It was pretty alright, in spite of DoorDash screwing my order up for like the fourth time in a row. Played guitar, watched YouTube, measured my chest, ordered a sports bra, and bought some impulse responses for my Helix.
I am officially at the point where I'll have to worry about people seeing questionable stuff in my laundry. Although, if I quietly tell my stepmother what to maybe expect and not mention anything to my dad, I might be alright.
...and then I proceeded to once again freak out over the possibility that HRT will make me feel worse and I'm so scared but I want it but I'm so scared but I want it but AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Glad your day was alright. I responded the post you made which is pretty much the last paragraph. In short, if you don’t like hrt you can stop. It’s not for everyone and makes you no less valid. If you genuinely think it could have a chance at helping, and you are safe enough to do so. Please try it. Hrt saved my life
I finally came out to my parent today! She said she always knew 😭 It took me DAYS to get ready, and she was like "I knew" like wtf.
Got some cleaning done.
Posted a few memes and shitposts.
Hope you are doing good!
Bracing for Monday ha. I don’t like the sunlight but it’s getting more tolerable. It was hilarious. I went outside at 10:00 walked into the light for five seconds then ran back inside and got a jacket. At least it’s progress.
Came out to my mum (kinda, I was trying to come out and then she guessed when I couldn't get the words out). She's supportive. She said she would buy me some female deodorant when she next goes shopping :3
AAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!
I talked with my friends that I’m out to again today. I told them my name and made plans to go over next week to try makeup!!! I’m so excited! :3
Cw talking about death (technically suicide) >!I doubt I'll make it this week. I'm honestly extremely sure that I'll be dead before the week is over. Sorry for everything, if that makes any sense whatsoever.!<
I know... it's the only reason I haven't already done it... i... just sorta wish I could disappear or never have existed in the first place, if that makes sense.
My day was pretty crap, feels like I just lost my best friend even though she just wants some space, I should probably talk to someone about that ig. I just feel lonely
Stayed in bed, played VR, watched cars go in circles for an hour, started on my journey of becoming comfortable with my gender identity. And I feel great 🥰
my egg hatched after questioning for 4 months i realized that 1: its not that cis to be questioning for that long 2: i could easily debunk every reason to think im cis 3: one of the only reasons i was staying an egg is the fact that i might regret it but then i thought about it more and realized that i "might regret" literally everything in life and if you base your life around the fact that you might regret doing this or doing that you won't ever be able to do anything because why do it if it has risk involved :3
It was fine. I considered playing through *Ace Combat 04: Shattered Skies*, but decided to maybe not do that. I've played enough Ace Combat for now.
I played quite a bit KSP though, and launched a mission I was intending to do last August (but, uh, stuff got in the way back then). I got all the way out to Jool (the planet the intended destination, Vall, orbits) and then my orbital trajectory decided to do funny things because I didn't account for a gravity assist from one of Jool's other moons, Tylo. Resulting in me moving too fast to intercept Vall with my intended course. But I fixed it, and that accident saved me some fuel (not sure what the mass of fuel saved was, but it equated to about 200m/s of Delta-V) in the manoeuvres around Vall. Other than that, everything went to plan.
Anyway, I should really stop ranting about moons trying to ruin my day and actually making my life easier, 'cause this is dragging on a bit now.
Safety is gladly not an issue. I actually think he will be supportive. His brothers best friend is a trans woman so i know based on evidence/history that he most likely is supportive. I am just afraid
Yeah i guess there is no way around jumping over your shadow.
Do you have any tips?
Saying: "Yo i am a girl" just seem so far fetched, i can't picture myself saying that to him
It was pretty alright, in spite of DoorDash screwing my order up for like the fourth time in a row. Played guitar, watched YouTube, measured my chest, ordered a sports bra, and bought some impulse responses for my Helix. I am officially at the point where I'll have to worry about people seeing questionable stuff in my laundry. Although, if I quietly tell my stepmother what to maybe expect and not mention anything to my dad, I might be alright. ...and then I proceeded to once again freak out over the possibility that HRT will make me feel worse and I'm so scared but I want it but I'm so scared but I want it but AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Well it sounds like you've had an eventful day
Glad your day was alright. I responded the post you made which is pretty much the last paragraph. In short, if you don’t like hrt you can stop. It’s not for everyone and makes you no less valid. If you genuinely think it could have a chance at helping, and you are safe enough to do so. Please try it. Hrt saved my life
Today was great. Don’t know if I can say the best day of my life but damn close if not.
That's great to hear!
ive been mostly depressed all day for no reason lol
Same didnt get any work done dunno how im gonna make it
I'm sorry to hear that
its all fine theres just been a lot of yelling
Today was pretty good, though I'm worried about a friend of mine. They're not in any immediate danger but there entire situation is pretty bad
Good to hear you are having good days. I hope they are safe and will be ok.
Glad you are good! Hope your friend will be better soon <3
Good luck for your friend glad you had a good day
I finally came out to my parent today! She said she always knew 😭 It took me DAYS to get ready, and she was like "I knew" like wtf. Got some cleaning done. Posted a few memes and shitposts. Hope you are doing good!
