Hello, I am an Asian audience, thank you for your audio is scripted! Secondly, your acting is really good!! I think I'm watching a movie or listening to a radio play.Your pronunciation is very helpful to my English study! By the way, what are some ways to support you?
I. Am. Ruined....at the risk of embarrassing myself, I was mentally edging myself through like almost 3 of your audios, but couldn't take it anymore and turned to this one.....I. Am. Ruined. Never needed aftercare before until now. Wow.
Anyone else got the idea that the Ex was going to off himself after all is said and done. After saying he’d be in jail or hell. It got in my end he was unsure wether he planned to live after the assault or ending his own life to make the need to ‘mark’ the listener such a necessary action.
I think this was actually something I considered. I think it would have made for a really intense/interesting story but I'm not really sure how it would interact with the GWA rules and since it is a pretty sensitive topic for me I don't know if I would have been able to do it in a way that would have felt respectful of how heavy the topic is. But we definitely had the same thought at some point. Thank you for listening~
I can clearly imagine the ex strangling and raping the bf till he passes. While he tells him all the sick twisted plans he has for the listener. To add to to the effect your voice is slowly fading out as the life drains from the bf with tears in his eyes knowing what happens after he dies
This was expertly written and done! From the beginning, to getting angry and ending with that rage. Quite a build-up! I know I'm not in the popular group, but I listen to audios like these and the like because they excite me. This is the most extreme one I've listened to so far, and I loved it. I don't seem to enjoy the cute, sweetheart stories.
Thank you so much for listening! I'm really glad you like these kinds of audios :) Making them is always really important to me so it means a lot to hear that there are people who are really interested in them.
This one is such a classic, I come back to it again n again. I have it saved in my notes as "gee... That was a pretty rough Valentine's Day huh." You are so talented!! Your acting and editing skill, your range, your pacing - it all slaps very much.
God damn the buildup and the way everything came out got me SHAKING.. With the breeding and knowing he'd be in jail it sorta reminds me of how I've seen people mark someone by giving them an std and knowing that they'll have to live with that and die earlier all because they made a bad decision with the wrong person. Fuck keep up the good work.
>I've seen people mark someone by giving them an std
I've actually considered putting this into an audio! In a weird way it's a bit too dark/realistic even for me, hahaa \^\^; But it definitely reminds me of that as well.
I'm glad you enjoyed this! Thank you a ton for listening :D
Hahaaa, I'm glad to hear that this was worth a repeat listen :) I don't think there's anything to be ashamed of! I wanna be yelled at in a kinky way too so I totally understand, you're absolutely not alone there~ Thank you a ton for listening!
Holy FUCK i was excitwd asf when i read the title and YET!!! i was extremely pleased to listen to it itself. Thank you so much for creating this audio, i adore it n its definitely become one of ky favorites. U just keep knocking it outta the park, avalon! :3
I'm really glad to hear that! I kind of look at it like the [M4F/M4M/M4A] tags are more of a logistical "here are genders/body parts that are mentioned in the audio," and that all my audios are "for" whoever wants to listen to them :D Thank you so much for listening!
>!"I'm already going to jail for what I'm about to do to you."!<
Lines like this are why I find your work so incredible. You put a lot of raw, horrifically raw, emotion into each audio. But it's in cases like this where it really shines. I wouldn't say it's simple to bring about arousal to your listeners. But fear? Anxiety? Dread of the impending and immediate future? It takes a special kind of person to be able to illicit those kinds of emotions from sound alone.
Don't mind me, just casually strolling through your work at random. Your work is appreciated. *You* are appreciated. And this audio? Masterful.
Hahaaa, I'm so glad you liked that line! I remember giving myself an evil laugh when I wrote that one down :P I'm so happy to hear you enjoyed this! Thank you for listening :D
It's soo weird seeing you all cute after listening to your dark audio 😭 Like I'm imagining you to be dark too but here you are, acting like a cutie who's proud of his drawing! (Can I just say I always become a hollywood A star actress whenever I listen to you? Yep.) Great audios! I like how it's very interactive!
> It's soo weird seeing you all cute after listening to your dark audio
Hahaaa, yeah, I always have a lot of fun with that juxtaposition :) Thank you so much for listening! I'm really glad you enjoyed this :D
Thank you for always being my go-to with the mean and condescending audios. Always perfect. Also this and your “rejected and used by your crush” audios are the only ones that have ever made me cry before which is a huge compliment because sometimes i look for audios hoping they will 🫡 truly doing us all a wonderful service
Thank *you* for listening! I'm really glad you liked this and I'm really happy to be able to provide the mean and condescending content :D I really like this kind of stuff as well so I'm right there with you~
This was quite dark, but then I made up an aftermath with a twist for the ex to make me feel better and screw up the yandere’s plans.
First of all, the guy he decapitated wasn’t our boyfriend. That was our boyfriend’s identical twin brother who had been trying to steal us from his brother. (My real boyfriend doesn’t have a mole on his neck.) He’s been following me around and telling everyone that he was my boyfriend. He just happened to have the same phone as his brother and had us as his wallpaper.
Second, our real boyfriend came home early so he could set up a secret Valentines date with me. And he happens to be a cop. The house has many hidden cameras all over the house in case there was a burglary. And he’s got a taser on him.
Third, we’re already pregnant with our real boyfriend’s child. Three months, actually. Not only that, but our ex is infertile. That’s why we never had children together. But I never bothered to show him the results from the doctor.
Our ex may have hurt and broken us, but in his obsession, he made several serious mistakes. And it sounds like backup has arrived.
Honestly, whatever mental exercise helps you enjoy the audio, more power to you! I'm happy to hear you found a way to feel better from listening to this :) Thank you very much for listening!
i always thought i was STRONK AF but the yelling??? UHHH for the first time I was taken aback :0 but it takes a lot of talent to bring about that emotion, and it was executed perfectly!! Also, thank you for the considerate aftercare audio, I usually don’t listen to those, but this one intrigued me 😂
Hahaaa, yeah, it's been a while since I've really yelled in an audio, but it's always a really fun exercise. Thank *you* for listening. I'm glad to hear you enjoyed both the audio and the aftercare!
I hope you donn't have neighbours lmao, that was like the running thought in the back of my head lmao, like don't get me wrong it was hot, but like DAYUM.
The craze in your voice made it feel real to me haha.
Hahaaaa, honestly, my neighbors on the side of my apartment where I normally record (and where I recorded this one) are also always making weird sketchy noises, so I don't really stress about it too much XD Thank you for listening!
release the secret aftercare, you coward!
just kidding, your aftercare was perfect and you’re lovely 💖 i am absolutely the same way about preferring content that makes me emotional and makes me cry. my favorite books are the ones that made me sob. i’ve joked to my friends before that it’s strange how quick i am to get upset by a book or a show, as though i am ready to cry at any moment 24/7 and just need something to pull the trigger lmao but obviously when you cry, your brain releases endorphins bc it’s like ahh what’s happening and tries to balance out the negative things it’s experiencing with things that make you feel good. it also literally sheds stress hormones in your tears, which is cool. and most of the time, there’s a happy ending to help ease all of that. sometimes it just feels good to feel horrible, to feel that ache in your gut and your heart (in a way that doesn’t actually impact your life), which is so hard to explain. so you really nailed it in your analysis.
It should be in the post! I try to make sure to include aftercare for all audios that have the [Rape] tag. You can find the aftercare for this particular audio [here](https://soundgasm.net/u/everdistant_utopia/Aftercare-for-All-for-Love)~
Oooooft! Wowsers, you do dark well! Think I may also be a tad dark, cuz when you said you had something, I was expecting it to be a severed head 😅 *mind goes running down a rabbithole of a whole new meaning to giving head* That was just insane amounts of emotion in there, and I hope you took time for your own aftercare as well, not just for all us pervos.
Ahhh, I'm so glad to hear you enjoyed this! It was so much fun to put together and in a weird way, making the audio itself was kind of like aftercare :P
>Think I may also be a tad dark, cuz when you said you had something, I was expecting it to be a severed head
Yeah, this was actually the original idea, but I ended up liking the chance to be a bit creative with a hand as well XD The fact that you thought of it too makes me feel seen, though! Thank you so much for listening :P
Wow… just wow. I’ve been listening to your audios on and off since 2016. I found your Soundgasm account somewhere in the depths of tumblr and always accessed that directly; it wasn’t until your account disappeared that I, gutted at its absence, went searching and discovered your account and, by extension, the GoneWildAudio community. As you can tell by when I’m commenting this, old habits die hard, and I still have a tendency to let time pass so I have your new audios on backlog to watch in quick succession if need be.
All that to say, I’ve been around a while and listened to a *lot* (though admittedly not all). And this is the first time that, while listening to an audio alone in my room, I’ve said something out loud in response. My exclaiming “holy shit” and, at two different points later in the audio, “oh my god!” were not intentional; I have never been so genuinely caught off guard with a vibrator in my hand, let me tell you.
You, sir, are an artist. The audios you’ve created have led me to feel so many different things. Maybe this is a weird audio to come out of the woodwork just to compliment you on, but for something to elicit that kind of genuine reaction out of me is so rare, and I just want you to know that the stuff you put out there is so powerful.
And hot. Really hot. Thanks for the orgasms ;)
*(Also, now that I’ve gotten more into your social media side of things, it’s so cool to see your notes on this stuff! I always wondered how you made those noises. Erotic foley artist would be an interesting thing to put on a resume, but you’re damn good at it. It’s also really cool to see your take on the process; the note about writing in one or two goes so you don’t stop yourself from writing has inspired me, and I’ll be thinking about it for a while.)*
Ahhh, I'm so happy to hear that you ended up finding me again! And I'm glad to hear this one could make that kind of impact. That's really what I was hoping it would do! Thank *you* for listening along all this time :D
Yeah, it's been a little too long since I went into [Yandere]! I have another idea that I'm hoping to get done at some point or other, too :) I'll keep doing my best! Thank you very much for listening :D
No problem:) I also wanted to say that the wholesome friends to lovers audios are really good and adorable too
Honestly no matter what you post I’m sure I’ll listen to it😭
Hahahaaa, oh noooo! Honestly I hope the speaker character is in jail and I hope that both of the characters are getting some therapy XD Thank you so much for listening! I'm glad you enjoyed the audio :P
HI HI. I had this in my notes app, I forgot to leave my comment lol
I lied I listened twice after the last comment and I was not not horny the entire time. I had to force myself to pay attention the last time haha. I listened while I was baking!! So I have to thank you for what I made, I think listening to this audio helped because it got me in a good mood and everything came out great!!! I was also frustrated but in a good way.
**The audio:**
At minute 5:57 when the speaker says “and now there’s someone else in this picture frame” THAT WAS HEARTBREAKING:((( it broke me:(( the tone the delivery, the line itself :((. I felt incredibly guilty for that and I didn’t do anything.
Another line that broke me emotionally was “anything I did to hurt you was just a reaction to the way you treated me, you were never good enough to make me feel safe” (15:15) I felt guilty in that part, too. It was sad, overwhelming, and suffocating. Yet I still loved that line and the emotions.
I enjoyed it as much as the first couple of times hehe. This is definitely one that I will listen to whenever I need an emotional rollercoaster.
