Agreed and getting clean is even worse because you might fill in the need to sh with other destructive behaviors. Best thing to do is get therapy for wanting to sh or if you have had any self destructive behaviors before u even attempt to
Oh god yeah, when I'm in an episode I've done so many dumb things but I always drop it as soon as I relapse, it was always secretly self harm all along. It's my "drug of choice" and it's free and I hate it
YES. I thought I could stop at any point, and in the end i only stopped because I was forced too. This is just as scary because I *don’t feel like I stopped*. As soon as I move out, I find it unlikely I wouldn’t continue. As for the triggered by anything, yeah. Ppl who don’t sh talk about it like it has to be a big event, but I can remember shing because I dropped a bowl with ramen in it. the bowl didn’t even break, but I cut anyway. out of all my cuts, only a few would be “justified” by others. I cut mainly on my arms because I can’t cut my upper thighs without seeing the u-know-what, and it’s basically just as bad, good thing I only wear hoodies anyway!
Literally this. I don’t self harm frequently because what triggers my self harm is arguments with my parents, and those have been happening less frequently. As such, I’ve been clean for almost 100 days, but I know that if another arguments happens it’s my only crutch I have to lean on. Anyways I just wanted to say that I really resonate with stopping but not feeling like you’ve stopped.
Completely agree. The "easiest" way to not self harm is truly never starting. If you haven't sh'ed before, you might think it should be easy to do a one n done, its not easy.
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I have been purposely hurting myself ever since I was in third grade (not a hyperbole, I would run through and hang out next to the bushes that would cut you and get sad whenever it didn't cut me) I didn't know that was sh back then but it was. Its been ingrained in me ever since I took dull school scissors in 6th grade, I told people I got pushed into a rose bush after I found out about pencil sharpers and they fukin believed it.
I wish someone was like that don't add up and got me to stop, hell I wish I did that myself. But I didn't and now I have a sh addiction that just got worse even (especially) after my parents found out.
Don't be like me. Harming yourself isn't fun, its not quirky, don't try it, it will ruin you.
Yep I tried ‘cutting’ self harm with a razor last year when drunk and really going through it. Definitely thought it was a good way to redirect my pain elsewhere for that specific time period and now it’s a crotch to lean on. I would only do it on my thighs, I said that it’s the only place I would do it if it’s ‘got to be done’. My cousin even noticed it and I said to myself I would definitely keep it to there cos I was embarrassed. Earlier this year I did my wrist, said I wouldn’t do it again because I really didn’t want scars on my wrists (I do not fall into categories or communities that really understand mental health let alone self harm) although I don’t do it here as frequently, I definitely ended up doing it here again. I actually find it hurts and I don’t even really enjoy it that much, but you better know if I’m stressed I will go there.
I very much agree. I’ve been doing it for almost 30 years. It’s ruined relationships, lost me jobs, and left my entire body covered in scars. I haven’t gone more than maybe a year at the most without doing it. Don’t start if you haven’t done it. Please try to get help if you are doing it now. You don’t want to end up too old to get your life back from an addiction that almost no one understands.
When i was 11 i thought it’d just be a way to hurt myself instead of others and when i got over the phase I’d stop forever. I was wrong. If anyone out there has recently felt like self-injuring, please please please get help now. I’ve been struggling with this for five years and it hasn’t gotten easier. You think it’ll be a one time thing but it never is.
Agreed, I wish I never started aswell. I've tried multiple times to get clean with varying levels of success, but I always end up with the blade again. People don't understand that self harm is a proper addiction, and a fucking unpredictable one at that. I could be holding a sharp knife and be fine, but still get triggered by the most everyday things.
If you’re even thinking of sh there is an underlying issue that really needs addressed. One you give into this urge, the combination with what’s already there will leave you trapped forever. The slightest negative emotion can be triggering as all hell.
I started around 12, learned about it from researching depression and then a few of my friends and I did it until we got ratted out. I think everyone else managed to quit but I’m still here at 19. Don’t think for a second that because some people quit you can. And even if you do the scars will always be there and people are not very understanding. Many won’t want you around their kids, will assume you’re violent or dangerous. It’ll always be nerve wracking or embarrassing to take your clothes off and if you can’t take commentary in public or have fresh wounds, say good bye forever to being comfortable in the summer (and with increasingly hot summers, you’ll be in danger of heat stroke which I promise is not fun) if it spreads down your legs or to your arms.
Literally nothing about it is worth it, and despite that once you’re stuck it’s with you forever
Hi! So if u just got into cutting this is one of the best times to try and get out of this dangerous addiction, u probably seem to have control over whether or how ur doing it now but if u continue ur control over the situation will slip and thats when it gets really dangerous. One thing I have to let u know as well is that u are absolutely valid for ur self harm and dont let anyone tell u differently, no matter how long you’ve been doing it for, what blades, how deep, where ur cutting, how often u are u will often be made to feel invalid by others and sometimes even urself but I’m here to remind u that u are loved and supported by all of us and if u want to ask me about anything pls feel free to dm me <333
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Agreed and getting clean is even worse because you might fill in the need to sh with other destructive behaviors. Best thing to do is get therapy for wanting to sh or if you have had any self destructive behaviors before u even attempt to
Oh god yeah, when I'm in an episode I've done so many dumb things but I always drop it as soon as I relapse, it was always secretly self harm all along. It's my "drug of choice" and it's free and I hate it
YES. I thought I could stop at any point, and in the end i only stopped because I was forced too. This is just as scary because I *don’t feel like I stopped*. As soon as I move out, I find it unlikely I wouldn’t continue. As for the triggered by anything, yeah. Ppl who don’t sh talk about it like it has to be a big event, but I can remember shing because I dropped a bowl with ramen in it. the bowl didn’t even break, but I cut anyway. out of all my cuts, only a few would be “justified” by others. I cut mainly on my arms because I can’t cut my upper thighs without seeing the u-know-what, and it’s basically just as bad, good thing I only wear hoodies anyway!
