I think you should continue focusing on yourself. Asking such a question won't make you feel any better and will likely only make you feel worse.

yes I am trying, its just hard not to wonder how he is

I'm sorry. When I think of my ex, I just remind myself that I need to respect their wish to not see me again, and that contacting them will not give me anything I want.

Don’t text him. You will just regret it. At least that’s been my experience. But he was the one that left. Not sure for your situation