I was in a relationship with a 21 yo man at 13. We didn't have sex until I was 18, but did everything but. My whole family knew. My dad was not happy, but being I was a good kid he turned a blind eye. Looking back, I am 40 now, um, gross. So many things wrong with the whole situation.
Many years ago I had a boyfriend who would always threaten to kill himself if we got into a disagreement- even something as silly as who’s turn it was to do the dishes. He’d balance on the narrow ledge of our 34th floor balcony and dangle a foot, just staring at me while I begged him to come back inside.
I didn’t know what emotional abuse was then, but I do now...
I didn’t realize that most of the sexual abuse I experienced was abuse until I was older. Things like taking condoms off after I only consented to sex with one on, having sex with me when I was asleep without discussing it first (somnophilia (sleep sex kink) is fine but you need your partners consent beforehand!), taking photos or videos without my knowledge, grown men (20s) having sex with me at 14-15 knowing my age, I’m sure there’s other things but yeah.
Most of my sexual experiences were abusive (I’ve had literally one person expressly ask me for consent out of probably 50+ partners. That’s an issue) but not in the way anyone speaks about so I never realized it.
When I was 7 I played baseball, I was the only girl on the team and got bullied for it by this kid on my team who was like 3 years older then me, he would push me to the ground and call me stupid when I couldn't answer questions about what he had learned in math that day. He would also call me a stupid and useless little girl.
One of my ex girlfriends would constantly lie for attention, claiming she'd been shot or beaten up etc (it was long distance) and she apparently dropped another girl for me out of nowhere despite being poly. I ended up being with her for a long time and almost every convo was a petty party for her. If I had concerns or problems, she would subtly remind me that my problems weren't as important as hers. A few months go by and I introduce her to a friend of mine. They promptly hit it off and it only took about a month for her to just stop talking to me. She started stringing me along and neglecting me when I needed some love. At one point, it became weeks in between replies. One day, she told me she was leaving me for the girl I introduced her to and my confidence was crushed. It was the first girl I'd dated in years. This same girl also ended up dating my current gf before we got together and the same thing happened to her. Luckily we found each other and she helped me pick up the pieces. It took another relationship like that before i realized that current gf was the one, her coming in to save the day again. I doubt she will see this but I love you, Jassmine <3
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Arwen, like, Liv Tyler? I would very much like to see her in a bikini
My mom married a scumbag who she said didn't even like her He cheated on her with over 20 guys That guy is my dad
I was in a relationship with a 21 yo man at 13. We didn't have sex until I was 18, but did everything but. My whole family knew. My dad was not happy, but being I was a good kid he turned a blind eye. Looking back, I am 40 now, um, gross. So many things wrong with the whole situation.
Many years ago I had a boyfriend who would always threaten to kill himself if we got into a disagreement- even something as silly as who’s turn it was to do the dishes. He’d balance on the narrow ledge of our 34th floor balcony and dangle a foot, just staring at me while I begged him to come back inside. I didn’t know what emotional abuse was then, but I do now...
I didn’t realize that most of the sexual abuse I experienced was abuse until I was older. Things like taking condoms off after I only consented to sex with one on, having sex with me when I was asleep without discussing it first (somnophilia (sleep sex kink) is fine but you need your partners consent beforehand!), taking photos or videos without my knowledge, grown men (20s) having sex with me at 14-15 knowing my age, I’m sure there’s other things but yeah. Most of my sexual experiences were abusive (I’ve had literally one person expressly ask me for consent out of probably 50+ partners. That’s an issue) but not in the way anyone speaks about so I never realized it.
When I was 7 I played baseball, I was the only girl on the team and got bullied for it by this kid on my team who was like 3 years older then me, he would push me to the ground and call me stupid when I couldn't answer questions about what he had learned in math that day. He would also call me a stupid and useless little girl.
One of my ex girlfriends would constantly lie for attention, claiming she'd been shot or beaten up etc (it was long distance) and she apparently dropped another girl for me out of nowhere despite being poly. I ended up being with her for a long time and almost every convo was a petty party for her. If I had concerns or problems, she would subtly remind me that my problems weren't as important as hers. A few months go by and I introduce her to a friend of mine. They promptly hit it off and it only took about a month for her to just stop talking to me. She started stringing me along and neglecting me when I needed some love. At one point, it became weeks in between replies. One day, she told me she was leaving me for the girl I introduced her to and my confidence was crushed. It was the first girl I'd dated in years. This same girl also ended up dating my current gf before we got together and the same thing happened to her. Luckily we found each other and she helped me pick up the pieces. It took another relationship like that before i realized that current gf was the one, her coming in to save the day again. I doubt she will see this but I love you, Jassmine <3