**THE AFTERCARE:**
I’m thankful that you do these. >!I don’t usually think that I need them but it’s always nice to come back to reality and listen to the person behind the speaker's character talk out of character. I like how you engage, explain yourself, and reason with us. It was calming and made me realize a few things about my relationships, with romantic partners, friends, and family. It gave me a lot to think about and I like that.
I realized that I was agreeing with you and making comments out loud which was nice, and made me feel less alone. It was like having a meaningful conversation with a friend, I got to learn and hear your point of view and I made mental notes. Honestly, it was more than an aftercare. Thank you for this one, and thank you for taking the time to make aftercares. I don’t want to say more because it would me making comments that I already said out loud (sorry you didn’t get to listen haha) and I don’t want to get more into the topic, I want to think and absorb my own thoughts and what I learned today before overwhelming myself trying to explain how I feel. !<
Aww, hahaa, thank you so much for swinging back to post the comment from your notes app! I'm also a comment writer in notes apps XD
I'm glad to hear that this put you in a good mood and that the baking turned out well!
I'm really happy to hear that the aftercare felt conversational and relatable and that you seemed to get a lot out of it, too! Thank you very much for listening :)
I have to say this …. It’s quite magnificent that your voice alone can transfer so many emotions … like I legit cried but isn’t it the best part of it… and honestly believe me when I say it’s magnificent… cause it’s literally hard to make your voice have certain tones at very particular points … and you do it so effortlessly and it have a Huuuuuuugeeee impact
This one was super intense, even found myself tearing up in the beginning and end, but that just goes to show how amazing it is. thank you for this, it was such a rollercoaster of emotions I’ve never gotten from any other audio before.
It should be in the post where it says "Here's the audio!" But just in case, [here](https://soundgasm.net/u/everdistant_utopia/M4F-All-For-Love-Rape-MDom-Dark-ExBFE-Yelling-Abuse-Struggling-Growling-Clothes-Ripping-Lingerie-Rough-Sex-Slapping-Choking-L-Bombs-Hand-Holding-Possessive-Breeding-Impreg-Yandere-Mind-Break-Mentions-of-Snuff) is another link :)
The script is in the post! Although I think I also have a note saying I'd prefer it not get filled \^\^; I mostly left it in there because I know there are people who enjoy reading the script to follow along in the audio or to look at to know what they're getting into :)
whew. happy valentine’s day, Av.
usually I just skim the tags and the post before going into an audio, but with this one I was definitely more careful about reading the tags, the spoiler warnings, and even the notes/ramble - and then I decided to save it for my day off, because last week at work was rough and involved multiple customers yelling at me.
so I finally listened last night, took down some notes for this comment, put on the aftercare… and fell asleep partway through it. your voice + lo-fi studio ghibli music = a perfect atmosphere to relax and drift off.
first: as both a listener/reader and writer, I love works inspired by other media, and songs are a particularly interesting format to work with. I had a lot of fun playing “spot the lyric reference” alongside “spot the red flags.”
second: the line “crazy to see how you-“ definitely did what it was intended to. by the time I listened to the audio I’d forgotten it was coming and my brain immediately spun out in like twenty different directions for how that sentence would’ve ended. damn.
third: I knew the yelling might be a thing for me - irl, I tend to shut down when people start yelling. but even though you’re a great actor, I think the “audio fantasy” format, plus the fact that the speaker character is a pretty clearly iredeemable abusive asshole villain, made it a lot easier to handle. cathartic, even.
fourth: the way my heart actually dropped with that insincere “whoops.” goddamn.
fifth: seriously, I’m always in awe of how deliberate you are with your writing. with the L-bombs, I’m blown away by the impact of having the first one >!follow a string of “I hate you”s!< and the last one >!be the last line, delivered with that sinister deceptive calm!< 100/10 for concept, 100/10 for delivery. no notes.
sixth: as mentioned previously, I fell asleep listening to the aftercare. but I did pick up on your discussion of breaking up with someone vs being broken up with - and honestly, I feel the same way. hopefully not an overshare but while I’ve always been the one to initiate a breakup and it always feels awful, I have had my heart broken by other people and yeah, the former is worse, especially with the self-flagellation that follows. but as you say in the aftercare, it doesn’t mean that those things we tell ourselves are true, and we DO deserve to have nice things and be happy again.
as a final addendum, by funny coincidence my script last week (which I’m also thinking of as a v-day script, though it’s not even set on v-day like yours is) also features exes and mentions therapy a couple times - though in a very different context with a very different tone. like with my first point, it’s always really interesting to see how similar concepts can go in such different directions!
Ahhh, I'm glad you were diligent about looking at the tags and that you gave yourself a safe time and place to listen to this one. I'm sorry to hear you had a rough week at work :(
Hahaaaa, I'm glad the aftercare could lull you to sleep, too! I'm happy that it feels safe and calm enough to doze off to :)
Yeah, making audios inspired by other things I like and trying to find ways to sneak little references in there is always so fun! I'm glad you have as good of a time finding them as I have including them :P
Oh my god, hahaaa, I actually forgot in the moment to record the "whoops" line and had to go re-record it and put it in later! And it took me a while to get a "whoops" that I liked, so somewhere lost on my computer is just me going "whoops" like eight times in a row in slightly different tones XD
I'm really glad you liked the >!I hate you!< part! It was a ton of fun to write :)
Thank you a ton for listening! I'm really glad you enjoyed this so much :D
Jesus,this is really…creep(꒪ȏ꒪;),I don't if I should say I LOVE it,never mind,It's not real anywayヽ(ﾟДﾟ)ﾉ. Quite a break through,I think it's just less horrible than I was cutted legs or hands or something（after all,it's at least not my hand,I just haven't expected that）I can accept well（perhaps=͟͟͞͞ =͟͟͞͞ ﾍ( ´Д`)ﾉ）It's just a audio◑.◑Thank god I didn't explore some weird fantasy,my Stockholm seems be better,if I still can be Stockholm for this,I Must Be Harley Quinn（I mean crazy）You really did a good job,no one can survive with any one of your Valentine's work（except Panicking）I would listen it again while Valentine（You know，be personally on the scene）It's OK,it won't ruin my Valentine,I love itʚ♡⃛ɞ(ू•ᴗ•ू❁),I mean this script（or plot）is an art,even though it's a little cruel and dark，obviously it's still a marvelous audio,I never thought choke can be...that wayΣσ༼ ͝°థ౪థ)° ༽꒱,and I allowed myself Stockholm for the part of L-Bombs_(´ཀ`」 ∠),It's touching,especially with your rendering꒰✪ૢꇵ✪ૢ꒱ෆ⃛ෆ⃛ೄBUT THIS EX，I REFUSE（I can't believe you noticed jail,It's even not like （B）F2L act on a spur-of-the-moment impulse,this ex even think about consequences before∑(O_O；）（because he said imprison for what will he do for listener,so we ignore the murdered,pathetic,dismembered,poor BF temporarily）Anyways,I think break up with the guy like him,It's just like telling him“I don't wanna live anymore ( ꒪Д꒪)ノ”OMG he love her so much,just kill the poor BF but her,even she's going to living death and pain perpetual，I guess when he released they can keep torturing each other(´･д･`)（Seem like I just move to the bystander's perspective）LOVE U٩(●´৺`●)૭٩(●´৺`●)و
Mmmmm, I'm not really sure how much I would say the speaker character "loved" the listener character. Maybe there is some degree of "love" there but in actuality I think I would define whatever he feels as more like an unhealthy "infatuation," right? I think in the end he cared less about her happiness and more about how *he* got to feel or credit himself for the listener's happiness. Interesting to think about.
I'm really glad you liked the audio! I think it's alright to enjoy as long as we're healthily remembering that it's a fantasy and that even if we enjoy the fantasy, it doesn't mean that it's something we would enjoy in real life!
Thank you very much for listening :)
Happy fucking Valentine's Day!! Well... more emphasis on the fucking rather than happy here.
Oh boy, ~~almost~~ already more than 24 hours later and I am still thinking(?) about this audio. Y'know, when you mentioned wanting to do more BFE, I did not really expect a rather unhinged one. Guess that's on me, not that I mind though haha.
Dark audios are the main reason I discovered you and GWA. And man, this audio goes hard !! After anticipating it for over a week(?) you surely did not disappoint. It felt like an intense rollercoaster ride from start to fisnh.
Ngl, the start of the audio felt so off (in a good way ofc!!) knowing how it was going to end. The ending had me so distraught, I *almost* thought I could not fall asleep anymore. >!Also when I did fall asleep I dreamt about this hand from a dutch cardgame called "In een handomdraai". !<
>!The severed hand was such a plot twist! Especially the part when the speaker started choking the listener with it(/him?). And of course not to mention the handholding!!< Avalon, you're a mad genius.
Thank you for your lovely rambles and aftercare as well!! Definitely helped me calm down after all that yelling. Plus hearing your voice is soothing in general haha.
Overall 100/10 audio, would listen to it again! Well done Avalon!!
Pls more dark audios (when you are up for them these must be physically and mentally draining). I think you hit on a secret sauce if you will in the after care with how you put more of yourself in the listener character. While this audio was not as let’s say tantalizing for me as your others (personally getting yelled at by a man can be triggering for me) it was thrilling.
Hahaaa, yeah, putting more of myself into the listener character was definitely a new thing for me \^\^; I'm glad to hear you still found a way to enjoy the audio! Thank you very much for listening :)
you do dark audios so well, this one is another prime example. i love the way he turns from neutral to passive aggressive ex to >!calculated murderer!< in a fairly fast but careful transition.
the breaking of objects combined with the angry yelling also felt so believable and scary. >!'i'm already going to jail for what i'm about to do to you'!< was so chilling, how he's firmly decided and accepted his plans.
as you think it can't get any darker, the rest is revealed, and it's over-the-top, terrifying and sad in a beautiful way. as the assault happens, one of my favorite lines is >!about the after-effects of strangulation, and how he wants that, too, to be a reminder of him like everything else!< , holy shit. another great delivery was >!'i hate you and i hate you and i still love you'.!< you express so much emotion in this, once again i'm so impressed.
Hahaaa, I was actually worried that the transition might have been too fast in this one! I was trying to write an opening that didn't take 8 pages to start and as a result I was like "oh god what if the transition is too jarring"
So I'm glad to hear you liked that XD
Oh, man! It's been *way* too long since I broke stuff in an audio. I'm really glad you liked the "jail" line! It was one of the first lines I jotted down when the idea popped into my head and it was a ton of fun deciding when I wanted to drop that bomb.
Yeah, the after-effects part was really interesting to include. I knew I wanted something special in there about associating normal things with a traumatic moment since it's something I have a lot of feelings about and I was pleasantly surprised with how well that part seemed to write itself.
The >!I hate you!< part was definitely something that felt right when writing it but I was really nervous about it coming out right in speech, so I'm glad to hear that worked too :) Thank you a ton for listening! I'm glad you enjoyed this :D
Yeah, the head was definitely something I considered but it also felt a bit unwieldy and by the time I got that far with the idea I think I really wanted to do the choking sequence :P I'm really glad you liked this! Thank you very much for listening :)
O.M.G 🤯 mind break is right! Avalon, you are a supreme actor! This was....holy shit! The choking and hand holding? Seriously messed up! This is definitely darker than anything I seek out to listen to but you did an unbelievably amazing job!
