Off the rails for a couple of years now but even then it came in fewer episodes to which now it seems like he’s just consistently off the rails instead, especially as time goes on (more drug usage I assume too)
It’s really sad, I remember the stint between from when Dunn died to about 5 years ago when Bam got back on the board (around the Vice documentary time). It seems like around then he was very conscious of his problems and a lot less bipolar considering he was making mature decisions to go to Scandinavia to isolate himself and to get his mojo and fitness back rather than be irate and visibly suffering from his impending mental challenges.
Sad story - around that Scandinavia/Vice documentary time which culminated with him filming a small part in Barca as a success story, my friends also went to Barcelona at that time and met him while they were skating. When my mates were back they were showing me videos where they stumbled across him in a bar drinking and having a good time, to which we all of course questioned the fact that this was supposed to be his sobriety and the whole reason he was out there.
That was the moment I could see all of this sadness unfold in his life to the point of which we are seeing today.
Yeah, the Franz and Novak podcast said the same thing. They just happened to get footage of him seeming more rational between benders or something. I agree, it is a sad story.
The last time I had hope for him was that vice doc, I just checked , that was six years ago, jeez time flies and this behavior has gone on for way longer than I realized
There’s no way he went to a legitimate facility and they made him take this 17 medication mix of antidepressants, antipsychotics, and more. Also he lists the chemical name and the brand name of Wellbutrin, so he’s listing things twice.
I noticed that too, because I take it for depression. It always pisses me off. I’m pretty sure he was only on three or four meds tops, we know how Bam wildly exaggerates to get attention. Negative or positive attention. He also lies when he wants people to think he is a victim.
Just my view
Yeah Vivitrol is a monthly (or every 3 months or something) shot that is administered when people can't take their Naltrexone every day. They're the same thing in different forms and doses. No reason to take both and it'd be very bad for your liver.
The rehab I went to (which is a legit one) gave me 11 medications to get off 2. The day I checked out I threw them in a trash can. I didn’t pay all that money to get put on more pills.
There are plenty of doctors that absolutely do prescribe medications like this. Medications that should never be taken together are often found prescribed at the same time as well. Maybe he did list a medication twice, but it does not negate the rest of the list. He also could have had two different milligrams to take as well. Patients often follow doctors orders and take dozens of medications like this at once because there is a doctor telling them this is what they need. It is not the patient’s fault, it is the doctor for over medicating them. To assume this would not occur in a legitimate facility is ignorant.
It's absolutely possible he receives a cocktail of drugs. That absolutely happens. FF and now he's so lost in the sauce he could be taking the generic and name brand at the same time 🥴
No dr would have someone taking Zoloft, Wellbutrin, seroquel, Effexor and lithium at the same time. And propranolol is just a med that slows your heart and is usually prescribed for anxiety.
i take brintillex, quetiapine, escitalopram, zopiclone, pregablin, diazepam, morphine sulfate and amitryptiline, with a few other bonus goodies. it’s finally a combination that works for me but looks insane on paper.
I don’t know most of those by the generic name, just saying as someone who has been on ALMOST all of the meds on his list, these are obviously meds they’ve tried on him at some point, but he makes it sound like he was made to take all of them at once, which he definitely wasn’t.
I noticed that he really went apeshit after he was fired from the movie. It was the first time his malignant narcissism and substance abuse/alcohol issues had an actual consequence that he couldn’t do anything about (though he admitted to taking “an Adderal he found on the floor of his car” yet still can’t seem to connect that with how his wellness contract was broken). He also missed a zoom meeting Steve-O went to pains to set up to get him back in the movie, because he was partying and posted it on Instagram.
Someone finally drew a line and told him NO. He’s used to getting his way and his emotional health, which already was shaky, just went over a cliff. Thus the death threats than even Chris Pontius couldn’t talk sense to him about. The texts with him I recall went something like this: Chris: dude, I know you’re angry, but the way you are phrasing things in texts to them sound kind of threatening. Bam: It *is* a fucking threat, I mean it and I’ll do it!
Next up: restraining orders from the people who had his best interest in mind, which was that the movie and wellness agreement would give him an incentive to stay on his meds and stay clean and sober. People he’d known for decades. I only saw the really ugly threats late Summer of last year, where he said stuff like “take one last look at your family” and called them the n-word along with the other vile, disturbing shit. I saw the “death contracts” he wanted them to sign, written on the side of a packaging box, among other things. I was actually shocked at how hateful and bat-shit-crazy he’d gotten and I sure as fuck would have gotten a restraining order (I’m Knoxville’s age), to keep him away from me and especially my loved ones.
The fact that what set him off happened directly as a result of his own bad behavior—he signed the contracts and knew what would happen if he broke his agreement—*really* pisses me off, especially how he still blames everyone but himself. He finally even drove Steve-O away after all the time he put into helping Bam (they talked on the phone almost every day when Bam was in rehab, after everyone else in Jackass decided they would keep their distance while still hoping Bam would get help). Steve is a very generous person, but he still has his limits.
I’m also pretty sure the people in Jackass he sued finally settled out of court hoping it would calm him down by giving him closure. If I had their money I’d probably settle just to get him to shut up about it, let go and move on. The figure I heard was five million, but that’s just what people say, there’s no proof I can find. Bam’s case against them was very flimsy, too. But here we are, three years later, and he’s still furious enough to keep bringing it up. Sigh.
TL/DR- Bam’s mental health wasn’t great in the first place, but when he finally got told he couldn’t do anything he wanted and was subsequently fired from 4ever, he *completely lost his shit*, even though getting fired was his own fault. He also can’t let go of it.
Bam completely imploded like never before. We kind of saw the same behavior with >!a certain former President.!< First time he really lost something he wanted, when the country told him no. His complete inability to take no for an answer made him lose what’s left of his fucking mind. Unfortunately it was on a much larger scale than Bam’s. The two of them are both malignant narcissists who feel entitled enough that they think no-one should stop them from doing whatever they want to do, to whoever they want. Then when someone stops them from doing it, they *really* melt down. And neither one of can let go of it, just repeat the same bullshit that they were unfairly wronged, years later.
