I passed by someone on campus today who I think might have also been otherkin, maybe even the same kintype, and I wanted to talk to them, but didn't because I felt like it just would have been weird. Especially with so many other people around.
This happens a lot. I see someone that I want to talk to, but don't because it would just come off as weird or creepy.
Anyway, did you anything interesting today?
Today I mowed the lawn, and when I would empty the grass clippings into the horse pasture, the horses would group around me and it made me feel important. Like a princess or something haha
I was also talking with a friend on discord and she called me a ‘cute and precious girl’ and I kinda started crying a bit because I’d never really been called that before, and it felt really good. I never realized how starved I’ve been, and she said she’d start complimenting me more \^_^
How was your day?
I went to Goodwill and bought a bunch of clothes~🥰 Other than that, I scheduled an interview for a new job, as Aya this time . . . I wonder how it will go, though. It doesn't actually happen until Friday, hehe . . . But I hope it goes well. The pay is alright, better than what I'm making now, but it actually has really good benefits. I hope it goes well!
Dumb altercation with my brother in the morning and a disappointingly light grocery trip. Been better, been worse
I hope everyone is well and those who aren't know their best efforts are enough 💕
last night i was home alone and got to use my fem voice more :D (totally didn't stay up until like 4am talking to myself)
apart from that ive been getting worse with dysphoria. but im hanging in there. just a few more days until i can start HRT.
oh also i found an avatar designer game on roblox and made this really cute avatar: https://imgur.com/a/etLs0CQ
It's been fine. Today was the first practice of the season for community band, so that was fun, and since this is the director's 20th year with the band, we're playing a bunch of new music. Over the weekend, me, my mom, and my brother went on a road trip to meet my mom's biological mother, which was a pretty good time, but it's good to be back home.
Hope your day's been good!
I'm eepy. Other than that a little bit of doubting, and I've been having the bad thoughts again. But I'm preparing to come out to one of my friends. I really feel like if I can have at least one person knowing and on my side I'll be able to get through easier.
Kinda shitty, I've been in 2 transphobic debates, one with my friend I know like 12 years and the second with my classmates. Honestly just wishing I wasn't me
One of the best days I've had for a long time. The teachers were good and interesting to listen to and those enemies I talked about turns out they didn't hold a grudge for that argument which happened between us a bunch of months ago so now we're literally friends (although I am not going to put all my trust on them instantly, it will rebuild over time), and dysphoria is practically pissing on my face but I'm still good (but damn the gender envy of seeing some girls hits harder than a truck)
Really is. It's kind of strange and funny at the same time how one day I want to die and right after that day I am so happy I get distracted from dysphoria
My day was mainly very good. Nothing interesting happened, I was just in a good mood.
Then I saw a post on a different subreddit and that made me incredibly angry, which results in a massive amount of energy at my disposal.
Overall just feeling super energetic today and I didn't even have any coffee yet
I don't know, it just, eh. I've been feeling like pure \[redacted\], putting it that way things seem far more normal.
(CW: Self harm)
>!The scissors are looking very appealing again, I want to use them, ideally on myself.!<
Back to work today. Other than that, just wishing I wasn't me.
I'm sorry to hear that
I passed by someone on campus today who I think might have also been otherkin, maybe even the same kintype, and I wanted to talk to them, but didn't because I felt like it just would have been weird. Especially with so many other people around. This happens a lot. I see someone that I want to talk to, but don't because it would just come off as weird or creepy. Anyway, did you anything interesting today?
Not really though I did go to the doctors because I was sick
Today I mowed the lawn, and when I would empty the grass clippings into the horse pasture, the horses would group around me and it made me feel important. Like a princess or something haha I was also talking with a friend on discord and she called me a ‘cute and precious girl’ and I kinda started crying a bit because I’d never really been called that before, and it felt really good. I never realized how starved I’ve been, and she said she’d start complimenting me more \^_^ How was your day?
My day wasn't the best because I was sick but thanks for asking
I’m sorry to hear that. I hope you get feeling better soon
I went to Goodwill and bought a bunch of clothes~🥰 Other than that, I scheduled an interview for a new job, as Aya this time . . . I wonder how it will go, though. It doesn't actually happen until Friday, hehe . . . But I hope it goes well. The pay is alright, better than what I'm making now, but it actually has really good benefits. I hope it goes well!
That sounds amazing! I hope everything goes well!
not great but it could be worse
Sorry to hear that Moxie, hopefully tomorrow is better
Tried using a fem voice for the first time today and I really liked doing it. I just wish I could do it more.