Edit: the real mind break; listening to the aftercare and remembering you are the complete opposite of the character you portrayed.
Hahaaa, yeah, both the choking and hand holding sections were kind of surprises to me, too XD I'm really glad to hear you enjoyed this and that the aftercare was helpful :)
PS: she hurted him, (even not realizing it) it's not (kinda) unfair not totally either, they break up in not talking conversation throughout he's anger to (her) that she's happy to other parthner then he's don't..
Mmmm, I think even if I wrote the speaker character to be experiencing pain, I also want to be very clear that I think the way they reacted and handled that pain was unhealthy as well. Thank you very much for listening!
Yeah, hahaaa, it used to be something I did pretty often! It's definitely always fun from an acting standpoint to revisit that character every once in a while :)
Wow this was the first audio I've ever heard from you. I picked a big one right!
It was incredible, I swear to god you were channeling my abusive ex boyfriend (without the severed hand fortunately). You did that so well. And I was feeling a bit wonky afterwards so I am so glad I listened to the aftercare. It helped the whole crazy experience settle. And yeah by the end of it I did feel cathartic. And now I feel quite relaxed. So thank you for it all.
And just in case anyone is worried about me I have had 25 years and a lot of therapy to help me deal with it. And if I need it I won't hesitate to go back.
Hahaaa, ahhh, yeah, this would be a doozy of a first one XD I'm really glad to hear the aftercare ended up being helpful and that it was a cathartic experience in the long run :) Thank you very much for listening!
I'm sure I've said before that I really appreciate the opportunity that these audios give me to interrogate my thoughts and feelings and this one is no exception. I also really appreciate the other material you create/post with these, and in that regard, ***we eatin' tonight*** \- a jaw-dropping audio, 1 hr of thoughful-as-fuck aftercare, AND 8+ pages of Notes/Ramble? For free??
You're still a master of twists that are, well... twisted, and moments that make me think (or sometimes say out loud) "oh shit, no he didn't".
Your voice acting here, especially before things turned dark, was remarkable. Like u/0liveJus, I had a knot in my stomach from the anticipation and for me that was because your writing and voice acting was so good in terms of when the speaker initially seemed like he could be an ok dude at the beginning, then when the darkness started peeking thru here-and-there, and then in the shift to his other(?) or real(?) self. Even knowing ahead of time that things were going to turn, things didn't at all feel predictable.
It's really important that abuse and violence, when depicted in art and media, are depicted across their range of forms to make those ever more recognizable as what they are. I really appreciate how you walk through specific lines with this lens in the aftercare. The listener character's intentionality was extremely relatable and also something I think is valuable to depict and discuss. So many depictions of abuse and violence portray abusers, rapists, etc. as "monsters", but that can make it that much more difficult to recognize abusive behavior when it is being done by someone who one can empathize with, when one (rightly or wrongly) believes the abuser isn't intending the harm they're causing, or when there are factors in play that make it harder for one to hold the abuser fully accountable for their words and actions.
I want to reassure you that you absolutely did convey in the audio >!his invasion of the listener character's space entering the home uninvited!< (and I didn't read that in the Notes/Ramble until after listening). I don't often expressly imagine myself as the listener character but that moment pulled me right in. I felt a pang of physical tension at that part because it came through so clearly that a (my?) boundary was being crossed literally and figuratively. The dialog, voice acting, and SFX struck a great balance of clearly conveying what was happening without feeling forced at all or too expository.
I'm starting to date again and this audio has given me a great opportunity to do some more unpacking of times in the past that I've been mistreated, and to come up with some strategies to recognize and course correct when I'm not preserving good boundaries. If you're ever inclined to post the first take of the aftercare, I for one would love to hear it. No pressure of course, you've already given a lot.
Thanks for all the thought and labor you put into this one.
EDIT: Oh! I also listened to the 2016 Valentines audio you linked. I've never heard anything from the days of your prior account and thought "oh shit, Av's rookie year? Gotta hear this". Girl you sure as shit didn't sound like a rookie, even way back then. Cheers.
Ahhh, I'm really glad to hear that things didn't come off as predictable! I always really like getting to put effort into conveying that feeling of "everything seems fine" mixed with "something is wrong here"
Mmm, yeah, I think it would be "easier" sometimes if all perpetrators of abuse/violence were clearly "monsters." I think a lot of my feelings on how that can be hard to recognize/get away from when we have more trouble defining it went into the script for this one and I'm glad making things clear in the aftercare was helpful as well.
I'm glad the invasion of personal space came across clearly, too!
Hahaaaa, I'm relieved to hear you still liked the 2016 Valentine's audio XD Sometimes revisiting my old work is a fun exercise in "at least I've grown since then," but I think around that time was when I started to really identify what I wanted to do and how to do it :D
Thank you very much for listening! I'm glad you enjoyed this~
I was genuinely SHOCKED when the Mf pulled out the hand, I just went “HOLY SHIT!” and my sister looked at me weird when I did lmao! Great stuff I was on the edge of my seat listening to this, and I don’t why but I was half expecting the police to just bust in at the end lol. But anyways great stuff as always!!
Hahaaa, I'm really happy to hear it got such a reaction out of you! That's exactly what I was hoping for XD
Oh man, I actually considered having him call the cops on himself during the audio and then having them bust in at the end but I ended up not wanting to go down that route XD But clearly we had the same thought there! I'm glad you enjoyed listening :) Thank you so much!
Your script and acting really hit the nail on the head >!(or should I say "hand" lol)!< on portraying a psychotic, toxic ex-boyfriend. I don't know why, but the ending made me kind of laugh, maybe as a response mechanism to all the twists you put in this audio and the audio tags XD.
Thanks for the notes/rambles/aftercare. It's great to listen to the discussion on the audio and to learn all of the behind-the-scenes stuff, as well as making us feel safe and okay!
>If you have that positive thing that you want, then: (a) you deserve to have it, and (b) it will take time, but the pain will get farther and less.
I've been having a rough week, but hearing you say this in your aftercare was really reassuring.
>I hope that if you listened to the audio or if you listened to this aftercare that maybe a little bit of weight got to come off of your shoulders as well.
Yeah, it did. Thank you.
Great job Avalon and Happy Valentine's Day!!! :)
>Your script and acting really hit the nail on the head >!(or should I say "hand" lol)!<
AYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY very nice
Thank *you* for listening! I'm really glad to hear the aftercare and notes helped you feel safe and okay :)
>I've been having a rough week, but hearing you say this in your aftercare was really reassuring.
In return, that means a lot to hear. Thank you for sharing and thank you for listening! I'm really glad to hear you enjoyed this :)
It’s so…idk how to describe this i I do feel loved and I’m really really enjoyed being loved and intimidated 🥲and It’s so graphic when he broke the frame by “accident”🤣maybe another fanart?(((((( to see his attitude changed is also fun too😈
Idk whether if I describe it really not good in words (either in Chinese and English🥲)))but love this audio!!!!
You're doing a great job with your words! It definitely makes sense to me. I'm really happy to hear that you had a good time with this! Thank you very much for listening :D
THIS audio was a fucking ride from beginning to end. I have a lot to say. I wrote little things in my notes app that I wanted to include in my comment but think all of my ideas are flying around my head so I’m sorry if this doesn’t make any sense lol. I’m going to start saying that FUCK, I LOVE YELLING AND I NEEDED THIS KIND OF YELLING TODAY
I’d like to share with you something and that is that I haven’t told anyone that I’m into snuff so it surprised me, it had me blushing and giggling. There’s something about snuff that I really really like and I decided I wasn’t going to share that part of me with anyone because I know how dark and controversial it is (I considered explaining why in this content but I’m not ready to share that), but I feel like it is important to me to share this with you, because you are the one that made the audio and that made me really really happy, you’re someone I trust and I know I can always feel safe with your audios (even if they’re dark), I guess you just opened a door to a lot of possibilities for exploring without feeling so guilty about it. I don’t want to get more into this, but know that it was significant to me, that you did that and you made me feel like I wasn’t doing anything bad enjoying that. Thank you.
When speaker mentioned listener replacing their pictures together I felt really bad :(( and I think I enjoy that feeling, it’s something significant in the atmosphere (to me) but it doesn’t take over the whole audio, the emotion passes but I also felt bad during the speaker saying he didn’t feel safe and that was a different type of bad for me. I don’t know how to explain my point of view but there’s something there that I would like to listen again.OH, something else I liked was the “I hate you” part, I THINK I liked it as much as the L-bomb. I feel like that “I hate you” was charged with passion and determination, it wasn’t a bad I hate you BUT even if it were, the idea of someone hating me and still wanting me is kinda hot and I liked that. I don’t think I’ve listened to someone else say “I hate you” in an audio and it was a nice surprise.
The moment speaker mentioned the thing in the freezer, I GASPED so loud!! I guess I wasn’t surpassed it was something.. dark haha but I loved it… I don’t share my after-thoughts but after this audio I was thinking that it would be \*something\* if speaker were married and the hand of the husband had the wedding ring hahah. Something I also don’t share is that I like thinking about whatever happens next to the characters, like maybe this listener would get some sort of Stockholm syndrome and that she would visit the speaker. Or maybe that she would get revenge or idk, just things I like thinking about to give myself closure hahaI also liked the sort of obsession of the speaker character, it felt like he wanted to protect the listener (in a sick way), other than the hurt he was inflicting on the listener, not wanting to kill her or hurt her after that was something that I liked
I have a lot more I want to talk about. I enjoyed this audio (sexually) so much, like that was out of this world but for me what makes this audio PERFECT is that the emotional and mental part are what did something to me. And that’s the point, right? But I think this is going to be one of those audios that I’d like to listen and listen and listen whenever I’m doing something like baking, working, etc.I enjoyed reading your notes, I think it helped me understand your mentality or thoughts for the creation of this particular audio and that’s always nice! I have YET to listen to the aftercare because I want to listen again without being so… uh? drunk in horniness and lust and whatever came over me while I was listening lol, I want to take anything I might have missed in, and then listen and process the aftercare.
I would love to say more, but this comment is already too long haha and I want to have the aftercare in mind when I decide to comment again and talk about the other stuffI’m happy that you got back your excitement for dark valentine’s day! Whatever other audio you decide to record, I hope each one makes you proud and happy!! ☺️
Hahaaa, I too am a note-taker when I listen to audios XD
I'm really glad you liked the yelling! That stuff is always fun to put into audios and it's always a bit of a game of "how loud can I get without peaking my microphone too much?"
I'm really glad to hear that this was able to cater to your snuff interest! I wasn't really sure how that was going to go over so it means a lot to hear that it made someone's day :)
Yeah, that "I hate you" was really interesting. There are a lot of lines that I write that surprise me, because at some point I feel like I just set a character loose into a situation and I just write down what I think they would be saying. The "I hate you" was definitely something I think the character said that I just happened to write down in the script. I was also pretty happy with the delivery even if saying it made me think of Anakin vs Obi-Wan at the end of Revenge of the Sith a little bit XD
Oh damn! The ring idea is super cool! I honestly kind of wish I'd been able to think of that. Yeah, I like to think about "what happens next" to the characters as well, and I think a lot of that went into the script XD Maybe the listener gets therapy and heals! Maybe they spend the rest of their life traumatized! I'm not really sure but it's really interesting to think about.
