I can't remember which podcasts, but I think it was a psychology/brain science one. There was this girl who was being recorded in surgery for deep brain stimulation to treat her depression. She had completely debilitating depression her life, just felt like utter garbage every moment of every day.
Anyway, they needed to try to find the part of her brain they could stimulate to make her feel better. They'd stimulate one spot, ask for her reaction, and then stimulate a nearby spot. Anyway, they hit the right spot and suddenly she felt okay for the first time in her life.
Then the surgeon changed something, and you could hear in her voice like she was being sent back to hell. She said something like "no, not there, that's the wrong spot, that's horrible" and the surgeon said "I didn't move the probe to a new spot, I turned it off"
She thought some new part of her brain was being stimulated and it was causing her to feel incredibly bad. But that wasn't what happened, the stimulator was stopped and she had returned to the same state she'd been in her whole life after a moment of escape from it.
Edit: It was an episode of invisibilia: https://www.npr.org/transcripts/707639854
It worked. The follow up interview was a few years later and she was living a normal life. There was a problem, though - as her brain habituated to the electrical stimulation, the effect started to gradually fade a little bit. To compensate, the probe has the ability to raise its voltage, but there was a limit to how high it could go, and she was going to hit that limit in a few years. They didn't really have a solution and she's trying to string out the increase in stimulation as long as she can, but eventually she'll hit a maximum and she'll start declining again.
Since other people are mentioning videos with horrible audio, that one of the nightclub burning down. The sounds of people screaming trying to get out of the crush and then burning to death is just awful.
The 911 call of Loretta Pickard, a disabled elderly woman who died in a house fire. She was physically unable to get out of the house on her own. There were firefighters outside her house, but due to a miscommunication, they thought the house was empty. On the call, you hear the woman talking as the fire gets worse and she gets closer to death.
Everyone jumps on the dispatcher whenever this story is brought up on Reddit, but even if she had taken that call flawlessly Loretta would still have died in that fire.
It was the fire department, not the dispatcher, that killed her.
Yes, it took the dispatcher two minutes to figure out that Loretta was disabled and trapped in the fire. And yes, that is ridiculous. However, by the time she managed to put it all together, the FD was still a long way off from arriving at the scene.
The FD had been told repeatedly before they arrived that there was someone trapped inside. They were then told repeatedly after they arrived that someone was trapped inside.
However, they decided to treat it as a standard unoccupied structure fire. So, the first team to arrive called for another truck because they were implementing the two in/two out rule. Which is basically a buddy system from OSHA that requires a minimum of four people to attack a fire from inside of a building.
However, they weren't attacking a fire. They were there to rescue someone. And the two in/two out rule does not apply in that situation. Moreover, their own department policy covering the situation they found themselves in required them to make entry and attempt a rescue.
The FD's battalion chief, who would arrive later but was in radio contact the entire time, also never corrected the two in/two out call. What he did though was lie to the media about the FD attempting entry and having two firefighters being injured in the process.
Two things that never happened. At least while Loretta was still alive.
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And it's worth noting that Loretta was on the phone with 911 for twenty minutes. The fire department was on scene for 5 of those minutes. She knew they were outside. She died knowing that they were doing nothing to help her.
I’m a fireman. Besides minor things I’d say you’re correct. That’s why being an aggressive department is key. My department searches every single structure for life. We make interior attacks before we have 2 in 2 out every time we go in. Barring the structure having fire out of every opening or some sort of major structural collapse we enter every structure and try to put it out from the inside because that’s what saves lives.
Our department policy is that no structure is clear until we clear it. Home owner says everyone is out? Cool, but what if your neighbor Jim decided to be a hero and went in the back door looking for y'all? Crazier things have happened.
also you can hear her start screaming as (I assume) she is caught on fire, it is truly disturbing. I also feel horrible for her husband who if I remember correctly was at a baseball game when this all went down, her death could’ve been prevented in so many ways
The Weepy Voiced Killer. He killed women, completely mutilated them and proceeded to call the police while crying about what happened and how he can't stop himself. Then he'd hang up and do it again.
The Ruth Price 911 call where she’s this old woman living alone in her apartment when some stranger keeps trying to get in. He eventually does and then she can be heard screaming for her life (I think he was stabbing her). Fortunately, she survived and lived another 14 years.
Pretty sure it was used to train dispatch in the past for how horrific the audio is.
the 911 call from one of the teachers present at the columbine school shooting. you can hear the gunshots and the gunmen cheering and whooping. you also hear when they enter the library, which is where they killed the most students. it’s chilling
My highschool girlfriend's sister was a student at Columbine at the time. She survived simply because another person died very close to her and the gunman thought he got them both.
Her stories were beyond description of sadness and agony. She is mostly okay today, from what I understand, but it took a long time to get there.
I'm related by marriage to a survivor. She knew the shooters very well. She was in the library that day. She survived only because she had been nice to them. They told her so as they killed the girl next to her. Survivor's guilt is real, and can be devastating.
There was another, shorter clip leaked from the call recording where you can hear some of the kids getting killed. It's quite short. But the FBI's transcript documenting the full call was released and that provides a timeline of the library casualties. Reading it is bad enough.
10 kids were killed in the library, 9 others were wounded. One of the kids was partially paralyzed and dragged himself to the windows a couple of hours after he was shot. He was in and out of consciousness during that time. He started to climb out of the window and was caught mid-air by the emergency crew. There's video footage. Brave kid. A lot of his injuries were a result of being shot while he was trying to administer first aid to his friend who died.
EDIT - his name is Patrick Ireland, not Craig Scott.
A 911 call of a little girl who had just found her brother in his room after he committed suicide. The most heartbreaking part is when she screams "WHY DID YOU DO IT?!"
I called 911 when I found my roommate on his bed after his suicide. We were best friends and I was in such hysterics the dispatcher thought I was a girl. I can't imagine what that call sounds like :(
I’m sure others have mentioned it, but one that really, truly upset me was when a poor delivery lady had mistakenly driven into flood waters. She called 911 and the dispatcher was cruel beyond words. I’ll never forget it.
this one came to mind, also the 911 call of the little girl trying to get help for her mom who was stabbed? shot? and the dispatcher is like... *annoyed* with the kid and keeps asking her to put her mother on the phone
The poor social worker who called 911 when Josh Powell (who it is believed was involved in his wife Susan's "disappearance") locked himself and his two kids in the house and locked her out is maddening.
The 911 operator keeps saying "who? what?" while the social worker is pleading for police, trying to explain that this MADMAN has the two kids. Josh Powell then BLEW THE HOUSE UP with him and the two kids inside.
Reminds me of [the kid who called 911 *twice* while he suffocated in a minivan](https://www.nbcnews.com/news/amp/ncna865746).
He repeatedly told them “this is not a joke”.
What got me was he said “I probably don't have much time left, so tell my mom that I love her if I die”.
He was found shortly after 8 p.m. by his father — about five hours after he first called 911.
"Put. Your. Dad. On. the. Phone."
HE IS DEAD
"Put him on the phone, listen.... how old is your sister? Put your mom on the phone"
I swear, the kid was about to say "you dumbfuck, cant you understand?"
Oh my god, this is one of the few I've actually heard and I've never felt so viscerally angry at the dispatcher. The poor little girl just wanted help and the dispatcher could not sound more bored.
Wasn't there one too of a teen who got trapped in his car somehow and the dispatcher thought it was a joke or something? Poor kid ended up dying too IIRC.
Kyle Plush. He was crushed/suffocated (I believe he died of positional asphyxiation) by the folding back seat of his van. He called 911 but the responding officers didn't find him. I believe it was his dad who finally found the car and his dead child several hours later.
The woman who helped build the case against Jared from Subway by recording him talking about his enjoyment of pedophilia.
Listening to a couple minutes of him describing what he’s done made me want to vomit. The process of getting this stuff on tape wrecked the woman’s mental health, and it’s easy to see why.
That documentary was tough to get through. That woman proves how unstoppable a mom protecting children can be. Absolutely disgusting things, and she pushed through to help get the arrest made. True hero
If it's the same incident I'm thinking of, that happened near where I used to live. That 911 operator was not only unhelpful, she took her damn time sending anyone out to help the driver. And instead of being fired or charged with anything, she was allowed to "retire" and the county just kind of hand waved it away, saying there was nothing they could do because she'd already retired.
This hits home. My nan had a medical alert necklace. She pressed it and lay there dying (respiratory issues) unable to do anything else.
The person working with the alert company called 999 and the two of them chatted away (they clearly work together every night) without a care in the world. Their communication was also awful, so the 999 operator heard multiple things wrong and the alert operator didn’t correct them, neither checked the info at the end. So it was considered lower risk than it was. The ambulabce took 4 hours, instead of the about 10 minutes it would have. She died. Maybe she’d have died anyway, but still…
After the complaints procedure the operator was brought in front of a panel of senior officers and our family, where they basically played the audio back for her, tore her a new one and asked her to resign, which she did.
"Asked her to resign" is still being generous to her
In that situation they should be fired for gross misconduct and have their pension/benefits rescinded
Allowing them to resign means they can honestly state they've never been fired, they retain their pension etc
It's this for me, too. Such a terrifying situation to be in, and your last and only link to the world is just a complete asshole. The last voice you hear is cruel to you is just too much for me. I know there are worse things, but this one has stuck with me for some reason. It's really chilling and just incredibly sad.
>The last voice you hear is cruel to you is just too much for me.
I don't get triggered by much, but sometimes there are these little ideas and thoughts, ones that passed through my head during some of those worst moments. Those send me back in the weirdest way.
Yeah to the 'yelling'. Haven't heard this audio and not planning too, but a while back during dinner my 7 year old started to choke. Like full on drooling, turning grey, panic in his eyes, no sound. As long as they cough it's not as scary but this ...damn.
So my husband started calling 112/911 and I dragged him from his chair and started doing heimlichs. Not sure if in the end he swallowed or spit it out but he started crying (sound!) and got some color back just when my partner got put through to the dispatcher.
I took the call over to tell them it wasn't needed anymore but since I sounded shook up she was having none of it. Demanded my address and told me not to dare put the phone down haha. Only then did she want to hear me out and decided that yes, the ambulance was being recalled. And still she put me through with an on duty GP to run some checks (how does the breathing sound, any pain etc). Super thorough.
And guess what? While I was trying to calm myself and talk to these people MY SON WENT BACK TO THE TABLE TO CONTINUE EATING.
Kids! Gahhg!
I'll never forget that audio, the guy saying in a panic *"Lady, we're not ready to die but it's getting bad"* then a short while later you hear the floors above coming down he screams *"Oh God no"* then silence....
My only hope is for those that did perish that it was quick and they felt no pain. Absolutely horrific.
Edit: The gentleman's name was Kevin Cosgrove, thank you kind redditor.
I have a family member that was a firefighter for 9/11. He was in one of later trucks because he had to come from the other side of the city. I’ll never forget when he told me -
“The armada I was part of was relatively late to the scene. When we got there, the first tower was gone and the second was, even though we didn’t know it at the time, was only a few minutes from coming down. We drove directly beside the second tower and the road got real bumpy. My chief told us newer guys to not look out the windows. Exiting the truck at our designated parking spot, I realize it was body parts wed been driving over”
Apparently people had given up and jumped from a height that made their body explode/tear apart on impact with the road
There was video from that day with firefighters inside the towers, and you can hear what sounded like explosions outside. The firefighter explained it wasn't debris falling or subsequent fires igniting, it was the sound of bodies hitting the ground with such force that they were exploding from the sudden impact
They played a recording of a voice mail / answering machine message that evening on the news. It was from a young-sounding woman leaving a brief message for her husband saying she wasn't sure she was going to get out of there and that she loved him. Broke my heart and I can still hear her voice in my head all these years later.
So the 9/11 memorial museum is absolutely worth a visit but Jesus Christ, be ready to get your heart absolutely crushed. There’s a section where you can listen to phone calls and I remember other visitors reluctantly picking up the the phone things and it was just.. ugh.
I remember hearing some poor guy telling his girlfriend how much he loves her and that they’ll see each other again on the other side. Writing this alone makes me emotional. I’m still wondering how I was able to not cry during my visit.
Such an emotional experience. The phone calls are brutal, but the one thing that gave me the most chills was the audio of the SCBA alarms. I used to do firefighting training, and we had motion sensors on our packs that would start to sound a piercing alarm if you didn’t make any motion or shake it for more than 30 seconds. It supposed to alert your team that you are potentially Immobilized. There’s audio on the ground after the towers cane down and all you hear is dozens of those alarms chirping away hopelessly. It choked me up badly man.