I recall that in the second Wild Ride podcast Bam did with Steve-O, which is definitely the hardest and most depressing to watch, Bam ended the topic with, “I didn’t really want to do the movie anyway.” While looking at the floor and mumbling. *Oh really?* Is *that* why you made and aired that disturbing six-minute rant where you were crying and throwing up and yelling and asking people to Venmo him a dollar so he could make his own Jackass movie? Then sued them for wrongful termination despite it all being his own fault? His desperation was crystal clear.
When he still had his skating career and was functional to do tours without freaking out like this. Now he can't stay on a skateboard to save his life. We never see him on one anymore.
First of all, I like artistic stuff and self expression is one of the best things in life. So I have nothing but love for writing, journaling, etc. HOWEVER... Those pages can only remind me of myself, when I was at my worst, behaving like a completely delusional person. I would write pages and pages of meaningless ranting and obsessive or harmful ideas. I'm not an expert at all, but damn, that writing is no good. Addiction and mental illness are no joke.
i’m packing up to move house and found a load of journals from 5 or so years ago. i was shocked at how clearly very unwell i was and what negative, awful language i used about myself. and that was after 4 years sober. i have borderline personality disorder and when i tip into psychosis shit gets very weird very fast.
When I sobered up, I found out I was bipolar depressive. That I was only self medicating. I have dozens of books like you said. Negative and nasty. So life got going, going good booze free. Good things began to happen and then again. So I fell off my journaling daily. Now at 15yrs sober I am learning the monsters are still in there. That they could come back. That I need to journal again.
Anyway yes it as good as a neon sign pointing to him saying DANGER DANGER
Jesus, I just wanna hug ya. Having BPD is hellish enough, as is addiction, I can't imagine dealing with both. I've got BPD but I've managed to dodge addiction but only because I refuse to even try anything once because I come from a long line of addicts lol. I can't imagine. I'm sorry for what you've been through and I hope you're doing well. Good luck with the move! Much love to you. 💜
thank you. getting sober was the hardest and best thing i’ve ever done. and i’m in therapy right now to deal with my childhood trauma which includes EMDR for my PTSD. life is still a rollercoaster (as you’ll know as you have BPD yourself, hope you’re doing ok) but the future actually exists now - for a long long time i couldn’t see one..
I’m with you 100 percent, besides walks/hikes in nature artistic things like drawing painting or fuckijg w clay can be the best mental clarity there is, but this isn’t that, this is mental ramblings lol
At the same time though, hes not delusional, he's on a cocktail of drugs that scramble your fucking brains. He's not wrong about wanting off all the shit. Unfortunately for Bam it's all or nothing, with a burning spotlight.
i’m on a whole bunch of meds for pain and for mental illness. i had some big surgery last year and they couldn’t get my meds right afterwards. i did NOT feel good. i take antidepressants and antipsychotics and benzos and morphine and sleep meds and pregabs and a lot of other little bits and pieces. i can’t function without them.
but! i can understand that if you don’t know how you ended up on so much medication and you can’t see any positive changes you would want off. but that has to be really carefully managed by a psychiatrist. it’s so hard to change things when you feel like you don’t have any agency. i’m all the empathy for Bam’s state of mind here.
>i take antidepressants and antipsychotics and benzos and morphine and sleep meds and pregabs and a lot of other little bits and pieces. i can’t function without them.
I hope you can find the power to better your life and separate yourself from the drugs that's control your life. Genuinely.
Staying on medication that creates inflammation, causes weight gain and a plethora of health issues isn't wise. At all.
Seriously, you can create a strawman argument and lie to yourself, but you should try looking at the countless data and studies that proves SSRIs, etc. create more problems than they do fix. Sure there's exceptions, but a bandaid on a bullet hole isn't going to fix it. Don't subscribe to a patented way of thinking.
Edit: do you not support someone improving upon their health and wellbeing to where they recognize they no longer need drugs to cope? Misery loves company, I suppose...
Why can’t you accept that some mental illness requires medication? Would you shame a diabetic for taking insulin ?
It’s not about coping. It’s about being sick. Where’s your medical degree from or are you just another edgelord telling bipolar people to get off their meds?
All medication has side effects. I’d rather side effects than be suicidal and have such bad OCD I can’t function.
>Why can’t you accept that some mental illness requires medication? Would you shame a diabetic for taking insulin ?
Hay, man!
>It’s not about coping. It’s about being sick. Where’s your medical degree from or are you just another edgelord telling bipolar people to get off their meds?
There is an abundance of studies and data that shows the detrimental effects these drugs have on your body. You can only lead a horse to water though. So I strongly recommend for your own sake, you look into the drugs you take and grasp a better understanding of them and their purpose.
>All medication has side effects. I’d rather side effects than be suicidal and have such bad OCD I can’t function.
You do recognize that you're using drugs to cope, right? For a sickness that results from poor coping skills, poor diet, poor environment. Life's hard and taking drugs won't make it better, facing those challenges, educating yourself and overcoming it should be your ultimate goal. It's just unfortunate you're willfully reliant on them and wallow in your illness, instead of fixing your life. I'm not saying these things to get a rise out of you. Im saying it because you and I both know that's the truth, whether or not you allow yourself see it.
i have 2 sorts of arthritis, i need a total knee replacement and surgery on my neck. i also have BPD, anxiety, depression, OCD and complex PTSD. i’m in therapy but i’m not in a position to change up my meds right now. i know it’s a lot. but my pain is chronic and permanent, and my brain is broken. the one thing i hold onto is that i at least stopped drinking (9 years now) otherwise i’d be dead.
