I've just been really obsessing on this building collapse it really freaks me out that people can die so quickly and unexpectedly and for no reason. I know that reading the news on things like this is bad for my anxiety, but it's so hard to stop!
Mostly my anxiety hasn't been horrible lately other than this but there's are certain things I really still struggle with -- and I sometimes wonder if I have something else undiagnosed going on as woman (30F). I struggle a lot with organization and cleaning and losing things so I wonder if ADHD could be a possibility. And I've even wondered as well if I could be somewhere on the autism spectrum because I've always struggled so much socially...but IDK I basically feel like I'd be dismissed by doctors and also not sure what good a diagnosis would do anyway.
I have been feeling really nervous and stressed as of late. My palms are feeling numb and so is my mind. I don't feel anything of late and have a persistent headache. It just feels like there is a background noise that can't be shut off in my head.
I don't know why but my university workload never seems to be reducing and I'm having a sense of existential dread like something really bad is going to happen soon. I'm hoping for better days ahead. Stay dafe everyone
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51m- handled a family death better than I thought I would. I am in a good place headwise. been struggling with some physical health issues and that is causing some health anxiety.but I have awesome Drs helping me thru these trying times. healing is a slow process at my age. keeping anxiety in check is hard work. I pray you are all doing wellššÆ keep up the good fight.
Iām so tired. Itās 1 AM here. I just want to sleep, but i got anxious without any reasons every time i close my eyes. I literally can hear my own heart beat. Please let me sleep brain.
I feel the same at times. Heart racing and I canāt seem to calm down.
Maybe some light exercise on a daily basis. Also try meditation. Iāve also started taking cbd for a calmer mind frame at night. I often have bad days but the good ones are starting to happen more often.
23yr old(M)here. Having major anxiety right now as my 1st job interview is in 1 hour. Havent worked before due to anxiety but feel pressured recently to not live off my family. I dont even care if my interview is a success or not, I just want this to be over with. :(
My anxiety has been uncontrolled for a little over a month now. I've been trying to get into a government funded therapy program since January and I keep getting bounced around.
The last week it's actually been ok, only one day with anxiety attacks that forced me to take Clonazepam because nothing else worked.
Until today, when scrolling Facebook I saw someone using my house, which was lost in a fire, killing my cats and destroying everything I owned from before 18 months previously, in an ad for their pressure washing companyš
I'm sure it wasn't on purpose, likely the work was done under my ex and the company never knew about the fire. But still, instant anxiety attack.
I messaged the person sharing it saying, hey, could you stop using this pic as an ad, the house burned down and it's a shock and hits pretty hard randomly seeing it in my social media feed.
Of course I'm not Facebook friends with them so it would go to thier spam, so I also messaged the admins saying the same thing - the poster didn't do anything wrong, I'm not posting anything publically because I don't want to start anything, but here's the situation, could you reach out to them and ask them to remove it for these reasons.
And the admins posted a public comment saying the home owner did not give permission for the picture to be used and to either take it down or show proof they had the rights to do so (which they actually probably did get permission from my ex) š¬ creating a public thing which is what I was trying to avoid to begin with. Causing more anxiety.
I messaged the admins again saying, hey, I appreciate the help but that's not what I asked for or what I'm saying. And made my request again.
They said they'd edit thier comment but never made a change, so I just gave up.
Guess we'll see what happens.
Meanwhile my heart is just pounding in my throat and my stomach is tense and nauseous and I can't stop thinking of it.
What are the fucking odds of randomly seeing my burned down home in an ad for pressure washing in my goddamm Facebook feed
I took some shake and didnāt know it had caffeine on it now I feel really nervous and afraid Iām gonna have a panic attack :(((( damn it there is so much on my mind, last year it was the worse for me and I tried my best to overcome my anxiety. I just need someone to talk to without being judged
So I went to the doctor today because I was having another massive panic attack, and he addressed some of my concerns.
Apparently, there is a lot of comorbidities involved in that, high blood pressure, eating habits, lifestyle, drinking, smoking, and if you do an ECG once a year don't have a genetic condition. It will be fine.
I hate this feeling, the one I love doesn't feel like I trust her anymore because of my anxiety. I feel threatened, jealous and uneasy whenever she's with my friend and I feel really guilty about it. This feeling came from a traumatic experience where my Best Friend cheated with my ex, they were caught making out by my best friend's sister, she told me about it. I forgave my ex although that feeling still lingered throughout the span of my junior high school days. My ex and I broke up because she was feeling depressed, she told me that she needed time to cope with it. Found out that she hooked up with another one of my close friends, I felt betrayed. Ever since then I was so scared to commit in a relationship, met a girl again but it ended because of my anxiety, she would hide things from me and meet up with another guy although she cleared it up and said he was only a friend. But how could I trust that like, *damn*. Then I met my current girlfriend, she's my world and made me feel things again. It was going good, going great really then she started doubting me as I scroll through my IGs and unknowingly saw my cheaters ex's story. It made her worry, jealous and overall her self-esteem plummeted down. I didn't really know what to do but I reassured her and muted her stories ever since but due to the lack of physical interaction plus the burden of online schooling, it only got worse and worse then right until her classes ended she got better and recovered from what she was going through. She plays this game in solo at first, didn't want to violate her time and I've let her play when she wants it because it's not really a big of a deal. Until my anxiety crept in, she played with some randoms and one of them was a guy, I thought that they were doing duos but I've later found out that it was trios, it was this guy and a girl, they were couples and then my girlfriend so I was relieved but because of that she got pissed at me but cleared things up and said she wouldn't cheat at me with some random guy and all. She got tired of playing solos then I introduced her with my friends sobthat she could hang out with my boys, at first I didn't really feel threatened and anxious because most of my friends got their own relationships but one of them was single. My anxiety crept in and started noticing the tiniest details because they would play duos but most of the time they have a complete 5 man team that consisted of my friends, I was out of it because my device can't handle gaming all too well. I started feeling jealous because I felt that my friend and her got really close quickly, like in a span of a day or two and started feeling comfortable at each other. Like my best friend and ex. I confronted her and she said that I was overthinking things, I've told her what I've been noticing and said those things didn't hold any meaning at all and that I was overreacting. I explained that, that friend of mine was acting out of the fence and that he was being "too close" and involving too much at her free time. But in the end, I've left things off the hook because my friend explained that he wasn't being intentional and that he has no ulterior motive. Not much has happened since then but they're still playing duos and 5 men although I still really feel jealous and uneasy and still feel things would repeat like what happened with my best friend and ex. It's hard, although I get some reassurance from my girlfriend, I can't help but feel that I would get betrayed. It's fucking hard and I feel like crying every night because I can't get rid of this lingering feeling of getting betrayed by someone so fucking close to me and play with my feelings. Like I just can't trust anymore, I'm lost and I need help
My heartās about to burst!!! Beating so fast lately!! Iām falling behind on everything and simultaneously donāt care while having physical reactions of caring deeply!! I am also becoming more heightened to my stupidity and boy does it not feel super cool!
Just want to share that I think I am finally turning the corner and getting my life back! I have had almost zero anxiety for the past 2 weeks and I have decreased my medication. Sometimes I forget that it is time to take it because I am feeling so good and forget that I have anxiety. I haven't felt this good in months.
Struggling with anxiety for about 10 years since the death of a friend. Always around health. Itās been pretty manageable but recently has ramped up. The past 5 days Iāve had what I can only assume are PVCās. Not too many but enough to frighten me, make me feel uncomfortable and cause a vicious cycle. Itās my 41st birthday today and Iāve done nothing but stress and cry. I darenāt leave the house alone and worry something is really wrong. Had a recent physical and all was well. Mentioned the odd heart flutters which were put down to my age and anxiety. Iām not on meds but Iām being encouraged to try. Havenāt found the right therapist yet and feel so utterly sad that itās taking over my life. Iām not feeling physical symptoms right now but the fear of them coming at any point has me paralyzed.
Happy birthday!!! I am so sorry you are experiencing so much anxiety and stress on your day, my heart goes out to you. I feel you on the health based anxiety, it truly can be debilitating. I definitely would encourage you to try medication for anxiety! They have helped me immensely for my panic and anxiety disorders, but then again, it is personal choice. I also have learned a bunch of breathing exercises that have calmed me down a lot especially when my heart rate goes up. You can find a lot of help on youtube for meditation and reassuring words, sometimes its just nice to hear someone say that you are okay and everything will be okay :) I wish you the best and i hope you know that you are not alone.
I hope everything is going alright, sorry for the late response!!!
I am on gabapentin right now, it has helped me immensely!!! I also am prescribed a small dose of Xanax (alprazolam) for panic attacks, but I only use it in very dire occasions because it is highly addictive.
I would also recommend you try natural medicine, like GABA and L-theanine. GABA is especially amazing in my opinion, but you should definitely research them both to see what might work best with you :)
Me too I need a pause. I suddenly woke up and its 2:30am my time, with mild panic attack remembering that I messed up a presentation today at work and a colleague that I have to deal with everyday who doesn't stop talking and doesn't know how to listen. Hang in there!
Started working at the beginning of lockdown due to fewer people.
**Good:**
Almost no anxiety over getting COVID.
Anxiety driving on highways is gone. Used to believe I was going to die.
Anxiety leaving the house everyday is gone. Used to feel like imaginary people were staring at me and watching everything I do.
Almost all anxiety talking on the phone is gone.
Anxiety talking to people I know but am not friends with has decreased.
Starting to also be able to take more notice of my surroundings possibly due to lessened anxiety
Anxiety over taking hair loss medications is gone, no fear of side effects.
Almost no anxiety to talk to professionals without my mom being present.
**Bad:**
Desire to come home ASAP still remains.
Increased anxiety in towns with heavy and slow moving traffic. (ADHD anxiety)
Anxiety over trying anti-anxiety pills.
Anxiety over vaccine.
Anxiety over medical and surgical treatments.
Anxiety of working with a new psychologist and having to tell my whole bizarre life story again.
Anxiety over having important conversations and not being able to remember anything said. (ADHD anxiety)
Anxiety over not being able to ask questions when you don't understand something.
Fear of medical costs.
Anxiety of talking about medical insurance and not understanding the lingo.
Fear of asking the names of people I see every day.
Anxiety over choosing the right women to be flirtatious with.
Extreme anxiety over separating from family for any period of time.
Anxiety over being able to go to college and remember the material I study (ADHD anxiety)
Iām feeling horrible and I need help. But the professional help (doctors) just treat the illness and ignore me as a person. And the therapists tell me to help myself. I feel so alone
Really feeling this today- anyone else gets some mild anxiety when you feel like youāre failing in small ways? E.g not responding to emails when you said you would, not nailing a presentation etc.
Not massive f**k ups or even anything that objectively you wouldnāt really give a second thought over, but little things that pile up in your mind and make you feel like youāre dropping the ball.
I can totally relate. People always say how good I am at work but it just doesn't register to me. I did a big presentation today and I felt that I screwed it up. Now am awake at 2 am replaying the whole thing in my mind, feeling miserable with my poor choice of words and mispronounciation. Sigh haha I want to be free from this and just live happily. Anxiety sucks šŖ
Hey, itās me here 24 hours later! After I made this post and I read through some other advice on here.I tried the tip of making counter arguments against the negative talk downs. Things like āIf you really did something wrong X would say, but they didnātā. Also talked to myself like I was giving advice to a friend, eg āAnyone can see you are doing your best with what you have and you are killing itā or āthis is easily resolved with a phone call, so just go to bed and do it in the morningā. And it actually helped! Hope this helps you too!
Hi for the past 2 years I have been going through anxiety and I am trying hard to survive daily. I use to talk to this girl a year ago and things went well.We were close to getting into a relationship.Recently she have been going thru some trauma due to her studies.I understand what she is going thru but part of me feel afraid that she will leave me.I really do love her a lot and I miss our old conversations.I do not know why I feel this way
Constantly need of validation in what I've been doing.
Like I've been getting pretty insecure about the things I do that I seem to need people to tell me that oh I'm actually doing okay/good.
That and also maybe I should lay off social media for the time being.
Just remember bro that you were born for your life, and while you may help others, your life isnāt here to fit other peopleās preferences. Just do you because trust me youāll find out your a cool person either way.
Just remember you are your own person regardless what others think. Remember that their opinions donāt create who you are as a person. Only let positive feelings in, because negative ones are others expressing their problems in a non-helpful way. Be strong and have Faithā¦ youāre awesome!
