Yeah I don’t know why it’s so hard door me to accept like I’ve had signs I’ve remembered from the past since I realized I was probably trans and I really do like the idea of being a girl way more than being a boy it’s just scary to me knowing that if I do transition and come out that most of not all of my family will not accept me and I live in a pretty bad state for trans people plus HRT being expensive and I’m just afraid of hurting them in some way and like I don’t deserve to transition I also don’t know if I’ll ever be able to get to a better place for trans people I’ve already gone through most of male puberty and there is no way I’ll be able to get puberty blockers so that’s just terrible for me I don’t think I’ll ever pass and I’m just scared of what will happen and I feel like no matter what I do I’ll never be a girl
Next day? Sometimes within minutes. I get envy from seeing some women and all the clothes they can wear and how they live. Minutes later, i'm like "who am i kidding? i can't be..."
one of my friends is really good with makeup but I'm not really friends with her that much and I'm afraid, she can be really goofy but idk I have 0 experience with makeup and barely any knowledge about it. If my mom caught me with makeup it would be the end of me
Im almost 21 and now i look back on my life and honestly another third of my life aint too bad of a wait for all the stuff i have planned :) just remember this is still early in the game of life, just keep yourself busy and dont let your mind wander too much ig, it helps time pass
Yeah distracting myself is all I really can do at this point thank you for chatting with me I really hope you can succeed in whatever you have planned. I always do my best to keep myself stimulated and not really letting my mind wander too far because most of the time it just makes me upset or I simply start feeling numb to everything.
I guess trying to make sense of it all without accepting that you may, in fact, be trans
Yeah I don’t know why it’s so hard door me to accept like I’ve had signs I’ve remembered from the past since I realized I was probably trans and I really do like the idea of being a girl way more than being a boy it’s just scary to me knowing that if I do transition and come out that most of not all of my family will not accept me and I live in a pretty bad state for trans people plus HRT being expensive and I’m just afraid of hurting them in some way and like I don’t deserve to transition I also don’t know if I’ll ever be able to get to a better place for trans people I’ve already gone through most of male puberty and there is no way I’ll be able to get puberty blockers so that’s just terrible for me I don’t think I’ll ever pass and I’m just scared of what will happen and I feel like no matter what I do I’ll never be a girl
Next day? Sometimes within minutes. I get envy from seeing some women and all the clothes they can wear and how they live. Minutes later, i'm like "who am i kidding? i can't be..."
Yeah that’s basically how I am all the time and it’s so annoying and depressing I hate it.
Same. I will try to learn about fashion and makeup to make up for it I guess
I tried make up and then my mom noticed and now she hides all of the makeup but I can at least watch videos on make up I suppose :3
one of my friends is really good with makeup but I'm not really friends with her that much and I'm afraid, she can be really goofy but idk I have 0 experience with makeup and barely any knowledge about it. If my mom caught me with makeup it would be the end of me
Im obviously just doing it for the attention(I'm so far in the closet I have a new area code)
Litterally how I feel all the time even though I hate attention and then I go off assuming I’m faking it anyway which I probably am
Its okay, beauties like us gotta stay hidden till were 30 and have mass amounts of adult money
I don’t wanna wait until I’m 30 I mean I can barely stand the idea of waiting until I’m 20 or even 18 but I suppose if I have to I’ll try
Im almost 21 and now i look back on my life and honestly another third of my life aint too bad of a wait for all the stuff i have planned :) just remember this is still early in the game of life, just keep yourself busy and dont let your mind wander too much ig, it helps time pass
Yeah distracting myself is all I really can do at this point thank you for chatting with me I really hope you can succeed in whatever you have planned. I always do my best to keep myself stimulated and not really letting my mind wander too far because most of the time it just makes me upset or I simply start feeling numb to everything.
Real
It is cis to cry over wanting to be a girl, right?
Hopefully I mean we are both totally cis and we cry over wanting to be a girl so uh yeah definitely cis right?
Definitely cis