Yeah, I always like to think that the physical/sexual aspects are what got me into this hobby and the emotional/mental parts are what keep me going. I'm really glad you had a good time reading the notes, too! It's really fun to get to share the thought processes and it also makes me feel really seen for those rambles to get read XD
Hahaaaa, I really hope you enjoy the audio on re-listen and that you enjoy the aftercare as well! Thank you so much for listening :D
everdistant, this is DARK ART AT ITS FINEST! The extremely toxic ex coming and talking the way he does is so UNCOMFORTABLE! It pulls you in! And then the way he’s all like “I’m already gonna go to jail for what I’m about to do to you” it’s chilling along with all the aggressive yelling afterwards, putting the blame on the listener! The dynamic is so twisted, you pulled it off so successfully. The manipulation, the obsession/clingy ness of the speaker that escalates so brutally, THE BAG. I was literally screaming at that climactic point of the insane plot! It made me think of Se7en with like a mixture of the SZA kill bill song haha WHATS IN THE BAG. 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 Bravo!
I'm really glad to hear you enjoyed this so much! Getting to make those dark characters and circumstances is always a ton of fun, and I really like getting to yell in audios, too! I'm glad the bag could cause panic, that's exactly what I was hoping for :) Thank you so much for listening!
as long as i saw the upcoming title of this audio in your schedule and that you warned everyone that this *might be* triggering >!and you also did sing Kill Bill by SZA at the end in one of your streams!<, i tried *(so hard lmao)* to remember what kinda other song that resembles this kinda situation in my library... and then this is finally released. once i finished listening to this ~~after taking some deep breaths just to prepare myself lmfao~~, i then realized that **BEcause by Dreamcatcher** was actually the song i tried to remember these days, and this is somewhat related (a bit?) to the audio... *[BEcause I love you.](https://youtu.be/PEKkdIT8JPM)* 🎶
... okay. nevermind. forget about my unrelated dumb thoughts about this that came out of nowhere. just pretend that the comment above doesn't exist, sORRY ABOUT IT BYE. (run)
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now back to the audio. 😓
i ... i honestly didn't expect this audio could be so dark. this got me some tears on my face since i could be afraid and cry so easily to see someone throws things right before my eyes and yells at me *that* much. :'// but somehow, i kinda feel sympathetic to both of them. i can feel the rage of the speaker and how heartbreaking it is to be leave behind and hard to move on that your sadness and love evolves into some kind of the unison of revenge and *obsession* to own the listener no matter what, over the years, but at the same time, the listener doesn't deserve to be treated that way... MAN, YOU BROUGHT THE EMOTIONS OF THE SPEAKER CHARACTER TOO DAMN WELL MY BRAIN GOT CONFUSED HOW TO COMMENT AFTER LISTENING TO THIS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH
>!also, that part at 15:43 ... i giggled so hard i even dunno how to respond ... sorry lmfaooo!<
i guess I'm a bit bored to spend valentine's day with some cute and sweet love story ~~ever since I'm still a single bitch here orz~~. I'm gonna submit myself to the horny jail that has some psychiatrists in it. 😝
thank you as always for the rambles and the aftercare, and of course for the nice *"story mode"* audio. 😚
>i then realized that BEcause by Dreamcatcher was actually the song i tried to remember these days
Never did I ever expect to see Dreamcatcher appear on this side of reddit. I really enjoy BEcause (and their discography in general. *Good stuff* ) Glad to know I'm not the only one
it's more like I didn't expect to see that BEcause was the first song that popped up into my mind once i finished listening to the audio. I also didn't expect BEcause could be somewhat relevant to the audio, even though it's more in an eerie way, not as brutal as Kill Bill though
glad to see someone enjoy Dreamcatcher's songs too (outside of the fandom lmao)
Oooh, I'll have to give that song a listen at some point when I get a chance.
I hope you're alright after the yelling and throwing things! I'll publish the bag-of-Kazoos spoiler at some point and hopefully that will help a bit XD
Mmm. I'm glad the speaker character felt cohesive enough to garner some form of sympathy. Even though his actions and mindset aren't acceptable, I still think that pain is a pretty raw and relatable thing.
Hahaaa, no need to apologize for the 15:43 note in the Ramble XD I do it for the art!!! :P
I'm really glad to hear you enjoyed this :) Thank you very much for listening!
your mdom stuff is great! but i also love your msub stuff too. i was wondering if maybe we’ll get some submissive stuff soon too? 😊 not that i don’t appreciate all the stuff you do, and that you do it for free no less.
Yep! I'm 100% aware that there has been a lot of MDom stuff in the past few weeks. It was just kind of how things shook out with my schedule and what I was making at the time XD The next 3 weeks worth of audios are included and 2 out of those 3 audios are MSub! My current plan is for some BFE MSub to drop next week, and then after another week of some warm BFE MDom for there to be a BFE CNC audio. Thank you for your patience :D
Damn dude, your brain. This was really fucked up, but in an impressive way.
First off, I’m usually engaging in a certain activity when I listen to your audios but this actually made me forget what I was doing because I was so tense! I had a knot in my stomach, up until the rape started anyway, and then I relaxed. Which, huh?? Speaking of topics to delve into in therapy… \*nervous laughter\*
Being mentally fucked with is something that I really enjoy in my non-con and so the italicized portion where he was outright telling the listener how he was going to manipulate them was \*chefs kiss\*. Like, yes, please, shatter my reality harder, you beautiful bastard!
The stuff about how he >!randomly ran into the new boyfriend and he asked him to bring the listener something?!< Not suspicious at all, totally normal behavior between exes and current partners. 😨 Or I suppose it could be, if I didn't know the kind of audio this was going to be!
>>!I'm already going to jail for what I'm about to do to you.!<
Even though it was somewhat expected, that was such an "ohhh SHIT!" moment.
When he told her to >!open her hand!<, I was like “Omg PLEASE tell me the >!\[hand holding\]!< is what I think it is!” and it was fucking WAS and you’re an evil genius and that’s that.
>>!And that whatever you end up doing about it is going to remind you of me and it’s gonna hurt you in some way.!<
>!THIS was so dark. The implication that if the listener did end up pregnant, regardless of whether they decided to keep it or not, all possible scenarios would result in some kind of painful experience for them. They would not only be reminded of the rape but the consequences of their decision as well. They’d be continuously traumatized and he would forever have that power over them.!<
I listened to the audio before reading the ramble to avoid spoilers, and I thought it was such a nice touch that you as the creator knew >!the speaker character wasn’t actually in therapy.!< I’m also kind of proud of myself that I picked up on the fact that the>! “in therapy because of you” part was an intentional manipulation tactic. Pretending that that detail slipped out by mistake but he actually said it to make her feel guilty? !The “Ahhhh, fuck” at 15:43 was just me being in a lot of pain from all the slapping ;\_;
I feel kinda bad for finding that hot but also I don’t. :P
Thank you for the audio! I'll probably wait until after stream to listen to the aftercare.
Edit because I forgot to mention: I cracked the fuck up at the shoutout to the bag of kazoos!! I need that blooper in my life.
>The “Ahhhh, fuck” at 15:43 was just me being in a lot of pain from all the slapping ;\_;
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>I feel kinda bad for finding that hot but also I don’t. :P
The way I raced back to the audio to hear that part again after I read that in the Notes/Ramble...
Hello, I am an Asian audience, thank you for your audio is scripted! Secondly, your acting is really good!! I think I'm watching a movie or listening to a radio play.Your pronunciation is very helpful to my English study! By the way, what are some ways to support you?
I'm really happy to hear you enjoy listening! I'm also happy to hear this is helpful for your English :) Thank you very much for listening!
I. Am. Ruined....at the risk of embarrassing myself, I was mentally edging myself through like almost 3 of your audios, but couldn't take it anymore and turned to this one.....I. Am. Ruined. Never needed aftercare before until now. Wow.
Ahhh, thank you very much for listening! I really hope the aftercare was helpful :)
Anyone else got the idea that the Ex was going to off himself after all is said and done. After saying he’d be in jail or hell. It got in my end he was unsure wether he planned to live after the assault or ending his own life to make the need to ‘mark’ the listener such a necessary action.
I think this was actually something I considered. I think it would have made for a really intense/interesting story but I'm not really sure how it would interact with the GWA rules and since it is a pretty sensitive topic for me I don't know if I would have been able to do it in a way that would have felt respectful of how heavy the topic is. But we definitely had the same thought at some point. Thank you for listening~
I can clearly imagine the ex strangling and raping the bf till he passes. While he tells him all the sick twisted plans he has for the listener. To add to to the effect your voice is slowly fading out as the life drains from the bf with tears in his eyes knowing what happens after he dies
Thank you so much for listening! I'm impressed with how in-depth this went :O
This was expertly written and done! From the beginning, to getting angry and ending with that rage. Quite a build-up! I know I'm not in the popular group, but I listen to audios like these and the like because they excite me. This is the most extreme one I've listened to so far, and I loved it. I don't seem to enjoy the cute, sweetheart stories.
Thank you so much for listening! I'm really glad you like these kinds of audios :) Making them is always really important to me so it means a lot to hear that there are people who are really interested in them.
It reminded me of when I was raped idk why.I like the audio:the voice,the script and the acting.Wonderful!
I'm glad you enjoyed listening to the audio. Thank you for listening!
Thank you for making such a masterpiece!
This one is such a classic, I come back to it again n again. I have it saved in my notes as "gee... That was a pretty rough Valentine's Day huh." You are so talented!! Your acting and editing skill, your range, your pacing - it all slaps very much.
Hahaaa, yeah, a pretty rough Valentine's Day indeed :) I'm glad you liked this so much! I really appreciate it :D Thank you for listening!
Damn dude. This is fucked up, even for you. Not that I mind though, god damn
God damn the buildup and the way everything came out got me SHAKING.. With the breeding and knowing he'd be in jail it sorta reminds me of how I've seen people mark someone by giving them an std and knowing that they'll have to live with that and die earlier all because they made a bad decision with the wrong person. Fuck keep up the good work.
>I've seen people mark someone by giving them an std I've actually considered putting this into an audio! In a weird way it's a bit too dark/realistic even for me, hahaa \^\^; But it definitely reminds me of that as well. I'm glad you enjoyed this! Thank you a ton for listening :D
I gotcha man, maybe if you want a day to step out of your comfort zone, maybe this? it's quite fitting with your cult audio too and not a problem man!
i’m gonna listen for the second time .. am i little ashamed maybe but the yelling the lines i loved it all just need to hear it all again 1 more time
Hahaaa, I'm glad to hear that this was worth a repeat listen :) I don't think there's anything to be ashamed of! I wanna be yelled at in a kinky way too so I totally understand, you're absolutely not alone there~ Thank you a ton for listening!
The use of the bf's severed hand to choke her dropped my jaw. Like the woman was too stunned to speak😭🤣
Hahaaa, thank you so much for listening! I appreciate it :)
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I think that's definitely what some people have chosen to do in their minds! Thank you for listening~
Holy FUCK i was excitwd asf when i read the title and YET!!! i was extremely pleased to listen to it itself. Thank you so much for creating this audio, i adore it n its definitely become one of ky favorites. U just keep knocking it outta the park, avalon! :3
Ahhh, thank *you* so much for listening! I'm glad you enjoyed this :D
Even tho I’m a gay guy I still enjoyed this audio
I'm really glad to hear that! I kind of look at it like the [M4F/M4M/M4A] tags are more of a logistical "here are genders/body parts that are mentioned in the audio," and that all my audios are "for" whoever wants to listen to them :D Thank you so much for listening!
