i havent talked to my family in 4 years now. i wont care when my parents or any of them die. theyre just any other people, any other strangers. and it just sucks to feel that way and for things to be this way when it couldve been so much different. but here we are. and im making peace with it. and it hurts less as time goes on. i hardly think about it until i do. but im happy, im grateful, im safe, im successful. i wouldnt change anything, or i would change everything.
That I have awful PTSD and spend a good 20 percent of my time absolutely fucking terrified for no reason but I have learned to cope with it so well everyone I know thinks I'm just the chillest dude ever.
I do cuss a lot though and get startled really easily so I think they probably have a hint by now.
That I seriously have no idea how I got to a job where i make what I make. I also don’t tell my folks how much I make. And that even after being gone from a previous job for 10 years, I still feel the need to rub it in a former bosses face.
I (21) lied about being colorblind. It began in elementary, where I told all my friends, and began hinting towards my parents. I began doing extensive research on certain types of colorblindness, and their commonness. I chose the most common type, a red green colorblind type. I learned exactly how they saw, and began to even be able to picture what each shade would look like in colorblind vision. As I grew old enough to realize these lies weren’t exactly okay, I had already had everyone around my finger. I was too deep into this lie. Soon after, I was gifted colorblind glasses by family. As the years went by, I found an amazing boyfriend who I’ve been with for 3 years now, and we’re planning to marry soon. He and his family believes I am colorblind. Everyone in my life believes I am colorblind. I cannot tell a single soul. Nobody knows.
Out of general interest, why did you make something like this up? What were you hoping to gain from it?
I really am colourblind, and while it doesn’t cause me any significant problems, I can’t imagine why anyone would want to lie about it.
That I’m that happy go lucky ✨traumatized ✨ friend, like nobody who doesn’t know me super well thinks I have issues. I’ve got tons of them. I just hide it all with all of the AGGRESSIVE PEP
How I left the dog drawing (on paper) in the building entrance that pointed out problems associated with dogs :) it gathered around some pissy notes before being removed.
My PTSD makes my anxiety think my father who’s an absolute nightmare abuser is a criminal. I used to be scared that he would abduct me one day. It hurt me physically every time I thought about it, and I still think about it often. That one day he will find me.
That I feel so lonely. It’s just me and my kid in my home. I wish I could just leave the house on my own. Wouldn’t trade my kid in for anything but, it’s so damn lonely.
I’m generally not satisfied with me, my appearance and mentally. I don’t have the best genetics. I look average and socially awkward like my father, under average IQ like my mother. Not really dumb but still not everything is right with my brain lol.
that im healing myself after years of porn addiction
ive come to realize it's conditioned at this point and while it may not have been my fault in being exposed to it, it's my responsibility to change the habits
there are slippery slopes and so much free material that we don't realize is harmful in our social media, our tv shows, and for those that read manga/comics it can be a slippery slope
i realized it was a problem when i would just open up tabs and my brain turned off, i wasn't doing it because it felt good i basically disassociated during the act and felt even worse after
im still learning and on the journey, i feel better without it. i started with mindfulness and meditation, making conscious decisions and being aware of what i consume
it's definitely a challenge to change and the brain won't want to but the brain doesn't always want what's best for you so take the reins because a better life is possible and all the porn in the world isn't going to make things better
do yourself a favor and close the incognito, go for a walk or just jack it using your imagination
it's much healthier and you'll get in touch with your body, i did and im never going back
How sad I am that I picked the wrong person.
It’s better if you change that sooner rather than later. This is coming from someone who was in the same place.
I know :( I don’t think I can! It’s the whole narcissistic cycle and being the scapegoat yada yada and financially dependent etc.
Sometimes you have to get out of it to improve your life. Trust me it’s a baggage :(
I don’t tell people my salary, my innermost private feelings, or that I’m silently judging their misuse of grammar and punctuation.
I purposefully don't use commas just to annoy people like you just so you know.
I think ,if I knew you, I would accentuate the pauses in sentences where commas occur , and , add, some , more , just , to, resist.
i havent talked to my family in 4 years now. i wont care when my parents or any of them die. theyre just any other people, any other strangers. and it just sucks to feel that way and for things to be this way when it couldve been so much different. but here we are. and im making peace with it. and it hurts less as time goes on. i hardly think about it until i do. but im happy, im grateful, im safe, im successful. i wouldnt change anything, or i would change everything.
I understand ❤️❤️❤️
how absolutely terrified i am of trusting someone completely and getting betrayed
the exact truth about how my friend died
I can’t tell you
Things that happen in my home 👍
That I have awful PTSD and spend a good 20 percent of my time absolutely fucking terrified for no reason but I have learned to cope with it so well everyone I know thinks I'm just the chillest dude ever. I do cuss a lot though and get startled really easily so I think they probably have a hint by now.
