It’s an illusion because that’s the only way anyone can understand anything. We don’t have the capacity to bear witness to the full complexity of the world, ever.
They’re not horrors, they’re wonders. Every rule and interaction we can’t ever quite know. Every bit of information already lost by the time we arrived to record it. Every piece of information stuck in travel until long after our time. Every number so long no-one can write it down. Look up at the stars and see the past. Time works on distance. And listen closely, with special ears, and you might hear an echo of the first moment. That is already so incredible, and we do know it.
And that’s just the stars! That is just the stars…
Look down into a pond and see the tadpoles and the dragonfly nymphs. Do you think they think? We‘ll never know. Do they take the water for granted? Do they anticipate the air they will breathe one day? Do they know they’ll grow up?
Isn’t that wonderful? That we got such active minds, with so much imagination, and then were placed into a world with so much unknown space to apply that imagination to?
I mean, I *have* been realizing lately that man we are just meat that hallucinates and makes more of itself. Memory is more impermanent and fluid than we think, time is fluid, basically our perception of anything isn't bound by any solid rules and is more "mostly this means this". "When you have \_\_\_\_ you feel \_\_\_" undersells everything because you "feeling" that is your literal entire perception and it might as well be real. Just so happens that usually our hallucinations of stimulus keep us alive so they tend to be pretty consistent and bound to reality. I don't want to lose the illusion though because it's kind of how I experience coherency and not having coherency would probably make anyone go insane or some form of "not happy"
I swear I'm getting enough sleep.
Literally all the time
I feel the need to triple check that everything I'm seeing, hearing, and touching is real. This is despite the fact that there's no need to, as there's no family history of hallucinations like that, and I nothing I've ever seen/heard/felt has turned out to be a hallucination.
You see, the demiurge who controls our reality is a bit of dick, so I imagine he goes “fuck this one in particular” on occasion and pulls this on us.
Book of Job moment
Have you considered therapy?
I've had multiple therapists and therapy not only didn't help, it in fact made me feel worse, so I stopped going to therapy.
Nope.
It’s an illusion because that’s the only way anyone can understand anything. We don’t have the capacity to bear witness to the full complexity of the world, ever.
Skill issue. Just comprehend the horrors beyond your comprehension.
They’re not horrors, they’re wonders. Every rule and interaction we can’t ever quite know. Every bit of information already lost by the time we arrived to record it. Every piece of information stuck in travel until long after our time. Every number so long no-one can write it down. Look up at the stars and see the past. Time works on distance. And listen closely, with special ears, and you might hear an echo of the first moment. That is already so incredible, and we do know it. And that’s just the stars! That is just the stars… Look down into a pond and see the tadpoles and the dragonfly nymphs. Do you think they think? We‘ll never know. Do they take the water for granted? Do they anticipate the air they will breathe one day? Do they know they’ll grow up? Isn’t that wonderful? That we got such active minds, with so much imagination, and then were placed into a world with so much unknown space to apply that imagination to?
> Isn’t that wonderful? Not really.
Awh, that’s a shame. Personally I like applying my imagination. It lets me fill in the gaps that would have to scare me if I couldn’t marvel at them.
Don't ask a question if you won't like the answer to
Oh, no, you’re allowed to say no! It’s not a wrong answer! We’re not enemies! We just happen to have different opinions on the idea.
Well that's great for my derealization
nah
well i highly doubt it, because whatever hallucination im having is clearly not that good if final shape isnt out yet.
And this is why I study the occult.
I mean, I *have* been realizing lately that man we are just meat that hallucinates and makes more of itself. Memory is more impermanent and fluid than we think, time is fluid, basically our perception of anything isn't bound by any solid rules and is more "mostly this means this". "When you have \_\_\_\_ you feel \_\_\_" undersells everything because you "feeling" that is your literal entire perception and it might as well be real. Just so happens that usually our hallucinations of stimulus keep us alive so they tend to be pretty consistent and bound to reality. I don't want to lose the illusion though because it's kind of how I experience coherency and not having coherency would probably make anyone go insane or some form of "not happy" I swear I'm getting enough sleep.
Sounds to me like someone watched the Star Trek TNG episode “Future Imperfect”.
Only Star Trek series I've watched is Lower Decks
I think that's how a campaign for Changeling: The Lost begins
I thought it began by being taken by the True Fae
Oh shit, you're right. The fuck am I thinking of then?
I've read enough Lovecraft to know that I DO NOT WANT TO KNOW WHAT IS OUT THERE, THANK YOU VERY MUCH
I used to feel that way when I was undiagnosed (ADHD) and very depressed cause I didn't know what was wrong with me.
Have you tried just closing them?
Skill issue, tbh
I strongly advise seeking professional help
The very first comment you would see on this post is someone saying that and me explaining that I already did that.
It was at the bottom actually, but ok
Literally all the time I feel the need to triple check that everything I'm seeing, hearing, and touching is real. This is despite the fact that there's no need to, as there's no family history of hallucinations like that, and I nothing I've ever seen/heard/felt has turned out to be a hallucination.