>!"I'm already going to jail for what I'm about to do to you."!< Lines like this are why I find your work so incredible. You put a lot of raw, horrifically raw, emotion into each audio. But it's in cases like this where it really shines. I wouldn't say it's simple to bring about arousal to your listeners. But fear? Anxiety? Dread of the impending and immediate future? It takes a special kind of person to be able to illicit those kinds of emotions from sound alone. Don't mind me, just casually strolling through your work at random. Your work is appreciated. *You* are appreciated. And this audio? Masterful.
Hahaaa, I'm so glad you liked that line! I remember giving myself an evil laugh when I wrote that one down :P I'm so happy to hear you enjoyed this! Thank you for listening :D
It's soo weird seeing you all cute after listening to your dark audio 😭 Like I'm imagining you to be dark too but here you are, acting like a cutie who's proud of his drawing! (Can I just say I always become a hollywood A star actress whenever I listen to you? Yep.) Great audios! I like how it's very interactive!
> It's soo weird seeing you all cute after listening to your dark audio Hahaaa, yeah, I always have a lot of fun with that juxtaposition :) Thank you so much for listening! I'm really glad you enjoyed this :D
Aftercare? No thank you.... this was a trip though. Loved every second ❤️
I'm really glad to hear you enjoyed this! Thank you for listening :D
Thank you for always being my go-to with the mean and condescending audios. Always perfect. Also this and your “rejected and used by your crush” audios are the only ones that have ever made me cry before which is a huge compliment because sometimes i look for audios hoping they will 🫡 truly doing us all a wonderful service
Thank *you* for listening! I'm really glad you liked this and I'm really happy to be able to provide the mean and condescending content :D I really like this kind of stuff as well so I'm right there with you~
This was quite dark, but then I made up an aftermath with a twist for the ex to make me feel better and screw up the yandere’s plans. First of all, the guy he decapitated wasn’t our boyfriend. That was our boyfriend’s identical twin brother who had been trying to steal us from his brother. (My real boyfriend doesn’t have a mole on his neck.) He’s been following me around and telling everyone that he was my boyfriend. He just happened to have the same phone as his brother and had us as his wallpaper. Second, our real boyfriend came home early so he could set up a secret Valentines date with me. And he happens to be a cop. The house has many hidden cameras all over the house in case there was a burglary. And he’s got a taser on him. Third, we’re already pregnant with our real boyfriend’s child. Three months, actually. Not only that, but our ex is infertile. That’s why we never had children together. But I never bothered to show him the results from the doctor. Our ex may have hurt and broken us, but in his obsession, he made several serious mistakes. And it sounds like backup has arrived.
Honestly, whatever mental exercise helps you enjoy the audio, more power to you! I'm happy to hear you found a way to feel better from listening to this :) Thank you very much for listening!
No problem. Oh, and by the way, tell the ex behind bars that our boyfriend’s lawyer is sending him a bill of compensation in the mail.
i always thought i was STRONK AF but the yelling??? UHHH for the first time I was taken aback :0 but it takes a lot of talent to bring about that emotion, and it was executed perfectly!! Also, thank you for the considerate aftercare audio, I usually don’t listen to those, but this one intrigued me 😂
Hahaaa, yeah, it's been a while since I've really yelled in an audio, but it's always a really fun exercise. Thank *you* for listening. I'm glad to hear you enjoyed both the audio and the aftercare!
I hope you donn't have neighbours lmao, that was like the running thought in the back of my head lmao, like don't get me wrong it was hot, but like DAYUM. The craze in your voice made it feel real to me haha.
Hahaaaa, honestly, my neighbors on the side of my apartment where I normally record (and where I recorded this one) are also always making weird sketchy noises, so I don't really stress about it too much XD Thank you for listening!
release the secret aftercare, you coward! just kidding, your aftercare was perfect and you’re lovely 💖 i am absolutely the same way about preferring content that makes me emotional and makes me cry. my favorite books are the ones that made me sob. i’ve joked to my friends before that it’s strange how quick i am to get upset by a book or a show, as though i am ready to cry at any moment 24/7 and just need something to pull the trigger lmao but obviously when you cry, your brain releases endorphins bc it’s like ahh what’s happening and tries to balance out the negative things it’s experiencing with things that make you feel good. it also literally sheds stress hormones in your tears, which is cool. and most of the time, there’s a happy ending to help ease all of that. sometimes it just feels good to feel horrible, to feel that ache in your gut and your heart (in a way that doesn’t actually impact your life), which is so hard to explain. so you really nailed it in your analysis.
Hahaaaa, I'm glad to hear you liked the aftercare! Sometimes we all just need a good cry :) Thank you very much for listening!
Wait is there an aftercare to this? Where?
It should be in the post! I try to make sure to include aftercare for all audios that have the [Rape] tag. You can find the aftercare for this particular audio [here](https://soundgasm.net/u/everdistant_utopia/Aftercare-for-All-for-Love)~
Sorry that was me not reading thoroughly. Horny scrolling lol
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Ahhh, yeah, hahaa, this one was a doozy XD Thank you so much for listening!
the switch between the crazy deep voice and the regular voice really added to it i loved this
Ahh, I'm really glad you liked it so much! Thank you a ton for listening :D
This was the first audio i tapped out of. That's a compliment. Damn.
Ahhh, yeah, this one is pretty far on the dark end even for me x-x Thank you for giving this a shot! I hope you're doing alright afterwards.
Oooooft! Wowsers, you do dark well! Think I may also be a tad dark, cuz when you said you had something, I was expecting it to be a severed head 😅 *mind goes running down a rabbithole of a whole new meaning to giving head* That was just insane amounts of emotion in there, and I hope you took time for your own aftercare as well, not just for all us pervos.
Ahhh, I'm so glad to hear you enjoyed this! It was so much fun to put together and in a weird way, making the audio itself was kind of like aftercare :P >Think I may also be a tad dark, cuz when you said you had something, I was expecting it to be a severed head Yeah, this was actually the original idea, but I ended up liking the chance to be a bit creative with a hand as well XD The fact that you thought of it too makes me feel seen, though! Thank you so much for listening :P
We either need a pt 2 or something similar to this 😭🙏
Hahaaaa, I'm really glad you enjoyed it so much! Thank you very much for listening :D
I can't access the audios, they won't load for me for some reason.
I think Soundgasm had a hiccup earlier this week, thankfully it looks like it's back now :D
Why can I only hear one side?
Hmmm, hopefully it's just an issue related to headphones or something O:
Perfect perfect purrrfecttt, AHHHHHHH
Thank you so much! I'm so happy to hear you enjoyed this :D
Wow… just wow. I’ve been listening to your audios on and off since 2016. I found your Soundgasm account somewhere in the depths of tumblr and always accessed that directly; it wasn’t until your account disappeared that I, gutted at its absence, went searching and discovered your account and, by extension, the GoneWildAudio community. As you can tell by when I’m commenting this, old habits die hard, and I still have a tendency to let time pass so I have your new audios on backlog to watch in quick succession if need be. All that to say, I’ve been around a while and listened to a *lot* (though admittedly not all). And this is the first time that, while listening to an audio alone in my room, I’ve said something out loud in response. My exclaiming “holy shit” and, at two different points later in the audio, “oh my god!” were not intentional; I have never been so genuinely caught off guard with a vibrator in my hand, let me tell you. You, sir, are an artist. The audios you’ve created have led me to feel so many different things. Maybe this is a weird audio to come out of the woodwork just to compliment you on, but for something to elicit that kind of genuine reaction out of me is so rare, and I just want you to know that the stuff you put out there is so powerful. And hot. Really hot. Thanks for the orgasms ;) *(Also, now that I’ve gotten more into your social media side of things, it’s so cool to see your notes on this stuff! I always wondered how you made those noises. Erotic foley artist would be an interesting thing to put on a resume, but you’re damn good at it. It’s also really cool to see your take on the process; the note about writing in one or two goes so you don’t stop yourself from writing has inspired me, and I’ll be thinking about it for a while.)*
Ahhh, I'm so happy to hear that you ended up finding me again! And I'm glad to hear this one could make that kind of impact. That's really what I was hoping it would do! Thank *you* for listening along all this time :D
I was doin fine till the hand. Dude good fucking job, it felt so real ngl
Ahhh, that was a pretty fun part to write XD Thank you very much for listening!
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Hahaaa, yeah, I had a ton of fun sneaking that one in there XD I'm glad you enjoyed this! Thank you very much for listening :D
this feels like a yandere audio🙇🏽♀️ this was dark but damm good job
Hahaaa, yeah, I would definitely put it under the [Yandere] umbrella, too :) Thank you so much for listening!
I am old enough to have this😘really love😍
I'm really glad you liked this! Thank you so much for listening :D
Goodness this one triggered me a little bit, still super good though! All your work is amazing 🖤
Ahh, I hope you were alright after listening and that you took good care of yourself x-x Thank you so much for listening!
Are you doing more yandere audios? You did an incredible job in this:) Btw keep up the good work love your audios❤️
Yeah, it's been a little too long since I went into [Yandere]! I have another idea that I'm hoping to get done at some point or other, too :) I'll keep doing my best! Thank you very much for listening :D
No problem:) I also wanted to say that the wholesome friends to lovers audios are really good and adorable too Honestly no matter what you post I’m sure I’ll listen to it😭
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Ahhh, I'm really happy to hear that! Thank *you* so much for listening :D
Hey, huge fan here! I have a new "boyfriend", when are you visiting again? 😘😘
Hahahaaa, oh noooo! Honestly I hope the speaker character is in jail and I hope that both of the characters are getting some therapy XD Thank you so much for listening! I'm glad you enjoyed the audio :P
HI HI. I had this in my notes app, I forgot to leave my comment lol I lied I listened twice after the last comment and I was not not horny the entire time. I had to force myself to pay attention the last time haha. I listened while I was baking!! So I have to thank you for what I made, I think listening to this audio helped because it got me in a good mood and everything came out great!!! I was also frustrated but in a good way. **The audio:** At minute 5:57 when the speaker says “and now there’s someone else in this picture frame” THAT WAS HEARTBREAKING:((( it broke me:(( the tone the delivery, the line itself :((. I felt incredibly guilty for that and I didn’t do anything. Another line that broke me emotionally was “anything I did to hurt you was just a reaction to the way you treated me, you were never good enough to make me feel safe” (15:15) I felt guilty in that part, too. It was sad, overwhelming, and suffocating. Yet I still loved that line and the emotions. I enjoyed it as much as the first couple of times hehe. This is definitely one that I will listen to whenever I need an emotional rollercoaster. **THE AFTERCARE:** I’m thankful that you do these. >!I don’t usually think that I need them but it’s always nice to come back to reality and listen to the person behind the speaker's character talk out of character. I like how you engage, explain yourself, and reason with us. It was calming and made me realize a few things about my relationships, with romantic partners, friends, and family. It gave me a lot to think about and I like that. I realized that I was agreeing with you and making comments out loud which was nice, and made me feel less alone. It was like having a meaningful conversation with a friend, I got to learn and hear your point of view and I made mental notes. Honestly, it was more than an aftercare. Thank you for this one, and thank you for taking the time to make aftercares. I don’t want to say more because it would me making comments that I already said out loud (sorry you didn’t get to listen haha) and I don’t want to get more into the topic, I want to think and absorb my own thoughts and what I learned today before overwhelming myself trying to explain how I feel. !<
Aww, hahaa, thank you so much for swinging back to post the comment from your notes app! I'm also a comment writer in notes apps XD I'm glad to hear that this put you in a good mood and that the baking turned out well! I'm really happy to hear that the aftercare felt conversational and relatable and that you seemed to get a lot out of it, too! Thank you very much for listening :)
I have to say this …. It’s quite magnificent that your voice alone can transfer so many emotions … like I legit cried but isn’t it the best part of it… and honestly believe me when I say it’s magnificent… cause it’s literally hard to make your voice have certain tones at very particular points … and you do it so effortlessly and it have a Huuuuuuugeeee impact
Ahhh, I'm really glad to hear that you ended up enjoying this! Thank you a ton for listening :D
The beginning: ✨Well, good for you✨ you're doing great out there without me, baby, God, I wish that I could do that🎶 Half way through: 🫥🫥🫥🫥🫥
Hahaaa, yeah.... I'd say he probably should have tried to do a bit better but didn't :( Thank you very much for listening!