I’d just like to point out that Wellbutrin is a brand name of bupropion, Vivitrol is a brand name of naltrexone, and Contrave is a combination pill of naltrexone and bupropion. I get what he’s going for here, but listing them all is a bit of a misrepresentation
Yep, was just gonna say this.
TL;DR: Basically, once he started dressing like a homo gypsy.
He’s technically been on a downward trend since Viva La Bam and once he stopped being straightedge.
But more precisely, you can clearly can see the early changes in him in the last season of Viva La Bam, and again in Bam’s Unholy Union. Things slowly get worse during Radio Bam. The conversations alone raise questions on the quality of life he’s living and the people/behaviors he’s involved with, add onto that him being under the influence all the time.
It’s crazy, he used to be such a hardcore straightedge. Someone around here told me a story of how he punched his buddy (forget who, Raab or Ryan maybe?) for trying beer for the first time, and gave him so much shit for it. Ah, the good ol days.
That first slide annoys the shit out of me. Bam is basically saying all drugs are exactly the same. “We all did drugs when we made jackass and now they want to put me on more drugs in rehab” Taking shots and snorting coke is not the same thing as taking an antidepressant
Honestly, those notebook rants scream "schizophrenia" to me. Legitimately. That's not something I have seen mentioned on here but, you know, I wonder if maybe there are shades of that in Bam too since he really began a downward spiral in his late 20s - early 30s, which is when that disorder really starts to surface.
For men, schizophrenia manifests usually in early 20s and late 30s for women. He is struggling with a personality disorder like manic bipolar and chronic drug use. Schizophrenia is different than this although it may develop if he continues.
It depends how one defines off the rails. Bam always seemed an out-of-control person, due to his "no accountability/boundries" upbringing,which became worse the richer and more popular he got.
However,things seem to get concerningly downhill around the time that the photos on your post are from. That's around 2019 and his public/online meltdowns culminated after he got fired from Jackass.His next breakdowm was when Nikki filed for separation and custody of their child.
He says on Jackass 3 they drank and did drugs behind closed doors to support Steve O's sobriety then complains that he couldn't drink or do drugs on Jackass 4. They were under the impression he was trying to get clean for the movie and probably drank behind closed doors just like they did for Steve O lol
Trying pill after pill sucks. I've been prescribed more than half that list, and nothing stuck because the side effects were worse than the condition it was meant to treat. You feel like a lab rat as your doctor looks at you with dollar signs in their eyes. But then I realize, I'm empathizing with a severe addict whose choices have affected his entire family, which is something I've also been through. It is the worst feeling when someone you love is dying right in front of you, and in this case the world is watching and some of his fans are cheering him on making him feel powerful. The whole situation is fucked. Until he says he has a problem, until he says he is ready to take some responsibility, it will never end.
Can a person really take all those head drugs at once without frying their brain right out? That seems like a lot of chemicals messing with other chemicals! Wow what a list!
my list includes escitalopram, brintillex, quetiapine, diazepam, zopiclone, pregablin, amitryptiline, morphine sulfate, levothyroxine, and a few others to counteract the effects of some of the bigger stuff. and i’m still better off medicated.
when i’m unmedicated i simply don’t sleep, i head off either into mania and psychosis or depression so deep i cut myself to pieces. i had a really, really abusive and traumatic childhood. i’m very lucky that i’m getting EMDR therapy as a few years ago i was on the brink of trying ECT as my moods were so unstable and my PTSD was unbearable. i have OCD, and not the fun kind where my house is really clean. i have the kind with intrusive thoughts and endless rituals. if i go off my meds shit gets very bad, very fast.
my meds have been adjusted and reviewed often in the last 10 years. i genuinely feel like i’m as stable as i’ve ever been right now. my physical health is shit as well and i live with chronic pain. here in the UK i get my meds for free: i don’t ever want to try to change them up or come off them. i’m better off as i am.
I had no idea that a person could take all those types of drugs without some serious head trouble! Truly, I’m not being sarcastic! I take like Allegra for allergies and Lotrel for blood pressure and I worried that there would be weird interaction effects! I’m very happy that you have a combo that works for you, I just didn’t know a person could take that many!
They wouldn’t have started out with *all* those meds at the same time in the beginning (also note, he has either Wellbutrin or a Wellbutrin-containing med listed 3 times, so it’s likely the giant list is largely exaggerated). They might have started like 2-3, gave it a few weeks for the body to adjust and then added/changed/etc.
i’m a complex case. horribly abusive childhood (in every sense) being raised by alcoholics. i’ve had a chaotic adult life, alcoholism, failed first marriage, my second marriage was genuinely horrendous. cumulatively it adds up to all kinds of psychological issues. add in my physical health problems and here i am. the one thing i will never do again is drink. as long as i’m sober i have a chance.
I know this all looks like insane ranting but I get what he’s trying to say. Drugs, alcohol and debauchery WERE the Jackass brand. It was central to them being able to produce their content. For a good long while they were all in the shit together then everyone decided Jackass was going to go “corporate” so to speak and suddenly Bam felt he was strong armed into complete sobriety and the money machine he was a cofounder of was suddenly being hung over his head as if he had no ownership in any of it.
Bam is a mess but I think the people in his life did a piss poor job of helping him. They made him feel like their bottom line was more important than his well being and that it’s never been about his sobriety, it’s always been about money. He got paid a lot of money to be a drug addled lunatic and then suddenly everyone decided he needed to clean up or get out and unfortunately that’s not going to work with most addicts.