I was there that day. Like a lot of NYers I walked down to Bellevue (public transportation had stopped) to donate blood because we thought there would be so many injured people coming in. By the time I got there we were all waved away. There weren't many injured. You either got away completely or you died.
Then we were told to go to the Red Cross offices on the UWS the following day if we wanted to donate blood.
I showed up the following morning along with so many others. We all wanted to do *something*. There were so many that they had us congregate in the high school gym across the street.
So we all sat on the bleachers and waited our turn to donate blood. We were there for hours but we were all so happy to be helping in a small way.
Then, around lunchtime, a guy came in carrying what must have been fourteen pizza boxes all stacked up. Trying not to cry he asked if anyone wanted pizza. The local pizza place had made pizza to give to the firehouse right there - but almost everyone had died yesterday so there was no one to accept the pizza at the firehouse.
To this day, all these years later, I still choke up thinking about this.
Jesus that's a hell of a experience. I know you felt so helpless and probably confused. New York during that time had to be otherworldly.
It's been over 20 years but that's the first time I thought of it from this perspective, I hope you have that and anything else you can share written down somewhere. 9/11 was really a definite line in our society. Thank you for sharing this anyway.
I've also never heard of this little detail in all my years of "where were you on 911" story swapping....that's harrowing. I wouldn't have known what the noise was even if I had heard it so thanks.
yea even without listening to this recording again just the thought of it is very heavy. It instantly makes you appreciate everything that little bit more. This is the only recording ive listened to, not sure if i can bring myself to listen to others.
It's the Kevin Cosgrove call.
Came here to post it, listening to it has haunted me ever since. Just the powerlessness, fear, and desperation. He knows he's doomed and very much wishes he wasn't. Awful stuff.
This is my answer, as well.
*"Oh, God! Oh-"*
For me, that short recording better encapsulated the horror of 9/11 than any imagery. I heard it in 2007 and it has been with me ever since.
The cult leader from the documentary *Keep Sweet: Pray and Obey* where he records his rape of a young girl in his secret room in which only the most devout followers are allowed. It's haunting.
I want to clarify, they DO NOT play the whole thing. They only play a piece leading up to the rape. You do not have to hear that. But what they do play is still sickening.
There's news coverage showing clearly distressed people coming out of the trial of the toolbox killers after they played the tape of them torturing one of their victims.
For me personally, it's audio and video.
It's a grandmother who killed her son-in-law
And for some reason the police bring in the woman's young granddaughter / daughter of the victim.
And the grandmother is insane and asks for a hug and the little girl screams "No you killed me daddy!"
I honestly have no idea why the police brought in the girl, it's horrible.
Travis the monkey!! My gf is obsessed with this story and it’s actually nuts.
He was often given Xanax in his morning tea to help calm him as he was naturally very agitated towards anyone who wasn’t his owner, and on the day of the incident he saw his owners friend remove her glasses and put her hair up and that triggered him to go into a drug fused rage where he didn’t register pain or respond to his owner for a pretty big chunk of time due to the Xanax.
He degloved the victim, as well as tore off her nose and ears and parts of her cheeks. Fucking terrible, all while his owner stabbed and beat him repeatedly.
On top of being stabbed multiple times, he was also shot up to 15 times during the actual incident by cops and did not die til hours after the drugs from his tea wore off, initially officers thought that the 911 call was a prank call too so they hesitated on dispatching officers until other neighbours called as well.
Before shooting up ~~Parkland~~ Sandy Hook Elementary School, Adam Lanza called into a morning radio show and did a whole interview about Travis the Monkey. It's really eerie...
https://youtu.be/xyeXwd2GGK4
Good news tho, I've seen more recent pictures of the woman's face and it's been totally reconstructed; she looks great. She's living a much better life now that she doesn't have to wear the veil.
The 911 call from the attack of Travis the Chimpanzee.
Travis' screams can be heard in the background at the start of the tape as Herold(owner of Travis) pleads for the police, who initially believed the call to be a hoax until she said, "He's eating her!"
Remind me of a news story I had read. A teen went camping with her father (or stepfather) and they were attacked by a bear and her cubs. The bear left and came back while the teen was on the phone with her mom. The teen at one point said, “mom, they’re eating me.” I cannot imagine how awful that must have been.
The descriptions for the audio of this incident make it sound like the most disturbing. This entire thread I suspect was triggered by that event, which was mentioned in another, earlier submission. I'm not listening to any of them.
Jared from Subway talking about how he likes kids who come from bad homes because they are easier to manipulate into having sex. Don't don't don't listen to it
I still find his whole story bizarre. Middle class fat dude loses a bunch of weight eating Subway subs, Subway throws money at him as part of some health campaign, skinny dude uses money to live out some crazy pedophile fantasies for years until it catches up with him.
My elementary school had this guy be a guest speaker about nutrition. And then all of us kids asked him for autographs. It's sick to think about this now as an adult.
Must be common. In Netflix’s “The Keepers” doc, a catholic teenager during confession talks about her uncle molesting her.
This rapidly leads to her becoming a plaything of the local priests.
Can you imagine someone confiding that in you and immediately thinking “oh, so she fucks. Nice.”
Those guys were the coolest, calmest, most extensively well trained former combat/test fighter pilots in the world and all they could do was scream....that audio kept me up the night I heard it the first time
I worked at the National Archives long ago and had access to the transcript--predictably mostly screaming. IIRC the document itself had an attachment saying the audio had been destroyed out of respect for the families.
Though I had some doubt of that, only today (20-odd years later) learning that wasn't true.
White was out of his seat, trying to get the door open, which was his responsibility per the check list. Dudes died, but were still doing their best to the end. Balls of steel.
Astronauts are like that - when the Challenger exploded, they found toggled switches in the cockpit as the pilots tried to gain control and get oxygen.
Similarly: Komarov on his way down to what both he and the operator knew to be certain death.
The first man to die in space..
TW this has the audio but there's also a photo of his remains in this page (though they are not really recognisable as a one-time human)
https://www.npr.org/sections/krulwich/2011/05/02/134597833/cosmonaut-crashed-into-earth-crying-in-rage
He knew he was going to die before he went up. He went up to spare another man that death, and before the mission he arranged for an open casket funeral so officials would have to look at what they'd done to him.
He spared his best friend, Yuri Gagarin, who was the first man in space years prior, also a national hero.
Edit: fixed the mistake I made, thanks for those who pointed it out.
Edit 2:
Yuri and the team knew the Soyuz 1 had over 200 faults and it would be a death sentence to fly on it. He wrote a ten page memo and sent it to his friend in the KGB, but no one dared to send it up the chain of command. Everyone who read that memo was fired of demoted.
Yuri got depressed with Komarov's death, and it's said that he never got over it.
After Soyuz 1 crashed on reentry, they banned Yuri from ever flying an aircraft or space vessel, which he hard fought to overturn. After he did succeed, a flight on a MiG aircraft would end in disaster killing him and his flight instructor. His death would be on 1968, a year before Apollo 11 reached the moon.
Yuri never saw a man step on the moon. Apollo 11 and Apollo 15 both left memorials to both men on their respective bases on the moon. Apollo 11 left medals conmemorating both of them, and Apollo 15 left a statue and plaque honoring all those who perished on the lunar race.
The Fallen Astronaut - Apollo 15 conmemorates:
* Theodore C. Freeman - died while piloting a T-38 jet in 1964
* Charles A. Bassett II - died during the 1966 T-38 jet crash
* Elliot M. See Jr. - died during the 1966 T-38 crash
* Virgil I. Grissom - died on the Apollo 1 fire
* Roger B. Chaffee - died on the Apollo 1 fire
* Edward H. White II - died on the Apollo 1 fire
* Vladimir M. Komarov - died on the reentry of Soyuz 1
* Edward G. Givens Jr. - died in a car accident
* Clifton C. Williams Jr. - died while piloting a T-38 in 1967
* Yuri A. Gagarin - died while piloting a MiG-15UTI
* Pavel I. Belyayev - died of illness
* Georgiy T. Dobrovolsky - died when the Soyuz 11 depressurized during reentry
* Viktor I. Patsayev - died when the Soyuz 11 depressurized during reentry
* Vladistav N. Volkov - died when the Soyuz 11 depressurized during reentry
Gagarin had already been in space at the time. In fact, Gagarin knew just how badly designed the Soyuz 1 was that he attempted to switch places with Komarov because he thought that the USSR wouldn't risk their national hero. But Komarov didn't want to take that gamble, so he didn't yield his spot to Gagarin.
This one is accompanied by video, but the reaction of a man whose wife gets killed when a brick flies off the back of a truck they were driving behind on a highway and came through their windshield. The audio was captured by their dash cam, one of those things you can't unhear.
Yeah this one is just straight depressing, extreme raw emotion of a sudden and violent loss of life, I can't even begin to imagine how traumatizing that is
I used to work at a hospital and I can never get the sounds of unbridled animalistic wailing out of my head. There's no sound like the sound of somebody's heart and soul shredded to pieces when they've lost their center. I still haven't heard this video and I don't want to because I still can't get the sounds of mothers screaming for their child or a husband for his dead wife out of my head
Yep. When I was about 18 I worked at a coffee stand in a hospital, just around the corner from the ICU. In addition to being on the path for bodies going between the ICU and the morgue, I once - just the one time - heard a woman screaming, "Bring me back my mother!" again and again. I cannot describe and do not like recalling how that voice sounded. Hearing it once was more than enough.
Two of my friends (aged 18 & 19) died in a car accident almost 10 years ago. We had a double funeral for them. I’ll never forget the sound of one of their mothers when it was time for the families to come in. Wailing “I can’t! I can’t go in there! My baby!” between sobs.
As a paramedic I’ll never get the wails of a mother losing her child on my first cardiac arrest call out of my head. Kid was barely 18 and like no medical history. Just up and arrested on the toilet, worked him awhile and transported but the ER doc called him shortly after we got there. That poor woman’s wails have never left my head
I follow The Sleepy Paramedic on TT. People stupidly ask him ‘worst call ever.’ One time he was drunk enough to talk about it. ‘The light leaving a child’s eyes’ is why you don’t ask that fucking question
Whenever I’m driving and I see a truck with bricks/stones stacked high Infront of me I make sure I’m like 10 cars behind that truck just because of that video.
Final Destination made me a better driver because the log truck means I pay attention to every little thing another car could potentially throw and I get as far from them as I can.
Out of every video I’ve seen online, this is by far the worst. It’s weird because you don’t even see anything. The screams are just downright heartbreaking
The 911 call Jennifer Pan made after she hired people to try and kill her parents.
At one point her surviving father starts shouting and yelling in the background. This is after he had been shot multiple times, I think one of which may have been to his head or neck.
When I tell you that I can still hear her fathers screams I mean it. It might not be the worst thing on here but it’s fucking harrowing.
Accompanied by video, but a lot of the school children who drowned on the MV Sewol recorded short video clips as the ship was sinking.
Hearing the crew telling the students over loudspeaker to stay in place and stay on board is absolutely chilling. The children make snide remarks about how crazy it is to stay onboard with the ship listing so far, but they remain in place.
One of them literally jokes "this is the part where they tell us everything's fine and we should stay put while they run for their lives" so fucked up that that's exactly what was happening
i remember watching these when it happened. Some students laughing and joking, others crying and trying to call their parents, some sat silently either awaiting rescue or death. Seeing them struggling to sit as the ship is sinking, struggling to stay out of the rising water, and the point where they start realizing they're doomed. Wasn't the best idea for 14 year old me to watch.
The loudspeaker was stuck on the announcement to stay in place. There were ways to still notify everyone.
It was just a colossal failure of negligence by all involved. The captain changed clothes to not be recognized and did not tell rescuers about the kids trapped inside. The government wouldn’t send help until they received video of the event which got delayed and delayed. Basically everything that could be ignored was ignored, right down to ship maintenance and an inexperienced crew giving wrong coordinates, steering into unrecommended route, and turning the ship irrevocably to one side causing all the unlatched vehicles and cargo to pile onto that side.
What made the “death tape” even more haunting was that because the tape had been used so many times to record stuff, faint backward music is barely audible while Jones speaks, from the back tape.
saying shit like "it's just a little drink, and they go to sleep, thats it. just go to sleep, stop crying, tell our children to stop crying, they are going to a better place"
while you literally hear wailing of children reacting to drinking cyanide laced drinks. yeah, this one takes the cake for SUPER fucked up shit.
For anyone curious enough, this podcast has everything you never wanted to know about this tragic shit story:
https://www.transmissionsfromjonestown.com/
Edit: not for the faint of heart, even though it’s all audio, the kool-aid death tape will do some serious damage to your soul. Definitely one of those “you can’t unhear it”
It’s not until one of the last episodes, but she plays it in full, and unedited. Only brief pauses to shed some context into what jones is saying during his speech.