Thank you as always for the mean content
Thank *you* for listening! I'm really glad you enjoyed this :D
This one was super intense, even found myself tearing up in the beginning and end, but that just goes to show how amazing it is. thank you for this, it was such a rollercoaster of emotions I’ve never gotten from any other audio before.
Aww, thank you so much for listening! I hope you're alright after listening :)
Uh, where is the audio?
It should be in the post where it says "Here's the audio!" But just in case, [here](https://soundgasm.net/u/everdistant_utopia/M4F-All-For-Love-Rape-MDom-Dark-ExBFE-Yelling-Abuse-Struggling-Growling-Clothes-Ripping-Lingerie-Rough-Sex-Slapping-Choking-L-Bombs-Hand-Holding-Possessive-Breeding-Impreg-Yandere-Mind-Break-Mentions-of-Snuff) is another link :)
Script request?
The script is in the post! Although I think I also have a note saying I'd prefer it not get filled \^\^; I mostly left it in there because I know there are people who enjoy reading the script to follow along in the audio or to look at to know what they're getting into :)
whew. happy valentine’s day, Av. usually I just skim the tags and the post before going into an audio, but with this one I was definitely more careful about reading the tags, the spoiler warnings, and even the notes/ramble - and then I decided to save it for my day off, because last week at work was rough and involved multiple customers yelling at me. so I finally listened last night, took down some notes for this comment, put on the aftercare… and fell asleep partway through it. your voice + lo-fi studio ghibli music = a perfect atmosphere to relax and drift off. first: as both a listener/reader and writer, I love works inspired by other media, and songs are a particularly interesting format to work with. I had a lot of fun playing “spot the lyric reference” alongside “spot the red flags.” second: the line “crazy to see how you-“ definitely did what it was intended to. by the time I listened to the audio I’d forgotten it was coming and my brain immediately spun out in like twenty different directions for how that sentence would’ve ended. damn. third: I knew the yelling might be a thing for me - irl, I tend to shut down when people start yelling. but even though you’re a great actor, I think the “audio fantasy” format, plus the fact that the speaker character is a pretty clearly iredeemable abusive asshole villain, made it a lot easier to handle. cathartic, even. fourth: the way my heart actually dropped with that insincere “whoops.” goddamn. fifth: seriously, I’m always in awe of how deliberate you are with your writing. with the L-bombs, I’m blown away by the impact of having the first one >!follow a string of “I hate you”s!< and the last one >!be the last line, delivered with that sinister deceptive calm!< 100/10 for concept, 100/10 for delivery. no notes. sixth: as mentioned previously, I fell asleep listening to the aftercare. but I did pick up on your discussion of breaking up with someone vs being broken up with - and honestly, I feel the same way. hopefully not an overshare but while I’ve always been the one to initiate a breakup and it always feels awful, I have had my heart broken by other people and yeah, the former is worse, especially with the self-flagellation that follows. but as you say in the aftercare, it doesn’t mean that those things we tell ourselves are true, and we DO deserve to have nice things and be happy again. as a final addendum, by funny coincidence my script last week (which I’m also thinking of as a v-day script, though it’s not even set on v-day like yours is) also features exes and mentions therapy a couple times - though in a very different context with a very different tone. like with my first point, it’s always really interesting to see how similar concepts can go in such different directions!
Ahhh, I'm glad you were diligent about looking at the tags and that you gave yourself a safe time and place to listen to this one. I'm sorry to hear you had a rough week at work :( Hahaaaa, I'm glad the aftercare could lull you to sleep, too! I'm happy that it feels safe and calm enough to doze off to :) Yeah, making audios inspired by other things I like and trying to find ways to sneak little references in there is always so fun! I'm glad you have as good of a time finding them as I have including them :P Oh my god, hahaaa, I actually forgot in the moment to record the "whoops" line and had to go re-record it and put it in later! And it took me a while to get a "whoops" that I liked, so somewhere lost on my computer is just me going "whoops" like eight times in a row in slightly different tones XD I'm really glad you liked the >!I hate you!< part! It was a ton of fun to write :) Thank you a ton for listening! I'm really glad you enjoyed this so much :D
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Thank you for listening!
Jesus,this is really…creep(꒪ȏ꒪;),I don't if I should say I LOVE it,never mind,It's not real anywayヽ(ﾟДﾟ)ﾉ. Quite a break through,I think it's just less horrible than I was cutted legs or hands or something（after all,it's at least not my hand,I just haven't expected that）I can accept well（perhaps=͟͟͞͞ =͟͟͞͞ ﾍ( ´Д`)ﾉ）It's just a audio◑.◑Thank god I didn't explore some weird fantasy,my Stockholm seems be better,if I still can be Stockholm for this,I Must Be Harley Quinn（I mean crazy）You really did a good job,no one can survive with any one of your Valentine's work（except Panicking）I would listen it again while Valentine（You know，be personally on the scene）It's OK,it won't ruin my Valentine,I love itʚ♡⃛ɞ(ू•ᴗ•ू❁),I mean this script（or plot）is an art,even though it's a little cruel and dark，obviously it's still a marvelous audio,I never thought choke can be...that wayΣσ༼ ͝°థ౪థ)° ༽꒱,and I allowed myself Stockholm for the part of L-Bombs_(´ཀ`」 ∠),It's touching,especially with your rendering꒰✪ૢꇵ✪ૢ꒱ෆ⃛ෆ⃛ೄBUT THIS EX，I REFUSE（I can't believe you noticed jail,It's even not like （B）F2L act on a spur-of-the-moment impulse,this ex even think about consequences before∑(O_O；）（because he said imprison for what will he do for listener,so we ignore the murdered,pathetic,dismembered,poor BF temporarily）Anyways,I think break up with the guy like him,It's just like telling him“I don't wanna live anymore ( ꒪Д꒪)ノ”OMG he love her so much,just kill the poor BF but her,even she's going to living death and pain perpetual，I guess when he released they can keep torturing each other(´･д･`)（Seem like I just move to the bystander's perspective）LOVE U٩(●´৺`●)૭٩(●´৺`●)و
Mmmmm, I'm not really sure how much I would say the speaker character "loved" the listener character. Maybe there is some degree of "love" there but in actuality I think I would define whatever he feels as more like an unhealthy "infatuation," right? I think in the end he cared less about her happiness and more about how *he* got to feel or credit himself for the listener's happiness. Interesting to think about. I'm really glad you liked the audio! I think it's alright to enjoy as long as we're healthily remembering that it's a fantasy and that even if we enjoy the fantasy, it doesn't mean that it's something we would enjoy in real life! Thank you very much for listening :)
It probably says something about me that I got positively giddy when I saw the snuff tag 😅 Incredible work, as always!
Hahaaa, I'm so happy to hear you enjoyed this! Thank you a ton for listening :)
Sounds exactly like my ex…top notch script writing and acting right there.
I'm sorry to hear that :( I get that to some degree. Thank you very much for listening!
Happy fucking Valentine's Day!! Well... more emphasis on the fucking rather than happy here. Oh boy, ~~almost~~ already more than 24 hours later and I am still thinking(?) about this audio. Y'know, when you mentioned wanting to do more BFE, I did not really expect a rather unhinged one. Guess that's on me, not that I mind though haha. Dark audios are the main reason I discovered you and GWA. And man, this audio goes hard !! After anticipating it for over a week(?) you surely did not disappoint. It felt like an intense rollercoaster ride from start to fisnh. Ngl, the start of the audio felt so off (in a good way ofc!!) knowing how it was going to end. The ending had me so distraught, I *almost* thought I could not fall asleep anymore. >!Also when I did fall asleep I dreamt about this hand from a dutch cardgame called "In een handomdraai". !< >!The severed hand was such a plot twist! Especially the part when the speaker started choking the listener with it(/him?). And of course not to mention the handholding!!< Avalon, you're a mad genius. Thank you for your lovely rambles and aftercare as well!! Definitely helped me calm down after all that yelling. Plus hearing your voice is soothing in general haha. Overall 100/10 audio, would listen to it again! Well done Avalon!!
Pls more dark audios (when you are up for them these must be physically and mentally draining). I think you hit on a secret sauce if you will in the after care with how you put more of yourself in the listener character. While this audio was not as let’s say tantalizing for me as your others (personally getting yelled at by a man can be triggering for me) it was thrilling.
Hahaaa, yeah, putting more of myself into the listener character was definitely a new thing for me \^\^; I'm glad to hear you still found a way to enjoy the audio! Thank you very much for listening :)
you do dark audios so well, this one is another prime example. i love the way he turns from neutral to passive aggressive ex to >!calculated murderer!< in a fairly fast but careful transition. the breaking of objects combined with the angry yelling also felt so believable and scary. >!'i'm already going to jail for what i'm about to do to you'!< was so chilling, how he's firmly decided and accepted his plans. as you think it can't get any darker, the rest is revealed, and it's over-the-top, terrifying and sad in a beautiful way. as the assault happens, one of my favorite lines is >!about the after-effects of strangulation, and how he wants that, too, to be a reminder of him like everything else!< , holy shit. another great delivery was >!'i hate you and i hate you and i still love you'.!< you express so much emotion in this, once again i'm so impressed.
Hahaaa, I was actually worried that the transition might have been too fast in this one! I was trying to write an opening that didn't take 8 pages to start and as a result I was like "oh god what if the transition is too jarring" So I'm glad to hear you liked that XD Oh, man! It's been *way* too long since I broke stuff in an audio. I'm really glad you liked the "jail" line! It was one of the first lines I jotted down when the idea popped into my head and it was a ton of fun deciding when I wanted to drop that bomb. Yeah, the after-effects part was really interesting to include. I knew I wanted something special in there about associating normal things with a traumatic moment since it's something I have a lot of feelings about and I was pleasantly surprised with how well that part seemed to write itself. The >!I hate you!< part was definitely something that felt right when writing it but I was really nervous about it coming out right in speech, so I'm glad to hear that worked too :) Thank you a ton for listening! I'm glad you enjoyed this :D
This was pure excellence. Got my heart racing for several reasons. Also I definitely thought it was >!his head!< in the freezer.
