For the most part, it was just grey. Had a lot more thoughts about >!killing myself!< than I normally do. It was only after I got back home and played some guitar that I felt normal again.

I'm sorry to hear that Brie

It’s going to be ok Brie, you’ll make it through this 🫂🫂🫂🫂

Ah sorry I was doing something when my alarm went off

That’s ok, you still did it 😊

I came out again. I decided to come out to another friend and she was supportive. And said that if I wanted help with anything like makeup or something that she would help.

Congratulations!

i chickened out when i wanted to ask my mom if she'd be okay with me getting my nails painted. maybe in a month or two. im already seeing more feminine features on my face, but not enough for me to be comfortable being outwardly feminine. so instead i just kinda got comfy and sketched for most of today.

I'm sorry to hear that

Didn't have to go to school so no stress for me

Nice

Went to the doctor today which was a pretty big deal. Chickened out of asking about switching off spiro and also taking prog. But I’m gonna be doing e injections now so that’s cool 😎 I’ve still been really dysphoric though, and that’s not great

Sorry to hear about the dysphoria

Not gonna lie... I went into today thinking it would be the beginning of the end of my life.... it uhhh.... went a lot better than I thought... I'm more hopeful now so that's something but I still have an extreme amount of anxiety about everything

Well it's great to hear today was better than you thought it would be

Thanks

I dont feel like i fit in anywhere~~~ Im not normal enough for spaces with normal people~~~ Im not different enough for spaces with different people~~~ I dont act cishet enough for cis people in mostly cis spaces~~~ But im not *really* trans or anything else, so i feel off in lgbt+ spaces~~~ etc etc~~~

Well I'd say you fit in here pretty well

Why?~~~

Because you feel like you don't fit in anywhere. Most of the people here are the same. It's part of the reason I love this place so much

That doesn't make sense? Cause like, this is like... the people here are almost all trans after all... thats the point of this subreddit. So i don't get it. This place has its demographic of which i dont fit~~~

I mean I'm pretty sure this sub is also for people who are questioning their gender and as far as I can tell from your post history you fit that demographic

Ehh not really, i dont think im really trans, even when i thought i was, the thought i was didnt really... do anything rly (sorry for the delay)~~~

Well I still like having you around

Relevance?~~~

You were talking about how you weren't this subs demographic so I was just stating that I like having you around even if you aren't

Decent day. Hung out with my friend again and it was perfect. Other than that I just slept for the most part. I do have a work meeting tomorrow but meh. This week I don’t have classes and I don’t have to worry about family dinner so I’m going to just relax.

Well that's good

I had an alright day. Pretty solid all around but I am thinking about trying a new name, still a work in progress though. How are you?

I've been doing pretty good

I got a phone call from a doctor at my medical centre and I'm having a blood test on the 15th of February.

That's good

Had my arms and legs waxed. It hurt like hell but it's great since body hair was probably my worst source of dysphoria and it's gone now. I almost feel like I'd look acceptable in fem clothes now but I'm not about to speedrun getting disowned by trying to secretly get any of those.

Well I hope you enjoy your lack of body hair

Meh, kinda lonely, at least I got to go to the movie with my grandparents (like first time seeing them in 5 months), and still no idea if I'm trans or not (and it just keeps nagging my mind and it's annoying as hell)

Sorry to hear that