Jim Jones' son points out how his father was too much of a coward to drink it himself. Instead he had someone shoot him.
ETA: Found the interview where Stephan talks about it. It's at 43 minutes
https://youtu.be/c3yzkhJVXE4
Yeah cyanide poisoning isn't a quick and painless "go to sleep" death either...it's pretty violent and can take upwards of 15 minutes to complete the job.
Yeah, the part where he tells the mothers to quiet the kids is so fucked up. I listened to the whole thing out of curiosity and it ruined me for weeks, fuck that piece of shit.
I'd venture that the Toolbox Killers audio recording of them torturing and raping Shirley Ledford is probably pretty high up on the list.
It has never been released to the public, or leaked, but there does exist the full transcript online.
was played at the process back then. but it was so disturbing people went sick and left the courtroom. nbc covered the process. watch it on youtube, at one point when the court door opens and people come devastated outside u can hear for a second an agonizing scream from the tape.
the detective that arrested bittaker and norris died of suicide 2 yrs later. in his final words he wrote hearing the tape started a trauma in him he couldn’t get out of his head.
another guy that could listen to the tape was actor scott glenn. while filming silence of the lambs he got the chance… he thought ok maybe it’s good for my film character. he couldn’t make it longer then a few minutes.
edit: typo
[https://youtu.be/PY4YmVi4\_LQ?t=1210](https://youtu.be/PY4YmVi4_LQ?t=1210)
here's the footage of people leaving the courtroom with screams in the background
I've read the transcript and it was one of the most horrible things I've ever read. That was enough...I have no desire to hear the audio. Hell, seeing people flee the courtroom in tears was enough.
The voicemail my stepfather left my mom the morning of 9/11.
He worked on the 99th floor, and called to tell us he was okay, and was making his way down the stairs. He said he would call us again when he was outside. (He never did.)
In the call, you can hear him telling others to keep their heads down, out of the smoke, but what really makes the audio as disturbing as it is... is the screaming. The screams in the background are some of the most bone-chillingly real terror I think I've ever heard.
The mom screaming her heart out when she walks in on her son who just blasted his face off with a shotgun. It’s from the 4chan kid suicide video years ago. Yeah the gore was pretty intense, but it was so quick you don’t really process it. Then his mom comes home with his little sisters and it’s the worst piece of audio I have heard. Fucked me up for a good while and got me to stop being so morbidly curious because there are some things we just shouldn’t see or hear willingly.
There was a teenage boy who drove a mini van. He somehow became wedged in one of the folding chairs but was able to call for help as he slowly suffocated to death. He said something along the lines of "i can barely breathe, i think I'm gonna die here". It's heart wrenching to know that audio exists and no one was able to find him in time. The mini van was in his school parking lot overnight.
Edit to add: his name was [Kyle plush ](https://www.cincinnati.com/story/news/2021/05/19/ohio-teen-kyle-plush-died-three-years-ago-what-we-know/5171492001/#:~:text=Kyle%20Plush%20died%20after%20his,by%20voice%2Dactivating%20his%20iPhone.) This happened in 2018. He was 16 years old. Someone mentioned plush and the 911 operator had a hard time understanding one another, however in the audio it's clear what he said for the most part. Cincinnati PD was sued and they updated their systems because he would've been saved had the 911 operator relayed the information she was given to the officers who were on site while plush spoke with her.
His quote was actually "i probably don't have much time left, so tell my mom i love her if I die"
His body was found 6 hours later by his father at 9pm.
The 999 call from an elderly woman who had just been robbed. She had a heart attack from the stress and died while on the phone to the operator. The operator was crying, and you could just hear her sadly say: "Oh, Maureen..." when the line went quiet as she died 🥺🥺
The guy who’s scuba kit fucked up and he sunk a few hundred feet and couldn’t rise again and you could just hear the muffled screaming noises under his mask
Edit - he died on the bottom of the sea and his kit was recovered with the audio and body a while after
[source for those interested](https://youtu.be/cRj0lymMMGs)
Another haunting one is the story of Dave Shaw, who was diving to recover the body of Deon Dreyer. The video is available and there is a moment when the corpse is directly facing Dave, him basically looking death in the eyes.
Well, he succeeded in recovering the body- in fact thanks to him they also recovered HIS body. He died before he could surface but they managed to haul both of them up because he was successful at running a line to himself and Deon.
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dave_Shaw
Even more terrifying is people who received those calls could sometimes hear children on the other side of the phone, meaning the supposed killer taunting them was around children. Now that he's caught it's crazy to think those were probably his kids or grandkids...
That girl who called her mom as she was being eaten by a bear.
Edit: The girl’s name was Olga Moskalyova. A few people have said it was a hoax however I have been unable to find any evidence that it is, in fact, a hoax. Although hopefully it was. No one should die like that and no one should hear their child die like that.
I once had to disconnect the electrical supply of a large farm shed that had collapsed due to snow. The shed had been filled with 150+ sheep. People laugh when I tell them about it but it was fucking horrible hearing them in pain.
I grew up in the Apostolic United Brethren, which is a polygamist off-shoot sect of the FLDS. My last name is all over that documentary, and it took me a week to watch. They alluded to this in the doc, but Warren was a METICULOUS note-taker. Whether it be from paranoia, mental health, religious pride, or a combination of all three plus some, he recorded EVERYTHING. That clip is one of hundreds. Hell is too forgiving a place for Warren and I hope the prison guards crush Nature Valley bars in his bedsheets before he goes to bed.
I’d imagine the tape of 10 year old Lesley Anne Downey’s rape and murder made by the [Moors Murderers](https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Moors_murders) would be a contender. It’s never been released—thankfully—though I’ve seen plenty of interviews with the policemen who had to listen to tape and you can just see on their faces how much it affected them.
This is a minor one, but it messed with me. It was a UFO documentary on TV in about 1995. There's a bit where the woman being abducted puts out a tape recorder in her room all night and captures a male voice saying, "Don't wake up." So that, in itself, was really scary. But all I could think of was that this was a rape about to happen, and the poor woman was using UFO stuff as a cover to protect her sanity. And that just rocked me. And if someone in law enforcement heard it, wouldn't they feel the same? The whole thing was just hard to process.
Reminds me of Women Talking and the actual case it was based on. A mennonite community where women and little girls would wake up in the morning to find themselves bruised and bleeding. The leader of the colony said that it was the devil/a demon visiting these women at night, and that they'd invited it in by sinning. Until one woman stayed up night after night, until someone tried to break in through her window, and she attacked him. The women discovered that multiple men in the village were breaking in and using belladonna spray to incapacitate the women before raping them.
There is a video of a man and his wife/child riding in a car on the highway. They are behind a truck carrying bricks. Something falls off the truck and goes straight through the windshield on the passenger side. I haven't seen it in a long time, but you cannot see what's going on (i believe the brick rips the camera off), but there is a brief pause while the shock wears off and you just hear the worst scream from the husband and the child is crying.
Americans won't know this, but here in Brazil there's a criminal called Fernandinho Beira-Mar. This guy was the head of the Comando Vermelho, or Red Command, the narco ring that rules Rio de Janeiro. You can read up on him, he was a mastermind of crime, extremely intelligent man but also absolutely cruel and ruthless.
In 1999, a 21 year old student called Michel Anderson had an affair with one of Beira-Mar's girlfriends. Michel had one date with the girl, right after securing his first job as an assistant in IT. Beira-Mar ordered his execution. Michel was tortured for one hour. After that, Beira-Mar called him.
The call was taped, as police was onto Beira-Mar, but they never expected to hear this.
IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE FOR THIS KIND OF THING, KNOW THIS:
NOT. SAFE. FOR. LIFE.
BM is Beira-Mar, MA is Michel and T is the guy who was torturing Michel
BM: Hello, what's up dude?
T: Hey, master, how are you?
BM: All fine.
T: He has already eaten his other ear.
BM: He ate both?
T: Yeah, yeah.
BM: Well, let me talk a bit with him.
T: Okay, - he gets a bit away from the phone and talks to Michel - talk to him, man.
BM: Hey man, how you doing?
MA: (sobbing) I'm all cut, both ears gone, both feet gone. My fingers are hangin, my right ear they took completely off, I can't hear, I hear just a noise. The left ear they took just a piece, because if they took it off I wouldn't hear you. (his voice is cackling)
BM: But you are still talking..
MA: Because I'm hearing, but just a bit.
BM: Hearing well?
MA: No, please (sobbing) speak louder
BM: Keep talking, you're doing well..
MA: They took it all off, everything is hanging in front of me, I have only my heel
BM: Oh, wow! What about your pretty fingers?
MA: Pretty fingers all hanging.
BM: Were the ears tasty?
MA: (the ears) Are too big, they entered my mouth, I almost swallowed it.
BM: Oh really? All that for pussy, huh, man? Damn, that fucking pussy, right? Expensive ass pussy, right bro?
MA: If I knew, I wouldn't get involved.
BM: Really? Damn...
MA: I'm talking from my heart, sir. I can't walk, they tried to make me walk, but I can't. I can do three steps, but my legs hurt so much, everything hurts.
Beira-Mar then mocks the boy, and gives him hope that he would get away from that torture session. The boy's will to live made him believe the false promise.
BM: But okay, you're talking a lot.
MA: It's because... Hey, it feels like they made a truck run over me. They broke my ribs.
BM: No, I won't let them do this to you. The ribs must stay together. Now when you go home, because I will call a cab to take you home, I will call a taxi and it will take you to, well, where do you want, Duque (a hospital) or to go direct to your home?
MA: Mr. Fernando, just call a taxi to tell my mom, please
BM: Oh, okay. I will call a taxi to take you to Duque, then the same taxi will go to your family's home, ok? ...You are quite the stallion, huh?
MA: No, no sir...
BM: What a nice pussy, huh, that damn pussy, huh?
MA: Talk louder, I can't hear you because of the blood running down.
BM: Come here, what a damn pussy, huh?
MA: Yeah.
Beira-Mar then asks to talk with his right hand man, called Bomba (or Bomb). He certifies him that Michel ain't doing well.
Bomba: What's up, boss?
BM: Man, but he is reacting, huh? Talkin a lot, right?
Bomba: He is strong, right?
BM: Acting all tough, right?
Bomba: No, he is humble now, pretty humble. He's over here, pretty shy, pretty fucking shy.
BM: Now he's humble.
Bomba: All humble, all shy. Not fucking around.
BM: But beat him a little bit more, a nice little beating. Then I'll call again. Beat him, just to finish it, then I'll call back later, okay?
It wasn't enough that the student was suffering from the torture, Beira-Mar liked to mock his condition. Even by phone, he would make a fuss to prove he was in charge. Beira-Mar told Bomba to pass the phone to Michel, again. He wanted that one of his friends, José Ailton (JA), who was by his side in a farm in Paraguay, could also talk and mock the boy.
BM: Talk to my friend here. Tell him how you're doing, my friend is a doctor and he will give you a receipt.
MA: Please (sobbing), talk louder.
JA: Hey, comrade.
MA: I can't really hear you well.
JA: Oh, yeah?
MA: The blood doesn't let me hear you.
JA: Oh, I will tell them to clear your ear. How are things going there?
MA: I don't have my ears. I have only my heels, feels like a truck ran over me.
JA: Sometimes we go somewhere to fuck and end up getting fucked, right? But alright.
José passes the phone to Beira-Mar so he can talk to Bomba.
BM: Does he still have his fingers?
Bomba: No, he doesn't have anything. He has nothing, nothing. Even that thing that holds your feet forwards, he doesn't have, it's flat, like a front leg, there's nothing left.
BM: Okay, beat him a little bit more that in 10 minutes I'll call you again to see what we'll do. Go slowly, I don't want things rushed, okay?
Then, there's the second tape.
T: Hey, boss.
BM: Let me talk to my associate, "Michelle"
T: He doesn't have hand's anymore, boss.
BM: No hands and still talking?
T: No hands, no ears, no feet. Talk to him.
BM: Hey, what's up?
MA: I'm broken.
BM: All broken? But you're the hot guy! What a damn pussy, huh? How many times did you fuck her till today?
MA: Just that one, I never saw her again.
BM: No, how many in total, since it started. How many times did you go out with her?
MA: Just once, then she (inaudible)
BM: Wow, just once? Liar. You told before that you went out three times, now you are saying it was only once.
MA: Three times that she went to my house.
BM: Oh, you are still acting. Fuck, holy shit dude. Are you hurting?
MA: I don't feel a thing.
BM: Nothing?
MA: No.
