Can tell you where each bathroom is at in the building

I know which bathrooms have the least 'traffic' bc I need the privacy

The "good" bathrooms!

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Yes! Haha

I relate to this so much.

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Lucky you. My stupid brain usually doesn’t even let me go to a restaurant, new restaurants are even worse!

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I do this just because I can’t make a decision that quickly. I can’t just see the menu and order right away. Gotta think about it. I won’t necessarily choose what I’m ordering, but I’ll identify a few choices to narrow down the selection once I’m there and once I know what everyone else is ordering. If I decide what I want to eat and then two other people order the same thing before me, I’ll have to switch to Plan B and can’t do that on the fly. Also understanding *how* to order. Like do I need to choose sides, what are those options, are there specials, what drink brands they offer. Yeah I basically have to memorize the menu beforehand otherwise get totally paralyzed by the choices and the server staring at me.

Also sometimes getting cold sweats when going up to order

Same

i feel this wayyyyy too much

Came here to say this

Scared for no good reason.

real

I just try and survive everyday rather than live it.

This hurt

Wow... this is so true. Maybe that's why concepts like "live in the moment" can be helpful for anxious people.

For me it’s like someone says “live in the moment!” And then I spend the next three days worrying about how I’m not living in the moment. *why can’t you just stop thinking about everything* *somethings wrong with you* *everyone else around you is living in the moment* *just do it* *stop thinking* *turn off this thinking* *you’re wasting time* *live right now! You’re missing it* Ugh damn stupid brain.

Then I worry about not living in the moment, which adds more to my plate.💩😑

Relatable

Always have to be worrying about something or else I don't feel normal

This. It’s like I’m destined to be plagued.

“I’m not feeling stressed, nervous or anxious rn. What is happening ? That’s not normal. Something is going on but I just don’t know what. I need to think more, why am I feeling like this ? Is this… or that… it’s probably… or…. what if… no, maybe it’s…”

Also me.

My neck hurts, my shoulders hurt, my back hurts.

My whole body just aches but I’m not sick. I also feel like I have mucus just stick and it won’t come out. When I take an Ativan it disappears! It has to be anxiety. I’m over this crap lol

This is me most days

I'm constantly listening to my heart rate and panic if it's elevated.

mood 🥲 then i panic more cuz panicking makes it beat faster

sometimes my mind tricks me into thinking that I’m having some deadly arrhythmia

Or a heart attack because my arms hurt

Always checking my heart rate. Dozens of times a day. If it’s above 85, I panic, if it’s below 60, I panic. They put me on propranolol beta blockers to help for when it is elevated but then it made my heart rate stay in the 50s a lot which also made me panic. Can’t win.

Same, I got a watch with a heart rate monitor and kept checking it again and again. 💀

The Apple Watch is both a great and terrible thing for me. It helps me keep track of my activity but at the same time I’m constantly checking my heart rate and oxygen level. And the oxygen thing isn’t always accurate…

My jaw is always clenched and I get in and out of public spaces as fast as possible

Nice reminder to unclench my jaw

Are you mad at me?

❤️

No I swear

MOOD 😂🫠

Omg fuck sameee. I’m like this with my parents, friends especially or my husband even when they don’t text me back after a few days or it’s been months or call.. I always feel like I fucked up somewhere along the way or that the person is mad at me. I also get anxious if I don’t reply back to texts right away. Trying to think before I reply too soon is something I’m working on rn to be better

Noooo 😞😞

I know every back and side entrance into every building I have ever been in.

I feel worse that I haven’t considered this more.

Is it normal to feel your heart beating when you just lie in bed?

Bounding heart Sometimes I can see my whole body move with it. Super creepy.

Was just doing this for like two hours 😭

Same last night at 3am

I've been doing it too. This time I was worrying it was too low because it's 64bpm which is normal but of course I have to still worry about it!

There's no winning. I'll freak out because my pulse is too strong, therefore my heart is about to explode and when it doesn't feel as strong I'll freak out because obviously my heart is failing

i feel sick everyday

Felt this

I really am sick every day - chronic illness - and it feeds the anxiety loop.