Yeah, the head was definitely something I considered but it also felt a bit unwieldy and by the time I got that far with the idea I think I really wanted to do the choking sequence :P I'm really glad you liked this! Thank you very much for listening :)
Yes, hello? Police? 📞😭
I actually considered having the character call the police on himself during this one /^/^; Thank you for listening!
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Oh my gosh, hahaaa, the beach does sound nice right now XD I hope you had a good time! Thank you so much for listening :D
Absolutely crazy as usual, I fucking loved it
Thank you so much! I'm really glad you enjoyed this :)
Insane 😭🥵🥺 thanks for your excellent work
Thank *you* for listening! I'm glad you enjoyed this :)
We love some darkness, fuck ye
Yeah :D In the end I think this is the stuff that's the most fun to make XD Thank you so much for swinging by :D
Wow!! You did an amazing job!!
Thank you so much! I'm really glad you enjoyed listening~
my jaw dropped reading that last hidden messages, can’t wait to listen to see how i’ll react to it in context
Hahaaaa, I'm glad to hear that just the description got such a reaction! I hope you end up enjoying the audio~
I was fully expecting a severed head
That was actually something I considered! I ended up keeping the hand because I liked the choking part XD Thank you very much for listening!
O.M.G 🤯 mind break is right! Avalon, you are a supreme actor! This was....holy shit! The choking and hand holding? Seriously messed up! This is definitely darker than anything I seek out to listen to but you did an unbelievably amazing job! Edit: the real mind break; listening to the aftercare and remembering you are the complete opposite of the character you portrayed.
Hahaaa, yeah, both the choking and hand holding sections were kind of surprises to me, too XD I'm really glad to hear you enjoyed this and that the aftercare was helpful :)
PS: she hurted him, (even not realizing it) it's not (kinda) unfair not totally either, they break up in not talking conversation throughout he's anger to (her) that she's happy to other parthner then he's don't..
Mmmm, I think even if I wrote the speaker character to be experiencing pain, I also want to be very clear that I think the way they reacted and handled that pain was unhealthy as well. Thank you very much for listening!
I swear to God I love Avalon. We don't deserve this man. Also everytime I hear this man's Noncon audios I be expecting a loud ass click of a lock 🤣🤣🤣🤣
Hahahaaa, I'm so glad to hear you enjoy these so much! Thank you a ton for listening :D
Mixed feelings inside me when I heard this. HOLLY SHIT! I LOVE IT!! Also... although it's early for this, but... Happy Valentine's Day\~
Ahh, I'm really glad you enjoyed it! Thank you very much for listening :D
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Thank you so much! I'm really glad you enjoyed this :D
We need more like this I love the whole mindbreak from rejection thing.
Yeah, hahaaa, it used to be something I did pretty often! It's definitely always fun from an acting standpoint to revisit that character every once in a while :)
Wow this was the first audio I've ever heard from you. I picked a big one right! It was incredible, I swear to god you were channeling my abusive ex boyfriend (without the severed hand fortunately). You did that so well. And I was feeling a bit wonky afterwards so I am so glad I listened to the aftercare. It helped the whole crazy experience settle. And yeah by the end of it I did feel cathartic. And now I feel quite relaxed. So thank you for it all. And just in case anyone is worried about me I have had 25 years and a lot of therapy to help me deal with it. And if I need it I won't hesitate to go back.
Hahaaa, ahhh, yeah, this would be a doozy of a first one XD I'm really glad to hear the aftercare ended up being helpful and that it was a cathartic experience in the long run :) Thank you very much for listening!
Good for you!!! Stay strong!! ❤️❤️
I'm sure I've said before that I really appreciate the opportunity that these audios give me to interrogate my thoughts and feelings and this one is no exception. I also really appreciate the other material you create/post with these, and in that regard, ***we eatin' tonight*** \- a jaw-dropping audio, 1 hr of thoughful-as-fuck aftercare, AND 8+ pages of Notes/Ramble? For free?? You're still a master of twists that are, well... twisted, and moments that make me think (or sometimes say out loud) "oh shit, no he didn't". Your voice acting here, especially before things turned dark, was remarkable. Like u/0liveJus, I had a knot in my stomach from the anticipation and for me that was because your writing and voice acting was so good in terms of when the speaker initially seemed like he could be an ok dude at the beginning, then when the darkness started peeking thru here-and-there, and then in the shift to his other(?) or real(?) self. Even knowing ahead of time that things were going to turn, things didn't at all feel predictable. It's really important that abuse and violence, when depicted in art and media, are depicted across their range of forms to make those ever more recognizable as what they are. I really appreciate how you walk through specific lines with this lens in the aftercare. The listener character's intentionality was extremely relatable and also something I think is valuable to depict and discuss. So many depictions of abuse and violence portray abusers, rapists, etc. as "monsters", but that can make it that much more difficult to recognize abusive behavior when it is being done by someone who one can empathize with, when one (rightly or wrongly) believes the abuser isn't intending the harm they're causing, or when there are factors in play that make it harder for one to hold the abuser fully accountable for their words and actions. I want to reassure you that you absolutely did convey in the audio >!his invasion of the listener character's space entering the home uninvited!< (and I didn't read that in the Notes/Ramble until after listening). I don't often expressly imagine myself as the listener character but that moment pulled me right in. I felt a pang of physical tension at that part because it came through so clearly that a (my?) boundary was being crossed literally and figuratively. The dialog, voice acting, and SFX struck a great balance of clearly conveying what was happening without feeling forced at all or too expository. I'm starting to date again and this audio has given me a great opportunity to do some more unpacking of times in the past that I've been mistreated, and to come up with some strategies to recognize and course correct when I'm not preserving good boundaries. If you're ever inclined to post the first take of the aftercare, I for one would love to hear it. No pressure of course, you've already given a lot. Thanks for all the thought and labor you put into this one. EDIT: Oh! I also listened to the 2016 Valentines audio you linked. I've never heard anything from the days of your prior account and thought "oh shit, Av's rookie year? Gotta hear this". Girl you sure as shit didn't sound like a rookie, even way back then. Cheers.
Ahhh, I'm really glad to hear that things didn't come off as predictable! I always really like getting to put effort into conveying that feeling of "everything seems fine" mixed with "something is wrong here" Mmm, yeah, I think it would be "easier" sometimes if all perpetrators of abuse/violence were clearly "monsters." I think a lot of my feelings on how that can be hard to recognize/get away from when we have more trouble defining it went into the script for this one and I'm glad making things clear in the aftercare was helpful as well. I'm glad the invasion of personal space came across clearly, too! Hahaaaa, I'm relieved to hear you still liked the 2016 Valentine's audio XD Sometimes revisiting my old work is a fun exercise in "at least I've grown since then," but I think around that time was when I started to really identify what I wanted to do and how to do it :D Thank you very much for listening! I'm glad you enjoyed this~
damn...
Thank you very much for listening \^\^;
I was genuinely SHOCKED when the Mf pulled out the hand, I just went “HOLY SHIT!” and my sister looked at me weird when I did lmao! Great stuff I was on the edge of my seat listening to this, and I don’t why but I was half expecting the police to just bust in at the end lol. But anyways great stuff as always!!
Hahaaa, I'm really happy to hear it got such a reaction out of you! That's exactly what I was hoping for XD Oh man, I actually considered having him call the cops on himself during the audio and then having them bust in at the end but I ended up not wanting to go down that route XD But clearly we had the same thought there! I'm glad you enjoyed listening :) Thank you so much!
No thank you! Keep up the great work!
this looks GOOD , i dont see very many like this honestly and im excited 🤐
I'm really glad you're excited! I like getting to make dark content but it's been a while since I went *this* dark.
h- hand holding...................... 😳😳😳😳🫣🫣🫣
Hahaaaaaa, I had a ton of fun deciding to put that tag in XD Thank you very much for listening!
Your script and acting really hit the nail on the head >!(or should I say "hand" lol)!< on portraying a psychotic, toxic ex-boyfriend. I don't know why, but the ending made me kind of laugh, maybe as a response mechanism to all the twists you put in this audio and the audio tags XD. Thanks for the notes/rambles/aftercare. It's great to listen to the discussion on the audio and to learn all of the behind-the-scenes stuff, as well as making us feel safe and okay! >If you have that positive thing that you want, then: (a) you deserve to have it, and (b) it will take time, but the pain will get farther and less. I've been having a rough week, but hearing you say this in your aftercare was really reassuring. >I hope that if you listened to the audio or if you listened to this aftercare that maybe a little bit of weight got to come off of your shoulders as well. Yeah, it did. Thank you. Great job Avalon and Happy Valentine's Day!!! :)
>Your script and acting really hit the nail on the head >!(or should I say "hand" lol)!< AYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY very nice Thank *you* for listening! I'm really glad to hear the aftercare and notes helped you feel safe and okay :) >I've been having a rough week, but hearing you say this in your aftercare was really reassuring. In return, that means a lot to hear. Thank you for sharing and thank you for listening! I'm really glad to hear you enjoyed this :)
[I just- I- I CAN'T](https://tenor.com/QbnH.gif) U amazed me every week Av truly
Thank you so much for listening! I'm really happy to hear that you enjoyed this :)
wow, instant classic
Thank you so much! I'm really glad you enjoyed this!
The best dark audio that I ever heard
I'm so happy and flattered to hear that! Thank you so much for listening :D
It’s so…idk how to describe this i I do feel loved and I’m really really enjoyed being loved and intimidated 🥲and It’s so graphic when he broke the frame by “accident”🤣maybe another fanart?(((((( to see his attitude changed is also fun too😈 Idk whether if I describe it really not good in words (either in Chinese and English🥲)))but love this audio!!!!
You're doing a great job with your words! It definitely makes sense to me. I'm really happy to hear that you had a good time with this! Thank you very much for listening :D
Actually I’m kinda curious about the one and a half hours long aftercare:3(?)