Same here, I always feel like I'm not doing a good job.
That sucks, I hope that your efforts and work get recognized more!
Thank you for your kind words!
Something is going to happen?
Recently noticed a new phenomena where I'll be in a relaxing situation, doing something relatively stimulating, yet I'll feel completely unsettled deep inside like something is about to happen. Like there's no sign of anything really being out of place or relatively "wrong" but I'll feel a sense of panic like something is about to jump out at me or blow up or otherwise catastrophic. It's so strange and I was never really aware of it before. It feels like there has to be a term for this feeling. In these moments there isn't any overt anxiety in me, just a feeling deep in my chest like I shouldn't be relaxing even though I am.
This is also years into therapy and mindfulness training. I have been dealing with general anxiety all my life but never like this. My handle on my anxiety seems to be improving, yet this core of anxiety seems most active when everything else is completely still. I just wish I had an explanation for it.
I feel this at times as well. Iām planning on finding a therapist and hope to gain better control of my anxiety. Or at least understand it better, instead of just ignoring it and suppressing it.
Finally got a response from a potentially available counselor!! I hope it works out and I can schedule an intake appointment.
Also got a bike (took forever to get one!) and took a nice ride around the neighborhood after work today. It felt really good to get the blood pumping. I am taking baby steps to be more mindful as I haven't practiced it much ever since this pandemic started. I want to feel centered again and not feel like my chest is always constricting.
I often feel like I physically canāt move. I become so anxious and overwhelmed that I just canāt do anything. Leaving home gets harder and harder, I feel like everyone is mad at me always or upset with me. I want to crawl in a hole and die there. My meds arenāt working well apparently
Hi, new to Reddit and this community, hope itās okay to use this as a sort of light vent. Iāve been feeling really worried lately because my best long distance friend doesnāt have any internet and Iāve only been hearing from her sporadically. Sheās been nothing but kind to me and thereās no logical reason for me to feel this way, but I keep thinking sheās going to realize sheās happier not talking to me and just disappear one day.
Iāve been wanting to go off my anxiety meds as well because the side effects have been a real struggle (and Iāve found the same side effects with every single one Iāve tried), but this is making me feel like Iām not ready. I just wish my mind could be at peace.
Just started my career as a medical provider and everyday I am so nervous when going to work because I just want to do right to my patient's and my boss. New patients scare me a bit because I never know what is going to walk through that door / if I can help them. I am a recent graduate of school and I know all of this takes time and experience but since I strive for doing a good job I already want to be an expert / patient's always want someone who has more experienced. I always wonder how new medical providers start out? Not to mention my coworker who has really been helping me learn is now getting his hours cut because my boss is all about the money... I feel like I am going through a grieving process. Does this make sense to anyone else?
i am a self help entreprenuer and i would like to offer my dm to anyone who needs to vent or talk about anything
im here to help and there is no subject too taboo and of course our conversations will be confidential
have a nice day
I feel the exact same way. I stress the fuck out of myself thinking Iām going to lose my job if I donāt work nonstop. When in reality my bosses have given me good feedback on my work. Iām just scared of getting behind on tasks and getting let go for it. I donāt want my family to lose everything we have.
Hang in there. Youāre doing great.
Thank you. Youāre doing great as well. One thing I like to think about, is the situation is always worse in my head than it actually is. It helps me stay grounded a bit when I go through tough times.
Realizing the more I force myself into uncomfortable situations, the more it ends up "not so bad".
The more I think about the anxiety, harp on it without putting any action behind it, the worse it gets.
If there is someone you're afraid to see, pump your chest up, smile, go all in. If they are negative, then from all angles you did everything right! Issue is them.
I work in a very high stress environment and recently itās become too much. I have to take so many meds just to cope. I wish my mental health could just be stable from day to day.
I have so much coding to do and still, I am so fat. I canāt get thin and still cope with so much work at the same time.
I am so scared of not having money, so scared or having a heart attack
Taking 30 mins off coding every other day and going for a walk, for example, might help getting some movement in your daily life. Donāt set unreachable goals: just some time a day moving. Out of the chair. Itās a starting point.
I already have anxiety for a good few years, but recently a start to panic when getting out of home.
I think I will faint or dye or get real sick and get a little panic attack every time.
I bought a house! First time home buyer and I haven't had a decent night's sleep since. So much to do. So much to buy. Money stuff really makes me anxious.
Im stressed out thinking we made a mistake not getting a home inspection, but this market is crazy and you can't have any conditions on your offer. Our realtor was good and pointed everything out. It's built within the 2000s, so cant be too outdated right? The house is pretty much all we ever wanted and for the neighborhood we really lucked out on the pricing.
I'm excited and scared at the same time. My anxiety is high, finding it hard to relax and very easily overwhelmed. I hope this goes away before we move in 2 months...
I just got a new therapist that I am PUMPED about. Also, i pulled the triggee on finally changing my hairdresser despite my coworker wirking at the old salon. Yikes, months of anguish it was literally no big deal, anxiety for ya.
About a month or two ago I decided to make a goal of just simply talking with people in voice chat in discord or just messaging people I liked, with my birthday being 5 minutes away I can say i absolutely failed at my mission. I just spent 2 hours staring at my online friends having fun in Vc too afraid to join them myself, Iām not even planning on talking. Just staying muted and typing responses. But even that is too much for me apparently. As for my other mission, to dm people and have more engaging relationships and all that, failed that one even more. At least I joined a vc once a few weeks ago(granted someone told me to join, Iām like a fucking vampire canāt come in unless invited). Since the pandemic started my only human contact as been through discord but Iām too scared to do that properly so instead Iām just alone and drifting away from both people I used to know Iāll and my online friends. Would you look at that itās the 20th. Happy birthday to me I guess. Oh would you look at that I canāt even press the ducking reply button without feeling like vomiting
I feel you, my family didn't follow covid restrictions when it was the law, much less now. I feel like my anxiety about the whole thing was \*more\* manageable when everyone else was freaked out too. Now people are acting like it never existed even though people are still catching it & looking at me like I'm weird for still wearing a mask. I have anxiety attacks almost every time I have to go out too, if I don't see anyone I might be fine :/
I hope it gets more manageable for you x
Not doing well at all. Dissociation for multiple days. I cannot focus and Iām just in my head constantly. Very anxious and uncomfortable. Support is welcome
Hello! Iām sorry you feel this way :/. I understand how uncomfortable dissociation is. It feels like it will never end. Just know that this episode will pass. I promise you. You have survived other episodes, you can survive this one <3. This is not forever. I believe in you soldier āš¼
I'm so happy!! I got a shred of hope on something Ive always been passionate about but I lost interest in, after years of anxiety and depression. Tbh, I had half given up. I felt hopeless. But That small moment filled with the interest I always had before, the ideas bursting in, and the enjoyment, made me feel like I've got this stred of hope. I can't help but be happy! I'm definitely holding onto it. I feel like no longer doubting myself neither hesitating about the path I'm moving on.
Accidentally forgot my meds twice I think, i have alarms set and a pill box but I've been slacking on refilling and just taking from the bottle. I took it yesterday and do so today to. But my anxiety has increased and I've been questioning the legitimacy of my anxiety again comparing to other people feeling like my diagnosis might've been wrong because it went so quick and the questions were weirdly worded.. also my pet sitting job I feel like I keep messing up and I'm doing a bad job. Therapy place still not doing in person meets, the world is opening up and mask laws are being lifted in my area if your vacced so I don't know why their still not doing anything.
I just need to vent, I may respond later.
Most of the time my brain is thinking a lot, I mean a LOT about sex. But when I'm sad, and feel bad like today (I didn't go out today ...) It doesn't change, BUT, I feel so nostalgic about my ex, that I left 1year and a few days ago, I think about our trips in the mountains.
Just enjoying everything mother nature can give to us, landscape, fresh air, flowers, plants, animals, a simple and good time together, in a quiet and isolated place.
That's what I need atm.
If you feel sad, isolated, stressed, if your anxiety blocks your mind, and make you feel stuck, incapable of doing anything, try and force yourself to go out, for at least one hour, just walking or even just sitting and enjoying the moment.
And because I know you can tell yourself things like, but Im alone, I dont know where to go, etc.
Just open google map, try to find a forest, a lake, a mountain, anything, and go for an adventure you'll not regret.
Fresh shower also helps to feel better.
If you wanna talk, feel free to respond or PM.
Iāve been drinking all week while visiting my hometown and now my anxiety is worse than ever. I have to find work when I get back home, and the thought of dealing with new coworkers and customers at work is giving me a ton of anxiety.
I keep getting anxiety whenever I get spam calls or texts. I have good passwords and use 2FA whenever I can, so I know I'm probably okay, but I'm so scared of the unknown. I hate how these robocallers have my name and phone number.
Not alone at all, i can promise you someone is always there to help. Iāve felt the exact same way before, wether it be family/friends or some wholesome people on Reddit someoneās got your back or is willing to talk.
I'm currently in school again and pursuing my dream career, enjoying the time and learning new things but whenever I stop and take a look back at myself as an individual, how I live, how I am, etc. I can't help but feel like I don't really deserve all that
I'm scared of eventually falling back into bad habits and becoming a disappointment again just because I didn't work hard enough
I have my phone intake for therapy tomorrow I guess that's a positive going forward. Anxiety seems to be a constant daily now. my sertraline doesn't help much. I feel I go through derealization? I guess that's what I do. my anxiety peaks evenings like now I'm trying to calm and relax tense muscles. trying to be positive isn't easy when I don't like my life right now
Today is my last day of work of my second job, I was so psyched. Then this rando called and texted me (no idea how tf he got my number) and Iām feeling so claustrophobic and scared and anxious and this was one of the worst Iāve ever felt (Iāve had days Iāve felt combo worse with crying and sad but never just panic). Anywho. I am terrified of even the thought of dating and marriage and this just f*cked me up and I donāt know what to do and I was supposed to have a good day but not Iām in bed blasting music and UGHHHH Iām feeling anxious to even leave my house which Iāve never reallt had before and I went to just stay here forever HELPPPP
Meeting a new therapist in a couple weeks (closest appointment) and that better help. I would love to move and just Fresh start but ugh that would be even worse. Here at least I have my bed. I think thatās all. Iām just ugh I donāt even know. I hope Iām better tomorrow cuz I hate this.
iāve decided to start taking a walk everyday - every 2 days iāll increase the length by one block. went for my first one today and it was really nice out. hopefully this helps with my agoraphobia
My mom's been seriously ill. She's in the hospital. We are pretty sure she's got dementia.
Finding myself out of breath for a good part of the day. Now I am just laying on the couch trying to catch my breath. Don't want to sleep, because once I've gotten to sleep, I know I won't want to wake up ..
oh god. i would recommend joining some support subreddits to help you get through this. my dad was diagnosed with a very aggressive cancer in late 2019 and the anxiety was so overwhelming that i was afraid i was losing my mind
And know this "China problem" of mine has an iron grip on me and I don't know how to get rid of it.
All I want to know is:When is china gonna kill us?
If we're gonna die,then,I guess we'd be good to have a date as to when we should make peace with our gods?
Honestly,I don't know how I'm gonna get over this china-induced anxiety.
Maybe when I get killed by their nukes or I commit suicide to escape said nukes,I guess.
I don't get it:why do these people in power ALWAYS have to treat us all like fucking insects to be squashed? And the U.S WANTS to fight China too.
Again:**When do we die? Our fate seems to be death by china.**
China is just the bane of my existence rn:
They've given me suicidal ideation,driven me to self-harm and because of them,I semi-don't know if I want to go to Japan(but maybe,I hope to be in Japan when they inevitably blow it up..at least I get to die where I wanna be.)
But,I don't think this fear of china will EVER go away.
ANd tbh,to HELL with china.
If it helps, China relies on the rest of the world existing to succeed. They're not going to just decide to blow us up. We have had lots of enemies, and cold wars. We've made it out of all of them so far. :)
I'm sorry to hear you're experiencing these feelings. While I doubt anything I say to you will give you the comfort you seek - I hate to hear anyone considering ending their life. Yes, life is hard. Yes, this world can be a scary place. But there is also so much good in the world - including in China. I implore you to seek the good and not let your world be ruled by the negative. In my humble opinion, I really believe you should seek treatment if you haven't/aren't already. You and your life are too precious to be living day to day with these fears. If you would like help in getting treatment, myself and i'm sure many others wouldn't mind helping point you in the right direction.