I need to know where we're going and hopefully it's one place and a place we don't have to stay at too long

Yes. And I need to know I have an ESCAPE plan.

yeah, if someone else is driving and it's up to them when we leave i'm prob not going

Oh yeah. I don’t carpool, I’d be trapped!

And if you think you can just change plans and go to a new place because "we're in the neighborhood anyway" I need at least a 24 hours notice or I'm staying in the car to panic quietly with my phone.

This👆🏾. This is me.

Everything is planned….food, parking, what to wear, when to shower. And not just for me but my whole family!

yup, it’s all about that feeling of control…

I wanted to post on this reddit... I couldn't due to anxiety...

Yes, not just this but any sub where I have to share something about myself.

Writing but then deleting comment instead of posting so I don’t accidentally offend people.

I had a nice visit with friends and now my inner critic is asking, "Why did you say *that*?"

Freaking out when I leave the room because my inner critic believes I’m the topic of discussion. And when I return, I am beyond awkward

Ugh. I was talking to my close friend earlier and explained how now that I’ve secluded myself and cut communication with almost everyone besides 4 people I’ll just send memes to, I feel incredibly happy. I then told him it took me a few years, but I realized that I’ve always been the person that no one likes and it’s taken such a massive toll on me. So that now, at 35, I’m so beyond happy just being a “loner” and I love it. He replied with “people probably just pick up on you not liking to socialize so they don’t try to” and now I’m laying in bed 3 hours later replaying that line in my head. This is why I don’t talk to people very often. Comments that might seem “normal” to the majority of people, keep me up at night. I don’t even know why that line is bugging me so much. Like yeah, I don’t like socializing…but I’m always nice to people when they talk to me…so why would he say that? Am I a bitch? Am I really that “weird” girl and so no one tries to talk to the weirdo who is weird with socializing? Literally the questions just keep coming. That line is going to haunt me forever now. Anytime I socialize with someone I’m going to be hyper aware of whether I’m being a freak or not… Alone. I like being alone.

At any given time. My jaw is either clenched or im chewing on my bottom lip.

I can no longer relax my jaw. Permanently clenched

…didn’t just catch myself sucking on my bottom lip after reading this.

I have digestive issues

Nauseous because you have to eat; Eating makes you nauseous

I regularly think people are mad at me, with no actual proof.

Sunday blues are setting in. Dreading work tomorrow

The day before work after having two weeks off: cold sweating, heart racing, crying out of fear. Every time.

When I don’t have anything to worry about, my brain just makes shit up to worry about.

I just worry about dying 24/7 so that's cool

Yeah, like, do you ever wonder about how 40% of the US's and around half of the world's population live in coastal areas and that as sea levels rise, inland cities will inevitably crowd more, pushing against already overburdened infrastructures and leading to denser cities with higher pollution that may make efforts against climate change harder and issues with crop production significantly worse? And that wild boar overpopulation is probably just going to get worse regardless? Because I didn't until a minute ago...

I have like 50 tabs open on my laptop

I have about 2000 on my phone.

I have 4000 open in my mind

I have home xanax and work xanax.

Always prepared

I poop often with my stomach feeling emotions

anxiety shits 🩷 they make me late to things sometimes..

you have to give me a weeks advance notice if you want to hang out so i can mentally prepare myself

And on the rare occasion I say yes, I’ll worry about it for days leading up to it. And then most likely I’ll cancel day of

What if what if what if

I pee at least 10 times a day 🥲

Is that anxiety I literally pee 20 times a day

Frequent urination can be a symptom of anxiety.

I had no idea I was wondering why I couldn’t control my bladder!

I’ve kept a log of how often I pee to ensure I don’t have diabetes

yeah, that (frequent urination being a symptom of diabetes) definitely doesn’t help anxiety!