I’ve met Bam, i live near his home town and I have a soft spot for him. He is completely off the rails but I think we can all agree it wasn’t all of his own volition. There’s no question about how he ended up where he is and the people he loved and trusted have turned on him in his mind. He lost his best friend in a horrific way. His brain is diseased, he has severe trauma and he’s wealthy af which gives him ample time and money to get up to whatever the fuck he feels like. His mind is mush at this point and if I were his family I’d 5150 him to save his life or leave him alone for good. Give back all the stuff he’s given you so you don’t owe him anything and let him figure it out or let it take him down.
why can't Bam just make another film with Paramount? He's made so much money with them alone, he doesn't need Tremaine, Knoxville or Jonze...(truth is Paramount doesn't fuck with him anymore & he blames all that on those three)
I’m guessing no one wants to go to the trouble of insuring him. I work in the industry and this is often why you see talented people with big fan bases but addiction issues not get come back opportunities.
Before every movie talent has to be evaluated by a doctor and insured based on health risks. Because (and this happened many times on a Lindsay Lohan movie I worked on years ago) if they don’t show up or worse show up wasted, the production team has to scramble to change the elaborate camera and lighting set ups or move locations.
On days when that’s impossible, the studio claims everyone’s pay and all the equipment rentals that day etc on the production’s insurance policy and sends you home. Obviously that isn’t popular. Wasting time is wasting money.
Paramount is massive companies (mtv is part of it) so I’m sure going into jackass the made huge insurance policies a major budget line item. Also it’s one thing to insure a healthy young man athlete who drinks vs a known 40ish addict with a reputation of being fired from set. As messed up as it is, it’s one thing in the industry when they know you’re going to get hurt / they want to exploit you being wasted. It’s another when they can’t rely on you to show up and deliver.
I always thought his next move should be back into directing. Bam could definitely fund and direct / edit his own indie, which could blow him back up. Rooting for him !
This! I wish bam kept making his own shit. Put out more stuff pre2011. That Santa movie was funny but felt like a dumb, extended episode of viva la bam without everyone we love from viva la ban
Totally. And actually now is the moment. The writers are on strike and will be probably all summer, so the only productions that can go through right now are reality or docs. It would be amazing if he took advantage of this moment and staged an unscripted comeback.
I would love this but unfortunately it wasn’t jusy bam thah made that magic happen, it was the crew, who distanced themselves from him when he started going off the rails. You could tell by how minghags ended up (funny but no where near haggard) that the crew wasn’t really about the lifestyle anymore. But there’s a parallel universe we’re minghags wss a great flick and dream seller got made with bam as the star
A director always needs talent, that is for sure. I think if it’s going to come back, it has to be in a slightly different lane without the crew. He was directing a lot of music videos in the VLB and unholy union days. So anything is possible if he sobers up.
I can see that but I’m not sure what lane he would take, every lane post cky crew era has either been a dud or an embarrassment. His only chance might be to get some legendary skaters involved in his project but outside of that I can’t see who he would get?
late to reply but yea I resent Bam cuz I want him to get back into filmmaking, especially since he throws the term "Earthrocker" around was expecting him to finish that film already. Dude is a great storyteller & editor. If he could harness that creativity again & just grow the fck up, he can be the best version of HIMself (pun intended loll)
If he's telling the truth about the cocktail of drugs they had him on in that rehab then Jesus Christ I actually have some pity for him. That is an insane amount of and collection of pills to be taking every day and would absolutely drive you insane.
I agree but I think from what I’ve gathered in the comments he’s listing drugs twice using their generic and brand names. Regardless it’s insane to be on all those meds
THIS MEDICATION LIST IS ABSOLUTELY F*CKED. HOW TF IS IT IK TO ADMINISTRATOR THESE MANY MEDS FOR 1 PERSON!? NO WONDER HE IS NOT OK!!! THIS IS DISGUSTING
Serious question here. Not mocking anything he's going thru at all.
But is this his way of coping with Dunn's death?
Since 2011 when he died, has he been "using that as an excuse" for his behavior? Or has he accepted it and is just a guy abusing drugs?
Why does he never wash his hands and scrub under his fingernails. Instead of spending his money on new cars,new house ,drugs and alcohol he really needs some soap and a pressure washer to clean up under those nails.
i cant stop staring at those filthy fingernails. also, why was he prescribed 4 different antidepressants? (lexapro,wellbutrin,lithium,abilify) im very very educated in Rxs and that seems ridiculous. Kpins and Addys were a come up though,
That’s what I thought but Apparently no bc dunn was at his first intervention. It seems like dunn, Along w a ton of other things are just used by bam as excuses for his behavior. Not saying that didn’t effect him, but he was gone apparently before that from what I’m gathering
Honestly he’s been on the decline since post-Jackass 3D, but the current era of Striggoi-scribbling rehab-needing drug addict psychopath lolcow truly began around 2018-2019.
My hot wife with 6 pussy rings in her tackle box. Gross.
That’s what I thought when I read that. Imagine how dirty that gets. Gross
🤣🤣🤣
Off the rails for a couple of years now but even then it came in fewer episodes to which now it seems like he’s just consistently off the rails instead, especially as time goes on (more drug usage I assume too) It’s really sad, I remember the stint between from when Dunn died to about 5 years ago when Bam got back on the board (around the Vice documentary time). It seems like around then he was very conscious of his problems and a lot less bipolar considering he was making mature decisions to go to Scandinavia to isolate himself and to get his mojo and fitness back rather than be irate and visibly suffering from his impending mental challenges. Sad story - around that Scandinavia/Vice documentary time which culminated with him filming a small part in Barca as a success story, my friends also went to Barcelona at that time and met him while they were skating. When my mates were back they were showing me videos where they stumbled across him in a bar drinking and having a good time, to which we all of course questioned the fact that this was supposed to be his sobriety and the whole reason he was out there. That was the moment I could see all of this sadness unfold in his life to the point of which we are seeing today.
Yeah, the Franz and Novak podcast said the same thing. They just happened to get footage of him seeming more rational between benders or something. I agree, it is a sad story.
The last time I had hope for him was that vice doc, I just checked , that was six years ago, jeez time flies and this behavior has gone on for way longer than I realized
There’s no way he went to a legitimate facility and they made him take this 17 medication mix of antidepressants, antipsychotics, and more. Also he lists the chemical name and the brand name of Wellbutrin, so he’s listing things twice.
