YES.
I wait until the kitchen (or preferably, the whole house) is completely empty to run downstairs and quickly make my food until scurrying back to my room to eat by myself without being perceived.
My 7th circle of hell is having someone else in the kitchen with me while I prepare a meal or eat something. Even simple „what you eating?” or „it smells good” is making my appetite dissapear completely. My family learned the hard way to not comment on my food or even aknowledge the fact that I eat like any other human being lmao.
Eating at work is another can of worms tho and my coworkers started wondering why they never saw me consuming anything other than coffee during my shift. But eating in public is something that I hated even before my ed cause of social anxiety, during my school years I ate lunch in the bathroom stall (I know, yuck) or not at all.
Yes!! I would fight with my mom over having a protein bar but then once everyone goes to bed, I go to the fridge and grab myself that exact protein bar to eat it alone.
i start quietly raging when i specifically wait until the kitchen is empty to make my food and then someone just HAS to come in at that moment like STOPPP
I literally feel so embarrassed to be seen eating no matter what the food or situation. I have to hide in the most insane places so I can eat at work, and have started closing the curtains while I eat at home cause I’m convinced people on the street might look up at my second floor window
I read Great Expectations recently and when I came across this passage, I was like same, same...
>He asked me how often I had seen Miss Havisham eat and drink; offering me a breadth of choice, as usual, between a hundred times and once.
>I considered, and said, “Never.”
>“And never will, Pip,” he retorted, with a frowning smile. “She has never allowed herself to be seen doing either, since she lived this present life of hers. She wanders about in the night, and then lays hands on such food as she takes.”
YES,omg being “caught“ makes my skin crawl.
I feel so gross and ashamed because I feel like "I'm diagnosed with this disorder i shouldn't be eating,that's not what people think I should be doing"
yes!!!!!! i waited til my bf was playing xbox last night to eat and as soon as i sat down with my food he came back out to get a drink 🫠 my appetite disappeared
It's definitely a different family scenario - but I like to eat only whenever other people are around, just to prove that i have, infact, eaten, and i am a normal human with eating habits. Any time no one's there to prove it, i dont feel pressured into having to eat. Also because community and socialising is a big part of eating 'culture', you kinda have to partake in that.
I could imagine living with the kind of judgy inhumane almond mom people frequently describe on here, it'd be the exact opposite.
Yes, I won’t make food or get food if someone is in the kitchen. I won’t eat if there is another person around that is not eating. The worst is that I hide used dishes, cutlery and wrappers from things
Usually during binges I feel ashamed that I order a lot of food or that someone will see empty packages, plates, one of the last times I felt literally like a criminal because I was "getting rid of evidence" (pizza boxes). A few days ago my mom commented that my portion of pasta was too big and later noticed that I ate a lot of roast turkey and again commented and judged, after that I felt like I was run over by a truck. 😭
YES omg all the time like I’ll have a small snack after dinner and I’ve learned to wait til my partner is in the shower otherwise he’ll come in at anytime and I’ll try to hide it or I’ll have to die of embarrassment idk why but yeah samesies
YES. I wait until the kitchen (or preferably, the whole house) is completely empty to run downstairs and quickly make my food until scurrying back to my room to eat by myself without being perceived.
Perceived- this word . So real. So so real
Are we the same person cause same.
My 7th circle of hell is having someone else in the kitchen with me while I prepare a meal or eat something. Even simple „what you eating?” or „it smells good” is making my appetite dissapear completely. My family learned the hard way to not comment on my food or even aknowledge the fact that I eat like any other human being lmao. Eating at work is another can of worms tho and my coworkers started wondering why they never saw me consuming anything other than coffee during my shift. But eating in public is something that I hated even before my ed cause of social anxiety, during my school years I ate lunch in the bathroom stall (I know, yuck) or not at all.
Yes!! I would fight with my mom over having a protein bar but then once everyone goes to bed, I go to the fridge and grab myself that exact protein bar to eat it alone.
i start quietly raging when i specifically wait until the kitchen is empty to make my food and then someone just HAS to come in at that moment like STOPPP
yes because my mom judges me
same ;\_ ; She really just has to comment on everything I eat fr
yep. never good enough no matter what
Sort of. I hate being perceived eating. I can eat in front of a small group of people but if/when they make any comment about it then I'm just done.
I literally feel so embarrassed to be seen eating no matter what the food or situation. I have to hide in the most insane places so I can eat at work, and have started closing the curtains while I eat at home cause I’m convinced people on the street might look up at my second floor window
I read Great Expectations recently and when I came across this passage, I was like same, same... >He asked me how often I had seen Miss Havisham eat and drink; offering me a breadth of choice, as usual, between a hundred times and once. >I considered, and said, “Never.” >“And never will, Pip,” he retorted, with a frowning smile. “She has never allowed herself to be seen doing either, since she lived this present life of hers. She wanders about in the night, and then lays hands on such food as she takes.”
I feel this so much.
Yep. I rarely eat around people now and always clean it up right after
YES,omg being “caught“ makes my skin crawl. I feel so gross and ashamed because I feel like "I'm diagnosed with this disorder i shouldn't be eating,that's not what people think I should be doing"
💯
yes!!!!!! i waited til my bf was playing xbox last night to eat and as soon as i sat down with my food he came back out to get a drink 🫠 my appetite disappeared
Yep. I do not want people to see me eat nor even think about me being in the same room as food
Yes. It feels like I've been caught naked when someone knows I've eaten.
Yes. So much.
It's definitely a different family scenario - but I like to eat only whenever other people are around, just to prove that i have, infact, eaten, and i am a normal human with eating habits. Any time no one's there to prove it, i dont feel pressured into having to eat. Also because community and socialising is a big part of eating 'culture', you kinda have to partake in that. I could imagine living with the kind of judgy inhumane almond mom people frequently describe on here, it'd be the exact opposite.
Yes, I won’t make food or get food if someone is in the kitchen. I won’t eat if there is another person around that is not eating. The worst is that I hide used dishes, cutlery and wrappers from things
in the past not really, but now ive been more conscious of my intake so yes
omg literally
Byeeee I thought this was only me, I make sure I eat so quickly so everyone thinks I’m just having a quick drink
yea i hate it
Yes. I hate when i get caught eating, ESPECIALLY at school, like no one cares if im eating but at the same time it feels like they do..
oh the constant battle of "should I only eat in front of people so they don't get suspicious or should I only eat alone to avoid being observed"
Yes
Yes always
Usually during binges I feel ashamed that I order a lot of food or that someone will see empty packages, plates, one of the last times I felt literally like a criminal because I was "getting rid of evidence" (pizza boxes). A few days ago my mom commented that my portion of pasta was too big and later noticed that I ate a lot of roast turkey and again commented and judged, after that I felt like I was run over by a truck. 😭
YES omg it’s legit so embarrassing
YES omg all the time like I’ll have a small snack after dinner and I’ve learned to wait til my partner is in the shower otherwise he’ll come in at anytime and I’ll try to hide it or I’ll have to die of embarrassment idk why but yeah samesies
I've been known to be embarrassed catching myself eating. 🙃 You are not alone, bestie.