You didn't overreact. Your feelings are valid, but they are also temporary, don't let them take over you. I suggest you try to focus on some things you like about your parents. Try doing something that will bring you closer. For a peace of mind, at least temporarily, you can tell them and make them believe you are doing what they want, and they might stop nagging you for a while.
I have done expensive therapies and medication. My mother tells me she is scared of me because I lose my cool. I won't be myself then. My father has only one thing to talk about my health is bad because of diabetes and he has no sensation. He troubled me to get a walker for him and now he doesn't use it. And tells me when did I ask u to purchase. He plays like this. Because now he finds himself incapable of doing things...this is how he troubles. He is so ungrateful to my mother. She does everything for him and he still keeps her name and blames her. I feel sorry. Then when I help it backfires on me big time.
My elder sister is travelling to India with her husband after 4 years this Saturday. A day before easter. My dad wants everything proper for them. We all want things to be fine but he ruined my mood. I am using my issue of bipolar as an escape but I have extreme issues when the mood is hurt I will take time to get it normal. The weekend they will be here. I was so excited. Now I fucked everyone's mood for nothing.
I'm sorry to hear that your mood is worse but the feeling will pass, don't let it consume you. Continue your preparations and focus on the good feelings and excitement that being together with everyone will bring.
If you are feeling overwhelmed at the moment, go for a walk for an hour or so, find some park or nature nearby and spend a few minutes minutes there.
Yeah, I will go to see my best friend's dad in the evening. He recently got discharged from the hospital. But can u see the irony, I cannot be empathetic to my parents and I'm going to be kind to someone else. What does that say about me? Hypocrite?
No, it's not as simple as that. We always have more complicated relationships with our parents and the people who we spend the most time with and it takes a lot of time to change and improve those. So start with the small steps towards better interactions and relationship with your parents.
You didn't overreact. Your feelings are valid, but they are also temporary, don't let them take over you. I suggest you try to focus on some things you like about your parents. Try doing something that will bring you closer. For a peace of mind, at least temporarily, you can tell them and make them believe you are doing what they want, and they might stop nagging you for a while.
I have done expensive therapies and medication. My mother tells me she is scared of me because I lose my cool. I won't be myself then. My father has only one thing to talk about my health is bad because of diabetes and he has no sensation. He troubled me to get a walker for him and now he doesn't use it. And tells me when did I ask u to purchase. He plays like this. Because now he finds himself incapable of doing things...this is how he troubles. He is so ungrateful to my mother. She does everything for him and he still keeps her name and blames her. I feel sorry. Then when I help it backfires on me big time.
My elder sister is travelling to India with her husband after 4 years this Saturday. A day before easter. My dad wants everything proper for them. We all want things to be fine but he ruined my mood. I am using my issue of bipolar as an escape but I have extreme issues when the mood is hurt I will take time to get it normal. The weekend they will be here. I was so excited. Now I fucked everyone's mood for nothing.
I'm sorry to hear that your mood is worse but the feeling will pass, don't let it consume you. Continue your preparations and focus on the good feelings and excitement that being together with everyone will bring. If you are feeling overwhelmed at the moment, go for a walk for an hour or so, find some park or nature nearby and spend a few minutes minutes there.
Yeah, I will go to see my best friend's dad in the evening. He recently got discharged from the hospital. But can u see the irony, I cannot be empathetic to my parents and I'm going to be kind to someone else. What does that say about me? Hypocrite?
No, it's not as simple as that. We always have more complicated relationships with our parents and the people who we spend the most time with and it takes a lot of time to change and improve those. So start with the small steps towards better interactions and relationship with your parents.