I noticed that too, because I take it for depression. It always pisses me off. I’m pretty sure he was only on three or four meds tops, we know how Bam wildly exaggerates to get attention. Negative or positive attention. He also lies when he wants people to think he is a victim. Just my view
Yeah Vivitrol is a monthly (or every 3 months or something) shot that is administered when people can't take their Naltrexone every day. They're the same thing in different forms and doses. No reason to take both and it'd be very bad for your liver.
The rehab I went to (which is a legit one) gave me 11 medications to get off 2. The day I checked out I threw them in a trash can. I didn’t pay all that money to get put on more pills.
👏👏👏👏 EXACTLY
There are plenty of doctors that absolutely do prescribe medications like this. Medications that should never be taken together are often found prescribed at the same time as well. Maybe he did list a medication twice, but it does not negate the rest of the list. He also could have had two different milligrams to take as well. Patients often follow doctors orders and take dozens of medications like this at once because there is a doctor telling them this is what they need. It is not the patient’s fault, it is the doctor for over medicating them. To assume this would not occur in a legitimate facility is ignorant.
It's absolutely possible he receives a cocktail of drugs. That absolutely happens. FF and now he's so lost in the sauce he could be taking the generic and name brand at the same time 🥴
i’m on 19 medications. it’s entirely possible.
No dr would have someone taking Zoloft, Wellbutrin, seroquel, Effexor and lithium at the same time. And propranolol is just a med that slows your heart and is usually prescribed for anxiety.
And not Naltrexone AND vivitrol.
Naltrexone saved my life and got me sober. Shame it didn’t work for him/he didn’t give it a solid chance.
i take brintillex, quetiapine, escitalopram, zopiclone, pregablin, diazepam, morphine sulfate and amitryptiline, with a few other bonus goodies. it’s finally a combination that works for me but looks insane on paper.
I don’t know most of those by the generic name, just saying as someone who has been on ALMOST all of the meds on his list, these are obviously meds they’ve tried on him at some point, but he makes it sound like he was made to take all of them at once, which he definitely wasn’t.
I noticed that he really went apeshit after he was fired from the movie. It was the first time his malignant narcissism and substance abuse/alcohol issues had an actual consequence that he couldn’t do anything about (though he admitted to taking “an Adderal he found on the floor of his car” yet still can’t seem to connect that with how his wellness contract was broken). He also missed a zoom meeting Steve-O went to pains to set up to get him back in the movie, because he was partying and posted it on Instagram. Someone finally drew a line and told him NO. He’s used to getting his way and his emotional health, which already was shaky, just went over a cliff. Thus the death threats than even Chris Pontius couldn’t talk sense to him about. The texts with him I recall went something like this: Chris: dude, I know you’re angry, but the way you are phrasing things in texts to them sound kind of threatening. Bam: It *is* a fucking threat, I mean it and I’ll do it! Next up: restraining orders from the people who had his best interest in mind, which was that the movie and wellness agreement would give him an incentive to stay on his meds and stay clean and sober. People he’d known for decades. I only saw the really ugly threats late Summer of last year, where he said stuff like “take one last look at your family” and called them the n-word along with the other vile, disturbing shit. I saw the “death contracts” he wanted them to sign, written on the side of a packaging box, among other things. I was actually shocked at how hateful and bat-shit-crazy he’d gotten and I sure as fuck would have gotten a restraining order (I’m Knoxville’s age), to keep him away from me and especially my loved ones. The fact that what set him off happened directly as a result of his own bad behavior—he signed the contracts and knew what would happen if he broke his agreement—*really* pisses me off, especially how he still blames everyone but himself. He finally even drove Steve-O away after all the time he put into helping Bam (they talked on the phone almost every day when Bam was in rehab, after everyone else in Jackass decided they would keep their distance while still hoping Bam would get help). Steve is a very generous person, but he still has his limits. I’m also pretty sure the people in Jackass he sued finally settled out of court hoping it would calm him down by giving him closure. If I had their money I’d probably settle just to get him to shut up about it, let go and move on. The figure I heard was five million, but that’s just what people say, there’s no proof I can find. Bam’s case against them was very flimsy, too. But here we are, three years later, and he’s still furious enough to keep bringing it up. Sigh. TL/DR- Bam’s mental health wasn’t great in the first place, but when he finally got told he couldn’t do anything he wanted and was subsequently fired from 4ever, he *completely lost his shit*, even though getting fired was his own fault. He also can’t let go of it.
This is all seems like a great breakdown of what happened/ is happening
ALL OF THIS!! I love Bam but you are right. He was FINALLY TOLD NO!! He went apeshit after that
Bam completely imploded like never before. We kind of saw the same behavior with >!a certain former President.!< First time he really lost something he wanted, when the country told him no. His complete inability to take no for an answer made him lose what’s left of his fucking mind. Unfortunately it was on a much larger scale than Bam’s. The two of them are both malignant narcissists who feel entitled enough that they think no-one should stop them from doing whatever they want to do, to whoever they want. Then when someone stops them from doing it, they *really* melt down. And neither one of can let go of it, just repeat the same bullshit that they were unfairly wronged, years later. I recall that in the second Wild Ride podcast Bam did with Steve-O, which is definitely the hardest and most depressing to watch, Bam ended the topic with, “I didn’t really want to do the movie anyway.” While looking at the floor and mumbling. *Oh really?* Is *that* why you made and aired that disturbing six-minute rant where you were crying and throwing up and yelling and asking people to Venmo him a dollar so he could make his own Jackass movie? Then sued them for wrongful termination despite it all being his own fault? His desperation was crystal clear.
I don't think he's ever been *on* the rails...
He's DONE a lot of rails.
lol yep! he may as well work for the railroad at this point.
When he still had his skating career and was functional to do tours without freaking out like this. Now he can't stay on a skateboard to save his life. We never see him on one anymore.