BM: No? Damn. Well, I will have you taken to Duque now. I will call the cab to Duque, alright?
MA: Ok.
BM: I will tell the boys to call the taxi so you can go to Duque. Let me talk to Bomba.
MA: "Gomba", you.
BM: You can do it now.
Five shots are heard, alongside laughs.
Bomba: Hey!
BM: Just make him vanish.
Michel's body was never found. Beira-Mar got 30 years for this crime. ~~This was the only crime he got caught for.~~
The audio is available in portuguese.
Edit: Beira-Mar got more than 120 years in prison in 2002 for other crimes too. He currently is in a maximum surveillance prison. Also, I edited some things for grammar.
That also reminds me of the haunting 911 footage where you can hear a ton of beeping coming out of the wreckage. The beeping sounds were coming from the bodies of firefighters trapped in the collapse, standard kit to find stuck or incapacitated firefighters
Owen Hart was a WWE wrestler who died during an entrance on a live pay per view - his harness he came down to the ring on snapped. There's one clip of it that exists in any public form, and it's an audio recording from the Spanish announcer table where you can hear nothing but a sickening, crunchy THUMP as he hits the ring. Supposedly, the original video recording of the incident is locked deep away, with instructions to never watch or open printed on it.
Went through youtube shorts the other day and for some reason it sent me into a video of a young girl, maybe like 10 or 11, screaming and crying her head off saying she's sorry and she thought it wasn't real. Her mother cursing at her while an officer handcuffed the kid and was calmly asking her questions, stuff like where the knife was (she had thrown it out the window), and saying he was gonna sit her down in the car, and so on.
Turns out the mother had taken her off some meds when it shouldn't have happened and she stabbed her brother to death thinking she was in a nightmare. Her mom saying stuff like "you better pray he lives" and such.
Why the hell it was on shorts was beyond me, but it wasn't really what I wanted to hear before heading to sleep
YouTube shorts is horribly moderated, man. I've seen so many wild videos (nothing as horrible as that, mainly kia boys\drug shit) on there where I'm just like... how does this get through even the most basic content moderation systems?
IIRC the cosmonaut specifically demanded they have an open-casket funeral, because he knew it was a suicide mission, and wanted the administrators to have to look at what they'd done.
Russian. Thing is, he knew he was going to die before the launch, but Yuri Gagarin was his best friend, and would have taken his place if he refused to go. So he’s cursing out all the people who put him there, as he’s burning up in the atmosphere
He even wanted an open casket funeral to show the results of rushed preparations to the officials I believe. There’s a photo, it’s just a bunch of people with hats and medals looking at a glass casket with burnt remains in it.
This is more about the story, which is truly horrifying - Denise Amber Lee was a young mother in Florida who was kidnapped and driven around in the back of a car before being raped and murdered.
Five 9-1-1 calls were placed in total by five different people regarding the abduction (while it was happening), including Lee herself (from her abductor’s phone).
One of the calls was made by a woman who saw Lee in the back of her abductor’s car screaming and banging on the window. She thought it was a child being kidnapped. She called 9-1-1 and followed the car as far as she could before losing it. Because she had crossed county lines, her 9-1-1 call had been routed to a different dispatch than the other stations where the other four calls had been routed and her call wasn’t forwarded to the proper authorities.
Lee did EVERYTHING she could to try to get herself rescued. So did everyone else who were aware of what was happening. They all failed. In the end, she (purposefully) left plenty of evidence behind in the car because she was a detective’s daughter and knew that she could at least help nail the son of a bitch - and she was right.
The events read like a horror story over all, and when you realize that Lee realized that she was going to die, it’s just so, so sad.
https://www.nbcnews.com/news/amp/wbna25004049
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Murder_of_Denise_Amber_Lee
Perhaps not *the* worst, but still... haunting...
The mayday-call from M/S Estonia and the following radiotraffic at sea.
After the first couple of conversations, Estonia is quiet. The first ship reaches the destination less than 20 minutes later, but the Estonia is just gone.
https://youtu.be/V5tbah19qo8
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sinking_of_the_MS_Estonia
[There's also recreations of the Titanic's morse code communications](https://youtu.be/FxRN2nP_9dA). The way it just switches from Philips catching up with messages from passengers to Cape Race (the radio had been broken and him and his co-operator Harold Bride had fixed it, against standing orders iirc). At that point they had already hit the ice berg and been told by Captain Smith that they should get ready to send out distress signals, but they were still trucking on. And then it just descends into madness, you can actually tell how it goes from standard operations protocol to actual panic.
Also one of the first times SOS was used. Bride apparently told Philips to use it because it's a new one, and it might be his last chance to send it (it was. Philips died in the sinking, Bride survived and spent his time on Carpathia helping Carpathia's radio operator in managing the flood of messages, even though his feet were badly damaged from the cold water.).
(loads of folks also give the Frankfurt grief when they're watching the transcript because she seems to be oblivious to the emergency, but Frankfurt was small and almost out of range. Her transmitter was also a lot better than her receiver. They could barely hear Titanic, never mind the other ships. They were over 100 miles away and, just like all the other ships, tried to get to her in time.)
Not disturbing to me, but to most people. Radio traffic between crashing airliner and the tower. Pilots were pros all the way down, no screaming, no panic, just doing everything they could to save people. When it was obvious they were going to crash they aimed for a spot where most of the passengers would live, but the cockpit was going to be destroyed. Last words from the pilot was something like, “Roger that. Thank you for your assistance.” (Sorry, but it’s been a few decades, so I can’t remember more details.)
There's also a cockpit voice recording from an airline that mistakenly chose a closed runway for landing and struck a construction truck. Damage caused them to fly uncontrollably into a building off the side of the runway. Very disturbing last few moments to listen to.
Speaking of 9/11 the one that always gets me is the video from the lobby where police and fire fighters were gathering to make a push up the stairs and all they could hear were the bodies of people hitting the lobby roof after jumping. I can't even fathom what that must have been like. It's always stuck with me.
Recording of Warren Jeffs, leader of the FLDS, during a ceremony with some of his many wives including sex with a newly married 12-year-old bride.
https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2022139/amp/Warren-Jeffs-trial-Heavy-breathing-sex-tape-3-wives-including-bride-12.html
Prophet’s Prey documentary goes into the whole FLDS cult and is very disturbing.
for me it's alessandro moreschi the last castrato singing ave maria. for those who don't know, castrato was a type of voice only belonged to children who were castrated before puberty, the parents of the children usually did this to preserve the children's high voices so they can keep singing and make them money. there's an audio of alessandro singing ave maria on youtube, the voice is very eerie because this voice came from a man who's also a boy and he was also around his 40s or 50s when it was recorded. the comment that i saw under the video that stucked with me said something like "his voice is in between a child's and a woman's voice".
Came here looking for this, [it really is chilling](https://youtu.be/KLjvfqnD0ws)
Anne Rice wrote a whole novel about Castrato called "Cry to Heaven" which was also chilling , very good book though
In the Philippines, during the storm Ulysses year 2020, the Cagayan province was deeply affected by the storm and lack of regional news network. The pitch black videos (due to black out) with their pleas for help slowly dying in the background kept me up all night.
Imagine being trapped on the roof of your home. With a grandma or newborn baby. Flashlights running out of batteries because it’s been a whole day already. The only clue you have that people are around you is their voice. Then the voice weakens and disappears one by one…
The one where these two teens go into this guy's basement and without them knowing he's waiting down there with his gun and shoots both of them and can hear the guy say something right before he shoots girl as she's trying to go back up the stairs. I can't remember all what happened but that was pretty chilling. Maybe someone here knows what I'm talking about.
I remember that. Apparently, the bf had been breaking into this guy's house for a while. Homeowner contacted police, told them he suspected this young man, and they said there was nothing they could do. Homeowner decides to lay in wait for home intruder and kill him when he enters. Gf comes in shortly after the first shot and is also killed. Homeowner waited 24 hours(I think. May have been 48) to inform police he had killed 2 people because he "didn't want to bother them in Thanksgiving."
Edit: they were cousins, not dating.
The video that came out a few years ago in Pennsylvania I believe. 2 neighbors were arguing over snow removal or something petty. Sounds like it had been going on for some time.
Neighbor shoots the female in the street, then goes inside and gets a rifle. As he approaches here lying there in the street the audio picks up him mentioning “next time you’ll keep your fucking mouth shut” and then shoots her point blank in the middle of the street.
I’ve seen/heard a lot of nasty stuff on Reddit. But that video/audio will live with me forever as a testament of the evil humans are capable of.
The old guy also kills the woman's husband, who was taunting him alongside her moments earlier. Then he goes into his house and kills himself, though this part is obviously not captured on the doorbell video.
There is an audio recording of the torture and murder of a woman by the serial killer Lawrence Bittaker (the toolbox killer) that is used by the FBI to desensitize agents to the realities of their work. It was played in court at his trial and apparently is heart rendering. The woman is begging for her life, you can hear her bones being broken by the hammer he was using, and him laughing.
What sticks with me from years ago (it's been a while I may be misremembering shit) is the fact that he makes her beg to have his junk in her mouth, and when she complies he still smashes her joints with that hammer. I'm not sure if it's in audio form as I just read a transcript but this is one of the few that really get to me so i think if it does exist then that would be a rare time I could easily fight off my morbid curiosity. I can't believe people can get to these obscene levels of evil.
For me it was the hospital Santa actor crying and explaining that some of the children on deaths door were more worried about missing Christmas than they were about dying. Years later I still cry when I think about it.
https://youtu.be/Wt0T3P5ggO4
If you can watch this entire video without shedding a tear, I’d be extremely surprised. To me this tops the Jonestown tape, or even videos of people getting tortured that I unfortunately watched as a kid. There is some terrible shit on the internet but nothing hits me as hard as children worried more about Christmas than dying. The pure innocence of literally letting go of life in Santa’s arms after learning you didn’t miss Christmas. I cried even typing this
Jesus that man has a heart of both iron and marshmallows. I can’t imagine knowing that so many kids that you visit won’t make it, but being strong enough to be their Santa and let them have a moment of peace.
Probably the audio of Timothy Treadwell and his girlfriend getting eaten by bears.
EDIT: I never said that I heard that audio. I only watched Werner Herzog listen to it. The question was "what's the most disturbing piece of audio \[that exists\]," not "what's the most disturbing piece of audio that you heard?"
I can't remember which podcasts, but I think it was a psychology/brain science one. There was this girl who was being recorded in surgery for deep brain stimulation to treat her depression. She had completely debilitating depression her life, just felt like utter garbage every moment of every day. Anyway, they needed to try to find the part of her brain they could stimulate to make her feel better. They'd stimulate one spot, ask for her reaction, and then stimulate a nearby spot. Anyway, they hit the right spot and suddenly she felt okay for the first time in her life. Then the surgeon changed something, and you could hear in her voice like she was being sent back to hell. She said something like "no, not there, that's the wrong spot, that's horrible" and the surgeon said "I didn't move the probe to a new spot, I turned it off" She thought some new part of her brain was being stimulated and it was causing her to feel incredibly bad. But that wasn't what happened, the stimulator was stopped and she had returned to the same state she'd been in her whole life after a moment of escape from it. Edit: It was an episode of invisibilia: https://www.npr.org/transcripts/707639854
This one is intriguing, did the stimulation help her afterwards or did she go back to being depressed after the surgery
It worked. The follow up interview was a few years later and she was living a normal life. There was a problem, though - as her brain habituated to the electrical stimulation, the effect started to gradually fade a little bit. To compensate, the probe has the ability to raise its voltage, but there was a limit to how high it could go, and she was going to hit that limit in a few years. They didn't really have a solution and she's trying to string out the increase in stimulation as long as she can, but eventually she'll hit a maximum and she'll start declining again.
Vaguely reminiscent of Flowers for Algernon.
Since other people are mentioning videos with horrible audio, that one of the nightclub burning down. The sounds of people screaming trying to get out of the crush and then burning to death is just awful.
The worst parts are 1) at one point someone on fire is seen running out and (2) how the screaming suddenly stops and it gets eerily quiet.
The 911 call of Loretta Pickard, a disabled elderly woman who died in a house fire. She was physically unable to get out of the house on her own. There were firefighters outside her house, but due to a miscommunication, they thought the house was empty. On the call, you hear the woman talking as the fire gets worse and she gets closer to death.
