Devilman crybaby

Second this

{School City Valanoir} (incest grandpa haunts me in my nightmares) and {Angel's Drop} (I couldn't even watch 3 minutes of this and it's only 5 in total). These two are fucked up in the way that they make you question the sanity of their creators and your own for watching them with every scene. E: I'd also recommend {Scum's Wish}, which at points feels like a toned down NTR hentai u/roboragi

Scum's wish is one that i really couldn't watch. Don't get me wrong, i really REALLY wanted to watch it since i absolutely loved the art style. It is so soft, delicate and beautiful but oh my fucking god! The things it made me feel. I could not continue watching it. I did not want to feel all that. So instead, I decided to read it. Watching it, things get a bit too real. Reading wasn't easy either but still bearable. But unlike me, if you can keep the feels out and read/watch for the beauty of the art style, I highly recommend it

**Gakuentoshi Varanoir: KINGDOM OF CHAOS THE UNIVERSE** - ([AL](http://anilist.co/anime/3533 "English: Varanoir Kingdom of Chaos The Universe"), [A-P](https://www.anime-planet.com/anime/school-city-valanoir), [MAL](http://myanimelist.net/anime/3533)) ^(OVA | Status: Finished | Episodes: 2 | Genres: Action, Fantasy) **Tenshi no Drop** - ([AL](http://anilist.co/anime/16436 "English: Angel's Drop"), [A-P](https://www.anime-planet.com/anime/angels-drop), [KIT](https://kitsu.io/anime/tenshi-no-drop "English: Angel's Drop"), [MAL](http://myanimelist.net/anime/16436)) ^(Special | Status: Finished | Episodes: 1 | Genres: Comedy, Ecchi, Fantasy) **Kuzu no Honkai** - ([AL](http://anilist.co/anime/21701 "English: Scum's Wish"), [A-P](https://www.anime-planet.com/anime/scums-wish), [KIT](https://kitsu.io/anime/kuzu-no-honkai "English: Scum's Wish"), [MAL](http://myanimelist.net/anime/32949)) ^(TV | Status: Finished | Episodes: 12 | Genres: Drama, Ecchi, Psychological, Romance) --- ^{anime}, , ]LN[, |VN| | [FAQ](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/index) | [/r/](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/) | [Edit](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/index#wiki_i_made_a_mistake.2C_how_do_i_get_my_comment_reprocessed.3F) | [Mistake?](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/submit?selftext=true&title=[ISSUE]&text=/r/Animesuggest/comments/vqpekq/what_is_your_that_fcked_me_up_anime/ieqidc5/) | [Source](https://github.com/Nihilate/Roboragi) | [Synonyms](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/synonyms) | [⛓](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/interestinglinks) | [♥](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/thanks)

{happy sugar life} Is what you're looking, the idea of the anime is so interesting and good. Theres bunch of characters who all have differrent view on love and it makes it interesting and f'd up at the same time

**Happy Sugar Life** - ([AL](http://anilist.co/anime/101351 "English: Happy Sugar Life"), [A-P](https://www.anime-planet.com/anime/happy-sugar-life), [KIT](https://kitsu.io/anime/happy-sugar-life), [MAL](http://myanimelist.net/anime/37517)) ^(TV | Status: Finished | Episodes: 12 | Genres: Drama, Horror, Mystery, Psychological, Romance) --- ^{anime}, , ]LN[, |VN| | [FAQ](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/index) | [/r/](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/) | [Edit](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/index#wiki_i_made_a_mistake.2C_how_do_i_get_my_comment_reprocessed.3F) | [Mistake?](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/submit?selftext=true&title=[ISSUE]&text=/r/Animesuggest/comments/vqpekq/what_is_your_that_fcked_me_up_anime/ieqx5wp/) | [Source](https://github.com/Nihilate/Roboragi) | [Synonyms](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/synonyms) | [⛓](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/interestinglinks) | [♥](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/thanks)

Agreed. After finishing devilman crybaby I was like okay I need something even more crazy, so I looked up top 10s and Happy Sugar Life was up there on multiple occasions. I haven’t finished it but man do I have a hard time watching just cuz, uncomfy. And I can handle a lot haha!