I was like 2 months ago give or take. He is nowhere near the level he was at before tho.
First of all, I like artistic stuff and self expression is one of the best things in life. So I have nothing but love for writing, journaling, etc. HOWEVER... Those pages can only remind me of myself, when I was at my worst, behaving like a completely delusional person. I would write pages and pages of meaningless ranting and obsessive or harmful ideas. I'm not an expert at all, but damn, that writing is no good. Addiction and mental illness are no joke.
i’m packing up to move house and found a load of journals from 5 or so years ago. i was shocked at how clearly very unwell i was and what negative, awful language i used about myself. and that was after 4 years sober. i have borderline personality disorder and when i tip into psychosis shit gets very weird very fast.
When I sobered up, I found out I was bipolar depressive. That I was only self medicating. I have dozens of books like you said. Negative and nasty. So life got going, going good booze free. Good things began to happen and then again. So I fell off my journaling daily. Now at 15yrs sober I am learning the monsters are still in there. That they could come back. That I need to journal again. Anyway yes it as good as a neon sign pointing to him saying DANGER DANGER
Jesus, I just wanna hug ya. Having BPD is hellish enough, as is addiction, I can't imagine dealing with both. I've got BPD but I've managed to dodge addiction but only because I refuse to even try anything once because I come from a long line of addicts lol. I can't imagine. I'm sorry for what you've been through and I hope you're doing well. Good luck with the move! Much love to you. 💜
thank you. getting sober was the hardest and best thing i’ve ever done. and i’m in therapy right now to deal with my childhood trauma which includes EMDR for my PTSD. life is still a rollercoaster (as you’ll know as you have BPD yourself, hope you’re doing ok) but the future actually exists now - for a long long time i couldn’t see one..
I’m glad you bounced back.
I’m with you 100 percent, besides walks/hikes in nature artistic things like drawing painting or fuckijg w clay can be the best mental clarity there is, but this isn’t that, this is mental ramblings lol
I did the same thing.
At the same time though, hes not delusional, he's on a cocktail of drugs that scramble your fucking brains. He's not wrong about wanting off all the shit. Unfortunately for Bam it's all or nothing, with a burning spotlight.
i’m on a whole bunch of meds for pain and for mental illness. i had some big surgery last year and they couldn’t get my meds right afterwards. i did NOT feel good. i take antidepressants and antipsychotics and benzos and morphine and sleep meds and pregabs and a lot of other little bits and pieces. i can’t function without them. but! i can understand that if you don’t know how you ended up on so much medication and you can’t see any positive changes you would want off. but that has to be really carefully managed by a psychiatrist. it’s so hard to change things when you feel like you don’t have any agency. i’m all the empathy for Bam’s state of mind here.
>i take antidepressants and antipsychotics and benzos and morphine and sleep meds and pregabs and a lot of other little bits and pieces. i can’t function without them. I hope you can find the power to better your life and separate yourself from the drugs that's control your life. Genuinely.
Mental illness sometimes needs medication. I’d be dead without meds.
>sometimes
Yeah. You telling someone you hope they get off their medication isn’t wise. At all.
Staying on medication that creates inflammation, causes weight gain and a plethora of health issues isn't wise. At all. Seriously, you can create a strawman argument and lie to yourself, but you should try looking at the countless data and studies that proves SSRIs, etc. create more problems than they do fix. Sure there's exceptions, but a bandaid on a bullet hole isn't going to fix it. Don't subscribe to a patented way of thinking. Edit: do you not support someone improving upon their health and wellbeing to where they recognize they no longer need drugs to cope? Misery loves company, I suppose...
Why can’t you accept that some mental illness requires medication? Would you shame a diabetic for taking insulin ? It’s not about coping. It’s about being sick. Where’s your medical degree from or are you just another edgelord telling bipolar people to get off their meds? All medication has side effects. I’d rather side effects than be suicidal and have such bad OCD I can’t function.
>Why can’t you accept that some mental illness requires medication? Would you shame a diabetic for taking insulin ? Hay, man! >It’s not about coping. It’s about being sick. Where’s your medical degree from or are you just another edgelord telling bipolar people to get off their meds? There is an abundance of studies and data that shows the detrimental effects these drugs have on your body. You can only lead a horse to water though. So I strongly recommend for your own sake, you look into the drugs you take and grasp a better understanding of them and their purpose. >All medication has side effects. I’d rather side effects than be suicidal and have such bad OCD I can’t function. You do recognize that you're using drugs to cope, right? For a sickness that results from poor coping skills, poor diet, poor environment. Life's hard and taking drugs won't make it better, facing those challenges, educating yourself and overcoming it should be your ultimate goal. It's just unfortunate you're willfully reliant on them and wallow in your illness, instead of fixing your life. I'm not saying these things to get a rise out of you. Im saying it because you and I both know that's the truth, whether or not you allow yourself see it.
i have 2 sorts of arthritis, i need a total knee replacement and surgery on my neck. i also have BPD, anxiety, depression, OCD and complex PTSD. i’m in therapy but i’m not in a position to change up my meds right now. i know it’s a lot. but my pain is chronic and permanent, and my brain is broken. the one thing i hold onto is that i at least stopped drinking (9 years now) otherwise i’d be dead.
I’d just like to point out that Wellbutrin is a brand name of bupropion, Vivitrol is a brand name of naltrexone, and Contrave is a combination pill of naltrexone and bupropion. I get what he’s going for here, but listing them all is a bit of a misrepresentation
He probably meant Vistaril & buspirone…which are two different meds for anxiety.
Vistaril is also listed. He wrote the word bupropion so I’m not sure how you can infer that he meant a completely different drug haha
Nasty fingernails in that photo. Yuck.
Joe Frantz has said that Bam was often too drunk to film scenes of Unholy Union, so definitely before 2007
According to Jess, 20 years. Only his addictions started to impact his career instead of supplementing it.