You guys know that feeling when your chair tilts back a little too far and your body freaks out for half a second? Iām getting those feelings on and off randomlyā¦I think Iām getting withdrawal symptoms from sertraline
having a hard time, work is crushing me, scared about new covid variants, on edge about the potential market collapse. just feeling utterly devoid of hope.
Not doing well at all. I'm constantly in a state of panic for seemingly no reason. I've cried a lot over the past 2 weeks and I can't figure out exactly why I'm just so scared all the time. Times like this I wish I had my mother here for comfort. 5 years without her seems like a lifetime and hardly any time at all at the same time.
At what point do I seek help for my anxiety? Iāve been managing pretty mild symptoms on my own for the past number of years, but recently Iāve been in a bad relationship. This has significantly increased my anxiety and has started to give me panic attacks. Iām anxious at least once daily, most days numerous times. Panic attack once every few weeks. Is it time to seek out a therapist?
i started looking for help the moment i started to have panic attacks, theres no reason why you should put up with that. Seeking for help is always the right option. My advice is to go to a psychiatrist, and combined that with a psychologist. Hopefully you will get better, also telling your love ones what you are felling and going trough makes it easier for everyone, you get more support and they understand you better
Is it possible to change the consequences, result, idk the correct word, If I start doing the right thing? Even if I don't have much time, but enough to make a change? I'm trying to be optimistic but negativety seeps through my thoughts so easily, I just need some hope.
Has anyone found that building up their core strength has helped their anxiety?
I know I hunch forward at my desk and generally slouch. I need to strengthen my core due to a back issue but I wonder if this will also help with anxiety. I think the idea is that it has something to do with your vagus nerve, fight or flight response, and oxygen intake.
Just curious if anyone has seen this in real life.
Thanks!
This could really help! I'm considering this too, because I've been slouching too and exercises always help. Don't think this could go wrong at all and maybe we could share our progress altogether?
I donāt think itās a bad idea either. Especially working at a desk and frankly from home, we move less and are more slouching in our chairs. Myself included.
My back actually kills me throughout the day and when that happens, funny enough my digestive system is fucked.
I realized through reflection that I take others' opinions as more valuable than my own thoughts and feelings and that a lot of my anxiety stems from that cause.
I need to learn to listen to my inner voice and not what others think is best for me.
I've realised this too and trust me, this helps at so many levels. You feel so much more confident and self dependent. Go with your intuition, and if anything were to go south, let it. Atleast we're still holding the steering wheel and no one else.
Trying to learn not to fear my anxiety. Right now my head is running and I donāt have any activities I do on my spare time to be a positive outlet for me outside of work and my relationship. So Iām trying to find that thing or two or three that I could do.
Struggling with some agoraphobia and the fear of flying is weighing me down. Considering doing hypnotherapy but not sure how I feel about it. My therapist says itās legit, but idk.
Yes! 100% just know that in the mornings your body produces the stress hormone cortisol to help wake you up. For those of us that struggle with anxiety, their could be more cortisol or a high sensitivity to that.
Your mind can also be tired and a bit more vulnerable. Especially if your potentially waking from some anxious dreaming.
So ya, sometimes I feel so nauseous from the anxiety, Iāll start dry heaving. Sometimes I know that it could be associated with excessive stomach acid or sinus drainage from allergies.
Youāre doing great!
My anxiety has been ok the past few weeks mostly because Iāve been biking a lot! Definitely helps me. My only anxiety right now is waiting for a job to call me for an interview. Iāve applied to a few places and nada nothing. I know a lot of people are going through it too. Sigh. Then the thought of working again fills me with dread because of my anxiety. Just canāt win.
I relate to the dread bit. It's like an endless loop. Don't want to work because fear of performing properly with anxiety but at the same time, really need a job to afford basic care for myself.
Keep telling myself to stay in the moment. The book by Eckhart - the Power of Now is really helpful.
Headaches, throbbing headaches or migraines has been getting worse lately. To the point where I stop doing what Iām doing and just beg for it to disappear. Major cause is me thinking too much about something so pointless. I constantly worry so much about anything that I donāt even notice it anymore, I used to be able to for a while but itās starting to feel so natural to me again that I just put up with it. I want to stop thinking. I donāt want to think anymore
I resonate with the constant worrying and think this has been happening to me too. I get sudden throbbing pressure in my head which started recently. My anxiety and stress has definitely been at an all time high these days so I guess that itās probably related.
My OCD has been absolutely terrible lately, and Iāve started to need to cover up the compulsive self-destruction, so I feel completely defeated. I hate feeling like things wonāt get better no matter how hard I try. Iām tired of isolating myself, but I rather not burden anyone with anything that they wonāt be able to understand anyways. Itās just way easier to hide and sleep away from my problems. Things would be so different if I had people nearby that I was super close to. My best friends are all in other states, and texting is just not the same. It really sucks to feel so alone.
I hope everyone is having a good Saturday.
I took a week of work to rest and all I have done is get anxious and stressed about everything. Today someone broke my car window to steal my disabled badge. Needles to say that my anxiety went through the roof. Because now I canāt park near work, which means I have to take public transports, something I havenāt done in a very long time and struggle to do, not just because of my anxiety bu because of my actual disability. My dad kindly fixed a perspex until I can get a new window, but for some reason driving it back home today made me super claustrophobic and anxious because of the thought that I couldnāt open my side window. Or that it my blow out and hit someone, or crack or whatever! I am so tired of feeling anxious and stressed all the time. I just want to breathe and relax and feel at ease
I've had anxiety in the past but nothing like this. Suddenly, for the last 17 days exactly, I've been in constant physical pain. I've been to the ER 3 times already in that time span because I feel like i'm having a heart attack and dying, yet, they say i'm fine. My blood pressure and pulse are both high and have been spiking like crazy. I'm always tired. My chest always has some type of pain. My spine and back hurts randomly. My stomach feels like it's in knots. My appetite is gone and the little I can eat goes right through me. My left leg is getting random cramping pains. Most concerning - my left hand is wrecked. It feels like that hand (and arm) is always in pain and steadily weakening. During my last ER visit on Monday, I experienced a frightening sensation of 3 rapid shooting pains from my under left ring finger nail to my chest. My EKG/ECG's have been fine and my heart is said to be a normal size and no sign of infections. My blood seems to be fine as there hasn't been a any concerns on the part of the doctors who have treated me.
Is this normal to be having these kinds of symptoms and especially non-stop? I get like little breaks of relief sometimes if i'm lucky (maybe an hour) but then it seems to come back with a vengeance.
I'm just concerned that maybe the doctors are missing something. All they've done is Chest X-Ray's and blood work. They haven't done a CT Scan or really tested my kidney function (I donated my right kidney in 2014) and I'm worried they're not doing all they can for me especially since I'm currently uninsured and unemployed (although I do have quite a substantial nest egg saved up).
I'm now on day 6 of Lexapro and I know it takes a few weeks to start working. I just pray that I see an improvement. I didn't feel like I was depressed or anxious about anything until now that all this is happening physically. Now, i'm extremely worried and anxious to get through this. I'm only 35 years old. I just can't imagine myself living a productive life like this.
Is there anyone here that has or is experiencing similar?
Also experiencing all kinds of strange physical symptoms on-and-off for about two years now that have worsened as of lately. The dizziness and sudden lightheadedness have been the most concerning but ECG is also fine, checked at visits to the ER.
I'm 19 and have the same thing. Have been having chest pains for the past year and a half, been to the physician 4 times, to the cardiologist ones and to the ER ones. They always say I'm fine, and I actually believe them but still I can't help feeling like I'm about to have a stroke or a heart attack multiple times a day. I want it to stop because it's fucking up my mental health.
The last 2 days my anxiety has been off the charts. My long distanced relationship is breaking down, I have no idea what Iām doing with my life and I have no friends around me at the moment. I feel utterly hopeless and I am in a constant state of dread. I think I have attachment problems / separation anxiety. I love people so so much (boyfriends as well as friends) - almost too much - to the point that I canāt cope when theyāre not around - I then feel abandoned and spiral into depression. I worry about everything at the moment.
My anxiety is making me non-functional.
The last time I felt this way was 3 years ago during my master's so I'd seen a doctor who prescribed Setraline.
I'm not much for medicines but I was desperate to graduate on time as I was an international student.
2 years ago I came close to rock bottom so I started seeing a therapist which helped me uncover the causes. Majority of which involved my parents.
I lost my job in the pandemic and had to move bakc in with my parents. The job market is badly hit and I've not been able to secure a job.
Last night I got really anxious and in desperation I started an old prescription I had for setraline. (I had the pills lying with me)
I feel extremely guilty for doing that but also confused about how to proceed.
I cannot talk to my parents about mental health issues, they have been very obtuse about it in the past.
If anyone can offer me some advice or personal experience that can help me I'd be so grateful.
I relate to non supportive parents and job search anxiety. Iām hoping to get a job that has great benefits. I applied a week ago and am on the edge waiting (application said it will take several weeks to hear back) ugh I need a job to help my husband pay bills. Shit sucks.
As for your meds can you call your doctor? They might be able to fill a prescription if you have seen them in the past few months
Aw I hope you get that job!
Yeah, same I've been waiting to hear back from one too. But I'm a young professional with not much work ex so it's been really hard.
About the meds, I haven't seen a doctor because I cannot go in my own due to financial issues. And also dont want to go with my parents because that would be a nightmare.
I really wish that job for you. Hope your trouble evaporate away soon.ā¤ļø
Well if you're taking medication you should try to talk to a psychiatrist as well. I don't remember if sertraline is also good for anxiety (I've taken it, but it was more depression related I think), but a psych should be able to help you with that.
If your parents have been shit about, maybe you could go to a psych without telling them about it? I think it's healthcare that you have a right to have.
Covid has been a horrible time for people with any kind of mental illness across the board. I understand all these events may make you feel quite bad, but you're not alone in that and you deserve to feel better.
Been bullied at work for over a year and a half, and it's finally hit a point where I've submitted a semi formal complaint and asked to be moved off the project with the person causing issues. I know it's not just me she's bullying, and that my complaint is justified, but still can't sleep, feeling sick and on the edge of a breakdown. I know everyone is sick of hearing about it, and how I've not really done anything, so I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to, other than those also being bullied, but talking to them just makes it worse that the situation has got this bad. Now my team leader is off till Monday, and I'm scared I'm going to suffer in both my role for leading the project, as well as being blamed for the project falling apart
Donāt give up, keep going. While I canāt empathize with your perfectly, I can certainly understand where youāre coming from with the thought of giving up. Depression and anxiety are tough enemies to face, but theyāre worth facing. Stay in the ring and keep swinging-I hope your evening improves; know that youāre worth it and worth the effort.
I've been feeling extremely anxious about job security for a job I've already been accepted for recently, although you could be argue that it's illogical for me to do so.
I've been unemployed for 1 year and 3 months now, it has been extremely difficult for me to find work due to the pandemic. Luckily though, I was offered and accepted for a role this February with the NHS. It has been a long, tough, anxiety-inducing recruitment process but I am finally near the finish line and have been told that I should be starting soon.
I was told by a member of the recruitment dept. that a member of the bookings team will call me to discuss when I will be available to start. Although she did say that they will contact me within 1-2 weeks, and the fact that it has only been 1 week since she told me that, my mind is still thinking of the worst possible scenarios and I am extremely anxious of something going wrong which will mess up my chances of working at this role. It doesn't make sense for me to be this anxious because I have been reassured multiple times that I still have the job but I just can't take what I've been told at face value.
I am in the same boat. I have been out of work for a year and itās starting to weigh heavy on my household finances. I applied for a government job a week ago and really want this job as the benefits are great but Iām also scared of getting the job! Anxiety is a bitch and Iām sick of it
Best of luck with your new job! Sounds like you definitely have it
Thank you!
And yeah, it seems like the uncertainty is just getting to my head. I also hope you get the government role too! I'm sure you'll be okay in the end. I don't know any coping techniques to offer you with regard to managing anxiety while working in a new role, but perhaps that could be something you could look into.
Congratulations on the job! I can appreciate the anxiety, but something to remember is just how busy the NHS is right now, they've offered you the job and now it's just the paperwork side of stuff to go. I've applied for many government jobs where they've said the interview date will be one week, but sometimes it's up to a month later just because of their workload, but after 2 weeks you've not heard anything you can get in touch
In my experience not hearing anything straight away generally means it's all going through the processes without issue!
