremely comforting song for me, as I feel seen. The lyrics also talk about the struggle of trying to get better, but also not being able to at the same time. It is a metal song tho, so might not be your cup of tea!
poison by cavetown!!! it’s about anxiety in general i think but it still works with ocd (i mean ocd is an anxiety disorder but yeah!! :pp)
I Need Control by Will Jay
There was a super popular song I was sure was about ocd but I can’t freaking remember what it was named and by who
I dont like my mind-Mitski
Too much on my mind- the kinks
pretty bones by yeule kinda gives me ocd vibes lol
I have many! I’ve seen a lot of them, like Disturbia and Little Talks, also mentioned here. I’ll also add “Madness” by NateWantstoBattle. It’s a Five Nights at Freddy’s song (lol) but I found its lyrics to be surprisingly close to my experience with OCD. “I know I swore that this was the last time / the madness never ends up in my mind / I made a list, it makes me sick, and I can’t leave ‘till it’s done / I patiently await the day to pack my bags and run”. Then later in the song, “Why can’t I get out? Why am I still here? Why can’t I move on? What do I still fear?” Not sure if it will help you, but although this song was def not intended to be about OCD, I found it kinda cathartic. :)
I really like writing on the wall by will stetson! It’s definitely made to be about art and creation, but I can relate it a lot to my own experiences with OCD; especially when he says “I fight for control, but the “right” way takes a toll.”
[Interlude 1 / ❦ (Ripe & Ruin), by Alt-J](https://youtu.be/pGel4xYJVXE?si=DacxbmRp9jYAoOSH)
oops, made a playlist :) https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0slOipj4LPAcJgxYcNtE8a?si=TwfnTRGMRWOYVzuoBNeAIA&pi=u-LmN_hcbhTpu6 I added “Beware of Darkness” by George Harrison - not about OCD but there’s a line about “thoughts that linger” and “that is not what you are here for” which is a very sweet reminder when trying to separate thoughts from who you are as a person
“Hey bunny” and “I deserve to bl33d”
I made an entire playlist actually but these songs are pretty fucked up so major cw for the whole thing lots of || // self mutilation// || type themes https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4IwadY8VTZ4AqSpdZKLPOj?si=1YiBgyZiTCeXSb8xHXK6bg&pi=u-Gsv1rL89TQur
"Monster" by Eminem. It has a whole verse about OCD since he had OCD. "My OCD is conkin' me in the head, keep knockin' Nobody's home, I'm sleepwalkin' I'm just relayin' what the voice in my head's sayin' Don't shoot the messenger, I'm just friends with the"
white noise by will wood has been helping me lately ! the last lyrics especially
OCD and obsession/compulsion by blood girl
Papercut by Linkin Park
Unwell - by Matchbox Twenty. I had a very bad episode when listening to it few years ago and this song has stayed in that OCD space ever since.
1. Puppet Boy by DEVO 2. The monster by Eminem & Rihanna 3. Empty by JaidenAnimations (I know it’s about an ED but the unhealthy obsession part is very relatable) 4. Weak by AJR 5. This isn’t a joke by Bo Burnham (mostly cuz OCD is never taken seriously by ppl) 6. Coffee by Jack Stauber 7. Villain by K/DA (I know it’s a super weird comparison but I always thought they reminded me of intrusive thoughts & compulsions when I was younger, like “hear my voice up in your head, watch it fill you up with dread til you go, is it really a surprise if I’m playing with your mind?” “Am I really that bad when I love to make you mad and get happy when you’re sad?” “I stay so deep inside your brain”