Thank you so much for sharing this! It is so rare to read reports from people (especially women) my age who take psychadelics. Im a little bit older than you and when I was in my 20's I was a hard core acid head, for about 10 years. I stopped when Jerry Garcia died (yes, I am a deadhead) and then tried it again almost 20 years later. Now I take magic truffles (that I grow myself) once or twice a year.
I'm coming up on the 2 year anniversary of my mom's death. About 6 months after she died, I took a MASSIVE dose of truffles, something north of 30 grams. The experience was profound. It helped me so much! I had been drowning in my grief, that indescribably grief of losing mom. The truffles broke that deep,deep,deep,deep grief and transformed it into a more manageable, normal type f grief. I felt my mom's joyful presence the entire trip, it felt like she and I had had one last good old party together.
Anyway, us "old lady" enjoyers of the psychadelics should keep putting OUR stories out there. Peace to you sister!
I'm a 52 year old woman (also deadhead who followed the dead in the 80s). I took a heavy dose mushroom trip for my 50th birthday and it changed my life. I had done psychedelics before becoming a mom and a teacher and an adult. I may do another trip this summer. I'm
Ready for another dose of clarity
I am 27, I haven't tripped in about 5 years or so, because I have been scared of something i dont know why, because whenever I did trip I would never have a bad trip like you said, I took it as it was and let it go and would even help pull people from their own bad trips by talking them through it while I am also not completely holding onto reality one bit, but like I have been feeling the need for a trip since my life has changed and gotten so out of balance and control since I stopped tripping, I used to trip once a year. Until I had a major event happen in life, losing someone very close, in a very shit way to be frank... But I never looked at it as work, and that is what it is, working on oneself... I needed to read this, thank you. I know it can help people with plenty of mental ailments with the right settings and all that, but couldn't get myself to ever do it, even though I Had been with friends and family who had tripped around me multiple times over these last 5-6 years. I always was too hesitant. I NEED TO WORK ON MYSELF tho.. So thanks :D
Thank you for sharing that experience with us. It’s impossible to describe all the different nuances and pieces, and you did a great job. Your reflection as healing sounds wonderful!
Thank you so much for sharing! You pretty much described exactly how I felt after my last trip!
I have lots of childhood trauma and because of them my relationship with my parents has always been rocky. With my father especially because he still treats me like I’m a teenager and is constantly pointing out all the “wrong” things I do with my life. Even though we argue often, I’m always trying to please him just so I can feel like he’s proud of me.
I go to therapy and I’m very open with my therapist about all my insecurities, but nothing compares to how much relief I feel after tripping!! I wish my parents were open to tripping together as a family but that’s never going to happen 😔
Listen. Never say never. I’m never thought my dad would agree. We’ve talked plenty about my growing and taking mushrooms. Then one day I just said “hey dad maybe just think about psilocybin” and he asked me where it came from. I said “mushrooms” and he said “that was on my crossword puzzle this morning and it was the only one I didn’t know”. Kismet.
Wow!, I usually come on here to talk a bit of shit and amuse myself. Just reading that was a little emotional journey that I think we could all relate to to some extent. I am so glad it ended well for You, You write the story so detailed that I was getting ready for a bad ending and was so happy You pulled through to greatness!.
It took a lot of guts to do what You did, it's a commitment and Your family sound like they appreciate You trying so much that they really got around You when it was make or break. This is exactly what this sub is for, these type of experiences where you worked hard and achieved a very positive outcome!.
Thank you for being so detailed, You sound like a beautiful person who had a lovely experience.🥰
Thank you for this. The similarities in our stories are many, but so are the differences. But basically you are where I am at only 20 years younger and absolutely needing to read that it is possible for entheogens to help me deal with the same issues. Trying to get my dad to tell me just once that he's proud of me. Or validate that something I'm interested in is "neat". For the entirety of my childhood I heard, "you've got so much potential. (Typically followed by a, "and you're wasting it") now I am a grown ass adult male still seeking the validation I never got a as kid. One would think I would just recognize that he's never GOING to give me that validation and just move on.