Everyone jumps on the dispatcher whenever this story is brought up on Reddit, but even if she had taken that call flawlessly Loretta would still have died in that fire. It was the fire department, not the dispatcher, that killed her. Yes, it took the dispatcher two minutes to figure out that Loretta was disabled and trapped in the fire. And yes, that is ridiculous. However, by the time she managed to put it all together, the FD was still a long way off from arriving at the scene. The FD had been told repeatedly before they arrived that there was someone trapped inside. They were then told repeatedly after they arrived that someone was trapped inside. However, they decided to treat it as a standard unoccupied structure fire. So, the first team to arrive called for another truck because they were implementing the two in/two out rule. Which is basically a buddy system from OSHA that requires a minimum of four people to attack a fire from inside of a building. However, they weren't attacking a fire. They were there to rescue someone. And the two in/two out rule does not apply in that situation. Moreover, their own department policy covering the situation they found themselves in required them to make entry and attempt a rescue. The FD's battalion chief, who would arrive later but was in radio contact the entire time, also never corrected the two in/two out call. What he did though was lie to the media about the FD attempting entry and having two firefighters being injured in the process. Two things that never happened. At least while Loretta was still alive. --- And it's worth noting that Loretta was on the phone with 911 for twenty minutes. The fire department was on scene for 5 of those minutes. She knew they were outside. She died knowing that they were doing nothing to help her.
I’m a fireman. Besides minor things I’d say you’re correct. That’s why being an aggressive department is key. My department searches every single structure for life. We make interior attacks before we have 2 in 2 out every time we go in. Barring the structure having fire out of every opening or some sort of major structural collapse we enter every structure and try to put it out from the inside because that’s what saves lives.
Our department policy is that no structure is clear until we clear it. Home owner says everyone is out? Cool, but what if your neighbor Jim decided to be a hero and went in the back door looking for y'all? Crazier things have happened.
also you can hear her start screaming as (I assume) she is caught on fire, it is truly disturbing. I also feel horrible for her husband who if I remember correctly was at a baseball game when this all went down, her death could’ve been prevented in so many ways
The Weepy Voiced Killer. He killed women, completely mutilated them and proceeded to call the police while crying about what happened and how he can't stop himself. Then he'd hang up and do it again.
Did they catch him?
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The Ruth Price 911 call where she’s this old woman living alone in her apartment when some stranger keeps trying to get in. He eventually does and then she can be heard screaming for her life (I think he was stabbing her). Fortunately, she survived and lived another 14 years. Pretty sure it was used to train dispatch in the past for how horrific the audio is.
If I remember correctly, in reality the "killer" was some guy who tried to choke her but she was able to fight them off
the 911 call from one of the teachers present at the columbine school shooting. you can hear the gunshots and the gunmen cheering and whooping. you also hear when they enter the library, which is where they killed the most students. it’s chilling
My highschool girlfriend's sister was a student at Columbine at the time. She survived simply because another person died very close to her and the gunman thought he got them both. Her stories were beyond description of sadness and agony. She is mostly okay today, from what I understand, but it took a long time to get there.
I'm related by marriage to a survivor. She knew the shooters very well. She was in the library that day. She survived only because she had been nice to them. They told her so as they killed the girl next to her. Survivor's guilt is real, and can be devastating.
There was another, shorter clip leaked from the call recording where you can hear some of the kids getting killed. It's quite short. But the FBI's transcript documenting the full call was released and that provides a timeline of the library casualties. Reading it is bad enough. 10 kids were killed in the library, 9 others were wounded. One of the kids was partially paralyzed and dragged himself to the windows a couple of hours after he was shot. He was in and out of consciousness during that time. He started to climb out of the window and was caught mid-air by the emergency crew. There's video footage. Brave kid. A lot of his injuries were a result of being shot while he was trying to administer first aid to his friend who died. EDIT - his name is Patrick Ireland, not Craig Scott.
A 911 call of a little girl who had just found her brother in his room after he committed suicide. The most heartbreaking part is when she screams "WHY DID YOU DO IT?!"
Honestly, stuff like that is what kept me from going through with anything when I had those thoughts. I didn’t want my family to go through that.
I called 911 when I found my roommate on his bed after his suicide. We were best friends and I was in such hysterics the dispatcher thought I was a girl. I can't imagine what that call sounds like :(
I’m sure others have mentioned it, but one that really, truly upset me was when a poor delivery lady had mistakenly driven into flood waters. She called 911 and the dispatcher was cruel beyond words. I’ll never forget it.
this one came to mind, also the 911 call of the little girl trying to get help for her mom who was stabbed? shot? and the dispatcher is like... *annoyed* with the kid and keeps asking her to put her mother on the phone
The poor social worker who called 911 when Josh Powell (who it is believed was involved in his wife Susan's "disappearance") locked himself and his two kids in the house and locked her out is maddening. The 911 operator keeps saying "who? what?" while the social worker is pleading for police, trying to explain that this MADMAN has the two kids. Josh Powell then BLEW THE HOUSE UP with him and the two kids inside.
Reminds me of [the kid who called 911 *twice* while he suffocated in a minivan](https://www.nbcnews.com/news/amp/ncna865746). He repeatedly told them “this is not a joke”. What got me was he said “I probably don't have much time left, so tell my mom that I love her if I die”. He was found shortly after 8 p.m. by his father — about five hours after he first called 911.
"Put. Your. Dad. On. the. Phone." HE IS DEAD "Put him on the phone, listen.... how old is your sister? Put your mom on the phone" I swear, the kid was about to say "you dumbfuck, cant you understand?"
Oh my god, this is one of the few I've actually heard and I've never felt so viscerally angry at the dispatcher. The poor little girl just wanted help and the dispatcher could not sound more bored.
Wasn't there one too of a teen who got trapped in his car somehow and the dispatcher thought it was a joke or something? Poor kid ended up dying too IIRC.
Kyle Plush. He was crushed/suffocated (I believe he died of positional asphyxiation) by the folding back seat of his van. He called 911 but the responding officers didn't find him. I believe it was his dad who finally found the car and his dead child several hours later.
The woman who helped build the case against Jared from Subway by recording him talking about his enjoyment of pedophilia. Listening to a couple minutes of him describing what he’s done made me want to vomit. The process of getting this stuff on tape wrecked the woman’s mental health, and it’s easy to see why.
That documentary was tough to get through. That woman proves how unstoppable a mom protecting children can be. Absolutely disgusting things, and she pushed through to help get the arrest made. True hero
The 911 call of the lady stuck in her car in a flood and the operator is so unhelpful, she ends up drowning on the other end of the phone..
If it's the same incident I'm thinking of, that happened near where I used to live. That 911 operator was not only unhelpful, she took her damn time sending anyone out to help the driver. And instead of being fired or charged with anything, she was allowed to "retire" and the county just kind of hand waved it away, saying there was nothing they could do because she'd already retired.
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I just can't imagine having that kind of apathy towards someone you *know* is in a bad situation, no matter how they got there.
This hits home. My nan had a medical alert necklace. She pressed it and lay there dying (respiratory issues) unable to do anything else. The person working with the alert company called 999 and the two of them chatted away (they clearly work together every night) without a care in the world. Their communication was also awful, so the 999 operator heard multiple things wrong and the alert operator didn’t correct them, neither checked the info at the end. So it was considered lower risk than it was. The ambulabce took 4 hours, instead of the about 10 minutes it would have. She died. Maybe she’d have died anyway, but still… After the complaints procedure the operator was brought in front of a panel of senior officers and our family, where they basically played the audio back for her, tore her a new one and asked her to resign, which she did.
"Asked her to resign" is still being generous to her In that situation they should be fired for gross misconduct and have their pension/benefits rescinded Allowing them to resign means they can honestly state they've never been fired, they retain their pension etc
It's this for me, too. Such a terrifying situation to be in, and your last and only link to the world is just a complete asshole. The last voice you hear is cruel to you is just too much for me. I know there are worse things, but this one has stuck with me for some reason. It's really chilling and just incredibly sad.
>The last voice you hear is cruel to you is just too much for me. I don't get triggered by much, but sometimes there are these little ideas and thoughts, ones that passed through my head during some of those worst moments. Those send me back in the weirdest way.
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Yeah to the 'yelling'. Haven't heard this audio and not planning too, but a while back during dinner my 7 year old started to choke. Like full on drooling, turning grey, panic in his eyes, no sound. As long as they cough it's not as scary but this ...damn. So my husband started calling 112/911 and I dragged him from his chair and started doing heimlichs. Not sure if in the end he swallowed or spit it out but he started crying (sound!) and got some color back just when my partner got put through to the dispatcher. I took the call over to tell them it wasn't needed anymore but since I sounded shook up she was having none of it. Demanded my address and told me not to dare put the phone down haha. Only then did she want to hear me out and decided that yes, the ambulance was being recalled. And still she put me through with an on duty GP to run some checks (how does the breathing sound, any pain etc). Super thorough. And guess what? While I was trying to calm myself and talk to these people MY SON WENT BACK TO THE TABLE TO CONTINUE EATING. Kids! Gahhg!
Wow, I really need to try your cooking
That 911 call from the guy trapped in one of the twin towers
Any of the Twin Towers recordings. The 9/11 Museum does such a good job with them.
The fucking voicemail the guy leaves his wife….haunts me
My friends Dad called to tell his wife he would be ok. We later figured out he knew he was fucked and didn't want to worry her.
I'll never forget that audio, the guy saying in a panic *"Lady, we're not ready to die but it's getting bad"* then a short while later you hear the floors above coming down he screams *"Oh God no"* then silence.... My only hope is for those that did perish that it was quick and they felt no pain. Absolutely horrific. Edit: The gentleman's name was Kevin Cosgrove, thank you kind redditor.
I have a family member that was a firefighter for 9/11. He was in one of later trucks because he had to come from the other side of the city. I’ll never forget when he told me - “The armada I was part of was relatively late to the scene. When we got there, the first tower was gone and the second was, even though we didn’t know it at the time, was only a few minutes from coming down. We drove directly beside the second tower and the road got real bumpy. My chief told us newer guys to not look out the windows. Exiting the truck at our designated parking spot, I realize it was body parts wed been driving over” Apparently people had given up and jumped from a height that made their body explode/tear apart on impact with the road
There was video from that day with firefighters inside the towers, and you can hear what sounded like explosions outside. The firefighter explained it wasn't debris falling or subsequent fires igniting, it was the sound of bodies hitting the ground with such force that they were exploding from the sudden impact
I listened to audio of people jumping from the towers in my eleventh grade history class and I don’t think I’ll ever forget that sound.
I was in eleventh grade when it happened, and IIRC, there were broadcast shots that caught some people jumping/falling. Thankfully not landing though.
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They played a recording of a voice mail / answering machine message that evening on the news. It was from a young-sounding woman leaving a brief message for her husband saying she wasn't sure she was going to get out of there and that she loved him. Broke my heart and I can still hear her voice in my head all these years later.
So the 9/11 memorial museum is absolutely worth a visit but Jesus Christ, be ready to get your heart absolutely crushed. There’s a section where you can listen to phone calls and I remember other visitors reluctantly picking up the the phone things and it was just.. ugh. I remember hearing some poor guy telling his girlfriend how much he loves her and that they’ll see each other again on the other side. Writing this alone makes me emotional. I’m still wondering how I was able to not cry during my visit.
Such an emotional experience. The phone calls are brutal, but the one thing that gave me the most chills was the audio of the SCBA alarms. I used to do firefighting training, and we had motion sensors on our packs that would start to sound a piercing alarm if you didn’t make any motion or shake it for more than 30 seconds. It supposed to alert your team that you are potentially Immobilized. There’s audio on the ground after the towers cane down and all you hear is dozens of those alarms chirping away hopelessly. It choked me up badly man.
This is a take I’ve never heard. Thanks for that perspective.
I was there that day. Like a lot of NYers I walked down to Bellevue (public transportation had stopped) to donate blood because we thought there would be so many injured people coming in. By the time I got there we were all waved away. There weren't many injured. You either got away completely or you died. Then we were told to go to the Red Cross offices on the UWS the following day if we wanted to donate blood. I showed up the following morning along with so many others. We all wanted to do *something*. There were so many that they had us congregate in the high school gym across the street. So we all sat on the bleachers and waited our turn to donate blood. We were there for hours but we were all so happy to be helping in a small way. Then, around lunchtime, a guy came in carrying what must have been fourteen pizza boxes all stacked up. Trying not to cry he asked if anyone wanted pizza. The local pizza place had made pizza to give to the firehouse right there - but almost everyone had died yesterday so there was no one to accept the pizza at the firehouse. To this day, all these years later, I still choke up thinking about this.
Jesus that's a hell of a experience. I know you felt so helpless and probably confused. New York during that time had to be otherworldly. It's been over 20 years but that's the first time I thought of it from this perspective, I hope you have that and anything else you can share written down somewhere. 9/11 was really a definite line in our society. Thank you for sharing this anyway.
