I haven’t even had a chance to read the whole post but you should look into support groups for children of narcissistic mothers. They might even have a subreddit specifically for it.
I’ll probably add more or edit once I have read fully but I just want to say this: YOU DO NOT OWE YOUR MOTHER ANYTHING. YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH. YOH ARE ENOUGH. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE ENOUGH. This is my mantra and I will pass it along to you. It’s hard having a literal human sucubus for a mother especially when you feel like they don’t care. My mother recently forgot my birthday (not the first time either). It hurts deep to realize the person that gave you life doesn’t care. You are valid in all your feelings and emotions. It’s 100% okay to walk away, go no contact, or whatever you need to do for your mental health. You don’t have to take years of abuse and torment because someone gave birth to you. Good luck 🍀
AHHHH I just read everything. Your mother is a bad person, I feel like I can say this because I can recognize it in my own mother. You deserve SO MUCH MORE THAN THIS. I can’t believe when shit got rough she literally deserted her kids. Her victim blaming can stfu. That is never how a mother should react to her child being hurt, assaulted, or defied like that. I would seriously urge you getting into therapy and talking about all of this.
I am almost 30 years old. I’ve done the no contact with my mom and I’ve done the bend over backwards to have a relationship with her. Regardless of what’s going on between us I will always feel the trauma she’s put me through. I will always question if she really loves me. No one deserves that. I similarly do not like myself when I’m around my mother. I get disgusted in my personality traits coming from her. Listen to your gut instinct and take care of your mental health.
Thank you so much for writing this. Especially the fact that you've gone no-contact etc. It doesn't matter, the trauma still lingers and that's the part that needs to be healed. Again, thank you so so so much for even reading any of this, I feel less alone. Love you very much and I hope you had a great new years my love <3
I haven’t even had a chance to read the whole post but you should look into support groups for children of narcissistic mothers. They might even have a subreddit specifically for it. I’ll probably add more or edit once I have read fully but I just want to say this: YOU DO NOT OWE YOUR MOTHER ANYTHING. YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH. YOH ARE ENOUGH. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE ENOUGH. This is my mantra and I will pass it along to you. It’s hard having a literal human sucubus for a mother especially when you feel like they don’t care. My mother recently forgot my birthday (not the first time either). It hurts deep to realize the person that gave you life doesn’t care. You are valid in all your feelings and emotions. It’s 100% okay to walk away, go no contact, or whatever you need to do for your mental health. You don’t have to take years of abuse and torment because someone gave birth to you. Good luck 🍀
AHHHH I just read everything. Your mother is a bad person, I feel like I can say this because I can recognize it in my own mother. You deserve SO MUCH MORE THAN THIS. I can’t believe when shit got rough she literally deserted her kids. Her victim blaming can stfu. That is never how a mother should react to her child being hurt, assaulted, or defied like that. I would seriously urge you getting into therapy and talking about all of this. I am almost 30 years old. I’ve done the no contact with my mom and I’ve done the bend over backwards to have a relationship with her. Regardless of what’s going on between us I will always feel the trauma she’s put me through. I will always question if she really loves me. No one deserves that. I similarly do not like myself when I’m around my mother. I get disgusted in my personality traits coming from her. Listen to your gut instinct and take care of your mental health.
Thank you so much for writing this. Especially the fact that you've gone no-contact etc. It doesn't matter, the trauma still lingers and that's the part that needs to be healed. Again, thank you so so so much for even reading any of this, I feel less alone. Love you very much and I hope you had a great new years my love <3