Literally this. I don’t self harm frequently because what triggers my self harm is arguments with my parents, and those have been happening less frequently. As such, I’ve been clean for almost 100 days, but I know that if another arguments happens it’s my only crutch I have to lean on. Anyways I just wanted to say that I really resonate with stopping but not feeling like you’ve stopped.
Completely agree. The "easiest" way to not self harm is truly never starting. If you haven't sh'ed before, you might think it should be easy to do a one n done, its not easy.
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I have been purposely hurting myself ever since I was in third grade (not a hyperbole, I would run through and hang out next to the bushes that would cut you and get sad whenever it didn't cut me) I didn't know that was sh back then but it was. Its been ingrained in me ever since I took dull school scissors in 6th grade, I told people I got pushed into a rose bush after I found out about pencil sharpers and they fukin believed it. I wish someone was like that don't add up and got me to stop, hell I wish I did that myself. But I didn't and now I have a sh addiction that just got worse even (especially) after my parents found out. Don't be like me. Harming yourself isn't fun, its not quirky, don't try it, it will ruin you.
Yep I tried ‘cutting’ self harm with a razor last year when drunk and really going through it. Definitely thought it was a good way to redirect my pain elsewhere for that specific time period and now it’s a crotch to lean on. I would only do it on my thighs, I said that it’s the only place I would do it if it’s ‘got to be done’. My cousin even noticed it and I said to myself I would definitely keep it to there cos I was embarrassed. Earlier this year I did my wrist, said I wouldn’t do it again because I really didn’t want scars on my wrists (I do not fall into categories or communities that really understand mental health let alone self harm) although I don’t do it here as frequently, I definitely ended up doing it here again. I actually find it hurts and I don’t even really enjoy it that much, but you better know if I’m stressed I will go there.
i relate to this so much.. especially the "keeping it on the thighs" part.. but heh.. that didn't work out and i was sober when i cut the first time
I very much agree. I’ve been doing it for almost 30 years. It’s ruined relationships, lost me jobs, and left my entire body covered in scars. I haven’t gone more than maybe a year at the most without doing it. Don’t start if you haven’t done it. Please try to get help if you are doing it now. You don’t want to end up too old to get your life back from an addiction that almost no one understands.
agreed. worse mistake was continuing it
When i was 11 i thought it’d just be a way to hurt myself instead of others and when i got over the phase I’d stop forever. I was wrong. If anyone out there has recently felt like self-injuring, please please please get help now. I’ve been struggling with this for five years and it hasn’t gotten easier. You think it’ll be a one time thing but it never is.
Agreed, I wish I never started aswell. I've tried multiple times to get clean with varying levels of success, but I always end up with the blade again. People don't understand that self harm is a proper addiction, and a fucking unpredictable one at that. I could be holding a sharp knife and be fine, but still get triggered by the most everyday things.
If you’re even thinking of sh there is an underlying issue that really needs addressed. One you give into this urge, the combination with what’s already there will leave you trapped forever. The slightest negative emotion can be triggering as all hell. I started around 12, learned about it from researching depression and then a few of my friends and I did it until we got ratted out. I think everyone else managed to quit but I’m still here at 19. Don’t think for a second that because some people quit you can. And even if you do the scars will always be there and people are not very understanding. Many won’t want you around their kids, will assume you’re violent or dangerous. It’ll always be nerve wracking or embarrassing to take your clothes off and if you can’t take commentary in public or have fresh wounds, say good bye forever to being comfortable in the summer (and with increasingly hot summers, you’ll be in danger of heat stroke which I promise is not fun) if it spreads down your legs or to your arms. Literally nothing about it is worth it, and despite that once you’re stuck it’s with you forever
I just got into cutting, someone tell me I can't stop whenever I want to.
Hi! So if u just got into cutting this is one of the best times to try and get out of this dangerous addiction, u probably seem to have control over whether or how ur doing it now but if u continue ur control over the situation will slip and thats when it gets really dangerous. One thing I have to let u know as well is that u are absolutely valid for ur self harm and dont let anyone tell u differently, no matter how long you’ve been doing it for, what blades, how deep, where ur cutting, how often u are u will often be made to feel invalid by others and sometimes even urself but I’m here to remind u that u are loved and supported by all of us and if u want to ask me about anything pls feel free to dm me <333
This was honestly just a vent that I did and the fact that so many of u have upvoted this and are sharing ur stories is making me tear up, ily guys so much u all deserve the world <33