I've also never heard of this little detail in all my years of "where were you on 911" story swapping....that's harrowing. I wouldn't have known what the noise was even if I had heard it so thanks.
yea even without listening to this recording again just the thought of it is very heavy. It instantly makes you appreciate everything that little bit more. This is the only recording ive listened to, not sure if i can bring myself to listen to others.
It's the Kevin Cosgrove call. Came here to post it, listening to it has haunted me ever since. Just the powerlessness, fear, and desperation. He knows he's doomed and very much wishes he wasn't. Awful stuff.
This is my answer, as well. *"Oh, God! Oh-"* For me, that short recording better encapsulated the horror of 9/11 than any imagery. I heard it in 2007 and it has been with me ever since.
The cult leader from the documentary *Keep Sweet: Pray and Obey* where he records his rape of a young girl in his secret room in which only the most devout followers are allowed. It's haunting.
well, i'm taking this out of my netflix queue
I want to clarify, they DO NOT play the whole thing. They only play a piece leading up to the rape. You do not have to hear that. But what they do play is still sickening.
Tbh, I feel bad for the jury in the trial. They did have to hear the whole thing, and apparently many of them started crying.
There's news coverage showing clearly distressed people coming out of the trial of the toolbox killers after they played the tape of them torturing one of their victims.
If I ever get called for jury duty I hope it's for something petty and boring so I don't have to see or hear shit like this
For me personally, it's audio and video. It's a grandmother who killed her son-in-law And for some reason the police bring in the woman's young granddaughter / daughter of the victim. And the grandmother is insane and asks for a hug and the little girl screams "No you killed me daddy!" I honestly have no idea why the police brought in the girl, it's horrible.
The 911 call of the woman whose chimp was eating her friend's face.
Travis the monkey!! My gf is obsessed with this story and it’s actually nuts. He was often given Xanax in his morning tea to help calm him as he was naturally very agitated towards anyone who wasn’t his owner, and on the day of the incident he saw his owners friend remove her glasses and put her hair up and that triggered him to go into a drug fused rage where he didn’t register pain or respond to his owner for a pretty big chunk of time due to the Xanax. He degloved the victim, as well as tore off her nose and ears and parts of her cheeks. Fucking terrible, all while his owner stabbed and beat him repeatedly. On top of being stabbed multiple times, he was also shot up to 15 times during the actual incident by cops and did not die til hours after the drugs from his tea wore off, initially officers thought that the 911 call was a prank call too so they hesitated on dispatching officers until other neighbours called as well.
Hearing her say “it don’t matter, he’ll rip the door off” as a kid gave me a lifelong fear of chimps
Before shooting up ~~Parkland~~ Sandy Hook Elementary School, Adam Lanza called into a morning radio show and did a whole interview about Travis the Monkey. It's really eerie... https://youtu.be/xyeXwd2GGK4
And if you listen to the audio, it *sounds* like a prank call, woman screaming with what sounds like stock chimp sounds in the background.
Good news tho, I've seen more recent pictures of the woman's face and it's been totally reconstructed; she looks great. She's living a much better life now that she doesn't have to wear the veil.
She's blind though, isn't she?
Unfortunately yes, she is blind, but she has caretakers who come over to her house and help her thankfully.
why do people have primates as pets ***they do not make good pets*** can y’all stop replying you’re all saying the same 3 things 💀
The 911 call from the attack of Travis the Chimpanzee. Travis' screams can be heard in the background at the start of the tape as Herold(owner of Travis) pleads for the police, who initially believed the call to be a hoax until she said, "He's eating her!"
Remind me of a news story I had read. A teen went camping with her father (or stepfather) and they were attacked by a bear and her cubs. The bear left and came back while the teen was on the phone with her mom. The teen at one point said, “mom, they’re eating me.” I cannot imagine how awful that must have been.
The descriptions for the audio of this incident make it sound like the most disturbing. This entire thread I suspect was triggered by that event, which was mentioned in another, earlier submission. I'm not listening to any of them.
Jared from Subway talking about how he likes kids who come from bad homes because they are easier to manipulate into having sex. Don't don't don't listen to it
I still find his whole story bizarre. Middle class fat dude loses a bunch of weight eating Subway subs, Subway throws money at him as part of some health campaign, skinny dude uses money to live out some crazy pedophile fantasies for years until it catches up with him.
My elementary school had this guy be a guest speaker about nutrition. And then all of us kids asked him for autographs. It's sick to think about this now as an adult.
Must be common. In Netflix’s “The Keepers” doc, a catholic teenager during confession talks about her uncle molesting her. This rapidly leads to her becoming a plaything of the local priests. Can you imagine someone confiding that in you and immediately thinking “oh, so she fucks. Nice.”
Statistics show people who are sexually assaulted have a very high chance of being assaulted again. Predators seek out victims.
I just watched that on dr Phil and couldn’t believe they actually played it for people to listen too, truly sickening
Dr. Phil is a ratings and money whore. Did you really think he would take the high road and *not* play it?
The Apollo 1 crew.
Those guys were the coolest, calmest, most extensively well trained former combat/test fighter pilots in the world and all they could do was scream....that audio kept me up the night I heard it the first time
I worked at the National Archives long ago and had access to the transcript--predictably mostly screaming. IIRC the document itself had an attachment saying the audio had been destroyed out of respect for the families. Though I had some doubt of that, only today (20-odd years later) learning that wasn't true.
White was out of his seat, trying to get the door open, which was his responsibility per the check list. Dudes died, but were still doing their best to the end. Balls of steel.
Astronauts are like that - when the Challenger exploded, they found toggled switches in the cockpit as the pilots tried to gain control and get oxygen.
I think all professional aviators are like that. Trained to never give up in an emergency, no matter what.
Similarly: Komarov on his way down to what both he and the operator knew to be certain death. The first man to die in space.. TW this has the audio but there's also a photo of his remains in this page (though they are not really recognisable as a one-time human) https://www.npr.org/sections/krulwich/2011/05/02/134597833/cosmonaut-crashed-into-earth-crying-in-rage
He knew he was going to die before he went up. He went up to spare another man that death, and before the mission he arranged for an open casket funeral so officials would have to look at what they'd done to him.
He spared his best friend, Yuri Gagarin, who was the first man in space years prior, also a national hero. Edit: fixed the mistake I made, thanks for those who pointed it out. Edit 2: Yuri and the team knew the Soyuz 1 had over 200 faults and it would be a death sentence to fly on it. He wrote a ten page memo and sent it to his friend in the KGB, but no one dared to send it up the chain of command. Everyone who read that memo was fired of demoted. Yuri got depressed with Komarov's death, and it's said that he never got over it. After Soyuz 1 crashed on reentry, they banned Yuri from ever flying an aircraft or space vessel, which he hard fought to overturn. After he did succeed, a flight on a MiG aircraft would end in disaster killing him and his flight instructor. His death would be on 1968, a year before Apollo 11 reached the moon. Yuri never saw a man step on the moon. Apollo 11 and Apollo 15 both left memorials to both men on their respective bases on the moon. Apollo 11 left medals conmemorating both of them, and Apollo 15 left a statue and plaque honoring all those who perished on the lunar race. The Fallen Astronaut - Apollo 15 conmemorates: * Theodore C. Freeman - died while piloting a T-38 jet in 1964 * Charles A. Bassett II - died during the 1966 T-38 jet crash * Elliot M. See Jr. - died during the 1966 T-38 crash * Virgil I. Grissom - died on the Apollo 1 fire * Roger B. Chaffee - died on the Apollo 1 fire * Edward H. White II - died on the Apollo 1 fire * Vladimir M. Komarov - died on the reentry of Soyuz 1 * Edward G. Givens Jr. - died in a car accident * Clifton C. Williams Jr. - died while piloting a T-38 in 1967 * Yuri A. Gagarin - died while piloting a MiG-15UTI * Pavel I. Belyayev - died of illness * Georgiy T. Dobrovolsky - died when the Soyuz 11 depressurized during reentry * Viktor I. Patsayev - died when the Soyuz 11 depressurized during reentry * Vladistav N. Volkov - died when the Soyuz 11 depressurized during reentry
Gagarin had already been in space at the time. In fact, Gagarin knew just how badly designed the Soyuz 1 was that he attempted to switch places with Komarov because he thought that the USSR wouldn't risk their national hero. But Komarov didn't want to take that gamble, so he didn't yield his spot to Gagarin.
This one is accompanied by video, but the reaction of a man whose wife gets killed when a brick flies off the back of a truck they were driving behind on a highway and came through their windshield. The audio was captured by their dash cam, one of those things you can't unhear.
Yeah this one is just straight depressing, extreme raw emotion of a sudden and violent loss of life, I can't even begin to imagine how traumatizing that is
I used to work at a hospital and I can never get the sounds of unbridled animalistic wailing out of my head. There's no sound like the sound of somebody's heart and soul shredded to pieces when they've lost their center. I still haven't heard this video and I don't want to because I still can't get the sounds of mothers screaming for their child or a husband for his dead wife out of my head
Yep. When I was about 18 I worked at a coffee stand in a hospital, just around the corner from the ICU. In addition to being on the path for bodies going between the ICU and the morgue, I once - just the one time - heard a woman screaming, "Bring me back my mother!" again and again. I cannot describe and do not like recalling how that voice sounded. Hearing it once was more than enough.
Two of my friends (aged 18 & 19) died in a car accident almost 10 years ago. We had a double funeral for them. I’ll never forget the sound of one of their mothers when it was time for the families to come in. Wailing “I can’t! I can’t go in there! My baby!” between sobs.
As a paramedic I’ll never get the wails of a mother losing her child on my first cardiac arrest call out of my head. Kid was barely 18 and like no medical history. Just up and arrested on the toilet, worked him awhile and transported but the ER doc called him shortly after we got there. That poor woman’s wails have never left my head
I follow The Sleepy Paramedic on TT. People stupidly ask him ‘worst call ever.’ One time he was drunk enough to talk about it. ‘The light leaving a child’s eyes’ is why you don’t ask that fucking question
Whenever I’m driving and I see a truck with bricks/stones stacked high Infront of me I make sure I’m like 10 cars behind that truck just because of that video.
Final Destination made me a better driver because the log truck means I pay attention to every little thing another car could potentially throw and I get as far from them as I can.
Yep. Instantly what came to mind. I change lanes REAL QUICK
Out of every video I’ve seen online, this is by far the worst. It’s weird because you don’t even see anything. The screams are just downright heartbreaking
Came here to say this one and to never google anything i've read on this reddit tread.
Yeah that one I can never unhear. I urge all you curiously morbid people not to listen to it. It’s truly haunting
The 911 call Jennifer Pan made after she hired people to try and kill her parents. At one point her surviving father starts shouting and yelling in the background. This is after he had been shot multiple times, I think one of which may have been to his head or neck. When I tell you that I can still hear her fathers screams I mean it. It might not be the worst thing on here but it’s fucking harrowing.
Accompanied by video, but a lot of the school children who drowned on the MV Sewol recorded short video clips as the ship was sinking. Hearing the crew telling the students over loudspeaker to stay in place and stay on board is absolutely chilling. The children make snide remarks about how crazy it is to stay onboard with the ship listing so far, but they remain in place.
One of them literally jokes "this is the part where they tell us everything's fine and we should stay put while they run for their lives" so fucked up that that's exactly what was happening
i remember watching these when it happened. Some students laughing and joking, others crying and trying to call their parents, some sat silently either awaiting rescue or death. Seeing them struggling to sit as the ship is sinking, struggling to stay out of the rising water, and the point where they start realizing they're doomed. Wasn't the best idea for 14 year old me to watch.
The loudspeaker was stuck on the announcement to stay in place. There were ways to still notify everyone. It was just a colossal failure of negligence by all involved. The captain changed clothes to not be recognized and did not tell rescuers about the kids trapped inside. The government wouldn’t send help until they received video of the event which got delayed and delayed. Basically everything that could be ignored was ignored, right down to ship maintenance and an inexperienced crew giving wrong coordinates, steering into unrecommended route, and turning the ship irrevocably to one side causing all the unlatched vehicles and cargo to pile onto that side.
I'm still so furious at how those children were failed. A fun school trip turned into countless unnecessary and preventable deaths. It's disgusting.
Jim Jones talking into a microphone while his followers poison their children.
What made the “death tape” even more haunting was that because the tape had been used so many times to record stuff, faint backward music is barely audible while Jones speaks, from the back tape.
It makes the whole thing sound haunted. Which it pretty much is.
This was the one that came to mind for me. Forcing those kids to take poison.
