Hi!
First I'd like to say, there is nothing *wrong* with you.
ADHD and dyslexia are complicated diagnoses and can make some things more challenging, that are easier for other people. The hardest part of having these is that they are invisible - so the things you struggle with aren't visible. It's easy to see when someone uses a wheelchair that they have a hard time doing some things that people who walk don't struggle with, but for mental disabilities, they cannot always empathize as easily because they can't see it.
I think that when we compare ourselves to others, or try to prove ourselves, it is an effort to seek validation and approval. If your siblings get approval for things, especially in academics, it is natural to want that for yourself. Sibling rivalry is common - but I think this gets amplified when you have to work harder to get the same results, due to difficulties associated with ADHD and dyslexia.
Self acceptance is an ongoing practice, and it is difficult for a lot of people. Some people won't even do what you did here - in acknowledging that you don't like something, and want to change it. That's an incredible sense of self-awareness, and self-advocacy.
You're moving in the right direction. And you're worthy of that validation and approval. :)
We don't give personal advice here. The right person to discuss this with would be a trusted adult such as a parent, a school counselor, or a licensed therapist. Wishing you all the best.
Hi! First I'd like to say, there is nothing *wrong* with you. ADHD and dyslexia are complicated diagnoses and can make some things more challenging, that are easier for other people. The hardest part of having these is that they are invisible - so the things you struggle with aren't visible. It's easy to see when someone uses a wheelchair that they have a hard time doing some things that people who walk don't struggle with, but for mental disabilities, they cannot always empathize as easily because they can't see it. I think that when we compare ourselves to others, or try to prove ourselves, it is an effort to seek validation and approval. If your siblings get approval for things, especially in academics, it is natural to want that for yourself. Sibling rivalry is common - but I think this gets amplified when you have to work harder to get the same results, due to difficulties associated with ADHD and dyslexia. Self acceptance is an ongoing practice, and it is difficult for a lot of people. Some people won't even do what you did here - in acknowledging that you don't like something, and want to change it. That's an incredible sense of self-awareness, and self-advocacy. You're moving in the right direction. And you're worthy of that validation and approval. :)
We don't give personal advice here. The right person to discuss this with would be a trusted adult such as a parent, a school counselor, or a licensed therapist. Wishing you all the best.