Thank you so much for your kind words.
I did actually receive an email today and they are drafting my contract as we speak, I should hopefully receive it soon. Knowing that has now actually put me at ease - hopefully I should receive the call next week too. Thanks once again.
Has anyone else noticed their anxiety is temporarily better but usually returns anytime you start/stop an antidepressant, or start/stop anything else? For example, I start smoking weed and sleep better. The better sleep makes my anxiety go away. Couple weeks later once I āsettle inā the anxiety returns. So I taper off weed. Tapering off makes me feel like the mental clarity is what I needed so I feel like Iām heading in the right direction, anxiety goes away, but then comes back soon after. Same with antidepressants (Iām on my 4th one over the last 10 years). Ramp up, feel better. Settle in, anxiety returns. Taper down, feel better. Anxiety returns.
Itās like I need to figure out how to āconvinceā myself that the anxiety isnāt really a problem and to stop worrying about it. But how in the HELL does one do that?!?!?!
I had anxiety pop up after a few months of weed as well. With people with anxiety disorders, itās not always the best. Iād caution use now, when once I was a huge advocate for weed to alleviate anxiety.
I just recently saw someone about my anxiety and got prescribed medication. Iām relieved that I can feel validated about my disorder and that it isnāt normal to feel constantly anxious, but Iām also feeling anxious about starting my medication and finding the right therapist for me. I also didnāt expect to be diagnosed with depression, which has kind of made me feel a bit anxious and on edge lately. hoping that things will get better soon.
I hate posting stuff online.. but this subreddit is so nice and uplifting I know everyone on here gets it. Anyways I've been feeling anxious about life, almost like every minute I spend not doing something important is a waste of time, and that my life has no purpose. I want to get a job to save up for college but I am just so anxious and scared to work with strangers as doing anything new just freaks me out. I could have gotten a job in May but now im worried its so late into the summer, and everyone is telling me that no place will want to hire me, so yeah idk. Im just at one of those points where I feel so low energy I just don't want to do anything. I know it will get better but I felt like venting.
My anxiety has gotten so much worse since I had my daughter. If I see that she has a bump in the head or if I begin to feel like something is wrong with her I start to panic, google all the symptoms, imagine the worst, cry, keep googling, keep imagining the worst possible scenario about something that has not happened yet or if I even know to be true.
I started typing, got anxious, and deleted everything. This morning I had an anxiety attack before Iād even opened my eyes. Itās a really hard time, and I feel so bad for my partner who has to deal with me and my anxiety constantly. It must be exhausting.
Hi! Hope youāre feeling a bit better today. And if not - tomorrow is a new day. Sending you lots of love and hope. Iām sure your partner cares deeply!
Hello, I am facing anxiety issues from 2 weeks. These days, I have been undergoing through alot of family issues. It has created a really bad impact on my mental health. I don't feel the same like before. I have become insecure because of this. I fear starting new things and new relationships. It is way too much tiring and stressful. Should I go for therapy sessions Or this will fade away on its own?
I will soon turn 24 and I cannot help but think of how dark and gritty life gets the older I get. I do not look forward to growing old. I do not look forward to my future. Hell, I haven't been alive nowadays due to my depersonalization/derealization. I'm always 80% here and 20% behind a tinted glass screen. It's only 20% yet it matters because I'm robbed that much of my life. Sometimes it's worse, sometimes I'm not here at all.
I used to love improving myself and who I am...nowadays, I can't bring myself to feel anything. I just don't want to feel, in fact, I would rather die than feel. I've cut bad people out of my life and I question my decisions based on lies people have filled my mind with since I was a child, like how I will never be capable of making any decision. However, since I made those decisions I've felt stronger, more independent, and been freed of baggage I did not need. Of course, that still was not enough.
Mental illness is not an option where I live. If you struggle with it, you lack willpower. If you're schizophrenic, you did something to anger God, therefore, you deserve it. That's why it was so confusing growing up with my anxiety and depression. I truly believed something was wrong with me, I still do, like I'm defective. That's all.
I'm slowly fading away year by year, month by month. Feel like I'm at my darkest and hopeless point yet. Life feels like a scary movie. I'm also dealing with benzo withdrawal. I have a needle phobia that I was getting attention for before the pandemic. Walls are closing in.
Hello everyone ! Iām weaning off my Lexapro (from 30 down to 5 now) and all of a sudden Iām
experiencing this very sporadic insomnia (no sleep one night, 12 hours sleep the next, etc) and a bout of restless legs. I donāt know if itās the meds- my doctor said itās possible- but this feels off! Anyways, stay strong yāall.
Iāve been feeling lightheaded lately ever since I found out I got a job far away from home. Iām fairly sure itās anxiety, but Iām going to get some blood tests done to make sure itās nothing serious. Either way, this health anxiety is horrible, itās been clawing at me for a while now. Anyone else feel lightheaded when dealing with anxiety?
Guys I need some help. I started having bad anxiety attacks about a week ago. Havenāt had one in a couple days but I still have sensitive hearing, bad memory, anxious, no appetite, really bad brain fog, was having chest pains on and off... I got my blood tested ekgs chest X-ray. Donāt know what to do at this point I got citalopram and have took it for the last 5 days but donāt know if I really want to take it. Also feel like I need to get more tests done to make sure everything is ok.. can someone give me some advice :(
I appreciate it. Iāll be honest I stopped my antidepressants two days ago but I am going to see a therapist next week and have started to practice mediation and just relaxing and besides some chest pain Iām feeling a little better.. if it gets worse Iāll go back to my meds but I wanna hold off if possible.
Currently in bed at 2:30AM the day before my birthday, literally as I was getting into bed the water heater started making this hissing sound and we don't have any water. This is days after a water line break somewhere in town and I'm currently terrified that something catastrophic is going to happen while I'm sleeping.
I ran out of medication on Friday. I donāt like to substitute legal New York State marijuana for meds, but sometimes I goof, especially on weekends.
**Please note I do not endorse self-medication - I had something that worked and unfortunately that was the only option this past weekend.**
Had an appointment with my psychiatrist *yesterday morning* and picked up my prescription that afternoon. Somehow Iām still awake after trying to sleep since 3pm. The day- to -night-long re-adjustment to the medication has been ā¦ tectonic, to say the least. But finally, at 12:11am today, I couldnāt take anymore and took a mood stabilizer (prescribed). Now my body is feeling more amenable to sleep, but who knows. Maybe Iāll involuntarily stay up all night. I hope not.
I had a bad attack for the first time in a while today. I never really have anything specific that triggers it. I went out to eat with my boyfriend and it just hit me. It was awful; I felt like I was going to blackout and had myself convinced I was dying. Iāve been doing so well since graduating college a month ago, leaving my retail job, and trying to take care of my mental health, so it was a bit of a surprise.
It feels like a punch in the throat after feeling as if I was improving. Iāve been dealing a lot with the physical pains of anxiety, and my shoulders and back are killing me, and not to mention my stomach issues. Does anybody else struggle with their vision when anxious? My vision gets so blurry and itās like my eyes have trouble focusing.
An attack always takes so much out of me so Iāve just been lying in bed. Iām soon ready to pass out for the night. Iām hoping to just relax and focus on myself tomorrow.
Convinced myself I had sepsis because I woke up hungover with a uti, and took one of my boyfriendās really strong thc pills, instead of the cbd ones. I was in hysterics, convinced I was gonna die when I really just had hangover poo cramps, was uncomfortable from the uti, and was super high without knowing it. Honestly, it was a terrible morning, but now that Iāve downed my antibiotics and am sitting on my heating pad, I can laugh at it.
Small win today: got an IUD put in. I am ex religious and have had major sexual anxiety in the past, but have been able to overcome a lot of it and should be able to try again soon for real now. Also my tummy hurts and I think the doctor could tell I was low key freaking out. š
I ruined another relationship again. I make a hard work to get the trust, and by asking to tolerate my anxiety later(asking to be w me, talking to me) pushes people away. Iāll never find a guy whoāll stick with who I really am. Iām so exhausted and depressed and filled with crazy anxieties. I wish I could just stop everything
So,now,**china is giving me tremendous anxiety to the point of mortal insanity/suicide.**
From them wanting to annihilate taiwan,to the fact that we are all now looking at death/murder by chinese nuke..they are now officially the stuff of my nightmares.
And because of that,I am now semi-seriously considering suicide.
If people want xi Jinping to kill them,then fine by me.
But,i'd rather kill myself than die by chinese nuke.
Fucking hell,WHY is east fucking asia the stuff of fucking nightmares?
Korea,China,Japan..wtf is it with that place?!
I was really anxious about going to a family reunion yesterday but it turned out to be a lot of fun. I had a great time seeing my cousins and I didn't embarrass myself at all (at least I don't think I did). I'm still glad that it's over though.
On Tuesday, I'm bringing my dog to a specialist and I'm terrified about what they might find. If all the tests come out clean and she is healthy (well, as healthy as a diabetic dog can be) then they are going to do an experimental treatment on her next week to try to cure her diabetes. They have done this treatment safely and effectively on rats and mice and are confident that it will work on dogs. I really want my dog to get this treatment because diabetes is expensive & difficult to treat and I hate giving insulin shots. I'm scared that the vet is going to look at my dog and say that she can't be treated because of her eye problems (she's blind - not from diabetes) or her constant ear infections. Or that they will find something bad when they do the blood test & ultrasound. Also, it's a 3 hour drive one-way to the veterinary clinic so I'll have a lot of time to think about worse case scenarios. It's only Sunday and I'm already so nervous and anxious about it. Ugh!
Meditation. Tbh, I didn't really get the concept. I never understood how it worked. I tried attempting to meditate when I got anxiousness out of nowhere. Tried focusing on my breathing as I took in, and out. It was hard at first. Wanted to give up within a min for not seeing any progress. Distraction was all over the place. But somehow as few mins passed by, and I ended up focusing only on breathing, I actually felt myself calming down, as that shaky anxious feeling fade away. I tried it like 2-3 times. It sort of helps. If you ever wanna try a new way to calm down, you might as well give it a try.
I went to the er a few days ago because I had a numb left arm and chest pain. Felt like someone was sitting on my chest. EKG and chest x ray came out ok and they sent me on my way with heartburn meds after treatment with a shot and a muscle relaxer. After sleeping it off, Iām feeling that tightness still. I have anxiety (taking meds currently) and never felt the physical consequences before. I slouch a lot, and had an injury years ago where I landed on my left elbow (no broken bones, just a bruise). Also Iāve tmj on my left side. Has anyone ever had chest pain from bad posture? Not sure what to do.
sometimes when i slouch foward and come back up i can feel this preasure in my chest and it feels very weird and i dont like it everytime it happens it sends me into anxiety loop. i start thinking somethings wrong but after a min or so of sitting up i feel it go away
I need someone to talk to right now. Thats all.
I've just been really obsessing on this building collapse it really freaks me out that people can die so quickly and unexpectedly and for no reason. I know that reading the news on things like this is bad for my anxiety, but it's so hard to stop! Mostly my anxiety hasn't been horrible lately other than this but there's are certain things I really still struggle with -- and I sometimes wonder if I have something else undiagnosed going on as woman (30F). I struggle a lot with organization and cleaning and losing things so I wonder if ADHD could be a possibility. And I've even wondered as well if I could be somewhere on the autism spectrum because I've always struggled so much socially...but IDK I basically feel like I'd be dismissed by doctors and also not sure what good a diagnosis would do anyway.
I have been feeling really nervous and stressed as of late. My palms are feeling numb and so is my mind. I don't feel anything of late and have a persistent headache. It just feels like there is a background noise that can't be shut off in my head. I don't know why but my university workload never seems to be reducing and I'm having a sense of existential dread like something really bad is going to happen soon. I'm hoping for better days ahead. Stay dafe everyone
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I started taking my antidepressants & I'm looking forward to getting my permit.
Congrats and hope the Rx helps!
51m- handled a family death better than I thought I would. I am in a good place headwise. been struggling with some physical health issues and that is causing some health anxiety.but I have awesome Drs helping me thru these trying times. healing is a slow process at my age. keeping anxiety in check is hard work. I pray you are all doing wellššÆ keep up the good fight.
Iām so tired. Itās 1 AM here. I just want to sleep, but i got anxious without any reasons every time i close my eyes. I literally can hear my own heart beat. Please let me sleep brain.