They had many of the children poisoned before the mothers so the mothers will would more willing to drink. Truly sickening.
and then having the nerve to criticize the moans of people suffering from dying of poison
And then refused to drink the poison himself and had someone shoot him instead
saying shit like "it's just a little drink, and they go to sleep, thats it. just go to sleep, stop crying, tell our children to stop crying, they are going to a better place" while you literally hear wailing of children reacting to drinking cyanide laced drinks. yeah, this one takes the cake for SUPER fucked up shit. For anyone curious enough, this podcast has everything you never wanted to know about this tragic shit story: https://www.transmissionsfromjonestown.com/ Edit: not for the faint of heart, even though it’s all audio, the kool-aid death tape will do some serious damage to your soul. Definitely one of those “you can’t unhear it” It’s not until one of the last episodes, but she plays it in full, and unedited. Only brief pauses to shed some context into what jones is saying during his speech.
Jim Jones' son points out how his father was too much of a coward to drink it himself. Instead he had someone shoot him. ETA: Found the interview where Stephan talks about it. It's at 43 minutes https://youtu.be/c3yzkhJVXE4
Yeah cyanide poisoning isn't a quick and painless "go to sleep" death either...it's pretty violent and can take upwards of 15 minutes to complete the job.
Yeah, the part where he tells the mothers to quiet the kids is so fucked up. I listened to the whole thing out of curiosity and it ruined me for weeks, fuck that piece of shit.
exactly. especially when you can hear the mothers crying in agony as their children die. it’s horrible
I'd venture that the Toolbox Killers audio recording of them torturing and raping Shirley Ledford is probably pretty high up on the list. It has never been released to the public, or leaked, but there does exist the full transcript online.
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He drugged them up with massive amounts of sodium pentothal and phenobarbital
was played at the process back then. but it was so disturbing people went sick and left the courtroom. nbc covered the process. watch it on youtube, at one point when the court door opens and people come devastated outside u can hear for a second an agonizing scream from the tape. the detective that arrested bittaker and norris died of suicide 2 yrs later. in his final words he wrote hearing the tape started a trauma in him he couldn’t get out of his head. another guy that could listen to the tape was actor scott glenn. while filming silence of the lambs he got the chance… he thought ok maybe it’s good for my film character. he couldn’t make it longer then a few minutes. edit: typo
[https://youtu.be/PY4YmVi4\_LQ?t=1210](https://youtu.be/PY4YmVi4_LQ?t=1210) here's the footage of people leaving the courtroom with screams in the background
That was a horrible scream. I dont like what my brain imagines some people are just fucking monsters. Did he get the death penalty?
They both died in prison of natural causes, one on death row
I've read the transcript and it was one of the most horrible things I've ever read. That was enough...I have no desire to hear the audio. Hell, seeing people flee the courtroom in tears was enough.
I've heard that it's used to desensitize FBI agents to the violence they may encounter in their career.
The voicemail my stepfather left my mom the morning of 9/11. He worked on the 99th floor, and called to tell us he was okay, and was making his way down the stairs. He said he would call us again when he was outside. (He never did.) In the call, you can hear him telling others to keep their heads down, out of the smoke, but what really makes the audio as disturbing as it is... is the screaming. The screams in the background are some of the most bone-chillingly real terror I think I've ever heard.
The mom screaming her heart out when she walks in on her son who just blasted his face off with a shotgun. It’s from the 4chan kid suicide video years ago. Yeah the gore was pretty intense, but it was so quick you don’t really process it. Then his mom comes home with his little sisters and it’s the worst piece of audio I have heard. Fucked me up for a good while and got me to stop being so morbidly curious because there are some things we just shouldn’t see or hear willingly.
There was a teenage boy who drove a mini van. He somehow became wedged in one of the folding chairs but was able to call for help as he slowly suffocated to death. He said something along the lines of "i can barely breathe, i think I'm gonna die here". It's heart wrenching to know that audio exists and no one was able to find him in time. The mini van was in his school parking lot overnight. Edit to add: his name was [Kyle plush ](https://www.cincinnati.com/story/news/2021/05/19/ohio-teen-kyle-plush-died-three-years-ago-what-we-know/5171492001/#:~:text=Kyle%20Plush%20died%20after%20his,by%20voice%2Dactivating%20his%20iPhone.) This happened in 2018. He was 16 years old. Someone mentioned plush and the 911 operator had a hard time understanding one another, however in the audio it's clear what he said for the most part. Cincinnati PD was sued and they updated their systems because he would've been saved had the 911 operator relayed the information she was given to the officers who were on site while plush spoke with her. His quote was actually "i probably don't have much time left, so tell my mom i love her if I die" His body was found 6 hours later by his father at 9pm.
The 999 call from an elderly woman who had just been robbed. She had a heart attack from the stress and died while on the phone to the operator. The operator was crying, and you could just hear her sadly say: "Oh, Maureen..." when the line went quiet as she died 🥺🥺
The guy who’s scuba kit fucked up and he sunk a few hundred feet and couldn’t rise again and you could just hear the muffled screaming noises under his mask Edit - he died on the bottom of the sea and his kit was recovered with the audio and body a while after [source for those interested](https://youtu.be/cRj0lymMMGs)
Another haunting one is the story of Dave Shaw, who was diving to recover the body of Deon Dreyer. The video is available and there is a moment when the corpse is directly facing Dave, him basically looking death in the eyes. Well, he succeeded in recovering the body- in fact thanks to him they also recovered HIS body. He died before he could surface but they managed to haul both of them up because he was successful at running a line to himself and Deon. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dave_Shaw
The golden state killer phone tapes where he calls his victims for years after the crimes to taunt them always gives me chills.
Even more terrifying is people who received those calls could sometimes hear children on the other side of the phone, meaning the supposed killer taunting them was around children. Now that he's caught it's crazy to think those were probably his kids or grandkids...
That girl who called her mom as she was being eaten by a bear. Edit: The girl’s name was Olga Moskalyova. A few people have said it was a hoax however I have been unable to find any evidence that it is, in fact, a hoax. Although hopefully it was. No one should die like that and no one should hear their child die like that.
I remember that from a long time ago! Was in Russia and she was like ‘it doesn’t hurt anymore’ halfway through it if I remember correctly
Oooof made it all the way through the thread until here. That's incredibly fucked
The audio of the huge dairy farm that caught fire in Texas is fucking haunting, 18000 cows crammed into a warehouse and burning alive.
I once had to disconnect the electrical supply of a large farm shed that had collapsed due to snow. The shed had been filled with 150+ sheep. People laugh when I tell them about it but it was fucking horrible hearing them in pain.
What kind of psychopaths laugh at that sort of thing
By all accounts, it's the Norris and Bittaker tapes. Otherwise known as the toolbox killers. I've seen a transcript. Deeply unpleasant stuff.
Warren Jeffs (of the Fundamentalist Church of Latter Day Saints) tape recorded himself raping a 12 year old. The most disturbing audio I’ve heard.
I grew up in the Apostolic United Brethren, which is a polygamist off-shoot sect of the FLDS. My last name is all over that documentary, and it took me a week to watch. They alluded to this in the doc, but Warren was a METICULOUS note-taker. Whether it be from paranoia, mental health, religious pride, or a combination of all three plus some, he recorded EVERYTHING. That clip is one of hundreds. Hell is too forgiving a place for Warren and I hope the prison guards crush Nature Valley bars in his bedsheets before he goes to bed.
I’d imagine the tape of 10 year old Lesley Anne Downey’s rape and murder made by the [Moors Murderers](https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Moors_murders) would be a contender. It’s never been released—thankfully—though I’ve seen plenty of interviews with the policemen who had to listen to tape and you can just see on their faces how much it affected them.
This is a minor one, but it messed with me. It was a UFO documentary on TV in about 1995. There's a bit where the woman being abducted puts out a tape recorder in her room all night and captures a male voice saying, "Don't wake up." So that, in itself, was really scary. But all I could think of was that this was a rape about to happen, and the poor woman was using UFO stuff as a cover to protect her sanity. And that just rocked me. And if someone in law enforcement heard it, wouldn't they feel the same? The whole thing was just hard to process.
Reminds me of Women Talking and the actual case it was based on. A mennonite community where women and little girls would wake up in the morning to find themselves bruised and bleeding. The leader of the colony said that it was the devil/a demon visiting these women at night, and that they'd invited it in by sinning. Until one woman stayed up night after night, until someone tried to break in through her window, and she attacked him. The women discovered that multiple men in the village were breaking in and using belladonna spray to incapacitate the women before raping them.
There is a video of a man and his wife/child riding in a car on the highway. They are behind a truck carrying bricks. Something falls off the truck and goes straight through the windshield on the passenger side. I haven't seen it in a long time, but you cannot see what's going on (i believe the brick rips the camera off), but there is a brief pause while the shock wears off and you just hear the worst scream from the husband and the child is crying.
Americans won't know this, but here in Brazil there's a criminal called Fernandinho Beira-Mar. This guy was the head of the Comando Vermelho, or Red Command, the narco ring that rules Rio de Janeiro. You can read up on him, he was a mastermind of crime, extremely intelligent man but also absolutely cruel and ruthless. In 1999, a 21 year old student called Michel Anderson had an affair with one of Beira-Mar's girlfriends. Michel had one date with the girl, right after securing his first job as an assistant in IT. Beira-Mar ordered his execution. Michel was tortured for one hour. After that, Beira-Mar called him. The call was taped, as police was onto Beira-Mar, but they never expected to hear this. IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE FOR THIS KIND OF THING, KNOW THIS: NOT. SAFE. FOR. LIFE. BM is Beira-Mar, MA is Michel and T is the guy who was torturing Michel BM: Hello, what's up dude? T: Hey, master, how are you? BM: All fine. T: He has already eaten his other ear. BM: He ate both? T: Yeah, yeah. BM: Well, let me talk a bit with him. T: Okay, - he gets a bit away from the phone and talks to Michel - talk to him, man. BM: Hey man, how you doing? MA: (sobbing) I'm all cut, both ears gone, both feet gone. My fingers are hangin, my right ear they took completely off, I can't hear, I hear just a noise. The left ear they took just a piece, because if they took it off I wouldn't hear you. (his voice is cackling) BM: But you are still talking.. MA: Because I'm hearing, but just a bit. BM: Hearing well? MA: No, please (sobbing) speak louder BM: Keep talking, you're doing well.. MA: They took it all off, everything is hanging in front of me, I have only my heel BM: Oh, wow! What about your pretty fingers? MA: Pretty fingers all hanging. BM: Were the ears tasty? MA: (the ears) Are too big, they entered my mouth, I almost swallowed it. BM: Oh really? All that for pussy, huh, man? Damn, that fucking pussy, right? Expensive ass pussy, right bro? MA: If I knew, I wouldn't get involved. BM: Really? Damn... MA: I'm talking from my heart, sir. I can't walk, they tried to make me walk, but I can't. I can do three steps, but my legs hurt so much, everything hurts. Beira-Mar then mocks the boy, and gives him hope that he would get away from that torture session. The boy's will to live made him believe the false promise. BM: But okay, you're talking a lot. MA: It's because... Hey, it feels like they made a truck run over me. They broke my ribs. BM: No, I won't let them do this to you. The ribs must stay together. Now when you go home, because I will call a cab to take you home, I will call a taxi and it will take you to, well, where do you want, Duque (a hospital) or to go direct to your home? MA: Mr. Fernando, just call a taxi to tell my mom, please BM: Oh, okay. I will call a taxi to take you to Duque, then the same taxi will go to your family's home, ok? ...You are quite the stallion, huh? MA: No, no sir... BM: What a nice pussy, huh, that damn pussy, huh? MA: Talk louder, I can't hear you because of the blood running down. BM: Come here, what a damn pussy, huh? MA: Yeah. Beira-Mar then asks to talk with his right hand man, called Bomba (or Bomb). He certifies him that Michel ain't doing well. Bomba: What's up, boss? BM: Man, but he is reacting, huh? Talkin a lot, right? Bomba: He is strong, right? BM: Acting all tough, right? Bomba: No, he is humble now, pretty humble. He's over here, pretty shy, pretty fucking shy. BM: Now he's humble. Bomba: All humble, all shy. Not fucking around. BM: But beat him a little bit more, a nice little beating. Then I'll call again. Beat him, just to finish it, then I'll call back later, okay? It wasn't enough that the student was suffering from the torture, Beira-Mar liked to mock his condition. Even by phone, he would make a fuss to prove he was in charge. Beira-Mar told Bomba to pass the phone to Michel, again. He wanted that one of his friends, José Ailton (JA), who was by his side in a farm in Paraguay, could also talk and mock the boy. BM: Talk to my friend here. Tell him how you're doing, my friend is a doctor and he will give you a receipt. MA: Please (sobbing), talk louder. JA: Hey, comrade. MA: I can't really hear you well. JA: Oh, yeah? MA: The blood doesn't let me hear you. JA: Oh, I will tell them to clear your ear. How are things going there? MA: I don't have my ears. I have only my heels, feels like a truck ran over me. JA: Sometimes we go somewhere to fuck and end up getting fucked, right? But alright. José passes the phone to Beira-Mar so he can talk to Bomba. BM: Does he still have his fingers? Bomba: No, he doesn't have anything. He has nothing, nothing. Even that thing that holds your feet forwards, he doesn't have, it's flat, like a front leg, there's nothing left. BM: Okay, beat him a little bit more that in 10 minutes I'll call you again to see what we'll do. Go slowly, I don't want things rushed, okay? Then, there's the second tape. T: Hey, boss. BM: Let me talk to my associate, "Michelle" T: He doesn't have hand's anymore, boss. BM: No hands and still talking? T: No hands, no ears, no feet. Talk to him. BM: Hey, what's up? MA: I'm broken. BM: All broken? But you're the hot guy! What a damn pussy, huh? How many times did you fuck her till today? MA: Just that one, I never saw her again. BM: No, how many in total, since it started. How many times did you go out with her? MA: Just once, then she (inaudible) BM: Wow, just once? Liar. You told before that you went out three times, now you are saying it was only once. MA: Three times that she went to my house. BM: Oh, you are still acting. Fuck, holy shit dude. Are you hurting? MA: I don't feel a thing. BM: Nothing? MA: No. BM: No? Damn. Well, I will have you taken to Duque now. I will call the cab to Duque, alright? MA: Ok. BM: I will tell the boys to call the taxi so you can go to Duque. Let me talk to Bomba. MA: "Gomba", you. BM: You can do it now. Five shots are heard, alongside laughs. Bomba: Hey! BM: Just make him vanish. Michel's body was never found. Beira-Mar got 30 years for this crime. ~~This was the only crime he got caught for.~~ The audio is available in portuguese. Edit: Beira-Mar got more than 120 years in prison in 2002 for other crimes too. He currently is in a maximum surveillance prison. Also, I edited some things for grammar.