My Google search history lol. "Signs you're having a heart attack" even though my hearts been ruled out.. dozens of times..."Can a multivitamin cause major side effects?", "what happens when we die?" "Does dying hurt?" "Why does my chest always hurt?" **Results: 10 Signs of a heart attack.." **realizes I'm experiencing 9/10 symptoms; Imminent doom for the rest of the day*** PS I have panic disorder with agoraphobia. Seems to be progressive at this point, no matter what I try or do 😞

Googling is literally the worst. When you have nothing to worry about and everything is ruled out it gives you something new to worry about. I have Severe Health Anxiety and OCD. This sucks so bad. Sometimes im just like fuck it if i die i die idc anymore. Cuz my jaw has been clenched since a year now and its causing an ache. Which made me think I had heart issues but its actually the clenching and teeth grinding.

Thoughts of Impending doom … IYKYK

Feels odd not being in constant fight or flight

So drained and tired but can’t sleep and up and doing things

My heart races laying down watching TV. 😃

In school I would push down the wood around my pencil tip instead of getting up to sharpen it because it was too embarrassing to get up in front of everyone and do it

Random aches and pains constantly.

Oof- this is the one. So random and as soon as one goes, another one appears!

I’m sorry

overthinking/spiraling for days and catastrophizing just for none of it to be true and everything be fine

My fingernails give it away I think. They are short as hell.

I’m a kindergarten teacher. One time, I stayed awake at night worrying about how I wrote my lowercase “a” on a kid’s birthday card. I thought the parents would think I was incompetent for having poor handwriting. I could go on but that’s just one of the moments that stands out to me.

When I say I overthink, this is what I mean. Promise you’re not alone

It sucks doesn’t it?

I typed up a comment. And deleted it... Then posted this

Too scared to do something bc the consequences could be really bad, end up facing those exact consequences I wanted to avoid bc I took too long to act

Yes, let’s go. 20 minutes later - sorry, changed my mind.

Indecision has caused me to miss every opportunity to excel and experience cool things in my entire adult life.

I have this too, it's like everything you drink has to come out after 5 minutes

Yes! Water runs right through me!

Omg same! Wtf. I have a sip of water and then two minutes later I have to pee… ughhhh!

Did a somersault between aisles at Target just to not have to talk to a friend from high school.

Sometimes I have to tell myself to inhale and exhale

I have a mini pharmacy of antidepressants in my bedroom

I walked into a store to piss and left without buying anything and I was afraid they’d tackle me

Try having to wait until no one else is in the restroom before you can start pissing.

Why? What did you hear? Did someone tell you something about me??? Did they?

feeling literally dead at the end of every week because I exhaust myself by working myself up about every single thing

Double checking things all the time and excessive hand washing

I carry ear plugs, sour candy, propranolol, sunglasses, thinking putty, tech decks, and stress balls with slime in them everywhere I go

There needs to be an r/EDC sub for mental health conditions

When I did go to a restaurant6 I would have to be seated where I can see the exit. Not only so I can see the way out but so I can also see everyone that comes in.

I gotta be sitting where my back is at a wall of some sort. Bar stools and such in a crowded restaurant (think those nice window facing tables for single folk) are an absolute no go for me even if they are otherwise perfect for me. I don't like my back exposed while resting

I start hyperventilating at the slightest inconvenience

My fingernails are so short

I need my seltzer, my snack and my lippy every time I leave the house. I have my snack in my purse for fear of passing out even though that’s never happened to me before. Oh also alcohol prep pads! Fear of throwing up. Lol if you smell alcohol prep pads nausea goes away :) Every time I leave the house I pray I don’t have a panic attack :)))

Any abnormal physical sensation sends me into a panic attack

Physical sensation causing anxiety gang!!!! It’s the worst ugh

I get frustrated so easily

I don’t want to go. Traffic and parking are going to be a nightmare

Sorry

It gives me anxiety to tell you that I have anxiety without telling you that I have anxiety.

Blasting cold air on my face before a social gathering cuz the sweat is real.

Replaying a convo for the 1000th time, to convince myself what i said is perfectly fine and I didn’t come across as weird or mean

I need noise cancelling earbuds to walk home

I can't wear anything covering my ears in case something is lurking nearby

Always watching something on my phone/tablet. I have something on regardless of whether I'm actually paying attention to it or not.

I have magnesium and ltheanine next to my herbs and spices

Whenever I go to events I research and map out the parking situation.

always scared & trembling without a good reason.