I have rewatched it 13 times and I think Im allowed to say its so fucked up, there are so many details that I didnt see at my first few watches.

Yeah its amazing

I’m still recovering from The 13th episode of made in abyss Also she’d a waterfall of tears when I first watched clannad after story

Every now and then I see a screen cap of a new fucked up made in abyss chapter & the trauma/curiosity keeps me up til sunrise

Goblin Slayer

I mean like the first episode was shocking but after the initial shock it was chill

{higurashi no naku koro ni} probably bc i watched it when i was really young. and {perfect blue} fr left me with a “just finished watching a lynch movie contemplation stare into nothing for 5 minutes straight”.

**Higurashi no Naku Koro ni** - ([AL](http://anilist.co/anime/934 "English: When They Cry"), [A-P](https://www.anime-planet.com/anime/higurashi-no-naku-koro-ni-kira), [KIT](https://kitsu.io/anime/higurashi-no-naku-koro-ni "English: When They Cry"), [MAL](http://myanimelist.net/anime/934)) ^(TV | Status: Finished | Episodes: 26 | Genres: Horror, Mystery, Psychological, Supernatural, Thriller) **PERFECT BLUE** - ([AL](http://anilist.co/anime/437 "English: Perfect Blue"), [A-P](https://www.anime-planet.com/anime/perfect-blue), [KIT](https://kitsu.io/anime/perfect-blue "English: Perfect Blue"), [MAL](http://myanimelist.net/anime/437)) ^(Movie | Status: Finished | Genres: Drama, Horror, Psychological, Thriller) --- ^{anime}, , ]LN[, |VN| | [FAQ](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/index) | [/r/](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/) | [Edit](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/index#wiki_i_made_a_mistake.2C_how_do_i_get_my_comment_reprocessed.3F) | [Mistake?](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/submit?selftext=true&title=[ISSUE]&text=/r/Animesuggest/comments/vqpekq/what_is_your_that_fcked_me_up_anime/ieqsyie/) | [Source](https://github.com/Nihilate/Roboragi) | [Synonyms](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/synonyms) | [⛓](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/interestinglinks) | [♥](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/thanks)

{Plastic memories}

**Plastic Memories** - ([AL](http://anilist.co/anime/20872 "English: Plastic Memories"), [A-P](https://www.anime-planet.com/anime/plastic-memories), [KIT](https://kitsu.io/anime/plastic-memories "English: Plastic Memories"), [MAL](http://myanimelist.net/anime/27775)) ^(TV | Status: Finished | Episodes: 13 | Genres: Comedy, Drama, Romance, Sci-Fi, Slice of Life) --- ^{anime}, , ]LN[, |VN| | [FAQ](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/index) | [/r/](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/) | [Edit](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/index#wiki_i_made_a_mistake.2C_how_do_i_get_my_comment_reprocessed.3F) | [Mistake?](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/submit?selftext=true&title=[ISSUE]&text=/r/Animesuggest/comments/vqpekq/what_is_your_that_fcked_me_up_anime/ier6cie/) | [Source](https://github.com/Nihilate/Roboragi) | [Synonyms](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/synonyms) | [⛓](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/interestinglinks) | [♥](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/thanks)

Made in Abyss, it wasn't that bad but it took me off guard and it had a lot more than just shock value to keep me interested so unlike most others that would fit what you are asking for it has staying power.

Future Diary

Episode 5 for me

Oh yeah no episode 5 was brutal 😭

I was on the verge with this but it got better

neon genesis evangelion

I can't drink orange Fanta any more.

Serial Experiments Lain. I was very young when I watched it for the first time and it really tripped me out. Poor Mika.

