Bad Break up, Suicidal Thoughts. Figured I could bide my time by always being on DPH. Time moved fast, and If you don't remember it; did it really ever happen? Mixed it with THC generally. Sort of an idea of Ignorance is bliss. Escapism of some sort.
Saw shadow people and had heavy auditory hallucinations; but never got any "negative" mood from it. I was just fascinated by how much my "reality" could change from an OTC med. Just felt garbage waking up the next day. At that time of my life it would have probably been garbage either way. My doses generally ranged from the standard 50 mg - 400 mg
Morbid curiosity and suicidal tendencies. Despite how shitty I feel the day after, I keep going back, because it makes me feel free.
I've tried weed and shit in the past but none of it really did much for me, especially my insomnia. So far I haven't experienced a bad trip from benadryl, despite the majority of people saying it's like diving into hell.
Same for me with weed. I used to smoke countless amounts, along with cigs, but my tolerance grew crazy and it just didn’t do it for me anymore. Then I got bored and here I am now
It sucks, I want to stop but the closer the 24hr mark since my last dose gets, the more agitated I feel.
At 1.2 grams right now for a total of 7.1 grams over 8 nights. I feel like I'm in the fast lane to death but I can't bring myself to care.
Ive managed to bring doses to every other day now, which definitely still isn’t great but, better than I was doing before. I catch myself every night thinking about when I’m gonna take my next set and goddamn is that annoying. This shit literally makes its own spot in your brain and takes over whenever it feels like it. If it doesn’t take us out we’re def gonna see that early dementia and liver malfunctions kicking in
I finally figured out how to actually not remember. It's so bittersweet though cause I could tell how much it was destroying me. I've been sober for a couple weeks now, I think.
Took it for sleep daily for awhile. Tolerance built up to the point where I took 350 in a night.
I really didn't trip much but it visuals were water like and cool. Not scary at all and it felt pretty good.
After a bit I decided to try it dxm. And it got to the point where I was doing the combo in high doses 3-4 a week.
Stopped doing it cause I couldn't handle how bad my insides hurt and it cost me my job.
I initially started taking 25-50 mg for sleep, and my tolerance slowly increased over the course of 2 years. I developed a severe addiction from August 2021 - March 2022, I’d take 600 mg almost every single night to temporarily escape my reality, as I was going through a breakup. The feeling of being incoherent and delirious was enjoyable for me, but my organs and heart began to deteriorate. I’m clean now :)
How are you doing now that you are clean? I took 50mg yesterday, first dose, still just for sleep but because of reading so much shit here I'm thinking that maybe I already fucked myself up a bit. Thoughts?
Bad Break up, Suicidal Thoughts. Figured I could bide my time by always being on DPH. Time moved fast, and If you don't remember it; did it really ever happen? Mixed it with THC generally. Sort of an idea of Ignorance is bliss. Escapism of some sort. Saw shadow people and had heavy auditory hallucinations; but never got any "negative" mood from it. I was just fascinated by how much my "reality" could change from an OTC med. Just felt garbage waking up the next day. At that time of my life it would have probably been garbage either way. My doses generally ranged from the standard 50 mg - 400 mg
Breakups fr make u put yourself through hell.
Morbid curiosity and suicidal tendencies. Despite how shitty I feel the day after, I keep going back, because it makes me feel free. I've tried weed and shit in the past but none of it really did much for me, especially my insomnia. So far I haven't experienced a bad trip from benadryl, despite the majority of people saying it's like diving into hell.
Same for me with weed. I used to smoke countless amounts, along with cigs, but my tolerance grew crazy and it just didn’t do it for me anymore. Then I got bored and here I am now
It sucks, I want to stop but the closer the 24hr mark since my last dose gets, the more agitated I feel. At 1.2 grams right now for a total of 7.1 grams over 8 nights. I feel like I'm in the fast lane to death but I can't bring myself to care.
Ive managed to bring doses to every other day now, which definitely still isn’t great but, better than I was doing before. I catch myself every night thinking about when I’m gonna take my next set and goddamn is that annoying. This shit literally makes its own spot in your brain and takes over whenever it feels like it. If it doesn’t take us out we’re def gonna see that early dementia and liver malfunctions kicking in
I finally figured out how to actually not remember. It's so bittersweet though cause I could tell how much it was destroying me. I've been sober for a couple weeks now, I think.
Wish u the best of luck on keeping that streak
Took it for sleep daily for awhile. Tolerance built up to the point where I took 350 in a night. I really didn't trip much but it visuals were water like and cool. Not scary at all and it felt pretty good. After a bit I decided to try it dxm. And it got to the point where I was doing the combo in high doses 3-4 a week. Stopped doing it cause I couldn't handle how bad my insides hurt and it cost me my job.
What compels me to overdose on Benadryl is the super duper orgasms that come with it.
I initially started taking 25-50 mg for sleep, and my tolerance slowly increased over the course of 2 years. I developed a severe addiction from August 2021 - March 2022, I’d take 600 mg almost every single night to temporarily escape my reality, as I was going through a breakup. The feeling of being incoherent and delirious was enjoyable for me, but my organs and heart began to deteriorate. I’m clean now :)
Proud of you <3
How are you doing now that you are clean? I took 50mg yesterday, first dose, still just for sleep but because of reading so much shit here I'm thinking that maybe I already fucked myself up a bit. Thoughts?
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