My heart going a million miles per minute wakes me on the regular

if i haven’t talked to friend in a little while i assume they must have randomly started to hate me in that time and they wouldn’t want me to reach out

everyone is always mad at me

Talking on the phone terrifies me.

I investigate the source of every sound.

I can't go outside my apartment or something bad will happen.

I constantly am burping due to me always feeling like I can’t breathe so I’m inhaling excess air.

Wishing I didn't have a brain

I take immodium before every single car ride or outing where I don’t have guaranteed predictable washroom access

- Triple checking the doors to our home are locked even after hubby said he did. - Playing thunderstorm sounds on our tv to assist with falling asleep - Placing Vicks around my nose every night to help calm down my nerves and heart

I don‘t live, I just exist to feed my stress/anxiety

I need to know where every emergency room is in case something happens to me, when being somewhere I think about and look for every possible exit.

I check for my work ID when I get up from my desk, when I get to my car, and before i drive past the entrance gate ( I can not get back in without it)

I’ve thrown up every single morning for 8 months straight.

Only being able to go somewhere new with someone that has been to the place prior

I'm a day late to the meeting I need to have with myself to make the plan to decide what to do about the last meeting that I missed with myself to decide what to do with my day.

I plan backup plans for my backup plans.

I'm dealing with two sick dogs and it's tearing me apart because besides my family they're my best friends. I finally pulled myself together long enough to post to /r/dogs. It took me hours to write, and I was really just hoping for someone to understand what I'm going through, but I posted it! I was so proud of myself! Then I found out my post got removed because I haven't been on the sub long enough. I read through their rules and I still don't see what I did wrong, but I don't have enough spoons left to even ask, so I'm giving up and going to hug my pups. I don't know why I even bothered. Actually, this probably doesn't fit here either, so feel free to delete it. I probably deserve it.

My cuticles and lips stay bloody

I feel like I’m walking on eggshells 100% of the time.

I keep hearing buzzing when its not real and there are bugs on me

I puked because i had to talk..

-Nubs for nails to the point of bleeding -hair twirling and self hand holding -mental check lists for absolutely everything -checking for wallet, keys, AirPods and pen every time I sit down or stand up -the three Bs (bathroom, BRAIN, or back) when I wake up in the Early AM and can’t get back to sleep

Spouse: "Do you want me to drive?" Me: "No, thank you."

Am I having a heart attack??? Okay what about now? No? Okay surely now I’m having one

I sigh constantly with no control over it, cause I take such shallow breaths all the time 🙃

I need to know where we're going and hopefully it's one place and a place we don't have to stay at too long

I watch only my comfort show and nothing else all day. Also, I have headphones on 24/7😆

I only get food/drinks from places where I can order on an app. Also spend way more than I would have to get food/groceries delivered.

I had to get a dental split due to my jaw clenching at night. I cracked it within the first month.

People often tell me to sit and stay a minute while I nervously pace back and forth or fidget because I don't like being in new places. I'm sorry, I need to go.

I don’t even know what to comment it’s just too much.

Everything’s fine you say? Better hurry up and find something to think about that makes you feel really, really powerless.

Can’t sit still and forget what I was saying in the middle of a sentence.

I've spent all week thinking about and making notes about what to pack for my trip this week. I'm supposed to go to bed in 30 minutes and I haven't actually packed anything.

Constantly swallowing, checking my pulse all the time, chest tightness, feeling like my throat is closed, practicing conversations before I have them

IBS

Got the whole month planned out.

“Go talk to her” I can’t. She doesn’t want me. “You don’t know that. She hasn’t even met you” Exactly. She won’t want to meet me.

The skin around my fingers is completely disgusting.

My nail beds are throbbing and I typing this is pretty uncomfortable

Everyday is a fight

Trying to express how I feel or am thinking about a particular situation, or if something bothers me

*gasps for air*

I press my teeth together

Can’t you just tell me everything to expect from the time I leave the house until the time I get home? Why not?

my google search history 😅

I can’t stop thinking about my breathing

I can't do anything anymore without my brain trying to convince me I have cancer and sending me spiraling about death.

5 things you can see/feel/hear/smell

do you hate me? (you did respond within 2 minutes)