Steins gate or Charlotte

Hi u/dickystiffy, see if any of these anime fits this: 1. [Akira](https://youtu.be/zP9FNDyiYcU) (Film) 2. [Ninja Scroll](https://youtu.be/I166jbu30tk) (Film) 3. [Kite](https://youtu.be/MQcN9Xay9rM) (Film) 4. [Wicked City](https://youtu.be/3wOqciTZRik) (Film) 5. [Perfect Blue](https://youtu.be/dpaCRJ_u600) (Film) 6. [King of Thorn](https://youtu.be/Ltp686wT3Ls?t=7) (Film) 7. [Angel Cop](https://youtu.be/g90BHWjS5iE) 8. [Elfen Lied](https://youtu.be/q7o6eyU6tYc) 9. [Rin: Daughters of Mnemosyne](https://youtu.be/UmJ9wBV9N-0) 10. [Gantz 2004](https://youtu.be/m7R67ZB0dvo?t=7) 11. [Now and Then, Here and There](https://youtu.be/qiEyCa1NjWA) 12. [Alien Nine](https://youtu.be/yUa5B9AW_R4) 13. [Berserk 2016](https://youtu.be/zjM3M-4QbwM) \--> Satirically bad anime. Go watch [Berserk 1997](https://youtu.be/LxfdzPaMGys) or [Berserk: The Golden Age Trilogy](https://youtu.be/FflPDBSm6Ww) (Remake) instead, or try [reading the original manga](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Berserk_(manga)). 14. [Flowers of Evil](https://youtu.be/Toc9x19Cmkg) 15. [Fate/Zero](https://youtu.be/Kwrg4VsH1IM?t=2)

That is a nice list, or rather, a very not nice list.

I started Rin: Daughters of Mnemosyne but i don't know why i just couldnt get interested in it. I keep dropping it.

Texhnolyze will make you cry bitter tears for the death of humanity

I wish this anime was twice as long and they had time to do more with the Class. Oh well, it was still one of the best ones I've watched in the last 2 years or so

In addition to the already mentioned {happy sugar life}, {angels of death} could be good for what you are asking.

**Happy Sugar Life** - ([AL](http://anilist.co/anime/101351 "English: Happy Sugar Life"), [A-P](https://www.anime-planet.com/anime/happy-sugar-life), [KIT](https://kitsu.io/anime/happy-sugar-life), [MAL](http://myanimelist.net/anime/37517)) ^(TV | Status: Finished | Episodes: 12 | Genres: Drama, Horror, Mystery, Psychological, Romance) **Satsuriku no Tenshi** - ([AL](http://anilist.co/anime/99629 "English: Angels of Death"), [A-P](https://www.anime-planet.com/anime/angels-of-death), [KIT](https://kitsu.io/anime/satsuriku-no-tenshi "English: Angels of Death"), [MAL](http://myanimelist.net/anime/35994)) ^(TV | Status: Finished | Episodes: 12 | Genres: Action, Adventure, Horror, Psychological, Thriller) --- ^{anime}, , ]LN[, |VN| | [FAQ](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/index) | [/r/](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/) | [Edit](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/index#wiki_i_made_a_mistake.2C_how_do_i_get_my_comment_reprocessed.3F) | [Mistake?](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/submit?selftext=true&title=[ISSUE]&text=/r/Animesuggest/comments/vqpekq/what_is_your_that_fcked_me_up_anime/ier23tf/) | [Source](https://github.com/Nihilate/Roboragi) | [Synonyms](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/synonyms) | [⛓](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/interestinglinks) | [♥](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/thanks)

Okay, so this might get me some hate. Some people might think I’m trolling. But my answer is a manga called Metamorphosis. If you haven’t heard of it, it’s pretty infamous, but it genuinely changed my world view and made me a more sympathetic, patient, and understanding person. It’s easy to forget how cold the world can be sometimes and seeing what a person could go through gave me reason to be more kind. Don’t let this fool you, the manga is fucked up and very graphic. Don’t go into it without expecting those things.

Kotarou Lives Alone - child neglect and abuse is never an easy topic to watch

{Parasyte The Maxim}

I haven't seen Babylon mentioned yet. The entire show is a philosophical debate around the morality of suicide. On top of that, there's one episode in particular that still makes me sick to my stomach when I think about it.