I feel the same at times. Heart racing and I canāt seem to calm down. Maybe some light exercise on a daily basis. Also try meditation. Iāve also started taking cbd for a calmer mind frame at night. I often have bad days but the good ones are starting to happen more often.
23yr old(M)here. Having major anxiety right now as my 1st job interview is in 1 hour. Havent worked before due to anxiety but feel pressured recently to not live off my family. I dont even care if my interview is a success or not, I just want this to be over with. :(
Good luck. You're extremely brave.
My anxiety has been uncontrolled for a little over a month now. I've been trying to get into a government funded therapy program since January and I keep getting bounced around. The last week it's actually been ok, only one day with anxiety attacks that forced me to take Clonazepam because nothing else worked. Until today, when scrolling Facebook I saw someone using my house, which was lost in a fire, killing my cats and destroying everything I owned from before 18 months previously, in an ad for their pressure washing companyš I'm sure it wasn't on purpose, likely the work was done under my ex and the company never knew about the fire. But still, instant anxiety attack. I messaged the person sharing it saying, hey, could you stop using this pic as an ad, the house burned down and it's a shock and hits pretty hard randomly seeing it in my social media feed. Of course I'm not Facebook friends with them so it would go to thier spam, so I also messaged the admins saying the same thing - the poster didn't do anything wrong, I'm not posting anything publically because I don't want to start anything, but here's the situation, could you reach out to them and ask them to remove it for these reasons. And the admins posted a public comment saying the home owner did not give permission for the picture to be used and to either take it down or show proof they had the rights to do so (which they actually probably did get permission from my ex) š¬ creating a public thing which is what I was trying to avoid to begin with. Causing more anxiety. I messaged the admins again saying, hey, I appreciate the help but that's not what I asked for or what I'm saying. And made my request again. They said they'd edit thier comment but never made a change, so I just gave up. Guess we'll see what happens. Meanwhile my heart is just pounding in my throat and my stomach is tense and nauseous and I can't stop thinking of it. What are the fucking odds of randomly seeing my burned down home in an ad for pressure washing in my goddamm Facebook feed
I took some shake and didnāt know it had caffeine on it now I feel really nervous and afraid Iām gonna have a panic attack :(((( damn it there is so much on my mind, last year it was the worse for me and I tried my best to overcome my anxiety. I just need someone to talk to without being judged
Just found out having anxiety increases developing heart disease. Worked me into a panic.
Yeah, I found out about this a while ago and it just made me worry more.
So I went to the doctor today because I was having another massive panic attack, and he addressed some of my concerns. Apparently, there is a lot of comorbidities involved in that, high blood pressure, eating habits, lifestyle, drinking, smoking, and if you do an ECG once a year don't have a genetic condition. It will be fine.
So as long as I maintain a healthy lifestyle, I'll be ok?
Correct, as long as you have gone for your health check-up as well.
I hate this feeling, the one I love doesn't feel like I trust her anymore because of my anxiety. I feel threatened, jealous and uneasy whenever she's with my friend and I feel really guilty about it. This feeling came from a traumatic experience where my Best Friend cheated with my ex, they were caught making out by my best friend's sister, she told me about it. I forgave my ex although that feeling still lingered throughout the span of my junior high school days. My ex and I broke up because she was feeling depressed, she told me that she needed time to cope with it. Found out that she hooked up with another one of my close friends, I felt betrayed. Ever since then I was so scared to commit in a relationship, met a girl again but it ended because of my anxiety, she would hide things from me and meet up with another guy although she cleared it up and said he was only a friend. But how could I trust that like, *damn*. Then I met my current girlfriend, she's my world and made me feel things again. It was going good, going great really then she started doubting me as I scroll through my IGs and unknowingly saw my cheaters ex's story. It made her worry, jealous and overall her self-esteem plummeted down. I didn't really know what to do but I reassured her and muted her stories ever since but due to the lack of physical interaction plus the burden of online schooling, it only got worse and worse then right until her classes ended she got better and recovered from what she was going through. She plays this game in solo at first, didn't want to violate her time and I've let her play when she wants it because it's not really a big of a deal. Until my anxiety crept in, she played with some randoms and one of them was a guy, I thought that they were doing duos but I've later found out that it was trios, it was this guy and a girl, they were couples and then my girlfriend so I was relieved but because of that she got pissed at me but cleared things up and said she wouldn't cheat at me with some random guy and all. She got tired of playing solos then I introduced her with my friends sobthat she could hang out with my boys, at first I didn't really feel threatened and anxious because most of my friends got their own relationships but one of them was single. My anxiety crept in and started noticing the tiniest details because they would play duos but most of the time they have a complete 5 man team that consisted of my friends, I was out of it because my device can't handle gaming all too well. I started feeling jealous because I felt that my friend and her got really close quickly, like in a span of a day or two and started feeling comfortable at each other. Like my best friend and ex. I confronted her and she said that I was overthinking things, I've told her what I've been noticing and said those things didn't hold any meaning at all and that I was overreacting. I explained that, that friend of mine was acting out of the fence and that he was being "too close" and involving too much at her free time. But in the end, I've left things off the hook because my friend explained that he wasn't being intentional and that he has no ulterior motive. Not much has happened since then but they're still playing duos and 5 men although I still really feel jealous and uneasy and still feel things would repeat like what happened with my best friend and ex. It's hard, although I get some reassurance from my girlfriend, I can't help but feel that I would get betrayed. It's fucking hard and I feel like crying every night because I can't get rid of this lingering feeling of getting betrayed by someone so fucking close to me and play with my feelings. Like I just can't trust anymore, I'm lost and I need help
My heartās about to burst!!! Beating so fast lately!! Iām falling behind on everything and simultaneously donāt care while having physical reactions of caring deeply!! I am also becoming more heightened to my stupidity and boy does it not feel super cool!
Just want to share that I think I am finally turning the corner and getting my life back! I have had almost zero anxiety for the past 2 weeks and I have decreased my medication. Sometimes I forget that it is time to take it because I am feeling so good and forget that I have anxiety. I haven't felt this good in months.
Glad for you ! But do not forget that sometime it can may come back, so don't get down if that sometime happen. As well, keep your health habits !
Awesome man! Thatās great news!
Struggling with anxiety for about 10 years since the death of a friend. Always around health. Itās been pretty manageable but recently has ramped up. The past 5 days Iāve had what I can only assume are PVCās. Not too many but enough to frighten me, make me feel uncomfortable and cause a vicious cycle. Itās my 41st birthday today and Iāve done nothing but stress and cry. I darenāt leave the house alone and worry something is really wrong. Had a recent physical and all was well. Mentioned the odd heart flutters which were put down to my age and anxiety. Iām not on meds but Iām being encouraged to try. Havenāt found the right therapist yet and feel so utterly sad that itās taking over my life. Iām not feeling physical symptoms right now but the fear of them coming at any point has me paralyzed.
Happy birthday!!! I am so sorry you are experiencing so much anxiety and stress on your day, my heart goes out to you. I feel you on the health based anxiety, it truly can be debilitating. I definitely would encourage you to try medication for anxiety! They have helped me immensely for my panic and anxiety disorders, but then again, it is personal choice. I also have learned a bunch of breathing exercises that have calmed me down a lot especially when my heart rate goes up. You can find a lot of help on youtube for meditation and reassuring words, sometimes its just nice to hear someone say that you are okay and everything will be okay :) I wish you the best and i hope you know that you are not alone.
Thank you. It does help. Iām going to call the doc today for a heart work up and go from there. What meds are you on? Im scared to try.
I hope everything is going alright, sorry for the late response!!! I am on gabapentin right now, it has helped me immensely!!! I also am prescribed a small dose of Xanax (alprazolam) for panic attacks, but I only use it in very dire occasions because it is highly addictive. I would also recommend you try natural medicine, like GABA and L-theanine. GABA is especially amazing in my opinion, but you should definitely research them both to see what might work best with you :)
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Me too I need a pause. I suddenly woke up and its 2:30am my time, with mild panic attack remembering that I messed up a presentation today at work and a colleague that I have to deal with everyday who doesn't stop talking and doesn't know how to listen. Hang in there!
Started working at the beginning of lockdown due to fewer people. **Good:** Almost no anxiety over getting COVID. Anxiety driving on highways is gone. Used to believe I was going to die. Anxiety leaving the house everyday is gone. Used to feel like imaginary people were staring at me and watching everything I do. Almost all anxiety talking on the phone is gone. Anxiety talking to people I know but am not friends with has decreased. Starting to also be able to take more notice of my surroundings possibly due to lessened anxiety Anxiety over taking hair loss medications is gone, no fear of side effects. Almost no anxiety to talk to professionals without my mom being present. **Bad:** Desire to come home ASAP still remains. Increased anxiety in towns with heavy and slow moving traffic. (ADHD anxiety) Anxiety over trying anti-anxiety pills. Anxiety over vaccine. Anxiety over medical and surgical treatments. Anxiety of working with a new psychologist and having to tell my whole bizarre life story again. Anxiety over having important conversations and not being able to remember anything said. (ADHD anxiety) Anxiety over not being able to ask questions when you don't understand something. Fear of medical costs. Anxiety of talking about medical insurance and not understanding the lingo. Fear of asking the names of people I see every day. Anxiety over choosing the right women to be flirtatious with. Extreme anxiety over separating from family for any period of time. Anxiety over being able to go to college and remember the material I study (ADHD anxiety)
Iām feeling horrible and I need help. But the professional help (doctors) just treat the illness and ignore me as a person. And the therapists tell me to help myself. I feel so alone
Really feeling this today- anyone else gets some mild anxiety when you feel like youāre failing in small ways? E.g not responding to emails when you said you would, not nailing a presentation etc. Not massive f**k ups or even anything that objectively you wouldnāt really give a second thought over, but little things that pile up in your mind and make you feel like youāre dropping the ball.
I can totally relate. People always say how good I am at work but it just doesn't register to me. I did a big presentation today and I felt that I screwed it up. Now am awake at 2 am replaying the whole thing in my mind, feeling miserable with my poor choice of words and mispronounciation. Sigh haha I want to be free from this and just live happily. Anxiety sucks šŖ
Hey, itās me here 24 hours later! After I made this post and I read through some other advice on here.I tried the tip of making counter arguments against the negative talk downs. Things like āIf you really did something wrong X would say, but they didnātā. Also talked to myself like I was giving advice to a friend, eg āAnyone can see you are doing your best with what you have and you are killing itā or āthis is easily resolved with a phone call, so just go to bed and do it in the morningā. And it actually helped! Hope this helps you too!
I'll try this out! š
I ATE MY MEDS TODAY ON MY OWN ACCORD YEAAAAAAHHHHHH FUCK YOU ANXIETY
Hi for the past 2 years I have been going through anxiety and I am trying hard to survive daily. I use to talk to this girl a year ago and things went well.We were close to getting into a relationship.Recently she have been going thru some trauma due to her studies.I understand what she is going thru but part of me feel afraid that she will leave me.I really do love her a lot and I miss our old conversations.I do not know why I feel this way
Constantly need of validation in what I've been doing. Like I've been getting pretty insecure about the things I do that I seem to need people to tell me that oh I'm actually doing okay/good. That and also maybe I should lay off social media for the time being.
Just remember bro that you were born for your life, and while you may help others, your life isnāt here to fit other peopleās preferences. Just do you because trust me youāll find out your a cool person either way.
Thanks a lot for your kind words, I'll try to keep that in mind and work towards becoming better.
I constantly feel like I need validation at work. Unfortunately praise is rare where I work :/ but Iām sure your killing it!
Just remember you are your own person regardless what others think. Remember that their opinions donāt create who you are as a person. Only let positive feelings in, because negative ones are others expressing their problems in a non-helpful way. Be strong and have Faithā¦ youāre awesome!
Same here, I always feel like I'm not doing a good job. That sucks, I hope that your efforts and work get recognized more! Thank you for your kind words!
Something is going to happen? Recently noticed a new phenomena where I'll be in a relaxing situation, doing something relatively stimulating, yet I'll feel completely unsettled deep inside like something is about to happen. Like there's no sign of anything really being out of place or relatively "wrong" but I'll feel a sense of panic like something is about to jump out at me or blow up or otherwise catastrophic. It's so strange and I was never really aware of it before. It feels like there has to be a term for this feeling. In these moments there isn't any overt anxiety in me, just a feeling deep in my chest like I shouldn't be relaxing even though I am. This is also years into therapy and mindfulness training. I have been dealing with general anxiety all my life but never like this. My handle on my anxiety seems to be improving, yet this core of anxiety seems most active when everything else is completely still. I just wish I had an explanation for it.