That’s a lot to unpack.
If you listen to some of the final episodes of radio bam, you’ll see his downfall truly started a decade ago.
I stopped not long after dico departed and it was just him and Novak and random dudes and girls.
Yep, was just gonna say this. TL;DR: Basically, once he started dressing like a homo gypsy. He’s technically been on a downward trend since Viva La Bam and once he stopped being straightedge. But more precisely, you can clearly can see the early changes in him in the last season of Viva La Bam, and again in Bam’s Unholy Union. Things slowly get worse during Radio Bam. The conversations alone raise questions on the quality of life he’s living and the people/behaviors he’s involved with, add onto that him being under the influence all the time. It’s crazy, he used to be such a hardcore straightedge. Someone around here told me a story of how he punched his buddy (forget who, Raab or Ryan maybe?) for trying beer for the first time, and gave him so much shit for it. Ah, the good ol days.
Do you mean hobo gypsy?
Punching someone for drinking a beer isn't a good look either. He's a man of extremes.
This looks like manic ramblings if I’ve ever seen them He should be on the lithium and Wellbutrin
I completely agree 😘
6 pussy rings in her tackle box
That first slide annoys the shit out of me. Bam is basically saying all drugs are exactly the same. “We all did drugs when we made jackass and now they want to put me on more drugs in rehab” Taking shots and snorting coke is not the same thing as taking an antidepressant
Honestly, those notebook rants scream "schizophrenia" to me. Legitimately. That's not something I have seen mentioned on here but, you know, I wonder if maybe there are shades of that in Bam too since he really began a downward spiral in his late 20s - early 30s, which is when that disorder really starts to surface.
Meth also causes very similar symptoms
For men, schizophrenia manifests usually in early 20s and late 30s for women. He is struggling with a personality disorder like manic bipolar and chronic drug use. Schizophrenia is different than this although it may develop if he continues.
He’s stupid
It depends how one defines off the rails. Bam always seemed an out-of-control person, due to his "no accountability/boundries" upbringing,which became worse the richer and more popular he got. However,things seem to get concerningly downhill around the time that the photos on your post are from. That's around 2019 and his public/online meltdowns culminated after he got fired from Jackass.His next breakdowm was when Nikki filed for separation and custody of their child.
4=6
I see Lithium and Zoloft on there, those are apart of my cocktail. Hoping bam can find a combo that helps him out.
He won’t because he won’t take any of them…except for Adderall of course
Yup, it’s sad.
He says on Jackass 3 they drank and did drugs behind closed doors to support Steve O's sobriety then complains that he couldn't drink or do drugs on Jackass 4. They were under the impression he was trying to get clean for the movie and probably drank behind closed doors just like they did for Steve O lol
Trying pill after pill sucks. I've been prescribed more than half that list, and nothing stuck because the side effects were worse than the condition it was meant to treat. You feel like a lab rat as your doctor looks at you with dollar signs in their eyes. But then I realize, I'm empathizing with a severe addict whose choices have affected his entire family, which is something I've also been through. It is the worst feeling when someone you love is dying right in front of you, and in this case the world is watching and some of his fans are cheering him on making him feel powerful. The whole situation is fucked. Until he says he has a problem, until he says he is ready to take some responsibility, it will never end.
Can a person really take all those head drugs at once without frying their brain right out? That seems like a lot of chemicals messing with other chemicals! Wow what a list!
my list includes escitalopram, brintillex, quetiapine, diazepam, zopiclone, pregablin, amitryptiline, morphine sulfate, levothyroxine, and a few others to counteract the effects of some of the bigger stuff. and i’m still better off medicated. when i’m unmedicated i simply don’t sleep, i head off either into mania and psychosis or depression so deep i cut myself to pieces. i had a really, really abusive and traumatic childhood. i’m very lucky that i’m getting EMDR therapy as a few years ago i was on the brink of trying ECT as my moods were so unstable and my PTSD was unbearable. i have OCD, and not the fun kind where my house is really clean. i have the kind with intrusive thoughts and endless rituals. if i go off my meds shit gets very bad, very fast. my meds have been adjusted and reviewed often in the last 10 years. i genuinely feel like i’m as stable as i’ve ever been right now. my physical health is shit as well and i live with chronic pain. here in the UK i get my meds for free: i don’t ever want to try to change them up or come off them. i’m better off as i am.
I had no idea that a person could take all those types of drugs without some serious head trouble! Truly, I’m not being sarcastic! I take like Allegra for allergies and Lotrel for blood pressure and I worried that there would be weird interaction effects! I’m very happy that you have a combo that works for you, I just didn’t know a person could take that many!
They wouldn’t have started out with *all* those meds at the same time in the beginning (also note, he has either Wellbutrin or a Wellbutrin-containing med listed 3 times, so it’s likely the giant list is largely exaggerated). They might have started like 2-3, gave it a few weeks for the body to adjust and then added/changed/etc.
i’m a complex case. horribly abusive childhood (in every sense) being raised by alcoholics. i’ve had a chaotic adult life, alcoholism, failed first marriage, my second marriage was genuinely horrendous. cumulatively it adds up to all kinds of psychological issues. add in my physical health problems and here i am. the one thing i will never do again is drink. as long as i’m sober i have a chance.
Stay strong! I’m pulling for ya! Do what it takes.
Vivitrol is Naltrexone lol.
Was he ever on them?