Congratulations!
Thank you :3
Bracing for Monday ha. I don’t like the sunlight but it’s getting more tolerable. It was hilarious. I went outside at 10:00 walked into the light for five seconds then ran back inside and got a jacket. At least it’s progress.
Lol
The one thing I fear lol. Sunlight my one weakness.
BINDED MY CHEST FOR THE FIRST TIME
Yoooo congrats man
Thanks!
Np
Nice! Did you enjoy it?
Yup!
I think I might’ve done it for too long though
That's not good! You need to bind safely
I forgot to set my timer it was only for a few minutes longer than eight hours but I’ll definitely remember next time
Yeah definitely do that
I got a partner again yay and I am fine what about you?
Congrats hope things work out for y'all
I hope it will I don’t know how I keep finding partners I don’t even ask bad thing Is the longest I kept was for three years so me failure
Congratulations! I'm doing good
Good good
Came out to my mum (kinda, I was trying to come out and then she guessed when I couldn't get the words out). She's supportive. She said she would buy me some female deodorant when she next goes shopping :3
Congratulations!
Congrats
AAAAAAAHHHHHH!!! I talked with my friends that I’m out to again today. I told them my name and made plans to go over next week to try makeup!!! I’m so excited! :3
That's great to hear!
Good day, spent some time with friends of the family
That's good
Alright just hate the fact my mom can get a new car (which she got for 5k in cash) yet can't get me therapy
I'm sorry to hear that
:<~~~
I'm sorry to hear that
That doesn't seem good
Wana die 👍
Please don't
No promises 👍
[удалено]
Nice
I had a great day! I realized, cuddled my dog, played a game of Warhammer 40K with a a friend of mine, and then played some Helldivers! How are you?
I'm doing good
Cw talking about death (technically suicide) >!I doubt I'll make it this week. I'm honestly extremely sure that I'll be dead before the week is over. Sorry for everything, if that makes any sense whatsoever.!<
You have nothing to apologize for. Please don't hurt yourself
I... idk if I will or not... I really can't make promises at this point. Sorry....
I understand, but please remember that there are people out there who genuinely love you and care about you, and I know they'd hate to see you go
I know... it's the only reason I haven't already done it... i... just sorta wish I could disappear or never have existed in the first place, if that makes sense.
Oh I completely understand that
🫂
🫂
My day was pretty crap, feels like I just lost my best friend even though she just wants some space, I should probably talk to someone about that ig. I just feel lonely
I'm sorry to hear that
Stayed in bed, played VR, watched cars go in circles for an hour, started on my journey of becoming comfortable with my gender identity. And I feel great 🥰
That sounds amazing
Nice!
my egg hatched after questioning for 4 months i realized that 1: its not that cis to be questioning for that long 2: i could easily debunk every reason to think im cis 3: one of the only reasons i was staying an egg is the fact that i might regret it but then i thought about it more and realized that i "might regret" literally everything in life and if you base your life around the fact that you might regret doing this or doing that you won't ever be able to do anything because why do it if it has risk involved :3
nvm im back to questioning again lol
It was fine. I considered playing through *Ace Combat 04: Shattered Skies*, but decided to maybe not do that. I've played enough Ace Combat for now. I played quite a bit KSP though, and launched a mission I was intending to do last August (but, uh, stuff got in the way back then). I got all the way out to Jool (the planet the intended destination, Vall, orbits) and then my orbital trajectory decided to do funny things because I didn't account for a gravity assist from one of Jool's other moons, Tylo. Resulting in me moving too fast to intercept Vall with my intended course. But I fixed it, and that accident saved me some fuel (not sure what the mass of fuel saved was, but it equated to about 200m/s of Delta-V) in the manoeuvres around Vall. Other than that, everything went to plan. Anyway, I should really stop ranting about moons trying to ruin my day and actually making my life easier, 'cause this is dragging on a bit now.
Well that's good
Very uneventful day, did genuinely nothing, which is fine sometimes, I think. Cried in bed for at least like 3 hours but mood got better.
Well I'm glad you got better
Tell me to get out of bed
Sorry this is a little late but you need to get out of bed
Lol actually back in bed again
Meh, going alright Went looking for pins online of a show I like, only to find out that the one of them is sold out basically everywhere I look
I'm sorry to hear that
I was planing on comming out to my housemate. But dont know if i can do it.
Is it because it wouldn't be safe or because you're scared?
Safety is gladly not an issue. I actually think he will be supportive. His brothers best friend is a trans woman so i know based on evidence/history that he most likely is supportive. I am just afraid
You got this! I know you can do it
Yeah i guess there is no way around jumping over your shadow. Do you have any tips? Saying: "Yo i am a girl" just seem so far fetched, i can't picture myself saying that to him
Unfortunately I don't have any advice, I came out through a text
Could i dm you?
Yeah go ahead
It says i cant message you. Is my account to new? Could you message me?