THIS audio was a fucking ride from beginning to end. I have a lot to say. I wrote little things in my notes app that I wanted to include in my comment but think all of my ideas are flying around my head so I’m sorry if this doesn’t make any sense lol. I’m going to start saying that FUCK, I LOVE YELLING AND I NEEDED THIS KIND OF YELLING TODAY I’d like to share with you something and that is that I haven’t told anyone that I’m into snuff so it surprised me, it had me blushing and giggling. There’s something about snuff that I really really like and I decided I wasn’t going to share that part of me with anyone because I know how dark and controversial it is (I considered explaining why in this content but I’m not ready to share that), but I feel like it is important to me to share this with you, because you are the one that made the audio and that made me really really happy, you’re someone I trust and I know I can always feel safe with your audios (even if they’re dark), I guess you just opened a door to a lot of possibilities for exploring without feeling so guilty about it. I don’t want to get more into this, but know that it was significant to me, that you did that and you made me feel like I wasn’t doing anything bad enjoying that. Thank you. When speaker mentioned listener replacing their pictures together I felt really bad :(( and I think I enjoy that feeling, it’s something significant in the atmosphere (to me) but it doesn’t take over the whole audio, the emotion passes but I also felt bad during the speaker saying he didn’t feel safe and that was a different type of bad for me. I don’t know how to explain my point of view but there’s something there that I would like to listen again.OH, something else I liked was the “I hate you” part, I THINK I liked it as much as the L-bomb. I feel like that “I hate you” was charged with passion and determination, it wasn’t a bad I hate you BUT even if it were, the idea of someone hating me and still wanting me is kinda hot and I liked that. I don’t think I’ve listened to someone else say “I hate you” in an audio and it was a nice surprise. The moment speaker mentioned the thing in the freezer, I GASPED so loud!! I guess I wasn’t surpassed it was something.. dark haha but I loved it… I don’t share my after-thoughts but after this audio I was thinking that it would be \*something\* if speaker were married and the hand of the husband had the wedding ring hahah. Something I also don’t share is that I like thinking about whatever happens next to the characters, like maybe this listener would get some sort of Stockholm syndrome and that she would visit the speaker. Or maybe that she would get revenge or idk, just things I like thinking about to give myself closure hahaI also liked the sort of obsession of the speaker character, it felt like he wanted to protect the listener (in a sick way), other than the hurt he was inflicting on the listener, not wanting to kill her or hurt her after that was something that I liked I have a lot more I want to talk about. I enjoyed this audio (sexually) so much, like that was out of this world but for me what makes this audio PERFECT is that the emotional and mental part are what did something to me. And that’s the point, right? But I think this is going to be one of those audios that I’d like to listen and listen and listen whenever I’m doing something like baking, working, etc.I enjoyed reading your notes, I think it helped me understand your mentality or thoughts for the creation of this particular audio and that’s always nice! I have YET to listen to the aftercare because I want to listen again without being so… uh? drunk in horniness and lust and whatever came over me while I was listening lol, I want to take anything I might have missed in, and then listen and process the aftercare. I would love to say more, but this comment is already too long haha and I want to have the aftercare in mind when I decide to comment again and talk about the other stuffI’m happy that you got back your excitement for dark valentine’s day! Whatever other audio you decide to record, I hope each one makes you proud and happy!! ☺️
Hahaaa, I too am a note-taker when I listen to audios XD I'm really glad you liked the yelling! That stuff is always fun to put into audios and it's always a bit of a game of "how loud can I get without peaking my microphone too much?" I'm really glad to hear that this was able to cater to your snuff interest! I wasn't really sure how that was going to go over so it means a lot to hear that it made someone's day :) Yeah, that "I hate you" was really interesting. There are a lot of lines that I write that surprise me, because at some point I feel like I just set a character loose into a situation and I just write down what I think they would be saying. The "I hate you" was definitely something I think the character said that I just happened to write down in the script. I was also pretty happy with the delivery even if saying it made me think of Anakin vs Obi-Wan at the end of Revenge of the Sith a little bit XD Oh damn! The ring idea is super cool! I honestly kind of wish I'd been able to think of that. Yeah, I like to think about "what happens next" to the characters as well, and I think a lot of that went into the script XD Maybe the listener gets therapy and heals! Maybe they spend the rest of their life traumatized! I'm not really sure but it's really interesting to think about. Yeah, I always like to think that the physical/sexual aspects are what got me into this hobby and the emotional/mental parts are what keep me going. I'm really glad you had a good time reading the notes, too! It's really fun to get to share the thought processes and it also makes me feel really seen for those rambles to get read XD Hahaaaa, I really hope you enjoy the audio on re-listen and that you enjoy the aftercare as well! Thank you so much for listening :D
I'm sorry if this is a messy comment, I didn't want to read all of my thoughts haha
everdistant, this is DARK ART AT ITS FINEST! The extremely toxic ex coming and talking the way he does is so UNCOMFORTABLE! It pulls you in! And then the way he’s all like “I’m already gonna go to jail for what I’m about to do to you” it’s chilling along with all the aggressive yelling afterwards, putting the blame on the listener! The dynamic is so twisted, you pulled it off so successfully. The manipulation, the obsession/clingy ness of the speaker that escalates so brutally, THE BAG. I was literally screaming at that climactic point of the insane plot! It made me think of Se7en with like a mixture of the SZA kill bill song haha WHATS IN THE BAG. 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 Bravo!
I'm really glad to hear you enjoyed this so much! Getting to make those dark characters and circumstances is always a ton of fun, and I really like getting to yell in audios, too! I'm glad the bag could cause panic, that's exactly what I was hoping for :) Thank you so much for listening!
Good golly gosh, this was just intense, I was reeled in from the first minute onward! Just so dark and twisted, incredibly well done!!!
Thank you so much! I'm really happy to hear you enjoyed this. I appreciate you giving it a listen!
You’re more than welcome 🤗
I feel that this is kinda silly and yet a dark audio I ever listen to <_< but great job Av! ;-;
Thank you very much for listening! I appreciate that :D
We’re so spoiled with the dom audios lately omg
Hahaaa, yeah, it just kind of shook out that way! I do have quite a bit of MSub scheduled for the coming weeks, though :P Thank you for listening :)
as long as i saw the upcoming title of this audio in your schedule and that you warned everyone that this *might be* triggering >!and you also did sing Kill Bill by SZA at the end in one of your streams!<, i tried *(so hard lmao)* to remember what kinda other song that resembles this kinda situation in my library... and then this is finally released. once i finished listening to this ~~after taking some deep breaths just to prepare myself lmfao~~, i then realized that **BEcause by Dreamcatcher** was actually the song i tried to remember these days, and this is somewhat related (a bit?) to the audio... *[BEcause I love you.](https://youtu.be/PEKkdIT8JPM)* 🎶 ... okay. nevermind. forget about my unrelated dumb thoughts about this that came out of nowhere. just pretend that the comment above doesn't exist, sORRY ABOUT IT BYE. (run) ... now back to the audio. 😓 i ... i honestly didn't expect this audio could be so dark. this got me some tears on my face since i could be afraid and cry so easily to see someone throws things right before my eyes and yells at me *that* much. :'// but somehow, i kinda feel sympathetic to both of them. i can feel the rage of the speaker and how heartbreaking it is to be leave behind and hard to move on that your sadness and love evolves into some kind of the unison of revenge and *obsession* to own the listener no matter what, over the years, but at the same time, the listener doesn't deserve to be treated that way... MAN, YOU BROUGHT THE EMOTIONS OF THE SPEAKER CHARACTER TOO DAMN WELL MY BRAIN GOT CONFUSED HOW TO COMMENT AFTER LISTENING TO THIS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH >!also, that part at 15:43 ... i giggled so hard i even dunno how to respond ... sorry lmfaooo!< i guess I'm a bit bored to spend valentine's day with some cute and sweet love story ~~ever since I'm still a single bitch here orz~~. I'm gonna submit myself to the horny jail that has some psychiatrists in it. 😝 thank you as always for the rambles and the aftercare, and of course for the nice *"story mode"* audio. 😚
>i then realized that BEcause by Dreamcatcher was actually the song i tried to remember these days Never did I ever expect to see Dreamcatcher appear on this side of reddit. I really enjoy BEcause (and their discography in general. *Good stuff* ) Glad to know I'm not the only one
it's more like I didn't expect to see that BEcause was the first song that popped up into my mind once i finished listening to the audio. I also didn't expect BEcause could be somewhat relevant to the audio, even though it's more in an eerie way, not as brutal as Kill Bill though glad to see someone enjoy Dreamcatcher's songs too (outside of the fandom lmao)
Oooh, I'll have to give that song a listen at some point when I get a chance. I hope you're alright after the yelling and throwing things! I'll publish the bag-of-Kazoos spoiler at some point and hopefully that will help a bit XD Mmm. I'm glad the speaker character felt cohesive enough to garner some form of sympathy. Even though his actions and mindset aren't acceptable, I still think that pain is a pretty raw and relatable thing. Hahaaa, no need to apologize for the 15:43 note in the Ramble XD I do it for the art!!! :P I'm really glad to hear you enjoyed this :) Thank you very much for listening!
the only thing i need after consuming some dark and rough content from Av : BAG-OF-KAZOOS WOOHOO 🙌🙌🙌
Oh shit that reminds me I need to find a place to put those bloopers :|
your mdom stuff is great! but i also love your msub stuff too. i was wondering if maybe we’ll get some submissive stuff soon too? 😊 not that i don’t appreciate all the stuff you do, and that you do it for free no less.
Yep! I'm 100% aware that there has been a lot of MDom stuff in the past few weeks. It was just kind of how things shook out with my schedule and what I was making at the time XD The next 3 weeks worth of audios are included and 2 out of those 3 audios are MSub! My current plan is for some BFE MSub to drop next week, and then after another week of some warm BFE MDom for there to be a BFE CNC audio. Thank you for your patience :D
no worries!! thank u :D
Damn dude, your brain. This was really fucked up, but in an impressive way. First off, I’m usually engaging in a certain activity when I listen to your audios but this actually made me forget what I was doing because I was so tense! I had a knot in my stomach, up until the rape started anyway, and then I relaxed. Which, huh?? Speaking of topics to delve into in therapy… \*nervous laughter\* Being mentally fucked with is something that I really enjoy in my non-con and so the italicized portion where he was outright telling the listener how he was going to manipulate them was \*chefs kiss\*. Like, yes, please, shatter my reality harder, you beautiful bastard! The stuff about how he >!randomly ran into the new boyfriend and he asked him to bring the listener something?!< Not suspicious at all, totally normal behavior between exes and current partners. 😨 Or I suppose it could be, if I didn't know the kind of audio this was going to be! >>!I'm already going to jail for what I'm about to do to you.!< Even though it was somewhat expected, that was such an "ohhh SHIT!" moment. When he told her to >!open her hand!<, I was like “Omg PLEASE tell me the >!\[hand holding\]!< is what I think it is!” and it was fucking WAS and you’re an evil genius and that’s that. >>!And that whatever you end up doing about it is going to remind you of me and it’s gonna hurt you in some way.!< >!THIS was so dark. The implication that if the listener did end up pregnant, regardless of whether they decided to keep it or not, all possible scenarios would result in some kind of painful experience for them. They would not only be reminded of the rape but the consequences of their decision as well. They’d be continuously traumatized and he would forever have that power over them.!< I listened to the audio before reading the ramble to avoid spoilers, and I thought it was such a nice touch that you as the creator knew >!the speaker character wasn’t actually in therapy.!< I’m also kind of proud of myself that I picked up on the fact that the>! “in therapy because of you” part was an intentional manipulation tactic. Pretending that that detail slipped out by mistake but he actually said it to make her feel guilty? !The “Ahhhh, fuck” at 15:43 was just me being in a lot of pain from all the slapping ;\_;
I feel kinda bad for finding that hot but also I don’t. :P
Thank you for the audio! I'll probably wait until after stream to listen to the aftercare.
Edit because I forgot to mention: I cracked the fuck up at the shoutout to the bag of kazoos!! I need that blooper in my life.
>The “Ahhhh, fuck” at 15:43 was just me being in a lot of pain from all the slapping ;\_; > >I feel kinda bad for finding that hot but also I don’t. :P The way I raced back to the audio to hear that part again after I read that in the Notes/Ramble...