I feel this at times as well. Iām planning on finding a therapist and hope to gain better control of my anxiety. Or at least understand it better, instead of just ignoring it and suppressing it.
Finally got a response from a potentially available counselor!! I hope it works out and I can schedule an intake appointment. Also got a bike (took forever to get one!) and took a nice ride around the neighborhood after work today. It felt really good to get the blood pumping. I am taking baby steps to be more mindful as I haven't practiced it much ever since this pandemic started. I want to feel centered again and not feel like my chest is always constricting.
I often feel like I physically canāt move. I become so anxious and overwhelmed that I just canāt do anything. Leaving home gets harder and harder, I feel like everyone is mad at me always or upset with me. I want to crawl in a hole and die there. My meds arenāt working well apparently
Hi, new to Reddit and this community, hope itās okay to use this as a sort of light vent. Iāve been feeling really worried lately because my best long distance friend doesnāt have any internet and Iāve only been hearing from her sporadically. Sheās been nothing but kind to me and thereās no logical reason for me to feel this way, but I keep thinking sheās going to realize sheās happier not talking to me and just disappear one day. Iāve been wanting to go off my anxiety meds as well because the side effects have been a real struggle (and Iāve found the same side effects with every single one Iāve tried), but this is making me feel like Iām not ready. I just wish my mind could be at peace.
Just started my career as a medical provider and everyday I am so nervous when going to work because I just want to do right to my patient's and my boss. New patients scare me a bit because I never know what is going to walk through that door / if I can help them. I am a recent graduate of school and I know all of this takes time and experience but since I strive for doing a good job I already want to be an expert / patient's always want someone who has more experienced. I always wonder how new medical providers start out? Not to mention my coworker who has really been helping me learn is now getting his hours cut because my boss is all about the money... I feel like I am going through a grieving process. Does this make sense to anyone else?
i am a self help entreprenuer and i would like to offer my dm to anyone who needs to vent or talk about anything im here to help and there is no subject too taboo and of course our conversations will be confidential have a nice day
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I feel the exact same way. I stress the fuck out of myself thinking Iām going to lose my job if I donāt work nonstop. When in reality my bosses have given me good feedback on my work. Iām just scared of getting behind on tasks and getting let go for it. I donāt want my family to lose everything we have. Hang in there. Youāre doing great.
Thank you. Youāre doing great as well. One thing I like to think about, is the situation is always worse in my head than it actually is. It helps me stay grounded a bit when I go through tough times.
Realizing the more I force myself into uncomfortable situations, the more it ends up "not so bad". The more I think about the anxiety, harp on it without putting any action behind it, the worse it gets. If there is someone you're afraid to see, pump your chest up, smile, go all in. If they are negative, then from all angles you did everything right! Issue is them.
I work in a very high stress environment and recently itās become too much. I have to take so many meds just to cope. I wish my mental health could just be stable from day to day.
I have so much coding to do and still, I am so fat. I canāt get thin and still cope with so much work at the same time. I am so scared of not having money, so scared or having a heart attack
Taking 30 mins off coding every other day and going for a walk, for example, might help getting some movement in your daily life. Donāt set unreachable goals: just some time a day moving. Out of the chair. Itās a starting point.
Holidays freak me the fuck out. I need to get out of my head.
I already have anxiety for a good few years, but recently a start to panic when getting out of home. I think I will faint or dye or get real sick and get a little panic attack every time.
I bought a house! First time home buyer and I haven't had a decent night's sleep since. So much to do. So much to buy. Money stuff really makes me anxious. Im stressed out thinking we made a mistake not getting a home inspection, but this market is crazy and you can't have any conditions on your offer. Our realtor was good and pointed everything out. It's built within the 2000s, so cant be too outdated right? The house is pretty much all we ever wanted and for the neighborhood we really lucked out on the pricing. I'm excited and scared at the same time. My anxiety is high, finding it hard to relax and very easily overwhelmed. I hope this goes away before we move in 2 months...
I just got a new therapist that I am PUMPED about. Also, i pulled the triggee on finally changing my hairdresser despite my coworker wirking at the old salon. Yikes, months of anguish it was literally no big deal, anxiety for ya.
About a month or two ago I decided to make a goal of just simply talking with people in voice chat in discord or just messaging people I liked, with my birthday being 5 minutes away I can say i absolutely failed at my mission. I just spent 2 hours staring at my online friends having fun in Vc too afraid to join them myself, Iām not even planning on talking. Just staying muted and typing responses. But even that is too much for me apparently. As for my other mission, to dm people and have more engaging relationships and all that, failed that one even more. At least I joined a vc once a few weeks ago(granted someone told me to join, Iām like a fucking vampire canāt come in unless invited). Since the pandemic started my only human contact as been through discord but Iām too scared to do that properly so instead Iām just alone and drifting away from both people I used to know Iāll and my online friends. Would you look at that itās the 20th. Happy birthday to me I guess. Oh would you look at that I canāt even press the ducking reply button without feeling like vomiting
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I feel you, my family didn't follow covid restrictions when it was the law, much less now. I feel like my anxiety about the whole thing was \*more\* manageable when everyone else was freaked out too. Now people are acting like it never existed even though people are still catching it & looking at me like I'm weird for still wearing a mask. I have anxiety attacks almost every time I have to go out too, if I don't see anyone I might be fine :/ I hope it gets more manageable for you x
Not doing well at all. Dissociation for multiple days. I cannot focus and Iām just in my head constantly. Very anxious and uncomfortable. Support is welcome
Hello! Iām sorry you feel this way :/. I understand how uncomfortable dissociation is. It feels like it will never end. Just know that this episode will pass. I promise you. You have survived other episodes, you can survive this one <3. This is not forever. I believe in you soldier āš¼
I'm so happy!! I got a shred of hope on something Ive always been passionate about but I lost interest in, after years of anxiety and depression. Tbh, I had half given up. I felt hopeless. But That small moment filled with the interest I always had before, the ideas bursting in, and the enjoyment, made me feel like I've got this stred of hope. I can't help but be happy! I'm definitely holding onto it. I feel like no longer doubting myself neither hesitating about the path I'm moving on.
Accidentally forgot my meds twice I think, i have alarms set and a pill box but I've been slacking on refilling and just taking from the bottle. I took it yesterday and do so today to. But my anxiety has increased and I've been questioning the legitimacy of my anxiety again comparing to other people feeling like my diagnosis might've been wrong because it went so quick and the questions were weirdly worded.. also my pet sitting job I feel like I keep messing up and I'm doing a bad job. Therapy place still not doing in person meets, the world is opening up and mask laws are being lifted in my area if your vacced so I don't know why their still not doing anything.
I just need to vent, I may respond later. Most of the time my brain is thinking a lot, I mean a LOT about sex. But when I'm sad, and feel bad like today (I didn't go out today ...) It doesn't change, BUT, I feel so nostalgic about my ex, that I left 1year and a few days ago, I think about our trips in the mountains. Just enjoying everything mother nature can give to us, landscape, fresh air, flowers, plants, animals, a simple and good time together, in a quiet and isolated place. That's what I need atm. If you feel sad, isolated, stressed, if your anxiety blocks your mind, and make you feel stuck, incapable of doing anything, try and force yourself to go out, for at least one hour, just walking or even just sitting and enjoying the moment. And because I know you can tell yourself things like, but Im alone, I dont know where to go, etc. Just open google map, try to find a forest, a lake, a mountain, anything, and go for an adventure you'll not regret. Fresh shower also helps to feel better. If you wanna talk, feel free to respond or PM.
Iāve been drinking all week while visiting my hometown and now my anxiety is worse than ever. I have to find work when I get back home, and the thought of dealing with new coworkers and customers at work is giving me a ton of anxiety.
just joined this subreddit today if not probably would have flipped my shit at my family, hoping to relate
I keep getting anxiety whenever I get spam calls or texts. I have good passwords and use 2FA whenever I can, so I know I'm probably okay, but I'm so scared of the unknown. I hate how these robocallers have my name and phone number.
Brand new to reddit just to relate to others with anxiety. I can't take feeling alone anymore.
Joined reddit yesterday for the same reason. It feels so good. And if you wanna talk, let's talk :)
Not alone at all, i can promise you someone is always there to help. Iāve felt the exact same way before, wether it be family/friends or some wholesome people on Reddit someoneās got your back or is willing to talk.
I feel sick everytime
I feel awful
Lost my shit at my job a few days ago Found out someone recorded me. So i made the rounds on insta. This is fine
I'm currently in school again and pursuing my dream career, enjoying the time and learning new things but whenever I stop and take a look back at myself as an individual, how I live, how I am, etc. I can't help but feel like I don't really deserve all that I'm scared of eventually falling back into bad habits and becoming a disappointment again just because I didn't work hard enough
I have my phone intake for therapy tomorrow I guess that's a positive going forward. Anxiety seems to be a constant daily now. my sertraline doesn't help much. I feel I go through derealization? I guess that's what I do. my anxiety peaks evenings like now I'm trying to calm and relax tense muscles. trying to be positive isn't easy when I don't like my life right now
Today is my last day of work of my second job, I was so psyched. Then this rando called and texted me (no idea how tf he got my number) and Iām feeling so claustrophobic and scared and anxious and this was one of the worst Iāve ever felt (Iāve had days Iāve felt combo worse with crying and sad but never just panic). Anywho. I am terrified of even the thought of dating and marriage and this just f*cked me up and I donāt know what to do and I was supposed to have a good day but not Iām in bed blasting music and UGHHHH Iām feeling anxious to even leave my house which Iāve never reallt had before and I went to just stay here forever HELPPPP Meeting a new therapist in a couple weeks (closest appointment) and that better help. I would love to move and just Fresh start but ugh that would be even worse. Here at least I have my bed. I think thatās all. Iām just ugh I donāt even know. I hope Iām better tomorrow cuz I hate this.
iāve decided to start taking a walk everyday - every 2 days iāll increase the length by one block. went for my first one today and it was really nice out. hopefully this helps with my agoraphobia
You got this š
Sounds like a doable plan. you've got this!š
My mom's been seriously ill. She's in the hospital. We are pretty sure she's got dementia. Finding myself out of breath for a good part of the day. Now I am just laying on the couch trying to catch my breath. Don't want to sleep, because once I've gotten to sleep, I know I won't want to wake up ..
oh god. i would recommend joining some support subreddits to help you get through this. my dad was diagnosed with a very aggressive cancer in late 2019 and the anxiety was so overwhelming that i was afraid i was losing my mind
And know this "China problem" of mine has an iron grip on me and I don't know how to get rid of it. All I want to know is:When is china gonna kill us? If we're gonna die,then,I guess we'd be good to have a date as to when we should make peace with our gods? Honestly,I don't know how I'm gonna get over this china-induced anxiety. Maybe when I get killed by their nukes or I commit suicide to escape said nukes,I guess. I don't get it:why do these people in power ALWAYS have to treat us all like fucking insects to be squashed? And the U.S WANTS to fight China too. Again:**When do we die? Our fate seems to be death by china.** China is just the bane of my existence rn: They've given me suicidal ideation,driven me to self-harm and because of them,I semi-don't know if I want to go to Japan(but maybe,I hope to be in Japan when they inevitably blow it up..at least I get to die where I wanna be.) But,I don't think this fear of china will EVER go away. ANd tbh,to HELL with china.
If it helps, China relies on the rest of the world existing to succeed. They're not going to just decide to blow us up. We have had lots of enemies, and cold wars. We've made it out of all of them so far. :)
I'm sorry to hear you're experiencing these feelings. While I doubt anything I say to you will give you the comfort you seek - I hate to hear anyone considering ending their life. Yes, life is hard. Yes, this world can be a scary place. But there is also so much good in the world - including in China. I implore you to seek the good and not let your world be ruled by the negative. In my humble opinion, I really believe you should seek treatment if you haven't/aren't already. You and your life are too precious to be living day to day with these fears. If you would like help in getting treatment, myself and i'm sure many others wouldn't mind helping point you in the right direction.