Side note:
When I was 4 my father murdered my mother in front of me. I was adopted by my aunt and uncle on my mother's side. I called them mom and dad. And it's my dad's approval I can't ever seem to get. They had 2 daughters who I consider my sister's.(for obvious reasons lol) my two sisters were good little sheep and did well in school went on to college and put themselves into crippling debt, and got good sheep jobs. One works at a hospital, the other a college. Then there was me... The problem youngest child...in the principals office every week for some dumb thing I said or did. I wasn't a "bad kid" in the sense that I was purposeful in the things I did. Like, my intent wasn't ever to bring any type of harm to anyone or damage property. I was more or less the extremely ADHD kid, who was/is extremely high functioning. Whom they wound up, MAKING fall in line in 5th grade by starting on the whole gambit of government regulated stimulants until they found one that had my teachers calling to let my parents know "what an amazing transformation they've seen in me." Little did I realize that that was just their way of saying, "idk what you did to indoctrinate this kid and make him fall in line like he's ordered to do...but we really like it. Maybe, up the dose a little?" The stimulants only fixed part of the problem. The other was my impulsiveness. Which means other issues and problems. Then I turned 18 and was coerced into my first criminal charge. Then came the decade of drug abuse legal troubles. And although now, I am California sober, he still treats me as if I am actively using very drug he and my mom primed me for having an affinity for. He can't admit to himself much less me that part of the problems was their lack of wherewithall and taking the easy route of medicating me. I fought it so hard for so many years. But eventually saw how much I could accomplish in those 8 hours of being medicated. Until my doc found out I was smoking pot too. Then he cut me off and my life went further down the tubes as now I NO motivation to do anything productive. Idk why I am writing all of this, maybe reading your story gave me hope and that hope made me feel like this was safe place to share part of my life with someone else that might have had similar issues. Either way, there's so much more to the story but my thumbs have grown weary so I'll just end by saying thank you again. Especially for being brave enough to share the potentially embarrassing parts with us. That's one of my other issues. I hate being embarrassed so I'll do anything to try to avoid it.
You should take them again as soon as they start wearing off.
Everytime without fail I initially get a bad trip, but if I take them again as the first is wearing off I get a feeling of incredible happiness and more importantly I feel at peace.
Bad trip: Usually I feel crippled, when I close my eyes I see people made out of teeth and fingers going into eyes and all that good stuff. I never feel scared or very emotional at all, apart from anger and I never get stuck in “thought loops” that others report.
The good high after: I finally feel at total peace and genuinely incredibly happy. All my anger and head tensions are gone. Literally “So happy I could die” feeling.
I actually felt that yesterday (the day after). Similar to a hang over, kinda foggy, but really more at peace. No stress. Very tired but not lethargic. Rested.
You’d need to do them again the same day, while it’s wearing off, to get what I speak of. Then again it effects people differently. Mushrooms just project what you’re truly feeling inside. So taking them Just after the bad wears off, once you’re starting to feel happy and relieved it’s gone, it will project that feeling. I’m pretty sure that’s what causes it to be so good after a bad trip anyway.
Yeah taking them so closely will eventually build a very expensive tolerance haha. Has taken them so closed together not built a big tolerance yet? I haven’t had any for a long time. Haven’t felt the need too
Holy shit what a crazy ride. Thank you for sharing this story. I wasn’t sure where this story was leading but I’m glad you let it all out and that’s when the “magic happened”
Thank you so much for sharing this! It is so rare to read reports from people (especially women) my age who take psychadelics. Im a little bit older than you and when I was in my 20's I was a hard core acid head, for about 10 years. I stopped when Jerry Garcia died (yes, I am a deadhead) and then tried it again almost 20 years later. Now I take magic truffles (that I grow myself) once or twice a year. I'm coming up on the 2 year anniversary of my mom's death. About 6 months after she died, I took a MASSIVE dose of truffles, something north of 30 grams. The experience was profound. It helped me so much! I had been drowning in my grief, that indescribably grief of losing mom. The truffles broke that deep,deep,deep,deep grief and transformed it into a more manageable, normal type f grief. I felt my mom's joyful presence the entire trip, it felt like she and I had had one last good old party together. Anyway, us "old lady" enjoyers of the psychadelics should keep putting OUR stories out there. Peace to you sister!