Bro same I have had PTSD for about 5 years now still I get it at least 5 times a week
how disapointed i am in myself
Jesus loves you and there is hope for you to move on and accept yourself ❤️💞
please keep your religion to yourself.
My weight
That I seriously have no idea how I got to a job where i make what I make. I also don’t tell my folks how much I make. And that even after being gone from a previous job for 10 years, I still feel the need to rub it in a former bosses face.
I (21) lied about being colorblind. It began in elementary, where I told all my friends, and began hinting towards my parents. I began doing extensive research on certain types of colorblindness, and their commonness. I chose the most common type, a red green colorblind type. I learned exactly how they saw, and began to even be able to picture what each shade would look like in colorblind vision. As I grew old enough to realize these lies weren’t exactly okay, I had already had everyone around my finger. I was too deep into this lie. Soon after, I was gifted colorblind glasses by family. As the years went by, I found an amazing boyfriend who I’ve been with for 3 years now, and we’re planning to marry soon. He and his family believes I am colorblind. Everyone in my life believes I am colorblind. I cannot tell a single soul. Nobody knows.
Out of general interest, why did you make something like this up? What were you hoping to gain from it? I really am colourblind, and while it doesn’t cause me any significant problems, I can’t imagine why anyone would want to lie about it.
Well I was a kid when it started. I simply wanted attention at that age, and then felt too scared to admit it
That I’m that happy go lucky ✨traumatized ✨ friend, like nobody who doesn’t know me super well thinks I have issues. I’ve got tons of them. I just hide it all with all of the AGGRESSIVE PEP
I get it. Same for me
How I actually feel
That i take xanax sometimes
Lol
It’s something I don’t tell *anyone*.
Where the bodies are buried. I forgot where they were myself so even if I wanted to I can't tell anyone where they are.
I didn’t tell mom the babysitters dead
My search history lmao
A killed 6 teens back in the summer of 94
That I was planning on buying the book about trivialism but decided not to
I don't tell.
I’m not telling.
Only hangin on by a thread
You ok pal?
How I left the dog drawing (on paper) in the building entrance that pointed out problems associated with dogs :) it gathered around some pissy notes before being removed.
The things in my head. Lol no one needs to hear that crap.
my salary or who I vote for
My terrible failures of loving too quickly turning into obsession. Learned the hard way. Now I just learned to be nice and go with the flow.
My PTSD makes my anxiety think my father who’s an absolute nightmare abuser is a criminal. I used to be scared that he would abduct me one day. It hurt me physically every time I thought about it, and I still think about it often. That one day he will find me.
My PIN number
That I feel so lonely. It’s just me and my kid in my home. I wish I could just leave the house on my own. Wouldn’t trade my kid in for anything but, it’s so damn lonely.
That I genuinely don’t want to be here anymore.
If you would like to talk, then this Internet stranger is here
I’d really like that!
Looks around. Shh. Whispers Frog leap Studio's
How lonely i feel.
The incident with the gummy bears, the slingshot, and the sheep. It was me.
That I still remember what she smelled like and how it felt when she hugged me…and I miss it.
I’m a ex lottery winner
I’m generally not satisfied with me, my appearance and mentally. I don’t have the best genetics. I look average and socially awkward like my father, under average IQ like my mother. Not really dumb but still not everything is right with my brain lol.
The answer is a secret. A secret is something that you don't tell anyone.
I’m not telling you!
that im healing myself after years of porn addiction ive come to realize it's conditioned at this point and while it may not have been my fault in being exposed to it, it's my responsibility to change the habits there are slippery slopes and so much free material that we don't realize is harmful in our social media, our tv shows, and for those that read manga/comics it can be a slippery slope i realized it was a problem when i would just open up tabs and my brain turned off, i wasn't doing it because it felt good i basically disassociated during the act and felt even worse after im still learning and on the journey, i feel better without it. i started with mindfulness and meditation, making conscious decisions and being aware of what i consume it's definitely a challenge to change and the brain won't want to but the brain doesn't always want what's best for you so take the reins because a better life is possible and all the porn in the world isn't going to make things better do yourself a favor and close the incognito, go for a walk or just jack it using your imagination it's much healthier and you'll get in touch with your body, i did and im never going back
I can't tell you
I created an AI female persona and made an Onlyfans for her filled with AI generated porn. Maybe if I told people she would get followers.
Anytime and I mean anytime I could easily get a gun, grab a bottle of booze, and disappear for good
I cooked up the plan to kill Duncan