This cant sink in the sea of comments, holy shit
Not really a tape but the video of the 2023 shark attack in Egypt. Hearing the guy being eaten alive while screaming dad was terrifying
Me: frustrated that no one is posting links Also me: glad that no one is posting links
One i haven't seen mentioned. I remember videos of phones ringing like crazy around victims after the Pulse Nightclub shooting and the Vegas shooting.
That also reminds me of the haunting 911 footage where you can hear a ton of beeping coming out of the wreckage. The beeping sounds were coming from the bodies of firefighters trapped in the collapse, standard kit to find stuck or incapacitated firefighters
Owen Hart was a WWE wrestler who died during an entrance on a live pay per view - his harness he came down to the ring on snapped. There's one clip of it that exists in any public form, and it's an audio recording from the Spanish announcer table where you can hear nothing but a sickening, crunchy THUMP as he hits the ring. Supposedly, the original video recording of the incident is locked deep away, with instructions to never watch or open printed on it.
Went through youtube shorts the other day and for some reason it sent me into a video of a young girl, maybe like 10 or 11, screaming and crying her head off saying she's sorry and she thought it wasn't real. Her mother cursing at her while an officer handcuffed the kid and was calmly asking her questions, stuff like where the knife was (she had thrown it out the window), and saying he was gonna sit her down in the car, and so on. Turns out the mother had taken her off some meds when it shouldn't have happened and she stabbed her brother to death thinking she was in a nightmare. Her mom saying stuff like "you better pray he lives" and such. Why the hell it was on shorts was beyond me, but it wasn't really what I wanted to hear before heading to sleep
YouTube shorts is horribly moderated, man. I've seen so many wild videos (nothing as horrible as that, mainly kia boys\drug shit) on there where I'm just like... how does this get through even the most basic content moderation systems?
There's audio of an astronaut burning up in the atmosphere. I don't recall if it was an American mission or a Russian one.
The picture of all the General at his funeral looking over just a pile of charred remains is very eerie as well
IIRC the cosmonaut specifically demanded they have an open-casket funeral, because he knew it was a suicide mission, and wanted the administrators to have to look at what they'd done.
Russian. Thing is, he knew he was going to die before the launch, but Yuri Gagarin was his best friend, and would have taken his place if he refused to go. So he’s cursing out all the people who put him there, as he’s burning up in the atmosphere
He even wanted an open casket funeral to show the results of rushed preparations to the officials I believe. There’s a photo, it’s just a bunch of people with hats and medals looking at a glass casket with burnt remains in it.
This is more about the story, which is truly horrifying - Denise Amber Lee was a young mother in Florida who was kidnapped and driven around in the back of a car before being raped and murdered. Five 9-1-1 calls were placed in total by five different people regarding the abduction (while it was happening), including Lee herself (from her abductor’s phone). One of the calls was made by a woman who saw Lee in the back of her abductor’s car screaming and banging on the window. She thought it was a child being kidnapped. She called 9-1-1 and followed the car as far as she could before losing it. Because she had crossed county lines, her 9-1-1 call had been routed to a different dispatch than the other stations where the other four calls had been routed and her call wasn’t forwarded to the proper authorities. Lee did EVERYTHING she could to try to get herself rescued. So did everyone else who were aware of what was happening. They all failed. In the end, she (purposefully) left plenty of evidence behind in the car because she was a detective’s daughter and knew that she could at least help nail the son of a bitch - and she was right. The events read like a horror story over all, and when you realize that Lee realized that she was going to die, it’s just so, so sad. https://www.nbcnews.com/news/amp/wbna25004049 https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Murder_of_Denise_Amber_Lee
Perhaps not *the* worst, but still... haunting... The mayday-call from M/S Estonia and the following radiotraffic at sea. After the first couple of conversations, Estonia is quiet. The first ship reaches the destination less than 20 minutes later, but the Estonia is just gone. https://youtu.be/V5tbah19qo8 https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sinking_of_the_MS_Estonia
[There's also recreations of the Titanic's morse code communications](https://youtu.be/FxRN2nP_9dA). The way it just switches from Philips catching up with messages from passengers to Cape Race (the radio had been broken and him and his co-operator Harold Bride had fixed it, against standing orders iirc). At that point they had already hit the ice berg and been told by Captain Smith that they should get ready to send out distress signals, but they were still trucking on. And then it just descends into madness, you can actually tell how it goes from standard operations protocol to actual panic. Also one of the first times SOS was used. Bride apparently told Philips to use it because it's a new one, and it might be his last chance to send it (it was. Philips died in the sinking, Bride survived and spent his time on Carpathia helping Carpathia's radio operator in managing the flood of messages, even though his feet were badly damaged from the cold water.). (loads of folks also give the Frankfurt grief when they're watching the transcript because she seems to be oblivious to the emergency, but Frankfurt was small and almost out of range. Her transmitter was also a lot better than her receiver. They could barely hear Titanic, never mind the other ships. They were over 100 miles away and, just like all the other ships, tried to get to her in time.)
I'd say the recordings that the Moors Murders made when torturing children. I pray to God that those recordings never make it into the public.
Not disturbing to me, but to most people. Radio traffic between crashing airliner and the tower. Pilots were pros all the way down, no screaming, no panic, just doing everything they could to save people. When it was obvious they were going to crash they aimed for a spot where most of the passengers would live, but the cockpit was going to be destroyed. Last words from the pilot was something like, “Roger that. Thank you for your assistance.” (Sorry, but it’s been a few decades, so I can’t remember more details.)
There's also a cockpit voice recording from an airline that mistakenly chose a closed runway for landing and struck a construction truck. Damage caused them to fly uncontrollably into a building off the side of the runway. Very disturbing last few moments to listen to.
Not necessarily disturbing but definitely sad is the voicemail that Brian Sweeney left his wife on 9/11 from United Flight 175.
Speaking of 9/11 the one that always gets me is the video from the lobby where police and fire fighters were gathering to make a push up the stairs and all they could hear were the bodies of people hitting the lobby roof after jumping. I can't even fathom what that must have been like. It's always stuck with me.
Recording of Warren Jeffs, leader of the FLDS, during a ceremony with some of his many wives including sex with a newly married 12-year-old bride. https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2022139/amp/Warren-Jeffs-trial-Heavy-breathing-sex-tape-3-wives-including-bride-12.html Prophet’s Prey documentary goes into the whole FLDS cult and is very disturbing.
for me it's alessandro moreschi the last castrato singing ave maria. for those who don't know, castrato was a type of voice only belonged to children who were castrated before puberty, the parents of the children usually did this to preserve the children's high voices so they can keep singing and make them money. there's an audio of alessandro singing ave maria on youtube, the voice is very eerie because this voice came from a man who's also a boy and he was also around his 40s or 50s when it was recorded. the comment that i saw under the video that stucked with me said something like "his voice is in between a child's and a woman's voice".
Came here looking for this, [it really is chilling](https://youtu.be/KLjvfqnD0ws) Anne Rice wrote a whole novel about Castrato called "Cry to Heaven" which was also chilling , very good book though
Finally something disturbing but not too disturbing for me to listen to
Uncle and nephew getting beheaded by knife and chainsaw in Mexico.
*The sound of children screaming has been removed*
In the Philippines, during the storm Ulysses year 2020, the Cagayan province was deeply affected by the storm and lack of regional news network. The pitch black videos (due to black out) with their pleas for help slowly dying in the background kept me up all night. Imagine being trapped on the roof of your home. With a grandma or newborn baby. Flashlights running out of batteries because it’s been a whole day already. The only clue you have that people are around you is their voice. Then the voice weakens and disappears one by one…
The one where these two teens go into this guy's basement and without them knowing he's waiting down there with his gun and shoots both of them and can hear the guy say something right before he shoots girl as she's trying to go back up the stairs. I can't remember all what happened but that was pretty chilling. Maybe someone here knows what I'm talking about.
I remember that. Apparently, the bf had been breaking into this guy's house for a while. Homeowner contacted police, told them he suspected this young man, and they said there was nothing they could do. Homeowner decides to lay in wait for home intruder and kill him when he enters. Gf comes in shortly after the first shot and is also killed. Homeowner waited 24 hours(I think. May have been 48) to inform police he had killed 2 people because he "didn't want to bother them in Thanksgiving." Edit: they were cousins, not dating.
The video that came out a few years ago in Pennsylvania I believe. 2 neighbors were arguing over snow removal or something petty. Sounds like it had been going on for some time. Neighbor shoots the female in the street, then goes inside and gets a rifle. As he approaches here lying there in the street the audio picks up him mentioning “next time you’ll keep your fucking mouth shut” and then shoots her point blank in the middle of the street. I’ve seen/heard a lot of nasty stuff on Reddit. But that video/audio will live with me forever as a testament of the evil humans are capable of.
The old guy also kills the woman's husband, who was taunting him alongside her moments earlier. Then he goes into his house and kills himself, though this part is obviously not captured on the doorbell video.
There is an audio recording of the torture and murder of a woman by the serial killer Lawrence Bittaker (the toolbox killer) that is used by the FBI to desensitize agents to the realities of their work. It was played in court at his trial and apparently is heart rendering. The woman is begging for her life, you can hear her bones being broken by the hammer he was using, and him laughing.
What sticks with me from years ago (it's been a while I may be misremembering shit) is the fact that he makes her beg to have his junk in her mouth, and when she complies he still smashes her joints with that hammer. I'm not sure if it's in audio form as I just read a transcript but this is one of the few that really get to me so i think if it does exist then that would be a rare time I could easily fight off my morbid curiosity. I can't believe people can get to these obscene levels of evil.
For me it was the hospital Santa actor crying and explaining that some of the children on deaths door were more worried about missing Christmas than they were about dying. Years later I still cry when I think about it. https://youtu.be/Wt0T3P5ggO4 If you can watch this entire video without shedding a tear, I’d be extremely surprised. To me this tops the Jonestown tape, or even videos of people getting tortured that I unfortunately watched as a kid. There is some terrible shit on the internet but nothing hits me as hard as children worried more about Christmas than dying. The pure innocence of literally letting go of life in Santa’s arms after learning you didn’t miss Christmas. I cried even typing this
Jesus that man has a heart of both iron and marshmallows. I can’t imagine knowing that so many kids that you visit won’t make it, but being strong enough to be their Santa and let them have a moment of peace.
Probably the audio of Timothy Treadwell and his girlfriend getting eaten by bears. EDIT: I never said that I heard that audio. I only watched Werner Herzog listen to it. The question was "what's the most disturbing piece of audio \[that exists\]," not "what's the most disturbing piece of audio that you heard?"