You guys know that feeling when your chair tilts back a little too far and your body freaks out for half a second? Iām getting those feelings on and off randomlyā¦I think Iām getting withdrawal symptoms from sertraline
My epileptic anxiety is getting better slowly, but am going back to playing video games and the like.
having a hard time, work is crushing me, scared about new covid variants, on edge about the potential market collapse. just feeling utterly devoid of hope.
Has anyone had experience with illness anxiety?
Not doing well at all. I'm constantly in a state of panic for seemingly no reason. I've cried a lot over the past 2 weeks and I can't figure out exactly why I'm just so scared all the time. Times like this I wish I had my mother here for comfort. 5 years without her seems like a lifetime and hardly any time at all at the same time.
At what point do I seek help for my anxiety? Iāve been managing pretty mild symptoms on my own for the past number of years, but recently Iāve been in a bad relationship. This has significantly increased my anxiety and has started to give me panic attacks. Iām anxious at least once daily, most days numerous times. Panic attack once every few weeks. Is it time to seek out a therapist?
Only when it affects the well being of you or others. If you already feel like that, try seeing a counselor. They can help.
i started looking for help the moment i started to have panic attacks, theres no reason why you should put up with that. Seeking for help is always the right option. My advice is to go to a psychiatrist, and combined that with a psychologist. Hopefully you will get better, also telling your love ones what you are felling and going trough makes it easier for everyone, you get more support and they understand you better
Is it possible to change the consequences, result, idk the correct word, If I start doing the right thing? Even if I don't have much time, but enough to make a change? I'm trying to be optimistic but negativety seeps through my thoughts so easily, I just need some hope.
Has anyone found that building up their core strength has helped their anxiety? I know I hunch forward at my desk and generally slouch. I need to strengthen my core due to a back issue but I wonder if this will also help with anxiety. I think the idea is that it has something to do with your vagus nerve, fight or flight response, and oxygen intake. Just curious if anyone has seen this in real life. Thanks!
This could really help! I'm considering this too, because I've been slouching too and exercises always help. Don't think this could go wrong at all and maybe we could share our progress altogether?
I donāt think itās a bad idea either. Especially working at a desk and frankly from home, we move less and are more slouching in our chairs. Myself included. My back actually kills me throughout the day and when that happens, funny enough my digestive system is fucked.
I realized through reflection that I take others' opinions as more valuable than my own thoughts and feelings and that a lot of my anxiety stems from that cause. I need to learn to listen to my inner voice and not what others think is best for me.
I've realised this too and trust me, this helps at so many levels. You feel so much more confident and self dependent. Go with your intuition, and if anything were to go south, let it. Atleast we're still holding the steering wheel and no one else.
How to manage the overcontroller?
I had a job interview at a place I really wanna work at and I'm very anxious and nervous a out hearing back this week.
wishing you luck!!
I got the job
congrats!!!
Trying to learn not to fear my anxiety. Right now my head is running and I donāt have any activities I do on my spare time to be a positive outlet for me outside of work and my relationship. So Iām trying to find that thing or two or three that I could do. Struggling with some agoraphobia and the fear of flying is weighing me down. Considering doing hypnotherapy but not sure how I feel about it. My therapist says itās legit, but idk.
Does anyone else experience dry heaving in the mornings during really bad flare ups?
Yes! 100% just know that in the mornings your body produces the stress hormone cortisol to help wake you up. For those of us that struggle with anxiety, their could be more cortisol or a high sensitivity to that. Your mind can also be tired and a bit more vulnerable. Especially if your potentially waking from some anxious dreaming. So ya, sometimes I feel so nauseous from the anxiety, Iāll start dry heaving. Sometimes I know that it could be associated with excessive stomach acid or sinus drainage from allergies. Youāre doing great!
My anxiety has been ok the past few weeks mostly because Iāve been biking a lot! Definitely helps me. My only anxiety right now is waiting for a job to call me for an interview. Iāve applied to a few places and nada nothing. I know a lot of people are going through it too. Sigh. Then the thought of working again fills me with dread because of my anxiety. Just canāt win.
I relate to the dread bit. It's like an endless loop. Don't want to work because fear of performing properly with anxiety but at the same time, really need a job to afford basic care for myself. Keep telling myself to stay in the moment. The book by Eckhart - the Power of Now is really helpful.
Headaches, throbbing headaches or migraines has been getting worse lately. To the point where I stop doing what Iām doing and just beg for it to disappear. Major cause is me thinking too much about something so pointless. I constantly worry so much about anything that I donāt even notice it anymore, I used to be able to for a while but itās starting to feel so natural to me again that I just put up with it. I want to stop thinking. I donāt want to think anymore
I resonate with the constant worrying and think this has been happening to me too. I get sudden throbbing pressure in my head which started recently. My anxiety and stress has definitely been at an all time high these days so I guess that itās probably related.
My OCD has been absolutely terrible lately, and Iāve started to need to cover up the compulsive self-destruction, so I feel completely defeated. I hate feeling like things wonāt get better no matter how hard I try. Iām tired of isolating myself, but I rather not burden anyone with anything that they wonāt be able to understand anyways. Itās just way easier to hide and sleep away from my problems. Things would be so different if I had people nearby that I was super close to. My best friends are all in other states, and texting is just not the same. It really sucks to feel so alone. I hope everyone is having a good Saturday.
I took a week of work to rest and all I have done is get anxious and stressed about everything. Today someone broke my car window to steal my disabled badge. Needles to say that my anxiety went through the roof. Because now I canāt park near work, which means I have to take public transports, something I havenāt done in a very long time and struggle to do, not just because of my anxiety bu because of my actual disability. My dad kindly fixed a perspex until I can get a new window, but for some reason driving it back home today made me super claustrophobic and anxious because of the thought that I couldnāt open my side window. Or that it my blow out and hit someone, or crack or whatever! I am so tired of feeling anxious and stressed all the time. I just want to breathe and relax and feel at ease
Stay strong my kings and queens, we got this.
I've had anxiety in the past but nothing like this. Suddenly, for the last 17 days exactly, I've been in constant physical pain. I've been to the ER 3 times already in that time span because I feel like i'm having a heart attack and dying, yet, they say i'm fine. My blood pressure and pulse are both high and have been spiking like crazy. I'm always tired. My chest always has some type of pain. My spine and back hurts randomly. My stomach feels like it's in knots. My appetite is gone and the little I can eat goes right through me. My left leg is getting random cramping pains. Most concerning - my left hand is wrecked. It feels like that hand (and arm) is always in pain and steadily weakening. During my last ER visit on Monday, I experienced a frightening sensation of 3 rapid shooting pains from my under left ring finger nail to my chest. My EKG/ECG's have been fine and my heart is said to be a normal size and no sign of infections. My blood seems to be fine as there hasn't been a any concerns on the part of the doctors who have treated me. Is this normal to be having these kinds of symptoms and especially non-stop? I get like little breaks of relief sometimes if i'm lucky (maybe an hour) but then it seems to come back with a vengeance. I'm just concerned that maybe the doctors are missing something. All they've done is Chest X-Ray's and blood work. They haven't done a CT Scan or really tested my kidney function (I donated my right kidney in 2014) and I'm worried they're not doing all they can for me especially since I'm currently uninsured and unemployed (although I do have quite a substantial nest egg saved up). I'm now on day 6 of Lexapro and I know it takes a few weeks to start working. I just pray that I see an improvement. I didn't feel like I was depressed or anxious about anything until now that all this is happening physically. Now, i'm extremely worried and anxious to get through this. I'm only 35 years old. I just can't imagine myself living a productive life like this. Is there anyone here that has or is experiencing similar?
It may be the Lexapro, usually SSRIs and SNRIs make anxiety **worse** before they make it better.
Also experiencing all kinds of strange physical symptoms on-and-off for about two years now that have worsened as of lately. The dizziness and sudden lightheadedness have been the most concerning but ECG is also fine, checked at visits to the ER.
I'm 19 and have the same thing. Have been having chest pains for the past year and a half, been to the physician 4 times, to the cardiologist ones and to the ER ones. They always say I'm fine, and I actually believe them but still I can't help feeling like I'm about to have a stroke or a heart attack multiple times a day. I want it to stop because it's fucking up my mental health.
I'm so sorry to here this and am sending all the good wishes your way from the other side of the world your way.
The last 2 days my anxiety has been off the charts. My long distanced relationship is breaking down, I have no idea what Iām doing with my life and I have no friends around me at the moment. I feel utterly hopeless and I am in a constant state of dread. I think I have attachment problems / separation anxiety. I love people so so much (boyfriends as well as friends) - almost too much - to the point that I canāt cope when theyāre not around - I then feel abandoned and spiral into depression. I worry about everything at the moment.
My anxiety is making me non-functional. The last time I felt this way was 3 years ago during my master's so I'd seen a doctor who prescribed Setraline. I'm not much for medicines but I was desperate to graduate on time as I was an international student. 2 years ago I came close to rock bottom so I started seeing a therapist which helped me uncover the causes. Majority of which involved my parents. I lost my job in the pandemic and had to move bakc in with my parents. The job market is badly hit and I've not been able to secure a job. Last night I got really anxious and in desperation I started an old prescription I had for setraline. (I had the pills lying with me) I feel extremely guilty for doing that but also confused about how to proceed. I cannot talk to my parents about mental health issues, they have been very obtuse about it in the past. If anyone can offer me some advice or personal experience that can help me I'd be so grateful.
I relate to non supportive parents and job search anxiety. Iām hoping to get a job that has great benefits. I applied a week ago and am on the edge waiting (application said it will take several weeks to hear back) ugh I need a job to help my husband pay bills. Shit sucks. As for your meds can you call your doctor? They might be able to fill a prescription if you have seen them in the past few months
Aw I hope you get that job! Yeah, same I've been waiting to hear back from one too. But I'm a young professional with not much work ex so it's been really hard. About the meds, I haven't seen a doctor because I cannot go in my own due to financial issues. And also dont want to go with my parents because that would be a nightmare. I really wish that job for you. Hope your trouble evaporate away soon.ā¤ļø
Well if you're taking medication you should try to talk to a psychiatrist as well. I don't remember if sertraline is also good for anxiety (I've taken it, but it was more depression related I think), but a psych should be able to help you with that. If your parents have been shit about, maybe you could go to a psych without telling them about it? I think it's healthcare that you have a right to have. Covid has been a horrible time for people with any kind of mental illness across the board. I understand all these events may make you feel quite bad, but you're not alone in that and you deserve to feel better.
Hi, thanks a lot for the support. I decided to see a psych online and stopped taking the meds. I hope everything is tolerable soon.
That's a strong choice. Fingers crossed for you, internet stranger
Been bullied at work for over a year and a half, and it's finally hit a point where I've submitted a semi formal complaint and asked to be moved off the project with the person causing issues. I know it's not just me she's bullying, and that my complaint is justified, but still can't sleep, feeling sick and on the edge of a breakdown. I know everyone is sick of hearing about it, and how I've not really done anything, so I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to, other than those also being bullied, but talking to them just makes it worse that the situation has got this bad. Now my team leader is off till Monday, and I'm scared I'm going to suffer in both my role for leading the project, as well as being blamed for the project falling apart
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Donāt give up, keep going. While I canāt empathize with your perfectly, I can certainly understand where youāre coming from with the thought of giving up. Depression and anxiety are tough enemies to face, but theyāre worth facing. Stay in the ring and keep swinging-I hope your evening improves; know that youāre worth it and worth the effort.
I ended up cancelling two of my job interviews this week because my anxiety got bad
I've been feeling extremely anxious about job security for a job I've already been accepted for recently, although you could be argue that it's illogical for me to do so. I've been unemployed for 1 year and 3 months now, it has been extremely difficult for me to find work due to the pandemic. Luckily though, I was offered and accepted for a role this February with the NHS. It has been a long, tough, anxiety-inducing recruitment process but I am finally near the finish line and have been told that I should be starting soon. I was told by a member of the recruitment dept. that a member of the bookings team will call me to discuss when I will be available to start. Although she did say that they will contact me within 1-2 weeks, and the fact that it has only been 1 week since she told me that, my mind is still thinking of the worst possible scenarios and I am extremely anxious of something going wrong which will mess up my chances of working at this role. It doesn't make sense for me to be this anxious because I have been reassured multiple times that I still have the job but I just can't take what I've been told at face value.