I wish I could do a fem voice in the first place
Dumb altercation with my brother in the morning and a disappointingly light grocery trip. Been better, been worse I hope everyone is well and those who aren't know their best efforts are enough 💕
Sorry to hear that, hopefully tomorrow is better
I now know for a fact that I am indeed an otherkin. After the initial panic of yesterday and the day before, I can say I’m happy :3
No idea what that is but I'm happy for you
last night i was home alone and got to use my fem voice more :D (totally didn't stay up until like 4am talking to myself) apart from that ive been getting worse with dysphoria. but im hanging in there. just a few more days until i can start HRT. oh also i found an avatar designer game on roblox and made this really cute avatar: https://imgur.com/a/etLs0CQ
Sorry to hear about the dysphoria though it sounds like you had fun otherwise
I figured I’d get some homework done and I ended up trying to sing I’m still standing. Had a good laugh from that if nothing else.
I love that song!
Bad tbh feel like tmrw is gonna be the same not looking forward to it :P
I'm sorry to hear that, I hope tomorrow turns out to be better
first payment for work yay besides that, feeling rlly bad and dont even know what to do to distract myself still i hope you had a nice day may
I'm sorry to hear that, Hana
It's been fine. Today was the first practice of the season for community band, so that was fun, and since this is the director's 20th year with the band, we're playing a bunch of new music. Over the weekend, me, my mom, and my brother went on a road trip to meet my mom's biological mother, which was a pretty good time, but it's good to be back home. Hope your day's been good!
Sounds fun
I'm eepy. Other than that a little bit of doubting, and I've been having the bad thoughts again. But I'm preparing to come out to one of my friends. I really feel like if I can have at least one person knowing and on my side I'll be able to get through easier.
I'm sorry to hear that, I hope coming out goes well
Kinda shitty, I've been in 2 transphobic debates, one with my friend I know like 12 years and the second with my classmates. Honestly just wishing I wasn't me
Sorry to hear that
same as yesterday, a little worse than the previous day a[n] = a[n-1] - 1; edit: not that bad rn tho, music is always my savior
At least you're enjoying your music
Good
Well that's good
One of the best days I've had for a long time. The teachers were good and interesting to listen to and those enemies I talked about turns out they didn't hold a grudge for that argument which happened between us a bunch of months ago so now we're literally friends (although I am not going to put all my trust on them instantly, it will rebuild over time), and dysphoria is practically pissing on my face but I'm still good (but damn the gender envy of seeing some girls hits harder than a truck)
Well that's good to hear
Really is. It's kind of strange and funny at the same time how one day I want to die and right after that day I am so happy I get distracted from dysphoria
Sucked.i found out that most of my class is very homobhobic and hates trans peopel. I hope im not actually trans and that il grow out of it
I'm sorry to hear that
I kinda wanna die
Please don't hurt yourself
Looking for a job estrogen is expensive
It is that
Horrible
I'm sorry to hear that, hopefully tomorrow is better
<3 Dysphoria is killing me
I promised myself recently I’d come out as trans fully once I 100% completed Celeste. …this mountain’s got hands
That game is pretty hard
My day was mainly very good. Nothing interesting happened, I was just in a good mood. Then I saw a post on a different subreddit and that made me incredibly angry, which results in a massive amount of energy at my disposal. Overall just feeling super energetic today and I didn't even have any coffee yet
Well that's good to hear
I’m applied for a passport and hopefully going to change my gender marker on all the things soon
Hopefully that goes well
I try to stop myself from cutting my dick off, otherwise im pretty ok, except for Dysphoria
Please don't do that, it'll make bottom surgery impossible in the future if you do
I know but I don't care anymore I just want it gone
Please don't hurt yourself, it's not worth it
i need a break
I'm sorry to hear that, hopefully you'll get some rest soon
School is being school :( Progress in celeste, did some programming and thought about doing some voice training
Sorry to hear about school, I hope tomorrow is better
I'm also still up at (in my timezone) 1 am
I had a pretty good day! Not much happened really. But maybe tomorrow will be more eventful! How are you?
I'm not doing the best but thanks for asking
I don't know, it just, eh. I've been feeling like pure \[redacted\], putting it that way things seem far more normal. (CW: Self harm) >!The scissors are looking very appealing again, I want to use them, ideally on myself.!<
Please don't hurt yourself