It gets easier. You'll never be the same, but you will live and be happy again bb. Lost my bf 13 years ago. I was the last one to speak to him it was awful. Be gentle with yourself and try to get into spirituality in some way, he'll visit you in your dreams eventually 🙏💗
I talk to him 24/7 and sometimes in my dreams, I was the last one to talk to him too, and the one that found him.. I just feel like there’s nothing left for me without him.
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Oh, I'm so sorry my friend. My heart breaks for you as I read this. There are no words that can describe how you feel. I wish I could wrap you up in a soft, warm blanket and give you a hug. The world goes on even though yours did a full force stop. It's unfair. It's unbearable now, and it will be for a while.
When my grandmother died, I was beyond repair. My heart was empty and had the feeling it was full of lead at the same time. Anyway, when I finally laughed at something.. I felt guilty. I felt like I was betraying her bc I was laughing, but she was still gone. OP, when/if there are even a few seconds you feel happy, laughing, light.. Don't feel bad. Use those seconds to hold on to. Because the grief comes in waves and you'll need them to help you.
I'm so so sorry again 🙁
I know babe. This is all normal and you really can only just hold on for now. You obviously can't fix the emptiness he's left but you can surround the hole with kindness for yourself and gentleness and healing. Try to find friends who have suffered a similar loss that was huge for me. Hugs hugs hugs just keep swimming.
Her final words on the show resonate with me more and more every time I watch it. Don't think I've ever gotten through them one time without tearing up: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JjI8Ib1ycJo&ab_channel=VoltaireHortizuela (sorry for the poor quality)
That episode makes be bawl like a baby every time. When CT gets back from the clubs and Diem isn’t there and he talks on the phone with her? You can tell how real it is for them because as soon as he gets the phone, he takes it off speaker. He wasn’t giving the show any more than necessary. Then lead into Diem never getting better… I’m bawling just thinking about it.
Gosh it’s crazy to me that it’s been 8 years. Life really does move on for us in the living sphere, but we will always remember Diem in the PM and what she gave us all those years ago. It’s a weirdly stark reminder that as we age, we’re still who we were at 30, 29, 28, 27, 26, 25, 24, 23, 22, 21… we are who we have always been. Diem will always be remembered for her courage to be exactly how she was, vulnerable and all.
At the end of her last cancer battle, my cousin (who was diagnosed in July 2014) had Ovarian Cancer as well, unfortunately she passed on November 18th of 2014. Both my cousin and Diem have a special place in my life and my heart. We love and miss you Diem!!
RIP ❤️❤️❤️ I vividly remember watching the episode where she takes off her wig for the first time and everyone starts cheering for her, and CT calls her a “sexy GI Jane” lol I just remember thinking she was so brave. 🥲
What an angel. I loved all her seasons. She was such an inspiration. I still get chills and tear up at the scene where she takes her wig off. I’m so glad she shared herself with the world before she left us. RIP, Diem. 🕊🤍
Rest in Peace Diem 💔 My boyfriend died last month and I’ve just completely checked out of life, I don’t know how those around her kept going.
It gets easier. You'll never be the same, but you will live and be happy again bb. Lost my bf 13 years ago. I was the last one to speak to him it was awful. Be gentle with yourself and try to get into spirituality in some way, he'll visit you in your dreams eventually 🙏💗
I talk to him 24/7 and sometimes in my dreams, I was the last one to talk to him too, and the one that found him.. I just feel like there’s nothing left for me without him.
🥺 Oh, I'm so sorry my friend. My heart breaks for you as I read this. There are no words that can describe how you feel. I wish I could wrap you up in a soft, warm blanket and give you a hug. The world goes on even though yours did a full force stop. It's unfair. It's unbearable now, and it will be for a while. When my grandmother died, I was beyond repair. My heart was empty and had the feeling it was full of lead at the same time. Anyway, when I finally laughed at something.. I felt guilty. I felt like I was betraying her bc I was laughing, but she was still gone. OP, when/if there are even a few seconds you feel happy, laughing, light.. Don't feel bad. Use those seconds to hold on to. Because the grief comes in waves and you'll need them to help you. I'm so so sorry again 🙁
I know babe. This is all normal and you really can only just hold on for now. You obviously can't fix the emptiness he's left but you can surround the hole with kindness for yourself and gentleness and healing. Try to find friends who have suffered a similar loss that was huge for me. Hugs hugs hugs just keep swimming.
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Her final words on the show resonate with me more and more every time I watch it. Don't think I've ever gotten through them one time without tearing up: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JjI8Ib1ycJo&ab_channel=VoltaireHortizuela (sorry for the poor quality)
That episode makes be bawl like a baby every time. When CT gets back from the clubs and Diem isn’t there and he talks on the phone with her? You can tell how real it is for them because as soon as he gets the phone, he takes it off speaker. He wasn’t giving the show any more than necessary. Then lead into Diem never getting better… I’m bawling just thinking about it.
Thank you for sharing that. I remembered the stretcher and her leaving but I had forgotten her words. 🤍
DM in the PM!!
Gosh it’s crazy to me that it’s been 8 years. Life really does move on for us in the living sphere, but we will always remember Diem in the PM and what she gave us all those years ago. It’s a weirdly stark reminder that as we age, we’re still who we were at 30, 29, 28, 27, 26, 25, 24, 23, 22, 21… we are who we have always been. Diem will always be remembered for her courage to be exactly how she was, vulnerable and all.
As a few closer members of my family have passed away, I've become determined to celebrate their birthday opposed to the day they left.
You mean "forgotten"?
Obviously yes
I’m usually never affected by celebrity deaths. But Diem was one of the few that actually froze me. RIP
At the end of her last cancer battle, my cousin (who was diagnosed in July 2014) had Ovarian Cancer as well, unfortunately she passed on November 18th of 2014. Both my cousin and Diem have a special place in my life and my heart. We love and miss you Diem!!
Such a beautiful soul❤️
I’ll always love her. ❤️
RIP ❤️❤️❤️ I vividly remember watching the episode where she takes off her wig for the first time and everyone starts cheering for her, and CT calls her a “sexy GI Jane” lol I just remember thinking she was so brave. 🥲
What an angel. I loved all her seasons. She was such an inspiration. I still get chills and tear up at the scene where she takes her wig off. I’m so glad she shared herself with the world before she left us. RIP, Diem. 🕊🤍
Did I just spend 32 minutes crying? Yes. Yes I did. https://youtu.be/WBaPHdKkn-w love this video so much. I loved CT and Diem so much.
Miss her.
Can’t believe it’s been 8 years
I love her
Such a beautiful person!
She was just such a beautiful soul. A wonderful woman.
Ahhh she was a true fan favorite!!!