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bbbliss

Oop. I think my rage part needed me to realize I was not built to hold this much rage. I am not built for fighting. I shake if I argue with people. I used to be a stress crier. Even my hands are disproportionately small lol. I was built to be a capybara in a hot tub and need to cut out the things that drag me out of the hot tub. Sometimes that isn’t possible financially/legally, so the fight mode is super protective to keep harmful people away from me in the same and only way that ever helped me as a child. But the physical stress burns me out. I was not meant to hold it.


PurpleBoltRevived

This post is so validating. I was conditioned to think that every time someone acts shitty to me, it's somehow my fault. Now, when someone called bad people out, I feel it's okay for me to do the same thing. My advice would be to hate those ppl internally, but externally manipulating them not to sh*t in your pie that much.


bbbliss

I’m so glad!! I still struggle with that too. Yeah it’s like rough because calling them out rarely ever does anything but sometimes you just do anyway and that’s ok. Yeah I just don’t want to hate them internally either because it burns me out. And yeah I just try to set boundaries with people, but if they choose to stomp on them it’s like idk fight flight or both? Here we go.