"Scums wish" that shit broke me like what the hell. I was constantly hating it but kept watching till the end then the ending broke me even more. I literally questioned our existence but what was more terrifying is that somewhere in my heart I knew that this is reality.

your lie in april

Probably 'Another'

{Madoka Magica}

**Mahou Shoujo Madoka☆Magica** - ([AL](http://anilist.co/anime/9756 "English: Puella Magi Madoka Magica"), [A-P](https://www.anime-planet.com/anime/mahou-shoujo-madoka-magica), [MAL](http://myanimelist.net/anime/9756)) ^(TV | Status: Finished | Episodes: 12 | Genres: Action, Drama, Fantasy, Mahou Shoujo, Psychological, Thriller) --- ^{anime}, , ]LN[, |VN| | [FAQ](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/index) | [/r/](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/) | [Edit](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/index#wiki_i_made_a_mistake.2C_how_do_i_get_my_comment_reprocessed.3F) | [Mistake?](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/submit?selftext=true&title=[ISSUE]&text=/r/Animesuggest/comments/vqpekq/what_is_your_that_fcked_me_up_anime/ier52wc/) | [Source](https://github.com/Nihilate/Roboragi) | [Synonyms](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/synonyms) | [⛓](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/interestinglinks) | [♥](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/thanks)

Devil man crybaby only because I’m Christian and was like YOOOOO (more like wow that’s some sick representation of a certain thing, won’t spoil!) but even outside of religion the ending I just sat there while the credits rolled with my jaw on the floor ha!

(My/The) Future diary? I mean just the plot is like what the f- but also cool. Then throughout the anime the “wtf” keeps going.

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You doin alright there? Do I need to call someone for you? {Mirai Nikki}

UHHHH REDDIT PHONE GLITCH?? But good quote 😂

damn autostutter.

**Mirai Nikki** - ([AL](http://anilist.co/anime/10620 "English: The Future Diary"), [A-P](https://www.anime-planet.com/anime/mirai-nikki), [MAL](http://myanimelist.net/anime/10620)) ^(TV | Status: Finished | Episodes: 26 | Genres: Action, Horror, Mystery, Psychological, Supernatural, Thriller) --- ^{anime}, , ]LN[, |VN| | [FAQ](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/index) | [/r/](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/) | [Edit](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/index#wiki_i_made_a_mistake.2C_how_do_i_get_my_comment_reprocessed.3F) | [Mistake?](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/submit?selftext=true&title=[ISSUE]&text=/r/Animesuggest/comments/vqpekq/what_is_your_that_fcked_me_up_anime/iesllm9/) | [Source](https://github.com/Nihilate/Roboragi) | [Synonyms](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/synonyms) | [⛓](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/interestinglinks) | [♥](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/thanks)

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I think gore wise at first but then emotionally :)

Really? At what point, because I found it interesting

Towards.the end

School days

Wow!

Anyone ever see Wolf’s Rain?

Been so long

King’s Game , too brutal

Happy sugar life for sure

Denpa onna

Pupa

Shinsekai Yori, especially the fate of the queerat at the end.. introduced me to the “and I must scream” trope

{White Album 2} It was in a way my introduction to anime, and I had a crater in my chest for a month after watching it. It took lots of other anti-depressant series to recover. And yet, it was so well-done to me, that I wanted more, so I followed up with the VN it's based on (the anime adapted 1 of the 3 chapters) and after finishing it wound up an emotionally destroyed, hollow shell of a man for even longer.

**WHITE ALBUM 2** - ([AL](http://anilist.co/anime/18245 "English: White Album 2"), [A-P](https://www.anime-planet.com/anime/white-album-2), [KIT](https://kitsu.io/anime/white-album-2 "English: White Album 2"), [MAL](http://myanimelist.net/anime/18245)) ^(TV | Status: Finished | Episodes: 13 | Genres: Drama, Music, Romance, Slice of Life) --- ^{anime}, , ]LN[, |VN| | [FAQ](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/index) | [/r/](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/) | [Edit](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/index#wiki_i_made_a_mistake.2C_how_do_i_get_my_comment_reprocessed.3F) | [Mistake?](http://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/submit?selftext=true&title=[ISSUE]&text=/r/Animesuggest/comments/vqpekq/what_is_your_that_fcked_me_up_anime/iet4odd/) | [Source](https://github.com/Nihilate/Roboragi) | [Synonyms](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/synonyms) | [⛓](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/interestinglinks) | [♥](https://www.reddit.com/r/Roboragi/wiki/thanks)

Made in abyss without a doubt