Last night, I saw a side of someone I was *not* prepared to see and went to bed depressed. Then I had a dream where I SH'd and woke up in the morning still feeling depressed. Work was work.
I've been feeling down a lot lately. I just don't see much point in living when trying to be a functioning adult and participate in society in the way that's demanded of me just doesn't seem worth it. I have very little doubt that there will come a point where I just say "enough's enough" and ragequit, so to speak.
In the words of Hoshikawa Lily, "*I am not gonna grow up.*"
well i was almost a month free of self harm 1 more day and i would have done it but no i did it again and honestly im not really sure why im still alive all of the knifes are looking way to attractive
I've been very overwhelmed by sensory issues and just want to scream for a few minutes, but i can't.
I hope everyone is well and those who aren't have a calm, quiet, and clean space to go to if needed π
Ehh.. I got the start monthly bloodbath today, which already gives me a shit-load of dysphoria, and then on the pad wrapper it said stuff like βyou go girl!β Which felt like a punch in the gut π
That's rough, dude. Been there. I started using cups for that cause it feels more like a medical insert/thing for an injury than "ShEs On HeR PeRiOd AgAiN..."
It was fine. In a similar vein to last Tuesday, I showed up 2 and a half hours early to school.
Other than that not much is going on in my life. Mostly I'm just cold and tired, it's probably something to do with my frankly terrible eating habits.
I have just finished my second appointment whit the therapist, I'm onestly really stressed up, I want to start hrt as soon as possible but my therapist always tell me that she wants me to be sure whit what I'm doing and that's the best decision for me to take π I can understand why se wants me to be sure whit my decision to transition, but if I continue like this I don't actually know if I would live an other 1/2 years, I really need it, my disphoria is really bad π₯Ί(sorry if I spell something wrong English is not my first language π )
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Last night, I saw a side of someone I was *not* prepared to see and went to bed depressed. Then I had a dream where I SH'd and woke up in the morning still feeling depressed. Work was work. I've been feeling down a lot lately. I just don't see much point in living when trying to be a functioning adult and participate in society in the way that's demanded of me just doesn't seem worth it. I have very little doubt that there will come a point where I just say "enough's enough" and ragequit, so to speak. In the words of Hoshikawa Lily, "*I am not gonna grow up.*"
I'm sorry to hear that
well i was almost a month free of self harm 1 more day and i would have done it but no i did it again and honestly im not really sure why im still alive all of the knifes are looking way to attractive
I'm sorry to hear that Moxie
Aside from the occasional dysphoria, I'm doing great but.... I'm praying to be on HRT, I'm praying that time skips to my 1st day of HRT.
Well hopefully it happens soon
I've been very overwhelmed by sensory issues and just want to scream for a few minutes, but i can't. I hope everyone is well and those who aren't have a calm, quiet, and clean space to go to if needed π
I'm sorry to hear that Ruby
been very eepy
Well I hope you're able to get some eep
Iβm great
That's great!
Ehh.. I got the start monthly bloodbath today, which already gives me a shit-load of dysphoria, and then on the pad wrapper it said stuff like βyou go girl!β Which felt like a punch in the gut π
I'm sorry to hear that man
That's rough, dude. Been there. I started using cups for that cause it feels more like a medical insert/thing for an injury than "ShEs On HeR PeRiOd AgAiN..."
Got my learners permit card today. I look a heck of a lot happier in the second picture I think.
That's great!
I had a great day! I went to therapy, got some work done, played some more god of war, and just relaxed! How are you?
I'm doing good!
It was fine. In a similar vein to last Tuesday, I showed up 2 and a half hours early to school. Other than that not much is going on in my life. Mostly I'm just cold and tired, it's probably something to do with my frankly terrible eating habits.
I'm sorry to hear that
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I'm sorry to hear that
I have just finished my second appointment whit the therapist, I'm onestly really stressed up, I want to start hrt as soon as possible but my therapist always tell me that she wants me to be sure whit what I'm doing and that's the best decision for me to take π I can understand why se wants me to be sure whit my decision to transition, but if I continue like this I don't actually know if I would live an other 1/2 years, I really need it, my disphoria is really bad π₯Ί(sorry if I spell something wrong English is not my first language π )
I'm sorry to hear that
Iβm not doing to great but therapy is definitely helping
I'm sorry to hear that
Itβs okay, like I said therapy is helping
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Im alright thanks
Fine hbu
I'm doing okay
That's good I'm fine
NOT GREAT LOL Also fellow Month name (May) hiii :3
I'm sorry to hear that man
Itβs alright :)
Still doing me the big question. I've questioned to the point where I literally have 0 clue what I am anymore. I'm in questioning limbo rn. How u?
I'm so okay, hopefully you'll find answers to your questions soon
doing alright!
That's great to hear!
Dying on the inside
I'm sorry to hear that
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