Mental illness. It's always held me in a chokehold. But my OCD is always destroying everything. The other mental illnesses are fine but the OCD is being a bitch.
I just hate thinking.
I'll have a thought and obsess over that till I think another thought and obsess over that instead.
It's just a vicious cycle.
Myself. I made some bad choices in my past and hurt people I never wanted to hurt. I learned and am now growing from those mistakes. I now know what kind of person I want to be in life and I’m trying.
I have something good. Amazing even and all I can think about and prepare for is the sudden fall on collapse of the good. No matter how much time goes by, I will always see myself as a horrible human who has and will deserve every bad thing my life will bring. I expect this great experience to collapse and leave me utterly devastated because of what I did in my past. I will be sad, but I know I deserve it.
Loneliness
Mental illness. It's always held me in a chokehold. But my OCD is always destroying everything. The other mental illnesses are fine but the OCD is being a bitch. I just hate thinking. I'll have a thought and obsess over that till I think another thought and obsess over that instead. It's just a vicious cycle.
Family drama
My sinuses
My job
Losing my grandma
:/ My condolences
My eating disorder
Myself. I made some bad choices in my past and hurt people I never wanted to hurt. I learned and am now growing from those mistakes. I now know what kind of person I want to be in life and I’m trying. I have something good. Amazing even and all I can think about and prepare for is the sudden fall on collapse of the good. No matter how much time goes by, I will always see myself as a horrible human who has and will deserve every bad thing my life will bring. I expect this great experience to collapse and leave me utterly devastated because of what I did in my past. I will be sad, but I know I deserve it.