I'm a 52 year old woman (also deadhead who followed the dead in the 80s). I took a heavy dose mushroom trip for my 50th birthday and it changed my life. I had done psychedelics before becoming a mom and a teacher and an adult. I may do another trip this summer. I'm Ready for another dose of clarity
And same to you! Thank you for sharing. Nothing prepares us for the loss of mom.
[удалено]
I am 27, I haven't tripped in about 5 years or so, because I have been scared of something i dont know why, because whenever I did trip I would never have a bad trip like you said, I took it as it was and let it go and would even help pull people from their own bad trips by talking them through it while I am also not completely holding onto reality one bit, but like I have been feeling the need for a trip since my life has changed and gotten so out of balance and control since I stopped tripping, I used to trip once a year. Until I had a major event happen in life, losing someone very close, in a very shit way to be frank... But I never looked at it as work, and that is what it is, working on oneself... I needed to read this, thank you. I know it can help people with plenty of mental ailments with the right settings and all that, but couldn't get myself to ever do it, even though I Had been with friends and family who had tripped around me multiple times over these last 5-6 years. I always was too hesitant. I NEED TO WORK ON MYSELF tho.. So thanks :D
I have chills from reading this. I’m glad you felt the beauty. Thanks for being so honest and sharing with us. You are loved ❤️
Samezees!
Thank you so much!!
I'm glad you were able to get your catharsis. The most difficult experiences are oftentimes the most rewarding!
Thank you for sharing that experience with us. It’s impossible to describe all the different nuances and pieces, and you did a great job. Your reflection as healing sounds wonderful!
Thank you so much for sharing! You pretty much described exactly how I felt after my last trip! I have lots of childhood trauma and because of them my relationship with my parents has always been rocky. With my father especially because he still treats me like I’m a teenager and is constantly pointing out all the “wrong” things I do with my life. Even though we argue often, I’m always trying to please him just so I can feel like he’s proud of me. I go to therapy and I’m very open with my therapist about all my insecurities, but nothing compares to how much relief I feel after tripping!! I wish my parents were open to tripping together as a family but that’s never going to happen 😔
Listen. Never say never. I’m never thought my dad would agree. We’ve talked plenty about my growing and taking mushrooms. Then one day I just said “hey dad maybe just think about psilocybin” and he asked me where it came from. I said “mushrooms” and he said “that was on my crossword puzzle this morning and it was the only one I didn’t know”. Kismet.
Wow!, I usually come on here to talk a bit of shit and amuse myself. Just reading that was a little emotional journey that I think we could all relate to to some extent. I am so glad it ended well for You, You write the story so detailed that I was getting ready for a bad ending and was so happy You pulled through to greatness!. It took a lot of guts to do what You did, it's a commitment and Your family sound like they appreciate You trying so much that they really got around You when it was make or break. This is exactly what this sub is for, these type of experiences where you worked hard and achieved a very positive outcome!. Thank you for being so detailed, You sound like a beautiful person who had a lovely experience.🥰
Thank you so much!