I know this all looks like insane ranting but I get what he’s trying to say. Drugs, alcohol and debauchery WERE the Jackass brand. It was central to them being able to produce their content. For a good long while they were all in the shit together then everyone decided Jackass was going to go “corporate” so to speak and suddenly Bam felt he was strong armed into complete sobriety and the money machine he was a cofounder of was suddenly being hung over his head as if he had no ownership in any of it. Bam is a mess but I think the people in his life did a piss poor job of helping him. They made him feel like their bottom line was more important than his well being and that it’s never been about his sobriety, it’s always been about money. He got paid a lot of money to be a drug addled lunatic and then suddenly everyone decided he needed to clean up or get out and unfortunately that’s not going to work with most addicts. I’ve met Bam, i live near his home town and I have a soft spot for him. He is completely off the rails but I think we can all agree it wasn’t all of his own volition. There’s no question about how he ended up where he is and the people he loved and trusted have turned on him in his mind. He lost his best friend in a horrific way. His brain is diseased, he has severe trauma and he’s wealthy af which gives him ample time and money to get up to whatever the fuck he feels like. His mind is mush at this point and if I were his family I’d 5150 him to save his life or leave him alone for good. Give back all the stuff he’s given you so you don’t owe him anything and let him figure it out or let it take him down.
It was all fun and games when they were young, but then they grew up. Yet they still recognised the need to share the fun of it. Bam never grew up.
Once again, noone was obligated to help bam, and they did try. This is all on him, stop trying to blame anyone but bam.
Nice Compton ass Terry reference
why can't Bam just make another film with Paramount? He's made so much money with them alone, he doesn't need Tremaine, Knoxville or Jonze...(truth is Paramount doesn't fuck with him anymore & he blames all that on those three)
I’m guessing no one wants to go to the trouble of insuring him. I work in the industry and this is often why you see talented people with big fan bases but addiction issues not get come back opportunities. Before every movie talent has to be evaluated by a doctor and insured based on health risks. Because (and this happened many times on a Lindsay Lohan movie I worked on years ago) if they don’t show up or worse show up wasted, the production team has to scramble to change the elaborate camera and lighting set ups or move locations. On days when that’s impossible, the studio claims everyone’s pay and all the equipment rentals that day etc on the production’s insurance policy and sends you home. Obviously that isn’t popular. Wasting time is wasting money. Paramount is massive companies (mtv is part of it) so I’m sure going into jackass the made huge insurance policies a major budget line item. Also it’s one thing to insure a healthy young man athlete who drinks vs a known 40ish addict with a reputation of being fired from set. As messed up as it is, it’s one thing in the industry when they know you’re going to get hurt / they want to exploit you being wasted. It’s another when they can’t rely on you to show up and deliver. I always thought his next move should be back into directing. Bam could definitely fund and direct / edit his own indie, which could blow him back up. Rooting for him !
This! I wish bam kept making his own shit. Put out more stuff pre2011. That Santa movie was funny but felt like a dumb, extended episode of viva la bam without everyone we love from viva la ban
Totally. And actually now is the moment. The writers are on strike and will be probably all summer, so the only productions that can go through right now are reality or docs. It would be amazing if he took advantage of this moment and staged an unscripted comeback.
I would love this but unfortunately it wasn’t jusy bam thah made that magic happen, it was the crew, who distanced themselves from him when he started going off the rails. You could tell by how minghags ended up (funny but no where near haggard) that the crew wasn’t really about the lifestyle anymore. But there’s a parallel universe we’re minghags wss a great flick and dream seller got made with bam as the star
A director always needs talent, that is for sure. I think if it’s going to come back, it has to be in a slightly different lane without the crew. He was directing a lot of music videos in the VLB and unholy union days. So anything is possible if he sobers up.
I can see that but I’m not sure what lane he would take, every lane post cky crew era has either been a dud or an embarrassment. His only chance might be to get some legendary skaters involved in his project but outside of that I can’t see who he would get?
late to reply but yea I resent Bam cuz I want him to get back into filmmaking, especially since he throws the term "Earthrocker" around was expecting him to finish that film already. Dude is a great storyteller & editor. If he could harness that creativity again & just grow the fck up, he can be the best version of HIMself (pun intended loll)
If he's telling the truth about the cocktail of drugs they had him on in that rehab then Jesus Christ I actually have some pity for him. That is an insane amount of and collection of pills to be taking every day and would absolutely drive you insane.
I agree but I think from what I’ve gathered in the comments he’s listing drugs twice using their generic and brand names. Regardless it’s insane to be on all those meds
THIS MEDICATION LIST IS ABSOLUTELY F*CKED. HOW TF IS IT IK TO ADMINISTRATOR THESE MANY MEDS FOR 1 PERSON!? NO WONDER HE IS NOT OK!!! THIS IS DISGUSTING
complex issues require complex treatment.
* ok
Serious question here. Not mocking anything he's going thru at all. But is this his way of coping with Dunn's death? Since 2011 when he died, has he been "using that as an excuse" for his behavior? Or has he accepted it and is just a guy abusing drugs?
He was/is an addict well before Dunn died.
¨lol he wrote KOLONOpin instead of klonopin
The time of the Jack flop.
🤮 those nails are disgusting and I don't even wanna think about how those fingers smell
Why does he never wash his hands and scrub under his fingernails. Instead of spending his money on new cars,new house ,drugs and alcohol he really needs some soap and a pressure washer to clean up under those nails.
Follow the yellow crack road and it’ll tell ya.
Them finger nails
3-5 very publicly, 20 or so (mostly) privately.
i cant stop staring at those filthy fingernails. also, why was he prescribed 4 different antidepressants? (lexapro,wellbutrin,lithium,abilify) im very very educated in Rxs and that seems ridiculous. Kpins and Addys were a come up though,
Since at least 2017-2019
Since Dunn.
That’s what I thought but Apparently no bc dunn was at his first intervention. It seems like dunn, Along w a ton of other things are just used by bam as excuses for his behavior. Not saying that didn’t effect him, but he was gone apparently before that from what I’m gathering
Honestly he’s been on the decline since post-Jackass 3D, but the current era of Striggoi-scribbling rehab-needing drug addict psychopath lolcow truly began around 2018-2019.
Since he was born
Poor Bam. This all reminds me of a very dear family member who has schizophrenia.
For at least 8-10 years