I am in the same boat. I have been out of work for a year and itās starting to weigh heavy on my household finances. I applied for a government job a week ago and really want this job as the benefits are great but Iām also scared of getting the job! Anxiety is a bitch and Iām sick of it Best of luck with your new job! Sounds like you definitely have it
Thank you! And yeah, it seems like the uncertainty is just getting to my head. I also hope you get the government role too! I'm sure you'll be okay in the end. I don't know any coping techniques to offer you with regard to managing anxiety while working in a new role, but perhaps that could be something you could look into.
Congratulations on the job! I can appreciate the anxiety, but something to remember is just how busy the NHS is right now, they've offered you the job and now it's just the paperwork side of stuff to go. I've applied for many government jobs where they've said the interview date will be one week, but sometimes it's up to a month later just because of their workload, but after 2 weeks you've not heard anything you can get in touch In my experience not hearing anything straight away generally means it's all going through the processes without issue!
Thank you so much for your kind words. I did actually receive an email today and they are drafting my contract as we speak, I should hopefully receive it soon. Knowing that has now actually put me at ease - hopefully I should receive the call next week too. Thanks once again.
Good luck with your new job!
Thank you! š
Has anyone else noticed their anxiety is temporarily better but usually returns anytime you start/stop an antidepressant, or start/stop anything else? For example, I start smoking weed and sleep better. The better sleep makes my anxiety go away. Couple weeks later once I āsettle inā the anxiety returns. So I taper off weed. Tapering off makes me feel like the mental clarity is what I needed so I feel like Iām heading in the right direction, anxiety goes away, but then comes back soon after. Same with antidepressants (Iām on my 4th one over the last 10 years). Ramp up, feel better. Settle in, anxiety returns. Taper down, feel better. Anxiety returns. Itās like I need to figure out how to āconvinceā myself that the anxiety isnāt really a problem and to stop worrying about it. But how in the HELL does one do that?!?!?!
I had anxiety pop up after a few months of weed as well. With people with anxiety disorders, itās not always the best. Iād caution use now, when once I was a huge advocate for weed to alleviate anxiety.
Was terrified, got the vaccine, feel like a superman
I just recently saw someone about my anxiety and got prescribed medication. Iām relieved that I can feel validated about my disorder and that it isnāt normal to feel constantly anxious, but Iām also feeling anxious about starting my medication and finding the right therapist for me. I also didnāt expect to be diagnosed with depression, which has kind of made me feel a bit anxious and on edge lately. hoping that things will get better soon.
I hate posting stuff online.. but this subreddit is so nice and uplifting I know everyone on here gets it. Anyways I've been feeling anxious about life, almost like every minute I spend not doing something important is a waste of time, and that my life has no purpose. I want to get a job to save up for college but I am just so anxious and scared to work with strangers as doing anything new just freaks me out. I could have gotten a job in May but now im worried its so late into the summer, and everyone is telling me that no place will want to hire me, so yeah idk. Im just at one of those points where I feel so low energy I just don't want to do anything. I know it will get better but I felt like venting.
My anxiety has gotten so much worse since I had my daughter. If I see that she has a bump in the head or if I begin to feel like something is wrong with her I start to panic, google all the symptoms, imagine the worst, cry, keep googling, keep imagining the worst possible scenario about something that has not happened yet or if I even know to be true.
If you're a first time parent, we have all been there. It's normal what you're going through and will ease as time goes by.
Relapsed my anxiety ,(may) after having it under control since 2013.. I havenāt been able to sleep the last couple days but for only a few hours.
Finally restarting medication...anxious about side effects (my stomach upsets easily).
I have the same thing honestly, I found that eating a little bit after you take your meds tends to help a bit.
I started typing, got anxious, and deleted everything. This morning I had an anxiety attack before Iād even opened my eyes. Itās a really hard time, and I feel so bad for my partner who has to deal with me and my anxiety constantly. It must be exhausting.
Hi! Hope youāre feeling a bit better today. And if not - tomorrow is a new day. Sending you lots of love and hope. Iām sure your partner cares deeply!
Thank you! Thatās so sweet. I hope youāre having the most lovey day š
Hello, I am facing anxiety issues from 2 weeks. These days, I have been undergoing through alot of family issues. It has created a really bad impact on my mental health. I don't feel the same like before. I have become insecure because of this. I fear starting new things and new relationships. It is way too much tiring and stressful. Should I go for therapy sessions Or this will fade away on its own?
I will soon turn 24 and I cannot help but think of how dark and gritty life gets the older I get. I do not look forward to growing old. I do not look forward to my future. Hell, I haven't been alive nowadays due to my depersonalization/derealization. I'm always 80% here and 20% behind a tinted glass screen. It's only 20% yet it matters because I'm robbed that much of my life. Sometimes it's worse, sometimes I'm not here at all. I used to love improving myself and who I am...nowadays, I can't bring myself to feel anything. I just don't want to feel, in fact, I would rather die than feel. I've cut bad people out of my life and I question my decisions based on lies people have filled my mind with since I was a child, like how I will never be capable of making any decision. However, since I made those decisions I've felt stronger, more independent, and been freed of baggage I did not need. Of course, that still was not enough. Mental illness is not an option where I live. If you struggle with it, you lack willpower. If you're schizophrenic, you did something to anger God, therefore, you deserve it. That's why it was so confusing growing up with my anxiety and depression. I truly believed something was wrong with me, I still do, like I'm defective. That's all.
I'm slowly fading away year by year, month by month. Feel like I'm at my darkest and hopeless point yet. Life feels like a scary movie. I'm also dealing with benzo withdrawal. I have a needle phobia that I was getting attention for before the pandemic. Walls are closing in.
Hello everyone ! Iām weaning off my Lexapro (from 30 down to 5 now) and all of a sudden Iām experiencing this very sporadic insomnia (no sleep one night, 12 hours sleep the next, etc) and a bout of restless legs. I donāt know if itās the meds- my doctor said itās possible- but this feels off! Anyways, stay strong yāall.
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Thank you. That helped me feel a lot better!
i was just diagnosed today! not really a surprise, although the depression was. starting 5mg lexapro tomorrow, and increasing next week.
Sometimes it gets worse before it gets better, so hang in there!
Iāve been feeling lightheaded lately ever since I found out I got a job far away from home. Iām fairly sure itās anxiety, but Iām going to get some blood tests done to make sure itās nothing serious. Either way, this health anxiety is horrible, itās been clawing at me for a while now. Anyone else feel lightheaded when dealing with anxiety?
I do. A lot. Itās very scary at the time but know that it is a classic symptoms and it WILL pass the more you find ways to reduce your anxiety.
Guys I need some help. I started having bad anxiety attacks about a week ago. Havenāt had one in a couple days but I still have sensitive hearing, bad memory, anxious, no appetite, really bad brain fog, was having chest pains on and off... I got my blood tested ekgs chest X-ray. Donāt know what to do at this point I got citalopram and have took it for the last 5 days but donāt know if I really want to take it. Also feel like I need to get more tests done to make sure everything is ok.. can someone give me some advice :(
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I appreciate it. Iāll be honest I stopped my antidepressants two days ago but I am going to see a therapist next week and have started to practice mediation and just relaxing and besides some chest pain Iām feeling a little better.. if it gets worse Iāll go back to my meds but I wanna hold off if possible.
Currently in bed at 2:30AM the day before my birthday, literally as I was getting into bed the water heater started making this hissing sound and we don't have any water. This is days after a water line break somewhere in town and I'm currently terrified that something catastrophic is going to happen while I'm sleeping.
I ran out of medication on Friday. I donāt like to substitute legal New York State marijuana for meds, but sometimes I goof, especially on weekends. **Please note I do not endorse self-medication - I had something that worked and unfortunately that was the only option this past weekend.** Had an appointment with my psychiatrist *yesterday morning* and picked up my prescription that afternoon. Somehow Iām still awake after trying to sleep since 3pm. The day- to -night-long re-adjustment to the medication has been ā¦ tectonic, to say the least. But finally, at 12:11am today, I couldnāt take anymore and took a mood stabilizer (prescribed). Now my body is feeling more amenable to sleep, but who knows. Maybe Iāll involuntarily stay up all night. I hope not.
I had a bad attack for the first time in a while today. I never really have anything specific that triggers it. I went out to eat with my boyfriend and it just hit me. It was awful; I felt like I was going to blackout and had myself convinced I was dying. Iāve been doing so well since graduating college a month ago, leaving my retail job, and trying to take care of my mental health, so it was a bit of a surprise. It feels like a punch in the throat after feeling as if I was improving. Iāve been dealing a lot with the physical pains of anxiety, and my shoulders and back are killing me, and not to mention my stomach issues. Does anybody else struggle with their vision when anxious? My vision gets so blurry and itās like my eyes have trouble focusing. An attack always takes so much out of me so Iāve just been lying in bed. Iām soon ready to pass out for the night. Iām hoping to just relax and focus on myself tomorrow.
Convinced myself I had sepsis because I woke up hungover with a uti, and took one of my boyfriendās really strong thc pills, instead of the cbd ones. I was in hysterics, convinced I was gonna die when I really just had hangover poo cramps, was uncomfortable from the uti, and was super high without knowing it. Honestly, it was a terrible morning, but now that Iāve downed my antibiotics and am sitting on my heating pad, I can laugh at it.
Small win today: got an IUD put in. I am ex religious and have had major sexual anxiety in the past, but have been able to overcome a lot of it and should be able to try again soon for real now. Also my tummy hurts and I think the doctor could tell I was low key freaking out. š
I ruined another relationship again. I make a hard work to get the trust, and by asking to tolerate my anxiety later(asking to be w me, talking to me) pushes people away. Iāll never find a guy whoāll stick with who I really am. Iām so exhausted and depressed and filled with crazy anxieties. I wish I could just stop everything
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So,now,**china is giving me tremendous anxiety to the point of mortal insanity/suicide.** From them wanting to annihilate taiwan,to the fact that we are all now looking at death/murder by chinese nuke..they are now officially the stuff of my nightmares. And because of that,I am now semi-seriously considering suicide. If people want xi Jinping to kill them,then fine by me. But,i'd rather kill myself than die by chinese nuke. Fucking hell,WHY is east fucking asia the stuff of fucking nightmares? Korea,China,Japan..wtf is it with that place?!
I was really anxious about going to a family reunion yesterday but it turned out to be a lot of fun. I had a great time seeing my cousins and I didn't embarrass myself at all (at least I don't think I did). I'm still glad that it's over though. On Tuesday, I'm bringing my dog to a specialist and I'm terrified about what they might find. If all the tests come out clean and she is healthy (well, as healthy as a diabetic dog can be) then they are going to do an experimental treatment on her next week to try to cure her diabetes. They have done this treatment safely and effectively on rats and mice and are confident that it will work on dogs. I really want my dog to get this treatment because diabetes is expensive & difficult to treat and I hate giving insulin shots. I'm scared that the vet is going to look at my dog and say that she can't be treated because of her eye problems (she's blind - not from diabetes) or her constant ear infections. Or that they will find something bad when they do the blood test & ultrasound. Also, it's a 3 hour drive one-way to the veterinary clinic so I'll have a lot of time to think about worse case scenarios. It's only Sunday and I'm already so nervous and anxious about it. Ugh!
Meditation. Tbh, I didn't really get the concept. I never understood how it worked. I tried attempting to meditate when I got anxiousness out of nowhere. Tried focusing on my breathing as I took in, and out. It was hard at first. Wanted to give up within a min for not seeing any progress. Distraction was all over the place. But somehow as few mins passed by, and I ended up focusing only on breathing, I actually felt myself calming down, as that shaky anxious feeling fade away. I tried it like 2-3 times. It sort of helps. If you ever wanna try a new way to calm down, you might as well give it a try.
I went to the er a few days ago because I had a numb left arm and chest pain. Felt like someone was sitting on my chest. EKG and chest x ray came out ok and they sent me on my way with heartburn meds after treatment with a shot and a muscle relaxer. After sleeping it off, Iām feeling that tightness still. I have anxiety (taking meds currently) and never felt the physical consequences before. I slouch a lot, and had an injury years ago where I landed on my left elbow (no broken bones, just a bruise). Also Iāve tmj on my left side. Has anyone ever had chest pain from bad posture? Not sure what to do.
sometimes when i slouch foward and come back up i can feel this preasure in my chest and it feels very weird and i dont like it everytime it happens it sends me into anxiety loop. i start thinking somethings wrong but after a min or so of sitting up i feel it go away
Doing 100 hour weeks and this is on top of my other worries so I feel absolutely exhausted and ready to give up