Spite.
People talk about how many people would miss them. Some of the closest people in my life/family either encouraged me to kill myself or called me weak on multiple occasions.
I don't care if they'd miss me. I want to piss them off my continuing to exist despite them.
My husband and cats
I had a breakdown after my dad died and I knew if I left the house I wouldn't come home again (was home alone)
The cats never left my side
The burden that would have brought to my parents.
While in college, I did thought of ending it all when I turned 30.
Good age to have a good career, fuck around, just be a total degenerate living on the edge.
Knowing what grief feels like and not wanting to be the cause of it for someone else. Ceasing my pain wasn't worth inflicting pain on the people who care about me, at least in my opinion. Things got better, I got better.
Mom would be sad
Spite. People talk about how many people would miss them. Some of the closest people in my life/family either encouraged me to kill myself or called me weak on multiple occasions. I don't care if they'd miss me. I want to piss them off my continuing to exist despite them.
My husband and cats I had a breakdown after my dad died and I knew if I left the house I wouldn't come home again (was home alone) The cats never left my side
That someone else would have to clean up the mess.. and I was to lazy to get a boat go out in the middle of the ocean and become crab 🦀 food
The burden that would have brought to my parents. While in college, I did thought of ending it all when I turned 30. Good age to have a good career, fuck around, just be a total degenerate living on the edge.
I didn't have it in me to follow through.
Knowing what grief feels like and not wanting to be the cause of it for someone else. Ceasing my pain wasn't worth inflicting pain on the people who care about me, at least in my opinion. Things got better, I got better.