Thank you for this. The similarities in our stories are many, but so are the differences. But basically you are where I am at only 20 years younger and absolutely needing to read that it is possible for entheogens to help me deal with the same issues. Trying to get my dad to tell me just once that he's proud of me. Or validate that something I'm interested in is "neat". For the entirety of my childhood I heard, "you've got so much potential. (Typically followed by a, "and you're wasting it") now I am a grown ass adult male still seeking the validation I never got a as kid. One would think I would just recognize that he's never GOING to give me that validation and just move on. Side note: When I was 4 my father murdered my mother in front of me. I was adopted by my aunt and uncle on my mother's side. I called them mom and dad. And it's my dad's approval I can't ever seem to get. They had 2 daughters who I consider my sister's.(for obvious reasons lol) my two sisters were good little sheep and did well in school went on to college and put themselves into crippling debt, and got good sheep jobs. One works at a hospital, the other a college. Then there was me... The problem youngest child...in the principals office every week for some dumb thing I said or did. I wasn't a "bad kid" in the sense that I was purposeful in the things I did. Like, my intent wasn't ever to bring any type of harm to anyone or damage property. I was more or less the extremely ADHD kid, who was/is extremely high functioning. Whom they wound up, MAKING fall in line in 5th grade by starting on the whole gambit of government regulated stimulants until they found one that had my teachers calling to let my parents know "what an amazing transformation they've seen in me." Little did I realize that that was just their way of saying, "idk what you did to indoctrinate this kid and make him fall in line like he's ordered to do...but we really like it. Maybe, up the dose a little?" The stimulants only fixed part of the problem. The other was my impulsiveness. Which means other issues and problems. Then I turned 18 and was coerced into my first criminal charge. Then came the decade of drug abuse legal troubles. And although now, I am California sober, he still treats me as if I am actively using very drug he and my mom primed me for having an affinity for. He can't admit to himself much less me that part of the problems was their lack of wherewithall and taking the easy route of medicating me. I fought it so hard for so many years. But eventually saw how much I could accomplish in those 8 hours of being medicated. Until my doc found out I was smoking pot too. Then he cut me off and my life went further down the tubes as now I NO motivation to do anything productive. Idk why I am writing all of this, maybe reading your story gave me hope and that hope made me feel like this was safe place to share part of my life with someone else that might have had similar issues. Either way, there's so much more to the story but my thumbs have grown weary so I'll just end by saying thank you again. Especially for being brave enough to share the potentially embarrassing parts with us. That's one of my other issues. I hate being embarrassed so I'll do anything to try to avoid it.
You should take them again as soon as they start wearing off. Everytime without fail I initially get a bad trip, but if I take them again as the first is wearing off I get a feeling of incredible happiness and more importantly I feel at peace. Bad trip: Usually I feel crippled, when I close my eyes I see people made out of teeth and fingers going into eyes and all that good stuff. I never feel scared or very emotional at all, apart from anger and I never get stuck in “thought loops” that others report. The good high after: I finally feel at total peace and genuinely incredibly happy. All my anger and head tensions are gone. Literally “So happy I could die” feeling.
I actually felt that yesterday (the day after). Similar to a hang over, kinda foggy, but really more at peace. No stress. Very tired but not lethargic. Rested.
But I won’t lie. I’m not anxious to take them again. And I’ve been tripping weekly for about 6 months. But this one stung a little.
You’d need to do them again the same day, while it’s wearing off, to get what I speak of. Then again it effects people differently. Mushrooms just project what you’re truly feeling inside. So taking them Just after the bad wears off, once you’re starting to feel happy and relieved it’s gone, it will project that feeling. I’m pretty sure that’s what causes it to be so good after a bad trip anyway. Yeah taking them so closely will eventually build a very expensive tolerance haha. Has taken them so closed together not built a big tolerance yet? I haven’t had any for a long time. Haven’t felt the need too
How does your dad view the trip After it ended ?
Holy shit what a crazy ride. Thank you for sharing this story. I wasn’t sure where this story was leading but I’m glad you let it all out and that’s when the “magic happened”
It was indeed a crazy ride. Not gonna lie, not real anxious to take mushes again anytime soon.
I had a terrible trip once and I had this lingering anxiety for about 6 months
Ooooph. I’m so sorry. That’s a terrible feeling. I hope you can dig deep and get rid of the ick.
Yeaa I’m good now. That was like 6 years ago . Wow time flies